#g.aius truly not being able to name what love feels like. he knows he cares for a.llie. he knows he cares for c.id and m.idas but | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

heirbane · 10 months ago

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what kind of love are you?

LOVE AS A FLAW. - Cowering, your love hides in the dark. In shadows and under cover of night, your love runs from corner to corner, afraid to linger, afraid to be caught. Afraid, afraid, afraid of everything. When you fall in love, it is with alarm bells ringing. Your love is a mistake, a flaw in the code, a purchase you don’t remember making and desperately want to return. You didn’t ask for this. You didn’t want this. It’s a problem–– your problem ––and you would do anything to pass it off, burn it away, scoop it out of you with bare hands, or carved out with hooked knives before it can destroy you. Get it out, just get it out now. You don’t care who you hurt in the process, only that you can’t afford to be hurt first. Being loved by you is to be loved by a figment of the imagination. It is to be loved in halves, or not at all.

stolen from @daizure!

#ⅩⅣ tertius oculus ( hcs. )#g.aius truly not being able to name what love feels like. he knows he cares for a.llie. he knows he cares for c.id and m.idas but #he's never told anyone he loves them. he isn't sure he knows how. he's always second guessing how he feels and if it's true #he's spent his entire life learning how to fight and kill and the only love he knows is -#the love his mother had for his father and brother - and how it killed her #love to him is to provide. it is to protect. it is to be steady. but he doesn't know the rest of it and learning is scary #which is why when people try to love him first he just... doesn't truly know how to respond #mirroring them feels like he's acting. and tbh i think he thinks he's a monster who isn't capable of it #so he doesn't indulge

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