#genuinely thank for for checking up on me every few dayz

[spookythesillyfella]

This is quite literally my third time showing up and you're free to IGNORE because I don't wanna keep bothering you (I'M SO SORRY) I just wanted to be more positive this time and say I really love when you ramble and go into this really emotional and powerful depth when you discuss things so passionately. I know that's kind of weird to say and this will also be weird to admit but I could NEVER understand why people would call it "cringe"? It's actually really healing to me as someone who'd love to ramble a lot but can't get by the idea that people wouldn't like it I guess ^_^; WHAT I'M TRYING TO REALLY SAY. It's that time you put into what you create even if it's not related to the High Voltage AU, Because while yes you even inspired me to keep going with my dhmis story I certainly enjoy your posts all together! I like learning about other fictional medias you enjoy.. I also think about favorite characters you have and mental note them in my mind haha Probably just speaking really foolishly again and it's really not anything I've not told you before though I just have positive things to say about you often! I hope you don't stop venting either because you need to get it out. This is your account! You're free to post what you want and don't pressure yourself to perform to anyone's expectations because what you're doing now IS ENOUGH. I love you !! /p

(Natsuki is my favorite DDLC character :) I LOVE this game and comfort it a lot so it makes me happy seeing someone else enjoy it too! )

no . no . pleaze never apologize for passing by – it meanz so much to me that u remember my existence

ive generally alwayz been scared of talking too much about the thingz i like . becauze my interestz are like unique to me only – none of my irlz share thiz love for dhmis and / or vocaloid . so itz generally something that i don't talk about with them in order not to annoy them

you have no clue how much it actually meanz to have someone u care about tell u that they appreciate your love for such thingz . and that they actually like LURNING about it – more than anything else in thiz world

not to get all sad here . but ive alwayz struggled with the au – ive had [and admittedly still do] so many breakdownz over the fact i feel like my characterz are flat . or that my story iz too unoriginal or deviatez too much from the canon . generally anything i could be mad about . but the support ive gotten from u and the few other people on thiz platform who care alwayz help me feel like thiz work izn't pointless

not to mention . my time on thiz app and interacting with u made me develop my littlez in a way i probably weren't if not for thiz connection between uz [and im not just refering to shrig in thiz situation]

i can never fully express my gratitude to people – i feel like no word in any language could encapsulate just how much i care for each and every one of my friendsiblingz . so like . why even bother . right ? ahaha

thank u – thank u a thouzand timez over and over ; thank u forever more . for everything u've done for me . for everyone else . u utterly beautiful being 💌💌💌

[spookythesillyfella]

Hii <3 It's been a bit of a year for me so far, More than ever has it been really unnecessarily hard to live but I think in the last few days I've oddly felt comforted checking your blog? Granted I do get here late (Since I suffer anxiety checking my feed most of the time during the day) I get a sense of ease seeing your posts. I know that sounds like a lot of phony junk of words Considering the circumstances but I do hope you know that I really look forward to you.. It's been really hard to. Be there. Though you cross my mind a lot even when I don't expect it? Example. Earlier today when I was actually having a breakdown and having those (run away from home) thoughts, I saw our clock in one of the rooms and thought of you. WHICH SOUNDS REALLY STUPID AND NOT SO IMPORTANT IN THE MOMENT BUT I COULD HEAR DHMIS 2 IN MY EARS.. Making me sort of slow down a bit.. I never realized it until now that friends can be there for you. Even when they're NOT ACTUALLY THERE. Even in my several low moments lately there is these little glimpses of you and others showing up in my life. I don't know how it works.. How it seems so pointless/useless to associate internet friends with such importance but really can change so much of my empty colorless world.

What I'm trying to say is. Thank you Spooky- For everything you've done to change my world just enough. Through your artwork, Through your storytelling, Through your posts about Dobuno Awa, The pins you've shown me, The cosplay of Tony progress.. I know all of this seems not important to you and I'm not going to tell you how to feel but you have no idea how much you've inspired me to some degree. Even if I don't think I'll have a far future- To some extent you've still put some kind of life into my empty desolate world. I do hope someday I can draw you so many things, And I can just ask you questions all the time about everything.. Genuinely I just care about you a lot. Even if you might not believe that. Ilysm (Don't feel forced to reply. This is a huge inbox.. Didn't plan on sending it but I've been REALLY EMOTIONAL today and need to get feelings out that are positive for a change)

man ... thatz genuinely so nice of u . doll

i dont know how i can even rezpond to thiz ; itz not even that im struggling with my wordz a lot – ive been rendered speechless by the sheer emotion of it all

i find it VERY hard to believe that people not only remember me . but that they look at me in a pozitive light – im alwayz convinced that they dizlike my company or what i do

but i think ure one of the few people that i can GENUINELY believe when they say "spooky ur exiztence iz meaningful" ; i cant ever bring myzelf to disagree with u – you actually saying i "inspire u" and that "i brought life to an empty . dezolate world" makez me tear up . it truly doez

ive been struggling a lot theze past few dayz . and ive been a lot more inclined to push away people – both irl and online – but i can't help but find myzelf mizzing u every time i do ; uve motivated me a lot and i genuinely cannot strezz how much of what i still work for iz becauze of u – ur art . ur writing . ur characterz . ur exiztence already .. it fuelz me ... remembering that ure here to see it ...

in any caze ; sorry for not making a sufficiently meaningful anzwer – thought my wordz may not reflect the extent to which my love for u runz . u have a very special spot in my brain and in my heart <3