#fruitlore

[bisexualgenderfemme]

Call me Femme or Fruit

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MDNI 🔞 U WILL B BLOCKED

🍓 dude+ it/its/that thing

☣️ alterbeing creature

☽☾ High Femme bisexualgender man

[amantisgender vastsatyretflux]

I use both "same & different gender" & "regardless of gender" definitions of bi!

(mlmlwlw / sapphillean)

polyam (+ married 2 my beautiful trans bi lesbian futch wife @imfiggarette)

iso: stone top loml 2nd soulmate

✨ comics/comic shows & movies, bisexual history, butchfemme, pride flags, sitcoms, mental health, nudes, horny posting & personal posts

non censored slur use & NSFT be upon ye here

ask box OPEN

open to enemies (if ur funny,) mutuals, friends, flirts, paramours, etc.

(I do not use the term transmisandry as Misandry is not a real or useful axis of oppression. I do believe there's a specific kind of oppression against, tho not exclusive to, transmasculine people on the basis of being trans in a masculinizing direction & I believe it is often a Trojan horse for transmisogyny, one is easy to lead into the other. for this reason I use the phrase 'anti-transmasculinity' as coined by trans feminist theorists/academics to discuss the ways our oppressions are different as well as build on each other.)

i block liberally & often 4 anything from slightly annoying 2 evil bigot. dont think ab it 2 hard.

AO3

Fruit's Art

A collection of my tags beneath this cut

as well as terms I use!

different colored hearts take you to different color tags

#fruitpost - original posts

#fruitnsft - original horny posts & nudes

#fruittag - tag rambles

#fruitorig - my art

#fruitface - selfies

#fruitvent - vent posts

#fruitlore - posts about me & my history

#askd/ansd - responses to asks

achillean, alien, alterbeing, anomalous, BDSM, babe, baby girl, bear lover, bent, bidyke, bimbo, bisexual, bisexualgender, bitch, bottom, boydyke, boygirl, bunny, butch-fucking, butch-loving, canine, creature, cunt, dessert lime, dude, dyke, dykefag, eyeliner fag, exhibitionist, fagdyke, faggot, fairy, femme, femme-fucking, femme-loving, flamer, flirty, fluffer, freak, fujoshi, furry, gay, gender deviant, gender euphoric, gender gifted, genderbent, genderfuck, genetically challenged king, girl, girl lover, girlboy, girly-man, guydyke, high femme, hypersexual, invert, jackalope, kinky, lacy, Mr., MSM, male, man, man-loving, mister, mixed-gendered, mlm, mlw, muff mucher, multigender, nelly, otherkin, pervert, poltergeist, polyamorous, poufbunny, praise slut, prettyboy, princess, radical fairy, same gender loving, sapphic, sapphillean, sex positive, shape shifter, sir, slut, switch, tdick, tranny, transdyke, transfag, trans man, transsexual, transspecies, transvestite, uranodioning, vastgender, voyeuristic, woman-loving, wlw, xenogender

I am NOT a woman, but I am everything around it, circling the drain, as many femmes are.

I am multigender/nonbinary. I am A Femme but I am also a man & the two cannot b separated. i try not to interact w/ 'men dni' blogs unless they specifically say they're open to multigender ppl. I do interact w/ sapphic posts as a man as well as a femme & a girl. I do not like the men vs non-men dichotomy, as I do not fit this binary, or the idea that my manhood is more important than my femmehood. if any of that will bother u we're not for each other & that's fine!

please be sensible about labels u use for me, just bc u follow or we're moots doesn't mean u can b a dick & use them as insults. u will b blocked.

[bisexualgenderfemme]

my dog doesn't rly bark. so when she needs to go out she starts over exaggeratedly sneezing over & over until someone takes her out

i love when pets huff or sigh dramatically. like i am sorry. you're so right. you live such a laborious life. it must be so difficult to take naps and get pet and fed treats and played with all day. really a packed schedule youve got there boss. how do you manage it all. well no matter i'd say it's time for your well earned 7th afternoon nap

[youareinlovees]

Happy Pride Month to you too! 🏳️‍🌈

[vanlia-28]

i’ve asked my friends if mandarins and clementines are two different things to the point i don’t think they would call me friend anymore 🤔🤔🤔

[bisexualgenderfemme]

34, 44, 32

32: What words upset me the most

There's not a lot of words that /upset/ me, though there's some that give me the ick. or that I don't like being used for me. I hate when anyone uses the rword. I don't like being called queer personally, or neurospicy, but I'm not upset with anyone else using them.

34: What I find attractive in women

G-D. so many things, too many to list. funny for sure. few things hotter than a woman who can get a little silly with it. confident, hairy, good taste in tv shows, little to a lot of a pervert, knows things I dont know, broad shoulders, butch, femme, stone top that's just off the top of my head

44: A random fact about anything

CBD counteracts THC naturally, so if you ever get too high on THC u can take something that's only CBD to help bring you down!

[fallen--starlight]

oh hi im alive !! i did not had much 2 add 2 the last posts n i didnt hv the spoons n (ironically) the motivation bc hyperfixating is consuming my soul but hello it is i 1ce more

This does happen, and it can be due to a number of things - depression, anxiety, ADHD, paranoia, a physical disability or illness, suffering from frequent dissociation, suffering from memory issues, etc.

i js wanted 2 give massive thank yous 4 mentioning paranoia hhhhh. i feel like it goes largely untalked abt n i am 1 of those depressed-anxious-autistic-adhd-paranoid creatures n paranoia RLY kicks ur ass but (my experience) it does so quietly. n by its very nature its v hard abt it- on the vvvvv rare occasions i will open up 2 a close friend abt my struggles (i also hv npd traits n bpd, so yay me /s) i always end up regretting it l8r based on paranoia.

You may find it hard to feed yourself or shower. You are likely well aware of the consequences -

You know you need to do these simple tasks to keep yourself healthy on a basic level, but you just can't dredge up the motivation to do so, and so you are doomed to watch yourself decompose, yet you still can't fix it.

it shld go w out saying that us mentally ill fuckers still hv smthn called self awareness n its awful when executive dysfunction kicks in, bc u STILL know u need 2 Do The Thing ! but u cant ! but u must ! but u—

I believe I've said this before, but motivation is so much easier to muster when it's for someone or something else.

my ex tried 2 help me implement good habits n 4 a while i did try harder 2 hv proper meals 4 them. granted they r my ex 4 a rsn so this isnt my best example

Your accomplishments are valid and deserve recognition.

i needed that :')

Daily Sermon #25

Motivation.

The very thing that drives us to accomplish tasks required to achieve some sort of goal, whether one born of necessity or desire and regardless of size of importance.

Motivation is required to do everything, even things like getting out of bed and brushing your teeth.

But what happens when one's motivation is so low, it's difficult for them to complete simple self-care tasks?

This does happen, and it can be due to a number of things - depression, anxiety, ADHD, paranoia, a physical disability or illness, suffering from frequent dissociation, suffering from memory issues, etc.

Some of you may struggle with a lack of motivation for any of these reasons.

You may find it hard to feed yourself or shower. You are likely well aware of the consequences -

Without food, your body will eat up its fat reserves until you have no more nutrients to spare. You will be unnaturally thin, prone to illness, and, eventually, death.

Without cleaning your body, you'll look more and more disheveled, which can contribute to a lack of self-esteem or even less motivation. Your hair will be filthy and could attract bugs or fungi.

And those are just two examples.

You know you need to do these simple tasks to keep yourself healthy on a basic level, but you just can't dredge up the motivation to do so, and so you are doomed to watch yourself decompose, yet you still can't fix it.

These are very real and terrifying struggles, but how can we help prevent this from happening?

There are, of course, various medications and crutches to help, but even still you may not find the effort.

That's where Lamb comes in.

I believe I've said this before, but motivation is so much easier to muster when it's for someone or something else.

If you simply remember that Lamb is watching over you, encouraging you, you may find yourself more willing to take care of yourself.

And even if you still can't bring yourself to do anything, as long as the effort is there, Lamb is proud of you. Lamb will always be proud of you for trying.

Your accomplishments are valid and deserve recognition.

Ritual of the Day:

Glory Through Toil

"Followers will work through three days and nights without getting tired."

[fallen--starlight]

decided my #fruitlore is annoying as fuck 2 put in my tags so we reformat n i ball

Lamb vividly remembers hearing a Sunday school teacher tell CHILDREN that they can be the nicest person on Earth, but if they don't worship Jesus, they'd go to hell

no bc?? fr???? i was nvr told this explicitly but its definitely what i understood growing up. i h8 the ridiculous emphasis that christianity (altho i think this in particular is catholicism, which is what i was raised in) has on CONFESSIONSSSSSSSSSS. i had my 1st (forced n entirely non willingly) confession @ the ripe old age of 7 yrs old since ur forced 2 do so b4 ur 1st communion, typically the day b4. i had 2 practically b dragged 2 the damn confession booth while i was crying my ass off n its been 11 yrs n i am still extremely fucking uncomfortable w the whole concept, but my point is that they basically tell children "u need 2 tell this man here all the bad stuff u did so god can forgive u ! otherwise u will go 2 hell xoxo". how does no1 realize how fucked up that is? my big bad damnation worthy sins were white lies n disobeying my parents n stealing 5 small toys from school when i was 5. sry 4 this huge ramble but i get so fired up abt this hhhh

I don't actively condone being vile to outsiders, but I don't exactly care if you are, either.

i follow the philosophy of being nice 2 ppl until they r not nice 2 me. do i get clearance 2 b vile 2 assholes?? i need 2 b vile 2 assholes. i hv known so many assholes n i CANT B VILE 2 THEM N THEY DESERVE IT /lh /hj

This ritual is, obviously, not one in the game. Rather, it's one that I had in my life. I do believe this is one of those "kin memories" I was attempting to find :)

A. omg. music festival??? hello????? watch me as i go demand 2 massive monster this gets in the game like yesterday. THATS SO NEAT I LOVE MUSIC MUSIC IS MY LIFESAVER. what wld i do w out music? its such a window 2 the soul B. WOOOOO i am happy u found more memories !! /g

anyways uh sry 4 1ce again attaching a thesis of personal thoughts experiences n opinions no1 asked 4 in ur posts but i hv fun doing these n i regularly look 4ward 2 it so i am not sry /lh (〃＾▽＾〃)

Daily Sermon #23

TW: Brief mention of S/A

Anyway. I'm sure you've heard religions preaching to "just be a good person", yet never practice that themselves. How many POC and queer people were hunted and beaten to death in the name of Jesus? How many preachers and pastors end up being child m*lesters?

Lamb vividly remembers hearing a Sunday school teacher tell CHILDREN that they can be the nicest person on Earth, but if they don't worship Jesus, they'd go to hell. And there was one girl in that class who approached me in the school bathroom to tell me she thinks she likes girls, but begged me not to tell anyone. I didn't, but it's so damn sad that people feel like they need to force themselves to be someone they aren't so they won't be eternally tortured.

Lamb will never put such pressure on their following. Lamb accepts you as you are. They've made this clear before.

This also includes your personality. If you're a bit of an asshole, whatever, but Lamb strictly forbids any acts/words of hatred or malicious intent towards any other followers. If you happen to meet someone outside the cult (and they refuse to join), they are not under Lamb's protection. And so, you are free to act towards them as you see fit.

I'm not sure if I've said this exactly, but attempts of any kind of discrimination will be considered heresy and there WILL be consequences.

Basically, be kind and respectful to other members under all circumstances and for anyone else, Lamb doesn't care.

I don't actively condone being vile to outsiders, but I don't exactly care if you are, either.

Fairly simple rules, I'd say.

Ritual of the Day:

Music Festival

"Dance without a care to strengthen bonds between cult members. +80 Faith."

This ritual is, obviously, not one in the game. Rather, it's one that I had in my life. I do believe this is one of those "kin memories" I was attempting to find :)

[fallen--starlight]

change my beloathed !! this is 1 of those topics i think abt a lot, meaning its ✨fruitlore✨time 🤭

1 of the rsns i didnt break up w my ex b4 shit happened, or more correctly after shit happened that i didnt process properly, is bc i was terrified of change !! (there's also awful fear of abandonment n shit but thats a different story). it was terrifying thinking of how much my life wld change w out them in my life, especially after so long. it definitely got me thinking about change a lot and life's little seasons. "nothing [ever] lasts forever [/ly]*" can b a double edged sword bc yes, emotions n feelings n life in general r all like tides ! everything comes n goes, so the bad things will pass, but so will the good things. it also inherently means that life is unstable as all sweet hellish fuck, which is daunting 4 those of us that crave stability and routine in our every day lives 2 feel @ ease (its me hi im the us). but w out change we'd js b stagnant. we as ppl r here 2day due 2 change. n sometimes change is necessary, or good even if we dont realize right away

bad things will pass, good things will pass, but ultimately that means that technically, every bad situation will get better. & it does

Daily Sermon #27

Change can be very difficult and scary, regardless of how big or small it is. Once we get comfortable, a change in/of the environment can be distressing, even if it's for the better, like getting a higher paying job.

Luckily, Lamb's cult does not change much. All that changes is when I declare a new doctrine or build something new, and eventually I won't need to do either of those anymore, so there won't be any more changes.

That's a pretty good way of viewing it - change isn't permanent. Even if you're moving somewhere or something big like that, it will be over eventually and you'll have time to settle and get accustomed to it.

Things pass over time, just remember that. Tell yourself it won't always be this way, or there's nothing you can do about it so might as well get comfortable.

No matter how scary change is to you, you can and will get used to it. So just stay strong, let your emotions run their course until you're comfortable again.

Things will always get better :)

Ritual of the Day:

Ocean's Bounty

"Catch double fish for 2 days, and special fish will be more common. +10 faith."

[fallen--starlight]

i come w #fruitlore bc wow u r rly thinking of me w these huh /j (tw 4 a suicidal ideation mention @ the end)

i started dating my 1st ex when i was 14. n i rly DID think of myself as so mature n knowledgeable abt stuff. I WAS NOT !!! I WAS A MORON !!! i tried v hard but i was a lil shit n didnt know how 2 properly communicate my wants n needs. i was v lucky that the guy i was dating was and still is sweet n kind n supportive. 4 quite a long time i thought he was The One n even thought of a future w him. ultimately we broke up after 2 yrs n 1 month, bc i had grown, changed a lot, realized i wanted different things, n i fell out of love. we werent compatible, it rly cldnt work out @ the time (it was also long distance). again, i was rly lucky that he treated me well tho, n 2 this day not only r we still friends, but i consider him my best friend n i trust him more than any1 else. he knows me, i know him, n we understand each other.

my 2nd n as of now last ex, however,,, i hv already discussed them briefly n i hv horror stories n trauma from that relationship that still affect me 2 this day, n most likely will continue 2 do so 4 a long time 2 come. many of my friends told me on multiple occassions 2 end the relationship, but i refused bc i rationalized everything w "they dont know [my now-ex] the way i do". i genuinely did look past so much shit thinking it wld get better n it wasnt their fault. i journal quite a bit, n its horrifying some of the stuff i wrote during the worst moments. there were pages were i explicitly stated i wanted 2 kill myself. it was awful.

i rly cannot 2nd this entire post enough

Daily Sermon #34

Romantic relationships are something everyone thinks about at some point. A lot of people feel pressured to get into relationships because, for some reason, they make you "cool" in primary and middle school.

I cannot stress this enough, do not force yourself to get into a romantic relationship. It will not end well and you'll feel worse than you did before.

I really would not recommend dating anyone, out of pressure or otherwise, at a young age (like from 10-15, whenever you start to consider relationships "serious").

Your mind is not developed by this point and you and your partner will absolutely make stupid decisions that ruin the relationship.

At that age, you might hear this and think, "well, that won't happen to me. I'm smart enough and I'm genuinely in love with this person."

That's what I thought and got into a lot of relationships.

Now I have trust issues and relationship anxiety.

In a romantic relationship at that age, you more than likely will:

- Be cheated on

- Be emotionally manipulated

- Be taken advantage of

- Be emotionally/mentally abused (maybe physically too)

- Be lied to in general

And it really hurts. You might think, "my partner is an absolute angel who loves me! That would never happen!"

And if that's true, perfect, congratulations. But in young relationships, you really should be cautious (not paranoid) about it. There are people who have been married for 10+ years and never saw themselves cheating, who have cheated on their spouse. It can happen to anyone. Please be careful.

And PLEASE have some self respect.

In the early stages of a relationship (the "honeymoon phase"), it's very easy to put your partner on a pedestal and see them as so much better than you.

Don't.

If they start taking advantage of you or abusing you in any way, you'll force yourself to look past it because you got so attached to them.

This isn't victim blaming, it's hardly ever your fault when these things happen and it's very hard to break it off when they do, let alone see it as a problem.

All I'm asking is for you to try and see that you don't deserve to be treated like that. Try to be strong and end things when you start seeing red flags.

I know it's easier said than done, I know it is, just make sure you're talking to a trusted person about this stuff. Having an outside view on your relationship can REALLY put things in perspective.

Just be careful out there. Relationships can be so beautiful, but they're so hard and can be so draining.

Ritual of the Day:

Sacrifice of the Flesh

"Sacrifice a follower to grow stronger and gain new abilities and weapons. Higher level followers will be more valuable when sacrificed. -10 Faith."

Who are we sacrificing? All your toxic exes 😤