#feelingasian

[casettadipasta]

*Special* Asian Style Boneless Wings!! Boneless wings tossed in a delicious Asian sauce. #wevgotstuff #letsdolunch #letsdodinner #feelingasian #tastystuff (at Albany, Oregon) https://www.instagram.com/p/CNLtUkZFMdU/?igshid=1bg32gacaystj

[hopecohen]

Tonight festivities include vegetable fried 🍚 #feelingasian #stirfry

[natasha-michael]

Best way to start my Sunday morning. #superfruit #pitaya #thankyouchinatown #feelingasian #dragonfruit (at China Town)

[cfiegel]

#blacksand #maui #vacationwhereyoulive #highlyfe #friends #vacation #relaxed #sightseeing #touristgameisstrong #feelingasian #tomanyphotos

[bzznobp]

#feelingasian

[saysshari]

#homemade udon w/ chix #scallions beancurd #chilipepper #feelingasian @kentrg11 is missing out!!

[edouardpierre]

What my personal chef and beautiful lady made me tonight. Udon, kimchi guoza and a vegetarian bun. #feelingasian #homecooked (at Ukrainian Village, Chicago, Illinois)

[sddreamin619-blog]

#FeelingAsian⚓️

[novemberwhirlwind]

#feelingasian quá đeeee!! 😘😘😘 biết là nó dễ nhưng mà kiểu ngôn ngữ mới khác 100% ở nhà xong bèn làm nhanh hơn bọn Tây thích ghê hí hí ❤️

[theboyknows]

#FeelingAsian

[nineteen84-jonny-blog]

Back to clean eating and attempting to carb cycle! Got garlic couscous, Paprika fried chicken, fried onions and mushrooms, broccoli, and cauliflower with a lil bit of salad cream. I'm trying at least! #feelingasian #theytakefoodpicsright #eatclean

[bzznobp]

#feelingasian #fightingpain

[saysshari]

Picnic Garden #feelingasian

[chonger66]

Things that matter. Pass 'em on.

This brings back all the raw emotions I experienced when I was in a similar situation but as the student of color.  I remember feeling nostalgic, just wishing that this conversation never started because I honestly felt like the other side wouldn't understand.  It was exactly how the teacher explained it.  It was the five stages of grief. I saw people be in denial, place blames and make defenses.  I heard things being shouted out that ranged from, just because my parents were racist or my grandparents were racist, doesn't mean I am to you guys are the racist ones right now.  The acceptance part, that was rare. People did exactly what the girl did in this video, they executed their right to leave it all and pretend like the moment of discomfort they experienced, never existed.  By the second semester, more than half the white population in this leadership and diversity program had dropped.  I think that was what saddened me most after that.  It was the realization that people are innately selfish.  They will always put themselves first.  I loved that the teacher said, "When you are thinking about what you have to say, you aren't listening to what the others are saying."  There is so much more meaning and accuracy to that statement.

Sometimes, I feel like I can't get too deep in this stuff, because I get caught up and stuck. I get stuck with the feelings of negativity and lack of hope. I get wrapped up in noticing the little things that people do and how they are a projection of their racism.  A racism they don't understand.  So many people say that racism doesn't exist anymore but is there any one thing in the world that is constant and unchanging?  I'd say that is pretty hard to find and define.  In that manner, wouldn't what is being identified as racist change too?  When I say, I catch on to the little things, I mean that racism is subtle in this new age.  It's not as blatant as the KKK or lynching but it's still racism, you just have to understand it, know it, accept it.  

In the times I try to be empathetic, I often say, how do they understand something they've never felt? I can't blame them for that, but that day in my ELLC practicum, I was reminded that we never understood what it was like to be white, because we will never be white, yet why is it okay for us to have the capacity to be empathetic and not them?  Most of my interactions with non-people of color became more difficult that day.  Some days I found it hard to ignore their ignorant comments, some days I just couldn't bite my tongue. I found myself observing the environment around me, the people around me and time and time again, I felt the sad realization that I shouldn't pay so much attention! When I do, I see all the subtle racism in stares, body language, crowds and then I find it hard to enjoy myself because I feel uncomfortable.  Do they ever experience that type of discomfort?  

The sad thing is that certain people do, in a much smaller scale.  For example, if they go study abroad somewhere or visit a foreign country. Let's say, they went somewhere like where my ethnic roots are.  They would probably feel our isolation a little.  They would probably feel some discomfort for not knowing where they are, where they are going and maybe even for not knowing the language. The reality is though, that they will not understand what it's like to be a person of color in the US because it requires breaking down more than just our interactions and experiences in the states.  It's not as simple as discomfort or looking different or having a different native tongue.  It is a feeling of not fitting anywhere.  Here, there, home, America, China, Canada etc.  It is not having our identities recognized and respected.  It is not being able to proudly claim that I am a person of color and I am also American. It is recognizing that for now, I don't have a choice.

Some quotes I want to highlight:

"We all want to walk out, we all want to get away from the reality of the problem, but we can't."

"When you say to a person of color, I don't see you as black, I just see you as the same.  People think about that. You don't have the right to say to a person, I do not see you as you are. I want to see you as I would be more comfortable seeing you."

"When you deny what this person is going through or what that person is going through, you are denying their reality."

"People don't deny differences. Accept them, appreciate them, recognize them and cherish them.  They are extremely important."

"You have that choice, you have that choice, I have that choice and people of color have no choice, they have to fight this battle every day."

"When am I going to quit?  When racists quit?  I am going to have a job for a lifetime? I'm afraid so."

[t0sh-blog]

#Goodmorning #breakfast #mangoshrimprollwithfisheggs #feelingasian #morningsushi #nomnomnoms #protein #wildheart #fruit

[abbzs]

Seaweed is my favorite snack. #seaweed #healthysnack #healthy #yum #feelingasian