#feeling ye olde anomie and alienation and etc

[ghostofasecretary]

my hands hurt. this happens for various reasons, but today they hurt because they swelled a whole lot and then unswelled a whole lot (and were all wrinkly for half an hour after unswelling). i do not fully know why they swelled but it was definitely a series of allergies, i suspect in response to dog hair and then pollen outside

and i just. i am so fucking tired. of how beloved this one FUCKING dog at work is. because i am allergic to dogs, and i'm in pain, and i'm a human person, but it feels like that doesn't matter because we Absolutely Could Not Have The Dog Be In A Different Building Than The One I Work In and HEAVEN FORFEND this dog not be an ~~essential part of our brand~~

and i get that people love dogs! i generally find dogs cute, so long as they are not gonna hurt me! but also, i am becoming very afraid of The Dog. i don't like being in pain. i would like The Dog to be less beloved if that meant my hands wouldn't hurt when i go into work.