#feeling light as a feather but also heavy as an anvil lol

[florashifting]

I feel like this might be a vent but not rlly idk like I just feel a little out of it so i wouldn't know

I feel like I'm at one of my lowest fucking points and I don't feel right like idk a way to describe how I'm feeling I just do not feel OK whatsoever I actually feel worse that awful like this might just be one of the worst nights of my fucking life but it's not even a big fucking deal cause whatever but like my thoughts are like everywhere rn and my throat feels foggy idk if that makes sense but that's the only word I can thing of to describe my anxiety cause my throat feels like it's breathing in foggy air and my stomach is full of butterflies except its not the sweet kind its the kind that are invading your insides and stuffing your organs so yeah blah blah blah. I mean this doesn't feel like a big deal to me cause I deal with this like every other night/week and it's just become kind of a casual thing although it's not casual cause I wanna scratch at myself and stick my hand down my throat and pull out the fog but whatever it's rlly not a big deal I feel like I've said that A LOT I also feel like this the longest post I've made that's not related to shifting or writing n stuff but whatever um so ok I think I'm gonna try to go to bed or whatever lol and Im also kinda shaking and on the verge of tears but whatever I'll probably feel happy asf in the morning so imma go to bed lol. And I'm also kinda like super angry lmao but I'm going to bed I fr mean it lol i suddenly can't think straight like I just tried to say something but then I just like blehh ok ok I'm going to bed I mean it.... or I'm gonna watch little women again