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prettyboykatsuki · 2 years ago

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“He was insane for this” and it’s just you writing about Isagi being a teensy bit of a bully to the reader and embarrassing them.

But holy shit, I understand why you just posted a wall of the word Isagi, I get it now. That man is in my brain and that’s literally all my brain can conjure up in this moment after reading that.

Also, HE WAS SOOOOO!!! Isagi Yoichi you do something to the human mind that is inexplicable. I want to eat him. Him just every now and again having the fleeting thought that’s he’s being a little mean or a bit of a bully, but not caring about it too much? Insane. Him being a tease and embarrassing the reader. I want to shake him and toss him around like a chew toy. And him wanting you like this more is just HNGHH. But through all of his teasing the fact he wants to be nice the whole way through and that he’s a good, kind boyfriend, even if what he’s saying is contradicting that. I want to smack him with an inflatable mallet.

oh, I don’t think I’ve said it yet. Sex scene good. Porn hot. Want Isagi to finger me and fuck me like that, I think I’d go crazy fr. Need him inside of me NOW

oh, and shout out to the beings that are for gracing your mind with this idea and having it possess you late at night and then you wrote it. Cause god damn was it a good idea and literally thank you. On my hands and knees groveling, you need mind blowing head or a bomb ass sandwich or something as a reward or a gift for what you’ve graced us with tonight.

But for real, thank you for the food, incredible writing as usual. You’re so good at setting a scene and mood it’s mind boggling. Like, can imagine the mood and the air so well, hope that makes sense.

I genuinely have no intelligent thoughts because I’m reading this and writing this ask late at night, so have this mush but know that your fic drove me insane and I’ll be thinking about Isagi as I go to sleep tonight; he’ll be haunting my dreams like a fucking incubus.

FDJKSDKFDKJ THIS IS KILLING ME PLEASEEEE

he does something TERRIBLE to the human mind. i just. i find the way that he does condscension and also mean-ness to be so specific. mean but not cruel!! i do think he passively knows it's gonna make u mad when he acts like that but it simply doesn't stop him at all because why would it? he believes himself to be kind and he IS BUT...not like this you know

THE BEINGS THAT POSSES MY MIND...THE HORNINESS. i dont get like good ideas Often but when one gets me i have to do everything in my power to capitalize on it. if i can feed the few isagi fuckers lurking in this world. a sandwhich would be great thank u...im very honored by that.

ISFSKJD IM GLAD!!! i think smut can get repetitive to write without the extra setting and ambience like when im writing. reading im not that picky at all. THANK YOU FOR READINGGGGG im VERY HAPPY!!!

this was more than i deserved dont worry at all it is so deeply appreciated. sorry about the isagi brainrot (im lying..welcome 2 hell)

#return to sender #hall of fame

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vixenpen · 5 years ago

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Fuck A Fan (Bakugo x Camgirl reader pt. 1)

You had gotten the idea from one of your best friends in the cam industry.

“You sure this will work?”

“Trust me boo,” he had replied, “sometimes the best motivation for a man is a little friendly competition.”

Your bestie had insisted that a fuck a fan contest would be the perfect way to get CallMeKing to finally make good on his unfulfilled promise to see you.

Putting the finishing touches on your flyer, you finally posted the announcement to all social media. You knew CMK was still lurking. So he’d definitely see it. Hopefully, this little contest would be enough to spark his interest, if this failed, you were going to scream.

Because for the first time in your cam career, a man had you chasing him.

The audacity!

To be fair, he did say that he wanted to see you too, but had to keep a low profile due to his career. He promised as soon as worked dialed down you guys would meet up.

Well that had been over a year ago, and not only had you guys not met face to face; he also didn’t seem to check in on you as much anymore.

He still tipped and re-subbed to your page. He had even cash-apped you money for Christmas and your birthday.

But aside from that, there were no more late night, sexting sessions, no more random check ins, no more nude trading.

At first, you brushed it off.

He was apparently a very successful man. Successful men were busy. They couldn’t give you every second of their time. As a successful woman, you could relate to that.

Not to mention, you were a bad bitch and bad bitches did not pine over any man.

PERIODTTT.

Buuuut...when the man in question was fine as hell with boulders for biceps, a big dick, and long money, well...you’d like to think the City Girls, Meg the Stallion, and all the other bad bitches you looked up to would understand your thirst.

“Alright, King,” you sat back in the furry, white computer chair and glared at your laptop screen. “Ball is in your court now.”

“Mr. Ground Zero, can I get a picture too?”

A precocious looking blue haired kid asked. He stared up at Katsuki with wide, hopeful eyes.

Katsuki grimaced.

“Whatever kid, c’mon.”

He leaned down, attempting to keep a safe distance from the walking germ pool, while keeping in the lens of his camera phone.

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“Thanks a lot, Mr. Ground Zero!”

The kid giddily ran back to his group of friends.

Kirishima slung his arm around Bakugo’s shoulder, weighing down on his slightly shorter friend.

“Wow, Bakubro, looks like those public relations training classes have really been working, huh?”

“Whatever, I just don’t need anymore shitty press with kids.”

“You still have energy for happy hour with Sero and Me tonight?”

Bakugo replied with a noncommittal shrug. He scrolled absentmindedly through his phone as he and Kirishima headed towards their agencies to call it a day.

He decided to check in on (cam name’s) IG page to see how she was doing.

A pang of longing tugged at him. He missed her. A lot. Sure, she was a cam girl, and being friendly and flirty was her job, but she always brightened his days. With crime picking up steadily over the past year, Bakugo could use her presence in his life now more than ever, unfortunately, nothing in his schedule would permit it.

He was researching a new threat that had been developing in the crime world. Apparently the new mob of villains seemed to have some connections to the crime world in America, and Bakugo found himself flying back and forth to the west for meetings and to make media rounds to help put the public at ease.

His sleep schedule was completely out of whack with all the stress he was under, so any spare moment he wasn’t working, he was sleeping. Which meant no time for his virtual boo thing. Though he did try to make it known he was thinking about her with bill money.

As he flipped through her newest posts, something caught his eyes.

Fuck a fan contest? Winner gets to make content with me at secure location!

What the fuck was this shit?

Whatever it was, he was certainly going to get to the bottom of it when he got home.

CMK: Hey, (cam name) what’s this all about?

Y/N: what does it look like? Fuck a fan contest

CMK: fuck u mean? You don’t do meet ups!

Y/N: 🤷🏾‍♀️ first time for everything.

Anger hummed beneath Bakugo’s skin. Since when did y/n start doing meet ups? She had always told him she didn’t trust her fans as far as she could throw them.

He had encouraged her to not be forthcoming with personal information and never feel like she had to meet up with randos online for money. He would take care of anything she needed before it came to that.

So what was the meaning of this? Had he not been taking good enough care of her? Keeping her bills paid? Her nails and hair done?

Y/N: u entering or what? 👀

CMK: hell no im not entering and neither is anyone else. Now take that shit down.

Y/n: (voice note) first the fuck of all, you don’t tell me what to do. Second the fuck of all, do you know how much money is in this? You ain’t stopping my bag boo. Period! 💅🏾

He was practically seething. Who the fuck did she think she was talking to like that?

Who the fuck did she think she was saying no to?!

His dick stirred in his pants as he re-listened to the voice note of her cursing him out.

CMK: how much does it take to win?

Y/N: just whoever has the most.

CMK tipped $150,000

CMK: now take it the fuck down

Y/N: nobody else has entered yet.

CMK: nobody else up here has the money I have.

Y/N: if you’re not meeting with me, I ain’t takin it down.

CMK: god fucking dammit y/n. Tonight. 9pm. Text me the addy. I’ll have my driver pick you up.

True to his word, CMK had his driver pick you up an hour and a half before the time he had mentioned.

Your knee bounced, causing the black mini dress hugging your shapely thighs to ride up. You pulled it down absentmindedly.

You could count on one hand how many times you had been flown out by one of your fans. It certainly wasn’t a weekly occurrence for you the way it was for other models.

Fear and excitement fluttered in your stomach.

You wondered what the driver thought of you. Heading to this rich and powerful man’s house in the middle of the night.

You had tried to dress up as if you were going to be taken on a fancy date. Your hair styled, silver chandelier earrings dripping from your lobes to match the long silver necklace that dipped between your pushed up cleavage.

If the driver gave two shits, you at least hoped he thought you were going to get a nice meal before getting dicked down.

The community where CMK lived was on the outskirts of town; hidden in a forest of natural and manicured foliage. One could go literal miles between each home before they saw the next one.

You pressed your forehead against the window to take in the flora and fauna, manicured lawns, and huge mansions. So. Many. Styles. Of mansions!

“Here we are ma’am.” the driver announced.

He drove you up a looping, stone drive way that led to a very modern home that reminded you a bit of abstract art what with its odd angles, jutting sides, and square architecture.

The driver stepped out and opened your door. Once you were faced with the massive stairs and wooden doors before you, the song: Pretty Woman blared in your mind. You certainly felt that way.

Before you could knock, the door swung open revealing a pair of red eyes that were devouring your body head to toe.

“Oh my god...”

“Wasn’t expecting to hear that before I even touched you, beautiful.” He chuckled. His lips quirked into the cocky half smirk you’d grown familiar with from his interviews.

Was this real? Call me king was Ground Zero?!

“C-call me king?” You managed to stutter out pitifully.

“I would prefer to call you by your real name.” He joked. “Come in, beautiful.” He grabbed your hand gently and pulled you through the door.

You couldn’t even appreciate the high ceilings, polished wood floors, and tasteful stone wash colored furniture as you followed Ground Zero through the door.

He took leggy strides into the airy kitchen taking out a couple of glasses from a cupboard. You could only gawk.

He looked good as hell in his short sleeved denim button up shirt and ripped black jeans. His physique flexed under the well tailored clothes showing off the broad chest and bulging biceps you’d seen in the Nudes. His spiky Blonde hair looked soft and a bit damp.

“You wanna drink, beautiful?”

“I don’t accept drinks from new people in new environments.”

He looked up to shoot you a half smile. The usual mischief was missing from his red eyes, replaced with genuine affection.

“Of course you don’t. My (cam name.)”

“F/N,” you replied.

“Bout damn time you gave me a real name. Mine is Bakugo, babe.”

He strolled over with a glass of water for himself.

“So, f/n,” his ruby colored eyes darkened with a predatory gleam as he stepped right to your face. “Why don’t you have a seat? I promise the couch won’t bite.”

He brought a hand down to smack your round ass, making you jump.

“Can’t say the same for myself though.”

Licking your lips, you lowered yourself into the couch. Bakugo settled beside you so close the sides of your bodies touched. He draped an arm around your shoulder.

“I know you got a camsona and all, but damn, y/n, where’s my feisty little c/n? Huh? Lil Ms. Period!” His voice took on a lighter tone as he tried to imitate your twang.

The attempt earned him a giggle.

“Well excuse me, sir, but I wasn’t expecting the number two pro-hero in Japan to be my biggest fan.” You snapped back, playfully rolling your eyes. “Forgive me if I’m still wrapping my brain around it.”

“There’s that smart ass mouth I love so much.” He tucked your chin.

This close to him, you could feel his warm minty breath fanning against your lips. A familiar warmth was already growing between your legs.

Pulling away you asked: “Why me?”

“Hah?” His brows knit in confusion. “Fuck kinda question is that? What do you mean why you?”

“I mean, I’m a bad bitch or whatever, but I’m just...me and you’re...you.”

“Tch. You just answered your own damn question, dumb ass.” He tilted your face back towards him. You felt his other large hand roam the bare skin of your thigh and shivered.

“You’re a bad bitch. You don’t seem to forget that any other time, don’t fuckin’ forget it now, got that? Your confidence is what’s sexy about you.”

A smile tugged at your lips as heat flooded your cheeks.

“You know, when you’re not being a fuckin’ asshole, you can be pretty damn charming when you wanna be.”

“And when you’re not being a defiant little brat, you can be real fucking cute.”

A moan slipped from your glossy lips as his hand crept steadily up your thigh

“Please,” you leaned closer to him, “you love my brattiness.”

He scoffed, amused.

“I’ll show you just how much I like it.”

Without warning, Bakugo scooped you up. His large, rough hands dug into the soft flesh of your round ass as he straddled you on his lap.

Your wet, bare pussy pressed into his bulge as he stole a greedy kiss. Your gasp quickly morphed into a moan as desire burned in your core and flooded your entire body.

His tongue overtook your mouth effortlessly.

“No panties, huh, brat? I can feel you leaking through my jeans.”

“I hate panties,” you managed between kisses. “And bras.”

That little confession just inspired more arousal in Bakugo. He deposited you on the long couch and let his hot tongue snake along every sensitive bit of exposed flesh he could find. Goosebumps rose on your skin.

“Damn, beautiful,” he managed between kisses, “can’t wait to taste the rest of you.”

His bulge rubbed your aching clit deliciously.

You tugged his shirt up over his mess of blonde hair.

He grabbed the deep ‘V’ of your dress and ripped it open, drawing a gasp from you.

“Now we match.” He grinned

“You ass—“

“You’ll have a new outfit by tomorrow afternoon, now shut up.”

True to his word, Bakugo tasted every inch of you. He nibbled your ears making you shiver, licked your nipples making you hiss his name, and devoured your toes like blow pops.

Your body was trembling from sensory overload.

“God..” you moaned.

“You look like you want something, babe,” Bakugo smiled wickedly as he hovered above you. “What is it?”

“Eat me.”

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gg-astrology · 6 years ago

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i love your blog! can you do a cap sun aqua moon for the sun moon placements?

Thank u so much!! 💕💕💕 I’m glad I got this request cause its the last of the Cap combos skdjnfkjsnk im so proud and excited! 💕

[Below Cut: Capricorn Sun - Aquarius Moon 🥊]

Capricorn/Aquarius combo can be rather playful, might have lots of friends and enjoys mental stimulation from others (parrying)

It’s not all serious honestly-- on the outside, you have these combos who rather enjoys humour and being comfortable with laying it down thickly on others too (it’s good when you ‘sense’ them out and they can ‘take’ something a lil more unconventional-- your particular ‘niche’ brand of humour. You like surprising people, but you like chemistry/the way they parry back even more. A rhythm to your game is what you’re after, someone who can meet you toe to toe)

You like people who are odd, a little different from you and can talk about their independency/experience when you get together. You like learning, about others because it expands your mind (Aquarius) and that’s good for you because you genuinely enjoy the company of those around you and appreciate them ( ‘good for you buddy, im happy/proud of you!’)

While on the outside you may also be a practical, very very deeply considerate and thoughtful/caring person (the kind of person who-- if was in a horror movie-- would get their head together and be the one that Makes the Most Sense). On the inside you revel in your Chaos (Chaotic Nature)

There’s a reason Capricorn is associated to the devil, and no it’s because they are the devil--- it’s because you have this rebellious nature about you that’s lurking on the inside. Seeking to know, to find out, to question the norm/tradition. Everything can be changed ‘for the better’-- and with you, you have an understanding/appreciation of traditional modes already (Capricorn) thus why you’re breaking the system from the inside out. Or rather, you use your ingeniously to help smoothen the glide for others to see things from your perspective, that not eveything they’ve learnt/taken/been told is true and that there’s leaks in every ‘formula’ that people follow blindly.

Even when above the surface, you are cool and collected as a cucumber (cutecumber-- you like to ‘keep appearance’ so you can be devilish/do your plotting inside) Underneath all that is a competitive spirit, especially when it comes to debates.

If the venue allows you to exert yourself (physically/mentally) within a context that is structured/stabilized (established) and you can have a certain amount of freedom/expression of passion ---wow you really go in for it

Capricorn/Aquarius are intelligent, charismatic and isn’t afraid to be bold. Most of the time they aren’t even aware they’re being bold, they’re just following their own paths-- just like how everyone should follow their own, y know?

It’s stress relieving for you, to exert yourself into something. Throw yourself in and just ‘get it right’ -- when you’re demonstrative, you have power. And with that power comes confidence (other people see it as you being level-headed/critical)

You might not realize it, but when you do something you get tunnel visioned into it a lot. And other people can see that and be attracted to your passionate nature ( a very classic, uniformed/looks good in official kind of nature)

You’re often unaware of your own attractiveness or why people think you’re good, mostly you’re just doing it for you. And that’s all that you’re doing, sometimes you’re--- cynical, of people coming towards you wanting a light-hearted something. You need an explanation, a 10 pages essay outlining exactly what it is about you that people like. Although you know full well you attract people to you (might like the attention it brings, the importance/significance it gives to your ego-- which is healthy and valid, and not narcissistic or bad don’t worry, it’s important to feel appreciated and desired for everyone. )

Whilst we talk about all that, it jus means that you work hard and you don’t like to think yourself of ever stopping. Stopping means you become a ‘fixed’ motion-- and with that, you don’t know how to ‘start’ again.

Capricorn cardinal nature combine with Aquarius gives you two things--- you either workaholic it out or you stop and then take soo looong to start on something again. Because you’re careful, thorough, and want to know everything it entails before you start on it.

You want your passion to last, you don’t want to stop half way. You absolutely won’t stand for half-assery. And being incompetent in anyway is jus-- not up to par/unacceptable for you.

This is your ethic, both just outside and also your worth ethic. You’re a hard-worker, always focused on more/different/things you can grind and focus yourself in (there’s a bit of anxious/nervous energy in you if you don’t put yourself to work)

Your biggest ‘ugh’ moment is when you don’t have everything ‘prepared/ready’ -- especially if it ‘runs out halfway through’ -- you hate discarding things halfway.

Wastefulness of time/energy/resource or expecting you to ‘come back and finish’ something with the same enthusiasm is now up to your mood/whether you have something new to add or not now.

There’s an element to you that can be quite?? Moody?? even though you’re emotionally consistent. It’s like feeling wise, you’re mostly just objective and detached sometimes (even though you’re fun-loving and caring towards others). You can get through things quickly, work efficiently. But if someone expects you to know how to be emotionally sensitive/flexible then you’re completely lost on that cue.

You can sometimes be completely oblivious to other people’s wants/needs from you, especially if it’s like-- emotionality. When someone needs/wants something you expect them to say it out-loud/directly, so when it’s hidden from you. And is expected to come from delicacy/tactfulness you’re like ‘um...what was I supposed to do?’

You like to be taught if you don’t know things, and you don’t understand how everyone else knows it intuitively. In a way, your intuition is crap when it comes to navigating the social realm (personal -- take note from Cancer/Leo). You mostly have your suspicion and critical/cynical nature that adds to your analytical skills.

Learn how to ride a flow, a wave. Instead of sitting on the beach/stable ground all the time. You’ll have to get more in touch with your intuition, stops some part of your brain from over-working itself and making you stand at an ‘impass’ until you’re ‘ready’ to embark on a journey again.

Your overly thorough nature with how you approach/prepare for things makes you someone who skirts around a subject to ‘study’ it until you’re ready to ‘work on it/demonstrate/get into it’

Your motions (as mentioned before) are either ‘working’ (without thinking) or thinking too much (without working) -- no inbetweens.

Kinda short but sweet? 💕 I hope you enjoy it!! 💕💕

#capricorn sun #aquarius moon #capricorn #aquarius #capricorn-aquarius #anon #asks

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firewoodfigs · 4 years ago

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rules: post the names of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous, and then tag as many people as you have WIPs

thanks for the tag lovelies!!! <3 @by-nina @roseofbattles @megthemighty @fullmetalscullyy @bringingglory I love yall sm and can’t wait to see what yall come up with <3

so uhh. everything is a dumpster tbh LMAO I'll try to make this as organised as I can but def feel free to drop me an ask about anything!!! <3

multi-chapter fics

i lived in your chess game (but you changed the rules everyday) - ch 2 (about 80% written iirc LOL)

a study in reformation aka the college au - ch 2 (complete, but I gotta edit this mess LOL. ch 3 is 80% done!)

memento amare - ch 9 (v close to finishing but I need to play some chess n get in the mood LOL)

one-shots

the illicit affairs fic - hooboy am I struggling with this one. I wanted to finish this for royai week but work is pulling one on me this week and I am too tired but also im probs gonna tag this as “don’t try this at home kids”

the style (1989) fic - probs some... uh... things u should not try at home. anyway i have concluded that death or near-death is the impetus for many things when it comes to royai

the getaway car fic - undercover royai fic I think. the song goes “no nothing good starts in a getaway car” and the summary goes “exactly what the song says”

the this is me trying fic - roy character study? sorta? just angst but hopeful ending I think LMAO

the epiphany fic - another one for the folklore / evermore series >:)

the evermore fic - the conclusion to the folklore / evermore series, but not putting this here bcs **spoilers** LMAO

there are probably more, but offhand, I can’t remember what else is lurking in my gdocs LMAO I'm trying to just get through the next two weeks and then get back to writing but we’ll see if inspiration decides to be a friend this time :’)

apart from that, I've also been trying to work on more original stuff e.g. poetry and/or songwriting. some WIPs I have are:

songs

almost was our always

i was the sunset you didn’t bother chasing

carnival

everything in between (?)

secret lover

start all over (?)

at present I'm closest to finishing track no. 2 bcs I've got most of the lyrics written out!! this one’s special to me bcs it’s kinda personal but something I think a lot of us can relate to - at least from our teenage years gahahAHAH it is no secret that I am a hardcore tswift fan and tbh I have been following her since like. tim mcgraw LMAO I love the country vibes of everything there... bless UP

tracks no. 3/4 are dedicated to my partner LMAO I'm so corny I know but I just. I love him a lot okay ahaha like he’s genuinely the sweetest person I know and I’d like to think he’s made me a better person (although I am still a WIP myself w a long way to go LOLLLL). I'm trying to finish them both by august, in time for our fourth anniversary but writing happy upbeat songs are hard tbh bcs when im happy im just. in the moment and not really thinking about anything else??? but we’ll see how things go >:)

track no. 5 was supposed to be a song written from every other person in fma’s pov about roy, but tbh if you took it out of context it would sound like a song about a cheating / lying bastard LOL (which is not far off from the kinda dude roy is tbh). track no. 6 was supposed to be another song about royai, written from riza’s pov, but I didn’t manage to finish it on time for royai week HAHAH so there’s that oops.

feel free to drop me an ask about any songs too if u wanna!!! :”)

idk who hasn’t been tagged yet, but if you see this and wanna do it just say I tagged you!!!! <3

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phandomsecretvalentines · 7 years ago

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(darling don't be afraid) i will love you

Happy late-vday-early-bday @ryn-exe (can’t tag?)!!! Hope u enjoy, soz if it’s not good but i’m not so amazing(phil)

This is 2.1k words. There’s a bit of dream-violence (not in detail) and a lot of anxiety and fear so if u don’t like that stuff!! Tell me!!!! And i’ll write something else for you, i don’t mind. (You didn’t say anything i wasn’t supposed to write but idk). I’d describe this as hurt/comfort i think lmaooo

Basic summery i wrote fo myself: Dan and Phil, and how they deal with each other’s 3am fears (2009 vs 2018, now)

From a pitch-hitter 💓💓

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[Saturday; 10.26.09; 03:37]

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Dan<33 (03:37): phil? :[

Phil (03:45): Yrha

Phil (03:47): Sorry!! Yeah**

Phil (03:47): Why are you up so early/late?? I barely woke up

Dan<33 (03:49): sorry i woke you :/

Dan<33 (03:50): my parents went away for a bit and i’m home alone and i cant turn off the lights cuz im too scared

Dan<33 (03:51): and i can’t sleep so bad even hugging pillow cant help mee :[[

Dan<33 (03:52): so im sitting in the hallway with every light im the house on alone in just my pants

Dan<33 (03:52): and i was a idiot and missed you so i woke you up at so late and now ur gonna hate me crap

Dan<33 (03:52): sorry

Phil (03:53): I’ll never ever hate you dan!!! <<33333333333333

Phil (03:53): I’m sorry ur so scared :[[ I wish I was there to be strong and protect u again

Dan<33 (03:54): i wish you were here too

Phil (03:54): :[ <3

Dan<33 (03:58): CDAP PHIL I THINK I HESRF A GHOST

Dan<33 (03:58): IR MONSTER

Dan<33 (03:58): FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK

Phil (03:59): Dan oh my gosh are you okay??

Dan<33 (04:00): yeah i think but

Dan<33 (04:00): i heard something phil

Dan<33 (04:01): im scared

Dan<33 (04:02): i can’t believe im 18 and i’m actually sobbing out of fear alone and naked in a hallway over a fucking noise

Dan<33 (04:02): to my boyfriend

Dan<33 (04:02): on skype

Dan<33 (04:03): fuck

Phil (04:03): Dan :[[ i’m so sorry

Dan<33 (04:04): it’s not your fault

Phil (04:04): Want me to call you??? (If u want)

Dan<33 (04:05): can we skype instead?

Dan<33 (04:05): i want to see your face plz <3

Dan<33 (04:05): if thats okay

Phil (04:06): That’s fine! One sec plz :]

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[Phil would like to add Dan<33 to a call (02:33)]

[Accept] [Decline]

[Accepted]

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When Dan answered the call, his face was red and puffed and wet. Even through the crap-pixel screen quality, Phil could see that.

“Hey,” Dan’s voice broke.

“Hi,”

Dan was shaking slightly.

His face suddenly flushed, “Oh shit, I forgot – I’m, uh, in only pants. In front of you. Crap.”

“It’s fine, I’ve seen you shirtless before.” Phil smiled what he hoped was reassuringly, “Are you okay?”

“Yeah — I mean, I am now. I guess.”

“Are you cold?”

“Kinda.” Dan admitted.

“Want to go to bed?”

“My room is too dark –”

“Well, I’ll be there, wont I? And I’ll protect you from everything bad in the dark.”

“You’re not really here.”

“Only ever a few hours away. And if worst comes to worst, I have the police line and the monster-killer line. So you’ll be super safe.”

Dan muffled a giggle, “Yeah, okay.”

He shuffled up off the floor, and made his way into his bedroom, clutching the laptop tightly.

“I dunno if I’m getting any sleep tonight, honestly.”

“You will! You can cuddle your pillow and I’ll tell you stories until the demons go away and you can sleep.”

“I’m not five, Phil.” There was no malice in his reply.

“You don’t need to be five for any of that to be true.” Phil said, serious tone.

“Okay,”

Minutes later, Dan was snuggled under his covers; hugging a pillow tightly as he listened to Phil go on about some guy at the market.

“Then, he pulled a hot dog out of his left pocket. Who keeps a single —”

“Phil?” Dan interrupted, his voice was dripping with sleep.

“Mm?”

“Do you think I’m stupid?”

“No.” Phil answered simply.

“I mean – for being so scared of such dumb stuff. Seven-year-olds are braver than me.”

“It’s okay to have fears, Dan. I bet you’re not the only adult with those fears either,”

“I’m scared of the dark. And ghosts and monsters and moths and demons and –”

“– and that’s fine. I don’t mind.”

“And it’s not annoying to deal with? I’m not?”

“You will never be annoying to ‘deal with’; I promise.”

Phil meant it.

——

[Monday; 12.07.09; 02:59]

——

Phil :]]]<333333 (02:59): Dan?

Dan (03:00): yeah??? <3

Phil :]]]<333333 (03:03): I’m scared

Dan (03:04): of what :[[

Phil :]]]<333333 (03:04): I dunno it’s just creaky downstairs and I’m alone for the night I guess

Phil :]]]<333333 (03:04): Nvm

Dan (03:05): no tell me i want to help u

Dan (03:05): plz

Phil :]]]<333333 (03:07): Well it’s just that

Phil :]]]<333333 (03:08): It’s really dark and windy

Phil :]]]<333333 (03:08): And there was a tree snapping against my window I thought our house might’ve blown down

Phil :]]]<333333 (03:09): And I thought i heard thunder which usually isn'tn too bad but right now its scaring me a bit

Phil :]]]<333333 (03:10): I don’t wanna be alone rn is all

Phil :]]]<333333 (03:10): But i am brave! So it’ll be okay i think

Phil :]]]<333333 (03:10): Don’t worry about me <33

Dan (03:11): i want to worry :[

Dan (03:11): you don’t always have to be brave <333 ily and i would give you the biggest hug if i were there

Dan (03:12): and tell the trees and thnder to fuck off and let you sleep

Dan (03:12): and then we would sleep all cuddled up togerher like we do sometimes and it would be warm and nice

Dan (03:14): i wish i were there with you

Phil :]]]<333333 (03:15): You will be someday so it’s okay now too :]

Phil :]]]<333333 (03:15): But plz tell the trees and thunder to fuck off it’s very loud :’[[[

Dan (03:16): if u call me i will????

Phil :]]]<333333 (03:17): Lol okay :p

——

[Incoming call from Dan]

[Accepted]

——

“Hi!” Dan really should be quieter; last time he called Phil at three in the morning his dad had yelled at him.

“Hi,” Phil’s sleep-laced voice answered.

A booming crack of thunder, and a whimper.

“Don’t worry – it… won’t hurt you.” Despite everything, Dan was sometimes still quite new to the role of 'comfort’ in their relationship.

“I know, just loud.”

Dan wished he was like Phil. He wished he could just pull out an intresting story, a funny idea.

“Sorry.”

He wasn’t like Phil, though.

“Want to play a game?”

“What game could we possibly play through a phone call?” Dan could practically hear Phil rolling his eyes.

Dan wracked his brain for quick ideas.

“Eye-Spy?”

“We’re… not in the same room Dan.”

“Yeah, true.”

Dan’s room suddenly felt rather empty and uninteresting.

Dan felt empty and uninteresting.

“What do you want me to do?” He finally muttered.

He held his breath.

“I just like hearing your voice, it calms me down. I like when you rant about things you love.”

Let it out.

“Oh. Well – want to hear my never-ending thoughts on WALL-E then?”

“Definitely.”

——

[Sunday; 02.04.18; 04:12]

——

“Phil?”

“Mhm?” He rolled over and rubbed the sleep from his eyes, “What’re you doing up?”

“There was a moth.”

“A moth?”

“Yes!” Dan looked around the room nervously, rolling on his heels, “It’s in the lounge somewhere and I can’t sleep knowing it’s out there — lurking.”

Phil groaned.

“Fucking kill it! Or set it free, I dunno. I just need it gone.”

“You are truly the perfect mix of 'needy child’ and 'angry businessman’, Danny.”

“Fuck off.”

“Mm, lemme get a cup then.”

Phil shoved on his glasses and stumbled out of bed into the kitchen, Dan following closely behind.

“Where was it again?” He asked, grabbing a wine glass from the cupboard.

They hadn’t really drank much alcohol these past few years– since Dan had gone on antidepressents— but they still always kept the glasses, to drink Ribena and seem fancy.

“No! You’ll need a bigger cup, it’s huge.” He whined.

“Okay,” he grabbed another glass, “where is it?”

“In the lounge last I saw.”

“I’ll go look, you get a piece of paper.”

Genuine terror painted over Dan’s face, “I don’t want to be alone.”

“Christ’s sake Dan, it’s a moth, not an armed burglar. I think you’ll live.”

“You don’t know that.”

“I do. Now, just go a minute.”

He then ventured into the lounge, still half-drowned by sleep, when he heard a shriek.

“Dan?”

“Phil! Fucking help!”

Anyone else might’ve thought Dan was being held at gunpoint from the panicked way he was yelling.

“Coming!”

He went into the hall; Dan was standing there, paralysed with fear, as a giant moth flew circles around him. He had tears threatening to fall.

“Oh dear,”

Phil went over to the closet and grabbed a broom, spent a few go’s waving it around– and almost hitting Dan in the process— before smacking it head on.

“Aw, now I feel bad for killing it,” He whispered.

Dan was on the floor now, shaking, tears stained down his cheeks. He was in only pants.

And Phil was there.

“Well, the moth’s gone now isn’t it?” He crouched down next to Dan, putting his hands gently on his shoulders.

“Mmm,” Dan had his head tucked in his knees.

“Are you okay?”

Silence.

“That’s fine. Want me to make you some tea?”

“Yeah.”

“Okay.”

A few minutes later, in the kitchen, with dried cheeks; “I can’t believe how much of a wimp I am.”

The kettle rang, and Phil took it off the stove carefully.

“No —”

“I know, I know, my therapist told me. 'It’s never weak to have fears’. But I cried over a fucking moth. In our hallway. It’s late and –”

“– and that’s okay.”

“It’s not okay Phil!”

“It’s fine in the moment, that’s what I mean.”

He grabbed a NASA mug, and poured the boiling water in a teapot.

“I must be exhausting.”

Phil dropped in a teabag.

He still remembered. It was a promise made at 4am; a promise over Skype to a more-than-slightly-terrified eighteen year old.

A promise made to a bunch of pixel’s with a name and a face and fear.

A promise his Dan probably didn’t even remember, honestly.

“No, I promised that much.”

“Mhm,”

He poured the tea.

“So, two sugars or three?”

“Two.”

——

[Friday; 02.16.18; 05:12]

——

Dan was on the sofa; snuggled up in blankets and watching the winter Olympics through his small Iphone screen. His eyes were heavy, he yawned.

Their bedroom door squeaked opened.

“Hey,” Phil spoke quietly.

“Up so late?”

“You’re up too.”

“Well — I’m watching the Olympics. You know it’s on late in the UK.”

“Alright.” Phil shuffled into the kitchen, grabbing a glass and leaving the cupboard door wide open.

“Why are you awake?”

“Just another nightmare, s'fine.”

“Then why did you come out here?”

His voice might’ve been read as upset – he was just tired. Half the time Dan honestly didn’t mean to come off so rude.

“Dunno,”

“What was it about?”

“Uh — I think my family was trapped, you included, and I was the only person who could save them. But I had to do something… I think, I had to open a lock to somewhere? But I was too nervous. I saw everyone die; I knew it was my fault. I saw – you know, blood. Not too much. But it’s fine.”

As he spoke, he went over to the sink and got a glass of water, adding iced-cubes; his tone was unnaturally cool and casual.

“But I heard your skull shatter –”

“What the fuck —”

“Sorry! You asked though.”

“No – I mean, that’s horrible. Jesus christ, are you okay?”

Phil shrugged, “It happens, it’s okay though. Just a dream.”

It was only at that moment Dan noticed Phil’s eyes were a little too redded, his words a little bit shaky.

Phil started back to their room.

“Are you going back to sleep?”

“Probably.” His reply was tired.

“Oh – uh, well, why don’t you stay with me and watch the Olympics? I know you’ve never really cared, not your thing, but still I think that —”

“Sure! I’ll stay, yeah.” Phil quickly answered.

“Okay.”

Phil put his glass of water back down on the counter, and walked over to the sofa. Dan opened up his blanket fort and invited Phil in.

“These are the men’s single runs.”

“Mhm,” Phil nuzzled his head into Dan’s neck, which usually would’ve bothered him, but he didn’t mind so much.

A few minutes pass, “So what’s that guy supposed to be doing? I need your commentary; you know.”

I just like hearing your voice, it calms me down.

“Well, that’s the Japanese lead skater, which means —”

#submission

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mischief274 · 4 years ago

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* Domestic abuse against men can take the form of physical violence, emotional, verbal, or sexual abuse. Whatever your circumstances, though, you can find help and break free from an abusive relationship.

If you’re a man in an abusive relationship, it’s important to know that you’re not alone.

Domestic violence and abuse can have a serious physical and psychological impact. The first step to protecting yourself and stopping the abuse is to reach out. Talk to a friend, family member, or someone you trust, or call a domestic violence helpline.

This post isn’t written with hate. It was written with a lot of sadness and heartache. It may or may not come across the person it’s meant for but I am the one that has to live with all the pain she caused my partner...

This took me a two months to finish after reading all the awful lies she wrote about my sweet Jack.

Here I go....

Replying to February 12,2021

To his ex,

You have dreams of him to remind you of all the pain you caused him. The world isn’t going to be so kind to you and let you forget how awful you were (are) simply because you “found the lord” and I hope it continues to remind you every day until you genuinely regret all the things you did and said to his kind soul. By regret, I mean, finally speaking the truth.

The only scars you have from those 5 years are the ones Y O U made yourself. Quit trying to play the victim and make it sound like you have all these scars because he was a “monster” to you, he wasn’t. He never was and you know it.

Everyone saw how much he loved you. Every single person who cared for him warned him about you and begged him to leave you because they knew how miserable he was trying to show you that you were the only girl he wanted. They warned him because they knew how crazy and abusive you were and they knew if he stayed for too long that he would end up in Jail from one of your lies or dead in his room. Sadly you proved them all right. He ended up in jail and in the ER from all the blood he lost trying to take his own life to make you happy.

Had you just treated him with respect and loved him, he would’ve never lost his mind. He would’ve never experienced depression and he never would’ve tried to kill himself. He would’ve been normal today. But all you ever did for him was tell him that the world would’ve been a better place if he would just kill himself.

He’s not the bad guy here but you’re a woman so who would the public believe? He’s full of scars from the 5 years you kept him hostage in your relationship. For 5 years you begged him to kill himself so much that he cut his wrist in front of you with tears in his eyes and all you did was watch him bleed and run away. You didn’t even bother calling 911. You were just as bad as Michelle Carter except the judge believed your pathetic crying ass instead of his because he’s the one that looked tough and mean. Had they just taken a second to look into his eyes, they would’ve seen all the pain he was trying to hide behind his tattoos but apparently looks speak more than words. And now you’re here again at 11:33pm writing about your dreams of him, your trauma and “praying” that he and I get married and have a happy life with more kids.

You’re so fake. I feel so sad for who you are.

What did he ever do to you? He doesn’t deserve all the shit you continue to write about him. He tried giving you the world, did you know that? He lost so many jobs because of you and even when he had no income, he still tried to provide for you. He tried taking care of Y O U all the time. He cared for you and instead of loving him back or letting him go so he can be happy with someone else, you kept him around and made him believe that he didn’t deserve better than you so much so that when I came along and threw him any sort of compliment or treated him nice he’d look away and feel ashamed. He felt ashamed for wanting to accept a compliment!! How sad is that?! I had never met a man so broken.

You’re such a monster Jazmine and you hide extremely well.

Next time you want to write about him between 11:00 o’clock to 3:00 in the morning about how much you think about him or whatever, please don’t because you only make it seem like you’re the one living in fear when he’s the one who’s paranoid every time we go to a specific store or coffee shop because you’re the type of person to fake a scene and make people believe that he’s following you just to make him look bad and have a chance to “be” a victim again. He can’t even enjoy himself in public when we go out because he’s afraid I’ll get upset for simply looking up and thinking that he was looking at other woman.

He doesn’t understand that he doesn’t have to walk with his eyes down when he’s with me but he doesn’t feel safe because of you.

So, you didn’t go through any trauma those 5 years. He did. He wasn’t the abuser, you were.

When he finally had the courage to stand up for himself and let you go, you made up a whole story about how bad he beat you and he ended up in jail, taking him away from his kids once again and what did you do? You reminded him that no one would ever want him because he had kids which made him a burden to anyone else and who would want a fat father with a criminal record and kids now right? Those were your words to a man only trying to break free of you. But you were so desperate for attention that even after your “case” you still decided to secretly meet with him and fuck in his car for a whole year because everyone else you tried talking to would only use you for an easy fuck and let you go. Except for him. He was the only one that would give you any attention. He always gave you all of his time and attention. But he wasn’t the person you wanted attention from. Yet, you still kept him around and abused him anyway because being with someone you hated was better than being alone right? Those other men knew better, they saw how ugly you truly were so you had no choice than to go back to my sweet Jack and that made you miserable and misery loves company.

You’re the one who couldn’t do better than him. You’re the one who didn’t deserve better than him and you will never do better than him. He’s perfect. He’s one in a million. You could’ve had an amazing life by his side but you treated him like trash. Now you’re almost 30 and you’re still living a lonely life. Desperate to fit in. Desperate to feel wanted.

I hope you always remember that he was the only man who ever truly tried giving you the world. I hope you always remember that he was the only man who will ever show you that type of love. I hope you remember him when you start to fall in love and remember that his love was rare and that you missed out on the best one.

You were Amber and he was Johnny. You knew police officers and a judge would take your side because you play the victim well but we all know the monster you truly are.

If he would have taken all the voicemails and text messages between the two of you, you wouldn’t have won in court. Instead, Y O U would have been the one arrested for domestic violence. The only thing that saved you was that everyone believed that pathetic little “ God saved me” cry. You’re disgusting. I hate all the pain you put him through. He was too good to have met you. You should really consider putting that “ I am a daughter of God and I will do right by him” act away and actually try to be a good person. Who am I kidding, you probably never will. People like you don’t change. I hope you prove me wrong but I have extremely low hope with you.

So don’t you fucking dare!! Don’t you fucking dare talk about him because you’re so full of shit.

All that “lurking” is shit too because I’ve been on his social media for years checking up on him and he has never written one bad thing about you. He did once and it was only to reply to your pathetic excuse of an apology. Why lie about it if it just makes you look stupid and shows everyone that you’re still lying? In fact, I think I’ve had more shit to say about you than he ever has. So please, give up and just the shut the fuck up. You’re just as ugly on the inside as you are on the outside. And yes, I did lurk on your shit but only because I like to set you straight when you write up a lie. Don’t worry though, if you ever come across this post, it’ll be the last time I write anything towards you because replying to so many lies is tiring.

Lastly, don’t pray for his kids. I understand that prayers mean well but not when they come from people like you. In case you forgot (which I highly doubt) they didn’t get to see their father for a year because Y O U couldn’t handle him seeing his ex’s for 10 seconds to pick the kids up. For one whole year, he had to see his kids in secret because he was so afraid of the abuse he’d get if you ever found out about it. Acts like these don’t come from people who call themselves “daughters of God” you can keep praying and hoping that God forgives you for everything but remember that God only forgives those who tell the truth and ask for forgiveness that comes from the heart. So while you continue to hide behind the truth and continue to spread your lies, all of us will continue to call you what you truly are. A liar.

Anyway, luckily he and I met again and he left you for good. Now when he calls, he calls for me and not for you. It’s been a year now and he still flinches whenever I stretch out my arms to hug him thinking im going to punch or something.

It’ll take time for that trauma/abuse to go away but at least he believes me now when I tell him he’s worth everything. He went from “ kill yourself” every day to “ I love you’s”

He’s happy now. I don’t keep him away from his kids nor his family. In fact, I encourage it and I personally drive him to see them and bring them to our house. Now he gets to have a healthy relationship with the mothers of his kids and his kids get to have a perfectly healthy and loving relationship with their father.

He’s happy because he gets to be who he is without having to hide from me or be afraid of me.

He’s happy because he got away from you in time. God had good plans for him and I’m so thankful for that. I’m thankful that his suicide attempt failed because if it hadn’t I would’ve never had the chance to show him his worth and all you would’ve done is carry on making people believe that he was your great true love. That thought alone is sickening!!! People like you who can make up the most awful stories about someone and make themselves look so innocent all while destroying the life of someone else because they’re jealous and so desperate for any sort of attention that they go through such lengths to get it don’t deserve to be in this world.

In the meantime, go ahead and continue writing and saying all these things that only always make Y O U sound like the victim but remember.....the truth will come out and eventually people will realize that he was the one being abused. In your case, if it doesn’t, at least you’ll always live with that guilt. With that being said, I hope your “nightmares” keep following you and I really hope they make you miss him to remind you of the things you will never have again.

I’m not wishing you misery but I’m not wishing you happiness either. I do wish you well though.

Enjoy seeing us happy 🤍

Sincerely, me....the best thing after you.

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04loved · 7 years ago

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To A Happy 2018

This isn’t a follow forever or mutual list, I just wanted to give a little personal shoutout to some of you who make tumblr a place i want to keep coming back to.

There are many more wonderful people I didn’t mention, but I hope in the coming year to step out of my comfort zone a little and try to talk to you all more, even if it is only over anon. To everyone who has sent me an encouraging message or anon in recent days, I was truly touched and I thank you so much. To all of my followers, i love you and you’re doing great and i hope you have a soft 2018 filled with love and good things!!

@bbhsavocado i feel like i learned so much about u pricilla that night of the bbh in panties talk aldkjsgljk how validating to see my kinks shared n sub bbh appreciated like that, but it was also awful n i hated it. i love all ur bisexual bbh-loving content n ur friendship with some mutuals is so adorable i hope u all find great gfs this year <3 i have no idea y i took so long to follow u bc ur everything i want in a blog

@bbhsthighs nicole, u want to be a person who gives happiness like the boy who inspired ur url, and u do, u really really do. ur hilarious and adorable in ur tags and ur interactions with ur other friends on here. i can tell how much you love them and how much they love you back <3 maybe some ppl first liked u for ur humor and light, but love means accepting u when ur hurting and when u dont feel like u can shine anymore. pls dont be afraid to share that side of you with those who deserve ur trust, bc thats what a true friendship is. pls treat urself with the same kindness u give to everyone else. asking for help isnt being selfish and it isnt letting anyone down. u do not have to shine for everyone else while being blind urself. following u has been a wild ride from the day i first found ur blog and ive enjoyed every day since. this year i hope the world becomes a bright and beautiful place for you.

@bobohu elaine, im not sure who you want following you since u changed ur blog...i think u left while i was taking a break from tumblr, but i found you again from a post about the kinds of love you feel for exo, i knew there was only one person who writes like that, so beautifully and so full of love. you were one of the first exo blogs i followed and you have always been someone who radiates good vibes and sunshine. i want u to know i appreciate every one of ur positivity posts, and even in your selfies, your smile, you look exactly how i would expect from the kind of cute content you have. i want to genuinely thank you for being a fan for so long and doing what u can to make others happy. i love seeing your posts and im very happy i found you again

@boxianb ive been following u for so long and like idk how u do it but u reblog every single baekhyun post i have on my blog without fail. always. u r just all baekhyun all the time and u know what i admire that i respect that so much that is dedication and i see u and appreciate that, its exactly what i want and need in my life, thank you !!

@byunchen mel, ive seen your posts lately and how you are lonely and missing friends on here, and ive been following you for like...two years now..and we don’t really talk, im shy and you say ur shy and bad at talking.... but here’s me saying that i see you and i appreciate the time you spend on here blogging and talking. im not really active enough anymore to promise to interact a lot but this year i will try to talk more and i wish you many adorable anons and people to call friends !! thank u for coming this far and being an important part of my dash

@exolgbt around when i first followed u i was questioning a lot if i was actually a lesbian and somehow ur blog just like...comforted me ? made me feel good ? helped me try to understand myself ? seeing someone so proudly a lesbian and also so in love with exo... ive come to terms with being bisexual but i admire you and really love your content and all the exo mlm appreciation !! ur doing good work <3

@imagine-baekhyun i dont know who is running this account but ur literally ruining my life thanks i hate it !!!!!!

@kjonginswife i have to admit ive wanted to talk to u for a while alkjgslkjg its nice to see someone my own age on here, i did see ur universe reaction and i think youre adorable haha i dont follow a lot of non-bbh stans and honestly i think i followed you at first by mistake but i have never regretted it !! idk how to put it into eloquent words but basically u give me such good friendly vibes and i love seeing your posts and your tags and your personality and just know someone on here really appreciates you and would miss you if u left

@kkaeb-my-song one of the holy first baekhyun blogs i followed <3 from the beginning you struck me as a very sweet person so cutely in love with baekhyun and that hasn’t changed, ive only come to appreciate you even more. you’re a constant on here and being in this fandom wouldn’t be the same without you !!

@mochibaeks I LOVE YOU i know youre not as active lately jelly but I LOVE YOU youre like the sweetest cutest squishiest most adorable person ive seen on this site i just...love...everything you say and make!! im p sure i first followed u bc u did like the bias audio challenge a while ago...u sounded so friendly and adorable, ur voice is very fitting for you haha you are so warm i hope you stick around for a long time because i love you soooo much

@rosybbh ive been following u sophia for a while and we’re mutuals but we havent talked a lot and im still honestly intimidated by you lol idk how u feel about this view but i see you as a very strong person, just the way u talk seems confident in some way to me, whether u feel like that or not. i dont really have the right words, but i admire that. i LOVE everything u say about bbh...all ur posts for bbh n about u n bbh...damn u always got me daydreaming about him too :( except ok there was this one pic of chanyeol and u said smth like ‘imagine him manspreading’ and id like u to know that that actually ruined my life and i havent forgotten it so thanks. for u especially i hope u have a very bright and healing year

@r-velvets vivian i know u have been gone recently but still lurk, and u have one of my fave blogs content wise and gifs and personality. u r still like THAT way too cool mutual i get so excited to see...especially bc you’re also so kind and during that really hard night after the news of Jonghyun, idk how or why but just those few words u said made me feel a lot better. i miss you online but i hope youre doing well in your real life and finding happiness

@sefuns i dont have a lot to say bc im really shy but u were the FIRST exo blog i ever followed and you have given nothing but great content since i found you two years ago, and when u followed me more recently i could not believe the notification aglksjgljk i have no idea how u found me but knowing we’re mutuals made me very happy and gave me a little blush and i just wanted to let u know that

@thundaelights fey, i dont think this will mean much to you coming from a stranger, but after following you for two years, i feel like i know you some, and i want to say that i hope this year you see many beautiful sights, and your heart feels light, and you are surrounded by things that give happiness. i hope something happens soon that makes the whole world look different, look brighter. its funny how life can change so fast and without warning. i wish you not just strength but also a safe place to fall apart and hope to put yourself back together. may you find countless reasons to smile

@wangeun we talked a lot for a while and then i just kind of disappeared i think as i often do rip but i still love following you and i just want to say real quick that i see you and i notice you and i would miss you if you left and i hope youre finding a lot of success in your life

to new mutuals @cuddlyjd @okaybaekhyun @baekhyuns i still get so shy and happy when anyone follows me back but thank you !! you are all three cute and adorable and funny n kenzie i hadnt followed a great jongdae stan in a while since the old dae-biased blogs i followed became inactive thank u for loving jongdae so well alkgjs

@sebyun @winterbyuns @etherealbbh @progamerbyun @dearbyun @baeksee @byunvoyage @solobaek @queenbyun @baekhyy @baehkhun @ethereal-baek i love all of u bbh stans giving baekhyun the love and adoration he deserves n giving me the positive baekhyun content my heart needs. esp solobaek (kiki, right?) u have the cutest most wonderful tags i love reading them all and seeing so many heart emojis

im sorry i dont have the most to say but im thinking of you all and wishing you the best!!!!

#sry if u dont even know me lol i mostly lurk rather than actually talk #happy new year!!!!#p

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cotccotc · 4 years ago

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roni (oh wait can i call u that 🥺) IVE MISSED YOU SO MUCH. i can’t even begin to express to you how idolized has helped me get through the days, in the midst of some hard times you rly are the ray of sunshine that idk what i would do without- 🥺 ☀️ im also SO proud of how far you have come, almost closing in on 700 followers ??? words can’t even express how much i know you deserve every kind word + blessing that comes your way ! as always, hope you’re staying happy + healthy, + making some progress on your sleep schedule ! (although that is still one of my new year’s resolutions 😅) i just wanted to pop in + say hi + that ive missed you so much + hope you’re doing amazing bc as you should know, you deserve the 🌎 ! :)) also i saw in your last reply to me how happy you get whenever i pop in, + it rly made my day that i was able to put even the smallest of smiles on your face 🥺 woahhhh this is getting long now 😅 but genuinely i hope to be on here more (actually talking + not just lurking in the shadows 😳) but sending you all the best !!! + hoping this message gets to you safely ! ✨

~ love from 💙 anon

p.s i rly have missed you + im also so proud of your new hyunjin series ! it looks so interesting + i can’t wait to see how you progress in the storyline!

p.p.s i may have asked to join the idolized tag list a lil while ago 😳 but i shall always stay a mystery heheheh 💙

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guys look the light of my life, 💙 anon, is back 🥺🥺 guys look ^^ right there 🥺🥺🥺🥺 babie’s back 😖🤧 i’m gonna crY-

I’M SO SO SO HAPPY !!! ahhh it’s been so fun to write and i’m coming back with a new part on the 15th !! i’m really glad i’ve been able to help u out a lil. it’s all i could ever hope to do :)

djdjd THANK UUU it’s really crazy to think about ! i never expected to be doing what i do and having the amount of support i have. it really means a lot that people enjoy my work and come hang out w me 🥺

i hope you’ve been resting n staying healthy n doing as much as u can to take care of yourself 🥺 i’ve been thinking about u !! and uh hahahahahahaha my sleep schedule,,,,, [blinking noises] neXT TOPIC-

thank you so much for stopping by 🥺🥺 you mean a lot to me, even if you’re not able to message me all the time. it truly doesn’t matter. but i am glad to know you’re livin n breathin n thinkin o’ me 🤧 i hope 2021 treats you super duper well hehe :)))

#ask v ☆#re: 💙 anon #p.s. AHHHH THANK U !! it’s a fun lil side project hahahaha #my main focus is idolized but it’s a good lil writing [and simping] exercise hehe #p.p.s. 👀👀👀👀👀👀#i shan’t attempt to Stalk in order to preserve your anonymity 😌✋🏼#however #tEA omg #kekdnsdj #oh and yes u can call me anything hahaha

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