#fill them with jellly

[thatisthomas]

new dunkin donuts promotion: one whole hour of 'hole hour'

[classywastelnd]

i  started feeling empty after the loss of my previosue job. I was inclinced to distract myself with boys and booze until i lost my apartment.

But then i rose from that mind state and continued to try -- to find new sources of income, to find what speaks to my soul, to gaurd what ever i felt was taken from me when so i can never lose it again.

That it --  is my souls purpose. ther reason i get up with vigor, and fucking win.

My job was my souls purpose; changing people for the better, seeing them- i mean really seeing them for who they are, remembering them. thats my jam no jellly.

But the problem is , that can be taken away.

So  while im in the period of instability and i transition into what ever happen next, it’s important for me to realize and act on something that i have learned.

Always have more than one source that fills your soul.

I mean activities but maybe lovers too.

Always have more than one thing to look forward to that make you feel intensely and undeniably positvely happy and free and liberated and weightless and joyous and whole.

For me I’ve made a list :

1. Horse back riding

2.Drawing

3.Dancing ( especially in califournia)

4. Discussing random topics with litterally anyone who will listen, but old friends are better ( i try to keep it light/medium light)

5.Volunteering for things in town ( leave the people where they are though, never try to take those connections anywhere other than where you found them)

6.Yoga ( nothing like a good strech)

7. Visit your dogs  (he probably misses you)

8. Movies ( they’re called feel good for a reason -- bonus points if you find a group of people who like to gather together and talk about the movies *cough* *cough* Sad Losers Movie Club )

9. Last but not least, fucking call your mom, call your grandma, call to God ( You rlly could pray more, right?). 

The best part is that im going to add more to this post to bolster my  experience here in this world ( becuase i was experiencing a moment of insecurity & anxiety before i caught myself and created this post).  Some people have to work toward maintaining their happiness, others may have it easier but I dont mind. 

Life is a current, lets ride the wave😎

[my2023japanadventure]

Even more stuff happened and I’m still trying to get caught up

Friday April 14 2023

First day of school

I stated my day with a nice breakfast.

I took a bite of the fish before taking a picture. The orange thing near the fhis is some kind og gourd or mellon. It has dark green skin with an orange inside and it tases good, kind of like sweet potato.

Then I had a 20 minute walk to campus.

The way that classes are set up is diffrent than what I’m used to. Here I only have class once a week (except japanese language which I have every day) and each class is 1 hour and 45 minutes. as aposed to my 50 minute classes 2 or 3 times a week. Fortunatly all of my classes are taught in english (except for japanese language).

I started off the school day with Japanese language (which was a struggle, but not just for me). Then we got to my interesting class; Japanese History and Literature! This class is so cool, we get to learn about histry and culture throught litrature! For our first assingment we needed to read the first chapter of the Talke of Genji.

After class the girls and I walked home. I stopped and bought some mochi and dango, and Sunny and I bought takoyaki!

Takiyaki is a ball of batter filled with octopus and topped with sause, mayo and fish flakes. I’t is SOOOOOOO good! Dango has many types but the one I was most familure with (because of anime) is the green, white, and pink one. It is this slightly sweet chewy ball of goodness on a stick! The mochi I had had has a strawberry inside and was super delicious. What a great reward for making it through my fist day!

Then at dinner we had desert. It was matcha jellly with red been paste. So the match jelly was not sweet at all, and the red been paste was puprsiningly sweet so I had to make sure that every bite of jelly had bean paste but it was realy good and I’m glad for the experiance.

Saterday April 15 2023

Got to sleep in a bit, but eventyaly went down to breakfast (at like 8:30).

The whiteish thing next to the sausage and broccoli was a cabage roll of some kind. 

Later in the day I went grocerie shopping because my dorm dosn’t feed us lunch, or at all on Sundays. One of the shops I went to had live fish that you could buy! As well as other very fresh sea food that was dead.

I also saw this Demon Slayer candy that reminded me of the grave of the Fireflys candy I had with friends before coming to Japan.

So here is a minor mistory in my life. I have been eating this plant and it’s pretty good, but I don’t know what it is. There is a picture of it on a bag of sesame seads. I would love to know what it is, so if you know tell me.

To the suprise of no one (I’ms sure) I bought instant noodles for food for the next few days. But I also bought some other delicous snacks.

This is POPO and is basicaly a inverted pocky stick. Filling on the inside cracker on the outside.

And this is Dango but with a sweet soy sause glaze.

Dinner was good altho the bowl with what looks like fruit was deciving. It was not sweet like I expected. The large white chunks that look like fruit, felt like fruit but were not sweet at all and the pink and white things may have been seafood of some kind? Overeall a strange thing that my mouth was not expecting but tased good once I got over the visual deception.

Sunday April 16

I walked to church by myself! I found out that my church building was only a 17 minute walk away. 

One my way to church I spotted Mario!

Once there people were very welocoming and I got to go to a YSA class. It was nice and there were even a few other people who spoke English, so I was able to know what the lesson was about.

On my way back I spotted this funny little drink in a vending machine.

Later in the evening there was a get to know you party for my dorm. They fed us pizza, fried chicken, and drinks, and had party games! 

The fried chicken was realy good. The pizza was flavor/topping cobinations i had never even dreamed of before, and still don’t know what all of them were.

My pizza was good but stange with the toppings of core and scalupt potatos.

I got to witness how other eat pizza...  with chopsticks! I kid you not.

They even had donuts for desert! I had a strawberry glazed one.

Then we played Bingo and I won a prize.

It was realy fun and great to meet so many kind people. I enjoyed myself. My prize was a face mask.

Monday April 17

Back into classes! Strated off the day strong with a healthy breakfast.

1 pice of chicken, an potato croquette, egg salad, arugala salad, a noodle and seaweed salad, rice, and miso soup. A superb breakfast.

My classes on Monday start later than the rest of the week so I had a nice time relaxing and getting ready for the day before heading off to class. my first class of the day was Japanese Tradional and Contemporary Culture. This is my FAVORITE class. My teacher wears a kimono for every lesson. This class we learn about hisorical customs as well as modern customs and why they exist and the meaning behind them. For this class we also get to learn how to put on a kimomo, do a tradional tea ceramony, do tradional flower aranging and so much more! IT’S SO COOL AND INTERESTING!!!!!! My teacher had cute crabs on her obi and let me take a picture.

After class I went to lunch and got the daily special. I had no idea what it was because I can’t read the vending machine. Luckily it was delicious.

I once again got a potato croquette and fried meat on a bed of cabbage, as well as a stiff seaweed salad ( it my have been dreid fish?, im not sure), miso soup, the orange mellon-gourd thing with creamed egg, and of corse rice.

After luch we struggled through japanese class, then headed home. For dinner I had this meal. Gotta say it was not my favorite, but the egg/tofu (not sure) pepper and green been side dish was realy good.

That will be it for this update, but expect another long one soon, maybe even later today! If you have any questions odds are you have a way of contacting me.