#feels like vagueblogging

[thatswhatsushesaid]

imagine being so bereft of joy that you cannot stop yourself from leaving this comment on a benign "look at this fun fandom mug my spouse bought me, enjoy this funny personal anecdote to go with it" post

sorry for existing i guess???

[fanboy-feminist]

Happy Father’s Day to John Darnielle from The Mountain Goats, Sean Bonnette from AJJ, and Lars Gotrich from NPR Music. Everyone else can Kill Them Selves!!!

[princess-hope-selfships]

"I, a minor, am sad about how toxic the community is, I see so many blogs with minors dni on them ):"

m. maybe it's. because. adults don't wanna talk to underage people.

LIKE I get it, that sucks that you are shunned from part of the community, but I see so many minors that I have to block to ensure I don't interact with them! Like surely you can't be missing every single minor that's in this community that you can interact with??

And there are plenty of adult selfshippers who don't have minors dni like I'm not seeing the same community you are I guess.

Lastly, don't call adults who have mdni on their page toxic, it's a valid preference for adults to have. I'm sorry it hurts your feelings, but that's a boundary you have to deal with because it's reasonable and fair for an adult to be like I do not want to see or be seen by minors.

[tanoraqui]

I love post-Thangorodrim whump & hurt/comfort as much as, maybe more than the next girl, but sometimes I DO want to physically shake many fanfiction writers—especially modern au writers, for some reason—and remind them that the CANONICAL effect of Maedhros’s captivity and torment upon his psyche was,

…the orcs fled before his face, for since his torment upon Thangorodrim his spirit burned like a white fire within, and he was as one that returns from the dead. Thus the great fortress upon the Hill of Himring could not be taken…

Maedhros isn’t anxious and traumatized, he is FULL OF RESPLENDENT AND VERY EFFECTIVELY VIOLENT WRATH and traumatized

[hesgomorrah]

having a moment again about how isolating it can be to have a deeply obscure hyperfixation

[the-priestess-of-dawn]

I went looking and couldn't find any record of me ever actually posting this on tumblr, oops, but a couple years back I wrote this thread on twitter about how Emmeryn's sacrifice absolutely is not supposed to teach Chrom (or Robin, for that matter) that "sacrifice is necessary" or anything like that and mmmm for reasons I am getting Upset about it again so asdfghjkl I'll actually share the Rant with my tumblr followers this time.

[rawliverandgoronspice]

not dipping back there again after this, but my opinion on where the discourse re: us politics is heading is not getting any nicer.

[smallblueandloud]

i miss my friends :( i have rested for three days now and it's been great. When Do I Get To See My Friends Again

[stranger-walks-by]

This is it, the urge to scream words that stay stuck in my throat has defeated me, I have succumbed to the urge to let my pitiful words known to the void, maybe even wandering souls similiat to myself from the void as well. Slave for validation I suppose. Search for being seen. Craving to be heard. Even if my words echo back to me, or if its swallowed whole by the void itself, its better. its still better than having it inside and consuming me whole. If my writing amuses you slightly, I am glad. I find great joy in entertaining people, it helps that my life is pure comedy at its best at all times. So yes, I hope it'll be a pleasant stay here, dear reader. I hope you get back with your much needed entertainment. Stay safe and take care all. I may be nothing but a mere stranger but human beings can be nice, I can't help wishing well upon those of them. so I wish well upon you too.

[stardust-moth]

looking at some takes on characters or relationships or scenes in which things happen between them and just thinking,

How in the hell are people interpreting it this way??? But then i step back and realize that the story or character in question is fundamentally and extraordinarily different from the average person's life experience and I go,

ah,

you guys just... don't have a deep enough understanding of trauma responses...

[discoidal]

socmed is making me paranoid again... is it always cycles?? is the only solution to fully deactivate?? why is my outermost layer made of thin onionskins? and other questions etc etc

[shamelesslymkp]

help i'm reading a great fic and just got slapped in the face with super positively framed queerphobia or idk transphobia or idk both

"Straight men don't wear panties," [character] points out.

I am super hard trying to believe this is a case of character belief not equaling author belief but uh. it is a little difficult, ngl.

[katyspersonal]

Okay okay I will stop talking about it I promise, but it is hard to explain how much strain, weight, fear and stress I've been under over one particular problem for a few months, and how strange the means of my liberation from it were. I've spent the whole week, or even more, crying, and I've fallen into extreme self-doubts and guilt. This time it was too much to bear and I wondered if I was in the wrong after all.

But like.. just very specific words and attitude removed ALL of that weight in a flash. Not only I felt much easier and free, but also I saw with my very eyes that I WAS right, I WAS in the right place and DID the right thing. I can't describe this. I knew that I would feel better and move on if I open my heart, but I didn't know in which way. Like.. imagine grabbing a saint (affectionate) from the local church (derogatory) trying to speak and getting "Oh wait no you haven't sinned, we just don't want heretics walking near our pure place 👍". It is like, disappointment and loss of all self-doubts that escalated for months, but also relief from fear and perceived hatred that kept sipping my HPs like a permanent status effect. And confidence in my purpose. I feel like I just can't share about it in a way that makes sense, but I experience genuine relief from pain and self-doubts so rarely that I can't keep it inside. It was a quick hurt to heal the permanenthurt, you know, kinda like how fixing a broken shoulder requires wild pain but it's quick? This was the biggest HUMANITY RESTORED moment I've had in a long while.

[hesgomorrah]

the infuriating thing about being committed to a 'ship and let ship' mentality is that sometimes it does mean you have to grit your teeth through people talking about a ship that really is not your thing but you know objectively is Fine

[irrigos]

one of my favorite things about the tumblr section of the fl fandom is that its small enough that when someone subtweets me i usually get to see it. my second favorite thing is that apparently people feel compelled to subtweet me

[justalittlebluetiefling]

Sometimes a book isn't exactly good, but the vibes are right and that ends up being enough.