#fic: l'éphémère (the ephemeral)

[anouri]

l'éphémère snippet, chapter 38

bc i'm most likely updating on sunday but feel as though i have been starving y'all so i wanna give y'all a lil sustenance in the meanwhile, yknow?

“Don’t live your life waiting for the other shoe to drop.”

Feeling lost in the muddle that is his mind, all Regulus can do is breathe out: “I don’t know how.”

[limetimo]

RAB fics I read (9-21 jan)

saturn (the courage of stars) by olivearcturus surprise! regulus is alive. and has kids. not what Sirius, James and Lily expected to find out on their Diagon Alley trip-

Silent Screams by Izumi284 the order finds out about Regulus' final act and plot device x, Regulus (un-aged) is yeeted right there to the living room floor!

A Hat's Decision Not Liked by Izumi284 Regulus does not like his sorting, and doesn't make empty threats. The Hat was warned.

Black Brother Sandwhich by cursedcorvid Sirius/Regulus/Harry

lose yourself to me by 80sdays jegulus college au

implode— by justwhatialwayswanted sirius saves regulus from the cave

A monster of their own creation by poeticor LOVE LOVE LOVE THE PREMISE THE IMPLICATIONS I NEED EVERYTHING THE AUTHOR IS WILLING TO GIVE ME

1 New Match! by mcplestreet muggle university texting jegulus au with trans regulus and accidental Black bros reuniation.

The Multiple Accounts of James Potter by ThatGayMushroomie James has a Realisation and becomes the school bicycle (see ships in the tags)

(I'm looking for) a miracle in my life by minkhollow before leaving the family, Andromeda gave her sister and cousins each a portkey programmed to take them to a "safe place". For regulus, that's America, where he finds more than he ever hoped for.

Understanding, Nothing More by minkhollow Draco and Regulus and the chamber of secrets :D

Mistigris by Calypte trans criminal regulus killing bad people and James getting horny about it. That's pretty much it, that's the core of the fic.

Far Too Young to Die by xjustakay mission: safe Regulus from Grimmauld place. endgame: jegulus

Not Courageous but Selfish Instead by Darlena severus snape runs away from home and never goes to hogwarts, looking forward to where this goes

Stardust In My Eyes by xjustakay REgulus, pointing at the stars: that's pretty yeah; JAmes, looking at his boyfriend: super pretty

Over havens fora full and swollen morass, young habitat! by graveofthesun LOVE THIS LOVE THIS LOVE THIS LOVE THIS After Sirius runs away, Regulus has sort of an dissociative episode and ends up lost in muggle London. He meets Dorcas, who's poor af, and Barty, who's homeless, and over time they pick up Pandora and Evan and Evan's baby daughter Aurora as well, and build a little family of their own. after a couple years, Regulus runs into Remus Lupin, and reconnects with his brother, and helps hide the potters when the time comes, and it's really just such a lovely fic I want to frame it on my wall

l'éphémère (the ephemeral) by anouri ballet dancer regulus gets his leg broken by james and they get close and start dating without knowing their one shared person and then BAM sirius loses his shit about his best friend (who's still recovering from an abusive relationship) dating his little brother (who's their mother's son and therefore will probably turn out abusive like her) and it's a mess for a while but thankfully they have Euphemia Potter to give hugs and advice :)

i see how this ends (poorly) by Quillium ♥♥♥♥♥

[kachwoww]

More Jegulus Recs because i'm an addict

the shrine of your lies (is where i lay) by Kayaannii Prince!James meets Assassin!Regulus… v well written, and very fun! This is wolfstar as well! Not super long yet but from what I've read so far, there will be a lot of Black Brother Angst in the future. Slight warning, explicit like graphic, also there's very much a knife kink so if you're not into that this prob won't be for you!

l'éphémère (the ephemeral) by @anouri James hits Regulus with a motorcycle. Not the most common meet cute but they make it work. I'm 90% sure I've already recced this oh well. If you like Best Friend's Brother, you'll like this. Sirius and Regulus will make you cry in the most recent chapter. There are a couple pretty intense things in here, so make sure to thoroughly read the tags! I’ve been keeping up w this fic for a while and it one of my favs so I hope y’all read it!!

You, Me & Everyone Else by ygmoony I was grinning the entire time I read this fic. It is wolfstar and jegulus... but Remus & Regulus steal. the. show. They're just so...? I don't even have the words they're literally best friends your honour. I cannot wait for the next chapter, and for the chaos of the plot to kick in because I'm already OBSESSED. I think I’ve seen maybe one person mention this fic and it’s my personal mission to spread it, I’m in love w it

friday night lumieres by raiyag This one has blown up recently so I had to give it a read. I like it! It's very different from a lot of marauders fics, it's American high school au, centred around sports (and sports med). Very fun read. I liked the miscommunication between Regulus and Sirius. It is marked as explicit, even though from what I remember there hasn't been anything yet, remember all characters are in high school so keep that in mind!

For the Hope of it All by Bastetmoon (@alexaryebread) Yall. YALL. This is my fav fic on the list and that is saying something. It's basically a jegulus august au (the taylor swift love triangle) and I cannot (cannot) get enough. I was kicking my feet and giggling the entire time I read this. Every single character in this fic is a MESS and I love them all. Not a single one of them makes a good choice at any point ever and it is so entertaining, there is not a brain cell to be found. In other words, it's actually a pretty realistic representation of high school. It is very early 2000s teen tv show, like riverdale(season 1 anyways). It is so cute, and I cannot wait till it updates!!!

a matter of time by reggiecanswim

Ok I had to rewrite this summary because this fic has updated a lot. There will be spoilers so if you don’t want that, just know it’s an absolutely fan fucking tastic fic, and I highly recommend it. So it’s semi canon compliant. It follows the marauders (plus regulus) through most of hogwarts and that part is very much child/teen hood friendship, relationship drama and is pretty light. It gets darker in the last year (Regulus’ 6th, the marauders 7th) the prank is also featured and it’s incredibly well done, on par with choices’ handling of the prank in my opinion. Then the war. Regulus becomes a death eater and defects, is a double agent for a while gets caught and tortured has a very traumatic brain injury recovers, and has to live with the potters while he recovers. James lowkey cheats on Lily with him by the end. Ok not lowkey he does. I don’t condone this, and honestly I think it’s out of character for James but it is well written and enjoyable to read so if you aren’t into that don’t read it. After that canon… fixes itself. They find out peters the spy too late james and Lily die, Sirius goes to kill Peter and brings regulus with him, and Peter kills regulus along with the muggle (and frames Sirius for all the murders as well as his own death.) so yeah regulus does die. I was a little disappointed by this because I haven’t seen many regulus!lives fics that follow him into the canon story and see how his presence changes things but again it was well written, and I even cried so I can’t really complain. I think there’s one more chapter left so I’ll update when that comes out. Side note, I’m curious to see if they’ll add regulus to Sirius’ victims count or they’ll say he was a part of the plot to kill Peter (and the muggle) and died in the process, probably leaning toward the later because he was a death eater but the former would be very interesting.

You Missed My Heart by pinkpanther1465

Criminal minds au!!! The characters don’t line up exactly, but James is Reid, Remus is Hotch but it’s established wolfstar. Very cute but sort of sad, updates are pretty frequent and it’s different than a lot of jegulus fics I’ve read!

love is not a predicate by mordax

Yall this is the boarding school fic to end all boarding school fics. I literally read all of it (it’s over 100k rn) in like 3 hours with almost no breaks. I ate this shit up. Pandora and Reg are the bestest, and JAMES? He has my whole heart. He just wants to listen to the piano. But the real star of this fic is the absolute perfect representation of Sirius and Regulus’ relationship and their whole family being the worst. It’s just great you need to read it.

En Avant by bluerosebouquet (@sortasirius)

The best depiction of grief I've read in a fic so far. I usually don't like jegulus fics where Lily dies, because the writer is always so eager to get to the jegulus they just brush over Jily, this fic doesn't do that. Like not at all. It's also very sad, but in a happy way? That didn't make sense. You'll cry by chapter 2, but it's not soul crushing depressing. Is that better? As of now the Sirius & Regulus relationship is looking unfixable, I really hope that changes, because I love them and I'd love to see this author's take on their dynamic, and also I really want the specific backstory for their falling out. I put reading this one off for a while because it's very long but I finished it in like 4 hours, maybe less actually, you really get right through it. ANyways go read it and tell them they're amazing.

[anouri]

“When he opens the door, he doesn’t know what to expect. Or, more accurately, he knows exactly what to expect, and yet cannot believe that his expectations were anything more than a pipe dream.”

chapter 38 of l'éphémère has been posted!

[anouri]

the Great L'Éphémère Edit has properly commenced

[anouri]

But, God, it is striking: the manner by which that selfish hope burgeons within him, not waiting for permission or rationality to grow alongside it.

chapter 36 of l'éphémère has been posted!

[anouri]

hi yes i have temporarily fallen off the face of the (tumblr) planet & my queue is holding up the fort, i will be back next week probably. in the meantime here is a(n unedited, not proofread) l'éphémère chapter 36 excerpt:

“You should go,” Sirius says, the words leaving his mouth slowly—stilted as if they’re being restrained by a leash, and they’ve reached the end of their chain. James can tell the chain is threatening to snap.

And yet, he doesn’t follow the command. James shakes his head, steadies himself for the argument that’s moments away from occurring, and says, “I’m not—No.”

For an uncomfortably long time, Sirius just looks at him. Brows raised high, horizontal lines on his forehead, each one a symbol of the vexed disbelief he seems to be feeling at James refusing to oblige. He doesn’t move an inch, so neither does James. In fact, he’s holding his breath. Waiting for Sirius to explode.

It’s odd being on this side of things. On this side of Sirius’ temper. Foreign. Even more foreign to not try to assuage it, but instead prodding at it, hoping it explodes sooner rather than later. Hoping he likes the ashes that will fall from the flames afterward.

[anouri]

reaidng chapter 32 of the l'éphémère (the ephemeral) rn what the hell bestie you're tearing my heart apart

i am so sorry 😔 they really are going through it in that chapter aren’t they?

[anouri]

"There’s no need to surround yourself with caution tape; you’re really not as sharp and dangerous as you seem to think you are."

chapter 35 of l'éphémère has been posted!! < 3

[anouri]

“Rather quickly they realised that they could not mould me, so they broke me apart and moulded him instead.”

surprise! chapter 37 of l'éphémère has been posted

[anouri]

okay this isn't specifically about your writing but everytime i see coffee flavoured ice cream i think of reg bc of you<3

awww that’s so cute < 3

i’ll let you in on a little secret: reg’s fav ice cream flavor in l’éphémère is that partially bc it is my favorite ice cream flavor (except i personally need it to be alongside another flavor that has chunks in it). the other reason is because i think he’d take any opportunity possible to fuel his caffeine dependency

[anouri]

okay.

i legit just finished chapter 16.

upwards of 80k?????

it didn't even feel like it.

dude. bro. queen. love of my life.

you're ruining me.

your writing is ruining me and i find myself willingly falling into your ruin.

i humbly ask you to wreck me while you write

hi, hello

i am glad you are enjoying (being ruined by???) the fic hahaha. thank you so much < 33

[anouri]

7 up!

thanks for tagging me @euphorial-docx < 333

rules: post 7 (or more) lines of a wip you’ve been working on

y'all get an excerpt from l'éphémère that i wrote (read: word vomited up during a sprint) about 5 seconds ago and have not proofread at all < 3

"...He asked, ‘Why can’t you just be good? Stop causing so much trouble and then they wouldn’t treat you so horribly.’

“All I could answer with was, ‘Do you really think what they want is for us to be good, Reggie?’ because I knew that what they wanted was a monster, a horrible person who wore nothing but a fancy sort of disgust and scorn on their sleeve, and I wanted to believe that he understood this, too.

“He had shaken his head. It was dark, I couldn’t see his face but I knew he was frowning. And he had gone: ‘You know what I mean, Sirius.’

“‘You do what they say,’ I said, because he did. Whenever he was capable of following their commands, he would. So I continued, sorely turning away from him in my bed because I didn’t need to see his frown or his contempt or fear or any of it—all I needed him was to know this, so I told him: ‘You do what they say and yet they manage to rip you apart and make you bleed, too. Neither of us will ever win, and you know that.’

no pressure tags! (& sorry if you've already been tagged < 3): @cornishpixiez @arakhnee @fruity-individual @motswolo

[anouri]

probably gonna drop ch 34 of l'éphémère at midnight like it is a new album or something

[anouri]

ten lines, ten people

rules: share the first lines of ten of your most recent fanfics and tag ten people. if you have written less than ten, don’t be shy and share anyway.

yes i am very late bc i have been ripped away from here due to academia & capitalism :( but i am here now! i was tagged by @messrsage @arakhnee @pjxckson @deermessrs & @motswolo < 33

i do not have ten wips or fics, so i'll share what i have!

published fics:

l'éphémère (the ephemeral) (36/?)

It’s quite the question, isn’t it? Will he ever live his life for himself and himself only?

2. working for the knife (10/?)

Prophecies are useless.

3. vermilion dawn (and the touch of an angel) (2/?)

James Potter was three years old the first time he tasted blood.

4. lost in the labyrinth (of my mind) (completed one-shot)

Walking as fast as he could whilst still appearing unbothered, Regulus rushes to find somewhere to be alone.

unpublished wips (no guarantees these lines will remain the first line lol):

5. unnamed pandalily academic rivals fic

Perfectionism is a curse; competitiveness and rumination are its enablers—rather unfortunately, Lily is intimately familiar with this burdensome trifecta.

6. unnamed twd/zombie apocalypse au

Unknown Number

[02:04] Regulus?

[02:04] It’s Sirius

[02:05] I know we haven’t talked in years and it’s the middle of the night, but… have you seen the news?

7. the bible of blood and spit (with the loml @cornishpixiez) (pls know this is not the real name ajskdhakd we haven't named our child yet)

A sharp, listless sigh escapes Regulus as he lounges, staring up at the glaringly bright sky—squinting slightly due to the brightness, a sensitivity he is not used to—as waves of boredom wash over him, the tide growing stronger with each passing moment.

i think that's all i have that has anything coherent to share!

no pressure tags & also sorry if you've already been tagged or done this: @euphorial-docx @cornishpixiez @greenvlvetcouch @fruity-individual @godsofwoes @crushofdoves + anyone else who would like to < 333

[anouri]

“Reality can be a dream. Even better sometimes, because it's something you can hold onto… but only if you surrender yourself to it.”

chapter 39 of l'éphémère has been posted!