#fyi I’m going to vent in the tags so don’t read them

[sweetlilbird]

Gender…

[sweetpeapoppy]

WIP word game!

Rules: tagger gives a word, then for each letter of that word you share an excerpt from your wip that starts with that letter.

I was tagged by @weegreenbean with the word PAIN and I'm tagging anyone who hasn't been tagged and wants to participate, with the word HOPE

P (Based on art by @padiduys - Mark returns to F1)

PaddockChatter: RUMOUR: Sources have said that Mercedes are going left field with their next driver signing #f1 # f1rumours #sillyseason

User1: Ummmmm, not me thinking someone is going to unretire themselves!!!!!!!

User2: Don’t joke, I need Seb back

User3: @User2 Nah JENSON

User4: @User3 @User2 Both wrong Kimi!!!!

User5: Anyone want to hear my theory on who this is definitely going to be????

User6: @User5 Spill, you got it right with Danny coming back! And going again :(

User7: @User5 hell yeah, you also called Lewis to Ferrari…starting to think you work on the inside

User8: @User7 it would be so perfect if we had someone on the inside who loved spilling tea

User7: @User8 Amen to that! They deserve to vent, we deserve to know!

User5: This is a long thread, so buckle in! And I don’t work in the paddock FYI! (I WISH!!!!) I just love reading into absolutely every single minute detail (1/14)

User5: I agree about the retired driver angle, they’ve done it before! And after Sir Lewis they need a reset and rebrand (2/14)

User5: Soooooo there’s one retired driver who’s been going through some changes recently, we’re talking being less visible, and working out more (3/14)

User5: Call me crazy, but I think it’s going to be Mark Webber who will be returning to the grid (4/14)

User4: @User5 You’ve literally lost your mind

User9: @User5 Girl I trusted you

User6: @User5 I have no words

User7: @User5 Third time is def not the charm

User10: @User5 YOU ARE CRAZY

A (genderbend Webbonso)

“Are you sure you don’t want some more make-up?”

Fernanda’s head shot around at the question thinking it was aimed at her, about to shoot her mouth off in disgust because she couldn’t be wearing any more. But it wasn’t, it was at Marcia.

“I don’t wear make-up in the car, don’t need to wear it now.” She replied cooly.

Fernanda smirked at the way she handled herself, even with brushes coming at her face she blithely ignored them all and walked to stand with Jenson and Giancarlo. She liked her a lot.

I (just some angsty Webbonso and Fernando's obsession with bracelets)

It taunted him endlessly. That little braided bracelet that Fernando wore to tell everyone he was taken. That another woman had ensnared his heart. Mark shook his head at himself at sounding so jealous over a woman who was smart, beautiful, and funny, a perfect match for Fernando, giving him the love he richly deserved. And he knew she was smart because Fernando told him, and that she was funny because Fernando was always laughing around her, and beautiful because Fernando gazed at her so lovingly.

This time it was the worst it had ever been, the little turtle was fine, it could have meant anything. He forced the little silver trinket to mean nothing even when he was faced with them both at dinner, displaying intimacy he could only dream of. The silver glinting in the low light, reminding him over and over that it wasn’t him around his wrist.

N (Mark's last season in F1)

Nothing about the question was answerable, but Mark wouldn’t settle for that.

“I need an answer.” He tried to shake the answer out of him.

He could just about see where their lips had met, just a hint of shine was being picked up by the moonlight. “I can’t.” He breathed in return. How could he tell him that was ultimately behind his divorce, that his feelings for someone else, for him, replaced those for his wife.

“Well, tough, I need one.” He was so confused by what had happened he never got close to angry. “I really do.” He relaxed his grip to release Fernando. “Don’t run.” Mark was wary when he turned around.

“I’m not.” He just couldn’t bear to have Mark’s eyes on his. “I’m sorry, it was a mistake.”

“Funny feeling mistake.” Fernando had flung his arms around his neck and although it was fleeting the kiss was hard and desperate, like a physical representation of the look he got from Fernando in the hospital after he smashed his leg.

“I just needed to.” That was about as close to the truth as he could manage. “Sorry.”

“Stop saying sorry.” He just needed to? What did that mean?

[sttoru]

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you haven’t posted a fic in a while. when are you publishing one?

i’m a slow writer sometimes. do not expect a fic each day or even each week / two to three weeks. i have a social life outside of this tumblr account i started just for fun (plus university) — no pressuring me into or asking for a part 2 / fic either or you’re blocked.

[thefreakymunson]

hi! I just read your vessel fic and I loved it so much, it's literally everything I've been looking for! 😭 could I request a vessel or III/reader where him and the reader have a date night (maybe smut implied, totally up to you!)?

(If you want smut, i'm more than happy to write it haha! Just FYI <3)

Vessel was standing behind you, arms on either side as you two looked out over the ocean.  You were able to go out on this tour with them, which was great, but you two severely lacked any alone time.  The other guys were always there, which you were well accustomed to.  But going on 4 weeks of constantly being interrupted, it was the first time you got to be alone with Vessel. It was a warm summers night, a lay over in a beach town.  Once quiet night away from the loud music every night. 

While it was rare you got conventional date nights – there were no reservations to be made when you didn’t know exactly where you were, these nights were your favorite.  Your own version of a date night.  He’d whisk you away to some quiet place he had found, spend a few moments together, and then you two would settle on a restaurant in whatever city, only to come back to the hotel and spend the rest of the night wrapped in each other.

But this night…it was different.

You two had slept in way too late and by the time you were getting your day started, the restaurants were packed for the dinner time rush.  You spent most of the day walking around and sight seeing what little bit you could, but for the rest of the night, you were stumped on what to do for dinner, which led the two of you to standing out on a peer over the ocean. 

You rested your head back against his chest as a warm breeze washed over you and the scent of the salty ocean filled the air. 

“What’s that?” He asked, pointing a little bit down the beach. 

Your gaze followed the direction he was pointing in and he took you by the hand, leading you down to the illuminated picnic table.  When you realized what was happening, and saw the tall dark shadow of iii ducking away from the scene, you couldn’t help but almost tear up.  There were two plates set out with pasta on them, a bottle of champaign, and candles everywhere.

“Vessel…” You stared up at him in shock.

“Hmm?” He asked, wrapping his arms around your shoulders.

“This is so sweet,” you nearly pouted up at him, “You planned this?”

“No, we’re totally stealing some other guy’s romantic dinner.” He said sarcastically, causing you to chuckle.

“Well, sucks to be them.” You smirked.

You filled two wine glasses with the chilled champaign as the two of you talked and chatted about your day.  It was the best way to spend an off day in your opinion.  Other women might’ve demanded romantic reservations at high end fancy restaurants, but you realized years ago that wasn’t what you needed.  As long as you got time with Vessel every once in a while, you were content. 

“What’s on your mind?” He asked, his eyes nearly bearing straight into you once he realized you had gone quiet.

“I’m just realizing how lucky I am,” you said with a small smile, “Like you’re really getting to live your dreams and I get to tag along sometimes and…I’m just so proud of you.”

He reached over the table and slotted his fingers with yours, his thumb easily brushing over the back of your hand.  “Yeah, well none if it would be possible without you.”

“No, don’t discredit yourself.  You worked so hard for this and I’m not looking for credit, Ves.  I-“

“You think I’d be able to do all of this without you?” He cut you off and furrowed his brows at you, “I owe you so much, Y/N.”

“Huh?”

“I mean without you, I’d have gone insane a long fucking time ago.  How many times have I came to you so frustrated that I hated myself and you always calmed me down? How many times have I vented or just raged to you?” He laughed, “I don’t trust anyone else like that.  None of this is possible without you, baby…you’re kinda like my back bone in a sense…my rock.”

You swallowed thickly as you looked over at him.  He leaned further over the table, pressing a kiss to your lips as he stroked his thumb over your cheek.

“Not discrediting myself, just showing appreciation for the reason I still force myself to keep going.” He said, his thumb ghosting over your bottom lip, “I love you, Y/N.”

“Take me back to the hotel and show me just how much you love me,” you said, pressing a kiss to the padding of his thumb.

[smokedturtles]

Introduction post????

Hi!! I used to be on Instagram as an anime account back in the middle school (idk if y’all followed peppermint.sticks but if you did that’s me!!). I’m back on here mainly bc I want anime art but I am also open to meeting new people!!!

I have a very busy social life (full time college student, pretty outgoing etc.) so my messaging time could be delayed…here is some about me

I’m gonna keep my name out of posting for right now!! If u wanna be friends just dm me lol. I’m 19, bisexual, and majoring in Enviornmental science specifically renewable energy. Pronouns are she/her/hers. I am also in a relationship with my amazing long distance army boyfriend since February 2021!! I have a lot of interests, but public health and urban planning are some of them!! Personality I am a very empathetic kind person (will not be a doormat lol), smart, and ambitious. I joke around a lot and consider myself to be pretty caring. As for hobbies I love hanging out with my friends, partying, writing (I used to write short stories and even books but I always drop them bc I’m lazy), (maybe I’ll post snippets of what I write??), drawing (less frequent now), and tarot reading. I play piano not as frequently though. I’m also quite absorbed in my religion (which now has become modern day spirituality…quite frustrating pls stop white washing my religion) which is Hinduism and Buddhism and a big advocate on eliminating all the misconceptions and trying to bring back the power to it!! Stop calling your crystals, chakras, yoga practices and energy spirituality!! It’s Hinduism!!!

‼️PLEASE DO NOT SPOIL ANIMES THAT HAVE NOT CAUGHT UP TO THE MANGA. PLEASE TAG IF THERE ARE SPOILERS. ESPECIALLY AOT. I DO NOT READ MANGA.‼️

An extensive list of my animes I have watched can be found on my anime list (the website)! My username is andimhome (I’m attaching a link). There you will see my interests. I update it frequently. But… top 3 have got to be (and this was a hard list) Sakik K, AOT, and steins gate!!

My favorite movie is Spirited Away!! I’m trying to watch all of the Studio Ghibli movies!!

I am also into vocaloids, or getting back into them I should say!! Favorite one is Rin <3 I know it’s basic to say my favorite songs are the daughter of evil series, but I don’t care because they are!!

Sometimes I might go into small rants or tangents on here to vent, probably won’t like often, once in a blue moon. But just an FYI!!

I have such a wide music taste and I will always send you my playlists if you need it!! Some artists I like (not limited to at all): Uzi, Travis Scott, Kanye, Drake, Suicide Boys, Lil Peep, TV girl, Mitski, RKS, Eden

That’s it!! I hope we can be friends!!

[amairainherlilbubble]

Okay enough is enough.....I don't know who's gonna read this but I just want to vent out my anger.

First of all, I'm not a kind of person who would stick on to one particular thing for long time. My interests changes every now and then. But I'm still able to stick on to BTS because of JIMIN. Let me make things clear before people misunderstand. I respect and like all the members and love their songs too but I truly adore Jimin more. There are times when I used to hear few BTS songs just to listen to jimin's voice or watch few BTS MV or performances just to see jimin's dance breaks. I know BTS is OT7 and all the 7 members make BTS but I'm strongly JIMIN biased.

So I just adore this guy to hell. Now coming to memories 2020, ofcourse I didn't buy any DVD, I have only watched videos whichever had JIMIN in it which was posted by some twitter accounts. And I have posted all the videos I have watched so far. Except for some JIKOOK moments which I have not posted.

So what is the problem now??? The problem is some people are stupid. I'm actually tired of people talking shit about Jimin. So there was this part where Jimin playfully went close to Jungkook's face and that's it. It just triggered some people or should I just say some nonsense shippers??? They just started their #savejungkook campaign. Like seriously!!!!! They even said Jimin must stop doing fanservice as if you know everything???? And what not I even read a tweet which said even Suga said "he doesn't like it when Jimin goes overboard just to please people!!!!" but if my memory serves me right then Suga never said like this instead he said something like this with a huge smile- "nowadays jiminiee is so funny and sometimes he overdoes just to make members laugh" yes, sometimes he clown himself to make people around him smile/laugh. That's how jimin is. He always try and make people happy and smile. And that's why I like him. He's so pure hearted. He isn't doing fanservice. He's just being himself.

And now coming to Jungkook's being uncomfortable... My question is why would he be uncomfortable? If he was uncomfortable, I'm sure Jimin would have not even touched him. Why people think Jungkook would be uncomfortable with Jimin out of everyone??? Seriously people!!!!! See now it's not about JIKOOK being real or other ship being real. It's about a pure bond which is being dismissed under fanservice tag. I don't know about you people but as I said I really focus on JIMIN most of the times in almost all the BTS contents. And I know this is complete bullshit to say/think that Jungkook hates being touched by Jimin.

First of all, Jimin doesn't clung onto Jungkook all the time. But I agree Jimin always gives Jungkook his full attention and encourages him every now and then. Ofcourse, every member does but not everytime. Jimin has always supported and adored Jungkook. And I have also seen moments where if Jimin doesn't give Jungkook his attention, then Jungkook becomes sulky and he himself approaches Jimin and yeah some stupid people can't see those moments as usual. Jimin is not harassing anyone, so please stop portraying him in that way. I saw a account mentioning bts_twt and telling them what to do like seriously??? She/he is jinkook shipper. That person is telling that she/he knows the truth which she/he got from some inside source that jikook is not real which is completely fine. But what does that have anything to do with Jimin being affectionate with Jungkook???? Why bashing Jimin in the name of fanservice and now it has become too extreme harassment?? Assault??? Do you think your beloved baby kook is still a baby??? Grow up you people...he isn't a kid anymoreeeeee. He knows what is what. People need not poke their noses and go for hash tags.

And most importantly I don't think Jimin needs any fanservice to please his fans. He can just simply sit there and people will still be pleased. He doesn't lack talents you fools. He has got his angelic vocals and dancing skills, ethereal beauty, charm, elegance to attract people. I don't care you who are, but don't drag Jimin down to ease your shipping or to prove your points or in the name of fanservice.

FYI : JUNGKOOK HAS ALWAYS SAID I MEAN ALWAYS SINCE THEIR DEBUT IN ONE OR THE OTHER WAY THAT JIMIN HAS ALWAYS THERE FOR HIM WHENEVER HE NEEDED SUPPORT/COMFORT.

It's fine if you can't love Jimin but stop hating and spreading hatredness about him. He doesn't deserve this.

[cherryyharryy]

This is not Harry related fyi.

One of my resolutions was to start working out, as it is every year. Obviously, I never follow through with it, or it wouldn’t be a resolution.

But I do feel more determined this year, and I think I have a better grip of what it means to exercise, and exercise in a healthy way. February is almost over, and I’m doing well with the goals I set for myself before the new year.

I was (and still am) so incredibly weak—physically. It took nothing for me to become winded. A few steps, and I’m catching my breath. Lifting something heavy, yeah, not gonna happen. At the end of December I was taking my dog out, and I needed to use an umbrella. I was outside for maybe ten minutes, if that, and I ended up completely soaked to the bone, because I didn’t have the strength to hold the umbrella up any longer.

That was such an eye-opening moment for me. I already knew I wasn’t in good shape, and walking up my stairs every day was the reminder. But not being able to hold an umbrella…that slapped me across the face.

So, I decided to plan out my ‘exercise’, where in previous years, my resolution was just to work out. I knew I needed to be specific, and set smaller attainable goals.

Because I was so weak, I decided to start out the first two months doing those 30 day challenges, that I’m sure you’ve seen on Pinterest (and probably other places but I don’t use any other social).

January was push ups, squats, and crunches, in an attempt to target as much of my body without running myself into the ground. I needed to start off slow and easy, because if I tried jumping into a serious workout right away, I would have either ended up hurt, or simply physically incapable of performing the exercises. Either way, I would have given up by January 2nd.

I almost completed it. I had gastroenteritis the last week of January (NOT fun), and was not in a place to do any kind of physical activity. I didn’t know I had this (is it an infection? Virus?) which means I did things to worsen it—not going to elaborate because it’s not pretty lol. I was irritated that I couldn’t finish the 30 days, but I pushed that out of my head, and looked forward to February.

In February I kicked it up a (tiny) notch. Push ups (again, but for the first half of the month, I doubled the amount), calf raises, some kind of reverse crunch, wall sit, and plank. I fucking got sick AGAIN like at the end of the first week of Feb., I think. But, I kept going (not while I was sick). This time, since it wasn’t the end of the month, I wanted to kind of ‘make up’ what I’d missed. So I doubled up some of the days, meaning I would do one day’s challenge in the morning, and then another later in the evening. I’m sure this had little to no effect on me physically, it was more of a mental need to cross those days off on my calendar.

It is now February 25, and I have just a few days left before I’m finished with this month’s challenges. I’m all caught up, and today I did a 4 minute 10 second plank, same time for my wall sit. I can do 50 push-ups in a row without breaking a sweat. And the other exercises are less of a strain—I don’t have to stop constantly.

I know that working out the exact same muscles everyday by doing the exact same exercises isn’t ideal. This was more of an attempt to gain some strength, stamina, and confidence. On January 1st, I had to do 5 push-ups, and I collapsed to the floor, arms shaking, and had to lay there for a few minutes before I could get up. No, I can’t lift 20 pounds over my head or do a pull up, but I’ve clearly made some improvement.

My goal was to start Kayla Itsines’ BBG workout on March 2nd. I’m terrified that I’ll quit, which is the main reason I’m taking the time to spill out all this nonsense that no one asked for. I want to hold myself accountable, and I want something more physical (this post) to come back to when I’ll inevitably feel like throwing in the towel.

I bought her workout, in 2017 I think. I started it last year in April, and quit by June. I want to finish it. I’m also scared that I won’t see the changes I want to see in the mirror. I know I shouldn’t compare my body/progress/results to anyone else, but looking at other women's before and after pictures is motivational, and the thought of not having an ‘after’ picture that I can feel good about is enough for me to not start this workout.

But, even if my expectations for my body are unattainable because that’s not what my body is supposed to look like, I think the only way for me to truly, finally, find that out, is to reach the end of this workout, and still want to keep exercise in my life no matter what that picture shows.

I know myself well enough to know, that I cannot be happy with the way I look if I’m doing nothing to incorporate physical activity in my life. My arms do not look different between me hardly being able to do 5 push-ups, and doing 50…and then another 50 a few minutes later. But I like my arms more. I like that when I needed an umbrella yesterday, I stayed dry. I like the way they look just a little bit more, even though they haven’t changed, it’s my outlook and confidence that has changed, as corny and cliché as that sounds.

Anyway, if you’ve read this far, I wanted to say that if you have resolutions or just goals that you want for yourself, and are having trouble keeping them, starting them, etc., I’d love to hear from you. I’d love to form maybe some kind of tag where we can help each other, encourage each other, offer advice, vent or complain, share struggles and successes. This post, like I said is primarily for myself, but if anyone wants to join in, please feel free to—no matter your goal, it doesn’t have to be fitness related.

I won’t post my before picture that I’ll be taking next week. (In this work out, you’re ‘supposed’ to take weekly progress pictures of yourself). If I feel like it, I will post my before and after pictures when I complete the workout in a few months, God willing I get there haha. I haven’t even shown my face on here, so my body is a bit…😬

Okay, I think that’s all for now. I am going to update this post throughout my time spent doing the workout (I think it’s 8 weeks, but I’ll be doing the 4 week beginner course too. I could be wrong idk, I’ll have to look).

Oh, and I want to say, if you want to know about the BBG workout, you can ask! I did pay for it, and technically I shouldn’t give out the workout for free to anyone—the info for this is on the pdf workout. So please don’t ask me to send you the different workouts, because I don’t feel comfortable doing that.

Kayla’s website 

[flipper-kisses]

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Looks like I need to do one of these again.

I have seen screen shots of asks from here on twitter with people bitching about me and this blog. I have seen people bitching about this blog on other blogs. People bitching that I’ve blocked them. Yes, I have. That exists for a reason.

Look, if you want to come here and say something that’s on your mind and bothering you about Rami or L, and you don’t want to do it on your own blog because you’re afraid of whatever...I’m taking the heat that comes from it for you. Just please be aware of that.

If you’re coming here and reading asks that you don’t agree with, and you don’t like it, please block the tag rami vent and move on. Don’t fucking screen shot it and take it elsewhere to discuss. I feel like this blog has become more of a discussion forum for people to go back and forth and have conversations. If you have a problem with me, take it to my messages and actually TALK TO ME about it instead of behind my back. Funny how I say that I’m open for having these conversations but no one actually does that.

I will post most people’s opinions, and just FYI, just because I post them does NOT mean I agree with them. Anons thoughts do not represent my own unless I say so! I have gotten messages that say I delete asks just because I don’t agree with them, which is not true. You can’t have it both fucking ways. If I agree, I say so. If I don’t, I say so. If I say nothing I don’t feel one way or another.

For people saying I don’t speak up, to put this bluntly, you’re WRONG. People who think this is a lucy hate zone, you’re WRONG. I have posted many, many different asks defending her, as well as saying things in her defense myself. So - no. It’s not a lucy hate zone. I actually went back and looked at a lot of stuff posted over the past few days and there is a LOT in here that is in her defense. It’s been a lot of different conversations. I feel like it’s important not to look at situations from just one side, and I try to make that clear. Sorry if It hasn’t been clear enough.

If you’re disappointed with me, or hate me, or feel some type of way towards me, please don’t follow me or block me. That won’t bother me. I will tag asks as #rami vent so you can add that tag to your block list as well.

[orionsangel86]

So, after a long conversation with super-powerful-queen-slaynna, whom you can thank for me sending this message, so like... if you like it good, if you don't blame them, I do want to apologize for assuming you were saying people can't talk about Destiel, its shippers and how much they dislike it in their group chats. That's what the post came off to me, as if you were policing what people could and couldn't say in these GC about Destiel. Slaynna made me realiza that you meant your post as a 1/2

warning to Destiel shippers who might wander into them. I understand this, because whenever a Destiel shipper follows me, I make it a point to warn them my blog might not be a positive space for them precisely to avoid this sort of unplesant interactions. It also came off as you were invalidating and dismissing the bad experiences people might have had with misbehaving Destiel shippers, which I'm sure you're nice enough NOT to do. My beef is really not with you, or Tink, or any other Destiel 2/?

meta writer, my beef is with shippers who are genuinely hateful and do hateful things. You simply came off as you didn't believe there are Destiel shippers who do these things at all. That say, I won't apologize for venting to like-minded people about my utter dislike for the ship, because we do in fact do that. But I don't think it's fair you walked in on us at that point and extrapolated that's all we do. BTW there is in fact an Anti-Destiel GC and the irony is, if you had walked into that 3/4

one 24hrs earlier, you would have in fact found people gushing about Megstiel and Sastiel, LMAO. 4/4

...

Okay, I’ll give you pointers for being bold enough to come explain this in my ask box, and I commend @super-powerful-queen-slayyna for reaching out to try to calm the stormy seas. I am most likely not going to make any further comments on that post anyway because it has blown out of control and has escalated into a full blown ship war post which I never wanted when I sent it. It’s now Destiel shippers and my friends trying to defend me or people blatantly calling me names and using unnecessary language which I am not even going to acknowledge or give the time of day as I don’t go in for that sort of childish name calling (unless you count my use of the word bronly but some things I think even we can agree are a necessary evil).

My post was a response to my own hurt and irritation at coming across two GCs, one for Sastiel, and one for Megstiel, which were both recommended to me by Tumblr, which were not tagged as anti-Destiel that I could see, that appeared on the surface to simply be places for people to discuss and squee over those ships. In both GCs I saw nothing but hate and lies and other upsetting comments about Destiel and Destiel shippers. It was extremely disheartening to see that in what on the surface appeared to be safe spaces. Because here’s the thing, these shipper GCs should be safe spaces. I have friends that are multishippers, that like Sastiel (and even the odd few who like Megstiel even though admittedly I don’t anymore.) There are plenty of other people out there in fandom that might like all three ships (I’d imagine those people simply want Cas to have all the love in which case SAME). 

To get one point very clear, I don’t actually care if people hate Destiel. I’m not going to preach to anyone about Destiel unless someone comes to me directly or comes scrolling my blog. I always tag Destiel so anyone who uses Tumblr blacklist should be able to avoid my blog completely. I would never intentionally go looking in an anti Destiel chat group. I’ve seen it all before anyway and it’s the same old arguments that really don’t affect my shipping preferences or my beliefs. 

What annoyed me was that those GCs were not anti Destiel chats. They were Megstiel and Sastiel chats. They were places where impressionable young Megstiel and Sastiel shippers could come across, who have zero feelings towards Destiel, and find themselves being told a bunch of lies and nasty crap about Destiel shippers and the ship. They are places where Destiel shippers who like to ship those other ships too might come across and suddenly find themselves isolated and alienated, which only perpetuates retaliation from those Destiel shippers and potentially causes the hate that you stress is so virulent among Destiel shippers to begin with.

My post was a warning for multishippers who are also Destiel shippers or at least Destiel friendly, that those GCs were being used to spread hate about Destiel. It was also an FYI to the people in those GCs that their hatred was very much public, in case they weren’t aware. I tagged the ships because I wanted people who ship Megstiel and Sastiel to see it, especially if they are Destiel friendly, because yeah, I’d want them to avoid those GCs.

Yes I then got snarky. I claimed that this does kinda prove a point because no Destiel GC that I’ve seen includes a bunch of hate and nastiness aimed at other ships. Sure, there is a high chance that there are hateful Destiel shippers out there. There are certainly a lot of bitter people on Twitter who piss me off when they scream queerbaiting at the writers so yes, of course there are bad eggs. I was shocked that from what I saw, there was no squee or shared theories or excitement about the ships, just page after page of hate aimed at Destiel shippers. So yes, perhaps I happened upon both convos right when those topics cropped up (which would be rather coincidental) and perhaps I had just missed the topics that I was interested in checking out - the theories, the meta, the spec... That’s what I was interested in. Since these GCs are a way to keep a finger on the pulse of what the fandom might be thinking in terms of the show and shipping and I was curious. Believe it or not I actually like to keep an open mind even though Megstiel is something that gives me a bad taste in my mouth ever since I sat myself down and truly thought about it. 

I generalised. I know I shouldn’t have done that, but those GC convos pissed me off. I don’t know a single Destiel shipper who would spend hours of their day just ranting about how awful Megstiel shippers are and how much they hate the pairing. I HAVE debated with friends about the suspected infiltration of the Megstiel ship by Bronlies who are using Meg to get Cas out of the way and to be spiteful towards Destiel shippers. This IS something that has been happening in recent years and I think even you admitted that in one of your replies to my post.

I also wasn’t trying to invalidate your experience with hate. I would never do that. The one thing I will say about anon hate in particular is that you don’t know who it is coming from. I occasionally get anon hate but I certainly don’t immediately assume it’s a w*ncest shipper just because I can’t stand w*ncest. Getting a message in your ask box that says “go kill yourself” is horrible, believe me, I know. But if that’s all it is, you can’t assume the sender was a shipper at all. Unless the message was “I ship Destiel and you can go kill yourself” you just can’t assume. If you have had actual Destiel shippers come and attack and threaten you and send you those messages directly then 1. I am so so sorry because no one deserves that kind of abuse, and 2. I hope you exposed them if you could. Because if there is one thing I have learnt about the Destiel shippers in MY circles, it’s that we find that kind of behaviour completely unacceptable and we WILL call it out from our own side if we see it. 

The reason I have such a high opinion of Destiel shippers being the “nice” people in fandom is simply because I have never seen that kind of behaviour from them. I interact with a lot of people. I have seen Destiel shippers get overly passionate, I have seen them get upset and angry when people lash out at them. I have seen them turn bitter and negative and go off on rants about the show. I have seen them dog pile on an anti’s post to provide evidence against a false claim “Kripke said he’s straight” and I thought it was a bit much... but it wasn’t hate. It was a reaction to years and years and years of being laughed at, called delusional, mocked and ridiculed by all other sides within the fandom. Destiel shippers are desperate for validation. They are desperate to disprove the lies. If people actually listened to us, or read the countless posts that have been written clearly providing evidence and sources to disprove every lie and false claim against Destiel perhaps we wouldn’t be so defensive. That’s what happens when you’ve been gaslighted for 11 years. 

But regardless, I’m not here to get involved in shipping wars. You’ll continue going on hating Destiel, and I will continue going on and, well, not hating, but very much disliking Megstiel in canon (though I have read some very sweet Destiel fics where Meg is Cas’s best friend and enjoyed the characterisations there.) 

My post was never to gatekeep and stop you from ranting about Destiel. Rant away to your hearts content. As I said above I really don’t care if people hate it. All I ask, is that you keep that kind of content in places that are clearly labelled as anti Destiel. So that should a Destiel shipper want to check out a Sastiel or a Megstiel GC, they can do, without feeling completely unwelcome and hated on just for enjoying Dean and Cas’s relationship as well. I really don’t think that’s too much to ask. All it takes is one tag right? Create your Megstiel GC and by all means rant about Destiel in it, but please just tag it as Anti Destiel.

Thank you for reaching out to me and explaining your side of things. I do appreciate it. 

[transkieran]

anyway, guarma & colm-odriscoll-is-my-daddy (& friends) think abusive ships are a funny way to get under someone’s skin

JUST FYI: I woulda had this conversation in private, but @guarma keeps calling Erin a bitch with a god-complex, even though everything she accuses Erin of is something I did, and she refuses to acknowledge me. So no more private, she called me a pussy for not confronting her. Well here's the confront ig!

background context: people decided to start shitting on the Yehaw Function server again in another server (let’s say ‘A’ bc I do not wish to drag the owner into this, they were rarely online). @ssupeck21 thought it was perfectly fine to mock the gender and race of a two-spirited native trans guy. nice transphobia and racism there! 

considering i remarked on it, they realized i knew him and suspected me of leaking the above screenshot to the YF server. i had already left this server at the end of february over several reasons, including erin’s server becoming my main one. i’m also reasonably sure i have mentioned no longer being in YF at some point. damage done: kate (guarma) and pongo ( @colm-odriscoll-is-my-daddy ) now think i’m “a spy” for YF. (ironic because @ssupeck21 let @jennyxbeans into erin’s server bc she was spying for jenn. and more irony later)

as proven in DM to someone later (oh no, a spied image?), they had the amazing idea to bait me and erin with something that is a massive trigger for me (bully/victim ships). some weirdness: by that time, i’d only made about 2 b/k posts on my blog, neither of which mentioned my trauma i’m pretty sure. erin meanwhile, wasn’t even in the original convi from the first screenshot, though she has mentioned she finds b/k gross. 

so whilst this in its entirety is already immature in itself (really? you think someone is sending screenshots and wanna get ‘revenge’ when you constantly rely on getting screenshots yourself? yes i know someone leaked you screenshots of YF, kate). but also: for someone who talked about being abused and having anxiety, she should know better than use an abusive ship to get back at someone. because i’m 99% sure she knows b/k is a trigger for me; whilst not on my blog, i have had plenty of rants and vents in servers about how b/k is not good for my mental health and that it will make me panic. 

conversation #1 (i do not have screenshots of this): someone asked what everyone’s ships are in rdr2. bill/kieran gets mentioned, at some point i put rooWut (a disgusted looking emote) and remark something about abusive gay ships being cute to them. it gets glossed over, i leave. 

conversation #2. the conversation moves to the nsfw channel, where they pin the message in the above screenshot. ha ha , bully/victim ships are a funny joke! conversation moves on to arthur and other things until Pongo clearly feels like she wants to force a reaction out of me and/or erin. (living dead girl is erin, i am dan’s achy breaky heart).

at this point, my anxiety spikes and i put something along the lines of “my fist up your ass would look cute” in the vent chat of Erin’s server. NSFW with b/k is not good for me, at all. it made me flashback to something, i’m basically just trying to not have a panic attack. but ! ofc , why stop now. 

pongo makes another comment, now not under a spoiler tag and clearly with the context of the DM to get another reaction out of me. erin puts a completely unrelated image to try and divert the conversation, because i’m like entirely losing it at this point---but kate and pongo think it’s hilarious to talk about actually shipping it and kate (micah bell’s dumb hair in the screenshots) is all “omg i wanna write a smut now for them”. 

also: my nickname in this server includes ‘trans kieran’ at this point , either as just my url or like “lion ♡ trans kieran”. they all know i am a gay trans guy, even if some of them currently like to pretend they don’t know me. (hi, @morlawny who doesn’t even wanna say my name at this point despite being all nice in erin’s server.)

i can’t entirely remember my own message, nor do i have screenshots of it because i send it and left and they deleted it like straight after it seems (because an older screenshot, from the day itself, also didn’t have my message anymore). i left because at that point, i lost all ability to think straight. because someone can remark on b/k before and they’ll still be all “ha ha funny!”

at this point, in erin’s server, two things happen. one friend of kate, who isn’t in the server this happened in, asks if she ships bill/kieran and kate admits her plan to just trigger me. because of this, kate starts acting like the victim and making me out like the bad guy who’s shittalking her and refuses to talk to her--which, during a panic attack and with my feelings very clear, i don’t need to. 

secondly, another friend of kate decides my trauma is funny and starts to send kate (on request) screenshots of the vent conversation in erin’s server, starting from the goddamn my fist up your ass comment. the conversation also includes details of my trauma. my trauma is being send around like gossip. 

also this happens in the server i left and i get send it: 

i dunno what planet anyone is living on but, apparently my melt down was only good for one thing: getting mocked. “kieran’s coochie” is transphobic as fuck when you’re laughing at a trans guy getting upset over bill/kieran. especially when it’s very clear i hc kieran as trans. yet, pongo, wolfy ( @soulheartthewolf ) and kate seem to think it’s fucking hilarious. 

kate and pongo then try to play the “we were just joking!” card. when everyone i’ve had read those screenshots agrees nothing about it reads as a joke, and we’re now very sure they weren’t joking about, they were being vile and malicious. (but hey, what’s to expect from someone who says they’d fuck a fictional racist if he was real! that’s ... excusing racism, kate).  

(guarma is micah bell? you mean my husband ;; pongo is arthur morgan is an incel. the other person is the artist who drew young micah, idk their url anymore)

“my mocking of the Bill/Kieran ship” I’m so sorry, Kate, but nothing about nsfw b/k and wanting to write a fic about it, reads as mocking. This entire “it’s just a joke!” doesn’t diminish the fact that you triggered a panic attack. Yes, I shittalked you, because I felt like it was goddamn deserved for "joking” about an abusive ship in a way that didn’t read as a joke. because after I left neither of you got the damn hint and just went straight for the transphobia. It’s not get together and hate guarma, it’s “lion has a panic attack and will actually react insanely aggressively about the things that upset him”. You can turn and twist this into you being the victim all you want, but you ain’t. You’re a pathetic example of a 19 year old who thinks it’s funny to trigger flashbacks and panic attacks. I didn’t talk to you, because at the time the only thing I would’ve probably said, which is also what I’m saying now, is: go shove an entire cactus up your ass, you pathetic cunt of a human being. 

Leave Erin out of this, it’s goddamn hilarious you keep going after a cis bi woman instead of after me, a gay trans guy, and god I fucking wonder why. 

You interact with people who think they can just be racist and transphobic towards anyone they like ( @ssupeck21 ), with people who’ll willing send you all the screenshots you want, with people who send anon hate ( @jennyxbeans ), you’re treating trauma and abuse like a joke and then have the gal to be all “i’d never because i have anxiety!” No. Own up to your shit. 

(I could go on in this post about how she’s just as bad a shittalking, leaked screenshot-wanting piece of shit but hey, the post is very long already so whatever). 

edit: i have deleted screenshot leaking accusations towards morlawny bc i can’t actually prove them but i’m keeping up the thing where you decided to be all nice to me in servers, but then turned around and were all “idk kate didn’t say any of that” (i literally know u were there for those conversations, your name in screenshots!) and tried to defend her constantly in a DM with someone. 

[fangedfaefreak]

TW: Going to rant about Christianity for a hot second, fyi. I will be quoting verses. I just don’t want to put this on my main in case the guy I argued with sends his buddies after that account bc I really shouldn’t have argued but I did, so🤷🏻 Call me a chicken for blocking them, but I am already triggered and on edge and I’m not about to make it 20x worse. Religion is sooo fucky for us and I really don’t need to keep surrounding myself in that pile of garbage. Putting a read more bc I definitely get blasphemous and I know some religious trauma folks follow our sys account and could see this AND some Christians follow us there too. (I love you, I know you’re not like the ones that hurt us.) This post is made by Vivian, btw. Duh, it’s my account lol.

Got in an argument on main with a Christian🙄

“My book of fables that I often take as absolute truth and completely out of context despite it being written and mistranslated so many times it’s not funny AND I will only use the parts that will further MY agenda and ignore the rest. So here you go: witches are evil.”

Okay. But you wear cotton blend shirts, I’m sure? And have eaten shrimp?

And man, I sure know that Christians enjoy ritual prostitution! That’s literally considered ritually offensive! (Kings 14:23) Doesn’t stop them though! :))) Because why would it?

Not to mention in Christianity it literally says that the Old Testament, while it should still be considered, should not be followed. Rather, the New Testament should be followed. That’s why Christianity has the New Testament rather than just the Old like Jewish folks.

“But Vivi! The New Testament talks about witches too!”

Yeah, they sure do.

In Revelations 22:15 it says that witches will not receive eternal life. (Which…why the fuck would they care about the Christian eternal life anyway lmfao) “Outside are the dogs, those who practice magic arts, the sexually immoral, the murderers, the idolaters and everyone who loves and practices falsehood.”

Weird, I sure know a lot of Christians who fall under that category^^ And yet they still preach and use their religion to get what they want. Fucking disgusting!

And this is not bashing on every single Christian ever, there are a lot of good Christians that don’t use their religion to push their own agenda, but it’s just so gross to see these people on tumblr of all places, especially since they tagged their original post as witchcraft rather than fucking Christian tags. Like I’m sorry I don’t wanna see that on my dash, you’re not going to magically convert me by calling me a heathen and saying I’m going to hell and that I have daddy issues.🙄 Get a grip on your fucking ego holy shit.

I can cherry-pick verses too. Easy peasy. We studied the Bible obsessively for years. Then we realized how fucked it all was and how much hatefulness comes from people misusing it. No thank you.

Gonna try to tag the religious trauma tags and tw tags but I’m turning off reblogs in case any assholes try to clown on this vent post.

-Vivi

[unicorns-at-arbys]

ufomisms post (the one you called like u healthy behavior on) wasnt a joke its how people with bpd and other personality disorders feel and often instead on acting on said unhealthy feelings and thoughts, we vent. just fyi

I’m sorry I never answered this, I don’t get notifications/check my inbox often

For anyone reading this, it’s in reference to this post 

I can understand that this is a genuine feeling people have. What I referred to as being unhealthy is when people do act upon it in ways like I described. When this feeling arises, the best thing to do is talk to the person about it. I know that sentiment seems difficult- even impossible for some- but if the person truly means so much to you that you would feel this way, the only other options are to remain miserable or act out highly toxic and unhealthy behaviors like the examples I gave. In either case, all it does is causes even more mental anguish for both parties. If you really feel unappreciated, whether you believe your own feelings to be rational or not, talk to them about it. If you really care about yourself, or, often more likely, if you really care about them, then that’s the only way it’s ever going to get better. The right way to go about it isn’t completely cutting ties because someone needs to sleep, calling the police because someone is busy, starting screaming matches because the two of you have obligations that keep you from spending all of your time together, etc. and then acting as if you’re the victim in the situation. I know that this post wasn’t specifically targeted at that, but sadly I’ve had more experience with people who do play out that side of it than with people who take a responsible approach. That being said, the comment I made was based off of personal experience, and the tag about it being a joke was meant as in “I know this isn’t how the conversation about this topic would actually flow.” I apologize if I came across as putting down anyone’s genuine concerns about life and relationships, that was never my intent. 

Thank you for the ask and if you, or anyone, in this situation needs to talk, never hesitate to message me directly.

[sweetlysilent]

Figment (Ch. Seven)

Requested By: Nobody

Pairing: Richie Tozier x Reader

Warnings: Traumatic Memories, Fear, Swearing, Symptoms of Anxiety, Mention of Pennywise, etc.

Summary:

When is a door not a door? Most people tend to always overthink the question, over processing what the answer could be, when in reality it’s right in front of your face. When it’s ajar. This is a riddle that is constantly in the back of your mind.

Just like your greatest fear, it lurks between the space of the door, showing it’s form like a shadow, always creeping behind you. But you convince yourself it’s just a figment of your imagination, that it’s all in your head, that you’re just seeing things. But, what happens when the Loser’s Club end up seeing it too?

A/N: So, I don’t know how many people enjoy this lil blurb mini series but I really like it so I’m going to continue writing it bc it makes me happy. If you like it too then by all means go ahead and read it and if you don’t then don’t read it :)) I post other content too.

This isn’t exactly based off the movie or the book, I’m just kind of free handing it and I might use bits and pieces from the movie, but besides that I’m basically just flowing with it. Another thing, feel free to send a comment in my ask or below on what you thought of this part! I’d love to see everyone’s reactions, it helps keep me motivated.

Also, comment below or send me an ask if you’d like to be tagged!

I hope this chapter makes sense lmao

The next day Richie and Bill were determined to get the other Loser's to believe, to get over their denial and realize that the clown was indeed, real.

Ben had invited them all over after their swimming day at the quarry, since they were all interested in seeing what other kind of articles he had on the missing kids.

"Wow." Richie commented, walking through is room, his eyes magnifying behind his large thick frames of his glasses, observing the paper's on his wall.

"This is what you do in your free time?" Richie added on, giving a smug smirk at Ben who shrugged his shoulders silently.

"Richie shut up." Eddie scolded, observing a certain news article on the wall, making Richie shrug in response, a grin on his face.

"Whoa, hey guys look at this one." Stan interrupted, causing all their heads to snap over to him, curious as to what he had found.

"It says that all these kids went missing, but eventually were all found, their bodies were all mangled and.." Stan trailed off, reading the rest of the article silently, his face paling at the words.

The others ended up getting the hint, their throats tightening, all those kids ended up dead, they went missing, and ended up dead, alone.

"G-Guys there's s-something we need t-t-to tell y-you." Bill broke the silence, his words getting choked up from what they had just read, he was already on edge from Georgie going missing, but now he was even more concerned about you.

"What's wrong Bill?" Beverly questioned, her gaze now fixated on him as was everyone else's.

"It's a-about Y-Y/N."

"Y/N's been taken guys, IT got Y/N." Richie blurted out, watching as everyone's face expressions dropped, their eyes widening.

"That's why Y/N isn't here.."

"Oh my god."

"Shit this is bad."

"How did this fucking happen Richie?" Stan snapped, surprising not only himself for being so straightforward but surprising everyone else for his sudden outburst.

"I-I -I don't know Stanley! One second Y/N is telling me about their night terror, and how they saw me, and next thing you know I'm having one of Y/N, trapped in the sewers, except it wasn't Y/N, I saw them floating, and yet somehow I saw Y/N standing right in front of me at the same time." Richie vented, his eyes starting to water, this wasn't supposed to happen, why was he feeling so panicked? He hasn't had a panic attack in so long.

"Richie calm down."

"-Hey, Richie breathe."

"C-C'mon buddy bre-breathe, y-you're o-okay."

Richie stumbled backwards into the wall, his chest rising and falling rapidly as his friends tried their best to calm him down, his eyes were tightly shut. He hated this feeling, he felt vulnerable, exposed.

"Richie." Your voice rang through his ears, making his eyes snap open rapidly, only for him to realize he was no longer in Ben's room, he was in the sewers once again.

"Y/N?" He called out, now standing up, his eyes squinting as they adjusted to the darkness.

"How the fuck did I get here?" He muttered to himself, his feet sludging through the murky water underneath him.

"Isn't it obvious Richie? I brought you here. You belong here. With me." You spoke in the darkness, sending chills down Richie's arms.

"This isn't you, I know it's not you." Richie growled out, his hands forming into fists as he searched for the imposter version of you.

"What are you talking about? This is me. It's always been me." You laughed, your voice echoing around him as he made his way into the famous opening once more.

His eyes flickered up to where he saw you still floating above him, except this time you were higher, even more lifeless than when he saw you before.

"Y/N." Richie whispered, a tear slipping down his cheek as he saw you above him, his heart breaking into a million pieces.

"I will save you. I promise. I'm going to get you out of here." Richie choked out, knowing full well you couldn't hear him, but he didn't care, he needed to tell himself that too.

"Nice speech, you done yet?" Your voice echoed throughout the empty space, making Richie's jaw clench.

"Depends, are you going to come out instead of hiding from me? Like the coward you are you fucking psychopath!" Richie shouted, turning around, only to see you standing a few feet before him.

His breath caught in his throat, eyes widening slightly as you stood there, arms crossed as you gave him a small smirk.

 "Now what are you going to do Richie? Looks to me as if you're scared. Are you scared of me? Scared of what might happen to me if I make it to the top?" You taunted, inching your way closer to him as he tried to drown your voice out.

"You're not Y/N." He growled out, his eyes flickering up to yours as you now stood a few inches away from him.

You stood in front of him, a wicked smile on your face as you laughed.

"How do you know I'm not Y/N? Because you see someone up there that looks like me? How do you know that isn't someone else? How do you know that this isn't all just a figment of your imagination?" You taunted once more, now right in his face as his eyes widened, your words messing up his head, before something clicked.

"Y/N wouldn't play mind games with me." He whispered, his face expression growing stern, making you stumble backwards a bit.

"That's how I know you aren't Y/N." He threatened, as he sauntered towards you, making you take steps backwards.

"That's how I know you're the fucking clown!"

He watched as you grinned, before your body started to break down right before his eyes, only for the clown to appear, his evil laugh echoing throughout his ears.

"Beep Beep Richie."

Richie sat up abruptly, gasping for air, startling all his friends who were now looking at him with worried and concerned expressions.

"Richie!"

"Holy shit are you okay?"

"Dude what happened?"

Richie sat there, breathing heavily as he observed his surroundings, he was back in Ben's room, his friends were real, this was all real.

"W-What happened?" He breathed out, looking at Bill who gave him a concerned expression.

"Y-You blacked o-out." Bill explained, glancing over at Beverly who was biting her nails nervously.

"How long was I out?" Richie groaned, standing up as he dusted his shorts off, looking at his friends.

"About twenty minutes." Mike explained, giving him a pained expression.

"Shit." Richie muttered, before his eyes widened once more, his breath disappearing for a second.

"What is it Richie?" Stan questioned, looking at his friend in confusion.

"I saw Y/N, guys, if we don't save Y/N now, they're going to die. That fucking clown is killing Y/N, it tried getting in my head pretending to be Y/N, but I outsmarted it, and showed it's true form, the clown." Richie choked out, rubbing his eyes behind his glasses.

"Fucking shit." Eddie muttered, grabbing his inhaler and giving it a puff as he paced the room anxiously.

"Y-You guys really n-need to b-believe us." Bill joined in, standing beside Richie, who was about to have a mental breakdown.

"I do." Beverly spoke up quickly, her arms crossed, before glancing at the other boys.

"I do too." Mike joined in.

"Same here." Ben walked to stand next to Beverly.

"I believe you guys." Eddie chimed in, using his inhaler once more.

It then all came down to Stan, who was staring at his shoes, not wanting to be noticed.

"Stanley." Richie broke the silence, making his head rise up slowly, a scared expression on his face.

"I-I don't want to believe." Stan choked out, shaking his head as Mike went over to comfort him.

"Stan, we need to do this together, it's the only way were going to defeat IT and save Y/N, just.. please." Richie begged, looking at Stan with sorrow eyes as Stan gave a hesitant nod in response.

"Alright.. I believe you guys." He whispered, before his focus went back to the ground.

"G-Great! So that s-settles it. Tomorrow w-we save Y-Y/N." Bill glanced at all his friends who nodded in agreement.

"Let's kill this fucking clown."

Just an FYI there will be three more chapters after this one, so in total, ten chapters. :))

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