#fuck you for that first one. you KNEWWWW id write an essay on it

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intimate headcanon questions. [ ACCEPTING. ]

07. how to they view sexual intimacy and love?

top ten things i could write an entire essay on if i wanted to. i'll say to start that paris' number one desire in her entire life and every area of her life is to be beloved, and that desire bleeds majorly into her views re: intimacy and love. as a teen/young adult, especially a deeply queer one, she spent a long time thinking that both of these things were entirely out of reach for her. as a result of outcasting herself for her differences, she grows up feeling deeply unattractive and inherently unlovable to the point where she kind of sort of accepts that she's going to be alone forever until she makes a change. and so she runs away. and while on the road, she begins to make changes to her appearance, which makes her more confident, which leads to people actually expressing interest in her. she has no idea how to deal with this, so she falls absolutely headfirst into every opportunity she gets. and then she gets famous, which means now masses of people are cheering for her, wanting to be her, and wanting to be with her. once again, she indulges, often to the point of her own detriment. she has a long history of being considered a "player" of sorts, but most of these relationships were actually rather one-sided, with her partners just being attracted to her, and her often mistaking sex for love or using sex to get over not feeling loved. her view of both intimacy and love get warped significantly after achieving fame and dating whitney, who hands her a lot of psychological and sexual trauma. she sees intimacy as a vehicle to achieve being beloved, but there's a difference between that adoration she wants and actual love. that actual love (the kind that makes intimacy an actual healthy and fun experience) feels evasive to her for a very long time. it's people like lauren, andie, and eventually mina that help her unlearn those behaviors and view both things through a healthier lens.

16. how vocal is your muse when intimate?

answered here!

17. how confident is your muse in expressing their desires?

pre-fame, not confident at all. she would do whatever anyone else wanted her to do with little regard for what she preferred (as seen mostly with whitney). this people pleaser attitude in an integral part of her no matter what, but after the first album cycle and her breakup, her confidence grows, and she has no trouble at all expressing what she wants. in fact, she may come off as cocky on occasion because of her comfort level. everything she does is a kind of vindication for her younger self that couldn't be open about her wants/needs.

19. how does your muse feel about eye contact during sex?

she's offended you would even ask this. she's a fan mostly because she's very hard to fluster, and is able to do so consistently without getting overwhelmed and having to look away (unless you're mina who makes her extremely weak and has a greater chance of getting her all pink in the face). also loves the connection aspect it brings and is big on similar things (holding hands, etc.) during.