#fuck the only thing i haven’t had is a root canal (yet) lmao

[umemiyan]

which boyfriend should i drag to the dentist to keep me entertained

[death2normalcy]

I’m literally losing my mind, which is not good, as I am still expecting to move to Korea in like..just a few weeks.

So, I’m just gonna rant/list/talk about all the stressors in my life right now, some of which are my own doing, just to get these off my chest.

As always, feel free to just ignore this post. Interact if you want, but it’s okay if you just pass it by, lmao.

Work - I hate my job, I hate it so much. It’s not a hard job, it’s an annoying one, and most of the annoyance is from management/customers. I am finding it a little easier to breathe there, knowing that I will be leaving in just a few weeks, but it’s still a headache. I also haven’t told anyone there that I’m leaving yet, lmao. I told 2 coworkers, actually, one who is gone now and one who is on leave for a while, so.

Finances - I have no money. Well, I have money, but almost no money, since most, if not all, of it has to to go Korea and Korea related things. For instance, just found out I have to buy my plane ticket. While I was anticipating this, I was holding a little hope that they school would pay outright, but nope. And since I won’t be hearing back about my visa issuance number until the end of January, I will be scrambling to buy this ticket very last minute.

Love life - I still haven’t broken up with my boyfriend. I don’t know if anyone on here even follows me on Twitter and was witness to my stressed out tweets a couple weeks ago when I planned on breaking up with him, but held off as he had had a bad day and I was simply not going to be dealing with him in that state. But now, I’m stuck as to when or how to do it and I’m stressing about that because I need to do it A.S.A.P.

Family - My family is insane, and every single day, I genuinely consider just cutting them off entirely. I mean, I’m not saying I’m perfect, but they cause me so much stress. I am gonna have to put them all on the back burner for this, because I can’t deal with everything else and deal with them.

My health - My hair is falling out. Still. It’s been since end of October/early November. And I can’t afford a dermatologist, so I just gotta hope it is, in fact, stress related and will get better soon. Also, finally made it to the dentist, did a full intake appointment, just for them to tell me what I already knew: my teeth are fucked. There is one tooth in particular that is in bad shape and needs a root canal/crown as soon as possible, but since my insurance will only cover part of it and I’m leaving very soon, I can’t get it here. I just have to hope I can figure it out over there, since the dentist told me that there is bone loss starting to happen which is BAD. So, there’s that.

Learning Korean - It’s a struggle. I’m gonna have to find a tutor online, at some point, because I am really struggling with it, and I’m not even sure if I’m pronouncing things correctly, or if anything is even sticking.

Overall, there’s a lot here that is my own doing, and I’m a dumbass for letting some of it get to this point, but yea.