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sudden desire | chapter one >>> next chapter

satoru gojo x f!reader (18+) SMUT, angst, & fluff

art by linobii_

chap wc; 4.2k

chap warnings; nsfw, 18+, smut, MINORS DNI, making out, implied sex, dry humping, oral (f receiving), fingering, dirty talk, protected sex, praise kink, some degradation in there too..., miscommunication, talk about feelings, angst, some yelling, some stuff i probably forgot!

a/n; hiiii so i had some time off work and was just able to write and im so glad i was able to get this out! i always get shy about my writing right when i post it so please comment and leave some love if you enjoy it!! thank you!<333

You were laid out on your couch in nothing but an old t-shirt and your underwear. Phone in one hand and wine glass in the other. You scrolled through the bridal party group chat as you sipped on your favorite wine. Your best friend and soon to be sister in law, Mira, had just sent the link for your bridesmaid dresses. And yes you heard that right, your best friend was getting married to your brother.

You were extremely excited for them and expected this when they told you that they were seeing each other two years ago. Your brother, Suguru, thought you’d be furious with him but you were extremely happy for the both of them. You’d seen them both go through terrible relationships and this was like a breath of fresh air.

You also couldn’t be mad when you were actively sleeping with your brothers best friend, Satoru, for the past few months now could you?

You don’t even know how it happened really. You were out drinking with them and then Satoru had offered to take you home since you were a little tipsy. Then you were in his car on your way home and you were stealing what you thought were just mere glances but you were actually staring at him with nothing but lust behind your eyes.

And Satoru believed himself to be strong but right in that moment, when his eyes met yours, you rendered him weak. A sudden desire shivered through his entire being.

Satoru turned the car off and pulled the key out of the ignition. “Don’t look at me like that..”

You felt emboldened by the alcohol floating through your system so you moved closer to him—your face mere inches away from his. “Why not? Hmm?” You ran your thumb underneath the sleeve of his shirt, so that you were caressing his skin.

He tempted himself and looked down at you, his piercing blue eyes met you lust laden one’s. Your puffy lips begged to be kissed. Your flushed face. Pleading eyes. ‘Because of Suguru.’ He wanted to say but to hell with him when you were looking at him this desperately.

“And don’t say because of Suguru… Cause he isn’t here.” You brought your hand up to the back of his head and ran your fingers down his undercut. “Oh, c’mon, ‘Toru.”

He surged forward and pressed his lips against yours, placing his hands alongside your cheeks. Your eyes fluttered shut and you brought your hands over his. You couldn’t help the moan that slipped from your lips at his spontaneity.

Satoru immediately pulled away from you and placed his hand to his mouth. “I’m sorry.” He couldn’t cross that line.

You frowned. “Why are you sorry?”

“Because you’re drunk and-” You shut him up by placing your lips against his again. Your hands sat on his face this time. He faltered before placing his hands on your hips and griping the fabric of your skirt as the kiss deepened. This is something Satoru had thought about countless times since you went to college and broke out of your shell.

“I’m not drunk. I’m not sober, but I’m not drunk.” You giggled against his lips and he felt his heart stutter. “You wanna walk me in?”

“Of course.” He stumbled out of the car. As you waited for him to open the door for you, you took a deep breath. Did that really just happen?

Satoru opened the passenger door and held his hand out to you like the gentleman he is. An electrifying shock ran through the both of you when you placed your hand in his.

You walked up to your apartment door with the tall man trailing closely behind you. The closer you got to the door the more nervous you got. You didn’t know where this was going but you liked the way it started.

You slowly unlocked your door and cracked it just slightly before turning around to face your brothers best friend. “Would you like to to come in?”

The last time he was in your apartment was four months ago when you had moved in and even then he wasn’t there with you alone, Suguru was there too—he was always there. “Do you want me to come in?” He brought his hand to the back of his head, playing with his hair nervously. He didn’t want you to feel like you had to do something you didn’t want to.

Your eyes moved from his striking blues down to his plush pink lips. “Yeah.” You smirked and gripped the front of his shirt, dragging him into your apartment.

Satoru did tell Suguru he would get you home safe and well you are home and safe. He pushed you against the door by your shoulders than his hands caged you between him and the door. “Is this what you want?”

“Yes.” You’d been fantasizing about this man since you were sixteen years old. Of course your answer was yes.

“Are you sure?” He said in a hushed tone, moving your hair behind your shoulder. “Cause once I get my hands on you I won’t be able to stop myself.”

His words went straight down to your core. “Yeah…” You placed your hands on his chest. “I’m sure.”

Satoru placed one hand on your lower back and the other on the back of your head and brought you completely up against him. His mouth immediately found your lips in a slow searing kiss. His tongue slipped in and graced yours.

You moaned as you became pliant in his hands. You opened your lips letting his tongue delve deeper into your warm mouth.

The night faded into sexual sounds and sensual touches as he brought you to the finish line more than three times. Once you were both spent and wrapped in your sweaty sheets the realization settled in.

What just happened?

What this would mean for you. For the both of you.

You both laid there in silence. The only sound coming from your fan in the corner of the room.

“Suguru can’t find out.” Satoru spoke into the silence.

“I know.” You considered something else. “What does this mean for….me and you.” You felt shy all of the sudden like this man didn’t just have you in the most intimate way.

“I don’t think I can go back to being just casual with you.” And he truly couldn’t, not after having your taste on his tongue. He considered himself ruined.

“I don’t think I can either.. I don’t want to.”

At that he finally turned and looked at you. Admiring your flushed cheeks and swollen lips. “Well, um, we don’t have to?”

You turned your head to meet his gaze, “What do you mean?”

The white haired man placed his hand on your cheek and dragged his thumb down across your bottom lip. “How would you feel about a friends with benefits situation?"

This wasn’t something you ever thought about. But much wouldn’t change, right? “If only you’re exclusively sleeping with me, Satoru. And always use protection. I also don’t want to deal with a pregnancy right now. I’m on birth control but I just graduated and I have so much of my life ahead of me. And I’m rambling.. I just want to be safe.”

Satoru smiled and placed a kiss to your forehead before following with a salute to you. “Scouts honor!”

You giggled at his silly behavior then your features softened to a more serious look. “I’ve never done something like this before.”

“Me neither, but, hey whats the worst that can happen?”

You could fall deeply in love with Satoru Gojo. That, that is one thing that could happen.

The key turning in your lock brought you back from your reminiscence.

“Oh. Boo,” Satoru frowned, “you started without me.” He said as he looked at the open wine bottle and your nearly empty glass.

“This is me giving you a head start ‘Toru. Half a glass for me is like two full ones for you.” You spoke nonchalantly. A few things on your mind. Your future. Your love life and the fact that its borderline nonexistent. Could you even consider what you and Satoru had apart of your love life?

He kicked his shoes off at the door and took his jacket off, “I am not that much of a light weight.”

He walked over to you and took in the expression on your face. He placed his hand delicately on your chin and tilted your head up. “What’s going on in that pretty little head of yours?”

“Stuff..” You should really tell him whats bothering you but you couldn’t find the words. Not when he’s standing in front of you. Looking at you in that way. Oh so caring. He’s everything you’ve ever wanted. But you don’t know how to get out of this routine you’d built together.

The casualness of it all. He practically lived with you but you’re just friends right? Friends who fuck when the need arises. He’s your brothers best friend for gods sake. And then again your best friend is marrying your brother. You couldn’t help but let that give you a glimmer of hope.

“Well let me help take your mind off stuff, yeah?” He leaned down and placed a kiss on your soft lips.

You nodded and Satoru plopped down on the couch right beside you. He grabbed your arm and tugged. “C’mere”

You gladly crawled into his lap and ran your nails up his undercut. Receiving a soft hum from him. His hands met your hips and he slowly started to grind your hips against his, making your barely covered crotch rub roughly on his clothed half-hard cock.

You bit down on your lip desperately trying to conceal your moans. You were moaning like this over some dry humping how pathetic. You brought your head down to his shoulder and mewled as you joined him by grinding down harder on his length.

Satoru let out a deep chuckle. “So what had you in deep thought, baby?” Baby, that damn pet name. He went from calling you kid every time he saw you to whispering that in your ear during times he shouldn’t. Times when the two of you were right next to your brother. Even times when you weren’t fucking which just made the pet name that more intimate.

And each time he said it made your underwear dampen and your heart flutter all at once.

“M-my future,” you sputtered out in between little whimpers you let out every time his cock nudged your touch starved clit.

“What you got to worry about? Hmm?” He said breathlessly.

“I’m-mmm,” you had begun but you cut yourself off when a moan threatened to leave you agape mouth. “Mm runnin’ out of time.”

“Time for what my smart girl?” Your walls clamped down on absolutely nothing when the endearing term left his lips. “You have an amazing job. A stunning apartment. You got me. Seems like you got everything you need, baby.” He thrusted his hips up roughly towards the end of his statement.

How could you possibly not take his words as absolute? When this felt so right. His words numbing your brain and his cock sending shivers up your spine. “N-need. Mmmm. Need you i-in me, ‘Toru.”

“That right?” He rasped against your ear. “C’mon needy, lay your head back on the arm rest for me.” And you listened as he guided you out of his lap and onto the couch.

Satoru was quick to place himself in between your legs. He sat on his knees in front of you. He lifted one of your legs and kissed the crevice underneath your knee all the way down to your clothed core. You took a sharp inhale as you waited for his next move then he smirked at you as he moved and repeated his ministrations on your other leg.

This time when he came into contact with your heat you lifted your hips and rubbed your covered clit against his nose.

Satoru chuckled at your eagerness. “Wine always makes you so slutty…” You couldn’t help but giggle at his words. He dragged his finger down the lace covering your slit. “Yeah? My little slut.” You felt yourself dampen at his words. He latched his index and middle fingers underneath the side of your underwear and tugged.

He threw the flimsy piece of fabric behind him and placed a sweet kiss to your clit.

A gasp escaped from your lips when he dragged his tongue from your sopping wet entrance to your clit. He greedily wrapped his lips around the sensitive bud and started to lightly suck. He groaned at the taste of you on his tongue.

You laced your fingers through his pillow soft hair as he continued to assault your cunt with his devious tongue. Over the time you two had been sleeping together he came to know your body very well.

He spat on your cunt and watched it trickle down to you needy hole before he inserted two of his lengthy digits into your wet heat—instantly hitting that spot deep inside of you. You had to throw your hand over your mouth to stop a scream from ringing in the room.

He pumped his fingers in tandem with his tongue lapping at your clit. Satoru brought his unoccupied hand up to swat yours away from your mouth.

He brought you to the edge so fast you barely had time to keep up. As you finally tipped over the peak—your pleasure ripped through your body. Your thighs begun to shake and a sultry moan slipped off your tongue.

Satoru slowly removed his fingers from you once your first orgasm of the night had subsided. He climbed up your body and kissed you with all teeth and tongue.

He made your body feel like it was on fire. Every where his lips touched, his hands touched. The fire he lit within you was all consuming. And you would gladly let it consume you. You would let him consume you.

He pushed himself up and you trailed your lips down his jaw and neck as he reached over to grab a condom out of the side table. You quickly made work of freeing him from the confines of his pants. He chuckled at how needy you were for him.

“Fuck.” A sharp gasp fell from his pink lips when your soft hand wrapped around his length. You started to drag the head of his uncovered cock through your folds and his hips jutted. “Y-you can’t do that.”

“Why not,” you pouted. You’ve contemplated forgoing a condom multiple times but better judgment always won.

He shuffled around so that he was level with your face and he moved your hand so he could roll the condom down his length. “Because it already takes everything in me not to fuck you bare. Per your request.” He responded as he lifted your right leg straight up so that your ankle was next to his neck.

If you were mine it wouldn’t matter. You so desperately wanted to say. You lost your train of thought when he began to sink into you. You couldn’t help the gasp that fell from your mouth at the stretch of him entering you. Even with him preparing you, he was still quite large.

His grip on your thigh tightened when he bottomed out. He sat still for a second, letting you adjust. His eyes stayed on yours as he finally started to move—taking you apart piece by piece.

“S-shit,” you moaned. The position he had you in was almost too much. It felt too good. He was hitting that sweet spot inside of you with each thrust. Your hands flew to his shirt and balled the fabric in between your hands as some sort of leverage.

“You feel so good, baby. Always feel so good f’me.” His free hand that wasn’t gripping your thigh fell in between your legs and started to rub tantalizing circles around your sensitive clit. Satoru’s eyes soon followed his hand as he watched his cock fuck its way in and out of your tight cunt. That delicious push and pull. The sight pushed him embarrassingly close to his edge.

He picked up the pace of his thrusts and his thumb against your clit and the most obscene noises started to flow off your tongue. “Sat-ah! Oh, fuck.” Your eyes slammed shut as it all became too much. The feeling of him inside your slick walls, the smell of him, of the both of you, his eyes—his everything. “Mmm, you feel so good. So big.”

“Yeah? You close?” He huffed out after a deep groan erupted from him. He was close and he could tell you were too. “Open your eyes. Let me see you, pretty.”

You pryed your eyes open and he leaned down closer into your space. He hovered right over your face, his lips ghosting over yours. “There she is. That’s my girl.”

You mewled at his words. “I lo-,” You could barely speak with the sounds that were leaving your mouth. “I love-, Fuck!”

“You love my dick? Hm, baby?”

And yes, you were about to say those three little words. And you always are. You always had to stop yourself from saying I love you. But how could you not when he was looking at you like that, talking to you in that sweet and caring way. When he’s fucking you that deeply, borderline making love to you.

He started to piston his hips into you, “I’m so fucking close.” The squelching from your pussy was getting worse and that let him know you were right there with him. The head of his cock was repeatedly hitting your gspot and your walls started to flutter around him.

“Satoru!” You practically screamed as you came, hard. He followed your release shortly as he let out a groan into your mouth.

He held you still and close as he filled the condom with his come, forever wishing he was filling you up instead.

But you were right then and it is something he always remembers. You deserve to have a family with someone worthy and he was not. Satoru doesn’t think he’d ever be worthy or deserving of love from you. That you would even think to love someone as broken as him.

He slowly pulled out of you with a hiss. The white haired man placed a tender kiss to your forehead before he pulled away.

He went to the bathroom to toss the condom and get a cloth to clean you both up and when he came back you were fast asleep. Satoru couldn’t help but admire your soft features. He felt a slight pang in his heart as he realized that this wouldn’t be his forever.

The next morning you woke in a daze. You went from being on the couch to your bed. Assuming Satoru carried you there, no doubt.

You dragged yourself out of the bed and headed to your bathroom to get ready for the day. And that is when your brain started to bother you again.

The two of you had been doing this for two years now. He was everywhere in your apartment, his toothbrush, his stupid mint mouthwash that you couldn’t help but taste every time you kissed him. You could smell his body wash in the air.

That is exactly why you always caught yourself almost confessing your love to him. The normalcy of it all. The way you two moved when no one was around was exactly that of a couple. But you would be a fool to think he felt the same way. At the end of the day, you were still his best friends little sister and just an easy lay.

You sat down at your island with a cup of coffee and your laptop in front of you, the shopping cart with your bridesmaid dress loaded up. You would marry Satoru, that much you were sure of. You would start a family with him. You wanted it all with him.

As you finished out the transaction, you got a text from Satoru.

satoru ;p: You down to watch a movie tonight? And this time we can actually watch the movie.

You found yourself smiling at his text but you needed to have a talk with him. This was putting a mental toll on you. A ‘will they wont they’ in your own life and it was getting a little frustrating.

Best case scenario is he’s willing to take that leap with you and you tell Suguru and everyone’s happy for you.

Worst case scenario is he doesn’t want to take that leap with you and you two break things off.

or Worst worst case scenario is he does want to take that leap and Suguru’s not happy about it.

That’s not that bad? Right? You could live with that. And you could at least give it a try. Or else you’d be stuck in this limbo.

you: yeah and i need to talk to you about something

On the other side of town Satoru was spinning around in his desk chair, his nerves were through the roof.

Did you find someone?

Were you about to end this agreement?

He knew this would happen one day. He just didn’t expect it to happen right now.

You were sitting on your couch waiting for Satoru to come over. Eight o’clock tonight he said. And it was eight fifteen, but who were you to assume he’d be on time.

When he finally walked in you greeted him at the door, “Hey.” He placed a kiss on your forehead as he took off his shoes.

“Movie first or talk first?” A nervous chuckle followed his statement.

You started to fidget with the bracelet on your wrist. Your favorite piece of jewelry, actually. The one Satoru had gotten you for you last birthday. You were nervous too.

You didn’t want this to end but the line between just sleeping together and actually being together started to blur and that was a dangerous thing. “Can we talk first?”

He nodded, “Go ahead.”

You didn’t know what to say. You tried to plan before he got here but just thinking about it made you anxious. “Is this still just sex to you?”

“What do you mean?”

“I mean this,” you move your hand back and forth between the two of you. “Us.”

“I mean what we have is always gonna be different than a regular hook up. We’re friends.” Satoru answered.

“Satoru you have clothes here. Your toothbrush too. I even by that specific mouthwash you like just so you have it here. We cook together. And we kiss and makeout and fuck. Does that not feel like more to you.”

Of course it does. That first moment he kissed you it did. “Does it have to?”

You felt your heart crack at his words. He doesn’t view this the same as you. You were realizing that much. “It does to me. And I want more than that. I want you.”

“We can’t.” He ran his hands up and down his face in frustration.

“Or you mean you don’t want to.”

He said your name softly. “That’s not what I’m saying. We can’t. We can’t go farther than this.”

“Why. Give me one good fucking reason why we can’t if you want this too.”

“Suguru.”

You scoffed at his response. “Of course. I should’ve known, right. I should’ve known it would always come back to that. To him.”

“I can’t betray him like that.” He couldn’t lose the one person whose been family to him through it all. But that just might mean he’ll lose the best thing that ever could’ve happened to him—you.

“If that’s how you see it then news flash Satoru, you already have.” You shoved your index fingers against his chest. “That first night we slept together. That night when you came into my bed and fucked me you betrayed him.” You words were filled with fierce venom. You didn’t think before you spoke and you were hurting him. Of course that isn’t what you wanted but you were so tired of that being what was getting in the way of you two.

“So that’s it then?” Now he’s the one motioning between the two of you. “Our agreement. This relationship is done?”

“Satoru, I’m twenty-three. My best friend who is my age is getting married. I’m already behind. I can’t keep wasting my time being a secret when I could be falling in love and starting a family. If this isn’t what you want. If I’m not what you want, then yeah. It’s done.”

“Okay.” Satoru nodded his head and slipped his shoes back on. He headed back to his car and sat there as a few hot tears slid down his cheek. He just lost the best thing he never had and he knew that but he didn’t know what else he was supposed to have done.

You stood there for a few moments in the silence before you decided to call it a night and head to bed. Your tears flooded your pillow that night as you thought of what could’ve been. A life with Satoru. But you needed to do what was best for you.

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