#further commentary ..forthcoming

[inmyjaws]

I'll be real with you folks I had one too many pink whitney shooters at the cinemark yesterday and I don't remember if saw x was good or not

[sweetmidnights]

The Archer-- Chapter 4: Safe and Sound

Pairing: Kai Bartley/OC; Kai Bartley/Amelia Shepherd; Kai Bartley/Amelia Shepherd/OC

Summary: Kai's time in the lab and connecting with Amelia professionally. Their worry over Mouse is distracting and ultimately builds to a confrontation. Content warning for vomitting.

Warnings: Descriptions of physical pain. Vomiting.

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Long fingers stretched to a wide, round knob, gripping gently and twisting forward, pulling the stage of a microscope closer to its lens until a wall of pink focused into striations of white. Carefully, with the smaller knob, Kai pulled the stage minutely closer until the striations focused further, showing ripples in the brain tissue on their slide. Kai flicked the objective to the left twice,  zooming in on the sample and using the smaller knob to fine-tune the picture until little circles of purple came into focus. One, two, three, four… Kai counted in their head, using a clicker in their left hand to keep track. Typically, when counting slides for cells, Kai would turn off their mind and just click for every cell they saw until they counted them all. But, on days like today, the neuroscientist liked to do the count in their head– the ritual of it, the routine was soothing when their mind was in overdrive. 

Kai had been worried about Mouse since her migraine attack on Monday, both for its severity and her lack of communication after. She had called on Tuesday morning, like Kai had asked in their note on the fridge, but since then, she had been radio silent. No good morning texts, no random updates throughout the day, no photos of the fat squirrels she found around campus, nothing. It was like Kai’s best friend had fallen off the face of the planet. They had reached out a few times throughout the week to check on her or send a silly joke they had heard, but her responses were short and never inviting more conversation. Before they could dwell longer on their best friend’s sudden absence, however, their work computer dinged with a new email. 

From: Amelia Shepherd (shepherda@grey-sloan-memorial.com)

Subject: Parkinson's Trial Follow-Up

Kai could feel their heart skip a beat at the name, a pleasant warmth spreading through their belly. It had been three days since Dr. Shepherd and Dr. Grey had visited the lab, and ultimately decided to join the project. To hear from Amelia again was nothing short of thrilling for the neuroscientist. They immediately stepped away from their microscope and opened the email.

Dr. Bartley,

I hope this email finds you well. Thank you, again, for the incredible introduction to the lab– I am in awe of the machinery and all the work you’re doing. I can’t wait to get started on the trial. Could you send along the write-ups for the phases of the trial you’ve completed thus far? I have Dr. Hamilton’s materials that he sent to Dr. Grey, but I would like a closer look at the procedures and data. Plus, I’m sure that your commentary on the materials would be nothing short of genius.

Kind regards,

Dr. Amelia Shepherd, M.D. F.A.C.S. (she/her/hers)

Chief of Neurosurgery, Grey Sloan Memorial Hospital

Kai suppressed a smile as they read the email from Amelia, their cheeks heating up at the compliments she had skillfully incorporated in the message. From the moment they met, Amelia had been nothing but forthcoming of her awe toward the neuroscientist, showering them with an affection they hadn’t received since– well, ever. Once you reach the level of excellence that obtaining a Ph.D. demands, the awe and starstruck eyes all come grinding to a halt, as everyone around you is equally as talented and in the same pool fighting for scholarships, mentorships, conferences, published articles, and more. Then, as a professional researcher, the work becomes monotonous, mundane, even, and the eyes that were once watching your every step slowly fade into casual glances, as passion for research and progress becomes par for the course, a prerequisite for even existing in the academic space at all. But with Dr. Shepherd– Amelia, it was like that shine never wore off, that thirst for more and sense of wonder was never taken from her. However she had managed it, Kai was in awe of the person that she was. Without hesitation, Kai began their reply. 

From: Kai Bartley (Bartley.Kai@mayo.edu)

Subject: Re: Parkinson's Trial Follow-Up

Dr. Shepherd,

Attached are the files for the preliminary runs with mice. I look forward to meeting with you again and having your expertise working alongside us. If I’m nothing short of genius, you must be cosmic-level, out-of-this-world genius. I read your article on the inoperable glioblastoma that you removed several years ago and the follow-up five years later with the patient still in remission. It’s an amazing feat. 

Would you happen to be free on Friday morning for a video conference? I expect to have another wave of data by then. 

Cheers,

Kai Bartley, Ph.D. (they/them)

Neural Stem Cell Scientist, The Grey Center

Clunky footsteps echoed through the labspace as Kai pressed send, David Hamilton’s figure coming into view of Kai’s doorway within moments. 

“Dr. Bartley, a word?” he asked without hesitating to step into their office and shut the door behind him.

“Of course,” Kai replied, spinning their chair to face their mentor, leaning back against it and placing their hands behind their head. 

David grabbed one of the extra chairs in the small office and brought it closer to Kai, abnormally opting to place himself within Kai’s comfortable line of sight instead of standing over them as they sat. He seemed markedly calmer than he had the days previous when he had called Kai into the lab after hours in a panic. 

“You’ve not been very present this week,” David said, leaning forward on his elbows. 

Kai blinked twice and wrinkled their eyebrows. 

“I’ve been here for at least 8 hours every day this week, sir,” Kai replied, unsure what he was referring to. 

“Yes, and you’ve been spending your time counting cell slides aimlessly every morning and I’ve seen more bags of chips in the office trash than anything else,” Dr. Hamilton said, wasting no time on beating around the bush. “Normally I don’t mind the occasional slow morning between waves of data collection, but I’m worried about you.”

Kai’s head shot up and their eyes widened, not expecting to hear that last statement from the man, or that he was so attuned to their habits and behaviors. Their arms returned to their lap as the tone of the impromptu meeting was revealed.

“I’m not unaware of the ways in which you handle your stress, Dr. Bartley, but normally it presents in a way that is more productive for the lab, not less. It’s easier to let you work through your own stuff when you’re churning out twice as much work as the others.”

Kai huffed and pressed their lips into a straight line. No matter how kind and considerate Dr. Hamilton could be, he would always be a shark and focused on the work, on the results. Any form of vulnerability needed to be masked with his ambition and his ruthless pursuit to be the best. 

“I’m sorry, sir. It is unusual for me and I will get back to work,” Kai said, holding the older scientist at arms length. 

David looked Kai up and down before he cleared his throat and stood up.

“I find that it’s easier to get back to work when I’ve gotten everything sorted. Do what you need to do, Dr. Bartley,” he said before walking out, giving Kai the closest thing to compassionate advice that he could muster. His words could easily be interpreted one way or another– to sort out their actual work to make it more efficient or to tie up the loose ends that are occupying so much of their mind. Kai heard it for what it was, and nodded at the surgeon as he left. 

Spinning back in their chair toward their desk, Kai mulled over everything that had happened in the last week. The kiss, the migraine, the tense conversation in the car, the radio silence– everything that was circling their mind centered on one thing: Mouse. Everything was so different, so many things had changed in such a short period of time. For the first time in a very long time, the only thing at the forefront of Kai’s mind was fear: fear for Mouse, of their feelings for her, of the damage they knew they could do to. On Monday they had tried to tell Mouse that the kiss couldn’t happen again but every time they opened their mouth to end what had barely even started, the sound caught in their throat. They knew that they needed to preserve their friendship, that they needed to protect Mouse from all the ways they knew they would destroy who they were to each other if they took it further. But sitting next to Mouse, smelling her perfume, feeling her comforting touch, they knew they could never break her heart because it would break their own, too. Every time they tried to tell Mouse that the kiss would never happen again, that they could never happen again, it felt like their throat would close up with the words, like they would suffocate under the pressure of the collapse. They were stuck in limbo and nothing they could do would make it better.

Kai knew that despite all of this, something needed to happen to ease their mind. Address the kiss? No. Try to have the conversation from the car again? Absolutely not. Figure out why Mouse isn’t talking to them and convince her to see a doctor? It would have to do. Hopefully it would be enough to get their progress in the lab back on track. They had never had David come to talk to them like that and they deeply wanted to not have that embarrassing conversation again. 

Another notification rang in from their laptop. They reached to open it when they saw the sender, welcoming the distraction from their thoughts. 

From: Amelia Shepherd (shepherda@grey-sloan-memorial.com)

Subject: Re: Parkinson's Trial Follow-Up

Dr. Bartley,

I can do a 10:45, does that work for you? My surgery schedule is pretty full on Friday but I have some time then.

Kind regards, 

Dr. Amelia Shepherd, M.D. F.A.C.S. (she/her/hers)

Chief of Neurosurgery, Grey Sloan Memorial Hospital

Kai responded a confirmation and placed the meeting in their calendar. They looked at all of the scheduled events over the next couple of days and and inspiration struck– they knew what to do. At 5 pm on Friday, Kai put an event in their calendar that would send a push notification to their phone: Check on Mouse, Don’t Take No For An Answer. Kai decided that if they hadn’t heard from Mouse by the time that they finished their call with Amelia on Friday, they would go track her down and check on her. From now, until then, they would shove their worry as far away into a box as they could and not reopen it until Friday evening. Yes. That would work. Kai just needed to put their head down and throw themself into their work to make up for how distracted they had been early in the week and then they could allow themself to worry when it was over. 

It had to work, right?

**

By the time Friday morning had rolled around, Kai had about driven themself mad with all of their nervous energy. To keep themself alert and focused, they had been drinking coffee from the cafeteria like it was water and had loaded their schedule with tasks that demanded the most of their attention. They had left themself no room for worry while in the four walls of the lab, which meant that it all spilled over into the little time they spent at home. Their sleep had been fitful to the point that their cat, Bean, had crawled onto their chest to try and settle them. Mouse had replied to one of their four texts since Wednesday and it was only a heart emoji to a photo of Bean tangled in their plant, Ringo’s leaves. It was so out of character for Mouse–to use an emoji, to not respond, especially not to their messages that were expressing concern. 

10:45 came and went without a call from Amelia, so Kai busied themself with working in the shared lab space with the lab techs. They had been working on creating new solutions to inject into the mice and it was no secret that Kai had a soft spot for the part of neuroscience that was hands-on. Micropipettes and living cells, solutions and neurochemicals all working together to create a new product that would hopefully lead the team closer to their destination. It was thrilling, to say the least. Plus, the idle chitchat of the technicians was just enough to fill the empty space between their thoughts as they worked. 

Around noon, they heard their laptop begin to ring. The rest of the techs had just gone to lunch but Kai had stayed behind to continue tinkering with the set up, so they reached to answer without returning to their office.

“Shepherd,” Kai said as they answered the call ringing on their laptop, picking it up to carry with them to the vials of samples they needed to analyze next. 

“Dr. Bartley, hey! I am so sorry that I missed our call earlier,” Amelia replied, her voice enthusiastic but markedly exhausted.  

“What happened?” Kai asked, not looking at the screen, but at the tray of test tubes in their hand. 

“I had a complication in the OR, and it took longer than I expected.”

As Amelia explained her absence, Kai finally looked up and noticed that she was holding a big, blue ice pack to the back of her neck and a sheen of sweat was glistening on her pale skin under the fluorescent lights of the hospital. 

“Your head. You hurt?” Kai asked, concern lacing their features as they quickly scanned over Amelia’s face, looking for signs of distress. They quickly crossed the lab space to put the laptop onto their desk and give Amelia all of their attention.

“Oh, no, I’m fine. Just incredibly hot,” Amelia said with a breathy laugh. Kai looked on with amusement, letting out a lighthearted snort of their own. It was true, Amelia was incredibly hot, though Kai was sure that the neurosurgeon wasn’t in the habit of sharing that with new colleagues. 

“Uh, historic Seattle heat wave,” Amelia continued, raising her eyebrows and looking away as she explained her little fumble, her voice laced with a hint of embarrassment and humor. “Even the hospital is not as cool as it should be.” “Got it. I got the MRI scans on the latest mice group,” Kai replied, immediately steering the conversation back toward the trial, the science, before the conversation could get too far away from them. They quickly pulled up the scan files on the screen behind Amelia’s head, showing the increased gray matter in the experimental group. 

“And?” Amelia’s response was expectant and intrigued, but also laced with the discomfort of the sweltering heat around her. 

“74% showed that the transplanted cells are functional.” 

“Oh, my God! That’s fantastic news.” 

Amelia’s exuberance was palpable through the screen, her awe for the work of the tall neuroscientist once more making its way to the forefront of their conversation. 

“Meh. I see it as a need for 26% improvement,” Kai replied, tempering her excited optimism with their own realistic views of the results, picking at the cuticles of their thumb with their forefinger offscreen as they thought about how much progress they were still yet to make. “I want to start another group next week. Can you get up here by then? Do some trouble-shooting with me?” 

Kai finally looked up from the scans and took note of the crease between Amelia’s eyebrows and the tension in her neck and shoulders. Though a smile was shining on her face, the discomfort exuding from the surgeon made Kai wish that they could do something to help. 

“I would be thrilled. Absolutely, yeah,” Amelia said, pulling the ice pack across the back of her neck, switching positions, desperately trying to cool herself down as she swayed on her feet to keep the air around her circulating as best she could. 

“Thanks…” Kai said, trailing off as they debated what they wanted to do next. “Close your eyes.” 

They picked up the laptop and brought it to stand in front of their next station. 

“Umm… Okay?” Amelia replied, confused but acquiescing to their request. 

Long ago, when Mouse was still an undergraduate psychology student, she had taken a biology course that was led by a professor who liked to begin every lab period with a guided meditation. She had said that it worked wonders for helping her regulate her system and get her ready to focus on the tasks ahead. Kai learned about it some weeks later as they, themself, had been stressing over an exam for a biology course and Mouse led them in a guided meditation over the phone from hundreds of miles away. It wasn’t a magic cure-all, but it worked just enough that Kai was able to focus, study, and go into the exam with significantly less nervous energy.

“You’re in Lake Superior in late fall, right before it freezes over,” Kai started, thinking back to the last time that they made the trip to the largest, coldest, fiercest Great Lake. Even in the middle of August, the hottest days of the year, the water was still cold to the touch and only those with the tolerance for her frigid, powerful waters could bear to spend more than a few minutes at a time in her depths. “No wetsuit, no sunshine. It’s the type of cold that makes your fingers ache and your eyelashes frost. Your whole body chatters, not just your teeth.”

There was a reverence to Kai’s voice, both for Lake Superior and the woman standing before them through the screen. Their cadence was even, their tone deep and scratchy as they reached for their quiet, soft power. 

“Uh… are you trying to guide-meditate me into feeling cool?” Amelia asked, wrinkling her face just a little before opening her eyes to look back at Kai, whose face was a mixture of peace, intrigue, and compassion. She flicked her gaze around, back and forth from the screen to the wall behind it and back as she tried to make sense of what was happening. Though her face was already flushed from the heat, Kai could see a bit of pink tinge the tip of her ears that wasn’t there before. 

“Did it work?” They asked, serious but with a playful smile.

“I mean, it didn’t not work.” Amelia replied, leaning back on her heels but bending at the waist to draw herself closer to the screen. 

Kai chuckled lightly and smiled with closed lips as they watched Amelia work through the onslaught of feelings she had just been presented with. Instead of inviting more conversation, wanting to keep themself a bit of a mystery, Kai simply said, “See you next week, Shepherd.”

With that, they ended the call and smiled to themself, finally allowing themself to feel the fluttering of butterflies in their belly from the interaction with Amelia. The levity they felt when they spoke with Amelia felt like soft, full clouds pulling them towards the sky. Kai was intrigued by the neurosurgeon and was thirsty to learn more and more.

For the first time in days, Kai worked seamlessly into the afternoon, easily moving through the different tasks laid before them and even making conversation with their colleagues. Their extraneous thoughts flipped from the sparkle in Amelia’s deep, blue eyes or the way her mouth crooked to the right when she spoke– but only when it was something cheeky or she was uncertain. The science melded with their curiosity towards the older woman and it brought a warmth to their belly and their cheeks that they wanted to feel again and again. 

At 5 pm on the dot, their phone began to vibrate in their lab coat pocket and Kai was brought back from cloud nine. They checked their notifications and they still hadn’t heard from Mouse. As they promised themself, they let the worry come flooding back and within the hour, they were at Mouse’s front door.

Knocking gently at first, Kai listened at the door for a response. They heard a faint rustling and a distant groan. A minute or two passed without a sound or movement and Kai reached for their key to her apartment when the door creaked open and a very sick Mouse appeared. She was still in her work clothes but the circles under her eyes were dark, her shoulders hunched, and all color had been drained from her face. Despite her ghostly appearance, Kai could feel some of the worry lift from their shoulders just by laying eyes on the short woman. 

“Mouse, are you okay?” Kai asked, entering the apartment and placing their hand on her hair and then her shoulder. 

Mouse blinked extra hard, her eyebrows furrowing with the effort. 

“Too loud,” she said, turning to let Kai fully in. 

As Kai looked around, the normally-immaculate apartment was covered in leftover boxes and clutter. A blanket was strewn across the couch and an empty bowl was next to a pile of pillows where Kai knew that she liked to nap. The coffee table was covered in ungraded assignments and her work laptop was half-closed and the screen off. 

“Mouse, honey, what is going on?” Kai asked, their concern more than evident. Mouse leaned into their embrace for just a moment, before pulling herself away, almost as if she was startled. 

“Nothing, I’m fine,” Mouse said, unusually cagey and pulling her cardigan tighter against herself. She moved to return to the couch and sit down. 

“You’re not fine, Mouse. Don’t lie to me.” 

Mouse whipped around on her feet, her eyes like lasers as she glared at them. 

“You don’t get to tell me what I do and don’t feel,” Mouse seethed in their direction before softening. “Sorry, I’ve just got this bad headache.” 

Kai joined Mouse on the couch and placed their hand on her knee, wanting to be connected to her and give her some kind of comfort. 

“I’ve never seen you like this, Mara. I’m worried about you,” Kai said, scanning Mouse’s face for a sign of what she was thinking. “And you’ve been radio silent for days. That never happens.” 

“I’ve just been busy and this headache has been making it hard to want to look at my phone more than necessary. I’m sorry I scared you. But I’m fine, I can handle it.” 

“I really think we should take you to see a doctor, Mouse,” Kai said gently. “Just because you can doesn’t mean you should.” 

“I can make my own decisions, Kai,” Mouse said, her hackles raising but Kai couldn’t figure out why. 

“I know that, but you obviously aren’t making good ones,” Kai said and immediately winced. 

“And who are you to talk about making bad choices?” Mouse fired back. “Seriously, Kai, I am fine and I can handle this myself. I need to do it myself. You don’t need to hover over me.” 

Kai took a moment to deflate themself, knowing that Mouse was in a lot of pain and it didn’t need to be exacerbated by conflict. As they opened their mouth to speak, however, Mouse’s face turned a shade of green and she sprinted off the couch and into the bathroom. Kai followed her path and gathered her hair as she vomited into the toilet. With their free hand, they rubbed her back.

“It’s okay Mouse,” Kai soothed as their best friend struggled, kneeling on the cold tile. 

After a few minutes, Mouse leaned back on her heels and shifted to sit on the floor, leaning back against Kai. The tall neuroscientist tucked Mouse’s hair behind her ears and rubbed her shoulders as she trembled. 

“Please let me take you to the emergency room, Mara. You’re throwing up because of how much your head hurts– that isn’t normal. They can help you.”

Mouse leaned her head against Kai’s shoulder and nodded, whatever walls she had been trying to build with Kai tumbling down as they comforted her. 

“Okay, please,” Mouse said, her voice raspy and weak, her eyes squinting against the harsh light of the bathroom. The neuroscientist pressed a comforting kiss to the top of her head. 

Kai helped Mouse to stand, wrapping their arm around her waist to help her through the apartment. From the moment that she leaned back against Kai in the bathroom, any pretenses of being okay slowly slipped away until Mouse could barely keep her eyes open and with every step a small, almost imperceptible whimper crept from her lips into the air. 

The ride to the hospital was quiet and gentle, Kai reaching across the center console to hold Mouse’s hand. As they drove through the streets of the city, it was not lost on either of them how vastly different this was from the last time they were driving away from Mouse’s apartment together. The warmth of their connection spread between them and all that mattered in that moment was that they had each other. 

At the emergency room, the fluorescent lights buzzed above their heads, and the minutes clicked on, Mouse sitting in a chair with her head between her legs and occasionally vomiting into a biohazard bag they were given by the intake nurse. Kai’s warm hand never left her back, rubbing soothing circles and otherwise staying quiet, knowing that if they could hear the electricity running through the room, Mouse certainly could and any more sound likely would only cause her more pain. 

“I hate this,” Mouse groaned as she tried to sit up, laying her head on Kai’s shoulder, leaning into their embrace. Kai held her side tightly, trying valiantly to hold her together. 

“I know, but they will come soon and hopefully will be able to help,” the neuroscientist replied, wishing they could do something to take away her pain. 

After almost an hour in the waiting room, a doctor in light green scrubs came and looked around the room.

“Mara Montgomery-Tyler?” the short, young man called while reading off of his clipboard. 

Mouse and Kai immediately stood, Mouse leaning against Kai as they walked to follow him back into a room with a bed. The doctor took Mouse’s vitals once more and listened as she described her pain and how long it had been going on. Two months? Kai thought to themself. I thought this just started this week. She described the pain, the nausea, the vomiting, and that since Monday she had been having blurring around the edges of her vision, sometimes seeing double. Kai felt an uneasy twisting in their stomach and an ache in their chest blossom as Mouse described she had been feeling. Though they hadn’t gone to medical school, they knew enough about brains to know that they needed to worry. 

An older doctor soon entered the room, overviewing the information the younger had collected from Mouse and furrowed their brow. She introduced herself and quickly approached Mouse, flicking a light into her eyes and snapping her fingers next to each ear. With a practiced ease, she instructed Mouse through a series of exercises: touching her nose and then the doctor’s finger, pushing and pulling her arms against the doctor’s pressure, and even walking heel-to-toe along a straight line. Kai watched as Mouse struggled with the exercises, unable to complete all of them, drawing a nearly imperceptible frown from the doctor. 

“We need a head CT, stat. Why didn’t you get one yet?” the older doctor asked the younger, her voice seething with venom. 

Before what Kai assumed was the intern could respond, the older doctor interjected once more, “We take all neuro symptoms seriously here and you should already know the protocol for this. Get out of here.” 

Finally turning to Mouse and Kai, who were sitting on the exam bed and standing next to it, respectively, the older doctor finally addressed them. 

“I’m so sorry about that. Ms. Montgomery-Tyler, we are going to take you up for a head CT now. From the way you have described this pain, it could be any number of things like an aneurysm, an injury, a tumor, or just simple migraines. We won’t know, however, until we get a little peek in there. I am hoping that this isn’t something serious but these symptoms are alarming and indicative of something that needs our attention.” 

Kai reached for Mouse’s hand and squeezed it gently, needing contact with her just as much as they wanted to comfort her. Their thoughts raced as they thought of all the possibilities of what this could be, of how this could end. Mouse turned her head to lock eyes with Kai, her hazel eyes swimming in unshed tears, the hand in Kai’s grasp trembling. 

“It’s going to be okay, Mara,” Kai said, not certain that they even believed the words, themself. 

A single tear tracked down Mouse’s cheek and then two orderlies entered the room to take her for her scan As she left the room, Kai firmly wrapped their arms around themself, giving as much deep pressure as they could muster, and they, too, could feel the warm stinging of tears gathering behind their eyes. What would they do without her? 

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HOMESTUCK NEWS UPDATE!

"Hi, James here. Hope you had a good holiday! New year, new me! New you! Whatever, man! We got the usual patreon updates for you. Wahoo! Did you know that's a kind of fish? I watch a lot of fishing videos. If everything goes right and nothing goes wrong we should have something very exciting very soon: a new website! What does this mean for you? Stick around and find out!

Thanks for coming to our AMA, I hope we were able to answer some questions. I especially liked the one where Haven said he was going to fill Dirk full of Milk and slap him against a wall. Great job team. In other community news, the folks over at SAHcon are having their New Year's showcase around 5 pm PST today. Wow! I'm excited to see what the community is cooking.

We got another great comic update coming mid month, and in the next few we're letting some of the new writers shine. I'm excited for you to read them!

Speaking of updates on things… some of you sleuths may have noticed some changes. I'd like to go into a little more detail about them to the extent that I am able. I also wanted to do this in an official newspost, and not on socials etc, so that there is no question about it.

The contract with VIZ media has been restructured. What does this mean? Well, let's start a little further back. We have gotten a lot of questions about Andrew's involvement with HS:BC and Homestuck as a whole. I mentioned before that Andrew approached me to finish HS:BC. As many of you know a few years ago Andrew stepped back from having a creative role. This has allowed him to focus on oversight, and some behind-the-scenes stuff. A large part of that was regaining a sort of legal control of the brand as a whole.

So who "Owns Homestuck?" Well Andrew still does. Who has the publishing rights? We're working on that! The HICU has a license to do what we want with the property, which is what has allowed us to do some of the more creative things we are trying to do. Is the Website going to be fixed? They're working on that! I have very little to do with that, personally, but once there is something solid to announce there and the concerned parties are comfortable with it I'll let you know. What does this mean for the commentaries? Behind the scenes, some ideas about how to handle the issues with the way Homestuck is going to be published are being discussed. Some of these ideas may include a new way to release the future book commentary in absence of the books themselves. Wow!

With regards to VIZ, as some of you have correctly surmised this is good news for us. It has allowed things like HS:BC and HICU licensing etc to happen, as well as the SAHcon license. Hopefully, this can also include some additional fan-friendly licenses Andrew is considering. This all will take time to fully unfold so more details will be forthcoming about what this means for Homestuck as a whole. All in all, I think we are in for an exciting year.

Man what else is goin on? Some good news on the Vinyl is that I talked to the printer and with such an overwhelming response from you guys, instead of a simple Best Of EP, we actually want to try and do a print of Vol. 1-4. This makes all my very scientific and organized data gathering completely useless. I am humbled by something new and mundane every day. Anyway, this represents a completely different beast logistically, but as a fan of those tracks I am very very excited about that. I will Literally buy a Record Player for this. "James, you don't own a record player?" No! What do I look like, an old man? Please don't answer that. (Yes James, you do. -Homestuck Archive, 2024.)

This month (January 2024) we are also going to start seeing some of the bonus content go public. I ran a poll for the Patrons, and the general consensus is that after 2 months, they're ok with the bonus content going public. This includes Bonus strips, the Illustrations, and the commentary. They're really fun to do, so I hope you guys are into it. If you want to see these as soon as they go up, they are available to subscribers. Thank you for that, btw. It means the world to be able to pay some of my team's bills. Look at me, getting all sappy on New Year's Day. Maybe it really is a new year and a new me..."

SUMMARY -

New HS:BC Website in the works, with some new features.

Update mid-month as usual. Some of the newer Team Writers.

VIZ deal has been "restructured." (that's good for us)

Andrew still "Owns Homestuck."

Working on a solution to homestuck dot com debacle.

There are plans for commentary.

Homestuck Vinyl will be Vol. 1-4, pending some light Logistical Upkeep.

Patreon Bonuses from November will be going public this month.

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The Wheel of Time Post Index

For a primer on the purpose of this blog as a whole, give this a read. Just to reiterate one piece of that: this project is spoiler-free past the chapter you click on. In this case, the TV show has more or less covered the first 3 books. I will not be putting TV show spoilers in the commentary, but I may make some reference to it, and maybe a second weekend spoiler-post once in a while to compare and contrast how each medium interprets the story. I will definitely have some additional weekend posts for full-book-series spoilers, but they will be marked as such, with all spoilers under a read more.

For the reasons I chose to cover the Wheel of Time, check this out. I will reiterate a part of that here as well: I highly recommend you start with the TV show's first two seasons to get a feel for the world and the main characters and the magic setup and see if this is a world and a story you want to explore further.

We'll be doing this in publication order, because the prequel placement is very controversial.(1) I won't be including much information from the encyclopedias, except where lore/worldbuilding details are particularly relevant but not forthcoming, but know that there exist two encyclopedias (one written as an in-world document with inaccuracies and art of questionable accuracy, one written as a proper for-readers encyclopedia), as well as a book about the origins of a lot of RJ's references for things like names and cultural elements (which range from real world mythologies to appliance brand names).

Book index

1 The Eye of the World 2 The Great Hunt 3 The Dragon Reborn 4 The Shadow Rising 5 The Fires of Heaven 6 Lord of Chaos 7 A Crown of Swords 8 The Path of Daggers 9 Winter's Heart 10 Crossroads of Twilight (Prequel) New Spring 11 Knife of Dreams 12 The Gathering Storm 13 The Towers of Midnight 14 A Memory of Light

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(1) For real, debates still rage. My personal stance is, if you started with the TV show, you can read the prequel at any time, even first, and it was written to be a good onboard point. But, if you haven't seen the TV show, well, I highly recommend it, but if you REALLY don't want to or can't watch it, I think publishing order is a good compromise for prequel placement because it's right where the author put it.

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Rafal the Unethical Psychologist - Part 2

Further clarification on what exactly this actually is:

These posts are part of a loose AU collection that will consist of exactly what the title implies. The posts also kind of slice-of-life in a perverse way.

Most of the posts are headcanons, little snippets of scenes, or conversations, but they don't have enough plot or a structure to be a full-fledged story. It's just a vision, a collection of Rafal's musings, mishaps, misadventures, and miscalculations, concerning himself, the students, and his dubious teaching methods.

Also, these posts are largely intended to be humorous and satirical/hyperbolic in tone, sort of. You'll see.

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There will be some posts alluding to "experiments," trials, trial runs for new innovations, among other exercises in scientific rigor, all in order to sate Rafal's curiosity, and suit his personal interests—at least, according to the man himself.

At the discretion of Rafal's brother, "experiments" has been flagged with quotation marks, as he would've preferred the term: "criminal acts" or perhaps, "crimes against humanity."

The psychologist himself however has chosen to override this request, in what will be his latest publication, as according to him, Rhian is a "melodramatic pearl-clutcher," and constantly emits stricken gasps at a high frequency, especially for someone who should be accustomed to his brother's standard operating procedures.

Furthermore, to clear the air, Rhian isn't to be trusted as a reliable narrator of any forthcoming events. As such, readers should take Rhian's interjections of: "Horror. Oh, the horror" lightly.

Next, the term "mishaps" should be taken as "minor misunderstandings," "differences of opinion," or "split-perspectives."

Sophie herself refers to conflicts as: "a clash between you [Rafal], the epitome of sound judgment, and the Woods-Wide Scientific Institute's good sense. Your little tiffs and rows with them are absurd. They can find reason to quarrel about anything!"

Update: It's purported that Sophie has appended more to her previous statement: "Quite frankly, my role is exhausting! Storian knows what you've forced me to witness, stand trial to, mediate and mitigate. I've just about had enough of it, darling!"

Rhian Mistral was unable to comment during the time of the referenced press conference as he was too nauseated to speak. Thus, a written submission by him is pending.

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Bypassing dissenters' commentary, what could possibly go wrong? Nothing. Especially not with the victims, [hacking, wheezing cough, clears throat] ahem, students. My apologies.

Rhian: [with a long sigh] Freudian slip.

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Das Buch Jezira, die älteste kabalistische Urkunde der Hebräer, Nebst den zweyunddreyßig Wegen der Weisheit. /Hebräisch und Teutsch, mit Einleitung, erläuternden Anmerkungen und einem punktirten Glossarium der rabbinischen Wörter. Herausgegen von Joh. Friedrich v. Meyer, Leipzig: C.H.Reclam, 1830.

[The Book (Sefer) Yetzirah, the Oldest Kabbalistic Document of the Hebrews, along with the Thirty-Two Paths of Wisdom./ Hebrew and German, with Introduction, Commentary, and Glossary of Rabbinical Terms by Joh. Friedrich Meyer, Leipzig: C. H. Reclam, 1830.]

This is the book that German philosopher G.W.F. Hegel mentions as forthcoming in his concise entry on "Kabbalah and Gnosticism" in his three-volume History of Philosophy (on this tumblr post below).

Meyer's translation of the Sefer Yetzirah was the first translation into a European vernacular language. Prior to 1830 it had only been known in Latin and Hebrew. ---SJT

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The American, Isador Kalisch, whose translation of Sefer Yetzirah in 1877 was the first in English, translated the following paragraph from Meyer's 1830 German preface.

"This book is for two reasons highly important: in the first place, that the real Cabala, or mystical doctrine of the Jews, which must be carefully distinguished from its excrescences, is in close connection and perfect accord with the Old and New Testaments; and in the second place, that the knowledge of it is of great importance to the philosophical inquirers, and can not be put aside. Like a cloud permeated by beams of light which makes one infer that there is more light behind it, so do the contents of this book, enveloped in ob scurity, abound in coruscations of thought, reveal to the mind that there is a still more effulgent light lurking somewhere, and thus inviting us to a further contemplation and investigation, and at the same time demonstrating the danger of a superficial investigation, which is is so prevalent in modern times, rejecting that which can not be understood at first sight." ––Joh. Friedrich v. Meyer, 1830 (trans. Rabbi Isador Kalisch, –Studies in Ancient and Modern Judaism, New York, 1928, 345-346).

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Introduction

Nick Wolny is a multifaceted professional whose career seamlessly integrates journalism, content creation, and business consultancy. With a unique blend of experiences and expertise, he has established himself as a prominent figure in the realms of personal finance, LGBTQ+ advocacy, and digital entrepreneurship. This profile delves into his background, career trajectory, and the impact of his work.

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Japan election shock just a taste of the week ahead

Japan's ruling LDP lost its majority in yesterday's election, according to multiple exit polls. USD/JPY has gapped higher to 153.10 from 152.30 close. Having broken out of its channel last week, USD/JPY is testing resistance at these levels which would open further gains to 155.30. Japanese equities are also likely to slump later this morning.

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China also released ugly Industrial Profits data yesterday, slumping by -3.50%. However, with the Finance Minister hinting at forthcoming fiscal stimulus, and markets still wed to the stimulus measures announced so far, the fallout should be limited in Mainland equity markets.

Oil prices could open lower as well as Israel conducted retaliatory strikes in Iran over the weekend. Despite Middle East tensions, the language from both sides suggests they may both be "one and done" for now, easing geopolitical risk.

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Markets face a massive week of data and political risk this week, before the US presidential election next week on Tuesday.

US mega caps Alphabet, Apple, Amazon, Microsoft and Meta all release earnings in the first half of the week. US data includes the JOLTS Job Opening tomorrow, ADP Employment Wednesday, Personal Income and Spending Thursday, and US Non-Farm Payrolls on Friday. Oh, and there's a US election next week. Phew!

In Asia, we have a Bank of Japan policy meeting and China official PMIs on Thursday, with Asia-wide private PMI surveys on Friday. Watch out for the Australian Q3 CPI on Wednesday as well. Markets have bet heavily on inflation falling back into the RBA's preferred band. Expect AUD and ASX volatility if it hasn't.

In the UK, Wednesday's Autumn Budget will be the most closely watched in a decade. Downside risks are building for sterling as markets wonder how Labour will close its inherited fiscal gap and get out of the taxation corner it backed into. Support at 1,2900 remains crucial, failure hints at much deeper losses.

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Aion notes pt. 2

[2]

With this definition we have described and delimited the scope of the subject. Theoretically, no limits can be set to the field of consciousness, since it is capable of indefinite extension. Empirically, however, it always finds its limit when it comes up against the unknown.[2]

(limit is to be understood here as in the so-called ‘calculus’: mathematic, fractal, and, with any hope, progressively infinitessimal)

Here, empiricality is assumedly subjective in its heterological senses, as the notion of the unconscious places one’s own limits under erasure. Perhaps there is a different use of ‘empiricism,’ not merely sensory, but it will then tug at the boundaries of the heterological through only the flexure of notation.

[2] The Ego’s capacity cannot be delimited; it is expandable, and mutable. It, however, has two limits:

An external unknown, or horizon. This is not named explicitly and can have no foundation.

The internal unknown: by this we refer to the unconscious and its agents.

The Origo, [in its relation to the unconscious only] on the other hand, at least so far as the named elements are concerned, and their sensory traces and traceures, might be said to have access via the Ego,  which, I think, has a phenomenological essence here neglected by Jung, namely, its self-conception, which is not the same as mere access in the purely phenomenological sense, or, rather, relates to other fields of access based on self-relation. The Subject-Object schema here dominates, though it may be (/that) focus elides other domains of givenness. This is an open field of recollection/investigation.

(we might say that the Origo is, in fact, *blind* in the domain of the symbolic, though it is, itself, the very *space of seeing*.

This is a very important direction for the progress of consciousness studies, as consciousness-without(-a-)trace (or tarnish; the ‘tain of seeing itself’) does should not seem electrologically possible.

CF: Heidegger and the critique of the S-O schema, which seems here to have been moved indoors, i.e, out of the reach of philosophy proper, contra phenomenology, which must be nomadic, even evasive, so as to remain operant.

(Fellow phenomenologists! Resist well the sonorous notations of the invader and its notaries!)

(see my forthcoming (re?)translation of Heidegger’s early lectures from ‘Ontology, Hermeneutics of Facticity’, and addended commentary)

It is unclear here what Jung means by 'indefinite extension,' but this clarifies my conceptual gloss: 'Origo of perception (and presumably apperception(‘s traces?)’ [‘thought’/noesis] is oddly absent from the discussion) = 'Ego' (=\= 'subject?) for Jung.

This would mean that the Self is closer to what elsewhere is designated as the 'Subject.' This seems to summate most of what is found in the first chapter.

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This lacunam demands another theory of the Ego, which is to yet be borne out, and we expect to find after the symbolic fold of narrative and its mythemes, which seem to be the primary occupation of the rest of Jung’s text.

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This unknown is further specified as being of two limits: internal (unconscious) and unmediated, and external: mediated by the senses (why is there no analogous concept? Given preoccupations with the collective unconscious…. this is of course considered to be internal, but, as I not elsewhere, it is difficult to divide that to which one, constitutively, has no access…even temporal divisions gain, if any, a secondary, but preliminary, sense, or simply their [pr/e-]erasure.).

There is, thus, to the Origo, accessible, to extend the above, two domains of available data: psychic and somatic. Not all endosomatic stimuli breach the horizon of consciousness, but insofar as they are accessible to consciousness, they are also psychic in nature. (This strikes me as just a bit of a muddled explanation, but alas, the idea is clear enough, which is, perhaps, the inherent muddlement)

Note: this changes very little, but I have found a (very bad, admittedly) reference mentioning the possibility that ‘endosomatic’ refers to phenomena which actually have their origin in the body and are not ‘sensory’ in the manner elsewhere meant.

I have therefore suggested that the term “psychic” be used only where there is evidence of a will capable of modifying reflex or instinctual processes. Here I must refer the reader to my paper “On the Nature of the Psyche,”

<< n.b.; not to be confused with my paper by the same name, which I translated around the same time., lol >> Jung makes this remark in response to a theory mentioned in passing that all life-processes are to be designated as 'psychic.' Somatic/endosomatic belong to the data, the psychic are 'autodata': modifiable, or at least their modificational causes can be seen as internal/potentially relative to the Will. ((This is interesting, but also may require further explanation at some point.))

… I am not sure if this is what he’s actually saying.

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[3] As implied already by its sources, in what is essentially a restatement of [2] the Ego has two domains of access, though Jung makes the point of their both being in essence psychic and ultimately unmediated in their being as presentation: Mind has access only

to its internal object as also Mind, though there are processes which are not-Mind, or, rather, there is, to such perceptions, a thing-in-itself. These bases are:

The somatic/external. A further mediation is here invoked: the external is arrived at by the ‘endosomatic’: stimuli within the body. They are, in fact, subordinate (given that we can, and do, often ignore the body, in itself, on a regular basis, thus pushing it out of consciousness as such) to a field which Jung does not name: the ‘(endo)somatic subject’ and/or its unconscious. This would encompass automatic reactions, things usually tuned out, but technically available, &c. The fact that they may  be available to consciousness is enough for Jung to assign them, still, a psychical nature. 

(pre-note on (‘)the collective unconscious and Lacan’s Real(‘): this, which is also the demonic, must be the domain of the former’s resilience, to the extent which it per and transists to any substantial distance)

The fixed horizon here, which would, really, blend into the world, is, perhaps, the purely physiological, which is to say, that portion of the somatic unconsciousness corresponding to the non-somatic unconscious without possibility of presentation to the Ego. The psychicality of this domain, like the physical absolute Unknown, or, really, any absolutely unknowable: the ‘unknown unknowns which cannot be known,’ is, of nature, undecidable. It is worth mentioning here that the notion of ‘subject’ is potentially complexified by these alterior ‘things’-that-view: the endosomatic is ‘psychic,’ and reacts, but is not a subject. It perceives. The notion of the ‘subject’ hereto invoked seems, to me, to be circular: the subject is that to which things appear, all things appear to subjects, which are consciousnesses and in each case equivalent (for the prior author) to Egos…. However, the endosomatic has internal operations which to not present, in full, to the Ego. The Unconscious has contents which do not present to consciousness. It is suggested that the Ego is the gateway to the Self (I… think?), but what is to suggest, as in the Truth <-> Production relation in Lacan, that the unplumbable depths of the somatic do not connect to the Unconscious? Why is there no Subject of the unconscious? Is the Body not a subject? How would one know? It seems to have, by Jung’s own conception, those properties particular to one….

The Psychic: I have … suggested that the term “psychic” be used only where there is evidence of a will capable of modifying reflex or instinctual processes. The psychic is defined as unmediated by senses, and the above, which is in no way clear to the present commentator.

A moment is then spent on the notion that all life processes are in fact psychic, which is dismissed as a ‘nebulous’ idea, and the above quote is offered as a rejoinder. Consider both extraordinary acts of somatic control, and the issue of the interactions of different essences.Cybernetics offers an alternative to this sort zoetic pan-psychism, with, I would argue, a less nebulous form and purpose.Consider also, relative to Jung’s definition, ‘expanded’ understandings of the Will.

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The Ego ‘rests’ on two fields of access:

All of consciousness

All of the Unconscious

The Unconscious can be divided thusly:

That to which there is voluntary access (Jung equates this with memory).

That to which there is involuntary access

That to which there is no access

It is worth asking whether there is any difference in ‘essence’ between 2. and 3., or if it is simply an occurrential divide: 3. is that which is not accessed. Consider the models and suggestions below regarding energies, resistance, &c., and the division as probabilistic, or, even, non-existent, and more a matter of what can be considered simultaneously. Some thoughts may be unthinkable, but whether they exist, as such, in the unconscious, is perhaps an open question at best. 

Perhaps this is merely a matter of impossible thoughts which can be imagined as possibles by an external viewer. In this sense, the Unconscious, or at least that of which it is inaccessible, might be said to, in fact, exist in the Other. Multiple senses of this may be worth unpacking

They are improbable or ‘dissatisfying’/dysphoric to the Ego, or even to any possible viewer in a given domain, at least as wholes, even if their parts are satisfying.

They exist as ‘extimate’ possibles satisfying as conceptions (only) to the viewer modeling a given Self.

They are able to act as causal actants in some sense, and produce efferents which do in fact have an effect or are satisfying, but are not themselves so. In this , it is possible the zone exists to model Others, and thus relates via affects supplied to the conscious appended to the actually-thought; this suggests a Subject of the Unconscious It is worth wondering what role creativity plays here, and whether the Unconscious exists as the Virtual of the Ego’s production. 

Herethroughout, the emphasis is on access, and not production, so, in that, one wonders if all possibles exist in the Unconscious, a notion which would collapse the distinction, as well as open a field unto the entirety of the Umwelt and Other… This suggests interesting readings of the text going forward…

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"Beyond the Buzzer: Decoding the NBA Broadcast Experience"

Unveiling the NBA Broadcast Magic

The National Basketball Association (NBA) isn't just about the games played on the court; it's an immersive experience brought to life through the artistry of broadcasting. The NBA broadcast isn't merely about showcasing the match—it's an intricate blend of technology, storytelling, and entertainment that brings the electrifying energy of basketball straight into our living rooms.

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The NBA broadcast is a symphony orchestrated to perfection, blending technology, storytelling, and community engagement. It's more than just watching a basketball game; it's an immersive journey that captivates, educates, and unites fans around the world. As the final buzzer sounds, the broadcast's impact lingers, leaving an indelible mark on the hearts of basketball enthusiasts everywhere.

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Six whale wallets accumulated tokens worth more than $15 million at going market rates. TRB pumped 47% over the last week. Decentralized oracle protocol Tellor [TRB] defied bearish sentiments to emerge as one of the shining spots in the crypto landscape in the recent weeks. According to CoinMarketCap, the token exploded 270% over the past month, exchanging hands at $52.18 at the time of writing. Source: CoinMarketCap Realistic or not, here’s TRB’s market cap in BTC’s terms Whales to decide the tide? With an enormous rise in the midst of a bear market, speculators looking for a quick buck hurried to get their hands on the coin. However, much like many other mid to small cap cryptos, the forthcoming movements in price could be dictated by a handful of powerful investors. According to data from Lookonchain dated 28 September, six whale wallets amassed as many as 286,375 TRBs of late, amounting to more than $15 million at going market rates. Source: Lookonchain It was further revealed that all of these addresses were profitable, with a combined profit value topping $7 million. Lookonchain said that they could liquidate their holdings anytime. Given that they control 11% of the supply, the sell-off might put significant downward pressure on the value of TRB. While whale movements are often seen as a precursor of what to expect in the future, it’s always advisable to tread with caution and DYOR. Social buzz shoots up As per Santiment, the bulk of the profit-taking took place around 17 September. Evidently, this was the time when most of the TRB holders transferred their stashes to exchanges to dump them. Since then, supply on and outside the exchanges has been flat. Despite this, price pumped by a staggering 47%. Source: Santiment TRB has greatly benefitted from the positive talk happening around the coin. As indicated, the amount of mentions in crypto-specific social media groups surged as the coin breached past the $50-level. Is your portfolio green? Check out the TRB Profit Calculator Cryptocurrencies in general ride high on word of mouth and hype. Therefore, the social buzz might continue to fuel the influx of more traders. Source: Santiment Additionally, weighted sentiment was in the positive territory, indicating that the amount of positive commentary around TRB eclipsed the negative publicity. This boded well for TRB in the short term.

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Rocky Dawuni drops New Single “Shade Tree”, OUT NOW on all platforms!

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Rocky Dawuni drops New Single “Shade Tree”, OUT NOW on all platforms!

International musician, songwriter, producer and activist, Rocky Dawuni releases his new single “Shade Tree” worldwide on September 12, 2023. The single will be the first from the 3x GRAMMY Nominated musician’s forthcoming new album set to drop in 2024. “Shade Tree” is a timely new global anthem of empowerment and unity from the Ghanaian star.

The song is based on the concept of the tree that provides shade for all of the various “shades” of humanity. It is a convergence point and an oasis for all people. The shade tree is where conflicts and disagreements can be resolved; it provides “a shelter from the rain” which is shared amongst everyone. Humanity shares this common destiny because we are nature and our destiny is intimately entwined with each other and with all of life just as the roots of the tree. Under the tree we are a community in our individuality.

  Listen Here: ​https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/rockydawuni/shade-tree​

As the lyrics say “we are one, but we are not the same.” Just like the leaves of the tree, we are not all of the same as we represent different textures, colors and shades but we all share the same roots. The song is from a perspective of a lonely soul, seeking connection and community which is found in various manifestations in everyday life where people gather, celebrate and find connection from isolation. At a time when Africa is awakening to new political realities and the wider world is grappling with further geo-political divisions, this is a poignant song that reminds people of our shared humanity.

Rocky Dawuni’s own unique “Afro Roots” sound mixes Roots Reggae, Afrobeat, Highlife, Soul, Pop & more. A galvanizing performer, Dawuni has shared the stage with luminaries including Stevie Wonder, Ozomatli, Peter Gabriel, Angelique Kidjo and many more. Rocky was named one of Africa’s Top 10 global stars by CNN having showcased his talent at prestigious venues such as The Kennedy Center, Lincoln Center and The Hollywood Bowl. Rocky is a dedicated activist serving as a UN Goodwill Ambassador for the Environment for Africa and a Global Ambassador the World Day of African and Afro-Descendant Culture as well as running his own Rocky Dawuni Foundation. Through these and other designations he uses his music to shine a light on crucial issues facing humanity across the globe with live concerts, speaking roles, panels, youth empowerment and much more.

  “Shade Tree,” written by Rocky Dawuni, has additional production by GRAMMY Nominated engineer and musician extraordinaire, Anthony Brewster as well as renown engineer Michael Vail Blum. The song was mixed by multiple GRAMMY Award winning engineer and producer, Qmillion aka Keith Lewis, known for his work on the Robert Glasper “Black Radio” albums, Seun Kuti and more. Drawing from diverse influences and vocals stylings that sometimes recall classic soul singers like Curtis Mayfield and D’Angelo, with a production approach that merges elements of Hip Hop, Reggae and soul stirring social commentary,” Shade Tree” keeps things moving with its irresistible conscious groove heralding a new world of hope.

“Shade Tree” is NOW AVAILABLE worldwide on all platforms at: ​https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/rockydawuni/shade-tree​ ​

Rocky Dawuni Links:

​http://www.rockydawuni.com ​

​http://www.instagram.com/rockydawuni​

​http://www.facebook.com/rockydawuni​

​http://www.twitter.com/rockydawuni​

​http://www.youtube.com/rockydawunimusic ​ ​http://www.rockydawunifoundation.org 

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Watching Jude work through the ministrations of a mundane rancher task was a welcome distraction, as fleeting and sparse as the elements of the picture was. Until reality's ugliness spliced through the present with memories so fresh, the fallen impressions were still covered by two inches of snow less than the ground cover. Special. Roux tested the weighted term against her own limited speculations of recent hauntings. Barring the inescapable prison her slumbering skull had designed for the unwilling passenger of her body, acknowledging recent structural damages had been the most aching truth to palate. The timing of the handful of environmental catastrophes fell too conveniently astride with the torture-by-poetry harassment scheme, as if They — them, the town, its ghosts, old fears, impenitency — had intended to strip everything away all at once, challenging any development tender enough to be trampled and mangled by pressure. Moving targets; resident playthings sentenced to live or die, staged to perform as it was always divined. A sliver of Roux wondered, idling in that inky infinite dark of unpinned sentiments, if Jude had been indoors during the first collapse. Had heard overhead beams crack and felt overcome by fear or relief. Had preferred it masqueraded as a dream or nightmare. Roux could only speculate from being absent from her own abode during its destruction, trapped in the ice box of a faraway cabin with company just as prickly. A regretful occasion dominated by a frost bitten concern’s beastly presence, pacing and snarling about until the daylight confirmed exactly that which had been reduced to rubble. The radio station. Wires, circuit boards, glass, brick, mud. No bone. No blood. Unable to comment any rhetoric that didn’t revolve around some droll or wry wit, harebrained commentary, Roux frowned at the undesirable peripheral problems Jude's prompt had reminded her of instead. 

Her heels dug into the firm ground beneath, anchoring her in place and distracting the urge to skitter elsewhere, forget this half-hearted investigative effort entirely. She felt like a ghostly apparition herself, hanging by the sidelines yet tethered to earth by all still unfinished. The blanketing boundaries of silent lulls were merciful, made it almost tolerable. Roux: a frog in tepid water awaiting for an imperceptible inferno to swallow her whole. Oh, to be so lucky. A better fate than having to express any hint of heartache on her quest for an antidote. To be forthcoming was exhausting. Honesty was a curse she’d enjoy sooner swallowing the poisonous affliction of than offer like honey, slow and sickly concentrated. It was only Jude’s choice words which kept the faucet turned, open and slowly thawing. Too: a solidified fact, however their specific manifestations differed, her sufferings were not bestowed in solitary. “Mhm,” she murmured, “violence, with a vengeance, and poetry... weirdly. That's new. The bloodbaths are usually fine—” a word generously used in lieu of typical; not desirable, but a common thread in the natural order of every night, just as the moon's rise and fall, “—but it’s not like…” Roux’s fingers twitched at her sides, lacking the eloquence to describe the sensory imprints dredged from a reanimated past nor sensitive enough to deliver any heartfelt admission. Instead, she begrudgingly rolled up one of her coat sleeves to submit the angered skin beneath, mauve and plums swirling like overcast clouds in neatly portioned cuffs. The uncompromising grip of much larger hands or shackles; chaffing friction beneath a vice grip. Up for interpretation. Allowing only her forearm a taste of the cold air, the gist of it was enough to imply what remained hidden snugly beneath further layers. “The pain's not staying up here,” she concluded, as she worked the fabric back into place, raising a hand to roughly tap at her temple for emphasis. The intellectual projections were a cause of another unique form of pain. I grow until the day I die. “And I sure don’t fucking think in poems. You get any of those, too?" You’ve seen me once, "They're like lyrics, but not from any real song or jingle…”  If you don’t see me now you won’t survive. Frustration fissured the cracks of her composure, despising having to acknowledge the onslaught of it to move through the excruciation. Was that the surprise? The point of the town’s taunting and face borrowing monstrosities — to occupy an unfulfilling life until it became better, then suffer any remnants of satisfaction torn off the bone. God, she hated to contemplate. Hated the world for making her do it with a witness. “Every time I wake up, it’s all that’s stuck in my head. The same bullshit lines. I don’t want them, I don't know them, but They want me to.” 

With every shift of limb, a hastened truth was threatened with disclosure. A spill—fierce and unsightly. It had been retained since the first night when the nightmare had made no difference of the darkness from the day. Both marked by torment. Herself kept under layers of cloth worn by toil and the years for every moment since. Stowed away from glare of the sun that sat low in the sky, for once, thankfully swallowed all too soon. The nights that stretched on, where the secrets could be harboured more skillfully. The deceit nearly effortless, contained by the conceivable demands of a profession—a facade stony and practised in holding distance. A hidden swarm of bruises, damson and bloodied, disseminated across the cracked bone near a jutted clavicle, lower still to the rings of red that had bloomed violently on grabbed ankles. Scars that stung now, as Jude took to her work with haste. To not linger in the jab of a cold wind that made its way through rotten slat. The barn had held, unsettling in its solidity after the storm. Not brushed by tree or wound—weathered without splinter. It was moved through without regard, motions unaffected by the presence of another. By Roux, who she glanced at just once. Only a pinprick in the small hairs on the back of her neck, the weight of the observation. Silent, still. She had never been inclined to volunteer her thoughts, conversation only alleviated with some flow once the intent became evident. Instead of address, a gate shifted out of place, animals that remained huddled away from the stark expanse. Instinct that preserved life in a way that could not be emulated. No appetite to search for pasture unthawed and lifeless. Feed, dwindling now, spread over the ground, mouths more cautious and reluctant to approach. 

Would you say this place is more sick and twisted than usual? Only then did Jude cease. Stilled the work of hands that had never been driven by ambition but a necessity for distraction. The exertion of muscles pulled and recoiled in dirt and sweat. Not what could be taken from her body—pilfered—but what it could construct and maintain. The drudgery of a life that carried rather than left anything behind. The rancher straightened her spine. A question narrowly considered, one that prompted another. “You have seen the state of my roof?” An exhale through the thin line of her mouth, stagnant and resigned. A fury that had burnt tersely to slither, now, under her skin. Scarred and open, gleaned in the brutality of the days. Everything seethed. Threaten to boil over with any small shift or inversion. If only to collapse at her own door every night, crumpled into a surrendered and gentle thing at the sight of the ruin that had stayed. The doctor wounded, still, confined to a bed she had vacated. The sky that had lacerated through something unassailable. Only ever cautiously kept and taken in a second of clamorous air. So ruined for them, the exhaustion had hollowed her out. She gestured over her shoulder, through an open barn door—as if the roof, slumped like shattered bone, could be omitted even in the stifle of filth and snow. More sick and twisted. It could always get worse. More personal, no doubt, when They had only scratched at her before. When it had meant nothing, the thinness between life and death. Nothing wanted or waited for. 

“Maybe this shithole has got something special planned.” A glint in the eye, too brief to be memorised. It may have stayed before, in derision, when Jude had understood too well that she would have gone to the soil laughing in the face of whatever pushed her there. She had not quite learnt how to live without making a mockery of what she had been rationed. It died briskly, now, massacred by the thicket of dread it sunk into. The trepidation that what had been touched and harmed could be found again. Where there had been blood there could always be more. She almost choked on the thickness caught in the throat, turned away to tend to it away from any examination. The callousness in her too much like her mother’s ghost, alone in the world in life, even when she had yanked a small suffocated thing into a day blue and frozen. The laugh reverberated in breeze even as day lurched its way over the land, the claws had dug and remained. She turned away from the trepid light. 

The visitor remained. A purpose for such a presence had to be assumed and Jude would not accuse Roux of making a friendly visit. A mind more prone to absence since the cataclysm had snatched away any rest, she vacantly dipped her hand against the knotted fluff of a cow that had nudged at her with its head. Did not ask or consider further. A softness extended only to the tender heart of one or her animals, it would not be caught. Cold child. Her own mother had accused her of it. Arms left fragile against something so concrete. She pulled away only to tug at her sleeve, secure her wrists with the canvas caked in mud and parched blood that she would not determine the precise origin of. Young that had to be pulled from their mothers with force, delivered to nothing but the earth below in a season less still. Her own, inevitably, when something slipped and bit into her skin. It all bled. Untouched and unseen for now.  Deeper still, incisors that had sunk into the flesh of her arm, impaled into tightened muscle. A scar among others but hardly thought of as injury for life had been clung to by it. She chewed at her cheek. Long had she abstained from inviting herself into other’s lives. It pricked at her, that misery knew company. “You, uh—” Questions, none of them quite right, soon parted as her back met the frigid metal of the enclosure. She hummed. “Something fuck you up too?” A boot kicked and dragged against the floor, to kick at hay and avoid any pretence of demand—that she could do anything at all to rectify it. She had never been able to save anyone.

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A long bitch of an interview with Euronymous, from Orcustus zine in early ‘92.

What is Orcustus? Orcustus was an early 90’s black metal ‘zine run by none other than Bård “Faust*” Eithun— murderous pretty-boy, and o.g Euronymous simp. I think he might have also played drums in a band called Emperor... but I’m not sure! Its full name is actually “Orcustus— The Shadow of The Golden Fire”, and no, I’m not making this up.

This particular issue here opens up with a quote from a short story called ‘The Doom That Came To Thomas Parkes*’.

Assuming the reader hasn’t read the story, Faust explains that the quote is in reference to what happened to the titular ‘Thomas Parkes’ when he tried to raise spirits. Faust then admits that he’s unsure of his own ability to ‘raise spirits’, but says he hopes that he’ll raise some fists in agreement that there’s something wrong with the underground scene. Ironically (you’ll see why this is ironic very soon), he doesn’t like that certain bands, namely Entombed, are selling so many copies of their LPs.

After a brief diatribe on just that, he goes on to explain that he was in a rush to get this mag out because of problems with the printer. Then, he tells anyone who doesn’t like the fact that this ‘zine only features black metal that they can fuck off, with three exclamation points.

Finally, we get to the end of the opening page, where Faust pulls what can only be called an early form of the Twitter exposed thread. It reads as follows, with absolutely no changes to the text:

“I would suggest you to not do any business with that sucker Evil Ludo from France. He have riped me and several others off, by not return what we ordered. I suppose he’s a medical sensation, as I didn’t know it was physical or psychical possible to live without a brain”

Why am I telling you all of this, when this is only meant to be a transcript of an interview with Euronymous, you may be asking? Because I find it funny, that’s why.

Anyhow, the Euronymous here acts and feels very differently from the Euronymous of the last interview I posted. However, I hope you’ll still enjoy it, and I hope you’re able to appreciate the tiny glimpses of humanity talking to a close friend allowed him, even though they both behave like complete asses. Even though it’s hard to sympathize with him at points.

Like last time, any (sparse) commentary will be between (parenthesis) and in bold. Without further ado, let’s get into it.

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F: Well, how in hell shall one be able to come up with an intro worthy enough for this band? The words I wanna describe Mayhem’s music with, is not yet created, and it won’t be created either, because no one has really experienced the real darkness and pure brutality with lays behind Mayhem’s hellish sound, but I suppose you all are familiar with this band anyway. Well, in the first place, I hadn’t really thought to enclose this band in this issue, because if we look away from rereleases of old demos (“Pure Fucking Armageddon”) and live tapes, it’s a pretty long time since their last release (in ‘87 that was). I thought I rather should interview them when they released their forthcoming album “Dee Mysteriis Dom Sathanas”, but due to the circumstances, I realised the time was right for an interview now. I won’t bother you with any history shit, but I could tell a bit about what has happened last year. You all know that their vocalist Dead comited suicude in April ‘91, that was a bigg loss for the underground, and I suppose I don’t need to say that this mag is dedicated to the memory of that infernal man. Anyway, Dead was replaced by Cultòcùlus (back then called Occultus), but due to different problems within the band, he left the band in January ‘92, but let’s not say more about that, as Euronymous didn’t want me to say anything about it at all (but Euronymous, you must admit that it has sounded pretty artificial if I hadn’t mentioned it at all). So now, the band consists of Hellhammer (drums) and Euronymous (guitar (and probably bass too)). I know the singer of Tormentor (rip) from Hungary (Esihar Attila) is interested in singing on the album, and also even moving to Norway, so it seems like Mayhem got some sort of predilection to foreign vocalists, but this Hungarian guy happend to be a good one as well, so never mind that. But I don’t think this is official, so don’t tell anyone you read it here, ok? Well then, it’s an honour for me to dedicate the next following pages to one of today’s most legendary and infamous bands......... THE TRUE MAYHEM!!!!!!!

F: First of all Euronymous, I know you and Dead live/lived totally for the old black metal attitude. Is your hate now total to young and trendy bands after Dead’s suicide?

Euro: YES, we have declared WAR. Dead died because the trend people have destroyed everything from the old black metal/death metal scene, today “death” metal is something normal, accepted and FUNNY (argh) and we HATE it. It used to be spikes, nites, chains, leather and black clothes, and this was the only thing Dead lived for as he hated this world and everything which lives on it. If we had the economic possibility to do it, we should meet up at concerts and beat up ALL trend people ALL the time untill they would be too scared to go to concerts at all, now we need to suck their money instead. It’s impossible to stop the trend no matter how much we want, we have to do the best out of it and sell lots of trend shit to them. (I don’t need to tell you that that’s totally not why Dead killed himself, right?)

F: In the spring of ‘91 you started up a shop in Oslo which sells all sorts of music within metal. Is there anything you can tell us about the shop (ideas? plans?)?

Euro: Well, the original idea was to make a specialist shop for metal in general, but that’s a long time ago. Normal metal isn’t very popular anymore, all the children are listening to “death” metal now, I’d rather be selling Judas Priest than Napalm Death, but at least now we can be specialized within “death” metal and make a shop where all the trend people know that they will find all the trend music, this will help us earning money so that we can order more EVIL records to the evil people. But no matter how shitty music we have to sell, we’ll make a BLACK METAL look on the shop, we’ve had a couple of “actions” in churches lately, and the shop is going to look like a black church in the future. We’ve also thought about having total darkness inside, so that would would have to carry torches to be able to see the records.

F: Well, how is the situation all in all in the Mayhem camp right now?

Euro: Difficult as usual, but we’re closer than ever to record the Mayhem lp. Almost all the material is completed, then I and Hellhammer will record the whole thing with 3 guitars, 2 basses and so on. It will be very massive. Who’s to sing on the lp is not yet decided, we’ll wait and see what happens. We have several people who can do the job very well.

F: As Metalion of Slayer mag* said: “it seems like you at certain times lives on the edge of starvation”. Have you ever been on the thought to just give up the whole band and become a normal 9 to 5 person, or is this a completely stupid question to ask?

Euro: It has been very hard at times, but I am not a normal person anyway so it would just not be possible to do that. I’ve been thinking a lot lately about why things are as they are (this answer will be long) (that’s okay for me/Ed). The reason why we don’t have any money, is because of hardcore. We have for too long been following the “underground” rules, which say that you must hate money, you must not think you are anything, you must be open-minded, you might have a lot of attitudes and so on. Extremely stupid. But the situation has been that if you don’t follow these rules which are made by hardcore pigs, you are not accepted as a death metal or black metal band! Then you MUST be signed by some big label to be able to make some money, and we’ve never wanted to do that. Then you would anyway be labelled as “commercial” by the HC pigs. This has caused that after 8 years, we are still as broke as ever, while the HC pigs themselves are controlling all labels, and they sign only the bands which fit into their own idiotic world, that means “death” metal bands with society lyrics and jogging suits, and this is what the people see when they grow up. They don’t see any EVIL bands with spikes, as we did. Well, I’m tired about being broke, just to be “underground”. I’m tired of not having money to eat for just because tons of people will call you a “rip-off” if you don’t write 20 letters each day. It’s time to say fuck off to the whole system, which is built to strangle the evil bands in the birth. We must start taking inspirations from the ancient ones, from Venom and their likes. They did their thing BIG, and they never had to think about any idiotic underground rules. They did it big and so must we, but it must never become a trend, it must become a CULT. This is why we have started on a brand new policy with the band and the record label. It’s about time that someone makes a label for black metal and other grim music, and STRIKE BACK. There is NO reason why DSP shouldn’t be as big as Peaceville or Nuclear Blast, if we can just get the business on its feet again and get good distribution. That’s the only way to compete with the HC labels. It’s about time we start taking control over our own scene. We must spread the EVIL bands and pervert people’s souls.

F: What about the Norwegian scene then? Don’t you think that something is terribly wrong when it have gone so far that we have a christian “death metal” band here (Crush Evil)? Advices on how we should kill them?

Euro: First of all— the Norwegian scene is the BEST. There are a lot of GREAT bands (yet with no album out) and of course some shitty trend bands, but nothing as in Sweden. There you have 2-3 good bands out of 100, while here we have a few shit bands who hardly have made even a demo, while all the great bands will make records in the near future. Such as Darkthrone, Burzum, Immortal, Thorns (I’m flattered/ED*), Arcturus, Enslaved and newer bands like Malfeitor and others which I have not yet heard. BUT— when it comes to bands like Crush Evil, we must take serious action. It’s bad enough to have a couple of society bands, but a CHRISTIAN band is too much. But don’t worry, we have plans. They will not continue for a very long time.

F: And now over to something more humouristic....yes.... snuff movies. Who had been the perfect actor for a snuff movie, and why the hell aren’t they legalized? Don’t you think that every video-store should have its own section with snuff-movies?

Euro: Actually I think it’s great that movies like that are forbidden. If they were legal and easily accessible, all the small trend children would be watching them, and then it would not be something extreme anymore (I’m not sure if I agree with you here Euronymous. Snuff movies are usually too raw and brutal for the people with their “peace and life” infected minds. Remember the HC rules/ED) (shut the fuck up, Faust*) It’s just the same what happened to death metal— it became something everyone could buy in every store, something normal and accessible for everyone. All the mystic and evil atmosphere is GONE. I do not think snuff-movies are funny, I think they are DARK. I’ve seen people laugh at them, but that’s probably because they will not be mentally able to take the PAIN and EVIL on over themselves. That is the best way to watch such a movie, to try to FEEL the actual pain of the victims. It becomes much more gruesome then, and that’s great. One must be alone in the darkness and suffer with the victims, if you watch it with other people, they will often talk, laugh and so on, and then you get more distanced from it, it’s not supposed to be funny (death to fun), it’s much better when it’s depressive.

F: Through the years you have been talking about releasing bands like Samael, Rotting Christ, Master’s Hammer, Tormentor, Matricide, Imperator, Massacre etc. on Deathlike Silence Prod., but now some of these bands have released lp’s on labels which only have money in their eyes and know that black metal sells. Doesn’t that frustrate you, and don’t you feel it like the time is running out for you?

Euro: It’s a bit frustrating, but it is also a result of trying to be “underground” which is a suicide policy. Anyway, the main thing is that these evil records get released at all, and not who’s releasing them. We will probably release a record with Tormentor, they’re split up, but they still want to make their Anno Domini demo on vinyl, and we’ll try to fix it within the summer. The time is not running out, because there are a lot of really evil bands around. — most of the Norwegian bands which other labels haven’t heard about. Burzum is ten times better than all the bands on Earache together, and so are Thorns and Arcturus. So there is no problem, really. As for bands like Rotting Christ and Master’s Hammer, we might do something in the future instead. I’ve never been talking with Samael about any deal, but I wish I had as their album is FUCKING GREAT.

F: Almost all bands in the underground today says that they think they got their own style and originality, but the fact is that 95% of the bands sounds totally the same. What is an original death metal band today?

Euro: There exists no death metal bands today. There are only a handful of (mostly great) bands (in case someone hadn’t got it right— black metal has nothing to do with the music itself, both Blasphemy and Mercyful Fate are black metal. It’s the LYRICS, and they must be SATANIC. If not, it is NOT black metal) and what we choose to call LIFE METAL bands. Take a band like Therion. Their music is quite ok, it’s actually one of the best Swedish bands (even though that doesn’t say much) but their lyrics STINK. They are about society and pollution, what the fuck has that got to do with DEATH? If a band cultivates and worships death, then it’s death metal, no matter what KIND of metal it is. If a band cultivates and worships Satan, it’s black metal. And by saying “cultivates death”, I don’t think about thinking it’s funny, or being into gore, I’m thinking about being able to KILL just because they HATE LIFE. it’s people who enjoy to see wars because a lot of people get killed. How many bands think that way? Not many. I can’t think of one.

F: You’re maybe not the most active band when it comes to gigs, but at least you’ve managed to tour Germany and Turkey. What can you tell us from the tour, and is there any new gigs planed?

Euro: That tour was a big mess, we’ll NEVER take the train again! We lost quite some money, but still it was great to get to East-Germany and Turkey. The memories of the tour consist mostly of the starvation and idiotic custom officers, but still I wouldn’t like to have missed the opportunity. We don’t have any concrete plans, we’ll see happens in the future. We don’t like to play for a lot of trendies in jogging suits, so we prefer to leave it be.

F: What do you think of the fact that death metal has been on MTV?

Euro: It sucks. But it isn’t death metal anyway, so....

F: I know that you will soon release the debut album of Abruptum on DSP, so, what can you tell us about it?

Euro: It’s EVIL. It’s PURE EVIL, they were torturing each other in studio DURING the recording and you can HEAR on the music how they SUFFER. It will be the most demented record EVER, and it’s NOT for normal people. This is music which NEVER can become trendy, because normal people won’t be able to understand it. And that’s great. The price for the album it’ll be the same as for the BURZUM lp, which should be somewhere else in this ‘zine*. It’s called “Obscuriratem Advoco Amplèctere Me”, and stay away from it if you don’t like pure DARKNESS.

F: Don’t you think that people in the underground should respect others ideas and views more? I mean, it’s not accepted to spread unpopular thoughts. It seems like there is some sort of guardians of morality and most people keep in mind not to say or do anything which is not accepted by the public.

Euro: I don’t think people should respect each other. I don’t want to see trend people respecting me, I want them to HATE and FEAR. If people don’t accept our ideas as their own, they can fuck off because then they belong to a musical scene which has NOTHING to do with ours. They could just as well be Madonna fans. There is an ABYSS between us and the rest. Remember— one of the HC rules is that you must be open-minded (except for themselves), so we must be careful and avoid being open-minded ourselves. The HC pigs have correctly made themselves guardians of morality, but we must kick them in the face and become guardians of anti-morality.

F: You say you want your riffs to have a dark mood and really sound evil, but what if you came up with a riff which just sounded good, but not evil. Would you use it then?

Euro: Well, if a riff sounds good to me, it mostly means that it sounds evil too. At least when I make the music myself. Haven’t really thought about this about this before.

F: Do you think you’ve been playing this sort of music today if it weren’t for those old bands like Mercyful Fate, Venom and Hellhammer?

Euro: It’s impossible to say. Venom and the other ancient ones have been fundamental influences on Mayhem, and also the direct reason of the band’s existence. We like to think that if they hadn’t started up this, we would have, but who knows? Doesn’t really matter anyway, we hail ancient Venom as the CREATORS.

F: Ok, no more questions at the moment. End the interview in what way you want......

Euro: Perhaps it should be mentioned that well re-release the MAYHEM mini-lp “Deathcrush” VERY soon. We also have t-shirts available now. People should write for prices on things. Be EVIL, not open-minded.

Ok, I suppose some of you already know that Euronymous started up a shop in Oslo in the spring of ‘91. The shop is called “HELVETE” (which is Norwegian and means “HELL”) and are specialized within underground stuff and death metal in general (though he also have some other styles of music there). As he said in the MAYHEM interview, the shop really have a black metal look, so if you ever visit Oslo, I really recommend you to visit “HELVETE” as well. I think it’s good that people take the initiative to start up with such things, because if everyone were just passive, we would all get ruined by poser-shops like Hot Records where they take 140 NKR for the Earache albums (which you in “HELVETE” can get a CD for the same price). Euronymous also sells though mail, so write and ask for a list or something: HELVETE, Schweigaardsgt. 56, 0656 Oslo. NORWAY.”

That’s all! :)

And now for the things I put in asterisks, in order of their appearances.

*If for some reason you actually don’t know who Faust is, he was the drummer on the Emperor LP and “In The Nightside Eclipse” but you might also know him from other great hits such as “threatening to kill Mortiis from prison whilst simultaneously attempting to plead murder of the secondth degree”, “I’m glad the people Euronymous ripped off won’t get their money back because he’s dead hA hA!”, “I got fourteen years for murder because I’m a socially inept virgin— oops” and “bad... bad lyrics who’s quality somehow don’t improve with the passing of time”. All jokes are done in good humour— if it seems like I dislike him, it’s not that at all. I just find him easy to make fun of.

Here is another short bio, this one less sarcastic: he was born in Trondheim, lived around Kvikne, and Lillehammer, worked at Helvete, was a close friend of Euro’s, and has his sun in Taurus.

He also beefed with Glen Benton for dissing the Party City cape (Note: of course I’m being extremely reductive) he and Euronymous seemed to share. Here are a few pictures of Faust:

Here is the infamous Party City cape:

*This was surprisingly hard to find. I think he read it in a mag or something. Here’s a link to where you can find it: https://issuu.com/davidgamble/docs/paranormal37/3 page 64-65.

*Slayer mag was another zine, this one by a bloke named Metalion, who was Euro’s best friend.

*Faust (who felt the strange need to make a distinction between himself, the editor, and himself, the interviewer) also played in Thorns (well, Stigma Diabolicum), under the hilarious moniker: Fetophagia✨

*He’s being a fucking idiot, what was I supposed to say? It should be noted that Faust actually went down for the snuff films too.....

*In case you’re interested, for whatever reason, the prices for the Burzum LP were as follows:

Norge— 130 NKR

Norden— 100 K

Finland— 60 FN

Island— 1000 IK

Europe— 15$

Outside Europe,

Overseas— 15 $

Air— 22$

East Europe— 10$

By ‘norden’ he presumably meant ‘northern Norway’, and “Island” is the Norwegian word for Iceland. Notice the way he doesn’t include Sweden! (Edit: Originally I thought he didn’t include Finland because there was a black metal war with them as well, but it seems as though that feud came a bit later or had already passed)

That’s all, for real this time!

Legal disclaimer: I am absolutely, in no way shape or form, claiming that the stupid cape you see them wearing is literally from Party City. From my limited research, I’ve gathered that the Party City chain hasn’t yet opened its doors in the beautiful and glorious country we know as Norway— Norge. However, I am saying that the cheap, dinky piece of cloth covering their backs and shoulders are of the same kind of shitty quality you’d expect from a Party City Count Dracula costume and that maybe Glen had a point about how stupid Euronymous (and Faust) must’ve looked.......