#gah what is wrong with meeeeeeee

[subukunojess]

CURSE YOU, REQUIRED READING FROM CHILDHOOD AND THEMATIC SYMBOLISM/IRONY/WHATEVER

Shut up! No, how dare you! Don’t make me think about it ;-;

[fallen-faery]

okay so. like. 2 days ago my friends made this awesome stew while we were at the park and someone approached us for a bodyguarding thing

turns out shes super fuckin hot. im talkin "i want her so bad it makes me look stupid" hot. like. gah DAYUM (idk what that means but jesse says it and i think it fits here)

like shes telling us about the job and she asks if we have any questions and my stupid ass says "dya wanna makeout" KGJSKFNDKJF WHAT IS WRONG WITH MEEEEEEEE

SHE SAID MY SIZE MUFHT MAKE IT DIFFICULT BUT SHES "NOT ONE TO BACK DOWN FROM A CHALLENGE" DKDKLA,#*@,$*!?'$((@,$

[crimsonandcloverwrites]

bhah ch6 it’s go time

excitable bby carson is so cute I love that kid

Dani uuuhhh being so in tune w Jamie always is so lovely. and Jamie almost being a bit scared of accepting her kindness when she’s truly hurting is so interesting like I think Dani really is her person but she still can’t fully let down all her walls around her. or tbh probably doesn’t have the emotional capacity to understand how she’s feeling and communicate that properly gah someone pls give her unending emotional support she makes my heart hurt so much

“There was an odd expression on her face that Dani couldn’t place” that’s love babey (i feel like there are a lot of moments like this lol I love seeing this all from Dani’s POV)

oof Dani trying to figure out where she’d ‘misstepped’ bc of a look Karen gave her god she doesn’t deserve this

the way she can make Dani have a fucking panic attack just by being near her ummmmmm I hate her. like i can’t even comment on this bit bc I’m mostly just trying to read it really fast and not reflect too hard

ah sweet Jamie

hmmmm is this the moment Dani falls in love with Jamie please it’s so sweet and casual and literally just Jamie being herself and caring about Dani with her whole heart. no wonder. also the contrast of this with her realising as an adult is beautiful. Dani u poor  little confused gay angel

the dirty paperback a staple of all good plotlines

dsfjhdfkjghkjfh when Dani straddles her and Jamie just fucking freezes oh my god this part makes me laugh so much you poor little lesbian

““As you wish,” Jamie said softly.” oh god oh no not the princess bride rn this whole bit is too soft

“Twenty-four hours alone with Jamie in her house, and it was like Dani had suddenly forgotten what the emptiness of it felt like.” oof just. Jamie is her home I can’t even think about that concept too hard it is too beautiful and all-encompassing

Milkshake Monday is so cute I’m gonna make a milkshake on Monday in honour of the O’Mara/Clayton/Taylor gang

Eddie’s “he rested his hand oddly on the ground between them, his palm up and hands loose“ is giving me flashbacks to the only date I ever went on with a man  please not this move

aww poor Jamie is jealous (and probably very sadly realising she will never get to be where Eddie is with the handholding and blossoming relationship ouch) (this is also giving me flashbacks stop living inside my brain)

oh my god Jamie sprinting away from David w the paperback i’m dying

aww lil D&D bebes

dfgdjfh “I cast: slap you in the face.” i think he has some points

Eddie and his endless sheets of notes and plans is actually super cute.

Carson wanting to be evil there is somethin to be said abt queer-coded villians and that is that I love them and the gravitational forces they apply to baby gays

god the sibling banter in this is so perfect this is exactly how this wld have gone down w me n my siblings

lmao eddie really is in his element this is so good

god Jamie just... so anxiously awaiting for the only source of stability she’s ever had in her life to return I am emotional

teeny baby mikey. Jamie’s parents are the fucking worst for the ways they treated their kids but I’m so glad Nan can be here for them

why is... jamie so upset?? is this like. it kinda puts the nail in the coffin of the idea of her family being whole again?? is it just because Jamie wasn’t told what’s happening and she feels out of control?? let me see inside ur brain jamie u poor confused angry little bird

ugh now I am thinking about the idea of family and building ur own and getting to choose the people that mean the most to you and it sucks that for some people the families they were born into can’t be that and this is too much for a Sunday afternoon

oh she’s upset by the change of it all (tho like... that’s probably just the easiest part to talk about rn I’m sure it’s a lot of complicated emotions)

the foreshadowing of “I’ll be the one to take care of him”

"She isn't going to just up and leave you alone with a baby, Jamie." genuinely too fragile for this rn

fuck i can just picture extremely sullen teenage Jamie with feelings too big to process properly trying to just survive and sweet understanding Dani giving her a really gentle place to kind of... reflect a bit and work through them. I am. also having feelings too big to process properly. i love that Nan knows Dani is this for her too and probably sent her after her for that exact reason

hhhmnngfhgh washing her hands for her the intricate rituals of it all

“Can just call him ‘Bawbag’ and be done with it.” jesus christ Jamie sdkjfhdkjdghk I am wheezing

Dani giving Mikey the nickname literally means everything to meeeeeeee

Dani picking up pamphlets for Ed and Jamie too is so cute

lmao Dani is like. a boy??? asking me to homecoming???? panic time

Roger’s lil crush on Jamie is so funny bro ur barking up the wrong tree... in the wrong forest... in the wrong hemisphere... lost in space somewhere

Jamie getting to grow her own flowers is so wonderful and Dani recognising this is where she’s the most fulfilled is so lovely (and I finally know where the pressed morning glory from the box is yus)

god Karen is so relentlessly mean to Dani why are u like this

Jesus christ the thought of Dani asking Nan what sodomy is. the heartattack she wld have

woof this like subtle ‘you’ll never be accepted bc it’s just not right’ vibe from Karen in this whole conversation w Judy this is tooooo familiar. no wonder she just keeps repressing it all (should i be using this fic to process my own life probably not)

Jamie taking them to an outdoor picture theatre because Dani mentioned wanting to go one time ow my heart. this is basically their first date no?? flip that’s cute. oh god a horror movie tho sdkjfhdjf Jamie

i think there’s such an interesting thing of Dani and Jamie just... falling into each other in this really uneventful way and their whole relationship being this really full thing without a big realisation of ‘this is what love/romance is’ and is probably half the reason Dani isn’t really able to name it as that?? like i love it and i think it’s so sweet but I wonder if Jamie was ever able to actually say something if that would have finally tipped her tiny lil repressed brain over into realisation???

this whole bit is so sweetly innocent I love it

another day 3 days another emotional rollercoaster of a chapter gbless

[shouxryuuxha]

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                                 Who is the real Brooklyn?

ಠ_ಠ: what is your biggest pet peeve?

Rp wise: Honestly, when people don’t tag. I say this because most of us tag things because (unfortunately I didn’t want to use this word but) it can trigger us and some of us have phobias. Like, for me, I blacklist the tag holes and tryptophobia (gah, my skin is crawling just looking at the fucking word) cause hOLY SHIT, I so much as SEE something like that, my brain go haywire. Its not even a mild discomfort–I mean–I physically SHRIEK (you’d think I was being murdered) and will remove myself from the source. One person thought it’d be funny to email pictures of just grotesque holes and I nearly broke my laptop cause I chucked it away from me and we had to call the paramedics because I was hyperventilating. So–yea. I mean, most stuff doesn’t bother me at all like THAT DOES and I’d hope that it never comes on my feed. But! Just in case, that shit is blacklisted to high heaven so, if you guys don’t mind helping mama dragon out and tag holes and tryptophobia before I die via holes x_x;

Rl wise: MOFOS THAT DON’T WASH THEIR DISHES. SIDEEYE @ ROOMMATES.

UPDATE!!! CAUSE JUST WHO JUST REALIZED SHE DID THE WRONG FACE? MEEEEEEEE

to answer the question---no I haven’t done anything to that extent because when I was younger, I never understood the concept of putting yourself through pain in order to release it. My outlet was gaming and roleplaying but, I will admit, there have been times where allowing myself to fall off the NYC subway platform and letting the uncoming 4 express train smack me as hard as it can and just end it for me---yea, that was an interesting thought to have all junior year.