#fucking bullshit. 🌼 or whoever the fuck was chillin and we did dishes and were GONNA make hot chocolate and GOD.

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I'm now annoyed. Basically the patience I had wore thin and now I'm fucking done. Stage one passive aggression or whatever the fuck.

B wanted to go out to eat but changed his mind and just wanted to go home and he was doing the shit from before of basically obsessively looking at his fucking phone bc of his girlfriend. I don't LIKE that behavior! Like dude! I get you're fucking anxious as hell, but this is NOT a good look. At all. Srsly like calm the fuck down, I say distractions for a REASON.

He did some shit that made her uncomfortable and is ignoring him during her break with family, atleast until after the holiday(s). SO MAYBE TAKE HER ADVICE AND LIKE DRAW OR SOME SHIT TO CHILL??? Like fuck dude, she said it's not good that you're stressing ME out. THIS IS WHY??? The amount of panic and worry is genuinely unhealthy. I'm sure a cluster B comorbid disorder doesn't help with that. But PLEASE. Find something and take your mind off her for FIVE SECONDS??? It's a FUCKING holiday! Damn near everything is closed because people want to ENJOY the day!! Ugh >:/

Atp I'm considering just completely withholding his gift, mixed reasons. We waited so long because he wasnt well, so it would be received real fuckin weirdly. Now he's just rejecting it altogether? Bc we ASKED when he would want it. DUDE. WE FUCKING GOT YOU THIS SHIT SO LONG AGO. I'M LOWKEY FUCKIN TIRED OF HOLDING ONTO IT. But spite makes me want to never give him it, like the stupid fucking punishment where smth is taken away until you're deserving of it. But obviously I know that's fucking dumb as hell.

What the FUCK ever. Officially, the day has been shafted. Ruined by your fucking borderline obsessive anxiety. WE HAD A GOOD DAY AND NOW I honestly just want to sleep and like isolate bc fuck you. I want to do NOTHING, because you made it impossible to want to do ANYTHING.