#for me im gonna go ahead and send feedback on the messages

[ohnochanges]

once again I will echo previous suggestions: when they start a/b testing major new features (such as the new desktop dashboard layout), if you receive it and hate it? just. stop using tumblr for a bit. or only use it on platforms that the change isnt on (i.e. mobile instead of desktop). let the data from a/b testing show oh, people just straight up stopped using the site as much when we gave them this update. weird.

and also go to the support page and leave feedback. specific feedback! not just "ew, gross", but point out specific things you dislike, and say WHY. even if its something simple like "this is an obvious copy of twitter's layout, and its annoying for yall to randomly copy twitter for no reason, this doesnt add much usability, etc"

[straighttohellbuddy]

you know me {Wilbur Soot} // 1

sigh no more

Summary: As much as you love your university dormmates, you wished they wouldn't try and wingman you every time you all went out together. The only thing that gets them and their good intentions off your back is telling them you're already seeing someone. What happens after that is at least partially their fault for misinterpreting your friendship with Wilbur... But it's also his for agreeing to go along with it when you ask, and it's definitely yours for not being more worried when he gleefully threatened to be the most embarrassing fake boyfriend the world has ever known. Need to Know: They/Them. Set late 2020ish?? University Student!Reader. childhood best friends with Wilbur.

{ masterlist }

A/N: 2452 words. so ive been struggling to exist lately which is why i haven't posted this earlier despite how much i love it. im not sure when the next parts will be though i have made a solid start for now, but i really do hope you enjoy this! solid feedback is also a fantastic motivator, so if you have any thoughts, feelings, or suggestions at all about what you might like to see in this story going futher, please let me know!! i hope you enjoy it <3 also im just gonna go ahead and say here that one of my favourite forms of intimacy is giving ur friends silly nicknames on messenger.

Warnings: References to drinking.

Taglist: @extremeloserr @ahsteriawrites @mishthemess @spencer-not-reid1 @esylwen @lovejoyenjoyer @harbingerofheartbreak @lavcha @axeofwars @hiredars0nist @boiled-onionrings @river-exe @artsycanongoer @ghostyv @mitbin24 @generalnav @raes-gay @btwimskyvv @midnightsky1213 @lastwandastan @alive-woman-sitting @musiclovebot

Taglist is always open! Feel free to message or comment if you’d like to be added! xx

Your class is running far later than you'd expected on a Friday afternoon when your phone starts blowing up with messages. You had only been at university for a few weeks but finally had managed to schedule time to hang out with Wilbur, and had wanted to show him around your new dorm, so messages from him were to be expected. As you check your phone, however, you realise you forgot to tell the rest of the people who lived in your dorm that he would be meeting you there.

[Y/N literally is this your man? Come collect him from the sofa if u know him or let me know if I should call campus security] Your Residential Advisor sends to your dorm's group chat along with one of the awkwardest photos of Wilbur you've ever seen in your life. In class you choke on a laugh before seeing a series of messages from Wilbur as he'd been navigating around the campus until finally -

[hamilton kinnie(affectionate): I THINK THE PEOPLE YOU LIVE WITH THINK IM A SERIAL KILLER]

[hamilton kinnie(affectionate): like ted bundy]

Your whole face scrunches up with fond but well worn exasperation as your lecture across campus finally comes to an end. You respond first to the dorm group chat, assuring them that he was indeed your friend, and that you'd left your room unlocked if someone could show him there so he wouldn't have to awkwardly wait in the living area, before finally turning your attention back to Wilbur's messages.

[🦀in my crab arc 🦀: nobody thinks you're Ted Bundy can you please just be normal while interacting with my dormmates]

[🦀in my crab arc 🦀: my RA let you in she's gonna show you to my room you can wait there]

[hamilton kinnie(affectionate): I'm so normal right now I asked about the Weather! Small Talk! ]

[hamilton kinnie(affectionate): seriously tho this is so awkward she definitely thinks I'm a creep]

[hamilton kinnie(affectionate): which I AM but that's usually part of the long con, not a vibe I like to give off at the start]

[hamilton kinnie(affectionate): thats a joke]

[hamilton kinnie(affectionate): obviously]

[hamilton kinnie(affectionate): but actually please get here soon she definitely wants to call security on me I'm pretty sure]

[hamilton kinnie(affectionate): please tell her I'm not a murderer]

[🦀in my crab arc 🦀: alfkalflakfls]

[🦀in my crab arc 🦀: no someone just told her you're an internet celebrity lol you're fine]

[hamilton kinnie(affectionate):😐]

[🦀in my crab arc 🦀: not me lol]

[🦀in my crab arc 🦀: I didn't even remember to tell them you were coming to the dorm today why would I mention something like that]

[🦀in my crab arc 🦀: you passed the vibe check tho]

And you send a screenshot of the group chat where someone had mentioned that he was the awkwardest man they'd ever seen, but a few others had chimed in that he had a 'cute, shiny face' that made sense for an internet celebrity. Someone had screenshotted and close cropped his name from Twitter already and just commented 'FROM CHARLOTTE'S WEB?????' which had the latest response of '😳🕸️SOME PIG🕸️😳' which had the most positive reactions of any message in the chat.

You assure Wilbur you've told them not to be weird, which does little to alleviate his concern, but thankfully you're climbing the stairs to your dorm and are only moments away. Your RA gives you a look which you shrug helplessly at, but thank her nonetheless as you abscond to your room to put Wilbur out of his misery.

"It's different to how I imagined it," is the first thing Wilbur says to you. The door isn't even properly closed, and you're setting your bag down by your desk before you give him a wry smile.

"Better or worse?" The door closes with a click and you cock your head to the side, watching him while he gazes around at the way you've decorated the little dorm room from where he's perched on the edge of your bed.

"That's entrapment," his face lights up with an amused grin, still looking around, "I'm used to your old room," and when you sit beside him and flop back to look at the ceiling, he follows suit, "it's nice here, well decorated." And there's something about his strangely reserved tone that has you sighing.

"They're not gonna be weird about it," you assure him softly; unfortunately you were able to intuit what was worrying him fairly well. This isn't the first time you've had a conversation like this.

"You know I don't think it's your fault," he tells you matter-of-factly, turning to look at you, "but people -"

"- are weird," you finished with the faintest disappointment, knowing all too well that he was right. Still, you're glad he's here, and you tell him as much. He smiles at that, but it doesn't quite reach his eyes.

"We could go," you suggested, "I could plan better for next time and give you the full tour in the middle of the day when everyone's in class," the earnest offer makes his smile widen to something fond, "come on, we can get dinner and eat at your place, get on the piss at a pub across town; barely anyone goes past walking distance here." His whole face scrunches up with something all kinds of bashful and fond as he hides the expression against your shoulder, smacking you with his forehead hard as you speak, "I'm only here for a year, dude, you've seen it, that's all I require, I'm content, you never have to come back, which does mean there's a good chance I'll be living at your place on weekends but -"

"- and you'll spend your weekdays wasting away here in your well decorated Fortress of Solitude -" he snorts, shifting back to lay beside you properly, but at least now he's grinning.

"- I have friends outside of you," you remark flatly, smirking.

"I never agreed to that," Wilbur plays at being offended, and you sit up if only to shove him in the side.

"If you're really so jealous I can move in with you -"

"Into what? My linen cupboard?" He sits up too, giving you a right shove back, which has you skittering to your feet, crossing the small space to lean against your desk once more, looking at him with a sharp grin.

"You already having a housemate is not my problem," you stick your nose in the air and try not to laugh at the whole charade. As the bit slowly dies but the good mood remains, you ask if he wants to leave now, or later.

"I quite like it here," he says instead of answering properly, looking around again with a newfound fondness, "I might live here; gonna give up my place and move in. You're okay to sleep on the floor and be the only one paying rent, right?" After a moment, you school your expression into something neutral as he plays up his innocence.

"Wil, did you ever hear that Flight of the Conchords song Petrov, Yelyena, and Me?" You ask with a blithe smile. You can see the moment he remembers the song and it's premise, the way amusement lights up in his eyes as he keeps his expression otherwise controlled.

"The one where they eat their unwitting roommate in his sleep?"

"Yeah, that one."

"Never heard of it," he refuses to break eye contact, "haven't the foggiest," he sits back a little, "on an unrelated note, how about snacks, and something on Netflix, and I don't move into your dorm?" Giving a toothy grin, you finally break and laugh, agreeing easily.

You pass him your laptop from your bag and tell him where the charger is while you head out to the shared kitchen to get snacks for you both.

"You guys joining us tonight?" There's more than just your RA in the common room now; a few of your dormmates are sitting around the kitchen island preparing for predrinks. They'd already invited you earlier in the week, but you'd declined in favour of hanging out with Wilbur.

"What?" Now in the presence of other people who definitely knew who your best friend actually was, you could feel yourself growing tenser.

"You and Wilbur, you know you're always welcome to pregame with us, he is too," your RA smiled so kindly, as if trying to reassure you.

"We won't be weird about it," one of your dormmates assured earnestly, "it's cool that he's your friend." The girl next to her elbows her pointedly and averts her gaze, trying to hide her smile.

"He is," you blurt out, "my friend that is. He's my best friend, and he has been for ages, so just... don't be weird -"

"Come on, we're not being weird!" The first girl tries again, before giving a long sigh, "we'll try not to be weird," she concedes.

"You can't blame us for being a little curious about him," your RA says carefully, "he's a pseudo-celebrity on the internet, he -"

"Yeah but he's not a spectacle," you countered sharply, brow furrowing. You open the fridge into silence, "he's my best mate, he was before any of the internet stuff, and he's a person before any any of it; can you guys just treat him like that?" And you grab a bottle of soft drink from the fridge, closing it again, leaning your forehead against the cool metal with your eyes closed, "sorry, I shouldn't have snapped."

"No, we get it," one of the girls says sincerely.

"Do you and your friend Will wanna do pres with us?" The other offered kindly, and you take a deep breath, grateful for their understanding.

"I'll ask," you tell them, and all three give a little cheer at that, "no promises," you warned with a half-smile, and they all nodded quickly, thankfully all wearing grins.

The minute you step back into your room, however, you're startled by Wilbur standing only a foot from the door. His arms are crossed awkwardly over his chest, hands tucked into his armpits, cheeks puffed out and eyes wide as he rocks back on his heels with the movement of the door. He looks... kind of guilty. Also like he's trying desperately not to look guilty.

"I wanted to ask about the bathroom," all came out in a rush, and you, door still open, sighed, "you took longer than expected," he added; you hung your head. He'd heard your outburst at the very least, that much was clear. Stepping aside you tell him the bathroom is across the hall, hoping to use the brief moment to come up with some sort of an apology.

Instead, as he leaves, he heads to the common room first, and you can see from your door as he raps his knuckles on the empty doorframe, garnering the attention from the three girls in the room.

"Hello, hi, I'm Wilbur, Y/N's friend Will," its an akward if amicable start, jerking his thumb over his shoulder to your bedroom door where you stood still watching.

"Y/N's friend Will!" All three in the kitchen practically chorus, like they were somehow aware that he knew about the conversation that had just occurred and it was all an inside joke. Well, it does get Will to chuckle.

"I was told there was an invite to drinks, is that still on the table?"

"Uh, yeah of course," you can hear your RA answer, though she manages to regain her composure, "it'll be us and the guys from over there," you don't see her gesture but knew she'd be pointing to the block across your joined balcony, "we start drinking pretty much any time after sundown, but will be heading to the club around ten."

"It's a theme night - neon," one of the girls added, "not that you have to dress up or anything, but I'm about to make a run to the costume shop for any face paint if either of your guys want some, that's pretty much all I plan to do for pres," she laughs brightly as the others groan about how it's going to end up a mess, and Wilbur looks over his shoulder; he knew you'd be there, but gives a grin nonetheless.

He raises his eyebrows in silent question, and you, so endeared having watch him mend bridges that weren't even his problem, smile and shrug; sure, why not.

"We'll be there," he tells them, which elicits another round of cheering from the three prepping in the kitchen, "lovely to meet you ladies," a sentiment which is echoed back at him, and from there he finally actually heads to the bathroom.

The interaction you'd witnessed has you feeling all sentimental, and as you close your door and head back to your bed where Netflix is waiting, you can't wipe the goofy grin from your face.

"I guess you can move in here if you want," you tell him with this silly, saccharine tone, and Wilbur laughs before he even closes the door, "I'll sleep on the floor, you win."

"Nah," he shrugs, kicking off his shoes finally.

"Lost interest?" You raised your eyebrows at him and he gives a dubious glance over your bed. Then, almost as if he feels guilty about admitting as much, he sits beside you, back against the wall that served as your headboard.

"I literally don't fit, Y/N," he pointed out, kicking at your wall to draw attention to how dangerously close his feet are to the end of the bed already. You allow your tone to get teasingly sappy as you tell him he fits in your heart, and all he can do is rolls his eyes with a half smile, the sacchrine silence lasting right up until you pull your laptop onto your lap an a notification from your dorm's group chat flashes up in the bottom corner of the screen.

[🕸️SOME PIG🕸️ confirmed for pres!!]

It was one of the girls who had been in the kitchen, but Wilbur's expression seemed to flash through all five stages of grief upon seeing it, despite the growing number of heart emojis for the message.

"Oh god, is that really what they're calling me?"

Pulling out your phone you text the group to remind him that his name is Wilbur. Immediately, however, you get the response that 'that's too obvious'. Beside you, Wilbur snorts a laugh.

"What? Like I'm a secret agent?" Which you then send word for word in the group chat, attributing it to Wilbur himself as he buries his face in his hands and you quietly cackle. They were trying, in their own way, to accommodate your request to 'not be weird about it', which you were grateful for, so at least this you were happy to laugh about.

So they end up deciding to call him Charlie; it's short for Charlotte's Web.

[greenerteacups]

Hello! I wanted to let you know how amazing your fic is, it seems my life now revolves around Friday mornings. I think it may be one of my favorite series ever, not just fics, your stuff is better than most published works I have read. I really could go on and on. Suffice to say, thank you x1 million for just putting this out there for us.

I had a couple curiosities! Is it ever hard to restrain yourself and just post 1 time per week? Or is that necessary for your creative process?

Also, your fic is rapidly growing in popularity, do you ever get worried about how that might change your audience?

Thank you again for the amazing thing you've written, I feel super lucky to be reading it in real time because I know this is going to be one of those legendary classics.

Thank you so much! You're wonderfully kind, I really appreciate it, and I hope I can live up to your expectations!

Weekly posting: Posting once a week is actually something I started for my own sanity — posting it regularly/serially is better for audience response, so there's a natural incentive to do it, but it also gives me more time to write ahead. And having all of a book prewritten in advance is really important for me creatively, not only so as to avoid the possibility of cliffhangers, but also to feel immune from the pressure to change the story based on what audiences want.

Growing audiences: Oof, it's been wild. I've been sort of boggled by the response to my little fic; it was entirely unexpected and the most I can do is work hard to deserve it. For the most part, an increasing audience has been a wonderful, wonderful thing, and I've been so grateful for everyone who's been offering support and praise. I'm seriously insanely lucky. My only point of frustration is that, in general, as a fic grows, readers seem to perceive increasing distance between themselves and the author. For instance, people in my comments have increasingly started to address each other instead of me, or have left comments seemingly without the expectation that I'll read them. But when someone comments on the fic, they're still sending that message directly to the author, and I think that some people might... well, they either don't know that, or they don't care. Like, the audience/author distance might be greater than it is for a fic with only 300 hits, but it's not like I'm a showrunner, or some other media production bigwig who'll probably never see 99% of the feedback generated by fans; it's still my pet project that I read basically every scrap of feedback for.

And sometimes (rarely — most of my comments are just so wonderful, and I don't want to sound ungrateful, but) people do say weird or unnecessary things. One comment for the last chapter read, "if krum dies im gonna drop this fic ngl," and that just irritated the hell out of me. Like, if that's your opinion, cool. Your reading habits are none of my business, and I sincerely encourage everyone who needs to take a break from Lionheart — or, hell, even loses interest — to go find something that sparks joy instead. Reading fic should bring you pleasure. No hard feelings, swear to God.

But my frustration with that comment, in particular, was: you do realize that you've sent that message directly to my inbox, right? You realize that was the first thing I read when I opened my comments section after a long afternoon of writing? Someone directly informing me, the author, that a narrative decision (which, either way, I already made about 4-5 months ago) will lose me a reader? And how does this person expect me to react? "Oh, no! I have to go back and rewrite 90,000 words of the story — God forbid I lose you, Single AO3 User Who Left No Other Comments! How can I live with myself if you're not here??"

It's just a bit frustrating. And, to the point — I say this politely, with respect — but if you seriously can't handle seeing characters die, then maybe don't read the fanfiction that's rewriting a series where very many characters die. Just a thought.

[lov3nha]

fwb!heeseung

pairing: heeseung x afab!reader

genre: smut, angst, high school!au, theatre kids, alcohol, masturbation, oral sex, sexting, fwb, unnecessary plot maybe idk

summary: y/n becomes fwb with her crush? she actually doesn’t know wtf she and heeseung are and he could say the same. they just fuck all the time and secretly have feelings for e/o

wc: 6.3k

a/n: this is my first fic in like two years, im always open to feedback. also i didn’t know how to end this im so sorry 

It was the beginning of the fall term and you had just joined the theatre club’s design crew. You weren’t big on performing in front of large crowds, so you stuck with being behind the scenes. Your mom was a seamstress and often sold clothes at your family shop in the underground market. None of your friends joined the theatre club, so you had to make new friends. Sunghoon was in your college level econ class, so you just followed him around. You started to get close with him and eventually joined his little friend group. Sunghoon knew you weren’t close to anyone else in the club, so he introduced you to his friends. It consisted of three other students. You stood in between Sunghoon and Eunjoo. You looked at everyone in the circle, naming them and listing the things you knew about them. Eunjoo was a freshman, but a very talented actress. Hyebin was a junior like you, she was also in your calculus class. Next to Sunghoon was a senior named Heeseung. He wasn’t like popular, but everyone knew who he was, especially you. Your crush on Heeseung started in the spring, when you watched him play as one of the three musketeers in your school’s rendition of ‘The Three Musketeers’.

“Are you guys down?” Heeseung took charge since he was the senior. You turned to him, completely confused on what he was talking about.

“Sorry, what are we talking about?” You asked.

“Well, auditions are soon, so I suggested we can hang out today to get the nerves out.” Heeseung repeated the plan.

“Oh sure, just send me the address and I can come after this,” You responded. The group nodded and hummed okays. Since everyone was friends already, Sunghoon added you to their groupchat. You didn’t bother reading the 200+ messages though.

[holy.hoon]: they’re planning to do the addams family ??

[heeseung01]: yea im prolly gonna audition for gomez

[hey.binnie]: wowow good luck guys

[leeunjoo]: good luck to me too bc im tryna get the role of wednesday

When you got to the house, you waited before going in. Being in a room with people you weren’t really friends with made you anxious. And you weren’t even acting in the play, you just do set and costume design. Once you reached the door, Sunghoon let you in and lead you downstairs. This was your first time speaking to them outside of school, so all you could talk about was the play.

After a few more minutes, Sunghoon sets up Mario Kart to play. It was a bracket. You vs Hyebin, Eunjoo vs Heeseung, and winner against Sunghoon. You beat Hyebin because of a red shell. Then of course Heeseung beat Eunjoo because she wasn’t good at games. The way the bracket was set up had you playing against Heeseung. You were ahead in the second lap, but you fell for the fake item cube Heeseung set up the lap before. You (and the girls) grunted in frustration. Sunghoon, on the other hand, encouraged Heeseung. It really wasn’t a close game after you fell behind. Heeseung was way ahead of you, but you didn’t want to admit it. The match was over and Heeseung was preparing to race against Sunghoon. You didn’t even notice your feelings of anxiousness from before were gone.

“Good game, loser.” Heeseung teased you. You wondered what he thought of you since today was the first time you’ve ever interacted with him. For some reason you started getting self-conscious again. You’ve admired him for being so outgoing and friendly. You also knew about his love life through the grapevines. How he was apparently good in bed and was a smooth talker. In the end, Sunghoon was the champion, and everyone left later that evening.

Your phone was faced up on your desk as you were doing calculus homework. Notifications filled your home screen with messages from the group chat. Heeseung had suggested some outfit and prop ideas for the play, since you were on the design team. You slid open your phone, saying that your mom knew how to make clothes.

[heeseung01]: actually? i have some ideas for the set and outfits

[yn.yn]: oo okay send them to me,

[yn.yn]: i can see if my mom can help us make some

[hey.binnie]: ooh y/n can u sew and make clothes n shit?

[yn.yn]: kinda, i’ve just started learning from my mom like a year ago

Heeseung directly messaged you his ideas for the play. For the most part, the characters wore mainly black. Then he asked if you could video chat and you started panicking. Heeseung?!? Wants to call me??? You collected yourself and answered his call. He was wearing a tight white tank top and some grey sweatpants.

“Hi,” You felt nervous again. Maybe you should’ve put some make up on. What are you saying, it’s just a video chat with Heeseueng.

“You look pretty with your hair up.” So, this is what they meant when they said he’s a sweet talker. He was very teasing, but maybe that’s just how he is.

“Oh, hah, thank you. Yeah, I always put my hair up when I’m working on stuff. So it’s like not in my way,” You babbled. That wasn’t even true, you just didn’t know how to respond.

“That’s cute,” There was that smile again and those dreamy, mesmerizing eyes. Wow, I have a huge crush on this dude.

“What did you want to call for?” You changed the topic before you could blow up of embarrassment.

“Honestly, I just wanted to see you.” You audibly laughed. That was so cringey.

“You’re funny. That’s funny.” You laughed to hide the fact that you got butterflies from him. Don’t embarrass yourself.

“It’s true, you’re the person I know least about in the group. This is your first year in theatre, no?” The conversation continued for another 10 minutes. How could you feel so relaxed but so nervous at the same time when talking to Heeseung? You looked at the time and decided to finish your homework instead. Plus, there’s no doubt he has a list of girls on his call list.

The next day in theatre club, the teacher said auditions were being held this Friday instead of next Friday. More days passed and your group started practicing the lines. Heeseung messaged the group chat after school to see if anyone wanted to video chat to go over lines.

[yn.yn]: im literally bout to shower, maybe in like 20

[heeseung01]: send pics??

[holy.hoon]: that’s so gross

[leeunjoo]: ewewww

[hey.binnie]: pls keep that stuff private. we don’t want that in the gc

[leeunjoo]: ^^

[yn.yn]: ur so weird hee

Heeseung often sent you messages about how he couldn’t wait to see you after school, but you never took them seriously. You’ve heard about Heeseung and all the little flings he’s had. You didn’t want to be the next one, but he was so addicting to talk to. It was inevitable, one night your teenage hormones took over. It started when you posted a picture with your friends on your story and Heeseung saw. After school and you went to hang out with your friends. You just happened to wear a shirt that showed quite the cleavage. Heeseung slid up on your story making sure you knew he liked what you were wearing. You thanked him, but of course he had to make things dirty.

[heeseung]: i bet you’d look better with it off

[you]: oh my god, that’s so hot

[heeseung]: yea?

[you]: i was being sarcastic

[heeseung]: are you busy right now

[you]: yes !

[you]: im out with my friends, if you want to get off ask some other girl

[heesung]: but only you make me feel this way~

Everything about Heeseung was bad, but he still managed to cause butterflies in your stomach. You knew this was all just a game for him. In fact, you know he talks to other girls because you were pretty sure you heard Hyebin talk about it in class. You left Heeseung’s message on read and joined the conversation with your friends, but that didn’t stop the teenage boy from sending you explicit texts. After dinner, you went home and straight to your room. Luckily your room was downstairs and the rest of your family’s room was upstairs. As soon as you entered your room you texted Heeseung.

[you]: i fucking hate you

[heeseung]: stop denying that you want me. i can feel it every time we make eye contact

[you]: ughhh

[heeseung]: you could be grunting in pleasure if you just give into what we both want

[you]: ur annoying. im not gonna resond fr this time

[heeseung]: ur so hot when you’re angry, i keep thinking about leaving bites all over you

[you]: heeseung don’t start

As much as you wanted to deny it, you could just imagine Heeseung’s lips pressed on your neck, then moving down to your torso and even going lower. Heeseung grinned to himself when he read your message. He loved how easy you were, he didn’t even have to try.

[heeseung] why not :(

[you] i hate how u make me feel

[heeseung] let me help you change that

[heeseung] i would start with kissing your pretty lips, then slowly move down to your jaw

[you] heeseung please

[heeseung]: please continue? gladly

[heeseung]: god i wnna ruin u and pull on your hair as you’re telling me how good i am

[you]: id love that

You imagined Heeseung’s rough hands roaming your body. Thinking about him turned you on so much.

[heeseung]: mm baby i’ll make you feel so good when im fucking you

All the stories you’ve heard about how amazing Heeseung was made you really curious. Heeseung sent a video of him pulling his shaft out from his sweatpants. You positioned yourself in your bed as you recorded yourself sliding off your jeans. Heeseung stroked himself and asked for you to send more videos. Teasingly, you sent a photo of you in only your undergarments. Heeseung screenshotted the photo, you hesitated to send more. But at this point you were too horny to care about what he was going to do with it. Heeseung’s breathy grunts filled your room and you moaned along.

[heeseung] baby can i plese cal u

[you] yes

Not even a second later your phone began to buzz. His voice sounded needy when he praised you on how you made him feel.

“Y/N, I need you so bad.” He grunted into the phone.

You whined at his words. “Please, Heeseung. I wish you were here.”

“Mm, what would you have me do?” He smiled on the other side of the phone.

“I want you to hold me down while you leave marks on my body. Heeseung, I want you to fuck me so bad.” Your breath hitched as you played with your clit.

“Baby, you sound so cute when you’re needy. I can’t wait to feel every part of your body. From those beautiful breasts of yours to your nice ass.” You heard Heeseung’s speed increase as did yours. “Hmm, Y/N, I wish your lips were sucking me right now.”

You inserted two fingers into your mouth and sucked them, causing there to be a little pop at the end. You moaned Heeseung’s name into the phone while continuing to pleasure yourself. Your whining became louder as you were getting close Heeseung was too. His grunts were getting more vocal, indicating he was close to finishing.

“Heeseung, I’m cumming.” You slowly fingered yourself, riding your high. Over the phone you could hear him panting. He was probably finishing himself off.

“God, I’m a mess,” Heeseung lightly chuckled. “You should go wash up, too.” He suggested. You washed up and went to sleep, not even thinking about what would happen tomorrow. Whereas Heeseung couldn’t wait to make tonight a reality.

The next day, you woke up clearly remembering the events of the previous night. Were you really that needy? How embarrassing. You literally told yourself you weren’t going to be another one of Heeseung’s flings. You sighed and got ready for school. Heeseung didn’t text you at all since last night, but what did you expect. Once you got to the school grounds your friends were talking about their love lives. You walked with them to their lockers and Heeseung saw you. You saw him earlier, but pretended not to. He walked closer to you, trying to catch you before the halls clustered with teenagers.

“Good morning, Y/N,” Heeseung looked at your friends before looking back at you. He smiled at them, and they left you two alone to talk.

“Um, what’s up?” You asked calmly, though your whole body was tense.

“Thank you for last night, I really enjoyed it.” Heeseung’s smile made your heart tingle. The two of you started walking towards your class.

“Yeah, of course? You could’ve just texted me.” Your fingers began to sweat out of nervousness.

“I know, but I just needed an excuse to walk you to class.” Your face turned a light pink from his response. “I’ll see you after school!” And just like that Heeseung left. You wish you had the courage to talk to him more, but the whole mutual masturbation thing was new to you and you didn’t know how to deal with it. Was this a one-time thing? Are you guys fuck buddies now? What happens next?

When you got to class, your friends teased you and asked you all sorts of questions. Like why you didn’t tell them you were friends with Heeseung, or if you liked him, or if he liked you. You knew they liked to gossip, especially about Heeseung. You didn’t tell them because you didn’t want everyone to know your business just like all the other girls Heeseung fucked with. The whole day you kept daydreaming about Heeseung, which was a tad bit unhealthy. You couldn’t wait to see him. As if he was reading your mind, you received a text from him.

[heeseung]: hi y/n

[you]: hi heeseung 

[heeseung]: what class are u in rn

[you]: physics hbu

[heeseung]: im in calculus, its so boring i already finished the hw

[you]: can u send me the answers lolol

[heeseung]: only at a price

[you]: and that is?

The bell rang and it was time for you to see Heeseung. You were so eager to see the boy that has been running through your mind, you didn’t even realize you were speed walking through the halls. When you walked in, he was with a different group of friends. While he was helping them set up the backdrop, you were trying so hard not to stare from the other side of the room. Sunghoon, Eunjoo, and Hyebin showed up and the four of you began to help around the room. How could Heeseung go from walking you to class to not speaking to you? Occasionally, you two would make eye contact, but you were quick to break it. The next time you two made eye contact, Heeseung winked at you. You rolled your eyes at his attempt to flirt, but you also began to tease him. You tucked your hair behind your ears, allowing him to see the bare skin of your neck. Next, Heeseung was sitting on the floor as he rolled his head back. Dirty thoughts started filled your minds. Heesung couldn’t stop thinking about last night and was so ready to take you right there, but he couldn’t.

“Heeseung?” Eunjoo asked and he cleared his throat as he turned to her.

“What’s up?” He responded.

“Can you come help us carry some of the table back?”

Eunjoo and Heeseung walked towards you and you smiled at them. Eunjoo was talking to Sunghoon as Heeseung walked up to you. You were kneeling on the floor, picking up some scraps from the set and you looked up at him.

“This is a pretty sight to see.” He smirked. You quickly got up to help them carry the table to the back of the stage. “Come with me.”

“We have to finish maki–” Heeseung grabbed your arm and took you to one of the dressing rooms in the back. It was dark as he closed the door and locked it. Not like anyone was gonna come to the dressing rooms anyway, but he didn’t want to risk it. He pulled you onto his lap as he sat on the couch.

“I’ve been thinking about kissing you since forever. Can I?” You hated hookup culture, but you wrapped your arms around his neck anyway. He took that as a signal for him to start kissing you. He pulled you closer and you could feel his dick getting hard. You sucked on the top of his lip before allowing him to enter his tongue. Feeling his wet muscle, you let out a soft moan. Heeseung’s hands began to explore your body. One hand ran down your back while the other was placed around your hips. You became needy and grinded on him. Heeseung let out a gasp from the pressure you put on his hardened shaft. His lips gently kissed your jawline and down to your neck. You tilted your head slightly to the left to give him more access. His kisses were getting more wet until he got to your collarbone. Your bodies were touching and your hands played with his hair. Heeseung moved your shirt to the side so his lips could suck on the skin near your collarbone. You tugged on his hair in pleasure. Now knowing you liked that, he continued to move up near you neck.

“Hee, I’m not tryna go back out there with hickies on my neck.” You pulled away and cupped his face to pull his lips to yours. Soon, his hands slipped under your shirt and he groped your boob. You moaned in pleasure, grinding on him again. The two of you continued this for a while, then you felt him twitch underneath his jeans.

“Let me help you with that.” You got on your knees and looked up at him while you slowly unzipped his pants.

“Y/N, I need your beautiful lips–” His sentenced was halted as you pulled down his briefs, causing his shaft to hit against his torso. The cold air made him gasp, but it was quickly replaced with your lips. You’ve never done this before, but the amount of porn you’ve seen should be enough, right? Either way, you had Heeseung slurring out swear words. You slightly tease him by licking up and down his shaft. “Don’t tease me, Y/N.” You used your hand to spread your saliva over it before putting your mouth over it. His hips jerked into your hands.

“Baby, your mouth. Please.” You started slowly from the top. Your tongue swirled around the tip, then you opened wider to fit it in. Heeseung started thrusting slowly. Once you got the hang of it, you fastened your pace. Heeseung’s hand found its way to your hair and pushed for you to go deeper. “Baby,” he lightly moaned as you tried to keep up. He let out a long groan and you continued to gag in his dick. You looked up at him to see his head thrown back against the couch. His eyes met with yours and he smiled.

“Fuck, you’re so good at this.” His praise made you release his dick with a pop before going back to suck it. Before he got close, Heeseung pulled you back up to his face to kiss you again. Heeseung’s hand guided your hips onto his thigh, but before anything more could happen you pulled away.

“Heeseung... class ends soon,” You said in between pants.

The two of you got up and dressed properly. You cannot believe you just gave Heeseung head in a fucking dressing room at school. Luckily it was the end of the day, and you could go straight home after this. You both went to the bathroom to clean yourselves up before returning to the auditorium.

“Where were you guys?” Sunghoon suspiciously asked.

The two of you lied about your whereabouts and Sunghoon somehow believed it. You smiled at Heeseung, silently thanking him for not telling everyone what happened. No matter how embarrassed you felt after doing things with Heeseung, you always did it again. But that was going to change, you were not going to hookup with him again.

Well, that was a fucking lie. The following week, Heeseung came over to practice lines with you and you ended up giving each other head. Then after another week of sneaking around, roles were casted and Heeseung got one of the leads. Sunghoon and Eunjoo didn’t end up getting any major roles, but they were still in it. Now that you were creating the costumes for the cast, you and Heeseung spent a lot of time together outside of school. He came over one day so you could get his body measurements.

“Can you take off your sweater so I can measure your shoulder?” You asked kindly.

“Do you want my shirt off too?” Heeseung smirked, but you weren’t paying attention.

“I mean if you want, but you’ll be wearing clothes under the suit, so I don’t really need the measurements to be that precise,” You answered completely oblivious to Heeseung’s ulterior motive. Heeseung decided to keep his shirt on since you didn’t say yes.

“Y/N, you look so good right now,” Heeseung pulled your waist close to him, causing you to mess up measuring his chest.

“Heeseung, can you not move around. I need to start making these costumes before the end of the week.” You explained.

“Can we take a break? I have something else you can measure,”

"First of all, please never say that again. Second, 6 inches. Third, how the hell are you horny? I didn’t even do anything.” You plopped down on your bed beside him.

“Well, you’re just so pretty and then your fingers were touching me all over. Then I just combined the two, you know?” Heeseung slowly pushes you down. His hand next to your face, trapping you between him and your bed. You scoot up on your bed so that you both can fit on it. Heeseung is still on top of you and you both smile before his lips roughly meet yours. Your tongues swirled around each other’s.

“Someone’s impatient,” You chuckled after struggling to pull away.

“Just keep kissing me, loser.”

You let Heeseung take control of the kiss as your hand roams up his shaft. You can feel it wasn’t sitting right so you slip your hands into his pants to fix it. Heeseung flinches at your touch. He lowers his arm out of tiredness and begins to kiss down your neck.

“Can I leave hickies?” He asked.

“Anywhere I can cover with clothes,” You answered, and his hands were quick to take off your shirt.

Heeseung loved your body so much. He loved how sensitive you were to his touch. It’s like he was made to please you. He starts leaving marks above your breasts as he fondled them. After, he moved down your torso and stopped at your pajama shorts. He looked at you for confirmation before pulling them off. You thought it wasn’t fair that you were half naked while he was fully clothed. So, you tugged on the hem of his shirt to let him know. He lowered himself back down, now directly in front of your panties. He moved it aside, exposing how wet you were for him. Right after he praises you for it, he gently inserts one finger. It slips in easily, so he adds in another one. You release a sigh from the pleasure. Slowly, Heeseung’s fingers thrust in and out of you. Seeing you squirm, he starts curling his fingers to find your spot. A loud moan escapes your mouth. Notifying Heeseung to do it again. As he continued to finger you, his mouth found a way to your clit. Now with his tongue flicking it, you were pulling tight on the bed. His flicking turned into sucking and you were on the verge of your orgasm.

“I’m so close, Hee,” You managed to speak. “Please keep going.”

Heeseung showed no mercy till you finished. The two of you look at each other in awe before Heeseung grabbed a towel. He wipes you down gently and helps you put your clothes back on. You never realized there was this side of him. Was he like this to every girl he fucked? You were so confused because you guys never really established what the two of you were. After you changed you went back to the bed with Heeseung.

“Can it be my turn now?” Heeseung cutely begged. Unfortunately, you mom texted you she was on her way back from work. You quickly finished getting Heeseung’s measurements then walked him out. Your parents didn’t know you were having a boy over and you’d like to keep it that way. You smiled at the dark-haired boy. Till this day you still hated hook up culture. You knew that if you kept doing this with Heeseung you would get hurt. For that very reason is why you still haven’t technically had sex with him. How are you supposed to reject making out with your crush though?

Later that night, you got invited to a party that one of the theatre kids were hosting.

[holy.hoon]: r u guys gonna go jeongin’s halloween party

[hey.binniee]: duhh, im going as maleficent and eunjoo is aurora

[leeunjoo]: yah we’re gonna be so hot

[heeseung01]: freshmen aren’t allowed

[leeunjoo]: not fair

[hey.binnie]: we literally alr planned our fits, can’t u let it slide this once

[leeeunjo]: yea pleaassee heeseungie

[heeseung01]: bro idgaf, its jeongin’s party not mine, but usually freshmen are like looked down on

[holy.hoon]: @yn.yn r u going?

[yn.yn]: im working till 8pm that night, i can maybe come after if im not dead

[heeseung01]: ah that’s actually good timing, i have family stuff till 8, i can pick u up and we can go together

[yn.yn]: okie

 The day of Jeongin’s party arrived and you watched as everyone posted their costumes online. When you got home from work you touched up your makeup from earlier. You threw on a black turtleneck and green cargo pants resembling Kim Possible. It was an easy, quick, and affordable costume.

[heeseung]: what are you wearing

[you]: eww pervert

[heeseung]: i meant to the party

[you]: why didn’t u say that from the beginning

[heeseung]: i don’t have any costume ideas, so i was just wondering what u were gonna wear

[you]: why? u wanna match w me? :P

[heeseung]: ugh whatever

[heeseung]: im omw now

[you]: ok babe

You sent that last message as a joke, kinda. You just wanted to see how he reacted. You weren’t sure if Heeseung was going around telling people you were his new sneaky link, but you haven’t heard anyone talk about it yet. The only people you’ve told were your coworkers because they don’t go to your school. Plus, if you told your friends about him, they were sure to expose feelings for Heeseung– and you were not going to let that happen.

Heeseung hasn’t told anyone about you. There were plenty of girls Heeseung could choose to hook up with, but all he could think about was you. He didn’t know if it was a crush, but he knew he wouldn’t want you to be with anyone else. Before you and Heeseung started hooking up, he used to sext Hyebin all the time. It wasn’t anything to him. They played love interests in the last play, but other than that he didn’t have as hard as feelings for Hyebin like he had for you. I guess Heeseung could call you his ‘sneaky link’, but do sneaky links send each other tiktoks that remind them of each other. Do they give each other song recommendations? Do sneaky links feel jealous when you talk to other people?

“Hi, babe,” Heeseung greeted you as you entered his car. “That name rolls off my tongue perfectly.”

“Shut up. You’re not even gonna mention my costume?”

“You have one on? I thought you were just wearing regular clothes.”

“I’m Kim Possible?” You looked at him in disbelief. Either he doesn’t know who Kim Possible is or your costume was bad. “Well, who are you dressed up as? A 2000s American rapper?”

Heeseung was literally in a white tee shirt and cargo pants with a zip up hoodie half zipped. He just laughed at your joke and continued driving. The ride to Jeongin’s house was like 20 minutes because he lived in a fancy rich neighborhood. As the song played in Heeseung’s car, his hand rode up your thigh.

“Is this your trick into getting girls to sleep with you? Play some R&B music and caress them.” You joked.

“No. This is how I get girls to fall in love with me.” Heeseung played along, but for some reason you were hurt by that comment. You knew there were other girls before you, probably in this exact seat too. And you knew whatever was going on between the two of you wasn’t special, but you wish it was. From the very beginning you told yourself you were not going to get involved with Heeseung like this. Yet here you are in the passenger seat of his car with his hand rubbing your leg.

“Well,” You said as Heeseung placed his hand back on the steering wheel. “You need a new plan because it’s not working.” You pulled out your phone to distract yourself from your negative thoughts.

Once you got to the party, the two of you searched from the rest of your friends. Heeseung was stopped by some seniors you didn’t know, so you searched for them yourself. The journey was very quick, since Hyebin was with that group of seniors. The two of you greeted each other and exchanged some compliments. Then you walked with Hyebin to the kitchen where Sunghoon and Eunjoo were.

“Hi guys,” You cheered.

“HI Y/NN!!” Eunjoo shouted. You noticed the shot glass in her hand.

“OMG, who is letting her drink?  She’s just a freshman.” You questioned.

You were not going to let Eunjoo take anymore shots. So, you took her back to the dance floor. You looked around to try to find Heeseung. You notice him talking to this one girl, dressed up as a Playboy bunny. How basic. Next, he leans over to whisper something in her ear and they both start laughing. Heeseung looked up and noticed you staring at them. You tried to play it off by looking away. How could he run his hand up my leg during the car ride, then not even speak to me at the party. He was so confusing.

When you walked away you accidentally bumped into Jeongin, causing his beverage to spill all over your top. A little yelp escaped your mouth.

“Oh shit, my bad,” Jeongin turned to grab the nearest napkin. It didn’t do much, so you went the kitchen where you see a towel near the sink. Jeongin followed you to try to help.

“You’re Y/N, right?”

“Yeah, and you’re Jeongin– obviously.” You continued to wipe your shirt, but it still felt wet.

“Here, follow me. You can wear one of my shirts,” He led you upstairs to his room and Heeseung noticed. No way she’s following Jeongin to his room. When you came back down, you saw Eunjoo taking shots again, so you went to stop her before she ruins herself. Hyebin and Sunghoon also noticed her.

“This is why freshmen aren’t allowed. They don’t know their limits,” Sunghoon stated. He decided to bring Eunjoo into a room where she can rest.

Hyebin noticed your change in outfit and asked you what went on between you and Jeongin. You told her the truth, thinking you can trust her. All you and Jeongin did was talk about Heeseung. When he brought you to his room, he mentioned seeing you and Heeseung exchange glances. He encouraged you to go talk to him.

Hyebin laughed in your face. Unknowing to you, she was jealous that you and Heeseung became close. He no longer messaged her for late night hookups, and this confirmed that he replaced her with you. She told you she saw Heeseung go into the bathroom with the playboy bunny. And just on cue, the two of them walk out into the hallway. Your heart drops to what feels like the bottom of the earth. Hyebin pretends to care for you a little bit before leaving you in the kitchen.

Jeongin noticed you drinking all the alcohol and invited you to go dance with him and his friends. He didn’t know what Hyebin had done and was still trying to help you get with Heeseung. Jeongin held your hands to guide you to the music. As you were beginning to feel the rhythm, you saw Heeseung looking at you. You pulled Jeongin closer to you to incite a reaction out of Heeseung, but he continues to just watch you.

“Y/N are you good?” Jeongin asked. He didn’t know why you were dancing with him when you were interested in Heeseung. You pushed yourself closer to Jeongin and his hands roamed around your body kind of awkwardly. But he stepped away when he saw Heeseung come over.

“Ouch, Heeseung,” You shrieked as he grabbed your wrist.

“I’m taking you home,” Heeseung demanded as the two of you were now outside.

“Why? You can sleep with all the girls you want, but I can’t even dance with another guy?” You freed your wrist from him. What kind of hypocrisy was this?

“Oh, it was more than just dancing. You came back from his room in his clothes,” Heeseung explained.

“I didn’t have sex with him, Heeseung. He wasn’t even in the room when I changed. In fact, all we talked about was you.” You shouted and tears began to fill your eyes. “This whole night I’ve been wondering if you were ever gonna come talk to me. But then I find out you’re fucking some bunny in the bathroom!”

“Who told you that?” Heeseung exhaled. “They’re wrong.”

“I saw it myself, Heeseung.” Now the tears were rolling down your cheeks

“What you saw was me coming out of the bathroom after helping her puke her intestines out. I don’t even think about fucking anyone but you.”

“Oh,” You mumbled and wiped your tears. This was so embarrassing. The last thing you wanted was to cry in front of Heeseung.

“Just let me take you somewhere, you’re clearly fucked up right now.” Heeseung looked at you with caring eyes. The last thing he wanted was to make you cry.

“I’m barely even drunk,” You retorted (and lied). “And I don’t want to go home. My parents would kill me if they found out I was drinking.”

“Do you want to go back to my place?” Heeseung meant it in the most innocent way ever. He was not going to take advantage of you while you weren’t sober. You nodded and the two of you entered his car. It was safe to say the car ride was a silent one. You didn’t notice it at first, but his car smelled like him. The smell was intoxicating and almost as strong as the alcohol on you. Heeseung looked at you adoringly and apologetically. He wondered if he should tell you how he felt. When you got his house, you washed up and got ready for bed. You were completely sober now. You felt bad for going off on Heeseung, but you were too embarrassed to speak to him. Heeseung let you sleep in his bed while he was going to sleep on the floor, but you felt bad and offered him to sleep on the bed with you.

“Are you asleep already?” Both of your backs were touching. Neither of you wanted to face each other.

“About to be,” Well, neither of you were brave enough to face each other.

“Oh, okay. Goodnight,” You could feel Heeseung shift the position of his legs. After a few moments of silence, you apologized.

“I’m sorry for freaking out earlier,” You positioned yourself to stare up at the ceiling.

“It’s fine, I’m sorry too.” Heeseung turned around to face you. So, what now? You slowly turned to face him. Out of the tension and closeness between you two, you confessed your feelings to Heeseung. It felt liberating to finally tell him how you felt. Even if it meant ruining whatever you had going on. “That’s not fair, I was going to confess to you first.

You smiled and he pulled you in for a short, sweet kiss. You continued to lie in his arm for a while before kissing him again. Heeseung told you if you kept kissing him, he was going to get h word. So, that’s exactly what you continued to do. Heeseung sat up and pulled you up over him, so that your legs were now over him. His lips found yours once again as he guided your hips on his. You were getting too needy and decided to strip yourself of your clothes. Heeseung did the same. Your hand went straight to his hardened dick and Heeseung grabbed a condom from the table next to his bed. As he placed on the rubber, you positioned yourself above him.

“Are you sure?” Heeseung reassured and you nodded. You lowered yourself onto him gently, causing sexual sounds to escape your lips. “Oh, fuck.” Heeseung panted.

You slowly grinded against him to get used to the size. Heeseung’s had roamed around your back and hips. Soon, he had you bouncing up and down his shaft. You tried to kiss him again, but the euphoric feeling took over both of you. Your breathing became synchronized.

“You feel so good, Y/N.” His grip on your hips got tighter, as did your grip on his shoulders.

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a/n: brahh im ending it here bc im too lazy to write more. thank u so so much for reading and i hope you liked it. idk why but every time i read something i write, i find it super cringey.

[bxthharmon]

Never Go Home Again, Pt. VIII || JJ Maybank x Reader

Words: 4102 (jeez, making up for a short last episode??)

Series Warnings: violence / talking about abuse / toxic relationships / talking about nudes sex tapes and sex tapes / drugs / underage drinking

Pt. Warnings: Breaking and entering? / underage drinking

Series Summary: A new girl, a shoebox of old memories, a past she’s trying to forget coincide with a hotheaded, but selfless, boy.  teenagers getting in way over their heads

Pt. Summary: Midsummers takes place as the pogues make headway in the hunt, Y/N struggles with her two friends’ enmity.

A/N: okay so longgg chapter. hope it’s not too bad, and i only hv one chapter left in my drafts so im gonna have to start writing instead of just editing... hopefully updates will stay just as frequent tho. lemme know abt tags and feedback, and pleaseeeeeee send requests!!! lockdowns giving way too much time.

Chapters linked in my masterlist.

“masterlist”

You borrowed your dad’s car, and dressed in the simplistic, elegant dress intended for your prom back in LA, you arrived at the party. 

You found yourself surrounded in summery cocktail dresses and flower crowns, tuxedos that ranged from elegant dark blue to pastel pinks, a couple of floral patterns spicing up the mix. Soft lights hung loosely over the patio, lights hardly noticeable in the soft, bright hue of the evening, the sun yet to fall into the glittering sea stretched out from the view in the hotel. You worked your way through the silks, chiffons and satins. Drinks were pushed into your hand, tapas offered and awkward smiles shared. By the time you found Kie, you were armed with a glass of champagne and the feeling of not belonging. She laughed at your already exhausted smile, and had dragged you to find Pope. Once you were with Kie, it took twice as long to get anywhere, because everyone seemed to stop her and ask about her parents, the restaurant, or to offer criticism on her choice of friends, giving you side-eye. You were the one who spotted Pope, pointing him out and letting her drag you over to him.

“Excuse me, sir,” Kie mocked a British accent, “do we have to shuck these ourselves? ‘Cause it might mess up my costume.” 

You all laughed, hugging him in greeting. “We wouldn’t want that now, would we?” Pope returned the joke, doing your pogue handshake.

“That accent was bad.” You shook your head.

“Yeah, it was. I was gonna let it go.” She laughed, “Y/N’s is way better.”

“Oh stop it!” you joked, in your British accent, pretending to blush, “You’re making me blush.”

“You ever seen this many kooks in one place?” Kie asked.

“Yeah, last year.” Pope grinned.

“We’re in the lion’s den.” You sighed. “Hey, have either of you heard from JJ?”

They looked at you sympathetically, shaking their heads.

“He’ll be alright.” Kie soothed. “He’s got the survival instincts of a cockroach.” 

“In the month I’ve known him, this is the longest I’ve gone without hearing from him.” You sighed, and Pope looked down guiltily.

“This is my fault.” 

“You didn’t do this, Pope.” you assured him, “Topper almost killed you, remember? JJ chose to, you know him, always putting others first. You can’t carry the blame, that’s not fair on you.”

You turned to the noise of an applaud, seeing Sarah and her family entering. You held back a snigger at the sight of Rose’s crown, but smiled at Sarah, who smiled back.

“Here come Lord Capital and the exploiters.” Kie sighed.

“She’s definitely gonna poke someone’s eye out with that.” Pope commented, and you looked back at Rose’s headdress, this time unable to contain the giggle.

You chatted for a while longer, finishing the lavish champagne and wanting to have some fun. You had practically dragged Kie to the dance floor, making her dance with you as a steady flow of drinks passed both your systems. Eventually, she was summoned to talk with her parents, leaving you alone on the dance floor. Before long, you found yourself dancing with Sarah, spinning her round, and exaggerating the both of your moves, mocking the way the adults were dancing. You went to get a drink after a few songs, and walked straight into JJ.

He was just as surprised as you, but you reacted quickly, pulling him down into a soft kiss by his collar. You looked over your shoulder, blushing at the sight of Pope and Kie clapping and giving you thumbs up. You turned your attention to him, tracing your thumb over his split lip and the bruises on the left side of his face. The dark cut contrasted the pink of his lips, and the bruises looked a painful, mottled purple that spread over his jaw and up to his cheek bone.

“JJ,” you murmured, “Did your dad do this?” 

“My dad, got a nice right jab, ya know?” he tried to joke, seeing the worry in your eyes. The light he hoped would return to your eyes stayed gone, as anger took over your features.

“JJ, I’m gonna fucking kill him.” you seethed, “He had no fucking-”

“Y/N,” he said, cupping your face, “leave it, okay? It’s nothing that hasn’t happened before.”

“JJ that’s not making me feel any bet-”

He kissed you again, taking you off guard, and you smiled softly when he pulled away. “I gotta go,” he mumbled, “I’ll see you in a bit, I promise, babygirl.”

You nodded dumbly as he walked away, turning back to Sarah, and seeing her wiggling her eyebrows suggestively at you. You rolled your eyes at her, making an excuse to leave, and walked over to Kie, who started pestering you for details, which you supplied. Your discussion with Kie was cut short by the sight of JJ being hauled out of the house and into the garden.

“Hey, Mr Dunleavy, I see you got your drink. Good, that’s really nice of you. I’m actually gonna down that.” he took the drink, and, well, downed it. “It’s okay everybody!” he yelled, “Do not panic. Leave it to the men and women in uniform! Let’s hear it for them!” he shouted, making you and Kie smirk, trying to hide your giggles. “Rose! You look like lady liberty. Good to see you again. Hey, buddy, can I have one of those?”

“Let go of him!” You called, working your way towards him.

“You can’t just boot him!” Kie backed you, ignoring the warning looks you were both getting from her parents. He looked up at you, a tiny smile on his face. “I invited him here! I’m a member of this club.” she continued through her parent’s protests. JJ turned and pushed the guard into the crowd, stumbling in the opposite direction.

“Sorry about that! Hey,” he pointed at you and Kie, “mandatory power hour at Rixon’s, Kie, Y/N. Pope, you as well, alright? Rixon’s cove, let’s roll! A’ight Y/N, come on!” You grinned, he turned to Kie, “Workers of the world unite, throw off your chains!”

Kie and Pope ran ahead, both hugging John B, and you ran straight into JJ’s arms, letting him swing you around and kiss you, for once, not caring that everyone was staring.

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“Hey, guys, so like, my dad’s already gonna kill me.” Pope said as you all settled around the campfire. “So what’s this mandatory meeting about?”

John B shot finger guns to JJ, who looked up, “Might as well tell him, man, before we’re all gaffed.”

“You ready for this? John B replied.

You and Kie looked at each other, “Yeah.” you said, in unison.

“So, the gold never went down with the Royal Merchant.” John B started.

“Here we go again.” You muttered, settling into JJ’s side.

“No, alright? Wait. Hear him out, alright?” JJ backed John B, and you frowned, shrugging and gesturing for him to continue.

“It’s been here the whole time. It’s on the island.”

“Are you serious?” Kie asked. “Oh my God.”

“I’d like to voice my skepticism.” Pope spoke.

“I’m sure you would, Pope, but can I please present you with my evidence, Sir?”

“Proceed.” Pope mocked.

“Alright, so, in my backpack, I have a letter from Denmark Tanny.” 

“Who the fuck’s that?” You questioned.

“Denmark Tanny was a slave who survived the Royal merchant wreck. Check this out.” he handed Kie some paper, “So slaves weren’t mentioned as crew members on the ship, but my dad, he found the complete manifest. That was his big discovery. So Tanny used the gold from the Merchant to buy his freedom.” Kie passed you the paper. “After that, he bought his farm. Drumroll please,” you drumrolled on your thighs, “because that farm is… Tannyhill Plantation.”

“Tannyhill?” Kie affirmed. You passed Pope the paper.

“Yeah.” John B continued, “so after that, he used his money to free even more slaves. And then he sold a shit ton of rice, which pisses off all the white planters, and then they decide to lynch him. So on the day they were coming to get him, he writes a letter to his son as a farewell, and in the last line of that letter, he leaves a coded message about where to find the gold.”

“Where?” You whisper excitedly.

“Harvest the wheat, in parcel nine, near the water. Except, there’s no wheat. You see, wheat is code for gold. Check this out.” he shows you another piece of paper, and a map. “The gold is in parcel nine, near the water.” you and Kie squeal, laughing excitedly, “All we need is an original survey map of the property, and we’ve found the gold!”

“Okay, so, this might have a small chance of actually being true.” Pope said, and JJ got up from beside you.

“Dude,” you laughed, “this is like, King Tut!” 

JJ pulled John B into a hug, lifting him up. “Hello, fire! You’re near the fire. You’re gonna burn.” John B warned, and JJ put him down. “I’m so proud of you right now.”

“Thank you.”

“That’s really sweet of you.” JJ looked at you, “And jeez, Y/N, what is it with you and Tutankhamun?”

“4th Grade history?” You guessed.

“Okay, so, guys,” Pope brought the attention back. “What’s the plan?”

“Good question.” John B agreed.

“How long does this go on for?” you moaned, “Wrap it up, JB.”

“Sarah Cameron’s coming tonight.” he simplified. “And she’ll bring the original survey.”

“Hold on.” Kie stopped him, “Sarah? Wh-why Sarah?”

“This is gonna be good.” JJ muttered, and you raised your eyebrows at him.

“Sarah, um, she - she helped me into the archives at Chapel Hill yesterday, and that’s where I got the letter.”

“You were in Chapel Hill with Sarah Cameron?” Kie frowned, anger contorting her features.

“Are you guys macking?” you asked, a disbelieving smirk on your lips.

“He was mackin’ on her.” JJ confirmed, interrupting John B’s pitiful attempts at an explanation, and earning him a giggle from you.

“For real?” you asked John B.

“I wasn’t macking.” John B defended.

“You were totally macking Sarah Cameron.” JJ repeated.

“I wasn’t macking on her, okay? I was using her for access.”

“There was access, alright.” JJ mumbled, earning another giggle.

“Okay,” you piped up, “JB you should have consulted first, Kie, she obviously did something shitty, but JB, using her is pure shitty, so you better just be covering for yourself right now.”

He looked at you defeated, and you groaned. “Did you tell her about the treasure?” Kie asked.

“I was just trying to get into the archives!”

“Is that a yes?”

“I left out key details!”

“Yo, what? You let a kook in on our secret? What about Pogue Lyfe? What about the t-shirt company, bro?”

“I was just using her for information.”

“Why don’t I believe you?”

“I’m tryna make us filthy rich here! Okay, so that we can pay off a boat, or - or, uh, send you to autopsy school to study dead bodies! Look, you guys know me! Do I look like the kind of person who would fall for Sarah Cameron?”

You and JJ made eye contact, “well..” you started.

“Um.” he chuckled.

“Do you want us to answer that, or-”

“Just - just stop.” John B looked at the pair of you, defeated.

“Look, you don’t know her yet, I do! You can’t trust her!”

“Her brother did hit me in the back with a golf club.” Pope pointed out.

“Rafe and Sarah are different human beings.” John B countered.

“What did she do to you, exactly?” you asked Kie, wandering how she could hate your friend so much.

“She’s like a - a spitting cobra. First she - first she blinds you and then she-”

“This is a bad analogy.” you mumbled.

“Listen to me!” Kie demanded, “Whatever we get, she’s gonna try to take.”

--

You and JJ were lying on your bed, not having bothered to get changed before getting under the covers. You interlocked your fingers with his, snuggling closer, your eyes barely open. “What do you think Sarah did?”

JJ turned his head to look at you, he could tell it was tearing you up. “I… don’t know.” JJ sighed, defeated. “I’ve known Kie for years, and she’s never talked about it.”

“Sarah was super kind to me, I don’t understand why Kie is so against her. It’s so shitty, ‘cause they’re both my friends, and I want them to get on, but they obviously won’t.”

“They might?” JJ muttered, thinking.

“C’mon, Jay, you know it’s impossible. And I don’t even know what happened between them, so I can’t fix it.” 

“You know it’s not up to you to fix it, right?”

“So why do I feel like I have to?”

“Because you’re an empathetic, kind, brilliant person?”

“Jay,” you groaned, as he kissed you, “Be serious!”

“I am.” he mumbled, kissing you again.

“You’re infuriating,” you giggled, “you know that?”

“It’s all part of my brand.”

“Your brand?”

“Oh yeah, super-hot surfer pogue, insanely funny, get’s the best weed on the island, you know, the usual.”

“You’re full of shit.”

“Hey! At least I have a brand!”

“Is that a comment aimed at me?” you mocked offence.

“I mean, your brand is ‘mysterious new girl’.”

“You think I’m mysterious?”

“I mean, yeah, none of us know, like, why you moved or anything about you.”

Your heart twinged, but you covered for yourself, mocking him, “It’s all part of my brand.”

--

“I’m sorry, you’re staying where?” Kie passed John B to get to the bar, the group having gathered in the Wreck.

“Tannyhill.” John B repeated, and you shook your head, disbelieving.

“So you’re living with Sarah Cameron?”

“Okay, look, the only reason I’m living there is because her dad bailed me out, right?”

“I still can’t believe you got pushed off that wooden frame thing.” You muttered, and he smirked, fighting down a laugh as you and Kie went to the group’s table.

“And it’s way better than foster care,” he continued, “which, by the way, where I was about to go if Ward didn’t-”

“Hey, so do you have membership to the clubs now?” Pope asked.

“I don’t know, Pope.”

“What about those little golf carts that they drive around?” JJ added, “You get one of them?”

“Does it come with a sweater-vest, or do you have to buy one of those on your own?” You add.

“Look, you promised.” Kie brought the focus back, like always. “You said you weren’t with her.”

“Bro, just own it.” JJ backed, “She got you.”

“Look if you wanna hang out with her, that’s fine.” Kie sighed, “I mean, Y/N sometimes hangs out with her. But I’m letting you know right now that I’m not doing anything with Sarah.”

“Do you guys see her here?” John B pointed out, “No, right. Okay. A little focus would be fantastic. We’ve got the map, right?”

“It’s all out of whack ‘cause the guy was ganja’d when he drew it.” JJ commented.

“No,” you corrected, “the coastline changed, dummy.”

“So we just have to look for landmarks that haven’t changed.” Pope clarified.

“What about the old forts?” John B suggested.

“You know, the more you guys talk, the more I realise that I know nothing about this island.” You observed, treasuring the feeling of JJ running a hand through your hair.

“Battery Jasper.” Kie pointed.

“Let’s go.” you  stood up, leading the group out to the VW.

John B drove, none of you really paying attention until you reached the landmark.

The five of you looked out over the island, expansive green leading to expansive blue, you were at a high point. “We’re in battery, right here.” Pope points on the map. “So if this is parcel nine, then it’s somewhere northeast of here.”

“Somewhere over there.” Kie points, and you take JJ’s juul off him, taking a puff, then handing it back.

“Over there?” JJ followed the point. “Guys, that’s not Tannyhill, that’s a subdivision.”

“Tannyhill Plantation used to be the entire island.” reminded John B. “It got sold into smaller pieces over time.”

Pope inspected the map again, “So we’re just looking for an old stone wall.”

You ventured back to the Twinkie, following Pope’d instructions, again. John B took a sharp left, pulling up next to an overgrown stone wall.

“That looks like a stone wall to me.” JJ said, almost proud.

“This is it.” Pope confirmed. Your car doors clattered open as you hopped out of the car.

“Not the Crain House.” John B sighed.

“Are you kidding me?” Kie repeated the sentiment.

“Worst case scenario.” JJ confirmed.

“Why’d it have to be here of all places?” Pope asked.

“Hang on a second.” You turned to your friends, your lack of apprehension standing out in the group. “It’s just a house. What’s the big deal?”

“I heard Mrs Crain buried her husband’s head on the property.” JJ told you. You all looked at him, the other’s in fear, you in skepticism.

“Well that’s bullshit.” you shrugged, taking a hold of the top of the wall and pulling yourself up, throwing your legs over and landing in the overgrown thicket. You pricked yourself in the brambles, and swore. The pogues on the other side of the wall immediately started asking if you were okay, making you giggle. “Just be careful of the brambles.”

Once they were all on the inside, you began to venture inwards. “Look, Y/N, you know whose house this is, right?”

“Some old lady’s?” you guessed, and were greeted with four unimpressed stares.

“Honestly, I don’t really believe the stories of this place.” John B joined your skepticism, but was shushed by Pope.

“Which stories did you hear?” JJ asked Kie.

“The one where she killed her husband with an axe and that she’s been holed up ever since.” said Kie, making you snort. “On certain nights, when the moon is full…”

You saw where it was going, and joined in with Kie’s mockingly spooky hand movements as she finished, “... you can see her in the window!” the pair of you giggled.

“No, girls, it’s not funny, ‘cause it’s all true.” JJ shook his head, as you and Kie made ‘Waah’ noises. “I swear to God guys, this is all real. I knew Hollis. Jeez!”

You smirked, “Yeah, jeez. Who knew you were superstitious? And who’s Hollis?”

“Wait, you knew Hollis Crain?” asked Pope.

“Who’s Hollis?” you repeated, ignored again.

“Yeah, dude.” JJ confirmed.

“Dude, how do you know Hollis Crain?”

“Dude, who is Hollis Crain?” you mocked Pope’s anxious movements.

“She was my babysitter, man. She told me all about it.” He looked around the group, “She told me the truth… about her mother and what happened in this house.”

“And what would that be?” You asked, still skeptical as you looked up to the unkempt house.

“So as a kid, she heard all the stories that her mother killed her father, and she was a murderer and all. Hollis didn’t believe it. Until that night.”

“What night?”

“It all came back to her.” JJ turned to look at the house, “When Hollis was six years old, she heard her parents arguing downstairs. So she goes downstairs to see her mom washing her hands in the sink full of blood. Her mother just says that she cut her finger. The next morning, she says her father and her split up. But then, Hollis noticed something. Her mother going into the parlour constantly, in and out and in and out with plastic bags. Weeks pass, and Hollis decides to use the outhouse. And as she’s using it, she looks down, and there, in the outhouse, is her father’s head, looking straight back at her.”

“God, you are so full of shit.” you and John B outburst in unison.

“Dude, I swear to God, man.” JJ shook his head.

“Did she call the police?” Pope asked.

“She didn’t have time.” you and John B started to walk on, only to be grabbed and pulled back by JJ.

“What?” you asked, confused. He turned to John B.

“You sure you wanna do this? She’s an axe murderer. You got a cast on.”

“I don’t give a shit if she’s an axe murderer, okay? I got nothing to lose, right? You comin’, or what?”

You follow John B through the garden, and he gathers you in a semicircle. “So here’s the plan. We need to look for the wheat near the water like it said in Denmark’s letter.”

“Okay, like, what kind of water?” asked Pope, “Like, pond water?”

JJ chuckled, “Bong water?” you slapped his arm lightly.

“It just said look for water, okay?”

“That’s the shittiest secret message ever.” Kie moved past John B.

“You wanna complain a little more, Kie? Nobody said it was gonna be easy.”

“I’ll search the northeast quadrant,” Pope started, addressing you and JJ, “you two search the northwest.”

“The decapitation quadrant?” JJ objected, and you took his arm, pulling him with you.

You scanned your area, coming up empty, then followed John B into the basement. You went in before JJ, who started singing a song about how Mrs Crain was going to kill you all.

You and Pope turned, shining your torches in his face.

“Can you stop?” You hissed, and he shut up.

You swung the torch light over the room, the broken and discarded furniture giving the room a horror-movie vibe. You’d never admit it, but you were beginning to feel creeped.

“This is the part of the movie where we get attacked by the old, half-dead blind lady.” You muttered, and JJ nodded, gesturing to you as if you had predicted the future, the others rolling their eyes.

“See any water?” Kie asked, five torches sweeping around the place. You felt a tickle on your arm and slapped, your palm coming away with the brown stain of squished insect. “Another dead end?”

JJ ran his hand on the pipes, “There’s not even water on the pipes.”

“There’s no water here.” Pope confirmed as you slapped another bug, noticing that it was a mosquito.

“Not a dropamino.” JJ continued.

“Know why we didn’t find it?” Kie piped up, “Bad karma.”

“Oh, God, here we go.” John B muttered.

“You know, we had a good thing going. And then you decide to rope in Barbie, and now the trail’s gone dry.”

“Literally,” smirked, “there’s no water.”

“Coincidence?” Kie continued as Pope and JJ sniggered, “Probably not.”

“This is exactly why I didn’t wanna tell you about Sarah.”

“Yeah?”

“Yeah.”

“What the hell’s the deal? What’s going on with you two?”

“Nothing.”

“Nothing? Is it because I kissed you? Is that the problem?”

Your eyes widened, your mouth forming a little ‘o’ as Kiara slapped him, JJ and Pope both calling out in surprise.

“Stop treating me like I’m some girl that’s obsessed with you instead of your best friend who’s actually trying to look out for you.”

The pair of them started bickering, slapping each other, using skeeters as excuses. You slapped your leg, seeing the brown stain of a mosquito, again.

“Why the fuck are there so many mosquitoes?” you fumed, slapping yourself again.

“Dude, I know, seriously. Tiny little vampire bats, just leave me alone.” JJ added, the pair of you slapping again, and again, and again. “Oh my gosh, can we leave? ‘Cause I’m already itchin’ to leave. Haha, punny.”

You looked at Pope, who was staring at the floor, his torch shining over it. You both stomped on the ground hearing the hollow sound as JJ tried to show you ‘Mrs Crain’s voodoo doll’. You picked up a stone, dropping it through the crack in the floorboards, and hearing the ‘plop’ as it landed in water. You and Pope scrambled, pushing the loose bits of wood out of the way to lift the board, opening up the well. Pope shone his torch down.

“Well, well, well.” he joked.

“Water great discovery.” You added.

“Great dad jokes, guys.” John B sighed.

“They built this part of the house right over it.”said Kie.

“This is where she hid the bodies.” JJ nodded.

“JJ, just stop.” You shook your head.

“No, I’m dead serious.”

“Yeah, you will be, because I’m seriously considering pushing you down that well.”

“It was never an outhouse.” JJ continued.

“She probably doesn’t even know it’s here.” Kie shrugged.

“So, we found water.” Pope looked to John B.

“We’re gonna need a really big rope.”

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Content Creator Year in Review!

Hey Hey!!! hmm actually a lot has happened this year, some i’m proud of and some not so much,,, but really its all good things so I am happy to be tagged by the cute little bear that is miss sora aka @honeymoonjin.

lets get it!

first creation and most recent creation of 2020: ummmmm I think the first creation of 2020 actually would have been Player Two. most recent? besides the one thats going to be published soon- Buzzkill.

one of your favorite creations from 2020: Definitely Player two, this has to be one of the hottest fics I’ve written and honestly who wouldn’t be a sucker for taekook.

a creation you’re really proud of: Haha again...Player Two, but in all seriousness, this fic sits close to me. After going through so much behind the scenes when it comes to an old fic I wrote... I was actually going to leave Tumblr in whole. while not everyone knows, a very close friend of mine broke my trust and interest to write. I originally planned to have Player Two out MONTHS ahead before everything happened, but thanks to some friendly advice and some of you who sent asks and messages- checking on me... it gave me some inspo to continue writing and I will be forever grateful for that. In the end, while all of you waited patiently, I rewrote everything I originally had planned for that fic and to this day, it’s definitely been my number one. It also marked my first 10k fic so yeah lol

a creation that took you forever: Player Two...but also Sway with me. Player Two took me months to rewrite after posting the Teaser- sway with me  took me a while as well but not as much. 

a creation from 2020 that received the most notes: Im so sorry lol...Player Two, I guess all those blood sweat and tears didn’t go to waste, because it’s also the most (probably the most ill ever have) notes that Ive gotten on a work. most of the time I dont pay too close attention to notes- but more so feedback when it comes to fics, however I wont lie to say it feels nice to have that many on it. 

a creation you think deserved more notes: Ummm, honestly Idk...again I don’t look too close at the notes but, I’d say Sway with me. This in itself is the longest fic I’ve ever written at almost 20k words. The only reason I feel like this fic should have had more- is really by exposure. I think at the time Tumblr never exposed this fic, because even clubs that I was in didn’t see the fic to reblog it in their Tags. I didn’t dwell on it much, so I kept the fic up for anyone who wants to read. I had plenty of feedback on Ao3!

a new fandom you joined and a creation you made for it: I dont know about a fandom on tumblr, but an anime fandom on tiktok. I do plan to write for other groups in the future since I am now stan for some new ones. 

a creation you made that breaks your heart: PREDILECTION. this fic-...this fic was one of the first I’d ever written and it sucks that I lost the passion to finish it so early. At some point I was ready to discontinue it and not edit because of how I used to write. not to mention the angst that comes within these chapters in planning.

a ‘simple’ creation that you really love: ummm Discoloration. I cant say what it is about this fic, but maybe its just be being a sucker for blonde Taetae and honestly any drabble requests you guys send me- they are literally SO FUN to do and sometimes I think about doing a drabble game if anyone is interested. 

a creation that was inspired by another one: Normally my fics are inspired by short scenes in my head, but I do have future fics that are a inspired by movies I like or songs.

a favorite creation created by someone else: Im gonna be very honest l, I’ve ready very few fics in this year but I will say some of my Talented Wives ‘The Gentlemen’ by @honeymoonjin, ‘Nothing on you’ and ‘The right of a king’ by @sope-and-shine, @missgarnet for ‘Stay’ and @sakuraguks for ‘Angel of Temptation’ , If I didnt not tag you I am so sorry, I sucked when it comes to reading this year.

some of your favorite content creators from the year: everyone that I just listed, there are others but I honestly cant think of them at the moment lol

and for good measure, another couple more creations of yours that you love: Buzzkill, If you let me and again anything I wrote that was a drabble for you guys.

tagging: I tagged most of them up above ofc if fhey want to do it except the one who already tagged me lol

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so i guess i could type like a practical person for once……. maybe………. but i probably won’t so i apologize ahead of time……… anyway, so i hit? 1k…..? after remaking only 3 months ago... to me that’s pretty crazy because as a lot of my older mutuals will know, i remake like every 0.38 seconds because i’m annoying like that… to the people who’ve been here since forever (you know who you are) it means a lot that you’ve stuck with me through blog type changes (there’s like 1 or 2 of you who’ve just been around since The Beginning and wowza thank you for dealing with me like that ifnawoeiawoef)!!! and to the people who i’ve only recently become mutuals with i apologize cause at any second i will probably be like hee honk time to remake. to all of you, mutuals and followers, thank you for dealing with my stupid lame text posts about chan or my crazy ‘content creators deserve better’ campaigns!! thank you for interacting with me through dms, asks, even just liking my posts and being kind to me when i’m down- i really appreciate that. i’ve been using tumblr for a very, very long time, and tbh, i feel like its not until recently that i’ve found a group of people that i feel very comfortable and happy around. you guys are all so talented and funny and warm and friendly, and i’m so thankful for you guys in my life! thank you so much for allowing me to be a part of your dash !!! i’m really grateful if you’ve ever enjoyed my content (gifs, gfx, etc.) and i hope i can continue to make your dashes and hearts bright whether it be through content or my stupid dumb (i hope funny) tags! i love you all!

(( if theres a 🖤 next to your name!! i’ve left a little message for you under the cut ;; v ;; !!! i hope you know how much i love and appreciate all of you! (i really didn’t proof read these so like… u know… just…….. i apologize foawinefoiwna) ))

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@00hj​: hello karen! wow :( it feels like forever since we’ve been mutual… like i really cannot believe it’s been??? 7/8 months since we first became friends? like it doesn’t even feel that long. i know time flies and we’re at that point in our lives where every day just flashes by but :( even in those moments that do pass by, you’re always there making me smile. through your killer content or your funny jokes or those convos where we’re both just yelling abt how much we HATE group projects… its all fun :( you always make me smile and make me want to work harder. when i see how hard you work??? it just makes me want to work /that/ much harder. from your gfx to your gifs!! you are a pillar in this community and i am so honoured to be pals with u man faionwefoaie !!! to top that off, i feel like i can always ask you anything- any dumb questions i have abt making things, anything that’s just kinda eating at me, i feel like i can talk to you about it. you’re such a comfy place !! a comfy warm person !! and i love you dearly! i hope you get to kick back with jisung and hyunjin and enjoy a slice of pie!!

@angelhyunjin​: hello angi! my darling you work so so so hard! your art is always stellar and always wowing! i know sometimes you worry about posting, but please remember to put your health first;; its hard to think about yourself sometimes, i know, but remind yourself that !! to make smth nice, you need to be well first!!! anyway;; your art never fails to make me smile. like your style is sososo distinct and memorable?? and also?? you’re an amazing dancer!!! your covers are always so lovely and you do such a great job :( i can tell how passionate you are about things through both your art and your dance! thank you for always working hard and being kind to everyone around you! i love you dearly angel! hyunjin is sending his love!

@binsungz​: yooooo whaTS UP HOMIE FIAWNOFANWFO HELLO BABY!! MY WHORE PARTNER!!!!!!!! MY GIRL!!!!!!!!! literally what do i even say here that i haven’t already said to you??? you’re one of my closest friends online and you ALWAYS make me laugh. from talking abt nsfw things to cute things to minecraft and gaming!!! you always always get me !!! you just have a knack for understanding me?? and that’s just :( so appreciated!!!! you !!! are !!! amazing dude!!! ur gifs are always so clean; you’re one of the reasons i started working harder to make my gifs better bc you inspired me !! you’re always so kind and warm and loving ; and i can always talk with you abt sucking dicks or eating pussy like IT REALLY DO BE LIKE THAT !!!!!!!!! i was going through my old blog and i found those videos you did where you looked through my blog and when i heard your voice again and you being like ‘omg ur so funny’ i was ready to scream cause it was still so fuiowenaowieaoe fricking cute :(((( dude I LOVE YOU!!!! like you really are one of the kindest people in the world and i can’t stop !! saying !! how thankful!!! i am for you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i love you so much britt !! thank you for always dealing with me and being kind to me and just fjaoweifnaow you’re really the best :((( jisung and [redacted] love u but not as much as me ok foaiwneoaiwnfia ……..

@cosmicskz​: hello gumdrop!!! my love!!! thank you so much for always hyping – not just me- but everyone up!! you are sososo kind and so so so SO warm and cute and oawifenawo precious!!! please remember to take care of your health and of yourself too!! loving everyone around u is important but also take care of yourself TT TT !!! your content is also always so cute and thoughtful and you put 110% into everything you do ????? like !!!!!!!!  ma’am????? so talented and pure ;; ___ ;; like i don’t know how you do it but you do !!! also thank you for ALWAYS offering to look @ my work and give me advice etc etc!! i am so appreciative of it ;; also – i know i don’t always reply that often but !!!!!!!!!!!! i love you and i’m thankful that you’re so patient with me when it comes to dms fjaowiefnawoiefn TT TT you’re ! so ! lovely and sweet and i hope you know !! i’m here for you whenever you need !!! skz and i lovelovelove you!

@f1owerlix​: vale……….. vale………………. VALE……………………………. HELLO…………………. ??? i ??? can’t even find the words to tell you what you mean to me. i’d write a poem but its just gonna end up being long and i’d never be able to finish it bc i’d go back and keep adding bits and lines abt how you’re like the NICEST person in humanities history and that you’re just an all-around talented and wonderful person….. like….. are u KIDDING ME!!!!!!!!!!!! she did that (that = being the kindest person EVER) you’re always using The Most amount of nicknames possible;; and it makes my heart so so so soft. not only that, but you’re also such a kind, genuine, warm person. i don’t know anyone who is as kind, and humble, and talented, and warm like you. i literally could list a billion wonderful things about you because you’re that frucaowienoawikingiawgo amazing…. dude like seriously…. we out here STANNING miss vale….. i was going through my blog a while ago and i saw this tag that was like ‘i got my vale fansite set up and we’re going to start making slogans and planning birthday events’ like past li had it right. you’re so kind and funny and warm and i always feel safe and comfy talking to you. i really appreciate the feedback you give me- because its always so thought out and GENUINE. like… you do this for EVERYONE… all the tags i read from you are so KIND and you always make ccs feel like they’re doing the best job ever…. like you really……. you really are an angel on this ea.rth…. huh….. also…? changbin is dropping by with flowers for you!!!!

@jedixuxi​: hello angel;; i hope you’re doing well!!! thank you for dealing with my blog change and staying mutuals with me regardless of content differing! thank you for always being kind and being patient with me- i know i don’t reply a lot but ;; you are a really good friend to me and i am so so so thankful;; you’re so sweet and warm and such a talented artist;; like everything you draw im always like fjawifeawoej :0000 !!!!! you really have so much love and warmth inside of you and !!! that’s why ur so tall ma’am.. foawiefnoaweifno :’( aaaa thank you so much beth for always being so warm to others; your brightness is like the sun on my dash and in my dms and you always make me smile or laugh its just ;; aofwienaiwneoi I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!! and xuxi is also mailing his entire heart your way ok !!!

@jinlix​: hello madam ! hello to my lov e !!! my sweet lil gum drop !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hello KELLY!!!!!!!!!!!! oh my gosh hi bb :( thank you for everything you do; firstly, your gfx?? so incredible ok?? like i know your style immediately when i see it yet you always manage to surprise me?? like your work is so fucking GOOD. how does she do it :// like us plebeians will never kno and that’s how it fuckin be ig afoiwneoaiwnfeoawi ….. omg…. ok…. and like secondly??? youre always so humble and kind to other ppl??? like your tags on anyones work is always so so so so kind TT TT you always say the nicest things- and i still remember the tags you left on one of my very first skz gfxs … like you really made my heart flutter like that huh….. hm…. guess you’re an angel or smth like… that…. gmgamoweigna TT __ TT Kelly seriously you’re such a sweet heart? you love with all your heart and its so warm and soft and whenever you talk abt hyunjin im like jfjfaiweIFAIWo …. my heart !!!!!!!!!!! like he would totally be floored by your love bc of how soft u fuckin are oh ymgmymmym go d !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! anyway :( i love u so much and hope you’re well angel!! hyunjin is sending all his love your way!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

@jisquish​: ok here we go … ma’am… MA’AM… how do i even EXPLAIN the love i feel for u.. oh my gosh.. miss india.. you really exist like that.. like we STAN a whole ass legend huh… not only are you funny and smart and talented and kind and amazing?? you’re also just like.. the coolest bestest person in the world? like i still find it hard to believe you were one of my anons bc like… u just.. u r too … ://// cool… like i’m really just sitting here like… an idiot… from day 1 you’ve always been so fucking kind to me !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! you have just :( been so sweet and kind and just an all-around angel- and even if we only talk every now and then, i always feel so warm and happy whenever we do!! u know those ppl u don’t have to talk to 24/7 to know that there’s still a warm friendly hug waiting for you??? :(( yea you’re one of those people. you always always ALWAYS make me laugh like hfawoifenoawie :( hello how do u do this?? yet you also are so grounded and warm and understanding and like.. i can’t believe you’re also one of the most talented humans ever;; whenever i see your covers, i’m always like !!! wowowowo !!! you inspire me to work harder with my music and writing ;; you are such an angel :-( and i am so thankful for you! so so so so thankful!!! jeongin and changbin and jisung are sending all their love !!! and so am i bb !!!

@johfam​: if anyone deserves a thank you- it is you. miss nita… jejejsigaweg i feel like i’m gonna cry typing this so here we go…. you’ve been friends with me for more than a year now i believe :( i think we’ve actually hit our year since we became friends which is so wild to me?? you’ve been with me through SO MANY THINGS… like you’ve been my soundboard for so many things in my life.. i can’t believe we started talking bc a spider landed on your hand… and u stabbed ur own hand with a pencil.. like ig we have to thank that spider….. ghanwegoiawen….. you’ve really stuck with me through blog changes and through me being angry abt things and you’ve allowed me to be angry- which i appreciate so much.. you know me so well :// like… idk how you do it but you always make me feel safe and warm and like i can say anything to you and you’ll hear me out?? like oaiwnefaiwenof :( you just !! you’ve supported me so much through so many bad days and i can’t thank you enough. you are made of sunshine and stardust and your heart is literally the softest and warmest. thank you !!! for !!! always enjoying frogs with me and sending me cute frog things.. like.. :( it makes me SO happy that we can enjoy those lil squishy fuckers together.. also thank u for being my source of johnny content jfjawfieawio i’ve literally unfollowed every other nct blog and you’re one of the only ones left bc i still love johnny so much and seeing him on my dash- esp with your tags- makes me so so so happy;; thank you for everything you’ve done for me and !!! and for all the love you’ve given me :( and just for being there for me through some of the toughest places in my life;; i really love and appreciate you!!!!!!!!! johnny is sending his love and some kisses through the mail :’(

@kim-seungmins​: hfhawefaniow…………… hello dumm..y… :( u r the loml.. you’ve been there for me through so much shit in the short amt of the time we’ve been friends.. u were also one of my first friends in this fandom- and i’m so thankful you were bc we got really close during these last few months and it makes me so happy. you’re so funny and you always make me laugh!!! you give me so much confidence and happiness and you make me feel so warm and happy ;; !!!!!! you are a fajfowienawei whole ass angel who is always working hard both to make good content and in school. :( i’m so proud of you for all that you do dude like wowowwowo :( look @ you go ????? you’re also one of the funniest pals i have like u literally make me bust a LUNG laughing … like whenever i get any of my biases together in one screen i now literally think, without even pause, “abia voice: crumbs” likej faweiojaowefoi you’re such an icon!!!!!!!!! also?? like … you’ve just been s o kind to me and helped me with things that i’ve not talked to others with bc you never make me feel like i’ll be judged… like.. you’re so fucking understanding and warm and kind and considerate with how you reply; you always care and you’re just… :( u r angel or smth like that… i know i tease you and that’s kinda how i show my love but for real dude………………. i love u so much.. like if i could give you the whole world i really fucking would.. :( because you deserve nothing less!! thank u for always providing that good good seungmin content ;; seungmin and minho and woojin all told me to tell you that they love you!!!

@kimwuujin​: hello sugar drop!! thank you for being so kind and warm and always just !!! being so sweet :( you always tag me in funny/cute content and it’s always appreciated !!! i feel like i can always be dumb and say stupid soft things abt chan with you bc you’ll understand how i feel :((( you’re so sweet and i’m so glad we started talking more !! you’re not only like faoiwenfaowi incredibly cute and sweet but you’re also so so so so funny !!! :( like you make me laugh and aofwinewaoinoi i really appreciate that!! you’re also so grounded and understanding and !! you always know what to say and i’m really appreciative of the fact that you phrase things so well and eloquently- when will my dumbass ever- anyway fhawjeofaowein i love you with all my heart and hope you’re !! doing well sweetpea !!! chan and are yeeting every ounce of love we have for you to you!!!!!!!!!!!

@kqngyounghyun​: hello my love :( i can’t even remember the first time we talked bc it feels like its been so so so long; and through all of this time you’ve been one of my close friends who’s stuck around with me through so much. you’re always there, and always kind, and just always warm and friendly and a safe place to go. i love that we can bitch abt things with each other but also oiawenfowaie be super soft… but then also talk abt super nsfw things jfawieaoeif aofiwneoai you’ve always been so so kind to me and i really do appreciate it. thank you for sticking with me through all my blog changes and for always supporting me and my dumbassery;; i really hope you know how much i appreciate you and how much i love you! you’re such a hardworking person- like whenever you tell me abt the effort you’re putting in at school its just oifnawiefnaoi wowowow!!! you’re so amazing :(( !!!!! also, you were there for me during one of the Hardest Points In My Life- like a time when i really thought i was going to ofaiwneoiawen lose my mind bc of how much i was struggling……. but you seriously helped me get through that part of my life and i can never fully explain to you how thankful i am. but i love you so much and i’m so thankful. younghyun and i both love you to the ends of the earth ;; __ ;; !!!

@noairmv​: hello ! ! ! miss ai!! the loml!!! angel!! bb gumdrop!! jacob’s baby!!! all names we can use to refer to you!!! :( hello baby!! thankyou! for everything! for all you do! for all you are! you are always honest with me, always genuine, always kind and understanding. you do more than i could ever fucking ask for. i’ve told this to you before but, i think you’re the one person i can go to- without fail- for like.. real life advice… like things that i feel like i cannot ask anyone else, i can ask you. i remember when i was struggling financially i immediately went to you first to talk things through. you give me a lot of clarity and you help me understand my own thoughts and talking to you always puts things into perspective for me. you’re also always there to rant abt nsfw things with which is foaiwnefoaiwn so fun afnowienfao afjfaowefiao but also i get to be super soft with you which is also really :~( the best oof……… i love u so much…….. like, thank you for always looking @ my gfxs, and for always being supportive and understanding and giving me genuine advice. i love listening to you talk abt Jacob (and being rawed by others who are not … Jacob………… ahem………) aofiwnefoaiwno thank you for always being patient with me and for being so kind (and for always faowineoawi saying yes when i propOSE FAOIWNOAIWF ;;) you’re an angel (hee honk) from above and i will always be thankful for you in my life angel bean :( thank you so much for everything ai, i love you SO fucking much… jacob also loves u – he told me to tell u that !!!

@prodskz​: hello my love! ! ! ! i think i told you this once but!! my favourite kinds of relationships are those ones that have a good roast/love ratio!!! and i deeply feel that ours is that kinda relationship!!! no matter how many times we destroy each other aoiwnafienaiowe we’re always like ‘uwu anyway u r my baby’ 2 seconds later and foawinefoiane i love that!!! i love that you will send me 20 messages in a day and i’ll be like yoiNk i forgot but also let me reply to everything at once !! i love that you send me SO many skz memes throughout the day- they make me laugh so hard;; and also you always send me The Best Chan Pics so thank you for that fiawfenfoawienoiwe TT TT you’ve been so kind to me and so so so supportive of all my work ;; whether my gifs or my gfx or just my stupid posts- you are so supportive neha i :( i don’t even deserve the amt of love you give me but fjawoefawoe i ACCEPT ALL OF IT !!!!!!!!!! i’m such a dummy but please know that i love you WITH ALL MY FUCKIN HEART BABY!!!! you are so precious and talented and kind and funny and you are amazing !! like i mean it :( do not !! forget for a second how wonderful you are baby!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hyunjin would like to also remind you that he loves you to the moon and back (but i love u more ok)

@sk-z​: hi sweet pea !!! :’) i know we only started talking very recently but i already feel so close to you! i just wanted to say thank you for being there for me that night aofinweoianfew and thank you for always being a voice of reason; you’re so understanding and warm and !!! i really am floored but how kind you are!! i know i always say sorry and that’s ifonaweifnaio really just how i am but !! you really make me comfy and it feels easy to just say anything around you and not feel stressed out or judged?? like even things that i blame myself for, you help me see reason and feel better and i just :( i can’t thank you enough for that;; you’re so bright and warm and i really hope we get to continue talking for a long time angel!! i love you!!!

@skzd​: hi haleigh !! i know we haven’t talked in a while but you’re still one of my fav content creators!! even from back when i was an nctzen and we interacted there, to now over on these blogs!!! you’ve stayed such a constant in my life :( and you’ve honestly been nothing but supportive of me :( you’re always so kind whenever we do talk and you’re still one of the funniest people i know;; your tags will never fail to make me laugh;; i really appreciate your presence on my dash and i really want you to know all your content is so beautiful and appreciated;; :( you’re so talented my dude and i love you long time;; i really hope you’re doing well and taking care bc i do love you from the bottom of my heart angel!!! hyunjin is sending his love (and so am i !)

@theminho​: min my little gumdrop!! my sweet sugar bean!! my lil soft angel!!!!!!! hi angel!! :( darn i think you’re one of the ppl i’ve been following longest and oof… OOF.. like :( !! i’m so glad we started talking!! you always make me smile! you are so warm and thoughtful with your words. i’m not sure i know anyone who is as eloquent or as understanding as you. you just.. you really phrase things well. whenever we talk i !! i feel so grounded and like i know oafiwenoaw what you’re saying!! and you’re always so sweet and funny and expressive with what you say :( dude you’re just amazing ok!! and your gifs are always so so so beautiful like… omg…. WOW…. an angel huh TT TT ;; whenever i see your gifs or your tags i’m always so soft!! i’m so proud of you for working hard at school, and though i miss you!! i hope you’re spending your time resting when you get a chance and that school isn’t kicking your butt too much my love!!! i am so proud of you TT TT and i’m sending all my ‘fightings!!!’ and strength your way angel bean!!!! minho is also sending his love and energy!!!

@uayv​: hi darling!!! miss joyce! miss gfx queen! oh my goodness;; first of all- thank you for the BOMB ass content dude… your gfx… wowowowwo..w… secondly, thank you for sticking with me through a drastic blog change;; faoiwenfoaw i’m so glad that we’re still pals bc you’re one of those people that makes me laugh so hard from just your tags alone- and in dms i usually can’t stop smiling/laughing;; aoiwenfoiawenwa !!!!!! listen to me !!!!! the first time i found your blog was bc u rb’d one of my gfxs and left some of the nicest tags ever and i saw you had ‘gfx’ tagged in your bio so when i scrolled through your gfx and i was eMBARRASSED BC LIKE………… DUDE HOLY SHIT THIS PERSON HAD SOME OF THE BEST WORK I’D E V E R SEEN. i still think you are one of the MOST TALENTED GFX MAKERS EVER. you have so much of my respect and love and i wish i could aowiefnoawiefn give you … the whole world dude… awenfiawfeowia TT TT you are so kind to me whenever i ask for a second opinion on my gfx and you’re always so warm and funny- and your love for bread is so good- like i’m telling you whenever i see bread posts that aren’t from you i IMMEDIATELY either tag you or send them to you fawienoawien ;; you’re such a warm positive influence on my dash and in my life and i really love you from the bottom of my heart. i’m so thankful we’re pals bc you are a true angel and a true pal and just !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAAA I LOVE U SO MUCH JOYCE OIANWFOIAWN TT TT (doyoung loves you loads too okay; he is sending big fat kisses ur way!)

@ultscb​: hi taryn!!! miss gif queen;; faoiwenfaown holy moly; you are such a talented person- but not only are you amazing at giffing ?? you’re also just ??? an amazing warm funny kind beautiful person??? like afnoiwnefowaienof hello?? you’re somehow always making me smile; whenever we talk or through your tags?? you’re just !! so !! lovely and fantastic and i!!!! really do love you!!! you’ve been so kind and warm to me and made me smile so much even if we don’t talk that often;; you always give me such kind feedback when you look at my work and it really foanwifeanwoe blows my ego into another dimension fanoweinaowienfao i love you so much angel!!! i hope you know that you’re an amazing and talented and funny and wonderful person! changbin is sending kisses !! (and so am i!!)

@wayvgf​: hi mara baby!!!!! :0 you are such a bright personality, whenever you’re excited ofiawneofai you’ll make like fawoniewi a bunch of posts back to back with 0 context and idk why that makes me laugh and feel so warm and happy- but the thought that someone who is so warm and bright exists really makes me so happy!!! you are literally the funniest and cutest person i’ve ever !! met !! you are so kind and warm and funny and idk man :(( you’ve just been very kind to me and listened to me rant abt some very dumb stuff faoiwnefoaiwne TT TT thank you for always dealing with that side of me, and for being so kind to me;; i know i always say this but : your nose is… really… afwioenaofiawoifwa the pinnacle of noses ok. u r s o cute :( and whenever i’m like “I LOVE MARA DOT ORG” i mean it !!! i love you SO much!!!!!!!!!!! you are such a fantastic, funny, hard working person and i love you SO much bb !!!!! hyunjin also loves u but :/  i love u mos t.