#feel free to guess the most challenging one btw if you have a feeling hehe

[skibasyndrome]

Hi!! How's the kinktober writing going? Any kinks you are finding challenging to write? Anything you're really excited about? I'm looking forward to reading your fics! 🔥💜

Hi Anon!!!! You're so sweet for asking, thank you for reaching out!!! 💜💜💜💜💜💜

It's actually going quite well atm :') After @pagegirlintraining dragged me out of a spiral this morning and then sat down with me for a very productive writing sesh I'm very excited to announce that I've made it through the most challenging (and, standing at a whopping 10k at this point with a small amount of connective scenes still missing, probably [hopefully] longest) fic I set out to write for kinktober :) At this point I don't think I wanna quite spoil the prompt yet, but it should come at some point during the next couple days, since I want to try to alternate shorter fics and ficlets with longer ones!

I think after this one, everything should flow relatively smoothly, because most of the other kinks aren't that challenging for me personally to write. I mean, there's definitely stuff that comes more naturally to me than other things (there are prompts that are going to be repeated a couple of times, like thighs, praise kink, masturbation, staying quiet, hands), but over all... after getting THIS ONE out of the way I think I'm ready for anything, haha.

Before kinktober was announced I accepted some prompts I got sent via ask and one of them was angry sex, that's definitely also one that is a bit of a challenge for me (but I am SO looking forward to it!) and then there are things like food play that I haven't written or read a lot before, those are definitely going to be a little challenging as well.

I'm soooo looking forward to getting to write lots and lots and lots though! I also decided to pepper a couple of personal faves in that aren't on the list and I have a few things that I'm going to write because I had conversations (and sometimes... an outright challenge directed at me lol) about them with friends, so hopefully there'll be a lot of variety.

I was a little scared of maybe getting bored with writing so many fics in such a short amount of time and (and that fear still kinda stands but we'll have to see) of maybe boring you guys with settings that aren't different enough, but the more I think about it and the more of my prompt combination turn into little fics, the more excited I am about it all :)

Makes me very happy to hear that you're looking forward to reading them, it means a lot 🥹🫶💜🥹🫶💜🥹🫶💜

And now I'm off to actually finish the fic I'm going to post tomorrow, aaaaah (I can give you that much: it's one of the many fics containing the prompt masturbation)

[boyfhee]

soo, jan 2020 i was addicted to watching funny videos on youtube, like a compilation of them. then i discovered bts funny videos or bts on cracka nd then they were so funny istg i still remember even laughing to them in my sleep.

then feb 2020 i actually search up who bts were since i have been watching their funny videos. for a month i thought they were comedians 😆 who make a living. and i actually see they a kpop group.

that's how i came across kpop, i wouldnt say my first comeback was on because the day i started bts, on era started. my first cb with them was dynamite and i never thought bts would become a world wide sensation :0 like how??? i love them

and my first kdrama, obviously TRUE BEAUTY!!! are team seojun or team suho ??? i am team seojun!! and then i saw 2521 and business proposal in 2022 after watching true beauty in 2020. such a long gap ;-;

my first bias is kim namjoon and then later in june when iland profiles were released, i knew that my 02z were my babes and jayhoon is my one and only unit. but in iland pt2, i inclined emotionally more towards jay </3 he is my heartbreaker :(

my first anime would be jjk, my friend forced me to watch anime so i started like sept 2023, so recently. megumi is my fav but gonna hate sukuna, stupid bitch :( and i live for studio ghibli films, makota shinkai movies too :( they are comffort 🫶🏼

sadly, i don't collect any kpop merch or albums but i have spy x family manga volumes till the last recent one 😁😁 my mom challenged me that if i secure first rank in my college semi finals, she said she would buy me as my bday gift :] and guess what,?? i was the only one who scored 75/75 in maths A and B 😤

these are my firsts btw. do you have anymore firsts rather than these, like love??? 😊

— lover club anon <33

bts as comedians TT these idols can very well be comedians cause they are so effortlessly funny lmfao .. also me too ^^ i became an engene in dimension : answer era but only a few days in or around the comeback, my first was manifesto :O and with bts .. i don't remember :'>

i've never watched true beauty O_O i started it but got bored and dropped it .. but i've seen seojun clips and i definitely support them, also because i lowkey am familiar with the storyline since i've read the webtoon + it's a bit predictable. but, i LOVED 2521, made me cry so much .. and 20th century girl too TT my heart was in pieces, i wrote so much angst during that time hehe and since you've watched business proposal, PLEASE READ THE MANHWA 🙏🙏🙏🙏 it's 100 cuter, better, funnier >< they even have kids omfg .. the drama is no doubt amazing but it can never top the manhwa for me

speaking for manhwas .. do you read them? or webtoons? i was a huge fan of them even before getting into kpop and all but my interest has been wavering lately .. trying to get back into them !

i don't think i had a bias in exo / nct at first because i wasn't really familiar with all this stuff ?? besides, i only listened to their music and didn't watch their other vids .. but now, my bias in nct is renjun TT love him sm, can we just free him from the sasaengs :/ and bias in enhypen is jay, obviously TT i have so many reason, but it's mostly because i like his mindset ( also he's hot as well i feel like i need to be lobotomized whenever i look at him )

my first anime was haikyuu, and of course cause my friends forced me as well .. then i watched jjk which i absolutely love, sk8 to infinity, ohshc, free!, assassination classroom— then i sort of lost interest and switched to studio ghibli and other movies. forest of fireflies is still my favourite and broke my heart a million times TT i took a break from all that too before getting into spy x family and my most recent one is my happy marriage and romantic killer, that i'm planning to watch

i don't have kpop merch either .. i had the option to buy the orange blood album last year but my smartass said she'd rather buy crime and punishment and a few other books that i haven't read yet, mind you.

also my first love erm ... i don't think i've had anything so serious for it to be 'love' ( i don't play around when it comes to that word ) but i've had two boyfriends and one of them was exhibit a for why men suck !!! bro had no sense of personal space and violated my privacy SO MANY TIMES. 10/10 not recommended. although my first bf was sweet and it was lowkey dream come true type of relationship, i'm sad we moved to different cities and don't talk anymore despite being in touch TT do you have a first love or something?

[survivor-kuwait]

Episode 16 - “Debbie was right. Never trust a god damn redhead” - Owen

That tribal actually went better than I could have ever expected, even with Owen staying.  Owen definitely only had it set up to play his idol if an idol was played on Cullan, two idols burnt and one was def wasted by Cullan so now he doesn't have it to use later in the game if/when it inevitably comes time to start making hard decisions.  That play also drives Maynor/Timmy/Chips a little closer to me in that 6 person alliance which I absolutely need.  KAIT IS GONE!!!!!  Every round, every day she was buttering me up as jury management, I knew it, she knew it.  That is absolutely annoying, makes me want someone to win even less.  The reason I wanted Owen first was for the simple fact Kait would be more likely to try to work with me than Owen if she knew she was on the bottom.  Oh well, pretty good tribal for me all in all, everything turned up Ian.  

Debbie was right. Never trust a god damn redhead. Me: omg Maynor so cute love my showmance Me: omg Timmy and I putting our shit in the past love him Maynor and Timmy: rihanna.winking.gif In a way I deserve it. I made myself heard these last few votes with pulling together alliances at merge and going after Devon and Ian and even the Venus thing. And I accidentally revealed in the chat that Kait found my idol. It made sense for them to take a shot, although not sure why me and not Kait and matt who are more likeable and powerful lmao Now I’m just like.... okay Devon and Ian got what they wanted which is gross? Timmy and Maynor gonna try to sell this as their move but as far as I’m concerned Devon and Ian own it. I’m sure they capitalized on touchy subjects to make me strong and them weak. Moving forward I just hope that now that Kait is gone there are bigger fish to fry.... I’m gonna get drunk and then deal with this tomorrow lmao Two rounds ago I was stressed choosing between my two closest allies. Now both of them are gone and I’m fucked 😂

I’m shocked Owen knew to play his idol...I need to figure out how that happened. I am happy Kait left in the end though because that’s who I even said in the Ridiculous 6 chat but others wanted Owen and I didn’t feel like pushing too much because either going was fine to me. But 7-3 in the revote was spicy, I think it was Matt that flipped just to be in the majority for his piece of mind. Still don’t really trust him anymore because he’s a liar, but it is what it is. Should be interesting tomorrow when people have more time to talk.

I guess i’ll make one before going to bed cuz Johnny asked. So this challenge was cute. The fishes though were very douchey. Tbh when Timmy told me Ian had 19 million when I had 9 million, I was like Im not winning. I also thought Cullan was going to beast this challenge and get like 100 million. I was shook to find out that I won. And I won the final 9 immunity which means I beat my Guyana placement which is amazing. Im so happy. Now I just need to get further in this game. But first need to see who will be voted out at tribal tomorrow night. No names have been said yet. More updates tomorrow, i promise.

If Cullan's amateur hour costs me MY game for me.... then I guess I deserve it, alliance management is kind of my whole thing in these games. I try to make everyone I'm allied with to feel like I want to go to the top with them. I can fix this, I have too. Why the hell would you tell someone that 4 people already want to vote one way? Quit getting ahead of yourself, think of the future but focus on the round at hand. Single digits is a slow burn and every fucking step has to be precise. If I can manage to keep the "alliance" together Cullan just solidified why I want to sit with him in the end, he won't win.

So I’m still recovering from the real life hangover and survivor hangover of losing Kait and having my little alliance blown into smithereens. I still do trust Maynor and Madison moving forward but I definitely feel there’s less room to hide. All I can really do at this moment is kind of get on board with voting Owen, which btw I wanted to do anyway eventually hehe. Not having kait makes me nervous but I definitely feel less tethered and more free to make moves moving forward and I hope one of them involved actually getting cullans ass out smh I’m telling you he’s gonna win.

Odd day, not really sure what to do. I feel like doing Owen is predictable so I am exploring some options today. I am trying to see what is best for me going forward.  I think Owen Madison and Matt all have the jury votes at this point so getting them out may be good. But long term is that what is best for me, I don’t know. 

I feel lost...like I know what both sides are doing but being in the middle has its drawbacks knowing that maynor and i are on the bottom of both sides then which sucks. I think the best move tonight is to get rid of Owen but who knows what implications that will end up having. Will be interesting.

I had a dream I made a rlly funny confessional and then I woke up to find literally nobody has messaged me back except for Devon who is talking about god knows what I’m literally miserable without Kait. I thought that Maynor and Timmy would easily flip back to us and vote with me matt madison to break up the Devon Cullan Ian thing. But Maynor didn’t answer me all day and madison barely is. Timmy said ‘what moves are to be made’ ???? Matt at least came and told me Cullan said it was me and then told me Maynor and madison are in and they’re talking to timmy. Why are they talking to matt but not me??? It’s fucked up And then I yelled st Cullan and asked if he was just gonna let Devon and Ian drag him to the end and beat him and he was like ‘well I’ll vote them if there’s numbers’ lmao. Bitch idek god I’m tired of him asking me what the vote is all the time like GSKSHDB WHY DO U THINK I HAVE ANY CONTROL THIS ROUND I’m Absolutely about to lose my mind. I’m surprised it’s taken this long for me to snap but I legitimately can’t stand omg. Like I don’t even bother messaging chips or Ian lmao I don’t have anything to talk to them about I wish I could’ve won immunity. If I somehow stay tonight I need to figure something out 

I think Owen is gonna get voted out and if that happens I’m done! But let’s pray chips is going bye bye.

I’m absolutely pissed at Madison and Maynor. Why aren’t they fucking talking to me when they’re apparently telling matt they’ll do stuff???? What the fuck!? Matt is telling me Devon will apparently vote chips. Okay....? Like what do you want me to do or say? You have all the information rn because nobody will message me. I asked Matt if he thought we should still vote Ian and then if Devon rlly votes chips it would be 4-4-1 and I can use my tiebreaker. Matt was like ‘who would they vote I don’t want to make it too complicated’ I DONT KNOW WHO THEYD VOTE UR THE ONE TALKING TO THEM. I appreciate him trying to save me but it’s frustrayinf because I have no stability rn when they just ugh’nnn idk. Why hasn’t he made a group or some shit 

The vote tonight is going to be Owen, most likely. But Matt Madison and Owen wants to do Chips. I dont know if thats a good move. Its better to have Owen gone since he is a huge threat in the game. I just feel bad about voting for him again.

Alright, so here's a hot take of what's been going on with me and this game. Last round the goal was to vote out Owen because he's the biggest threat in a group of four that has been conspiring to control the game - the group is Owen, Kait, Madison, and Matt. The way I see the group breaking down is basically, Owen+Madison and Kait+Matt with each duo having a strong link between the four. A group of six formed to counter these four called the "Ridiculous Six" formed by Devon. It is my understanding that Devon was a "pawn" of the four before defecting after they tried to strike at Ian during the duos vote off. Since he felt "used" he defected and wanted to keep the four from keeping control in creating the group.

The four had control of two hangers-on in the form of Timmy and Maynor that they were using for two extra votes. Since they would potentially have the numbers if those two were to vote with them they let loose a "plan" to vote out Devon when in reality telling those two that they would be voting Cullan in case of telegraphing to Devon to play his idol - Cullan actually had an idol and played it and I think it prompted Owen in playing his. To be honest, I think that Owen sent to his tribe chat that he would play his idol IF Cullan had an idol played on him or played one himself. So no votes counted and then we just went with our second choice in Kait to vote out of the game. She left.

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So the round following the vote seems pretty obvious to me, we need to try and vote out Owen. The group is scared to actually follow through on the vote because they think he will play an idol. I mean, if he does it's another idol burned and makes the vote easier. I know that that means we lose somebody but I dunno, if it were me getting voted out because of it I wouldn't be too pressed getting idoled out. Anyway, Cullan kinda let me know that there's a "secret" other plan to vote out Madison instead since she has a good social game, which I haven't seen. And also Matt is telling people to vote me instead to try and force a tie so that Owen can use his ACTUAL power that we know he has... I dunno man, if we end up voting out Madison instead (because they don't vote Owen) then I might be more flexible in what I do because Owen did that. And if I end up going then woohoo! That makes me 3/3 with getting ninth in a season in a row.

Looks like Devon and I are the middle know. Apparently he wants to get rid of Chips cuz of this hero arc?!?!? Interesting so need to know how he is voting. This is somewhat getting messy between Chips and Owen. Im glad I have immunity.

Ok this vote is SAUCY SAUCY SAUCY! The vote started with me wanting to target Madison as she is a social threat and has connections to maynor who would flip to their side (he already has). Chips became concerned that he wasn't being looped in on the vote so we decided to continue the push towards owen. Matt, madison, and maynor all agreed to vote for Owen but in reality they are voting for chips as that's the most viable option than can convince us to do as he is a "goat". He's a good ally so no way in hell am I voting him out. If owen and the gang survive this vote, they have majority and there will be a clear pecking order especially considering the fact he has a tiebreaker advantage. I feel confident in the five we have to vote for owen

i think im leaving this is all just bad devon apparantly wants chips and it wasd too much to try this forcing a tie shit so now we're just goin with chips which hopefully is enough but someone told cullan it was chips???? lmao so thats fun and i tried convincing cullan to do it but idk this whole thing is kinda fucked up soooo bye bye 

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i wouldnt be so sad about this if kait were still here but there are literally so many personality-less people left in this game and if they get to the end ill literally die. madison and matt rlly about to be all i have left ro root for this is absolutely TRAGIC. imagine the first boot coming back into the game and getting dragged to the end as a goat fksadjfhjf GOD im so sad rn :((((((((((((((((((((((((((99 I WANTED TO DO SOMETHIN ICONIC IN THIS GAME BUT ALL I DID WAS FORGET TO TALK TO PEOPLE AND COMPLAIN at least ill prob win hq words