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restyqualityman · 4 years ago

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My Point of No Return

It was 30 years ago…I was a broke college working student who had a dream.

A dream to not have to conform to a normal employee lifestyle, working for money exchanging my time.

A dream of having a beautiful house.

A dream to be my own boss and generate my income online to have a good life, time freedom, and financial abundance and enjoy it with my family.

At that time, I was struggling with my life. With much hard work, working as a part-time artist in a ceramic factory and later as an artist- draftsman in a known donut company.

On those 7 years of hardships, working day and night and studying Architecture at the same time, I am holding on to my dreams as my driving force when I am down.

After 7 years and graduated in college, stepping into the reality of employment, I am working long hours in a known architectural firm, huge developers, and construction companies in our country.

Had to develop my career and profession through discipline and hard work, giving the best I can to prove my worth, but that wasn’t good enough… The compensation was not fair.

I felt like I was successful and satisfied when I looked at the buildings that I have been involved with, in the design and construction, from the conceptual drawings into the real building.

I am disappointed with myself, when I see my kids not having the good life that I dreamed of for them. I am financially unable to sustain my family. It felt bad inside of me when I saw those dreams start to get off on the horizon..

Then I looked for other opportunities and got involved in other shiny opportunities on the internet and also been jumping all around into network marketing. I am successful at first but it didn't last for long.

I went broke and got stuck in debt…. No money to feed my family, no job, nowhere else to go.

Truth hearts…

There are times that I was crying alone when I am asking for help from my family, relatives, and friends for money to support my family for a day, but unable to get any.

That’s the time I decided to go on working overseas, earn money far away from my family….Working abroad as an Architect, becomes a Construction Manager and Project Manager in different countries and in different companies, which eventually gave us a bit of comfortable life and financial stability for a while.

But being an overseas worker on a project base contract, my employment will end coterminously with the project.

After completion of the project, I will lose my job, without a job again I will be going crazy and freaking out when my small savings goes out. I need to look for a job again and again, without a job for months, become broke again and will be full of debts again.

And this cycle of life will always be the same. It happens to me many times, and those dreams start to fade away…..Since then, even until my recent fall and hit the bottom which by far is the most devastating and lowest point of my life.

The Dreams of Freedom Starts To Fade Away.....

This episode of my life made me feel like I am a born failure.

I am ashamed and afraid to share and talk about it. I only got my courage when I got into this 30 days One Funnel Away Challenge, wherein I needed to tell my origin of the story. That pushes me and forces me to let it go. Have the courage to tell the lowest portion of my journey.

So I decided to go on and continue what I started, to do my digital business.

I am going to do this challenge and get it done whatever it takes.

But here I am again, I am stuck, I have so many courses that I had purchased for a long time, but none were implemented. I have a bunch of software I had purchased before to do this digital business but still I am not even getting anything from it.

I am an architect, construction manager, project manager by profession, I had interior design, civil and structural engineering diversified experience for more than 27 years. But still, I am having the same situation in this very cycle of my life. Last January 2019 I went broke again, I lost my job, I was not able to find a job that pays a salary regularly. I was not able to pay my loans, my car payments, and house rent. All the cheques I issued for those had bounced and got so many court cases against it. It was really freaking stressful when my phone rings and everyone is running after me to settle the cases. It was on the 10th month when I got a call from the CID that I need to settle the cheques within one month or else I will be arrested.

I started to contact everyone I know, my friends, my relatives, my family, all connections I have on Facebook just to ask for help to raise the money that I needed. Eventually, many of them unfriend me, so many ignored me, everybody doesn't believe I'm in dire need of help. I am so afraid, I didn’t have a job, I can’t find a job, I don’t have money, I lost my car eventually, I didn’t have a house because I am booted out for not paying the rent and have to settle living in a small partitioned room with my brothers in the church. I am only relying on their help for a meal each day, without them I didn’t know how I could survive.

I didn’t stop to ask for help, I tried to sell my last piece of property in our province to settle my financial obligations but still, none has come to respond. I felt alone and rejected. I am living like a beggar waiting for alms from my churchmates. There are times when I am alone that these thoughts of ending my life would come, but the thoughts of seeing the faces of my children gave me a bit of hope to do everything and anything I can to bounce back from this downfall. I tried to earn through car lift, I help others to have their YouTube channels be monetized and get some payment from that, I will teach or do their channel art, Facebook covers for a small number of donations. I also do freelance work such as building websites, Dropshipping websites, and Shopify stores for clients. I accept gigs on Fiverr doing graphic arts, branding, and more. I also tried many more online businesses I have seen, but still, I didn’t get any good results and everything was a failure. I can’t even send any money to my family for more than 1 year and it’s so frustrating.

It hurts me a lot, all the frustrations, the rejections, the struggles and failures on everything I've tried online were all trash.

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I only get new hope when I see the light at the end of the tunnel,... when I am hired by an international construction company, which is my new job I am involved with now.

At least every month I got to pay the debts I had incurred. I can already support my family’s financial needs. I am complacent at the moment, but I am still going to get my dreams to come true. I have it in my heart that I can be one of those successful online entrepreneurs, those who achieved most of what they desire. With this new paradigm shift I had, when I stumbled upon a video that inspires me to give it one more try to make my income doing what I love, do this business online.

My goal now is to complete this One funnel away challenge and be part of the Two Comma Club.

Now I accept the challenge and I will do whatever it takes. This time it will be a success.

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