#fucking. gah. the elfords. and sirius. the elfords and sirius.

[slightlytoastedbagel]

the higher ranking demons all remember the loops so I wonder if the ones less able to keep a "human" form do as well... in particular Fiona and Dorothy.

just. what if they remember every single time they watched Claire and Sirius die, unable to do anything. for Fiona she loses her daughter again and again and again, and she was able to protect Claire from the fact she was killed for at least a bit but there's nothing she can do as her heart is ripped out one second and the next she's alive again. maybe it's a bit painful that she is right there, the whole time Fiona is there, but Claire doesn't remember and it means nothing. as for Dorothy... oh Dorothy...

the two children you took in because they had nothing left. the boy that you saved at that public execution, who you wished could one day grow. your granddaughter who you wished could live without the knowledge of her mother's passing (your own daughter's passing). the two children you gave your life to protect. watching her be killed 10,000 times. watching him being killed in most of them as well. in some - by far the most painful - he is the one to kill her.

but then the final loop. dinner is finally prepared. they both go to the house found in the eerily familiar field. for one fleeting moment they're all together. soon afterwards they both finally leave the mansion. they are both finally alive. maybe it was all worth it, just to see them finally move on from that unhappiness.