#five ninety eight 😭😭😭

[jakejeffreyperalta]

todd's birthday scene from the original script (that was later changed) makes me want to kms

[selfindulgentfandomstuff]

Really nice and cool first meeting where nobody is afraid for their life 👍

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Small blurb abt Ezra Locket’s first real encounter with Murdoc. Ya, Murdoc is a scary guy to begin with and that fear factor is only compounded by the fact that Ezra is a little under five inches tall sooo.. what I’m saying is, expect some of that type of stuff but rest assured they DO develop a healthy relationship as time passes. Murdoc just has to get over his cat type instinct to play with the creature that’s smaller and weaker than him. And Ezra has to get over their (completely understandable, in the beginning at least) mortal terror of this human. 😭

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The little creature just stood there on the counter, staring in abject horror at the tall human dressed in all black who stood a few feet away from the counter they occupied. Their eyes met and as the Borrower looked into the human’s dark eyes, they saw no kindness or compassion, only a cold, predatory interest. Neither of the figures moved for a moment. Then the Borrower, snapped out of their stupor, bolted for the nearest hole in the wall, a hole much too far away for them to feasibly reach in time.

The human had noticed their beeline for the coffee machine and made the correct assumption that there was a means of escape, a hole or something, behind that appliance. With terrifying speed and accuracy, the man grabbed a kitchen knife from its block and threw it at the wall, directly in the path of the Borrower, just barely (but quite intentionally) missing the creature. The poor thing was stunned into complete stillness and they stood there, staring at the enormous knife, longer than their entire body, that had very nearly ended their life.

They didn’t even notice when the man quietly approached them. They only became aware of his presence again as he scooped them up into his gloved hands, cradling them with an uncharacteristic amount of care- not that the Borrower knew that, of course. They were scared out of their wits!

And rightfully so. They knew humans were dangerous, and this human was particularly lethal. They’d lived alongside him long enough to have gotten to know way more than they’d like to about him. He was a hitman, a human who killed other humans. Of course, they were terrified. They scrambled about in his cupped hands as he brought them up to eye level, trying desperately to climb over the wall of his fingers, to no avail.

“My, my, just what do we have here?”, the man spoke in a chipper, entirely amused voice. He looked down at the creature in his hands, gently maneuvering it to one palm, leaving his other hand free to poke and prod at the poor creature to his heart’s content.

The Borrower yelped as he moved them in his hands, surely afraid that he would drop them. They slowly processed his words in their mind but said nothing in return.

‘Best not to let him know I can speak’ they thought to themself.

The man’s eyes narrowed but he spoke with an air of mischief.

“Come on, you, I’m, like, ninety eight percent sure you can speak English!”

The Borrower shook their head no, realizing only after the fact that by doing so they'd revealed that they understood him. They froze again, looking for all the world like a deer in the headlights.

“Aha! Gotcha! You do understand me! I knew it!”, the man exclaimed softly, seeming perhaps mindful of their small ears and his volume. He continued excitedly, “what’s your name, little guy, hm?”

The Borrower remained silent.

The man gently (from his perspective, anyway) poked the tiny creature square in the chest and repeated, “C’mon, what’s your name? Can’t just keep calling ya ‘little guy’ indefinitely, now can I?”

The Borrower yelped again as his finger made contact with their chest. Despite the delicacy the human had thought he’d displayed, the reality for the Borrower was that the poke was quite strong and a little bruising. Bruising was the least of their concerns at the moment, however.

After a moment or two taken to regain their breath, the Borrower replied shakily, “I..m-my name is Ezra Locket.”

Murdoc laughed lightly as they took a second to recover from the impact of his poke to their little chest.

“Oh, well, it’s a pleasure to meet you, Ezra Locket!” The remark was made with a surprising amount of sincerity, as if he really were happy to meet them. Well, he probably was, if only because it meant he had a new plaything.

Ezra smiled and chuckled nervously at his cheery response, unsure of what to make of it.

Murdoc looked at them expectantly for a moment, almost as though expecting a reply in kind, before speaking again, “Aren’t you gonna ask me for my name, Ezra?”

The Borrower shook their head before elaborating, “uh.. well, I kinda already know who you are..? And um.. not super keen on learning more than I already know about you so…”

Murdoc laughed, a full bellied laugh, at that and replied excitedly, “Oh, ho, ho! So you know me? Tell me little fella, just how much do you know about lil old me?”

Ezra jumped at the suddenness of his loud laugh. The noise had startled them the most but the reverberations through his hand where they sat were also unnerving. They spoke in a soft, hesitant voice, “uh, well, you-you’re Murdoc, right?”

The man nodded eagerly. “Mhmhm, go on..!”

Ezra did not feel good about this. They felt as though they were walking into a trap, despite already being in danger as it were. Still, they tentatively continued, “you.. you’re a hitman. Y-you kill other humans…” they shuddered a bit as they finished their sentence, letting the words hang in the air.

Murdoc looked more and more pleased with every word, which was not generally a good thing for people at his mercy.

“Yup! That’s right, little guy, I kill folks for a living! Well, okay, not for a living, anymore, really- I’ve got all the money I could possibly want already. It’s… more of a pastime at this point! You understand, of course, don’t you, Ezra?”

He smiled a toothy grin at them as he waited for their agreement. Of course, they nodded quickly, not wanting to piss this human off.

“Good, good! I’m glad you understand.. so many close minded people these days… not everyone understands the value of a good torture session!”

Murdoc expounded as he gently poked and prodded at the small creature’s body. They went limp as he explored them and their reactions, knowing that any attempt to fight back would only make things worse for them. But they went even more deathly still as he mentioned ‘torture’ as though it were a particularly fun board game. They paled and looked even more terrified if that were possible.

Naturally, the hitman picked up on their increased terror and decided to capitalize on it.

“Oh? What’s the matter, lil fella? Not a fan of a little bit of torture?” he laughed heartily before continuing, “Oh don’t get me wrong, I wouldn’t be either if I were on the receiving end but generally speaking I’m in the position of issuing the torture, so that’s fun! Wouldn’t you agree?”

He paused before a sly smile took over his face and he continued further, “Well, don’t you worry your little head too much about the subject because I’m not going to torture you! Isn’t that wonderful?”

The Borrower looked at him with a distrustful expression, definitely not believing him when he said he had no intention of torturing them.

Murdoc noticed their apprehension and continued in a faux reassuring tone.

“No, no, you and I? We’re just going to play.. have a little fun together. What do you think of that, hmm?”

Ezra was not at all convinced that what he was referring to as ‘play’ wouldn’t, in fact, just be torture. They shook their head with conviction.

He chuckled darkly at that, “Oh I didn’t say you had a choice, little friend.. you and I are going to have loads of fun together, I just know it.”

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Oooohhh waht happens next 👀 we will see… when I get the energy to write more lmao

[dorkpsychology]

🩸 period hormones + brains 🧠

If you are reading this, you are probably a person who gets our not-so-loved ✨period✨, and if you are, you must be familiar with the feeling of having a hormone monstress (or monster) inside you that makes you feel bad physically and emotionally. 💀 You cannot get your tasks done properly, you feel like your hormones are going crazy (which also makes YOU crazy) and you just want to go and watch Netflix with a big ice cream pot during this special time of the month, am I right? 🤏 But why is that happening to us?

In case you have not heard about them, the hormones progesterone and oestrogen (both produced during our menstrual cycle, more specifically during its luteal phase aka the pre menstruation phase), as well as their co-dependent changes throughout the course of a female’s (or not 🏳️‍🌈) lifetime, have long been known to play an important role in the growth and equilibrium of people who have a menstruation cycle. 🩸

It is known that the variation of these two hormones can cause some physical discomforts such as, for example, acne, cramps, and tender breasts (as you probably know very well 😑). As stated by M. Guida, J. Y. Yen and others, we also have some neurovegetative matters (don’t freak out, this only refers to non-voluntary nerves’ distribution to the organs, on the word of the online free dictionary by Farlex) like sleeping and eating issues. 💤🍨

However, this hormones’ variation has lately been shown to have an essential importance in the neurological and psychological growth and function as well. 🧠 According to M. A. Farage and colleagues, brain function, our perception, mood, sensory sensitivity, anxiety, among other things are affected by our menstrual cycle (and probably we all can relate to this 😩). Btw, look at that beautiful and mean hormone monstress! 👇

A lot of people suffer from sex hormone based mental health disorders, for instance the premenstrual dysphoric disorder (PMDD), which is now classified as a new depressive disorder in the DSM–5 (Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders).  😬 Yup, things are real, for the folks out there who thought we are just drama queens/kings...  💁‍♀️

As stated by the Cambridge University Press, it is considered PMDD when the different menstruation symptoms I have told you about, which emerge before the period starts and decrease when it comes, affect people in a debilitating way, what can significantly affect their quality of life as well. It tends to impact only five to eight percent of reproductive-age individuals so don't worry, you probably don't suffer from this specific disorder. Phew!  😮‍💨 🤞

We also have the premenstrual syndrome (PMS), which is known as way weaker than the PMDD but is still clinically relevant, as it should, because it also has an influence on the quality of a person’s life. As said by J. Gandy, it is estimated that thirty to forty percent of people who have a menstruation cycle suffer with PMS; however, a larger number of individuals describe emotional problems connected to this. Well, Jessie from New Girl definitely does!  😂👇

S. Tschudin stated that during the premenstrual stage of our cycle, nearly sixty percent of people feel at least minor "anger or irritability"/"tearfulness or mood swings" (personally, I just transform into a little Hulk 👺💢). Moreover, studies made by L. Dennerstein suggest that the presence of no less than one premenstrual symptom throughout someone's reproductive life might as well be drastically greater, estimated to be up to ninety percent. I know, our struggle is real, don’t you agree? 😭😭😭

To wrap things up, let's talk a bit about self-esteem and our cycle. Talking generally, the link between poor levels of self-esteem and depression is well known, as individuals who feel depressed tend to feel that way about themselves. 😟 Self-esteem and confidence have always been important to people since it enables individuals to manage more effectively day-to-day occurrences, among many other reasons. A person with bigger self-love = a happier person. 💌🤗

D. Taylor has shown in his research that levels of self-esteem were lower in the premenstrual phase in people who suffer from PMS. Multiple research (specifically done by U. Orth in 2008 and K. Dedovic in 2014, if you want to check them) also showed that poor levels of self-esteem may be seen as a clinical indication of a depressed mood, which can back D. Taylor’s research as, in general, we tend to feel more depressed in this cycle’s phase. 💔 Thanks to our period for murdering our self-esteem! 😤

The menstrual cycle is an important subject for researching how sex hormone variations affect us psychologically during our cycle. Though scientific studies on the menstrual problems that I have talked about, such as PMDD, are relatively not many, this information shows us that people who are most affected by these disorders may have more psychological issues that can debilitate them. 🙍 However, I want you guys to understand that, even with the existent studies we have, a link between any psychological changes observed and the menstruation cycle has not actually been confirmed yet. 🤔 

Although I made this post to give you more info about this topic, it is still unclear if the mood changes and other psychological symptoms affect our cognitive abilities, or if there is a specific and implicit hormonal disorder that is affecting them, but researchers are working on it and improving what we know about it day by day. Yay! 😃📚 I hope I was able to help you better understand how and why our bodies work like that. I’ll leave you with an awesome Ariel meme.  🤭 That's all for today friends, bye-bye!  ✌️💖

[hyperraduo22]

REPOSTING THIS CUZ ITS HAUNTING ME BUT ALSO WHERE TF IS THAT ONE BRILLIANT POST WITH THE ANDERPERRY HEADCANON WHERE NEIL MAKES A BUDGET OF $5.98 WHENEVER THEY GO SHOPPING OR SOME SHIT !?!?!??

I KNOW ITS SOMEWHERE I CANT FIND IT (like any random tumblr post that suddenly jolts me awake and racks my brain)

todd's birthday scene from the original script (that was later changed) makes me want to kms