#forgot to mention we're not just a cheese shop

[call-me-copycat]

oh I didn’t know you were a cheese monger!

That I am! Not official yet (need to take the training course), but I've been working as one for about 8/9 months so I've gained a bit of knowledge :⁠-⁠)

This wasn't my dream job or anything, it's really just something I signed up for since I need a way to save for college, but it's a fun job so I don't think I'd want to leave it soon (unfortunately will have to eventually)

To answer your next ask about cheese facts, I have to admit I only really know what to say when people ask me questions about cheese, so I'll try to find random tidbits of what I can remember:

All of our cheese is imported from all over the globe (so we're a pretty expensive shop >⁠.⁠<)

There are certain ways to cut certain cheeses. Like "pie cut" (horizontally), "Cake cut" (circular ones like you'd cut a cake), "mountain cut" (huge triangular ones cut into a specific arrangement for their size, too intricate to describe), "barrel cut" (for cylindrical shaped cheese)

Harder/Longer aged cheeses are easier on the stomachs of lactose intolerant people (as I've learned myself)

There are lots of sweet cheeses (We had a pumpkin spice Bellavitano which was paired with this sweet oat cracker and apricot jam and it tasted similar to cheesecake)

Some of them lose flavor and color the older they get (probably common knowledge, but an example of this would be our Port Salut - It tastes really good and tangy when fresh cut but tastes plain when old, exactly like yogurt)

Mold spores can't penetrate most cheeses, so it's common practice to cut off some small mold bits on the harder cheeses (sounds gross, I know)

Blue cheese can mold. But with the mold you don't want to eat.

There are lots of Bellavitanos. Tons. Garlic and Herb, chili lime, pumpkin spice, bourbon, espresso (covered in ground coffee beans), Merlot (wine soaked), etc. We're still getting new ones currently

Bellavitanos "cry" when you cut them :⁠-⁠( [moisture seeps from small holes and they get slimy fast and I don't like it the slightest]

Real Parmiano Reggiano apparently "tastes a bit like pineapple" (I've tried it, I don't think it does)

Some of our cheeses are comically large. I'm very small and get paid to heft around ~30lb wheels of cheese to cut daily (not all the time - I'm infamous for avoiding them actually)

If you've ever seen those videos where people take a huge half wheel of cheese and scrape off the melted portion onto some food, it's most likely raclette cheese

Tried to think of some more but that's all that came to my mind right now ‎(´-ᴗ-⸝⸝ก) A lot of it wasn't official as I'm still learning a lot, but it's stuff that I've discovered while working there

I do not like the one rule we have where we have to eventually know what all the cheeses taste like, which means whenever we're cutting something and our manager finds out we don't know what it tastes like then we're forced to try a sample (·︿· `)

A lot of the time I do not like it! (⁠ ⁠･ั⁠﹏⁠･ั⁠)

I hope you're doing well! It's nice hearing from you! (〃´∀`)

[livebloggingmydescentintomadness]

Heyo momdad! I have a friend who mentioned to me they were thinking about starting grocery shopping only once a month, only they weren't sure how to approach it, and I feel like I remember you making a post about something similar... Do you happen to know the post I'm talking about?? Tyvm

hi dear! i can't remember a specific post, i'm afraid, but i did personally switch from weekly to monthly grocery shopping at the start of the pandemic to limit my exposure, and since then i've actually expanded it to more like once every six weeks or so. i can talk a bit about how and why that works for me.

the biggest issue is that i shop for both my mom and myself, and we're both chronically ill and both have some dietary issues that mean i need to do a portion of our shopping at whole foods. the nearest one is about 45 minutes away, so it makes the most sense for me to a do a big shopping day where i hit three stores (a texas chain called h-e-b, whole foods, and trader joe's) so i only have one major expenditure of energy and gas.

i hit three stores because a) they don't all have the same items, and b) h-e-b and trader joe's have a lot of stuff for way cheaper than whole foods. i have a generally shitty memory, but i'm actually very good at remembering what things cost at the different stores.

i'm not great at meal planning, but i know the general things that i want to keep in stock (admittedly, this only works because we have two fridges and an upright freezer) and i do extensive pre-shopping planning.

i have a list in my phone of what i frequently buy at each store, and i'll add to it when i need something infrequently bought and temporarily strike out what i don't need this trip. keeping a master list helps me not forget things. i also try to have the list written in the order at which i walk through the store, so i don't get to the last aisle and find an item i needed from the other side of the store.

before i go out, i check the h-e-b and whole foods apps, because h-e-b has coupons and whole foods has sales. i mark down in the list what's on sale/has a coupon, and plan around those savings if i can. (trader joe's doesn't have an app, sales, or coupons, but their prices are always low.) i also have a pre-shopping conference with my mom so everything she needs is included in my list.

when i depart, i bring as many coolers and ice packs as can fit in the car (really important, since we live in texas). it's still often difficult to keep everything cold, and i've had the very frustrating experience of buying meat, not realizing which bag it's in, and arriving home hours later to find the meat warm. for that reason i group my cold stuff together on the checkout belt and help bag to try and keep cold things together. i'll stick produce from the beginning of the trip in a cooler, then take it out towards the end of the trip if i need that space.

it takes hours, and by the time i get home and unload everything i am fucking wiped, but in the end it just makes more sense than doing it more frequently. we've gotten used to it and it works.

in between the Big Shopping Trip, we supplement with a few things on amazon subscribe and save, usually one smallish h-e-b curbside pickup for fresh produce and anything i forgot/they didn't have last time, and i also do a pickup from a co-op called azure standard every 2-4 months or so.

azure is super helpful if you try to buy organic, have special dietary needs, or just cook/bake enough that buying 25lbs of dry beans or 50lbs of flour would be useful for you. i can get things like oats, sugar, cheese, and apples for enough of a savings that it's worth the 9% transport fee and driving out to the drop-off site now and then. it's also nice to support a smallish business and smallish farms.

NOW, having said all that, doing all this obviously consumes a great deal of my brain capacity, so shopping like this certainly isn't possible or beneficial for everyone. i happen to have an aptitude for grocery shopping and cooking, so this is the majority of what i bring to the table in terms of, you know, keeping us alive and not as ill as we would be if we had shittier diets.

i wrote this all out in case some of its useful to someone, but hey, whatever works for you is what works for you. endure and survive. ✌

also i have a shopping tag with some more advice.

ETA: also in terms of like, how to not let things go bad: i shop with the intention to either eat things that quickly spoil in the week following the trip or else freeze them soon after getting home (meat, some veg), and leave things that will last longer for after the first week (sturdier veg, fruit like apples and citrus, yogurt, eggs).

milk freezes pretty well, but i've also found it more useful to, for example, use powdered buttermilk in my baking instead of worrying about having enough milk/not using it before it spoils. i also have some quarts of shelf-stable nondairy milk on hand.

it's a big learning curve to figure out what spoils too quickly, what lasts a long time, and what work-arounds you can find, but if you get creative it can work really well.

[trashbag-baby666]

The Year Babe Made The Dead Turkey, Fly-Baberoe/OC

It’s a holiday special 🕺🏻🕺🏻🕺🏻 a Joe Toye Day special!!!

Summary: Babe, Gene, and Graham get stuck hosting Thanksgiving last minute.

WC: 1,160

C/W: None

BofB Masterlist!

Well the Thanksgiving plans got changed last minute and now Babe, Gene, and Graham found them in the mess.

The mess of shopping for Thanksgiving dinner the day before Thanksgiving.

"Shit," Babe said a bit louder than he intended.

"Hm?" Gene turned looking at the tall red head pushing the cart.

"I forgot the list at home..." Babe bit his lip and looked at the two men as they both turned looking at him, "I put it in the pocket of the jacket I ended up not wearing.",

"Look it's gonna be fine, I'm the only one with food allergies so it can't be that hard?" Graham looked between the two.

"Yeah, we have to make sure it's kosher for Lieb," Gene sighed chewing on his lip. The three of them looked an absolute disaster in the Walmart aisle.

It was 5:30 pm and Gene had just gotten home from work when they saw the text that Daisy had went into labor.

So, her and Billy wouldn't be hosting Thanksgiving, then Graham offered to.

"Okay, let's just go aisle to aisle...just get the basics and everyone else can just bring what they were supposed to." Graham sighed looking around. Most of the stuff was picked over so it would for sure be an interesting turn of events.

Gene made a small sound and nodded. "Let's get shopping, I want to go home and sit on the couch."

"You're so real for that Gene." Graham sighed and turned his wheelchair leading the way down the aisle.

"Okay I know for sure we have to get a turkey and stuff for green bean casserole." Babe said as he caught up with them with the cart.

"Okay, let's get a few cans of green beans." Graham stopped infront of the canned vegetables and grabbed two cans putting them in the cart.

"And they're out of kosher crème of mushroom soup." Gene sighed, "I'll just make it and let Lieb know."

"I don't think he really likes it anyways." Babe shrugged, Lieb came from a house that cooked. Cooked a lot and had his Bubbe cooking for him growing up. so he was very particular about cooking and always mentioning how his Bubbe could've made it better.

"Gene I still haven't figured out how we're going to make all this." Graham sighed as everyone tried to keep up with Gene. He was hauling ass over to where the picked over turkeys were.

"Why?" Gene questioned seemingly to forget he was married to two men who could barely make Mac and cheese without burning water. Don't ask him how they managed to burn water but they did.

"Well for one we only have one oven." Babe smiled sheepishly.

“We will figure it out.” Gene sighed, before grabbing a turkey without a second glance and walking back over to the next aisle.

It was even worse madness when they got home, trying to make a few dishes before tomorrow.

Graham was pealing potatoes for mashing and Babe was figuring out how to make green bean casserole.

Gene was mumbling to himself in French as he seasoned the turkey so it could marinate overnight.

“How are those potato’s coming along?” Gene looked back at the two of them.

“My hands are getting a little crampy. I don’t know if I’ll be able to be much help for the rest of the night.” Graham sighed setting the peeler and the potato back on the counter.

“Are you okay? I’m sorry if it seemed like I’m pushing you guys.” Gene washed his hands and came over to the two on the other side of the kitchen.

“No, it’s okay,” Graham sighed looking at Gene. The pale boys eyebrows furrowed a soft pout on his lips.

“It’s okay, I think we’re all just a little stressed out.” Babe sighed taking Genes hand and then took Grahams giving them both a small squeeze.

“Babe is helping so he can wear that apron he made himself.” Graham smirked poking fun at Babes hot pink house wife apron with little hearts on the neck and straps.

“Yeah because you want me to role play in it later.” Babe snickered looking at the two, “Let’s just finish the potato’s and the casserole. Then we can drink some wine and unwind.”

“Sounds good to me.” Gene nodded agreeing, “I’ll get up a bit earlier tomorrow and I’ll finish cooking.”

Once they had the potato’s and green bean casserole in the crockpots. They made a spot in the fridge for the marinating turkey.

“I’ll grab it,” Babe rushed over to the island the turkeys pan was sitting on.

“You sure? It’s a little heavy?” Gene asked, he watched as Babe confidentially picked the turkey up. The rest happened in slow motion. Babe took two steps and slipped on nothing. The turkey went flying out of the pan and smacked the floor.

Babe gasped as he hit the floor, “I’m so sorry Gene.” He grabbed the turkey putting it back in the pan.

Graham looked at Gene who was holding back laughter and they both let it erupt.

Babe looked at the two, “You’re not mad?”

“No I’m not mad at you, Edward. Are you okay? Did you catch yourself? Let me see your wrists.” Gene got on his knees by Babe.

“I’m fine, promise.” Babe smiled meeting Genes big blue eyes.

“Good, I think we should call it a day and tell everyone else we will order a pizza, or people can bring their own food.” Gene sighed as he picked up the turkey setting it on the counter.

“I agree.” Babe nodded and grabbed the sponge out of the sink to wipe up the floor.

“Second that.” Graham hummed, “Wait guys Billy is FaceTiming me!”

“Do you think she had the baby?” Babe perked up thinking about his best friend.

“Hey guys!” Billy smiled his voice a whisper tilting his phone to the baby in his arms, “This is Ms. Ruby May.”

Babe felt his cheeks heat up and he smiled seeing his niece along with the others. “Oh she’s so cute! How’s Daisy doing?”

“She’s sleeping right now but she’s really sore.” Billy hummed looking back down at his beautiful daughter.

“Well tell her to give me a call when she feels up to it.” Babe smiled.

“I will,” Billy smiled as Ruby let out a small cry, “I’ll give you guys a call later. Love you guys.”

“Bye,” the three said waving.

“She is so adorable.” Babe cooed excitedly, Babe had been more excited than anyone else. When he learned that Daisy was pregnant. He’d get to have his first niece and he was so excited.

“She has the Speirs nose.” Graham giggled.

“She does.” Gene nodded, it was true Daisy always complained about her nose looked just like her dad’s and so did George’s.

“I love you guys,” Babe threw his arms around Graham and Gene hugging them tight.

[r3b3lgrrrrrrrl]

A LunaTic and her Gunn (Part 42)

"👀👀👀👀👀👀"

@lovemythsworld

@creatureofthen1ght-v3

Colson's leg is bouncing up and down. If Luna's hangover and the turbulence of the plane are the death of her. His uncontrollable leg is the nail in her coffin. She squeezes his knee, choosing her words specifically. "Do you feel alright?" She asks sweetly, hoping to crack a smile on his beautiful face. It does, but it's weak. "What's up?" She asks him.

Sighing, he says "I'm just nervous about dinner." She laces her fingers into his. Natural anxiety reducer.

Tilting her head, she asks him "Why? You've met my Mom-Mom before...." A little amused.

"I know...." He trails off.

"What's up, Colson?" She pries gently.

He turns to her, their blue eyes meeting. "I just want her to like me. I know she liked Justin and Jackson. I don't wanna be the odd man out." He looks down.

"He's so fucking adorable." She thinks to herself, smiling.

"That's the thing, Bunny. You're the only man in. They're called passed relationships because they're in the past. Plus." She winks at him, hoping he'll look up to catch it. He doesn't. "She already likes you. There would be no dinner if she didn't." She tells him squeezing his hand.

His head pops up finally, meeting her eyes and knowing smile. "Yeah?"

"Mhm... You said it yourself, my grandmom's a beast. She's very direct and I'm betting, she knew and decided she liked you before the end of brunch. Hence, the follow through with dinner."

"I'm outta pocket, hunh?" He asks to her giggling nod. "I know, I just never cared what someone's parent thought before, Loons."

"Well, she's not my parent. She's my Mom-mom. So, wipe that stigma away. And she's not Betty Crocker. She's Patti fucking Smith. And MY grandmother. There's nothing you could do or say in this WORLD, that would shock her." Luna is stroking his hair now, trying to reassure him.

"Facts." He agrees laughing. "You're right, I'm totally outta pocket." He kisses her sweetly on the lips before they lean back against each other. They have an hour left of their flight. Drifting off, their minds wander.

"He's so cute....." She muses to herself. "I wonder where we'll go.... I'm fucking starving. Maybe I can convince her to go to Tony's. It's quiet, we shouldn't be bothered.... Ugh, I'm totally grabbing a fucking pretzel when we hit ground."

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"Patti was really nice. And it deff didn't feel like a front.... Luna's a lot like her.... Fuck, I hope she's right...... And fuck Jackson's bitch ass, yo." Annoyance rising inside of him.

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They land before 5P. Luna loves The City. There's a rush of emotions that flood her senses as soon as she hits the side walk. Colson sees her grinning as she spies a pretzel vendor. "Ahhh!! It's good to be home!!" She shouts dragging him behind her.

They're staying at The Vale instead with Luna's Mom-Mom. Their intense sex life being the main factor. Dropping their bags, she guides him around the city.

There's something special she has in mind before dinner at 730P.

Colson loses his shit as she leads him into a little comic book shop. "Hey Bob!!" She calls out. A hefty man comes out from a dark back room.

"LUNA!?" His voice booms. "Long time, no see, Kiddo! How are you?" Giving her a huge hug.

"Fucking stupid ass shoulder." She thinks trying to return his hug.

"Good, good. Been on the West Coast for a bit. Yourself?" She asks.

"Don't complain, no one listens!" They all laugh.

"Bob, this is my boyfriend Colson." She says introducing the 2 men to Bob's quiet surprise. He knew Justin. "He's a huge fan. I couldn't come home without bringing him in." She laughs.

Colson is like a kid in a candy store. Excited over all the rare editions, chatting and debating different theories and characters with Bob. He buys 15 comic books and exchanges all info. Making an instant friend. Laughing with promises of returning, Luna pulls Colson out the door and off to get dressed for dinner.

"That was fucking SICK, Loons!" He tells her, scooping her up to kiss her as they walk back to The Vale. "Bob's fucking awesome. He's knows everything!" He continues. "Thanks for taking me!"

Smiling through the tinge of pain, she's heard that of Bob before. She then laughs saying "OF COURSE!! Pete never took you here?" She questions.

"Nah... I don't think we've ever been to Brooklyn together." He says. "Either way, fucking AWWWWESOME!!!" He tells her, swinging her around on the sidewalk, kissing her all over as she laughs uncontrollably.

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As Luna slips her clothes off for a quick shower, Colson watches her. Eyeing every tattoo, every curve of her body. Still avoiding that fucking shoulder. She looks over to see him watching her. "What are you doing?" She asks him with a smile.

"THIS." He replies, spinning her around into his arms. He takes her face into his hands kissing her hard and deep. Making her pussy plump for him. Colson lifts Luna up on to the bathroom counter. She's sucking on his neck and biting on his shoulder as he slides himself into her.

"Colllson." She moans out. Leaning back, bracing herself on the sink and mirror. He's gripping her ass, pumping into her, making her whole body bounce on his dick. Feeling close she pulls herself into him. Pussy clenching around his huge cock. "FUCK Colson, I'm gonna cum." She cries into his neck.

"Not now." He pulls her hair back.

Bucking hard against him, she pulls back into him. "YES, now." She demands. Biting him hard on the neck as they both explode. She releases his neck, still pushing her hips into him.

"FUCK, KITTEN." He breathes out heavily kissing her on the mouth. She kisses him back before slapping his ass and pushing him off of her.

"We're late." She hops off of the counter, starting the shower.

"It's this thing's fault." He tells her, gripping her ass cheek and jiggling it.

"Get in the fucking shower." She laughs.

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Colson had forgot his wallet upstairs, so Luna's waiting for him in the lobby. Although they had gotten dressed together upstairs, stepping out of the elevator, she takes his breath away. Stopping him in his tracks. She's dressed in all black. Fully covered but still sexy as hell.

"Fuck, she's gorgeous." He thinks to himself. Feeling his heart race and dick get hard, she breaks the trance when she catches his eye. "I'm gonna fucking marry her one day. IF she let's me." He laughs to himself as he greets his girlfriend.

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Dinner isn't nearly as intimidating as Colson expected. Luna had told her grandmother about his parents prior, both agreeing the topic was off limits unless he mentions it. There's wine, pasta, bread and lots of laughter.

Patti tells embarrassing stories about Luna to Colson's delight. She asks about Casie and Emma, having met them both. Praising Colson on their dynamic as parents.

The conversation is fully engaging. Patti goes on to ask about his career. Praising him again, this time for his role in The Dirt. "I know those boys pretty well." She tells Colson of Mötley Crüe. "I wouldn't have normally watched it but Luna was intent on me seeing your performance. I was very impressed. You have a natural gift."

He thanks her, cheeks flush with embarrassment.

"Told you, Mom-mom." Luna teases, touching his leg under the table.

Patti asks how him and Luna met. A cheesing Colson tells the story of The Gramercy and his birthday. Luna blushes when he kisses her on the cheek. 

"It's like serendipity." Patti smiles at the couple. Pleased with the way the man interacts with and speaks of her granddaughter.

Patti and Luna discuss Marissa and AL. Luna catching her up to speed. Marissa's visa is slowly moving along. While Ashley and Luna have a meeting this coming week with AL's ACLU. Plus, that the Nightmare merch sold out.

The old punk is pleased with her granddaughter's political activism. This spawns stories of Patti's own rebellion and youth. Colson hanging on every word. Luna watching them happily. She knows almost all these stories, chiming in when relevant.

They finish up dinner with promises of Home Safe texts and future visits. Patti hugs Colson warmly. Holding him tight for a moment, she tells him it was a pleasure to spend time with him and that she appreciates his love for her granddaughter. Colson hugs her back tight, thanking her. There's a safe comfort in the woman's hug. She kisses Luna goodbye, exchanging love before she gets into her cab.

"Your Mom-mom's fucking awesome!!" Colson declares.

"That, she is." Luna agrees with a large smile.

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Luna leads Colson to Trophy for a drink, sharing a joint and laughter as they walk along the way.

The bar is pretty calm for a Saturday night. Luna doesn't recognize any of the bartenders or see the owner as they grab drinks and a booth in the back corner.

Heads ducked together, she eyes him deviously. "Wanna play a game?" She asks him. Instantly intrigued he nods. She pulls his hand underneath the booth and places it on her thigh. As he runs it up her skirt, he realizes she has on thigh highs. Not stockings. With no panties.

"This crazy Fucking Bitch!" He thinks in excitement. Eyes wide as he touches her bare pussy.

She's watching his reaction. Body radiating from his touch in the loud bar. "Can make me cum without anyone noticing?" She dares him.

He kisses her, accepting her dare as he slowly slides his middle finger inside of her, rolling his thumb around and along her clit. Her body tightens with his movement. She bites her lip as he stares into her eyes, pushing his finger inside of her. Feeling her start to shake, he slides his free arm around her shoulders pulling her into him. His finger deeper into her. She's breathing heavy, trying not to buck against him as he pleases her with his finger and thumb. He feels her walls clench as she shoves her face into his neck. Giggling as she cums in his hand. She stays in his neck for a moment, collecting herself.

Pulling away, she looks up around the bar. No one's paying attention to them.

"FUCK, I LOVE NEW YORK" She thinks, happy to be home.

She smiles as she watches Colson lick his finger.

"Fucking peaches." He thinks, distracted by her taste.

"You're a bad girl." He tells her, laughing as he kisses her.

"Your bad girl." She purrs to him. They share a few more rounds before deciding to split.

Leading Luna through the bar by her hand, he's stopped abruptly by the pull back of his arm and Luna shouting "WHAT THE FUCK!!!" He turns to see her bewildered. Before he can ask her what's wrong, she shouts to him with her thumb jerking towards a guy sitting at the bar. "HE GRABBED MY FUCKING ASS!!"

"She doesn't have on any FUCKING panties!!!" The thought quickly flashes through his mind as rage explodes.

Colson grabs the peice of shit by the back of the hair, slamming his face into the bar, hard, while shouting "FUCKING TOUCH MY GIRL, DAWG!?!" Luna sees a guy stand up to her left as another is standing up to Colson's right. Out of the corner of her eye, she sees Colson hit the other guy. Luna turns to the man standing aggressively near her, kicking out his right knee cap. This brings him down to her level as she slams her fist up, underneath his jaw with a solid upper cut. A left and then a hard right and he's done.

"Get the FUCK outta here!!" The bartender starts screaming at Colson and Luna as the 3 men try to recover from their damage.

Before Colson can grab her, she slams five $100 bills on the bar. "FREE DRINKS FOR WHOEVER CAN KEEP THEIR FUCKING MOUTHS SHUT!!" She shouts to the crowd watching. Looking the bartender in the eye, sliding him another $100, she tells him "You tell Lucas, THAT Brooklyn Bitch was here." She then steps around the dudes grappling on the ground, grabs Colson's hand and hits the streets.

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Back at The Vale, they're both high and drunk off of each other, drugs and love. All over the other in the elevator. "I can't believe he fucking touched you." He's ranting as he pushes her into their room. "I shoulda Fucking killed him." He says through sloppy drunk kisses.

"Next time." She laughs, unbuckling his pants as he pulls her leather off.

"You're a MOTHERFUCKING monster!!" He exclaims to her giggles, lifting her up on to his waist. She pulls her black dress off over her head. "No, like you fucking dropped that dude." His words are quick as he kisses all over her neck and chest.

Unhooking her bra, she laughs "It's all about the knees, Bunny."

He lays her on the bed, thigh high clad legs around his neck, black ankle booties still on. They're sloppy and drunk and excited and in love. Pushing into her, she pushes her hips back into him. Driving him deeper into her. They moan for each other. He fucks her hard, cradling her head in his big hands. She bites his collar bone, pushing against him, pulling his hair. Fucking each other hard. "FUCK LUNA!!" He calls out. She feels his arms shake as he cums inside of her. Dropping her legs, she bucks against him harder, exploding just as he falls on top of her.

Out of breath, they lay there for a minute.

"Fuck. You're ferocious." He breathes into her hair as she wraps her body tightly around him.

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Luna wakes up to a text from Pete.

"You might wanna check Page Six before brunch 👀 👀 👀 👀"

Is all it says.

"FUUUCCCKK." Luna sighs pulling covers over her head.

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"It seems the prodigal granddaughter of punk has returned home. Sources say That Brooklyn Bitch was spotted having dinner with her grandmother, the legendary Patti Smith at Tony's in Brooklyn, on Saturday night. Sources report that the pair were not alone, being joined by the rapper Machine Gun Kelly. It has been reported that, That Brooklyn Bitch has been recently spotted in LA over the last few weeks with the rapper. The songstress and rapper have a new song together climbing the charts and she has been featured in his Instagram stories this passed month. Sources go on to say, there was an altercation at Trophy Bar between the NY native, we're assuming her new beau and a group of men inside the establishment. No further details were given. At press time That Brooklyn Bitch, nor Machine Gun Kelly could be reached for comment."

Luna slams the paper down on the table after she reads it. Sighing as Colson picks it up. "We're out. The internet doesn't matter the way The Post does." She says.

After reading it, he responds. "Whatever. We're out, Kitten. It could've been worse, there's barely any details. Your $600 bought something." He shrugs laughing.

"FUCK you." She shoots him a dirty look with a half smile.

"I love you and I don't give a fuck who knows. Now c'mon, let's get dressed. Pete's waiting on us." He tells her, kissing her on the forehead before pulling her up from the table.

Sighing again, she obliges. Knowing this is about to change EVERYTHING.

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To be continued.......

[unmanageable-day]

[11.09AM]

"This is so weird, okay? I can't believe my friend is dating my older sister." Johnny nagged as he opened the door and found Jaehyun flashing a wide smile in front of his house.

"I love you too, Johnny," Jaehyun answered, chuckling and handing him over a bag of cheese burger. He entered Johnny's house casually without even waiting for the owner to let him in.

"Don't you think you can bribe me," Johnny said dramatically, yet his hands were already busy opening the paper bag. "Vivian! Jaehyun is here!" he called for his sister.

"I can hear you clearly, Johnny, you don't have to shout like that," his sister hissed as she went out from her room, being dramatic as well but less dramatic than her brother. "And, Seo Youngho, didn't I tell you to not call me Vivian?" She approached her giant little brother and gave him light slaps on his arm. She wanted to pinch his cheeks or ears, but Johnny was saved because he was much taller.

"Okay, okay. I get it, Ayoung noona," he whined that he gave Jaehyun eye signal to get his sister out quickly.

Jaehyun chuckled at the usual bickering scene between Ayoung and Johnny. Ayoung turned to Jaehyun who were ready to greet her with a smile that his dimples popped out. "You ready?"

Ayoung nodded, also smiling wide at her date.

"Speaking of which, it would be nice too if you call me with my real name, instead of Jaehyun," Jaehyun shyly said once they hopped into Jaehyun’s car.

Ayoung smiled at him. "Okay, Yuno."

Jaehyun, aka Yuno let his hand slowly reached Ayoung's before he turned on the car machine. His expression couldn't lie when he got to hear his name called with such a sweet, loving voice.

[11.42PM]

"I don't want to say good bye," Yuno muttered as he tightened his grip on Ayoung's hand. He stopped by at a park with playground nearby Ayoung’s house after spending a great time at an underground jazz café.

"Why don't you go with me upstairs? I'm sure Johnny is still wide awake."

"And let Johnny hyung beat me up? No, thank you," he joked.

Ayoung chuckled.

"This is perfect anyway," Yuno said as he scanned the surrounding. The playground was completely empty as the time showed past eleven at night. After making sure nobody around, Yuno slightly pulled her closer and sneaked his arms around Ayoung's waist. "And I can't do this if Johnny is around," he whispered as he, bending his lower body to match her eye level, put his forehead against Ayoung's.

Thanks to the night sky, Ayoung could hide her blushing cheeks. She only drew a shy smile as she tried to look at Yuno in the eyes, her hands holding onto his upper arms.

The lovebirds, drowning in each other's minds, spent minute after minute without words in the same position until their phones rang at the same time, startling both of them. Yuno let loose his embrace, but didn't completely let go of his girl. After taking his phone out of his pocket, he put one arm around Ayoung's shoulder and let her lean on him.

"Wow, the group chat is a mess at this hour. And Johnny is already threating me," told Yuno while scrolling up and down his phone screen.

"He is indeed. Should I tell him we're here?" she playfully asked as she found Johnny's rants via text in her phone as well.

"You gotta be kidding."

Ayoung chuckled as she hugged him from the side. "Aigoo, our Yuno~"

Again, he blushed from hearing his name called.

"It's almost 12. You should go back home, Yuno." She affectionately fixed Yuno's fringe. "Or... how about staying over?" she teased again.

Yuno chuckled this time. "If sleepover, I'll go with Doyoung and Mark so Johnny won't go after me."

"Okay, I'll invite the others for dinner tomorrow, and you can stay over."

[6.25PM]

Ayoung was busy cooking in the kitchen after managed to trick Johnny to go grocery shopping. She also succeeded surprising him that they were going to host a dinner with his buddies. So now he was made use for his labor to tidy up the living room and arrange the tables and plates.

"Remind me again why do we suddenly hold a dinner event?" he groaned as he pushed the sofa to one side.

"Just think of it as a late birthday party for you, since I wasn't around and you were busy as well," she blabbered.

"Okay, that doesn't make any sense. What's with the other guys?"

"It's just the form of my gratitude to them for taking good care of you." Ayoung basically just said anything. She knew everything came out of her mouth did not make any sense at all. "Anyway, our mom and Taeyong's mom just sent us a lot of food. You and I know very well we don't eat often at home. So it's best to share, right?"

Johnny shut his mouth, kind of agree-not-agree. "You're being ridiculously nice after going out with Jaehyun," he mocked, which got himself a loving silence treatment.

Taeyong, Doyoung, Ten and Mark came first. Both Johnny and Ayoung welcomed them cheerfully and gave them a big hug as if they hadn't met for so long, while they literally just saw each other 3 days ago. Taeil, Haechan, Yuta and Yuno came a bit later. Both house owner greeted their guests the same way, yet after Taeil, Haechan and Yuta, Johnny blocked Ayoung's way to Yuno. Instead, Johnny didn't let Yuno go from his bear hug. Ayoung just rolled her eyes and left her brother with her boyfriend.

"I know you miss me but can you please let go of me now?" Yuno spoke in the midst of searching for some oxygen.

"I'm not letting you go today," Johnny said with a scary aegyo as he slightly dragged Yuno to the living room with a bit force.

"He really gets jealous ever since you start dating with Jaehyun, Noona," Taeyong commented, giggling at the two giants fighting over nothing.

"You mean being overprotective even more than he already is," she scoffed as she took out fruits from the fridge.

Mark who was next to Taeyong went straight for the watermelon that Ayoung already prepared specially for him. Just because she was very fond of the baby brother.

"It is still funny that he never changes his profile photo, so everyone still thinks he's not single," Mark added as he stuffed his mouth with watermelon cubes. The photo Mark mention was pretty much a public secret. It was a picture of her and Johnny at a beach, taken several years ago during a family vacation, with a pose that didn't really portray siblings relationship. Johnny's arm circling around Ayoung's waist, his smiling face captured in candid, and Ayoung resting her hand on Johnny's upper belly while showing her side body profile but her face beaming directly into the camera. Anybody would absolutely misunderstand them for being a couple. Not to mention the outfit they wore in the photo had similar patterns.

Ayoung could only let out a bitter laugh. Johnny intentionally put that picture as his profile in chat messenger, so he could make an excuse if there's anyone suggested him for a blind date. These boys knew Ayoung had the same picture as her profile, and they laughed at her and it was all thanks to Johnny who always changed Ayoung's profile, to the extent Ayoung was too frustrated to change it again. So she just let Johnny do whatever he wanted. It kinda 'helped' her in a way that no men messed with her. Same with her brother, at least nobody interfered her love life and told her to go for a blind date. If someone asked about the guy in the photo, she could just make up some stories that they were in long distance relationship.

And one day came Jung Jaehyun, boldly brought himself before her and asked her out while no one dared because of her brother. The boys were pretty amused because Johnny often joked that he wouldn't introduce his sister to any of his members. He preferred someone older and he always mentioned someone like Kim Suho or Do Kyungsoo. That was pretty much the history explaining the current condition of the complicated relationship between Johnny and Jaehyun.

"Yo, Jay," Ten greeted Jaehyun who finally managed to escape.

"Thank goodness Lucas and the little brothers rang the bell," Yuno exhaled deeply as he joined the others. He immediately approached Ayoung who was deeply engaged in conversation with Taeyong,

Mark and Doyoung. "Hey," he greeted.

"Yuno," Ayoung brightly greeted him back and went into his arms. He smiled warmly at her and totally forgot for a second that it wasn't only the two of them in the room.

"Omo.. did she just say 'Yuno'?" Doyoung gasped dramatically.

"'Yuno'?" Ten repeated loudly and he couldn't help but cackling. The others started to parrot him and the name 'Yuno' was echoing.

"Vivian Seo! I did not raise you to behave like this!" Johnny exclaimed from the other corner in the room. His hands were on his waist, officially starting the drama. But everyone in the room couldn't really hold their laughter, including Jung Yuno who was safe in Ayoung's care.

Ayoung herself? She pretended not to hear him as she scooted even closer against Yuno, publicly showing affection, cuddling with him just to make Johnny even more frustrated. She even merong-ed at her younger brother several times.

[dearmomimissyou]

So yesterday I tried to make a post explaining the back story of what caused Sunday's mental breakdown to happen and I tried to save it to drafts after spending 30 minutes on it while walking Miss Phyre outside but Tumblr decided to cock out and didn't actually save it which led to another mini meltdown afterwards so I'm just going to skip the background. It hurts to mich to relive it a g a i n. So thanks Tumblr.

Sunday I went to Sam's house after donating plasma cause dad was working on the electrical and I figured I'd just spend time there instead of being home. Instead, I ended up having a breakdown on Sam's back porch. I started crying inside while in the fetal position on the floor and figured that I should go outside so nobody heard me. I violently sobbed for at least ten minutes and dug my nails into my arm because I wanted to punish myself. I also went outside because I wanted to destroy Sam's living room and I can't do that but I can destroy myself and my things. I kept wanting to smash my head into something and eventually I did on the banister twice and screamed both times when I did it. After some time like five minutes of so Nemo came out and tried talking to me and I blew up on them and basically blamed them even though it wasn't their fault. They were crying and begging me to get help dad came out too crying because he heard me say that somebody was tearing me down and making feel like shit about myself but he didn't hear who and at the time it didn't make me feel anything but looking back fucking hurts. Sam came out too after Nemo went inside I think to talk to dad about what was happening and she brought Nala Tyler's cat and asked if I wanted cookies or soda to feel better. I just remember ignoring her and being so annoyed with her in the moment.

Eventually I got to the point where I couldn't physically talk and typed a message to Nemo:

I want to me normal I WA. T to be fixed and go just can't cause miss Phyre needs attention and the dress fitting and I don't want to worry mom and tge family but fucking here I dpimg just that all the God dam. Duckknf time vsvauar I can't fucking control my stupid fucking brain

They asked if I wanted to go to the lds hospital crisis center or if I wanted to wait til tomorrow:

I have to go today cause if I don't there be an excuse tomorrow like I feel better it always happens

So they drove me home so I could get some clothes and stuff to bring to be admitted into inpatient. The whole time I was getting stuff I cried and kissed miss Phyre and told her over and over how much I love her and that I'll be back I'm not abandoning her.

So we get up to the access center thing and because of covid Nemo has to leave but I get taken back pretty fast for the physical part and asking the standard health questions. They also take my stuff including my phone and the pieces of paper that I wrote down all my problems on and a brief breakdown of my childhood traumas. I sit in a pretty okay chair for what feels like an hour. I cry a bit but nothing too noticeable when I finally got back to see the crisis counselor she basically said I'm very knowledgeable about my mental illnesses and told me that she'd let their therapy coordinator know to give me a call on Tuesday and also gave me her business card so I could call too and said as long as I'm not a danger to myself I can go home. In that moment I wasn't in danger of hurting myself more and I did want to go home instead of being admitted so I could take care of Miss Phyre but this was the second time a crisis counselor told me I wasn't in enough danger to be admitted like? Excuse me? Sorry my fucking emotions turn on a fucking dime but I absolutely need professional fucking help please?

She led me back to my chair to wait for the psychiatrist or whatever and that time I didn't have to wait as long. I got a turkey sandwich box thingy that came with a fruit cup chips and a string cheese as well as mustard and mayo in packets to put on it and tomatoes and Lettuce on the side so you can add them if you want them. I only had time to eat the fruit cup and started spreading the mayo on my sandwich before the psychiatrist came to me and we talked and he said the same thing as the counselor thag I'm very insightful about my failings and then put me on welbutrin instead of Lexapro and said I'm good to go home. I went back to the chair finished making the sandwich and then ate it while filling out their crisis sheet thingy that's like when I'm in a bad place who can I go to type shit. I still had to wait to actually be discharged so J ate the string cheese too. I finally left and had to wait another thirtyish minutes for Nemo to come pick me up.

What the scratches looked like right after being discharged. We went back to Sam's house because dad was still doing the electrical and we stayed there for another hour or two before going home. Don't remember much after the discharge honestly.

Monday was labor day and we went shopping I got my pills and stuff from Smiths. Then we went back home to wait for mom and Karleigh to get up so we could go to Joanne's tk make a playyard thing for aidrian and the dollar store for other stuff I don't remember. Then we went to the grocery store to get pita bread for dinner and something else I forgot but we ended up shopping and spent like 200 dollars. We also went to Lowes to get more pvc pipe for the playyard because dad apparently didn't get enough the first time. We ate dinner with Dave which was tikki masala and it was pretty dang good. Also before we got my pills I walked Miss Phyre for a while outside and she loved it. I decided to give her a bath afterwards since she doesn't wash herself and she was oaky the entire time she didn't meow or hiss or anything. She tried to climb out of the tub but not like in an aggressive manner like she didn't want anything to do with the water. She was such a good girl.

When Dave left we started working in the playyard. We wrapped some pink tulle on the sides and tied it to the pvc with some thin yarn. It took us hours to do and it was just mom Karleigh and me because dad went to bed. It was grueling work because my body was already exhausted from shopping all day and I had to hold my arms above my head for extended periods of time. My heels were in excruciating pain but we finally finished half of the playyard at about 1230 only to find out the other tulle we bought was the wrong stuff. It was too small to have it folded over to keep the sides secure and wasn't long enough to reach both ends of the other tulle so we had to give up for the night which actually pissed me off more than finishing it would have probably. I ended up only going to sleep at 5 am and waking up at about 9 on Tuesday but it was a nice cool day so I took Miss Phyre out for another walk and while we walked I typed up the previous Tumblr post. When I was ready to go inside and take a break from reliving the shit that happened I saved it to drafts so I could finish it later and brought Miss Phyre inside. Then I realized that it didn't actually save it and I had another breakdown but not nearly as intense as Sunday. It didn't help that the therapy coordinator never actually called me. I got a call from a bit for Intermountain that asked a bunch of questions like do I understand my discharge orders am I feeling safe did I get medication and do I understand how to take the medication and I had to hit 1 for yes 2 for no and 3 for unsure and one of the questions was like am I still feeling like I'm in a crisis or something and I had to hit 1 three times because it just wouldn't register it and that pissed me off and made me mad that it was automated and they didn't even bother to have areal human call and talk to me. After every question I answered basically they said were sorry to hear that well have a nurse follow up with you later today. I ignored both calls from the nurse because I just didn't have the energy to deal with it after the Tumblr thing. Like I wasted so much energy just typing it out and what little I had left just instantly sapped after I realized it was gone. The second voicemail the nurse left mentioned that it would be the last time trying to get into contact with me but also that our insurance has mental health advocates so thats something I need to look into.

Eventually Cavell told my dad that I needed to be watched I guess and since dad was still at work and mom had just left to take aidrian back home mandi came downstairs and spent time with me. Cavell told my sad that I needed to eat so he texted mandi to make sure I ate something and we went upstairs and made pizza and waited for dad to come home. After that we had to wait for mom and Karleigh to get back so we could go back to Joanne's to get the right tulle and while we were there I bought some double pointed needles so I could make some wrist warmers to hide the scratches. I also wrapped them up which just made it seem way more serious than it was since they were too close for bandaids to work right I had to use gauze and ace wrap.

We thankfully didn't finish the playyard yesterday we're supposed to some time today but hopefully I'll be asleep before then.

I also left the access center a review since they only had two. One one star review that was basically my experience and one five star with no description from an account that only gives 5 star reviews and seems like a bot.

Nemo wanted me to call the center for evidence based treatment last night because Google said they closed at 7 but when I called they closed at 5 so I called today instrad and nobody answered so I filled out their online form and I just got the response email from them so I'm going to hopefully get better soon I guess.

Love you always.