#fucking trifecta of jaw pain migraine and period cramps is absolute fucking misery

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not me having a minor breakdown at 7am bc I woke up in pain after only 6 hrs of sleep (after over three days with barely 5 hrs each) because it means I have to go brush my teeth to make sure nothing gets infected before I can take a painkiller and get an ice pack or two to even just lie down again.

and I already know I won't be able to fall back. and even if I could I'm no longer feverish and sick enough to get away with taking naps so I'm stuck on little sleep for the rest of the day until I inevitably do this all over again with even less sleep under my belt. no surprise about the fucking migraines tbh. fingers crossed it doesn't get bad enough to activate the bipolar sleeper agent cells or whatever, I do not need to deal with a fucking episode of any kind rn.

and then thinking about the fact that the doc said the numbness to my lip and teeth could very well take a few MONTHS to fully go away?? I have a final project to do, and a presentation to hold and a final exam and if I can't even eat snacks in all that time or bite into anything I don't know how I'm supposed to do any of those things. just. trying not to panic but fuck, this was not the plan