#fufifi its fine dw abt it o7

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RP:

FTL: I did actually end up talking to Doubt's Dichotomy, and just as I thought, sol did have some interesting information about duels. I could repeat it all to you if you so wish, but I am also quite sure that all of my transmissions, whether they're private or not, are getting broadcast out unencrypted. So you could just look through my transmissions, I'm sure you'll find the conversation somewhere. I don't mind either.

FTL: Interesting... He does sound like a good person, I suppose. Where does he get the fabric from? Surely he'd have run out by now. Does he know someone who manufactures textiles? I have heard of an Iterator that does so, but I doubt that she knows him. Either way, fashion is not something that I pay much mind to, especially considering that I have an abysmal amount of need for it. But I suppose it's an... interesting thing to pursue?

FTL: Ah... Thank you. But yes, as I mentioned previously, and as now established, an action can always be (mis)construed as selfish - whether or not it's actually true. It is a matter of intent, but fact is that intent does not get broadcast out. Intent is irrelevant in the final product that is the action that everyone witnesses. Everyone makes their own judgements, and it is rather impossible to always predict people. It's simply unknowable if any action is selfish or not, both due to the vague nature of the word, and due to thr ambiguity of intent in the eyes of the audience.

FTL: That is most likely the case, yes. Belief is powerful in some cases, this being one of them. I'd be cliché and say that 'you are who you believe you are', but I will not be doing that. In the end, it's an unknowable mess that we honestly will never figure out, whether or not that was our original purpose. We have no concrete basis, and a theory without solid ground is nothing but dust.

FTL: Such is the role, unfortunately. I am lucky, in some sense of the word, I suppose. My Local Group is on the verges of falling apart, and though I do have responsibility, my two siblings are self-sufficient. Not much for me to even do. Even so, I cannot imagine having a higher workload in relevance to the role of Senior. I'd much rather prefer to spend my time as I do now. I suppose the role is just yet another unsustainable thing we were granted.

FTL: Why? There's no reason to, no benefits, it's rather pointless. Even if I have done grandiose things, and even if I do appreciate them on some level, theres's no need to place so much value upon them, upon anything.

FTL: I believe that it has something to do with everything that Echoes of a Paradox has told me. It's made me reconsider a lot. Either way, you are right. It is my work, there's no need to understate it in any way.

FTL: Ah... Alright. I suppose. Don't really see how that makes me in particular any special, considering that you could apply that generalised criteria to nearly anyone, though the combination of traits and experience would be drastically different. So... Alright. I'm glad I mean that much to you?

FTL. It is Upsilon.

I have a few things I wish to say, mostly apologies.

First, I wish to apologize for my previous behavior. I didn't even hang up, simply left the line metaphorically rotyim. Everything about my behavior was incredibly rude. You do not have to forgive me: that you know I regret leaving you like that is enough.

Second, I wish to say I deeply regret the way my... associate, treated you. Spreading baseless rumors to disturb you was quite cruel of him, and I certainly should have attempted to stop him sooner. Do not worry, my friend, he will be punished for his actions.

I do not want to kiss you I swear to all that is holy I do not

Best regards

-Upsolpm @oceanremnants

RP:

FTL: I do not quite think that your apology is necessary. If anything, I should be the one apologising for questioning your statements so much - even if I still think that that research was a heavily flawed concept and a completely redundant research topic. I accept your apology though, and I acknowledge your regret. Thank you.

FTL: Why apologise for someone else's actions? Truth be told, it wasn't all that bothersome, mostly just... I suppose confusing would be the right word. Not for the contents of the message but rather for the question of 'why even send something like this?'. Speculations and rumours such as that have absolutely no point to them, and are made at the expense of anyone involved. Perhaps that's the whole point.

FTL: I will be honest here: I do not care. I do not care whether it's true or not. It's wouldn't change anything either way, so it doesn't even matter. Do not concern yourself over it too much.

FTL: It's... nice to talk to you again, Upsilon.