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[healer-protector]

The First Cut is the Deepest

{that��s how the song goes, right?}

Do you remember the first time you were traumatized by your career?

I was two weeks into my new job in the ER. I went through all of my orientations, paperwork, and worked a week on day shift. 

Here I was on nights. 

As a new employee our checkoffs include observing a few Trauma Reds and being the nosey person I am, I was allll for running to that GSW to the head that was an ETA of 5 min.

I remember walking out of the double doors into the main ambulance hallway. Nurses in blue gowns and lead vests filled the hall, trauma surgery walked to the bays chatting about their weekend plans, and security blocked the door headed to the lobby to ensure other patients didn’t step in the way of the speeding stretcher. 

It was all happening so fast to me, but to them it was just another night. 

EMS busted through the doors, like a movie, doing compressions as they walked back to the trauma bay.

GSW to the head. 

Blood trailing behind them. 

Me trailing behind them. 

I will never forget the way it looked. 

With each compression, brain matter spewing from the head onto the stretcher. 

I grabbed towels as the hallway cleared, trying to calmly page the cleaning crew with a mop.

Just then, I turned around and saw a girl pushing a man on a wheelchair, staring at me and at the scene as I looked at the floor in disbelief. 

What have I gotten myself into. 

Here I am, almost 2 years later, still reliving the first trauma I had ever witnessed. Though now, I am the person in the blue gown and lead vest. Now, I am the person doing compressions. Now, it’s just another night. 

[healer-protector]

About Me

My name is Olivia. I am currently an Emergency Department Technician (EDT) and Behavioral Health Specialist (BHS) in the busiest ER/Level One Trauma Center in my state.

I am currently in school for my RN,BSN and my goal is to be a Flight/Trauma Nurse and possibly one day obtain my Psych NP.

In my personal time enjoy the outdoors {hunting, fishing, backpacking, hiking, kayaking, shooting}, flying airplanes, working out, and crafting.