#feelslikedying

[lizzywizzyeatsart]

It's in the water baby It's in the pills that bring you down It's in the water baby It's in your bag of golden brown It's in the water baby It's in your frequency It's in the water baby It's between you and me It's in the water baby It's in the pills that pick you up It's in the water baby It's in the special way we f*@# It's in the water baby It's in your family tree It's in the water baby It's between you and me Bite the hand that feeds Tap the vein that bleeds Down on my bended knees I break the back of love for you I break the back of love for you... -Post Blue by Placebo We all were on some point in life, where we told ourselves, that we could handle it, that we could stop when ever we wanted to. Nobody could understand. It was no big deal after all. Nothing could possibly go wrong. Good can't be wrong. Right? It's hilarious until we realize, that we weren't able to control it from the very start. Stay safe and stick to your loved ones. Remember: Nothing ever stays the same. #placebo #postblue #awekening #drugs #addicted #fuckheroin #notodrugs #cryforhelp #deadinside #blackhole #drowning #feelslikedying #skeleton #goingunder #toabetterplace #restinheaven #mentalhealth #blackandwhiteart #macabreart #comingdown #freefalling #drown #darkness #youngartist #pencildrawing #saddrawing #darkart #coaldrawing #lizzyeatsart https://www.instagram.com/p/BnUPhNCAwg0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=xge2lndgl0ft

[matteohudson]

Now Listening: Seether - Poison The Parish. #seether #seetherpoisontheparish #poisontheparish #stokethefire #betrayanddegrade #somethingelse #illsurvive #letyoudown #againstthewall #letmeheal #saviours #nothingleft #countmeout #emotionless #sellmysoul #feelslikedying #misunderstood #takeaminute #postgrunge #alternativemetal #hardrock #numetal #nowlistening #nowplaying https://www.instagram.com/p/CCedOYyCkmf/?igshid=16zorrvrua9rk

[narcichondriac]

#faux fur collar got me feelin like tha beardedlady. Stomach virus. Mold. Mono. Help I want out. #sick #feelslikedying #downswing #feelings #hurting #makeitstop #howonearth #pain #nurturethyself #nourishthyself #donttakeshitforgranted or #granite #stillfunny #ow #haha 😭 (at Fairfield, Iowa)

[aslanzounder]

As you probably know, this is about the (more official than S4 in the collective fandom's eye) RP Twitter account for Sherlock Holmes (contactSH).

This is taking too long, I didn’t even get to the good part but here’s a start:

Part One of the thrilling saga (Jan29th til this morning)

Summary:

. It was the anniversary of the day John and Sherlock met . They went to dinner at Angelo’s and got drunk . No taxi would take them, they stole a Boris bike to get to 221b . (…) . In the morning it was deduced ( @ikolism​ ) that Sherlock stayed in John’s bedroom

@ikolism @alwaysanoriginal @brunettereader @sidealonq @gaysherrlock @mskatutin @gottaboldlygo @dreamcarton @sandinouchou @trainthief @ravenmacduff @yan-yae @tjlc @just–elope @totallymydivision @the-7-percent-solution @chrysanthemumsies @vilonal @jemariel @signoftjlc @laughing-crying-feelslikedying @multifandom-madnesss @sherlockedtjlc @johnlocks @secretworldofabowtie @lazycoffeedefender

[jadedtara]

Seriously.....#allergies #allergiessuck #feelslikedying

[mcrisalday-blog]

One of the saddest thing in life is knowing you DID YOUR BEST in TELLING THE TRUTH, yet no one believed you. Also, no one stood out to protect and prove you right. Gone are all those people who got huge benefits from you. 🌵👎🏼

[che0nseo]

B.A.P - Voicemail ♡♡ #me #selfie #selca #killedittoday #nothing#nothingtoeat #feelslikedying #haveeatennothingtoday #letskilldashit

[pingcess]

Wondering if one day I'll be dying from dysmenorrhoea cramps? #cramps #feelslikedying #dysmenorrhoea #这个世界是很黑暗的 😢😢😢

[theantiproduct]

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[louisevictoriasara]

Tonsillectomy recovery

Tonsillectomy recovery Step by step, day by day [insert theme song here]

So I am a 28 year old layday, and it’s 5am on Day seven post op. Due to lack of sleep and going through a wave of, what I would describe as what dying would feel like, I decided to take note of my experience.

So some background - never as a kid did I have tonsillitis maybe more than twice. Even through adult hood (the years, not my behaviour) until my lovely niece was born 18 months ago.Six months later she started day care. It seemed from day one she had a Constant runny nose. And because I am fave Aunty Weeze, and the fact I love her to pieces, I was number one babysitter, best Aunty and play mate. From then, every time she came home with a cold, I got tonsillitis. Which seemed to be every 6 weeks. Not really sure why but what can you do.

I then went travelling for 5 months around the world. While travelling it seemed I didn’t need my nieces help to get sick, every 4 or so weeks I managed to do it on my own. Pretty sure alcohol was a ma major factor to play in that but let’s not go into that.

So after continuing to get tonsillitis once a month (thank god the timing wasn’t the same) I came home (got tonsillitis the next week) went to the dr and it was decided these bad boys needed to be whipped out. A dr, specialist, surgeon, Dr, surgeon later here we are.

I didn’t do any internet research or read any of the brochures given to me , just the general oh I hear it really hurts when you are old to get your tonsils out and takes ages to recover malarkey. I’m very glad that I didn’t until after the op and it was too late to turn back.

One lovely lady at my work said to me quote “ iv been through childbirth, a hip operation and had my tonsils out when I was 25 and the worst one was the tonsils” I laughed thinking she was winding me up. I now know I don’t think she was…. (Iv hand ankle surgery which in comparison seems like a breeze, not had a baby - I can update this when I do). So….

Day 1: was nervous as fuck before the operation, not of the actual operation but of waking up in pain and knowing it won’t go away for two weeks. And the fact that I didn’t know what to expect, due to the non reading of material, I had done a tiny bit of Google image search tonsillectomy yesterday. My advice DONT DO IT. So that didn’t help either as I only looked at the pictures, not the words describing what I was seeing so it all looked disgusting and I was going to die. I was in theatre all geared up and the fire alarm went off. We got sealed in the theatre and listened to the relaxing waling tone of the said fire alarm we waited and waited, the firemen came, dealt to whatever had to be dealt with and left. I didn’t even get to see if there were any lookers. During this time I got asked if I wanted to keep my tonsils, initially I declined politely by saying fuck off. Then was like, actually be kinda cool to see what these fuckers look like and yA know put a pic on FB and snap chat my mates so I agreed that I wanted to keep them.

Anyway I woke up yadda yadda yadda Aaaaand I was right. Pain sucked dick.

But there were my bloody half golf ball size tonsils in a specimen jar waiting for me to wake up. Obligatory FB photo update and snaps done. They look disgusting… Words from my dr - they are horrendous.

Day 2: after a shit sleep, 3 hourly morphine and about 8 ice blocks it was time to go home from hospital. I found due to the swollen-ness of the whole inside of my mouth, that I needed to lay on my side with 4 pillows under my head. If I stayed on my back I pretty much choked on my swollen dangly thing and tongue. I pretty much slept, took pain killers and felt sorry for myself while my mum looked after me.

Day 3: I looked in the back of my throat and was horrified. The White, yellow, green goo had formed. I feel disgusting. So now I think it’s a good idea to do some internet research and read other people’s experiences. I think if i had done this before the op, I wouldn’t of gone through with it and just dealt with tonsillitis on the regular….. I’m sure work wouldn’t of minded all the sick leave???Mr Google got asked a lot of questions over the next few days. I kept wondering what the scab situation was as I was finding it hard to imagine scabs forming in your mouth like the regular ones we have on our skin. Turns out it’s the White, yellow, green gross goo that covers the back of the throat. The rest of this day was in a haze of sleep, pain and complaining to my mum.

Day 4: after a terrible night sleep and deciding to take pain killers every time I woke up, which was a lot, I think I took too many and had a wee OD moment. Good old mum calmed me down while I thought I was dying because I couldn’t breath, then my right tonsil started to bleed. PANIC STATIONS. More me, not mum, actually it was all me! #dramaqueen. Off we go to the emergency department. So yea a weeee bit of don’t take so many pain killers read the packet blah blah blah, Jesus why is your blood pressure through the roof, it’s ok bleeding not hemmroighing, a wee rest then it was back off home to bed with mum monitoring my drug intake carefully. Another joyous day.

Day 5: I wanted to go home for a few hours to see my mr Ziggy, (I’m staying at my parents) so I got dropped off, had some snuggles for approx 2 minutes then boom. Vomit city. Shit city. Pain city. Then omg I’m dying city. Back off to Emergency after hours in a search to end this horrible horrible situation. Magic wafer melt in your mouth drugs and fluids were administered and all was right again. That arvo I felt pretty good, was like oh yea, I’m on the mend. Can only go up from here… Oh how I was wrong.

Day 6: 2am. The pain!!!!! I thought I was 10/10 crying unhappy face before but by god this is actually what 10/10 pain feels like! Nothing helped the pain. Trying to swallow or spit even nodding my head was the worst pain imaginable. Then I remember being told. It gets way worse before it starts to get better. I’m back on the downward slope. With sleep not being an option and lying down hurt I sat up in a chair for literally hours staring at the blank tv. I couldn’t even be bothered turning it on. I think I managed to sleep for an hour around 6am then spent rest of day between lounge and spitting up the gross shit. I found the extreme pain comes in 4-5 hourly waves, not sure if it’s coz pain killers are wearing off then or it’s just what it does. With nothing else I can do I just have to ride it out. At least I know now the ‘scabs’ are coming off there is a few more days of this then I’ll be on the upwards again.

Side note: so gross but you can taste when you swallow some of the gunk. Acid, salty and gross. Kind of like when you have a mouth ulcer and it pops… That taste. But worse.

Day 7: sleep was a little bit easier last night, didn’t set alarms for pain killers and the pain woke me up 4 hourly anyway. I’m currently in a pain wave- not as bad as yesterday but still I wish someone would cut my throat out or there was time travel so I could change my mind and not do the surgery. Good news is that I can see some new pink skin! That is a good sign! Maybe only 10% but it’s a start.

What I have discovered so far tho is that it’s important to eat even when it kills you to do so. I wait until the pain isn’t crippling me then slowly make my way through something. Iv been eating a lot of watermelon and rice biscuits and tinned spaghetti. iv gone off ice blocks for the moment so when I want something cold I suck on ice cubes.

Iv read a lot of mixed messages about only eating soft mushy food and only eating rough food. My Dr advised a mixture of both. The rice crackers are actually surprisingly easy to eat. I think the more you work your throat…… Ahh the faster it will come right.

Every day so far I regret having the operation, but I think that’s the pain and unpleasantness of it all

Day 8: I am on the mend!!! It feels so good. Still sore but amazing in comparison. Right side has cleared up and now no pain, come on left side! It’s your time to shine.

I obviously stopped writing here, my memory alludes me as to why but only assuming I was becoming a human again. I do remember a full three weeks of being sore and being off work then a general weird feeling for another few weeks after that… But

Three months on… And I’m so glad I have had the operation…I haven’t had a sore throat since and I feel like a new woman. As they say, short term pain for long term gain.

I wouldn’t do it again though.

[pahingakamuna]

Early morning bad news ceased my ability to sleep. #ExcruciatingHeadache #FeelsLikeDying #BloodShotEyes

[aslanzounder]

Virtual watercolour Johnlock ✨🍵 Thought I'd post this here too _____________________________________________________________ @ikolism @alwaysanoriginal @brunettereader @sidealonq @data-plays-viola @gaysherrlock @mskatutin @gottaboldlygo @dreamcarton @sandinouchou @trainthief@ravenmacduff @yan-yae @just–elope @totallymydivision  @chrysanthemumsies @vilonal @jemariel @signoftjlc @laughing-crying-feelslikedying @multifandom-madnesss @sherlockedtjlc @johnlocks @secretworldofabowtie @lazycoffeedefender

[darrellbau]

Pretty hurt with the words that you have said, to think I never did you wrong. It was just you putting words in my mouth. 💉💔😢🔫 #PrettyHurt #FeelsLikeDying #OneSidedLoveAffair #ChooseHappiness

[cleargreyskies]

Happy Birthday. I know I have said this bevore but I just wanted to say it agian… and again and again.. maybee you’ll get a part of your present today… when I’m able to post it.. otherwise you’ll get it tomorrow. But I hope you had a nice day. I’m really lucky to be able to call you my best friend. Have a really nice evening and remember you are beautifull just the way you are… :*

… Thank you. The evening was not nice at all, but the time I was able to spend with you in the morning was the best thing about this stupid, stupid day.

[gatecrashton]

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[apieceofmysunshinythoughts]

This is me post exercise. 😂😣 #fitnessfirst #guest #zumba #bodyjam #hagardoversoza #feelslikedying #tiisganda