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[theinheriteddutchess]

I woke up to an answer :)

And then it was an essay :D

You could've taken my ask the wrong way and instead became so enthusiastic, i love it.

This all sounds what twilight could been.

But what made me laugh was

Is basically not edward, you had to change almost everything about him to make this work, and that's not criticism to you but how meyer wrote him. I don't mind assholes in stories, but written like they're the best thing and it's so healthy and loving, what's wrong with pointing that out they're not sane and yet are in a romance? Anyway, i also agree with @blurry-walker as i talked about before, it's nice to see an actual person on page. Meyer said she wanted other girls to be able to see themselves in bella wel she isn't y/n, and i was never able to see myself in bella. I just disliked her too much.

So I'm intrigued.

And James and Victoria! I don't know why i care but I'm so curious about them! I find their weird relationship so intriguing, where she really loves him and he never did. I mean what's to unwrap there. So yeah, live that you mentioned it.

And also fairytales (originally) are horror stories mostly. I know Disney doesn't think so anymore but some of them are incredibly disturbing😂

I'm still tempted to reread twilight, i hate myself for that thought already, but i found reading over the first chapter/ prologue? of it, i already started ranting and got mad. I don't think i will have better reactions to it than i had the first time reading it. (It wasn't good then either)

Anyway I'm more curious than ever, and i have strong intentions to read it, i don't know when will be the time, it needs to be a mood or stumble upon it randomly and just start (I'm a weird reader about that unfortunately) and i know the wiring will not be the problem because i've read a snippet and was so amazed.

And no you didn't sound arrogant, you sounded enthusiastic and loving and just with a codependent bond with your writing that is completely understandable. ❤

Thank you so much for replying, I'm always excited to see you say something but it was especially nice with an answer!

Ok so I follow you because of your amazing analyzing and theories of twilight, but it's gotten to a point I have to consider reading your stories, and besides a Paul lahote story here or there over the years, I haven't really read twilight stories, especially ones that aren't about the Wolfpack.

I'm scared. So I wanted to ask about yours, what is it like?

Is it crazy like full of plot twists and insanity and madness covered into brilliance (the good kind) or crazy in a way that I start liking bella and edward (the terrifying part)?

(If you answer this, please consider the fact it might actually make me reread twilight (the original) and start ranting worse. For both our sanities, is it smart?)

Is it crazy like full of plot twists and insanity and madness covered into brilliance (the good kind) or crazy in a way that I start liking bella and edward (the terrifying part)?

both! liking Bella & Edward is THE biggest plot twist of this saga LOL. i'm not really one to hype my work so bear with me. here's the difference between Twilight & In The Afterlight:

the familiar:

setting. rainy rural PNW vibes

rough plot. girl meets vampire. vampire wants to kill her. love ensues. it starts you off in familiar territory, then slowly peels away as the story progresses. you'll find enough of the "iconic" scenes to keep you oriented in nostalgia, but not so much that you feel chained to the original book.

characters. no OCs. Bella & Edward are somewhat OOC, but their core traits are still intact.

the unfamiliar(ish):

Bella's personality. i think it was @blurry-walker who made this excellent point: we're supposed to like Bella because of how she's described, not by how she acts. Bella is not really selfless, mature, observant, compassionate, intellectual, or self-aware. which would be fine... if that were the author's intention. i've tried making Bella a mix between how she's described & how she acts: selfless, contemplative, & stubborn, with a sense of humor. & i threw in a backstory & hobbies - i.e, drawing, music, reading - so she has a life besides Edward. (she can still act like she's 18 tho. as a treat.)

Edward's personality. no stalking, no anger issues or mood swings, no misogyny, no invalidation of Bella's choices, no militant chastity. just a vampire who's lost his way & startled to discover he is every bit a part of this world as Bella. more humorous, more overwrought/ romantic, more contemplative.

the result is a relationship that's rooted in mutual respect, common interests & values, & genuine companionship. they talk about philosophy, they exchange mixtapes, they tease each other, & have slightly less self-control when it comes to sexual intimacy

James/Victoria plotline

twilight is less fairytale, more gothic horror

deeper thematic discussions (bc i think they're neat! :D). what does it mean to be you? how do you find yourself again when you're lost? what's the secret to keeping your humanity in death?

vampire/Cullen lore. what's the difference between a golden-eyed vampire and a red-eyed one? what are "la tua cantantes" and "mates"? why are the Cullens going to high school? what's the Cullen-Volturi relationship like? who are the Cullens, really? i'm trying to paint them as grayer characters & have their personalities/backstories make sense for who they are.

werewolf lore. i *hate* canon imprinting - how an imprinter loses him/herself to the imprint, how the imprintee can't say no, the fact that they imprint on CHILDREN when the theory behind imprinting is to "find the strongest genes"... NO. i hate it all. i hate that smeyer appropriates the legends of the Quileute tribe & how stereotypes/ tropes of Native people are perpetuated in this series. i especially hate the double-standards Bella puts on the pack vs the coven. justice for the wolfpack or bust

since you mentioned liking the wolfpack (same), the sequel, Come Nightfall (aka New Moon), has way more wolfpack content than the original, & we see a lot more interactions between Jake & Bella. (and Bella & Sam!)

i don't feel it's my place to tell you whether you should read this or even whether it's good. if it helps, this is what other people say:

"This… Was incredible. It was the kind of fanfiction that should be praised along the classics of the fandom, the kind you would want to print and put in the shelf in between Twilight and Life And Death."

"This is, to me, the epitome of great fanfiction--you took the story idea and characters and tweaked them to how you imagine it would be better as well as adding in your own flare, AND you have the story telling ability to back it up."

"You've managed to write something that not only surpasses the source material, but flies so far beyond it in nuance, craftsmanship, raw emotion and SMUT that it travelled through space and time continuum and shows no signs of stopping. Every time I think it can't get better, it does."

"I read both of your books in like 2 days; I couldn’t put them down. This is some of the best writing I’ve ever read on here."

"What a gem of a story. I read it in one sitting, the best canon rewrite I've ever read. Very very clever writing, engaging plot, and the most real Bella and Edward relationship I've ever seen. Everything about it, Bella and Jacob, Sam, Alice and Bella's dynamic, Billy and Bella, everything added so much colour to this story. I can't believe this came from Meyer's twilight and New Moon. Absolutely genius."

[literary-vandal]

I saw it was your birthday on your fmeyer blog, so without much further ado:

Happy birthday!

(It sparkles.)

I hope you'll have some more food than just a bowl of soup, and having a great day! Wishing you health, a bit of wealth, lots of stealth. (Please don't block me🤦🏻‍♀️)

All the good wishes! 🥳

wow, thank you so much!!!! appreciate the birthday wishes. i'm all about health wealth and stealth :)

[responsibleformyweight-blog]

Food Log 3/5/18

7:30am- bowl of bran cereal with ½ banana, plant milk, chia seeds, 1tb cashews

45min work out (weights, some cardio)

9:30am- bowl of homemade veg soup (not the usual post work out food, but convenient so its fine), 1 slice multigrain toast w/ shredded Vcheese (I’m trying to use of the terrible Trader Joe’s vegan mozzarella shreds that have been in my fridge forever)

-Here I messed up a bit: I didn’t pack food to bring with on errands, so by the time I got to the store to buy cat litter to take to my mom’s house, I was pretty hungry, so I had some binge-y behavior in what food I chose to buy while I was there  (ie- more snack type foods that were def not part of my meal plan). On the plus side, I left them all at my mom’s house, so I can’t continue to snack on them until tomorrow. I also at least had the added exercise of carrying a 20lb box of cat litter 14 blocks b/c I don’t have a car and there weren’t any close bus lines between the FMeyer and my mom’s house.  

12pm- 1/4 baguette w/ garlic babaganouj, a different type of chickpea snacks from yesterday, some licorice (why have I been into this flavor lately?? I never used to like licorice), choco covered almonds

7:30- big ol’ bowl of cooked spinach w/ marinara sauce (yay! I finally got some greens in there!)

Thoughts: Feeling good, glad I worked out and got some veggies in there and was able to pull back from serious binging. This week I want to try for 4-5 days at the gym and getting more veggies throughout the day. I’m also wondering how tomorrow will go b/c a friend of mine wants to go to a movie and meet up for food beforehand at Red Robin. This concerns me 1- b/c I want to be mindful of my diet and will need to do some research beforehand and 2- b/c its feeling like it might be a date and I don’t feel that way about this person. Updates to come!

ps- I’ve also been going through some old journals and am confounded that I had somehow made it down to 136 at one point and then gained it back later- gah! I just feel like I’ve been stuck at 150 for eons now (about 5 years, if we’re only counting the point after I dropped to 136...)