#genuinely i have no idea wtf is happening here i just want to procrastinate on uni reports without a scooby do mystery jumpscare

[hiddenmisc]

Who is this man and why is he on my desktop Tumblr dash at 3:42 am in the morning??

Why am i warned of pirates when i interact with him?

It is to early for this i need answers before he rides his barrel into the newspaper abyss.

to late he's deep in it now.

i'll never knwo then.

[elytrafemme]

ao3 is being weird and it keeps eating my comments so here is what i was wanting to say on the new cs chapter hope you don't mind!! :]

dude..... wtf that was so so so so good.... mare you're incredible for real!!!!! i definitely think that felt like a ballad of increasing intensity..... i wanna say it felt like being punched in the gut but it really felt more like. acupuncture but really bad. a million billion needles sticking in you. like every new sentence just compounds on this feeling of dread and misery and anxiety and it just doesn't relent. genuinely amazing like damn if you're trying to hurt me just come over with a an evil look in your eye.... it'll be more direct </3

ik you were talking about not feeling your stuff has an impact but maaannnnnn did this have an impact on me!! i am slightly high on meds, sleepy, procrastinating, do not know how to function anymore. like i genuinely had to take little breaks from this bc it was so intense and i mean that in the most complimentary way humanly possible

and god tommy's anger hurts so much because i know exactly that feeling of fear and betrayal and panic and being transported back to this worse part of your life and getting trapped in a version of yourself that is constantly scared and believes everything is out to get you. yeah....... yeah.

one of the things i love abt ur writing is the way you include these little bits and pieces of those 'immoral' thoughts people have, like ranboo's instinct to photograph the tragedy in front of him is SO interesting especially considering his photography's connection to dream and how his connection to dream leads to the fight. idk it just feels incredibly human and i always appreciate those little bits as they come :]

every single moment of this chapter broke my heart i am so excited for the next chapter you have no idea im bouncing in my seat. i hope youre doing well <3

absolutely do not mind don't worry! hate how ao3 eats comments happened when i was trying to reply to comments earlier on that sucked so bad...

thank you so much holy shit, means a lot :] ballad of increasing intensity & bad acupuncture... fantastic metaphors i am glad that it felt like that!

eueuuee it means a lot that my writing can impact people!!! hope you're no longer slightly high on meds and or sleepy but thank you seriously sm

YEAH!!! cs!tommy is a character that is afraid of the present because, as it sort of goes into later in the fic, he lives very much on a day to day basis hoping that something horrible doesn't happen every day. things like these are what he's been terrified of but trying to hide his fear of for so long; he's so much stronger than he believes himself to be but understandably the occurrences of things like these can break him down and make it feel like all the progress he's gone through is null.

writing thoughts like that can be risky in fics because i'm always afraid people will misinterpret and villainize the characters-- or worse, that i accidentally imply that myself in the writing, which i try hard not to-- but it's really important. i think it's important to show that people do not react perfectly to everything but they're still undeserving of the pain that comes from it. like sure maybe cs!alliumduo shouldn't have gotten physical with each other while arguing in the car but that doesn't mean that either of them deserve to feel that betrayal or that it was unjustified, you know? not sure if i'm describing it well but yeah that's really important for me to include because i think it's isolating to go through hard shit and genuinely believe that you're a bad person for experiencing this or this by result.

i hope you're doing well too <3 you're welcome in my inbox any time and i'm really happy you liked the chapter sully :]

[starlightandsunshine]

A:tLA First Watch

So I finally started watching Avatar for the first time last week (after about 3 years of telling myself that I will) and I’m now approximately halfway through (I think - just finished the ep called “Stories from Ba Sing Se” or something like that where we get 5 minute stories about each of the characters, right after the creepy af “there is no war in Ba Sing Se” ep which just made my skin crawl

I’m going to write up current thoughts while procrastinating because there’s only so many times I can read the phrase “hard sphere behaviour” before my eyes start to bleed.

Thoughts so far in no particular order:

I love Katara she’s great, she was my favourite for all of book 1

Also she’s awesome at water bending now and I’m so proud of her

Sokka is kind of badass and also hysterical

I can’t believe his girlfriend actually turned into the moon I saw references to that here but I genuinely thought that was some kind of meme or a joke

Aang is baby and deserves better

Also he totally took a dive off into the deep end when Appa got stolen

Appa and Momo are god-tier animal level companions

Momo’s story in the ep I just watched was adorable and I cried when I saw that he tied a strip of Appa’s fur around his wrist and used it to comfort himself

Sorry Katara but Toph is my new favourite

I love her so much

Also kudos to her for not letting her disability or well meaning but overbearing parents get in her way ever

Iroh is the best uncle ever and he loves Zuko so much it is amazing

I want an Uncle Iroh

Also wtf I had no idea he was the older brother he would have made an amazing fire lord

On topic poor Zuko keeps being kicked when he’s down

I love him he deserves better than a his terrible dad and psycho sister

Cannot believe his dad gave him that scar

I would like to punch his dad in the face

Also I stan his mum for straight up murdering his grandfather to protect him

Which that whole situation was messed up but at least his mother loves him enough to do anything for him?

I have a lot of feelings about Zuko

His family is so messed up

Azula is a total psycho oh my god

Totally badass though

How old is she? Because from what I understand Sokka’s 17, Zuko and Katara are 16, and Aang and Toph are 12 - is Azula somewhere in the middle? Since I’m pretty sure she’s younger than Zuko (otherwise he wouldn’t be “first born”) unless they’re twins?

Yay for Aang mastering water- and earth bending already - so proud

Also I have low-key second hand anxiety over this poor boy being told he has like 6ish months to master three bending styles which normally takes years

Is it just me or are Katara, Toph, and Azula all total prodigies with how good they are at bending and how quickly they mastered their respective disciplines?

Suki is awesome and I really hope she comes back again

Speaking of I love how her and Sokka literally went from strong dislike to kissing over the course of like 2 eps and a total of about a weeks worth of knowing each other

Sokka seems to attract a lot of girls

Toph totally has a crush on him

He wouldn’t kiss Suki at night - is this going to be a thing for him where he doesn’t kiss people when the moon is up because of Yue? Because I feel like that will get complicated fast

How does bending inheritance work? Benders can have both bending and non-bending kids - can non-benders have bender kids? What if their parent(s) are benders?

Are we going to meet a Water Tribe Avatar at any point? Because we’ve met Roku (Fire Nation) and Kyoshi (sp?) (Earth Kingdom) who are both kind of awesome in different ways but no indication of any of the others

What happened to Zuko’s crew from book 1?

Very glad that Zhao guy got totally wrecked by the Moon and Ocean spirits after what he did - I kind of hated him from the get go

Are we ever going to see Jet again? Seriously what happens to him after the brain washing?

Also did he learn nothing from meeting Aang, Katara and Sokka?

Kyoshi literally created an island through bending wtf

Also Roku totally destroyed one which while not quite as epic deserves a mention

That one forest spirit that’s mostly a panda deserves an honourable mention because I loved them and also their reaction to that rude monkey spirit in the spirit world was great

The face stealer spirit creeped me out i hope we don’t see them again

I cried when Aang went back to the Air Temple and found Gyatsu (sp?) dead

Also I love the fact that you can so clearly see that he’s an actual child and he totally has the whims of an actual 12 year old (please don’t let this change)

Bumie (sp?) was kind of a weird character but I’m so glad at least one of Aang’s friends are still alive

Zuko keeps levelling up and unlocking new achievements that are probably less than helpful (sympathy for other travellers! Soft spot for young children! Charity! Not attacking first! Growth!)

Also I love his and Iroh’s relationship they really deserve better living family members

All of the animals in the show are just all around amazing! And mostly super adorable

Can the avatar bend multiple elements at once? Or does he just switch between them

Azula getting two non-benders as her backup and them repeatedly wiping the floor with benders is amazing

Also they appear to be scared of her and I predict that at some point that will bite her

Mai (sp?) and Tai Li (sp?) are amazing and is it just me or are they more loyal to each other than Azula

What is up with the lightning throwing? Is that like an elite fire bending thing? Will Zuko learn it?

Also Iroh learning how to redirect lightning is itself badass

I don’t think he’s ever properly been involved in a battle with his bending yet and I’m looking forward to that because he’s already a badass without it (Dragon of the West)

I’m not going to talk about his son because it makes me sad but Iroh really is the best

How old were Kyoshi and Roku? Because they mention on the island that Kyoshi was born there 400 years ago and if each avatar is born when the previous one dies and Aang was in the ice for a hundred years then she and Roku had to be about 150 years old each? Do Avatars just have longer lifespans?

Sokka and Katara are peak sibling energy

They should all listen to Sokka more - he’s usually right

Also poor Sokka who trades with Katara for who has to be the Adult present all the time

Are the Kyoshi warriors coming back because I loved them

That one episode with the Northern Air Temple where it was being destroyed by the people who moved in really made my skin crawl and did not give off good vibes - I honestly felt like they’d desecrated it

Are we ever going to meet Sokka and Katara’s dad?

I’m very proud of the progress Zuko is making but I feel like he’s going to backslide at some point because that boy is weak for family

The White Lotus people keep coming up so I feel like that’s going to be significant at some point

Also there are several cool tricks/objects that have come up and never been referred to again - is this foreshadowing or the writers forgetting about that one thing they wrote?

Excited to see Aang learn firebending properly

Is that one big circle with a smaller one inside it on the map Ba Sing Se? Have I just been missing that glaringly obvious fact this whole time?

Will they ever meet the Earth King?

Are we going to see Bumie again because he was weird but kind of awesome

Did the Dai Lee (sp?) give everybody the creeps or just me?

Is that Blue Mask thing that Zuko used ever going to come up again?

Very worried that Book 2 is going to end up with Azula winning somehow since she seems to be scarily competent

I don’t understand why people can’t bend metal when its made of earth?

Also the human body is like 70% water why does that never come up?

Theoretically you could stop both fire- and air benders by reducing the amount of air available since both of them need it to bend

Although fire bending also involves a lot of breathing so I guess theoretically as long as the bender can breathe neither air nor fire are going to be problematic

Why does Aang never seem to be cold?

Everything is colour coded - why does no one in-world seem to see this as something easily exploited?

Would like to meet more spirits

That’s kind of it but this actually got really long because I had a lot more thoughts than I was expecting