#fits so well for many of these characters with Vitani

[vitani-carnis]

Can't play Cyberpunk to do Vitani's canon ending of PL (helping Songbird and feeling betrayed despite feeling it on the horizon). So just giving my thoughts on siding with Reed or whatev! TW: for suicide in this (this is such a doomed timeline, but it's not real, it's not real and it can't hurt me)

And firstly, the ending for Vitani devastated me. It's not canon, it's not real, no one can make it real!! (But for the V I did give this ending too, she'd be okay with it, just not my bbygrl). To have her basically become nothing again? To have the cycle of wanting to be stronger so that she wouldn't be so terrified of the city, the world in general, to so desperately not be at the bottom rung of people in NC... To only become it after losing not only Johnny, but her children (pets), her things, her seemingly friends, her ability to protect herself (which tbh the cyberware would've been something they could live with if they only had a few of the other things). There is nothing, except to become an NUSA dog. And despite everything, they can't go back on their ideals. In fact, the only way out, despite everyone telling them to move on, is to die; because Vitani is just incapable of moving on from such sudden changes (In their canon end, if they never found Johnny beyond the Blackwall, which they'd spend years on, it'd take even more years to stop that longing, and they'd never be the same, always haunted).

And speaking of??? The helicopter???? Omg, firstly, as soon as V realized that whatever this surgery was would wipe their boy, they would call off everything, for the record. But in the .000000001 percent chance, in the scarcest of timelines to exist where they did? Every time they'd feel so guilty for it, because they can't be the cause of another friend's death, this time willingly ignoring their requests about it too. This is preventable, and they aren't preventing it (in all options given, V asks 'could things have been different?' because they are sweetheart, dw). And him saying V's name? V saying they'd do anything for him (and they still can't do it, sadly, it's a tragedy that despite everything he wants for V, it's asking too much of them), how the doc knocks V out after reading an emotional spike? I know for a fact Vitani's last emotion felt, was fear, because they'd never see him again.

And speaking of another person V will never see again (because they killed her), Songbird! Before my game crashed and junk I did the option where you kill her, and I know, this is really depressing and suicide heavy (it's kinda built into Vitani's character to be so mournful and ready to die); but holy shit they would've been so enraged at Myers and Reed.

Before that though, I want to say, this is the second time V would be requesting someone's sui request essentially. First Joshua, whom they cried at Jill's grave (Jill, is a character essential to V's backstory, and was someone they viewed as a 'good person', and V is mourning about how she'd be disgusted with them, how they did change, and change for the worst), and now Songbird. They cried just a little more for Song too than Joshua, because it was like looking in a mirror.

Now obviously they are made that way narratively, same thing with Reed and Johnny (really love how that run is where they both acknowledge it basically, not technically in canon, but in Vitani's canon). But V saw themself in Songbird as a young adult just chilling in her house, hanging with friends (not that V knows what that's like), getting in too deep and paying the price. But no moment did they see themself than when So Mi was begging for death, how she said that she tried, and she was just too weak. And it reminded Vitani of when Jill first died, and all seemed hopeless and... They couldn't do it. They couldn't kill off the one human thing about them, survival instincts. And sometimes V wonders about it at this point narratively, how they wished they could've, things never would've gotten to this point.

And so they agree, because how could they not? In reality Songbird would never get the help promised from Myers and Reed, she'd be some prisoner, slowly losing herself every day. It's a fate worse than death to Vitani.

Which is why they're so pissed when Reed and Myers can so easily say they could've convinced Song otherwise, that she should've lived. Partially because she knows Myer's plans and Reed's loyalty, but also because they've had the luxury of never feeling so hopeless. At least, that's what Vitani thinks.

Also I HATED that fucking robot. This is just me talking. Cynosure? More like sayonara, never playing that section again. (It wasn't particularly scary tbh, I like horror elements, and don't get me wrong, it was cool, I just hated that it wasn't always clear on where to go so I'd get stuck and frustrated for a minute.)

Okay that's all! If you read all this, love you, bye!

[costaxserena]

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Character: Kyle Leo

NAME/AGE/TIMEZONE

Name: Shells

Age: 28

Timezone: Central Standard Time

ACTIVITY

I’ll make time to be one at least 1-4 times a week, if not more. I am a supervisor at a movie theatre so my schedule is all over the place sometimes. 1-10 I would say an 8.

PRIMARY CHARACTER

Which character do you desire the most?

Kyle Leo

SECONDARY CHARACTER

In the case that you don’t get your first choice character, who are you willing to play?

Charlie Slight

PARA SAMPLE

Every morning Kyle awoke in the dawn hours to go out for a run. No it wasn’t because Kyle was a fitness major or because he cared about health that much in fact he could careless about staying fit and being healthy. For Kyle waking up that early meant breathing in a new day and while many of his fellow peers, and friends, would probably think him crazy to lose on ‘precious sleep’ he knew very well that each day to him was a blessing in disguise. It wasn’t easy for Kyle to wake up each day and put on the act that he does around campus but it was something he knew he had to keep doing in order to achieve his mission. What exactly was his mission? Currently to graduate, though life has a tendency to throw curve balls in his direction.

The air was crispy on this particular morning it was exactly the way Kyle liked it. He took in a deep breath and exhaled it slowly through his nostrils; cracking his neck as well. The bottom of his shoes crunched along the freshly wet grass as he stepped out into the courtyard and prepared for his run. He focused his vision straight ahead and just like a bullet from a gun he was off before one could even blink, had someone even been up that early to see him take off anyway.

One of the things that Kyle struggled with the most was his inner demons and they were also one of the biggest reasons he needed this alone time in the mornings to himself. It didn’t take long, it never did, for his inner thoughts to get the best of him and flashbacks to begin to flood his mind as he practically sprinted in no particular direction.

COWARD! SPINELESS, USELESS, FAILURE!

Kyle stopped in his tracks, almost running into a wall in the process, and shut his eyes. “Stop…stop…” he whispered to himself, shaking his head and holding his eyes shut tight. “I didn’t…I’m not a coward. I never..meant to leave them."  He shook his head, "Please..stop.” He didn’t know who he was trying to say that to but he knew he had to say it outloud or his inner voice would never stop. He wasn’t sure what was worse, his inner voice constantly calling him a coward for not facing his fears and duties head on like he should have done to begin with or the desire to reunite with his siblings that grows stronger and stronger every moment of every day. “No. I can’t. I won’t…I won’t be the reason…"he cut himself off, shaking his head, he couldn’t even bear the thought of the consequences if he reunited with his siblings. He kicked his heels off his ground and continued his run.

And as he did he thought about Vitani and he wondered to himself, could it really hurt to sneak her away for a quick catch up session? After all it he was mister reckless with a capital R.

TRIGGERS

No triggers as of yet.

ANYTHING ELSE?

Additional Stuff: Hey guys! So I used to roleplay on Tumblr for a long time way back when and I am barely getting back into the swing of things here so I apologize for sending this application from a blank blog. I was hoping to find an rp and make this my main blog, I haven’t accessed my actual main blog in forever and I forgot the e-mail I even used for it  lol.  I know it can be a little annoying to have someone apply from an empty blog so I am attach my old roleplay blog that I used to be very active on (it just happens to be a Kovu one lol). It’s right here. I’ll stop rambling now. Thank you guys for still keeping up such an awesome rp and for reading my unnecessarily long application lol. I got excited to see an active rp!

[vitanitf]

PHYSICAL !!

1. Describe the character’s height and build. Is she heavyset, thin, short, rangy? She’s thin, or I would put it as athletic. She’s 5′4, so she’s kind of small to be so intimidating. 2. How old is she? Eighteen. 3. Describe her posture. Does she carry herself well or does she slouch? She walks with her back straight and her head held high. 4. How is her health? Is she fit or out of shape? Any illnesses or conditions? Any physical disabilities? Hella fit. She works out a lot, so there’s no way you’re ever going to find her without a six pack. 5. How does she move? Is she clumsy, graceful, tense, fluid? Graceful. Easy. But sharp. Like she’s cutting through the air with every step she takes. 6. How attractive is this character physically? How does she perceive herself in the mirror? If Vitani needed to dress up to stun information out of someone, she would do it, but otherwise she doesn’t think about it. When she looks in the mirror, she doesn’t want to see beauty. She wants to see strength. 7. Describe her complexion. Dark, light, clear, scarred? She is biracial but light-skinned. Her skin is very smooth, which must just be good genes considering she has never done a beauty ritual in her life. 8. Describe her hair: color, texture, style. Brown. At the moment my assumption is that it looks like this. It has been both shorter* and longer*, but she found long hair just got in the way. Naturally her hair is curly* but she often keeps it straight because it’s easier to manage. Another perk to having short hair. 9. What color are her eyes? Dark brown. 10. Does the character have any other noteworthy features? She has a mole by her nose and one on her neck that are often visible. Other than that I would say maybe the obsessive amount of dark eye makeup she wears. 11. What are her chief tension centers? Definitely her shoulders. 12. What is the character’s wardrobe like? Casual, dressy, utilitarian? Bright colors, pastels, neutrals? Is it varied, or does he/she have six of the same suit? Badass. Think biker girl outfits. Leather jackets, white tees, gray tank tops, ripped jeans, silver chokers, heavy black boots, fingerless leather gloves from time to time. Dark eyeliner. Blood red nails, occasionally lipstick to match. It’s intimidating. She’s not a colorful dresser. 13. Do her clothes fit well? Does she seem comfortable in them? She’s very comfortable in them. The way she dresses makes her feel powerful. 14. Does she dress the same on the job as she does in her free time? If not, what are the differences? She’s not going to dress for anyone but herself. Her outfits vary depending on the weather -- she isn’t about to wear a leather jacket when it’s eighty degrees out -- but otherwise, her style is consistent. 15. You knew it was coming: Boxers, briefs or commando? She’s definitely a boxers kind of girl.

SPEECH !!

1. What does this character’s voice sound like? High-pitched, deep, hoarse? She basically sounds like Ashley**. She has a very sweet, childish voice. Fairly hoarse. Anyone that overheard Vitani speaking might think she was innocent because of the way she sounds. They would be wrong. 2. How does she normally speak? Loud, soft, fast, evenly? Does she talk easily, or does she hesitate? She talks easily and evenly. She has no problem raising or lowering her volume if the situation calls for it. 3. Does the character have a distinct accent or dialect? Any individual quirks of pronunciation? Any, like, you know, verbal tics? She uses pet names to patronize quite a bit. Things like love, sweetie, princess, baby girl, honey, doll. She also swears at any given chance. 4. What language/s does she speak, and with how much fluency? Fluent English and only the little bit of Spanish she's learned in school. 5. Does she switch languages or dialects in certain situations? No. If she’s seriously pissed she might not speak as correctly, using “nothing” in place of of “anything” (ex: my parents aren’t afraid of nothin’) or throwing in an “ain’t” but otherwise she sounds about the same. 6. Is she a good impromptu speaker, or does she have to think about her words? Impromptu. 7. Is she eloquent or inarticulate? Under what circumstances might this change? Eloquent. Even when she’s angry, she is usually calm and collected.

MENTAL AND EMOTIONAL !!

1. How intelligent is this character? Is she book-smart or street-smart? Vitani is fairly smart when it comes to schoolwork, enough to pass all of her classes with better than decent grades, but she’s especially street-smart. She had to be. 2. Does she think on her feet, or does she need time to deliberate? On her feet. 3. Describe the character’s thought process. Is she more logical, or more intuitive? Idealistic or practical? I would say both. Her logic is clouded by hatred and pride but she is smart enough not to make spontaneous decisions that will come back to bite her... usually. 4. What kind of education has the character had? She is a high school senior. That’s it as of right now. 5. What are her areas of expertise? What, if anything, is she interested in learning more about? Hurting people. Weapons. I don’t know, man. She’d rather be out of school and working for a living. 6. Is she an introvert or an extrovert? More of an introvert, but she mostly just hates people. 7. Describe the character’s temperament. Is she even-tempered or does she have mood swings? Cheerful or melancholy? Laid-back or driven? Oh, she’s driven alright. It’s hard to call them mood swings because she’s always in the same hateful mood but Kiara can really push her buttons. She drives her one step closer to snapping. She’s angry so often that she’s a calm angry, but definitely too easily set off. 8. How does she respond to new people or situations? Is she suspicious, relaxed, timid, enthusiastic? Bored. Alert. She’s always surveying people. You never know what information you may need to use against them in the future. 9. Is she more likely to act, or to react? Act. Or react vengefully. 10. Which is her default: fight or flight? Fight with a capital F. 11. Describe the character’s sense of humor. Does she appreciate jokes? Puns? Gallows humor? Bathroom humor? Pranks? She's sadistic. Her humor is terrible. She laughs over people getting injured or creepy death jokes. I don't want to understand what goes on in her mind. 12. Does the character have any diagnosable mental disorders? If yes, how does she deal with them? Nope. 13. What moments in this character’s life have defined her as a person? Many of the most defining moments were seemingly unimportant ones with her mother. All of the things that she said, bad things about the Santucci family and comments about being a strong woman, they went straight to Vitani’s head. She bought into it all. Had she been raised by another person, she would have turned out to be vastly different. Kovu betraying the family was no doubt the most defining at all. That was the last thing to turn any little bit of warmth left in her eyes ice cold. Any chances of her redemption are long gone now, and she’s willing to put all of the blame on him no matter how unfair that may be. 14. What does she fear? I honestly don't believe Vitani knows fear. 15. What are her hopes or aspirations? To watch Kiara die. To be a respected and feared leader, to follow in the footsteps of her mother. 16. What is something she doesn’t want anyone to find out about her? That she’s human. That she does have feelings, deep down, way way deep down, underneath that stone exterior.

RELATIONSHIPS !!

1. Describe the character’s relationship with her parents. Her father was never in the picture. It’s only been her mother for as long as she can remember, and she knows she doesn’t love her. The feeling is mutual. She doesn’t need love. As a young child she was envious over the way that Kovu got all the credit, the way he was favored, but none of that matters anymore. She has proven her worth, and she will continue to prove her worth. She does want her mother to be proud of her and she’ll do whatever it takes. 2. Does the character have any siblings? What is/was their relationship like? Not good, pal. Not good. She used to be close to Kovu, but these days she’s out for his blood. And Nuka, well, he’s just right pitiful. She doesn't care to associate with him. 3. Are there other blood relatives to whom she is close? Are there ones she can’t stand? Every member of The Outsiders are family, related or not. That is where her loyalty lies. 4. Are there other, unrelated people whom she considers part of his family? What are her relationships with them? See above. 5. Who is/was the character’s best friend? How did they meet? At one point she would have considered Kovu her best friend. Now she has no one. 6. Does she have other close friends? Nah fam. 7. Does she make friends easily, or does she have trouble getting along with people? It may have something to do with the fact that she is likely to threaten to rip peoples heads off for minor inconveniences, but she is not so great at making friends. She doesn't want to anyway. 8. Which does she consider more important: family or friends? Family. 9. Is the character single, married, divorced, widowed? Has she been married more than once? Single. 10. Is she currently in a romantic relationship with someone other than a spouse? She doesn’t even want one romantic relationship. You won’t find her juggling two. 11. Who was her first crush? Who is her latest? Some boy in middle school. She hasn't allowed herself to crush on anyone since. 12. What does she look for in a romantic partner? She doesn’t. 13. Does the character have children? Grandchildren? If yes, how does she relate to them? If no, does she want any? No, and she doesn't particularly want any. In next gen verse she does have a son and she is a surprisingly good mother. Not great. But good. 14. Does she have any rivals or enemies? Ha. Haha. Hahaha. 15. What is the character’s sexual orientation? Where does she fall on the Kinsey scale? Bisexual. Probably a 3 or a 4. She finds more females physically attractive but there's plenty of male eye candy out there too. 16. How does she feel about sex? How important is it to her? She’s definitely more open to sex than relationships. She doesn’t see it as this deep meaningful thing. There’s no shame in some good, no strings attached sex once awhile. 17. What are her turn-ons? Turn-offs? Weird bedroom habits? Her turn-ons are neck kissing, pain. She’s lowkey kinky. Whips, chains, handcuffs. You know. She marks people’s chests and backs with her nails. Those scratches won’t go away for awhile. Whoever she is with can also expect to leave with a few hickeys. Just don’t go spouting about feelings or she’s out of there.

BELIEFS !!

1. Do you know your character’s astrological (zodiac of choice) sign? How well does she fit type? She’s a Leo. Ironic, right? Leos are known to be passionate leaders, stubborn, independent yet loyal, confident, brave and inflexible. But they are also said to be generous, lazy, cheerful, warmhearted and humorous with a taste for wealth. So it isn’t a perfect fit, but I’d say it’s as close as you’ll find for her. 2. Is this character religious, spiritual, both, or neither? How important are these elements in her life? She doesn’t give it much thought. It’s hard to believe that some man in the sky is up there loving and protecting everyone unconditionally. Not that it matters. Surely if there is an afterlife hers will be spent suffering. 3. Does this character have a personal code of morals or ethics? If so, how did that begin? What would it take to compromise it? She has very few morals. If it’s going to get her what she wants, she’ll do it. 4. How does she regard beliefs that differ from hers? Is she tolerant, intolerant, curious, indifferent? By scoffing and rolling her eyes. She isn’t going to go out of her way to knock someone���s religion or anything, but she doesn’t mind having an argument if it comes up. 5. What prejudices does she hold? Are they irrational or does she have a good reason for them? She’s prejudice towards the entire Santucci clan, but whether that is for good reason or not depends on who you ask.

DAILY LIFE !!

1. What is the character’s financial situation? Is she rich, poor, comfortable, in debt? She has never been very wealthy and it has never bothered her. 2. What is her social status? Has this changed over time, and if so, how has the change affected her? In school, she does not know nor care how people perceive her. She would like to be feared, but she’s got that covered. Back at home, with The Outsiders, she climbed the ranks and she plans on doing the same when she gets back. She has a craving for power. 3. Where does she live? House, apartment, trailer? Is her home her castle or just a place to crash? What condition is it in? Does she share it with others? She lived with her mother and brothers before her life got all shook up and she ended up at Walt Academy. It wasn’t anything fancy but it was home. She had no attachment to it just as she has no attachment to her dorm room, which has stayed as untouched and undecorated as possible on her side. She isn’t so fond of having a roommate. 4. Besides the basic necessities, what does she spend her money on? She doesn’t spend much money. Material things mean very little to her. 5. What does she do for a living? Is she good at it? Does she enjoy it, or would she rather be doing something else? At the moment she’s just a student. She would much rather be at home, running things with her mother. And she plans to be back there as soon as possible. 6. What are her interests or hobbies? How does she spend her free time? Playing with Kiara and Kovu voodoo dolls. No, in all seriousness, her spare time is spent plotting revenge and exercising/training. She has very little patience for the things that are entertainment for average people. 7. What are her eating habits? Does she skip meals, eat out, drink alcohol, avoid certain foods? She tries to eat somewhat healthy to stay in shape, but she isn’t picky. She eats what she gets. Seeing as she isn’t much of a cook, it’s usually fast food or instant meals. A lot of fruit and veggies. She doesn’t drink that often but trust me -- the girl can hold her liquor.

ASSOCIATIONS !!

1. Color? Red. Also black. But mostly red. 2. Smell? Smoke. 3. Time of day? Midnight. 4. Season? Summer. 5. Book? She doesn’t read much. 6. Music? Soft female voices with a creepy tone. Anything by Daughter, Melanie Martinez, Lana Del Rey, Sky Ferreira... she has a very particular sound... 7. Place? New Jersey. 8. Substance? Vodka. 9. Plant? Roses. Because they look beautiful but they have thorns. 10. Animal? Lions. For... obvious reasons.

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