#finally figured out sfm btw

[flowerboy11300]

I keep quoting and thinking about Medic lines. What the heck am I on???

Oh yeah and I made this yesterday

[dreamstormdragon]

Fun fact: I love blender

HOWEVER...

This program is not easy.

I love blender, it's given me so many new avenues to create and I adore it, I really do, I probably spend at least 20 minutes a day goofing in it and I still don't know everything yet, but...

I am it's biggest hater when it's not going well.

When it's not going well... IT'S NOT GOING WELL

FOR EXAMPLE

These two were posed differently, smooching, upon render they snapped to this position on their own, to this day I don't know how this happened fully, I still don't understand.

I had to change Missy's bathing suit, because the normals got all FUCKED UP.

Leo's mouth INVERTED Dude just broke. This is why I don't use SFM models anymore btw. This is exactly why.

This pic made me ugly cry, from how many times the scene crashed AND I still couldn't turn off the dayglow vroid models get (THIS IS WHY YOU ALWAYS CONVERT TO PMX IN BLENDER OR FIND A GOOD SHADER OR MAKE AN NPR SHADER. ANYTHING BUT LEAVING IT ON LIKE THIS IT RUINS THE LIGHTING)

It's cute but God...

Also this was when I was still using SFM models, Leo's legs under this kotatsu are scrunched together like I put him through a woodchipper to make it fit, because his knees wouldn't fold normally.

Three people in a discord made fun out of me for this, for no reason except they were being dicks. Why? Because they're dicks.

Also blender crashed five times trying to get the shot right.

Aileen had to save me with the lighting in post, because nothing wanted to work right that day.

Thank you Aileen.

This shot was perfect except her arm going through him. The final version of this render, has a blanket over them

and re-positioning the arm.

and of course.

The original

The classic

The unfinished donut that I got bored with because it wasn't cool interior stuff and I wanted to do that instead.

All of these, were probably... 8 hours a PIECE. Some of these renders, were all day labors of love, that still didn't turn out right and I try to be REALLY freaking positive, but when it goes to SHIT, I become Blende'rs NUMBER 1 HATER, screaming from the rooftops about it.

And then I take a deep breath...

And remind myself...

"I am not an idiot. I can do this."

Because I'm learning.

If you're new to blender, or you're not sure where to start...

It's okay to just take your time with it.

Also, it's okay to turn off the donut tutorial and try something else, I PROMISE YOU, you don't have to finish the donut unless you wanna. Just make what you wanna make and figure it out as you go.

Point of all of this is, you can do amazing things...

And even when your experienced at it, you can also SCREAM AT THE TOP OF YOUR LUNGS when shit goes south.

The arm of my chair has been given full out falcon punches, while screaming like I'm Markiplier with animatronics trying to tear my spine out.

Art is fun, art is good for you.

BUT IT'S NOT EASY.

And that's okay