#fantasize about sweet and innocent virgins but never wants to hurt someone like that again

[darlingdesiredelicious]

((There was less astarion/sebastian on ao3 to catch up w than I expected

But I'm so happy really that there's ever anything at all in their tag 😭

Some say that the sweet man astarion couldn't bring home was sebastian and then cazador grabbed him anyway

Tho I'm pretty sure they're different people

Either way it seems like astarion goes for bad boys now because going for good boys was too much pain,,))

[alreadyblondenow]

Second Star to the Right | Na Jaemin

✦ Jaemin x reader ✦ Fluff, Smut, Smut, Smut, Angst, Fairy AU ✦ 1/5 for HOLIDAY SERIES: Once Upon A December

Summary: Jaemin is a mere tooth fairy who’s just doing his job collecting teeth became you’re one and only true friend. You have strict parents so you crave for adventure and so Jaemin offered you one and brought you to Neverland. As you two grew old together, you became closer and soon fall in love with each other. Seasons change and so does your feelings towards Jaemin. Will a tooth fairy and a human will have a happy ending?

Word count: 7,532k

Warnings: Heavy cheating, swearing, skinny dipping, unprotected sex, loss of virginity, fingering, oral sex, nipple play, betrayal, slight swearing, mentions of Jaemin being peeping tom 

A/N: PURE FICTION. Inspired by the fairytale Peter Pan, but not following the main plot. Just the idea of never growing up, fairies and pixie dust. It’s a cute story of saying good bye to your innocence, childhood, and accepting that you’re growing. Nothing heavy don’t worry. 

Neoholiday entry #1 @nct-writers​ | To: @jimjamjaemin​ From: Bear

6 years old

Days have always been laid down for you from the moment you wake up until you close your eyes good night. At a very young age, you’ve grown very tired of this routine and dreamt of being a normal kid like your cousins or the kids that you see at the mall. Given that you’re homeschooled, you don’t know anyone that’s not family or staff in your house.

“Oh, would you look at that,” your nana hold your chin to look at your loose tooth and had a wild guess on when it’s going to come out. “If you keep playing with it with your tongue it will come out faster... and you will meet your tooth fairy soon” she tricks you.

As a very smart kid at a very young age, you know that tooth fairies are just characters from a storybook and probably not real. Maybe the idea of meeting someone new excites you to the core that you don’t care if they’re real or not and all you did is play with your loose tooth while reading a book, while drawing or coloring, while playing the piano, just so you could meet a new friend.

Your tooth came out the next day during breakfast with your parents. Unexpectedly you felt it came out while you were chewing your bread. Without any hesitation, you ran to the kitchen to find your nana and show her your teeth with the biggest smile.

“Where did she learned to be excited like that? Not so proper for a young girl” your mom says to your dad, pouting her lips and looking at him coldly.

While you were looking for your nana, all the staff in your house is busy eating breakfast and greeting you ‘good morning little Ms.’ as you ran past them and give them a sweet smile. “It came out nana, what do I do next?” you tell her the great news and showed her your tooth.

“Tonight, you put it under your pillow and try to catch that fairy! You’re a smart girl, I know you can do it” she smiled proudly at you and told you to go back to your parents.

As you go on with your normal routine, you waited patiently for bedtime and made the preparations for meeting that tooth fairy. Although you’re not sure if someone will really go in your room tonight, you still baked cookies for the fairy and hope to gain a new friend. When bedtime finally came, you secure your tooth under your pillow, fluff your blankets, and checked the baked cookies on your bedside table.

You waited with your eyes closed.

Waited.

Waited.

“Her room is big....” Jaemin murmurs to his friend Renjun. “Oh look, there's cookies” he whispered.

“Yeah yeah. We're here to work, Taeyong will be pissed if we don’t make it back in time- I’ll cover the next kid,”

He leaves his friend with great worries because Jaemin doesn’t know how to follow protocol, and always mess things up. Either way, Jaemin needs to learn how to be a tooth fairy.

Slowly, he opens your window and made his way inside, scanned your room, and looked at a few books. “She must be smart” he murmurs again. He scanned and feed his curiosity until he wants to while eating the baked cookies that you made.

“You’re a boy?”

The fact that fairies are true did not shock you at all but knowing that the tooth fairy is a boy was indeed a shocker to you.

“Well yeah... aren’t you supposed to be sleeping? I can’t give you a coin if you’re awake” Jaemin reasons out with a cute smile. “You baked these?”

he continues to eat the cookie in his hand.

“Yes. Did you like it?”

“Absolutely. Thank you”

You bit your lip out of disappointment as he came closer to you and stopped his curiosity when he sees your pout. Why? His curiosity switched to you and he wanted to know why you look sad, “I mean it. It’s delicious” he sat at the edge of your bed, near you but not close enough.

“I thought you’re a girl, I wanted a friend” you frown.

“Well, I can’t be a girl, but I can still be your friend- if you want” he smiles awkwardly at you.

Without hesitation, you turned your frown upside down and reached for your tooth under your pillow, and hand it to your new friend. “Wow. Did it hurt?” he asked.

“Nope. Didn’t hurt a little, it went off when I was chewing bread this morning. I was so happy” you giggle and smiled at him, you noticed he has a nice smile and his pearly whites.... are perfect. Just like how a tooth fairy is supposed to be. As you two exchange more stories and feed each other’s curiosity, Jaemin forgot that he’s supposed to meet Renjun at the gates of Neverland and go back together.

“Oh my, I need to get going-“

You see his body glow in an instant, as he ready himself to fly. A pixie dust he says, and it can make him fly if he believes in it. “I guess this is goodbye then?” you said as you come near your window and watch him float.

“Oh no no. We’re friends now right? And I’m your tooth fairy so we’ll meet again soon. Just believe in me”

“Where are you from? Can I visit you?”

He shook his head and pointed at a star in the sky. “Neverland. Second star to the right” he explains excitedly. Without any other word or goodbyes, he jumped from your window and flew away. You felt the wind gush on your face as you watch him fly, happy that everything happened according to plan, even happier that it’s never goodbye with Jaemin.

You now have a proper friend.

13 years old

Years have passed now and Jaemin’s job as your assigned tooth fairy is long gone. Although it was a test of patience because he can only visit you whenever you have a loose tooth, he taught you how to trust the next moments that are bound to happen, meaning “there’s always a time for everything. And besides, it’s never goodbye between us it’s always ‘see you later’ right?” he says. After being your tooth fairy, now, he’s just your friend and he can visit you every night after he collects teeth from different children, sacrificing your sleep just so you can meet Jaemin every night.

“How’s school? Are they nice to you?”

You and Jaemin lay on your carpeted floor while looking at the stars through your window. It’s your first day in school today and only Jaemin knew how nervous you were because you’ve been homeschooled all your life.

“They’re nice. But they’re not you” you answered truthfully.

“But you have to try because I’m not always with you. It’s hard to be alone in a place where you’re not used to”

“Look at you, you always take care of me” you turned your head to him and smiled sweetly, “I’ll try” you added.

“Just make sure you’ll never forget about me… or else I’ll fade” there's a slight hint of sadness in his tone when he told you that. Like he’s scared of losing you even though he has many friends already.

He told you a long time ago that he exists because you believe that he does, and if you forget about him he will fade.

As you gave your schoolmates a chance and befriend them, eating out and going out on weekends, you realized that if you have too much fun with them, eventually, whether you like it or not, you will forget about Jaemin. And you never want that to happen. Jaemin has done so much for you, and he doesn’t deserve to be forgotten. With that, you decided to make him your priority without being a loner at school.

“So after we went to the movies, we went to this park and walked hand in hand it was so romantic…” you’re FaceTiming with your friend while you wait for Jaemin, giggling like a little girl from your friend’s stories and secretly wishing to experience a good date someday. Holding hands while walking in the park, going to movies, kissing. Sounds…. normal, and you want every taste of it.

While you were fantasizing about holding someone’s hand, you see Jaemin floating outside your window smiling like he hasn’t seen you for weeks. “Hey-Uhm… I have to go, my mom is calling me and I should go. See you tomorrow-“ you finished the call without letting your friend say her goodbye and went to your window and welcome Jaemin.

“I saw you smiling, what’s that all about?” he says, giving you a small seashell from one of the islands from Neverland. He has a habit of bringing something small for you every time he visits as if he’s sharing a part of his world with you.

“Oh that. I’m just listening to my friend about her first date with her crush- Date, uhm it’s uh… humans do that to know each more, they go out and eat somewhere”

“I’m guessing you want to do it?” he knows you well. You smile shyly as you place the seashell on your shelf. You didn’t answer him yes, because you know he’ll figure it out himself. “Let’s go on a date then” he blurted out. Just like that.

“How are we going to do that when you’re not allowed to visit me when the sun is up?” you crossed your arms and squint at him. Amused with how much he’s willing to risk just so he can give you everything.

“Pixie dust. Neverland. Come on, it will be fun trust me”

His idea of a date was beyond something you could imagine. You never thought of someday going to Neverland but if he told you to trust him, then you will trust him with all your heart. He grabs his pixie dust bag from behind him and sprinkled some of it at the top of your head. Is this really happening? Is he really going to take you on a date to Neverland just so you could know how it feels like going on a date? The wind gushes on your face as you stand near your window, nervous because “Jaem, I don’t know how to do this” you weren’t scared, of course, you trust the pixie dust but you just don’t know how to fly.

“Right… right I’m sorry. Here grab my hand”

His offer made you feel shy for the first time. So it’s really a date then because you’re going to hold hands… Without wasting any more time, you grab his hand and grip it nicely, savoring the feeling of holding his soft hand for the first time. Little did you know that Jaemin is enjoying this. The way you hold his hand gives him a nice nervous feeling, butterflies in his tummy, and blushing like crazy.

Flying is an indescribable feeling, you thought. Walking on air and flying towards a star, it’s like you're having a dream when he told you to close your eyes, and the next thing you know you’re in Neverland.

“Time is different here. In your world it’s night time, here it’s day time- There’s Mark! I want you to meet my friends”

Your date started with Jaemin introducing you to some of the tooth fairies, you know everyone by name because Jaemin tells you stories about them for the past years. It’s like you are friends with them too by this point. From there on, you two enjoyed Neverland for the first time together. The date was nothing like how your friend described it. No holding hands while walking at the park, but he was holding your hand tightly while you fly to Neverland. No movies, but he brought you to a garden full of closed flowers and watch it bloom together. No kissing to end a perfect night, but he gave you a very handsome smile that made your heart race like it was your first time seeing Jaemin smile like that. The night was special, more than special actually.

When he brought you back safely to your room, you feel like something changed between you and Jaemin after having that date. He felt it too, but he’s shy to mention it.

“I’m glad you’re my first date,” you told him.

“I’m glad too” he puts a flower on your hair, something he’s been carrying all this time while you were flying. “See you tomorrow then?”

“Can’t wait, as always” He smiled shyly at you and fly away like he always does.    

That night, you slept with a smile on your face and dreamt about being with Jaemin again in Neverland. On the next day, you kept thinking about him and not just about your date with him. You kept thinking about his smile, his deep voice, and all the sweet things he said to you.

Everything changed after that date but no one is brave enough to admit it. The things you do together for years like laying in your bed and waiting for you to sleep while talking nonstop now make your body warm and it makes you shy. Whenever he tells you you’re pretty, you wanted him to say it over and over again. Until you two had enough of lying and admitted that you’re in love with each other. The problem is… you’re both too young. The way he told you how he feels for you we're sweet and honest, he intertwines his fingers with yours and hugs you tightly in your bed.

“Let’s wait a little longer,” he says. “we're too young and I don’t want to ruin us, I’m scared of losing you always” Again, him and his patience. Nonetheless, you understand what he’s saying and it’s true. There's no need to rush and it’s better to wait than regret bad decisions after.  

Days become months and months became years, you and Jaemin took your time before finally being adults. Soon, forehead kisses turned into soft kisses on the lips, hungry ones, or lustful ones. ’Goodnights’ were added with sweet ‘i love yous’ and ’stay a little longer.’ Dates in Neverland happens once a week, just being together and forgetting everything else. The idea of sex crosses your mind already but never actually doing it. It’s good that you’re growing together and learning different kinds of things. It makes you feel untouchable like it’s almost impossible that you two will someday break up. So impossible.

19 years old

Every day with Jaemin is nothing but adventure and new things, but ever since you two started seeing each other and acknowledging your feelings, days have been always sweeter than yesterday. Holding hands while flying, cuddling in your bed before you go to sleep, a lot of stolen and surprise kisses. These things are all new to you and Jaemin, but just like normal teenagers you just let love do its job and enjoy the wonderful feeling of being in love.

It was hot in Neverland today but Jaemin told you he had found another secret place that can make you stop sweating and he’s so proud of it. He brought you to a cave somewhere deep inside the forest but inside that cave, is an underground lake that has cool and very clear water.

“How did you find this? It’s beautiful” you exclaim as you look around the place. 

“I just did and it’s my way of making you smile“ he never fails to amaze you. “come on, let’s swim” he was quick to remove his clothes like it was a normal thing for him, he completely forgot that your relationship is not yet on the stage where you’re confident with seeing each other’s naked body.

“Uhm-Jaem,” you tried to avoid looking at his nice body and butt, biting your lip as he stretches his muscles confidently while his back faces you. He had grown confidently lately and not to mention so handsome and manly.

“What? Don’t be shy. But if you’re not comfortable, you can swim wearing your underwear. I don’t mind” he says, not facing you yet. It’s not fair you thought, he trusts you to see his whole being and so should you. You gulped and told him not to turn around until you’re fully naked and upon hearing that, Jaemin became suddenly nervous and blushing but you can’t see it.

“Are you naked now?” he asks, scratching the back of his head as he waits for you to give him permission to see you.

“Y-yeah” you answered. You told yourself that whatever happens, you will not look at his cock but as he turns slowly, you don’t know why your eyes can’t stop looking at it. You felt your cheeks warm and suddenly you became shy and you wanted to cover yourself. But he saw right through you, smiled, and hold your hand before jumping into the water together.

The cool water feels great against your skin as you and Jaemin enjoy the hot afternoon and turn it into a nice new experience for the two of you. Swimming deep into the water, racing against each other, picking up shells, the fun made you both forget that you’re naked and helped you with you’re shyness.

“So did you have fun?”  

You were laying on the grass with closed eyes, as you enjoy the warm sunlight peeking from above the cave and at the same time drying your skin before you wear your clothes again. Jaemin is beside you with his shoulder propped and is unbelievably close to you, secretly admiring your naked body and how beautiful you are under the warm sunlight.

“I did. Thank you” you turned your head to face and opened your eyes, “Jaem, what did you feel when you saw me naked for the first time earlier?” you reach for his face and cup it with one hand.

“Shy, at the same time excited because we get to do this but most importantly, I felt lust and my mind was so quick to think about dirty things I want to do- I’m sorry” he was quick to apologize and kissed your hand lovingly.

“No, it’s fine. I felt it too”

Jaemin was taken aback and felt the lust again but this time even stronger that he felt his cock hardens and poke the side of your thigh. “So” he was shy to ask you something but somehow the lust he’s been feeling is giving him the push, “can I try something? If that's okay with you? Baby?”

You only nod, but the way his voice deepens when he asked you made you nervous and excited. Just like Jaemin, you felt the lust he talked about. He came closer, closer, and closer, and until he reaches your exposed shoulder and planted a soft kiss there. But it didn’t end there. He kissed you on the same spot again, but this time he kissed you all the way down until his lips reached your boob and his hot breath is making your nipples sensitive.

His tongue made contact on your nipples first, then you felt his lips, and the next thing you know he’s sucking your right boob. It feels so good that you roll your head back and close your eyes again while letting out soft moans. Soon your hand rests at the back of Jaemin’s head, combing your fingers on his soft locks, and tugging whenever he playfully bites your nipple to make you giggle.

And right then and there your innocence was stained and it was the start of a different exploration and curiosity with Jaemin.

“How?” You were still surprised about what he just did but you love it and at the same time curious.

“Me and the other fairies peek whenever Mark and his girlfriend do it in the woods. Then we’ll tease him after”

“Pervert” you tease him.

“Want to do more?” he offers. You see the lust in his eyes as you look at him. You nod, of course, you want more.

He attacked you with hungry kisses and kneeled in between your legs without hesitation, putting his fingers to work and started touching you on your pussy. Once again you were taken aback by his confident move but instead of getting shy you accepted it and spread your legs wider so he can gain more access to your pussy. Jaemin noticed that his fingers were gliding smoothly on your slit because you were wet and he caused it, he also knew that you’re loving what he’s doing because your moans sound great, you’re rolling your hips, and you’re parting your lips. Which makes him want to dive into lust even more.

“Do you want to do it?” he whispers beside your ear while his fingers still drawing slow circles and gliding up and down your wet slit.

“Sex?” You asked back.

“Yeah” Jaemin started kissing your neck while he waits for your answer.

“If you promise you won’t hurt me”

He’s not stupid. He knew you weren’t talking about the sex. He knew you were talking about what you deserve. Jaemin stopped what he’s doing and kissed your lips sincerely, “I promise. I will never hurt you” he says and kissed you again deeply. It was a sweet promise, you thought and, hearing it made you fall in love with him even more.

Before he proceeds to the sex, he grabs your hand, kissed your knuckles, and made you touch his perfect body slowly, all the way down until you reach his cock. You touched it confidently without leaving his eyes, and you witnessed your boyfriend breathe heavily as you help him pump his cock.

“That’s going inside of you, baby. Ready?”

“Yes”

You feel him line his cock on your very wet entrance, kept his eyes on you as he pushes inside you oh so slowly. You were both virgins and neither of you knew if you’re doing it correctly, but it feels so fucking good that you’re heavily breathing as Jaemin continues to push in. Even tho he wanted to just force his way inside you, he can't because he knew you’re feeling the stretch because you’re so tight. You hiss but you smile, and when he asks you if you’re okay you told him that, “it hurts but I don’t want you to stop”

He chuckled low and said, “okay. But if I do this-“ he rolled his hips without a warning and it made you both moan a little too loud. “You felt that?” he asked, completely mind blown with what a single thrust can do to the both of you.

“Do it again”

And so he did. Again and again and again, until you’re scratching his back and he’s groaning beside your ear deliciously. Telling you how good it feels, praising you with every second that he can, pushing in deeply as he can because you request it.

“I can’t cum that’s dangerous,” he says and he sounded like he’s in pain.

“Shit- right, okay”

Without hesitation and before he loses his mind and makes you pregnant, he pulled out and lay beside you. Stopping himself with all the strength he has left. It was very frustrating for both of you not having the full experience.

“I'm sorry,” he says, heavily breathing beside you still handsome and very inviting.

“You did nothing wrong baby, what are talking about“

“For not making you cum, beautiful. I’ll get your clothes”

You watch him stand up from the warm ground with a hard cock and blushing cheeks. You didn’t cum but still, you felt so weak, and the sting from your pussy is still there. Nonetheless, Jaemin looked so handsome while fucking you, not to mention he sounds sexy. “Here” he helped you get up and handed you your clothes.

Just like that, you made another unforgettable memory with Jaemin that you wouldn’t trade for anything. He sprinkled some pixie dust on your head and flew you back to your room safe and sound.

“I meant what I said earlier. Don’t forget it okay? Just trust me like how you trust my pixie dust to carry you home. I love you” he kissed you on your forehead, smiled so handsomely “see you tomorrow” and left another great promise of seeing each other again.

The next day, while you were eating lunch with your friends they were telling stories about their weekends with their boyfriends. You wanted to tell them so bad that you had a great weekend with Jaemin too, but you’re afraid they will ask you too many questions. Questions that you can’t answer truthfully because you’re afraid they will see you as a crazy person that believes in fairies.

As you listen to them, you can’t help but envy them. You want to share stories with them too, tell all your experiences and such…. like a normal person. “I heard Lee Jeno has a crush on you” your friend whispers beside your ear, completely bringing you back to reality and taking your mind off of Jaemin.

“Lee Jeno who?” you answered and to them, you sound dumb.

“Lee Jeno. The most handsome guy in school? Sharp jawline, small eyes, sexy figure?”

As she describes that Lee Jeno guy you can’t help but to think about Jaemin because for you he’s still the most handsome guy in your eyes. “Well, I’m not interested. Thanks for liking me I guess” they scoffed and teased you further, telling you that they will introduce you to Jeno soon so you will understand how handsome he is.

“Try me. I will still not be interested in him” you cross your arms as you challenge your friends, “in fact, what’s so special about this Lee Jeno guy? Is he nice? Does he know how to treat a girl right? How to touch a girl?” you were describing Jaemin to them, but they were clueless of course. They were quiet and smirking and you wonder why. Little did you know that someone is listening from behind.

He sat on the vacant chair beside you and smiled at you, “Lee Jeno” he offered his hand for you to shake, and of course, being the nice girl that you are, you introduced yourself back.

After that day Lee Jeno kept on talking to you at school, asking you out but you never said yes. But because of his consistency and perseverance, you finally said yes to him just so he could stop bugging you. And right then there, you know that Jaemin will not like this. It’s been weeks since you last saw each other and being a senior tooth fairy gave him a lot of responsibilities that kept you from seeing each other every night just like you used to. But even though he’s busy, sometimes, if he can, he always finds his way to your house before he comes home after working with Renjun.

“Hey” you were in deep concentration with writing your paper when he kissed you on your cheeks. Surprised that he’s finally here, your arms swing around his neck automatically, and kissed him back on the lips, letting how the way you kiss him tell him how much you miss him. “I miss you too-Sorry for not being here always. Taeyong is giving us a hard time, there are a few kids in your neighborhood and the new fairies weren’t ready yet”

“Right… kids” you sounded bothered, you wanted to tell him about your date with Jeno but you just miss him so much that all you did is tell him how much you’re proud of him for being a good tooth fairy.

“I brought you these” he hands you a few flowers from Neverland so you could put them in between your books, “so you could think of me while you study too,” he was just about to kiss you again when Rejun appeared on your window with Mark to get him and keep them on schedule.

“Sorry” he says before kissing you one too many times on the lips, your face, and your hands. “I love you. I have to go, see you soon okay?”

“I understand, go. Fly safe.” And that’s all you needed from him. You’re so in love with Jaemin that you understand everything he does in his life and never get mad at him even though sometimes he never gets to see you. “patience” you murmur to yourself and went back to writing your paper.

Today is your date with Jeno and you wanted to ditch him so bad that you arrived late and let him freeze outside the cinemas. But even though you missed almost half of the movie, he still smiled so sweetly at you that his eyes almost disappear. “I’m happy you still came. It’s so wrong of me to think that you’re going to ditch me last minute. I’m sorry”

“I’m sorry that I’m late” you’re not, but you tell him anyway.

“It’s normal. People can arrive late during dates, I’m just glad you came”

The word ‘normal’ lingers in your mind as you two entered the cinemas. The movie is nice, it made you cry and Jeno dried your tears while patting your head and providing comfort. He brought you to a place where you two can eat something good and heavy after eating popcorn. On top of that, he seems sweet and careful, he listens to you and he cares about what you think all the time. After the date, he brought you home safely and asked if he could kiss you.

“N-no…” you stepped away from him.

“It’s fine. I’m sorry. I can wait” he smiles awkwardly, hands inside the pocket of his jacket, “Did you had a great time?”

“Yes I did” and that’s the truth, you told him with a smile.

The night ended with you waiting for Jaemin in your room, but your mind kept playing every moment you had with Jeno. He’s more than just sharp jawlines and sexy figure, he’s a gentleman. Like Jaemin. And this is bad because it’s not hard to have a crush on him.

“you didn’t see me came in-“

“Shit!” Jaemin completely startled you when you saw him lying comfortably in your bed. He doesn’t look like he’s in a hurry, and that makes you happy.

“You were out late, you’re not yet in your sleepwear” he kisses your forehead as you cuddle close, oh you miss him.

“I did something normal today” and that’s all you could share about what happened today. He didn’t need to know what happened between you and Jeno.

“That’s great- listen, I will be away for a few weeks training the new fairies-“

“What- Away again?” you whine and pout at him, “But I miss you already. I never get to see you or spend time with you”

“I know. I’m sorry, but after this, I promise I will stick to like a shadow. I missed you too, I’ll try my best to speed things up. In the meantime, do more normal things like what you did today and leave the extraordinary things to me. Come on, smile for me”

Little did he know you cheated on him today. You forced a smile and kissed him hungrily until you ended on top of him. You removed your shirt and from there everything happened so fast. The next thing you know his lips are on your nipples with your bra cups pulled down and you’re moaning quietly. “I have condoms here” you whispered to Jaemin with a very sexy voice. Or at least you tried.

“Inviting. But I can’t stay for long. I’m sorry I kept disappointing you” And just like that your mood died and you grabbed your blanket to cover yourself. “Mark is outside. I’m sorry” he kissed you one last time before he tucks you to bed and you watch him fly away.

"Do tell!!!"

Because your friends don’t know the meaning of privacy, they kept asking you about your date with Jeno. ‘Did you guys have sex?’ ‘Did he used his tongue?’ ‘Second date?’ all these questions were hilarious because none of it happened, but to make them shut up you told them everything. It’s your first time sharing something that happened during the weekend it makes you feel… normal. Jeno made you feel normal.

You then realized that being with Jaemin isn’t normal, because he’s a fairy.

Days without Jaemin made you became friendly with Jeno. Eating together at lunch, reading at the library and doing study dates, soon the most awaited second date happened and this time it’s sweeter than the first, he brought you to your first college party where you really enjoyed yourself dancing and drinking with him. It’s not that you forgot about Jaemin already, you think of him every day and every night but when Jeno is around everything changes. It’s like your mind forgets about the pixie dust, the shells on your shelf from Neverland, how beautiful and magical Neverland is, but when you’re back home and alone in your room, all you think about is Jaemin. And you hate that you miss him, you hate that you can’t see or feel him.

Jeno never made you feel alone.

You are at a party right now, finishing something in your cup when you feel someone hug you from behind and bringing you back to reality. At some point, you thought it was Jaemin because he’s the only guy ever to startle you like that. But it’s Jeno’s arms that caged you this time, “You okay? If you want to go home I can drive you home”

“Yes. Let’s go home” you feel his hot breath brush on your nape and you’re not gonna lie. It made you want him.

“And?” he asks with a very sexy tone like he's trying to tell you something but shy to say it.

“And my parents are not home” you turned around to kiss him.

“That’s my girl” he said excitedly and walk you towards his car.

While you were kissing Jeno inside your room, and removing each other’s clothes until you hit your bed, you were thinking about Jaemin but Jeno is another level of hotness that he can make you forget something. Or maybe that’s because you’ve completely fallen in love with him. It was dark, and all you can see is the silhouette of your body grinding together. You were both in the mood to really get on with it and did not even bother turning your lampshade which made you both giggle, “bummer, I wanted to see you” he whispers and bit the shell of your ear.

Your hands roam around Jeno’s body and even without a light you can see, or feel how hot he is. His hard rock abs were brushing on your tummy while he grinds his body, he reaches both of your hands and put it on top of your head. Experienced, he is very much experienced than you are.

It was an eventful night indeed, and you had a lot of first time with Jeno in just one night. First time fucking from behind, first time giving a blow job, but most importantly, it was your first time having an orgasm using his cock. It took some time, yes, but he was incredibly good in bed.

You stayed under the covers and dozed off together, hands intertwined and bodies together.

Unfortunately, Jaemin heard everything. Because he was hiding inside your closet, with a flower in his hand, ready to surprise you after a very long time of not seeing each other. Normally when he peeks at Mark and his girlfriend having sex he usually gets hard, but now… he felt really heartbroken. Hearing the love of his life moaning because of another man, made him regret that he took being a tooth fairy very seriously. As he sneaks out quietly and effortlessly, he came close to you, kissed you on your forehead, and covered your exposed skin so you won't get cold.

“I’m sorry” he whispers and left with the flower.

Jaemin hid the truth and pretend that he knew nothing about Jeno because he loves you so much that he can’t let you go and face his reality. Meaning, you finally found a human that will love you and will make you feel like a normal person. It’s the ugly truth that he’s not yet ready to admit.

Over the days that he’s been present, he tried so hard on winning you back and making you fall in love with him over again. Even though he’s trying, he can’t help but feel so hopeless whenever he leaves you after a sweet visit so he decided to finally count his days with you, and finally, let you go when he’s ready.

Five months later

“You’ve been really sweet lately. Why?”

It’s a weekend in your world and Jaemin ditched his tooth fairy duties just so he can bring you to a quiet island and watch the stars with you. He hugged you tightly before he tells you half of the truth, “I just want to make you fall in love with me. Again”

“What are you talking about, as far as I know, I’m very much in love with you” truth, but you’re in love with Jeno too, just not that deep like how you love Jaemin.

“You and your sweetness, I love you” he sounds sincere. Very sincere actually, that it bothers you.

“I-I love you too. You’re not telling me something aren’t you?” you were slightly nervous as you sat up from between his legs and face him.

“Mhhm. Caught me red-handed. I have a surprise, turn around” you returned to your previous position and waited for him. After a few seconds, he puts a necklace around your neck and you felt something cold on your skin. A pendant that looks like a tooth, but it’s a pearl, “it looked like a tooth, don’t you think it’s amazing?” it was a parting gift because he was planning to finally give you up and let you be with Jeno.

You were speechless once again, “you’re amazing”

Sometimes listening to your sweet words hurt him. Because he knew you tell it to Jeno too. And he’s not the only man you love, at least not anymore. “Let’s get you home now” to be honest you wanted to stay for a while but he was so eager to bring you home already so you let him.

The fly back home was cold and quiet, something you have never experienced before. There’s something wrong and he’s not telling you. You waited for him to enter your room but he didn’t, and it was the first time he’s not tucking you in bed after a date, he just floats outside your window.

“Goodbye. Sleep well okay”

“Goodbye?” you scoffed, “Jaemin you never said goodbye, it’s always 'see you tomorrow'” by this time you’re mad at him because he’s not telling the truth. And to be honest he didn’t think you were going to notice that which breaks his heart even more because that means you still care about him.

“No- no, don’t be angry-“ he tried to hug you but you pushed him away and you’re not stupid to not realize that he’s breaking up with you tonight. “I-I know about Jeno. But I’m not mad, don’t get me wrong. He’s a great man, I’m happy you found someone, normal” he finally said the truth without breaking into tears and faced it like a man. “We can't be like this forever, someday you will get a job, marry someone, be a mom, grow old. So come on, let’s not part like this”

He was asking for a hug. One last hug, but you asked him to stay. You didn’t feel tears but somehow you’re crying nonstop and sobbing in front of him already, “I will break up with Jeno. Please- Jaemin I’m sorry for hurting you”

“Ssshh. You didn’t do anything wrong. I made up my mind, please don’t make this harder than it is already. Tonight is finally goodbye. Let’s part without regrets, we tried”

You still think that Jaemin is a different kind of special that’s why you can’t let go, and by this time you’re both crying and you were holding him so close that he had to make you let go of him so he could fly away from your window, one last time. Letting Jaemin go is like letting go of something you kept since you’re a little girl, something you’ve own then you lost it unexpectedly.

You didn’t want to say goodbye, but it happened anyway. You weren’t prepared. You never saw this coming.  

27 years old

“Mommy look! My tooth is out!” she showed you a big smile and you kissed your daughter on the forehead.

“Okay- okay, calm down. Daddy will get you ice cream after dinner, keep your tooth safe, please. So you won't disappoint the tooth fairy” she’s excited about the tooth fairy thing too, just like you when you were her age.

Happily married to Jeno and mother of a very curious 6 year old, you managed to move on and live your life without Jaemin and keeping him a secret forever. The heartbreak was an experience that you will never forget but thankfully, Jeno never gave up on you. Jaemin was right, he’s a great man.

When it’s finally bedtime for your daughter, you and Jeno tucked her to bed and made sure that her tooth is under her pillow before she sleeps. “tooth fairies aren’t real right?” he whispered to you after closing the door.

“For me they’re true. Come on, don’t ruin this for her” you playfully smacked your husband and went to your shared bedroom together.

It was really late when you heard something from your daughter’s room and you decided to look into it. Slowly you opened her door, but you see nothing and her window is closed. You checked the guest room quietly and groggily but you woke up when you see someone familiar standing near the window. “Jaemin?” you closed your eyes and opened them again until he turns around and flashes you that beautiful smile.

“Well you look old” is his first few words again to you after not seeing each other for many years.

“And you never aged” it’s like it was only yesterday when he broke up with you, he didn’t change. He’s still young and handsome.

“Fairy. I age but you know, -how are you?” he quickly changed the subject and walked towards you.

“Are you my daughter’s tooth fairy?” he let out a small laugh and held you close, trying so hard to stop himself from telling you how much he missed you and it was hard for him during the years without you.

“Sungchan” he whispered.

“That small fairy?”

“Mhhm. He’s big and tall now, so I’m doing his work for now because he made a sound earlier” that explains the thud you thought.

“I have to go now. You’re happy right?” you nod at him and tears started flowing from your eyes. You felt him let go for the second time but this time your heart is not breaking, or maybe it never actually healed that’s why you can’t feel anything now.

“Can I kiss you” you caught his hand before he flies away and hopes he gives you this one last request.

“No” he rejects you in the nicest way he can and fly away without saying another word. Jaemin respects Jeno and your daughter, even though he wanted to kiss you too he can’t. He can’t be selfish but he’s happy that you still believe in him, and passed the magic to your daughter.

That night, you felt that it is indeed goodbye from now and that is the last time that you will see Jaemin ever again.

The End.  

For Mona,

My first moot before I became close to everyone else. Thank you for accepting me as your partner. I remember we were so happy after we gave Kei our Neoholiday event and then followed by neo’clock which is very successful and we were so happy.

I don’t know but after we finished planning neoclock, I felt like I gained a new friend. And that’s my inspiration when the reader/ you met Jaemin for the first time. The first part was inspired by our first conversation actually, not really based on the messages that we exchanged but if you noticed I didn’t put anything romance related in the 6 years old part. I remember we were exchanging pieces of information about a few movies, princess Mia and I asked where you from.

So that is that WAHAHAHA sorry for ruining the surprise, but I lessen the smut I was overthinking you might get uncomfortable huhuhuhu…. Happy Neoholiday!  

[biznichwrites]

Biiiiz, may I please have a NSFW scene where Sabito dares Giyuu to have sex with his (Sabito’s) female s/o, and he gives in while watching them go at it— so it results in a dp? 🤤 Thank you!!! 💜✨✨✨ 

ANYTHING FOR MY LORD AND SAVIOR JEN.

@dudeandduchess I hope you like this. 

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"What-- you want me to….?" Giyuu's tongue caught in his throat, the man choking on his own words as the other water pillar seemed to laugh as if he hadn't given the shorter man a heart attack. 

"I bet you can't fuck her. And I'm right, aren't I?" The knowing grin on his lips was a sign of his calculating nature - he was steps ahead of everyone when it came to sexually deviant plans, especially when Giyuu was involved. "It's a shame, she did wonder what it'd be like with you. She said you'd be soft and gentle, but I think she's just wishful since I'm rough on her."

"You- she thinks- you're rough? Why would you hurt her?" Giyuu tried to gloss over the part where the peach haired man admitted his girlfriend fantasized about him, apparently openly enough to admit it to her boyfriend. 

"That's what she likes, at least it's what she likes when I have her on her hands and knees." He didn't miss the way Giyuu's cheeks tinted pink lightly as he looked away. "If you heard the way she moans, then you'd know I was pleasing her more than anything."

Giyuu's eyes flickered between the other pillar and the ground a few times as he tried to imagine her moans before shaking his head. Maybe, just maybe, it wouldn't hurt to indulge himself this one time. It was Sabito's girlfriend, it'd be awkward the next time he saw her, but it was someone he trusted - someone he had a crush on, if he were being fully honest. So how could he pass an opportunity like this? 

"Fine. I'll do it." Even if Giyuu was facing the ground he could feel the way Sabito's lips curled into a cunning smile. 

"Perfect."

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Blue eyes flickered in the room, from one face of the couple to the other as they lounged against the table as if Sabito hadn't orchestrated adultery for his own amusement. A few drinks of sake were shared, enough to calm his nerves before he made himself nauseous with anxiety. Giyuu couldn't wipe the blush off his face as he stared at (y/n), openly taking in her features even if he would deny he was doing so later. 

"She's pretty, isn't she?" Sabito's voice broke through Giyuu's gawking, causing his eyes to widen at him as he gripped the cloth along his leg in embarrassment. The other pillar already knew he was embarrassed, he didn't need additional reminders. Still, he wasn't wrong. She was beautiful - with eyes he wanted to look into at all times, a cute smile on well framed lips, perfect curve of her nose - he couldn't deny it. 

"Yes… very pretty." Giyuu didn't miss the way she preened at their attention, the way her lips curved upward and cheeks tinted pink. It was far too adorable, too innocent for the thoughts he knew she had of him. But that's what made this alluring - he could see a different part of her, a side he hadn't been allowed to see before. 

"Thank you, Giyuu." He swore her eyes glittered at his praise and he wondered how much he could make her react if she was so responsive at something as simple as a compliment. A pat on the shoulder from Sabito with a nod was given to her, as if he had given his permission. Slowly she moved closer, crawling around the table to sit by Giyuu's side. 

Tension rose as he expected something intense, lewd in nature. In a rather pleasant surprise she settled next to him, her thigh pressed against his with a head on his shoulder as her hand pulled his fingers away from their grip on his yukata. Tenderly her hands closed around his, their fingers weaving together as if it were natural. His face flushed deeply as he felt his heart skip a beat. 

"I know you're nervous. We can go slow." Her words were sealed with a soft kiss to his cheek that left his face hot. The affection for her that he begged to lay dormant within him crept to the surface and he dared not waste such a moment. With a nod he timidly returned the kiss to her temple, his hand trembling lightly in her hold as a mixture of anxiety and excitement grew within him. 

"You two look more like lovers than a couple of people getting ready to fuck." As much as Giyuu loved Sabito, he had a way of ruining  things for him. "What are you, a virgin?" 

"Sabito! Be nice to him. Just because he wants to go slower doesn't mean you need to speed things up. Besides, he's being sweet and I like it. Maybe you could learn a thing or two." Her rush to Giyuu's defense made him smile timidly. While it was a bit awkward to be in the middle of a bickering couple, it was more than heartwarming to know the woman he held affection for was quick to take his side and understand him. 

"You're the one that said you wanted to fuck him." Sabito rolled his eyes as he took a sip of sake, waving his hand at the pair before turning to face the engawa. 

"Things take time, Sabito. Don't pressure him. We have plenty of time, no need to rush." Her attention turned back to Giyuu, another kiss pressed to his cheek as his gaze settled on her. "Don't mind him, we can go at your pace." 

He felt his heart swelling and found it hard to not place a hand over his chest. His fingers enclosed around her hand and gave her palm a gentle squeeze. 

"You're cute, you know that? In a sweet way, it's nice." Again she placed a kiss to his cheek, narrowly missing the corner of his mouth. The way she encouraged him with affection and praise motivated him more than Sabito's provoking criticisms. With his free hand he brushed a piece of hair from her face, not missing how her cheeks flooded with color and plumped due to her smile. 

"You're really… Beautiful." It embarrassed him to say it out loud, but he didn't regret saying it - especially when happy hums, almost like cooing, echoed from her. His eyes trailed down to her lips, thoughts of kissing her filled his mind. That wasn't so bad, right? Especially compared to what Sabito had in mind. 

"You're handsome, especially your eyes." Her nose brushed against his as she tilted her upper body to face him more. Her lips pressed to his, giving into his wishes. It was good, too good - she was too good. Her lips were so soft yet they fit against his own perfectly. 

The kiss was chaste, simple to not overwhelm him. Yet he found himself growing excited at how gentle she was, how much care she treated him with. His saving grace being that he didn't arouse easily, or he would have been embarrassed at Sabito finding out that just a kiss and hand holding with a few affectionate words got him hard. 

She recognized he was embarrassed from the way his cheeks flushed, particularly the top of his cheeks hidden behind his hair burned red. The blush was far too adorable to be on a man that had killed hundreds of demons on his blade. And yet here he was, blushing heavily just for her. Maybe he was as inexperienced as Sabito said, but she always took Sabito's grandeur at face value. 

"Have you ever had sex with anyone before?" She wanted to at least have some bearing at his experience level before they started. If not to avoid overwhelming him, then at least to gage her expectations for his abilities. 

Giyuu's eyes flickered to Sabito's back, wondering if he had ever mentioned some of their exploration when they were younger. Was it sex? No, not truly, but it was sexual in nature. Light touches and watching each other to see what felt good. Things never escalated past that, especially when they became full fledged slayers that were busy on missions. 

He shook his head, a bit of unease washing over him. How could he compare to Sabito? She had to know they were on completely different levels. From how Sabito spoke of their escapades he had mastered her body. Giyuu had barely even seen a woman naked before. 

"Do you want me to take the lead for now?" One of her hands left their hold on his to cup his cheek. Unconsciously he leaned into the warmth of her touch and nodded. 

"Just tell me what you like." Even if he was unsure of himself, he'd do anything she asked for. 

"Well… I'd like for you to cuddle fuck me, but we can work up to that." Her casual laugh and smile really didn't match the words she spoke, at least not to him. He turned his face into her palm, as if hiding from her blunt answer. 

Taking her hand in his, he distracted himself by placing a few soft kisses from her palm to her finger tips. Happy hums entered his ears, clearly a noise of contentment from her. 

"Can I have a kiss? Please?" He had no idea why she would ask in such a way, but it did give him a small surge of pride - that she wanted his permission for just a kiss, that he had a tiny bit of power in the situation for once. Maybe this is the rush Sabito felt being the dominant force between the couple. 

His lips connected to hers without a second thought. Absently he was aware her hands had busied themselves along his neck, but he could care less when he could feel her warmth. How readily she responded, how her body moved with his as his hands pulled her closer by her waist - it pushed him into a world where nothing else mattered, just her and the touches they shared. 

As their kisses grew heated and lips parted he felt her tongue along his lower lip. He could almost moan at her taste when their wet muscles met. As gentle as ever she didn't fight him for dominance, rather just sensually rubbing her tongue along his, as if asking him to play with her. Her head tilted, pushing their mouths together just right as their heart rates increased. 

Her hands on his cheeks kept their kiss connected as she moved to sit on his lap. The relief in his neck sang praise to her idea, only to be silenced in comparison at his joy of feeling her body heat against him. He was painfully aware of the way her yukata parted to make room for her legs, leaving her thighs exposed. 

"And here I never thought you had it in you to be on top, even for a moment." Sabito teased his girlfriend, a smirk on his face as she broke the kiss to glare at him. Giyuu's face buried against her shoulder in embarrassment, prepared to hear that he wasn't a real man for letting her be on top. Still his hands held her steady on his lap, foregoing his distress at Sabito's opinion to make sure she didn't fall. 

"Sabito, you said you were just going to watch." Her pouting at her lover was cute to both men. Giyuu wanted to treasure such an adorable look while it made Sabito want to push her beyond making that expression. 

"You two haven't done anything worth watching yet. Your tits aren't even out either. Which is a shame, they look really cute when you're on your back." 

With a huff she turned back to the blue eyef man before her, biting her lip timidly as she took in his kiss drunk expression. 

"Would you like to see me naked?" She wouldn't admit it but she liked the idea of being naked before both men as they're fully clothed. Idly her fingers played down the exposed skin of Giyuu's chest as his yukata had shifted as they kissed. 

He nodded too eagerly, he knew his anticipation was too much to deny. Her hands pulled the obi along her waist, the cloth falling freely as the cloth of her yukata fell apart. His hands gripped the table behind her, somewhere to anchor himself as intimate flesh was revealed to him. 

"Will you undress me?" She didn't need to ask twice, not when his shaking hands pulled the fabric off her shoulders as the words left her mouth. His hands froze as her bare form was revealed to him, his mind reeling at her body. Blue eyes looked over her, taking in every inch of her skin, the curves of a woman he'd never seen before. 

"You're so beautiful." Captivating was really the best word, but all logical thought left him at the moment. His fingers forgot about her yukata, dropping it to hang in the bend of her arms as he grasped her waist, reveling in the soft skin. Leaning forward he kissed the center of her body, right below her breasts. Ocean eyes looked up at her, taking in the scent of her skin as he basked in her warmth. 

Her hands rested atop his head, combing her fingers through his hair. With a gentle urging of her fingers he tilted his head to one breast, opening his mouth to take her nipple between his lips. Both moaned, her at the sensation of his tender sucking and he at the taste of her skin. 

"Use your tongue- flick it." It was a breathless command, simple enough for him to follow through immediately. His hands flattened against her back as her spine arched, pushing her chest toward his pleasurable mouth. 

Sabito watched, not saying a word. He wanted to teach Giyuu what to do, how to touch her. For better or worse he agreed to not do that, at least the first time. She wanted to know how Giyuu would touch her without outside influence. Still Sabito thought it was a shame he couldn't latch to her other nipple. At least her bare, arched back was a pretty view. 

Giyuu switched sides, his eyes had grown unfocused and hazy as his thoughts scattered. For the moment all he cared about was pleasing her, hearing more of those pretty sighs that were painfully close to a moan. His tongue circled the neglected nipple before sucking it between his lips to nibble and tease. 

"Giyuu…" The softest moan of his name poured from her lips as she rolled her hips down, body screaming for friction to feed the fire of her need. Her hips shifted forward, leaving her sitting atop his cock. The movement pushed his yukata out of the way, thanks to her knees, but the fundoshi he wore separated them. 

His hands dropped to her hips, lightly grasping as she grinded her damp folds against his covered length. A soft groan was pulled from him, leaving his forehead pressed between her breasts as he gasped a silent breath. Her hips were unrelenting, even as he tried to hold her still. She was too eager and he dared not hold her tight enough to leave a bruise. 

"Put her on her back, she likes it." Even if Sabito told himself just to watch, he didn't want their fun to be over too soon. Not to mention he wanted a better view than just her back. He wants a whole show, not just some teasing. God help him if they cum from something so mundane and decide to stop before he can even get interested enough to wrap his hand around his cock. 

The girlfriend in question tilted her head back as her lover before looking forward at Giyuu with a hint of a playful smile. His hands guided her back, the swell of her ass bumping against the table before he lightly lifted her to sit atop it with her legs splayed open around his own. As he rose to his knees she dipped her head to meet his lips in a kiss. 

His hands pushed the yukata off her arms fully, his touch more confident than before. With her arms free she pushed his yukata off as well and reached for his fundoshi, a little displeased he wore it knowing well what their intentions were today. Still, she knew in her head that he'd never be so lewd as to walk around without proper clothing. He just wasn't that type of man. Her teeth bit as his lower lip tugging it as she pulled away before letting it slip from her hold. 

The moan he let out was airy, light, above all needy. Despite his innocence, he couldn't have looked more erotic, especially as his eyes lidded and cheeks darkened. His hands gripped her, one on the small of her back and the other on her breast, pinching the nipple below his fingers. Her own impure noises joined his before muffling herself against his neck. 

She placed attention along the column of his throat, tracing the line of his pulse with her lips - teasing with licks, nips, kisses - anything that made his breath stutter. Her hands went to work untying his undergarments as her lips sealed over the slope of his neck. It was a merciful spot, closer to the shoulder and easier to hide once the red flush left and filled in with bruising, leaving her mark on him. He should consider himself lucky she can pull off the twists of cloth so easily, no doubt due to repetition with Sabito. 

As the cloth dropped to the floor her chest swelled in pride as well as anticipation. She wondered what he looked like naked, if he was handsome in reality as she could make out behind his clothing. With one last nip to his collar bone she pulled back, gaze traveling from his chest downward. 

She could feel he was doing the same, especially as his hands rose to trace over the curve of her breasts, along her waist, down to her hips where his hands anchored themselves. Her eyes traced his toned muscles below pale skin, her own fingers tracing over scars along his abdomen. Unconsciously an airy noise left her as her nails scratched at his hips. A thin trail of dark hair traveled from his navel downward, stopping at the base of his length. It was obvious he had cleaned himself up for the occasion, not that she minded a bit.

Without a second thought her hand wrapped around his cock, stroking languidly. She wanted to take her time, feel the weight of it in her hand and watch as precum leaked from the tip. Carefully she pulled his foreskin back, just enough to expose the head but not the sensitive glands beneath. His hands fell to her thighs, gripping the soft flesh as her thumb traced over the slit on the head of his cock. If it didn't feel so good he would have been embarrassed at the whimper that slipped from his lips as she smeared the tip of his cock with his own juices. 

He felt the coil within him tighten and he knew he had to stop her. It was coming too fast, he didn't want things to end like this - he wanted to be inside her at least. His hand pushed her shoulder to urge her backward, one along her back to keep her from slamming against the table and hitting her head.

Deep blue eyes watched as she laid back, getting comfortable. For all that was worth, it didn't matter when his hands slid down to her hips to tug her to the very edge of the table. Her legs were forced open further as the position put her pussy on display for him. He had to bite his lower lip when he took her in, mindful that staring wasn't proper but uncaring as he watched a drop of her wetness leave her clenching core to soak her lower lips. 

Without a second thought he lunged forward, licking the escaping juices from her hole to her clit in a broad stroke. He did his best to forget about his weeping cock, ignoring how much harder he throbbed at her taste. A low groan echoed is his throat, reverberating against her cunt as he lapped at her folds. He wasn't sure what made women feel good, if anything he felt under prepared and cursed himself for blocking out most of Uzui's perverted ramblings about the sexcapades with his wives. He lives to regret that now. 

Still it didn't keep him from redoubling his efforts, licking passionately and noting any reaction of hers. The soft bud he bumped his nose against made her thighs tremble and he wasn't shy to wrap his lips around it. Taking initiative from how she instructed him to suck her nipples, he nibbled and flicked her clit with his tongue. More wetness greeted his chin and he prayed she'd be understanding that he needed to taste her. Dipping back down he pressed his tongue into her core, licking as deeply as he could as his nose bumped her clit. 

"Giyuu!" Her fingers dove into his inky locks, tugging the strands while keeping his face flush against her cunt. A deeper groan echoed from him, low enough to be considered a growl. Her shaking legs were held steady by his calloused hands, ignoring how they tried to close as her hips rolled against his face. "I-I can't - oh God. Please, don't stop. I'm gonna-" 

He didn't need to hear the rest, especially when a cry of pleasure broke from her. Harmonizing with her, he groaned deeply as he felt her clenching around his tongue as her hips  twisted with intensity against his face before her body went limp. He pulled away, watching her chest rise and fall as she remembered how to breath. His eyes flickered down to look at her spent pussy, dripping and flushed, swollen even, with the extra blood flow his actions caused. 

"(Y/N), you're really pretty." He didn't have the nerves within him to tell her directly that he thought she had a pretty pussy he would spend the rest of his life licking, but he hoped it sufficed. A small giggle bubbled from within her, tired and subdued, but still cute. 

Movement caught his attention, flicking his eyes from her sweat dampened face to see Sabito stroking himself at the scene. His hand was slow, taking his time as if to enjoy every moment of his girlfriend's playtime. 

The woman lazily turned on her stomach after shifting off the table, giving Giyuu a full view of her ass, as she crawled closer to Sabito. The way he could see just a hint of her cunt as her thighs became soaked with her juices was more than enough to distract him. Her whimpers up to her lover weren't missed by either men. 

"What is it? Didn't he make you cum?" Sabito's teasing didn't seem to affect her, especially as she dipped her head to lick at the base of his cock. Giyuu knew he should demand she come back to him, but watching the way her legs spread as she adjusted the weight on her knees left no room for discussion, especially as her pussy was put on display for him again. 

"Let me lick you." The peach haired man couldn't deny her pouting - not when she was so cute when doing it. He shifted higher on his knees, hand never leaving his length as her tongue licked her lips. Tenderly she kissed along his sack, moaning at the fullness, just knowing he had plenty of cum for her. Her tongue caressed his balls, lapping at the skin and bringing it into her mouth to lightly suck. 

"You're good, baby. But I think you forgot about your playmate." Giyuu sat tense as he watched his best friend reach to slap her ass. Even if she did moan, wasn't that brutal? "Now go back there and let him fuck you. Unless that part where you told me you wanted him to fill you with cum was a lie."

"No!" She whined, just like a brat, as her mouth left his body. "I want his cum, so don't tease me." A weak glare was sent his way as she turned to crawl towards Giyuu. Sabito would let most her sass go, but delivered a harsh smack against her ass that jolted her forward. 

Giyuu didn't wait for the cry she let out, so ignorant to the world of sex and the definite deferences between a yelp of pain and pleasure. He scooped her into his arms, pulling her chest to his and away from Sabito. Fingers brushed her hair from her face, searching her expression for distress. 

"Are you okay? Are you hurt?" Even if Sabito huffed at Giyuu, he didn't let go of her. Despite the fact it wasn't a bad slap, especially compared to some of the more brutal spankings he delivered, she cuddled into Giyuu's chest. It was nice to be immediately comforted. 

"I'm fine." It'd be tender for a little bit at worst, but by then she hoped to fucked out and unaware of much of anything. Still he looked over her shoulder, eyeing the red handprint on her skin. 

"Don't act like I'm abusing her, she's just soaking up the attention. Usually she's asking for more." Sabito laughed, not taking any of Giyuu's hard stares to heart. "She's not weak, she just likes being babied by you."

Giyuu was about to speak up when she nodded against his shoulder. Her eyes peeked up at him, so cute despite her lust. His heart swelled looking at her, especially when her lips pressed to his cheek. 

"You're such a sweetheart beneath your poker face." The praise, as innocent as it was, shot down to his cock. He prayed she didn't notice how he throbbed against her thigh. To keep his mind at bay he traced his fingers over the reddened flesh of her ass, petting the tender skin with reverence as if it would hurt her otherwise. It may have been an excuse to touch her, but above worshipping her form he wanted to provide comfort to her. 

"You two are such suckers for each other." Sabito felt a tinge of jealousy. He knew he could be gentle and get the same kind of reactions, but he didn't have the patience. He was fully planning on the both of them fucking like rabbits but he should have known better. Giyuu was a virgin with an obvious crush, of course he would take the time to treat the object of his affections in such a way. Still it was better than figuring out his best friend was into some absolute brutality in the bedroom. He'd rather deal with a lovesick fool between both choices. "Even if you don't spank her, which I don't understand why you wouldn't, you can still play with her ass if you like it so much."

Giyuu didn't want to admit it, but Sabito was right. His hands gently grasped the roundness of her ass, mindful to not dig his nails into her skin. She tucked herself closer, giving him a good view over her shoulder. Experimentally he squeezed, taking in the distinct combination of muscle and fat in his hands. Firm yet soft. Any hardness he had lost in worry for her was back at full force. 

"You like it?" It was a rhetorical question, but she wanted to hear his praise - not that she really needed more affirmation with his dick stiff and flush against her. Still he nodded, a soft yes muffled from his lips into her hair. She giggled to herself, glad he was treating her as if she were flawless. "Then watch this."

Her hold on his form let go, rather tucking her finger under the curve of her ass and pressing up, alternating sides causing her ass to jiggle. Sabito would have laughed at Giyuu's wide eyes if he wasn't captivated as well. The man in front of her felt his heart rate increase as it tried to slam out of his chest. His hands slide from the small of her back to where her own were, taking his opportunity to play with her body. 

She smirked to herself before tilting her head and kissing his cheek once more. "Can I play, too?" 

The woman didn't wait for an answer, rather pushing her ass out and moving until she was posed before him as she had in front of Sabito before. Those pretty blue eyes stared down at her, watching her movements. Her hand wrapped around his cock again, stroking lazily as she licked along the path of his happy trail, letting it lead her lower and lower. 

Giyuu gave up on making her almost lay on the floor for her prize, rather shifting to sit on his ass with his legs spread to give her room. Even if he wanted to keep groping her, he knew he needed to move on. His hands propped himself up, looking down at her as she pressed a kiss to the tip of his cock. His breath caught in his throat as she licked her lips with a hum, a sweet smile that was at odds with the fact she licked his precum from her mouth. 

"You taste good." As if that wasn't enough, she pressed the flat of her tongue along the underside of his cock, lapping from base to tip until the entirety of his length was soaked. Her hand glided over his dick with much less resistance, using just enough grip to use the extra skin to reduce friction while massaging the muscle beneath. Sabito must have taught her well, and for once Giyuu was glad the other water pillar was a pervert. 

"Tell me when you get close, okay?" He nodded deftly, watching as she kissed along his hips. Her hand slowed as her lips pressed to his sack, pressing open mouth kisses to the sensitive skin. Her tongue laved over his balls before taking one into her mouth, giving the most gentle suction with a hum that left his eyes rolled back. At this point she didn't even need to touch his cock, just her tender treatment of his balls could be enough to make him cum. 

Her other hand shifted below her, pressing the skin between his balls and hole, massaging gentle circles. Her hands gained a rhythm, working together to make him a shaking mess. Her hand tightly grasped the base of his cock right as he began throbbing, holding his release at bay as she drove him mad. It wasn't even fair, he couldn't even thrust into her mouth to find his end if he tried. 

"Damn baby, I never knew you were suck a cock tease." The lavender eyed man watched closely, taking in how her cunt clenched at the noises Giyuu made - which just caused her thighs to become a complete wreck of wetness - and how she lavished attention to the other water pillar. 

Parting her lips from Giyuu's balls, she gave the skin a tender lick before tilting her head over her shoulder. "He tastes good. And he's letting me do what I want, not being relentlessly  dominating like someone." Turning her head back to Giyuu she gave him a smile, sweet an adoring despite the fact they both needed the other to fuck them as soon as possible. "You're doing so good, Giyuu."

"You're just trying to get him horny enough to cum buckets." Sabito knew her game, he wasn't new to it in the slightest. Especially her breeding kink, something he conveniently forgot to tell Giyuu about. It was surprising she wasn't pregnant yet, as much as she made him cum inside her. For now he considered it a miracle. Perhaps Giyuu would have more luck. "Are you going to let him fuck you or are you gonna tease him to death? Have mercy on him, he's going to have blue balls, especially the way you've been sucking on them."

She bit her lip at the thought, her eyes locked with Giyuu's as her hand pulled his foreskin back, exposing the sensitive skin to her touch. His hip bucked up, fucking into her hand at the feeling of her finger tips gracing the delicate skin. 

"Do you want to cum?" The moment the words left her lips he nodded vigorously, panting an unintelligible mess of pleas. She squirmed in place at such an expression but she stayed on the task at hand. "I want to try something. It'll feel good but it'll take some time, okay?" 

Even if that confused him, he nodded anyway. He knew she was gentle and would never hurt him - not to mention she was more experienced, she knew what she was doing. She leaned forward, moving to hover over him. "You trust me, right? I promise I'll take good care of you." 

"Yes, (Y/N)." Despite the fact she had something in mind he leaned up to kiss her, a hand cupping her cheek. Inside he just wanted to tug her into his lap push up into her warm, wet depths, but he let it be for now. Parting from his lips, she nuzzled her nose against his for a moment before pulling away. 

"Just a moment." She padded across the room, hips swaying with her movement that captivated both men. Neither really watched what she was doing, rather staring at her ass and thighs until she returned with a bottle of oil and a few cloths. 

"Damn, baby. You're gonna do that?" Sabito gripped his dick tighter for a moment before letting go to keep his excitement at bay. 

"You make it sound sinister. I'm just going to make him feel good. I know what it's like anyway." Turning back to Giyuu she smoothed a hand over his thigh, her thumb rubbing soft circles over the smooth skin. "Lift your hips for me for just a second, okay?" 

While he complied with her demands tension grew in him. Just what was she going to do that would get such a reaction from Sabito? As she slid a cloth under him, her hands groped his ass, leaving his hips arched up as his shoulders laid against the floor. 

"You have a nice ass, too. You're so handsome." He blushed heavily at her compliments as his hips lowered back to the floor but his embarrassment didn't end there as she urged his legs apart. 

"What are you doing?" Timid blue eyes stared up at her, his face burning as he realized she could see all of him. 

"Don't be scared. I'm going to massage your prostate." She felt her explanation was enough, but the confused look in his eyes told her he didn't understand. His innocence to the deeper end of sexuality was cute. "You'll cum so hard, baby. I just have to work my fingers inside you and you'll love it, I promise." 

He was hyper aware how his hole clenched at just the sound of that, both fear and excitement of the myriads of possibilities filling him. Tracing her lips over his chest she latch to his nipple, sucking tenderly. His back arched into her touch, a moan falling from his lips as her hand pinched and rolled the unattended nipple between her fingers. 

"She's put her fingers inside her ass enough, she knows what to do." Sabito could almost laugh at the expression Giyuu made at that, his eyes wide without looking at her directly. Rather his eyes locked to Sabito's. 

"What?" 

"Oh, you'll see. I don't want to spoil her surprise for you." 

A shiver of anticipation wracked down his back at the thought of her pushing her fingers inside herself, no matter which entrance she used. A soft touch to his thighs brought his attention back to her. 

"Let me know if anything hurts or feels weird, okay?" He distinctly noticed the slickness of her fingers as they trailed over his inner thighs. Not once in his life did he think the flesh would be so sensitive, yet it has his toes curling at just the feeling. 

Her fingers trailed higher, tracing where his thigh met his groin. His eyelids fluttered at the feeling before a breathy moan followed as she caressed his length with one hand as the other massaged below his sack. 

A gasp of her name fell from his lips and he didn't care anymore. It felt good, even if he wished Sabito wasn't watching him being topped by his girlfriend. At the same time it filled him with pride - the more dominating male had to watch his lover service him, make him cum and praise him. It was more than he could have dreamed of, so his embarrassment was forgotten for the moment. 

Her slick finger traced his hole and he willed his body to relax. It felt odd at first, he couldn't deny that, but as she poured more oil over his taint and hole he found himself giving in. At least he understood the cloth was below him to allow her liberal use of oil. 

His ass twitched below her fingertips, slowly letting one finger pass through the first ring of muscle. She didn't press forward, rather massaging the spot towards the front of his body. He expected it to hurt but rather he felt warmth filling him, making his hips buck against her hand. 

"Want more, baby?" His eyes cracked, catching her expression - a mixture of warmth and lust. How did he get so lucky? Still he nodded, willing to accept anything she gave him. Her finger pushed past the second ring of muscles, frowning when he bit his lip with a wince. 

"I know, it'll be over soon." Just to have mercy on him she shifted her hand on his cock lower, cupping his balls and massaging them gently in her palm. Gently her finger within him put light pressure on his walls, a soft, pulsing feeling overtaking the ache within him. His hands reached for something to hold on to, unconsciously reaching to her and pulling her closer. 

She shifted herself to straddle one of his legs, grinding her soaked cunt against his thigh. Her finger partially withdrew from him, pushing back in experimentally. The way his back arched and legs tensed left her humping against his leg. The friction on her clit gave her both relief and frustration. Knowing it felt good she set a decent pace with her fingers while still searching for the spot within him that would drive him mad. Admittedly she had never done this before, but she prayed it felt good for him. 

"Fuck!" His cry echoed in the room as his hand gripped her thigh. Her free hand left his cock, watching it jump at every press of her fingers. He sat up, balancing on one elbow to watch her work. He couldn't see her fingers but he easily recognized the way his dick twitched. 

He pushed his leg up, stilling her for a moment as the pressure on her cunt pushed her to her knees. The hand on her hip wasted no time, dipping between her thighs to run her soaked folds. Her slick made it easy for him to side his fingers inside her, collecting her wetness on his fingertips before coming back to circle her clit. Her own hand matched his pace, pressing against his depths until he couldn't articulate his fingers any longer. 

"I want to eat you out." His breaths left him in a huff, drool beginning to drip from the corner of his mouth. A whine of desperation came from the usually quiet man. "You taste so good, let me." 

Her hands left him, just for a moment, to shift her body over him and hover her cunt over his face as she kissed over the length of his cock. Her oil slicked hand slid under his thigh, prodding at his hole to let her in again. As his hips bucked down, her other hand wrapped around his length and her lips sealed to his sack. 

Giyuu was almost embarrassed at his moan, the sensations in how lower body and the erotic sight of her swollen, dripping pussy leaving him unable to hold back. Strong arms looped her body, pulling her against his mouth. His tongue worked fast, frantically lapping at her lips and clit between nibbles and sucks. His fingers, still drenched in her cum, came around her hip to circle her second entrance as his other hand gripped one cheek, keeping her spread open for him. 

Both were consumed in the other, feeding off of the others high. Her hips rolled against his lips, dragging her cunt along his lower face and wetting it with her slick. His hips bucked up needy and demanding until she took his cock in her mouth. Her skilled tongue circled the head and pressed along the nerve-rich foreskin before sucking and her finger plummeted in and out of him before adding another digit. 

"You two are fucking sluts. Bitches in heat." Sabito's words sounded derogatory, but Giyuu could only think of (Y/N) becoming insatiable with lust for him - he needed to make sure he kept her happy and full of cum. "I can't wait to fuck both of you."

The thought of having his insides stroked while her cunt milked his cock was too much. Involuntarily his hips bucked - sending his cock into her mouth every move up and fucking himself on her fingers on the way down. He eagerly sucked her clit, praying to make her cum before he lost his mind. As a warm hand cupped his balls as she pressed against his prostate he knew it was all over. 

Cries were muffled against her pussy as his body trembled. Shakes consumed him as her fingers insistently prodded his gland and balls as he came. His eyes rolled back into his head as his body spasmed into oversensitivity as she prolonged his orgasm. 

He felt light headed as he came back down, breathing heavily through his nose as her warm cunt still graced his lips. Her back arched as she sat up, rolling her hips back as she chased her own release. Cum dripped from her lips, her throat and mouth full and past the point she could swallow, and it cascaded down her collarbone and chest. 

"I'm probably never going to say this again, but Giyuu - stop eating her out. You have to see this." It wasn't rare for Sabito to see his lover so debauched, but never when she had been in control before - not that he let that happen often. He wasn't as selfish as to deny the other water pillar the chance to see her like this. 

It took some effort, but Giyuu managed to pull himself from her lower lips to see what Sabito was talking about. The moment his eyes saw the sheer amount of his cum falling down her lips - how it trailed down her neck and breasts before dripping in her lap - brought stiffness to his softening erection.

"Please!" She was so close, feeling the tightened coils within her relax as the stimulation had been taken from her. Without shame her hand dipped between her thighs to stroke her cunt. No matter what she tried - massaging her clit in tight circles, pressing her fingers inside herself to mercilessly pound against her g spot - nothing got her close like before. If she weren't at the brink of a lust filled drop she would have yelled at Sabito. 

"I need to cum. Please." Both men looked at each other, almost as if to see if the other would move to fulfill her request first. She was so desperate, so needy, that neither could look away for more than a moment. Her hands gripped the cloth below her in frustration, about the jump the first one that moved. 

"Fuck her first. I have a few ideas for afterwards." Sabito urged Giyuu forward where his lover moved in, wrapping her arms around him and bringing his lips against hers. The taste of their cum mixed and the dark haired man couldn't deny it was heavenly. Maybe it'd be ironic to make Sabito lick her clean after he cums in her, just so he can appreciate how good they taste. 

Between heated kisses and dances with their tongues she has ended up on her back below him again. Her hand wrapped around his cock, stroking it with intent as she watched him harden fully. Heavy breaths puffed from their lips as she pressed the tip of his length to her clit. His hand took over, using his dick to rub between her folds to collect wetness before running against the pleasure bud of nerves. 

"I need you inside. Please, Giyuu." Her legs spread wider, opening herself to him fully. The head of his cock caught at her entrance and he felt like he was melting. This was really the moment - he would no longer be a virgin. Excitement and anxiety pulsed through him in waves as he wondered if he would last inside her. Blue eyes watched her soaked cunt as he pressed inside, meeting just the lightest resistance before her body stretched to allow him inside. He sunk in deeper and deeper, unaware how far he had gone within her until their hips met. 

"Oh my God, Giyuu-" 

"Fuck…" 

Both moaned, adjusting to the feeling of becoming one with the other. Her arms pulled him closer to her and her legs wrapped around his body, locking her ankles together behind his back. There was no need to hold on so tightly, especially when his arms encircled her, holding her close as his lips met hers in a messy kiss. 

His first thrusts were slow, unsure of what to do and how to move. Yet he slowly found a rhythm - balanced on his knees and elbows above her, kissing her breathless as his lower back put in the work of snapping his hips into her depths. 

"You're so warm, so good…" He wasn't even aware he was speaking, becoming too consumed in her loving heat to even think much about anything else. Subconsciously he knew he should think more of her pleasure and make sure she felt good too, but the moans muffled against his lips said as much as he needed to know.

"Giyuu, please. I need you." His head lifted to stare down at her, slowing his hips to roll deeply. 

"You have me. I'm all yours." He really meant it, too. For better or worse he was head over heels in love with her. He adjusted his arms, moving his hand to cup a breast. 

"I…" Her eyes shut tightly, brows furrowing as she bit her lip. "I need you to breed me." Her request came out as an airy moan, almost too quiet to be heard. Hearing that his hips slammed into her hard and deep before stilling. 

"Breed you?" He felt his hands shake at the thought - of her taking his cum, her stomach swelling with his child. It was a symbol of their connection, of his love to her. His hand on her breast strengthened its grasp, pinching his nipple between his fingers. "You want me to put a baby in you?" 

Her head nodded so fast it was dizzying. Feminine legs adjusted themselves, bringing her knees to her chest to allow him even deeper. His eyes took her in, how she displayed herself for him - how she put herself into a breeding press for him. All that was left was for him to follow suit. 

His legs adjusted, pushing himself atop her further. His thighs rested atop her ass as gravity let him push in deep enough to meet the end of her walls. His sack was snug between her ass cheeks, as if her body was designed to be out into a pree and bred for all she was worth. His forehead rested against hers as his hips rocked into her core. 

"Giyuu! You're so deep. You're pressing against my womb." With her legs held by his arms in this position she found it difficult to cling to his shoulders. Rather she reached down, feeling his lower back and the rolling muscles beneath the skin as he worked to make her feel good. Her hands drifted lower, grasping the roundness of his ass and pushing him in as deep as he could go.

He watched the way her eyes rolled back, how her jaw went lax and her legs shook. She was so beautiful like this - at the mercy of his cock, on the brink of release, face distorted with pleasure and her chin to her chest dirtied with his drying cum. This was everything he ever wanted and more.

With renewed vigor he thrusted into her, short and deep strokes, to never let up on the spot that brought her so much pleasure. Her moans were no longer sweet and airy, but now garbled messes of sounds that were once his name that were cried loud enough for all to hear. 

His head dipped down, biting her throat as a feral need to mark her as his over took his logic. It didn't matter that she belonged to Sabito - for the moment she was his and he would pump her full of cum until she could never forget it. 

"Fuck, I-" Satisfied with his mark he pulled back, resting his forehead against hers to watch her lidded eyes. "I can't take it much longer."

"Giyuu! Please. Inside me." Her hand reached down, stroking her clit in time with his thrusting. "Please cum in me. I need it."

"Dammit!" He felt her walls pulse, squeezing down on his shaft as if to milk him of his cum. "I'm about to-" 

"Me too."

He laid against her, chest to chest. Despite the adrenaline and the rush, he didn't forget when she said she wanted him to cuddle fuck her. Anything she wanted he would give her, no matter the request. 

"I-I-" His hands cupped her cheeks, bringing her blurred vision to him as her fingers pinched her sensitive clit. "Fuck, I need you to cum. I love you, I love you so much. Cum for me."

His command was followed immediately - her body arched and trembled, her walls clenching rhythmically around his cock as he let go. Her body milked his cock for all he was worth, making his seed flow into her. He hadn't cum so hard in his life, two earth shattering orgasm back to back leaving him lightheaded.

"I love you, too." Her voice was soft, just a horse whisper given her previous load moans. He was shocked, no believing he had even said all of that out loud. But still it made his chest fill with warmth. His lips sealed to hers, tenderly kissing the woman of his dreams. 

Sabito watched with a tinge of jealousy. Just a touch, nothing he would ever admit to. He knew she loved him dearly, but he knew well she had a sweet spot for the lonely water pillar. On the other hand, that might be a good thing and they had their way about making a baby. 

"Don't get too soft on me now. I think you both have another round left in you." The peach haired man eyed the oils that laid forgotten across the room, almost smiling with a glint in his lavender eyes. Two tired sets of eyes lulled over to him, lazily watching as they felt their heart rates return to a normal rate slowly. 

"You two are such a mess. You even got your own cum on you, Giyuu." Blue eyes blinked at that, not realizing he had smeared his own drying seed on his chest and chin when kissing and cuddle fucking her. Not that he minded, not when she was involved. He'd do anything for her. 

Sabito picked up the bottle oil, moving to sit next to the pair. As he grew closer they untangled their limbs, though not completely separating. 

"So this is gonna be how it works." His assertive tone was back, making shivers run down both his girlfriend and Giyuu's spines. Such authority in their afterglow did something special - particularly making both too soft and unwilling to argue. "I'm going to fuck one of you. And you're still going to fuck each other. You get to decide how, but I'm gonna cum inside someone tonight."

His lover bit her lip at the thought, possibilities running through her mind as she and Giyuu sat up. Giyuu, on the other hand, looked at Sabito's cock with a tinge of fear. He knew that technically he could take Sabito, but he hadn't had but a couple of fingers inside him - and that was a process to just those in. 

"I know what I want." The woman wiggled in anticipation, glowing as she realized her boyfriend gave her chance that she had forgotten about on her rush to cum. 

"Is it your surprise for him, baby?" She nodded eagerly, vibrating in excitement, at least emotionally. Giyuu looked between the two with a moment of confusion. Sabito only smiled to himself and handed her the oil. 

"Can I get a kiss? From either of you?" Sabito didn't wait for the end of her sentence to seal his mouth to hers, biting her lower lip before pulling away. Giyuu's kiss was more chaste, his timid nature returning. 

She settled into Sabito's lap, legs spread open and feet placed outside of his thighs. Giyuu could only watch as his thick cum dropped from her used entrance and submitted to gravity. Her fingers, oil slicked, reached down with the drop of cum to rub it into her second entrance. Sabito took to holding her legs behind the knees, keeping her spread open for their visitor to watch. 

Her fingers massaged the ring of muscle, firm but gentle as she pushed a finger into her ass. His cum dribbled down, allowing her to push his cum into her other hole. Giyuu held his breath, watching as she prepared herself in front of him. He was amazed how needy she was, how she worked herself into heavy breathing so soon after cumming. 

Sabito let go of her leg and tilted the bottle of oil above her. The slick substance coated her cunt, lubricant spreading from her lower lips to her thighs. Sabito's hand joined in, rubbing small circles on her clit as she scissored the fingers in her ass. 

"Your pussy is so pretty like this." He took his time rubbing between her folds before returning to her tender bud only when she whimpered. Giyuu watched in fascination. It was so erotic, it was almost too much. "Are you gonna tell him about his surprise?" 

Giyuu tilted his head, confused what else there could be. After all, this was more than he had ever expected. Yet when her eyes flickered to his he couldn't deny he was interested. Her oil slicked fingers pulled from her ass before she crawled closer. 

"I want you inside me. I want you to fuck my ass." Her lubricated hand found his cock, stroking it to stiffness. "I want my first to be you, I know you'll take care of me."

"First?" He almost stuttered at the thought, eyes searching hers before Sabito spoke up. 

"She wanted to give that particular honor to you. Think of it like a second virginity." He didn't mention that she was scared he would tear her open, given how thick he was. Even without that he is sure she'd save something special for Giyuu. 

The cock in her hand returned to hardness at that. He wasn't ready to admit it, but he liked the idea of it all. Loved it even. She trusted him with this, with something that could be uncomfortable yet feel so good. There was also a sense of pride - he would have done something to her Sabito hadn't done. At least yet. 

"Please? I really want it to be you." She looked so cute when she begged, he understood why Sabito liked it so much. Without a second thought he nodded. She stole a kiss, his lips tender but fast as she pulled away. 

Right as his hips began to roll into her stroking she withdrew her hand. The bottle of oil, almost empty now, had the rest of its contents poured on his cock. It dipped down his balls, but he found he didn't mind the sensation so much. Her hips settled on his lap with her ass facing him, her hand guiding his dick to her ass. The tight ring of muscle had him choking even if she had only the head of his length inside. 

"You look so sexy like that, baby. Take his dick, open up that pretty ass for him. I know you can take it." Sabito edged closer, moving until he sat in front of her. His hands held her hips, helping her bounce on the first few inches of Giyuu cock. 

As she matched his pace he let one hand wander from her hip downwards, stroking over the soaked lips of her cunt. Giyuu struggled not to thrust up into her, but he gave in to gentle rolls of his hips. Bit by bit she was beginning to take all of him. 

"Baby girl," Sabito kissed her lips as the hand not petting her pussy trailed to her neck, lightly wrapping his hand around the column of her throat as a lingering reminder of his control, "I need you to take all of his cock. Right. Now."

His hand tightened around her throat and pushed down, causing her will to crumble under his force. Choked moans  were muffled behind her lips as her eyes rolled. Giyuu's head shot back as she took him to the hilt, her ass so much tighter than her cunt. Immediately Sabito let up on his hold, cupping her cheek gently as he pushed his fingers into her sopping core. 

"That's a good girl, so good. I bet you feel nice and full, don't you?" She nodded, tightening around Giyuu as she subconsciously clenched. Her hips twisted, shifting to feel her boyfriend's fingers stroking a tender place on her walls. "Want me inside you, too?" 

Giyuu's eyes widened at that, unsure how she could fit both of them, even if Sabito was going to be inside her cunt. Yet it had begun, her body shifting positions to lay her back against him to give Sabito room between her spread legs. The feeling was odd but nice. He never imagined he would be feeling Sabito's cock through the walls between his girlfriend's cunt and ass. 

Both men pressed in as deep as possible, her body taking all of them. She was sandwiched between them, kept in place with their strength. Sabito moved first, the lube on the other two causing obscene slapping noises as his hips met hers and his balls bounced against Giyuu's. The more timid man barely had to move to feel pleasure - between her clenching walls and the head of Sabito's cock running against him through her flesh, he felt as if this was something he had wrongly denied himself for years. Why hadn't he done this sooner? It felt so good. 

"Deep, deep." Her pleas weren't even needed, not when both men wanted the same thing. 

"You like your needy womb rubbed with our clocks, don't you? My dirty little slut." Sabito sounded so vulgar, but it was obvious that she enjoyed such a spot stimulated, even to Giyuu. 

The man below her started to move gently pushing and pulling within her. Even if everything was slick with oil Giyuu was still timid to rapidly pound into her ass the way Sabito did to her pussy. 

"Please, I-" Her hand reached down, rubbing her clit again before Sabito slapped it away. Rather he grabbed Giyuu's hand, placing it against the top of her folds. 

"You're barely moving. Play with her pussy." Sabito was commanding but he wasn't wrong. To be fair he was scared of cumming too fast if he did move, but he was just as happy to make her feel good. Ragged cries were pulled from her lips, her cunt clenching in a way she hadn't felt before. 

"So full… Fuck." Her head lolled back to Giyuu's shoulder to find a place to rest as the sensations in her lower half became overwhelming. 

"Are you gonna cum just from being stuffed full of cock? Do it then. Be a good slut and cum all over our clocks." Sabito, as eager and horny as he was, spoke up first. 

"It's okay, just let go." Giyuu, as always, was more gentle. His fingers pinched her clit, rolling it between his fingers until Sabito's own hand joined the fray. His thumb flicked over the top of her clit overwhelming her senses as he pushed his cock along her deepest walls. 

"Cum in me - please, please, please." Her words lacked coherence from there forward, not that she needed it with both men rubbing on along either side of her womb. Too soon she fell into her release, her walls clenching both men painfully tight and milking them for all the cum they were worth. A wail of pleasure echoed from her lips as her eyes rolled and her back arched. Before consciousness left her she felt both men fulfilled her request - in both holes she was full of cum. 

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Can I request something with Hyde? Perhaps him and y/n are both friends and they both have feelings for each other and Hyde accidentally lets it slip that he likes her? Maybe reader is Eric’s sister?

  I’d love to, doll <3 

Say What?

“Hey, Hyde? Are you hiring by chance at your store?” Y/n asked as she entered the basement of her childhood home. Her older brother’s best friend of over a decade sat on the couch watching TV.

The curly haired man looked at his best friend’s little sister. Well, she wasn’t so little anymore. She was nineteen years of pure hotness. Curvy in all the right places, long shiny hair, and big bright, innocent eyes. She had grown into her body, her legs and face losing all her baby fat. Now she sat in front of him as a grown woman, her summer sun kissed skin peeking out from her jacket hanging loosely down her left shoulder. She had gone to college in Florida for a year, but came back after she realized she didn’t like being away from her friends and family for that long.

Steven Hyde had always thought Y/n Forman was cute and adorable, but knew nothing could ever happen. He couldn’t break the bro code and he wasn’t sure if it was worth getting kicked out over. She was always so sweet and innocent and he didn’t want to rope her into what he did with Jackie and all the other girls he was with previously. He found himself unable to commit to a lifetime of misery in marriage, until he married Samantha in Vegas after he and Jackie broke up. To his surprise, he found it quite enjoyable being married. 

He’d be lying if he said he didn’t want to nail her. She became more than just a crush after she turned eighteen, but then she left and he kind of forgot about her. But then she came back from Florida all tan, more confident, and so much hotter. He often found himself fantasizing about her; mainly with her underneath him, moaning and screaming his name. He wondered if she was still a virgin. For some reason, he felt a searing hot sensation run through his veins every time he thought about her being under someone else. 

He always felt the need to protect her. Even though she was only two years younger than him, he found himself constantly feeling like she needed protection. Whether it was from bitchy school girls, horny and playboys, and sometimes, her own siblings. She was always closest with Eric than Laurie, but even some of the things Eric would say or do, Hyde found himself jumping to her defense.

He remembers when Eric left for Africa and Y/n had just graduated high school, he contemplated going after her, but after seeing her innocent eyes, he couldn’t do it. Out of all the girls he’d been with, she was different. So, different. She was sweet, smart, not superficial, funny, and caring. He could not risk their great friendship. He couldn’t put her through what he put the others through. She didn’t deserve that. So, the only thing he could do was admire her  from a distance.

“Why? You in need of a job?” 

“Yeah,” she answered and plopped down next to him. “Ever since I got back from Florida, I’ve been having the hardest time finding a job. Small town doesn’t have as much as Miami.”

“Yeah, I might have something available down at the store,” he answered casually. “If you do this one thing with me.”

Excitement swam in her y/e/c eyes. “Yes! Anything!”

A smirk crept up onto his face as he was about to bring out exactly what he wanted to do with her. 

                                          --Time Skip--

Wisps of smoke floated through the air, a very distinct smell filled the basement as they stared at each other squinty eyed, laughing dumbly.

“I’m so glad I agreed to do this with you,” Y/n said, laughing.

“Me too, man. Hey, you want that job still?” Steven asked, staring at her pretty face.

“Yeah!”

“You’re hired, man!”

Y/n squealed and jumped into his lap, wrapping her arms around his neck. “Thank you! I won’t let you down!”

Hyde laughed and pulled away to look at her. “Look, just don’t be all professional and crap, okay? I don’t need you making me look bad.”

Y/n raised an eyebrow at him, but shrugged it off. She had a job now and that’s all she cared about. “I’ll see you tomorrow?”

“Yep. Just come by whenever and I can train you.”

“Thank you!” she said again and leaned over, kissing his cheek. “I’ll see you then!”

As she scampered up the stairs, he touched his cheek where her lips touched, feeling a certain type way that made him want to throw himself off a cliff.

                                           --Time Skip--

Y/n quickly made herself at home in Hyde’s store, quickly learning around the store and even helped bring more money in. Hyde never knew how hard it would be to work with the girl he always liked. He would catch himself staring at her, thinking about her, and once almost grabbed her to kiss her in the back office. What he didn’t know was y/n felt the same. She fought hard to ignore her feelings throughout the years because she knew it was wrong, but that is what made it so much hotter. She often fantasized being with him, being on top of him, either way, she just wanted him. At one point, he made it to where he avoided her as much as possible. 

Y/n found herself confused and hurt that her best friend was actively avoiding her. She would be at work and he would always be busy with customers, inventor, or other stuff around the store. She thought it was weird, but didn’t think much of it because it was work after all. But things were weird when she would join him in the basement and he would just walk out. If they were hanging out with their friends, he would stay but not make a lot of conversation with her. He would mainly grunt or give her short answers. 

She even tried to corner him and talk to him about it, but all he did was snap at her, raise his voice, and storm off. She didn’t want to push it further, afraid she’d lose her job. So, instead, she softly cried as she went back into the office to file the invoices. 

She thought their friendship was officially over until some creep came into the store and started making y/n feel uncomfortable.

“Hey, sweet thing, you got the new ACDC record?” he asked her.

She huffed and gave him a fake smile. She was used to the uninvited flirting at this point in her life. “We do,” she replied and led him over to the cart holding the new records. 

As she was swiping through the records to find the record, the creep slowly moved his hand to her butt. She stopped what she was doing and quickly spun around to him. 

“What’re you doing later?” he asked seductively with hooded eyes.

“Working,” she sneered and took a step back. “Here’s your record.” 

She shoved the record into his chest as she tried to walk away, but he grabbed her arm, halting her in place. “C’mon, doll face, have dinner with me later You’re beautiful and I want a chance at that.”

“No, thank you,” she said and snatched her arm from his grip. “Have a good day, sir.”

“Hey,” he snapped and grabbed her arm tightly once more. “When a guy compliments you, the least you can do is say ‘thank you’, you bitch.”

“Excuse me?” she seethed. “Get off me, you creep!”

She ripped her arm out of his grip, but then he wrapped his hands on her waist and tried to hold her still. “Stop! Get off!” she screamed.

“I just want to talk!” he yelled back.

“No! I don’t want to--!”

“Hey!” a deep voice yelled across the store, making the few customers in the store to turn and stare at the scene in front of them. “Get off of her!”

The man let go of y/n and turned to Hyde who was now standing directly in front of him. “Yeah? And who are you?”

“Her boyfriend,” he said and pushed y/n behind him. “And the owner of this store. And I’m going to have to ask you to leave.”

“Yeah? Or what?” he asked, challenging Hyde.

“Trust me, you don’t want to find out,” Hyde spit, staring down the man without blinking,

The man returned Hyde’s glare for a minute before stepping back. “Fine. I didn’t want her anyway.”

Y/n laughed at the man as he walked out the door. When he was gone, Steven turned back around to her. “Are you okay, man?”

Y/n nodded. “Yeah, I am. Thank you.”

“Yeah,” he replied and took a step back, realizing how close they were. “Don’t mention it.”

“You said you were my boyfriend,” she stated after a beat. “Why?”

“Well, you know, because I just wanted him off you. That’s all.”

“Yeah, sure,” she said, smirking.

“No, seriously, that’s it.”

“What did you mean by that?”

“Nothing. It meant nothing! Now, get back to work,” he said and walked away, leaving her feeling disappointed. She almost had him back again and now he’s gone again.

“Actually, I think I’m going to take off early,” she said.

“Y/n, you can’t. You’re closing up the store tonight,” he said from behind the register.

“I’m sorry. I got to go,” she said, fighting tears and ran back in the office to grab her stuff and headed out the door.

                         --Time Skip--

Later on in the basement after y/n had left the store, she was alone watching TV and curled up. She wore her favorite sweats and sweatshirt with her favorite movie playing. Her heart feeling heavy, not fully able to pay attention to what was on the screen.

A minute later, Hyde came bursting through the door, startling y/n. 

“What the hell, Forman?” he spat. “You can’t just leave in the middle of your shift like that! I needed you and you left.”

“Sorry, I just had to get out of there. I felt suffocated.”

“The guy left! What did you feel suffocated by?”

“Nothing, Hyde,” she said and turned back to the TV. “Just please drop it.”

“No, I’m not going to drop it!”

“Why not?!”

“Because you left me hanging when I needed you most!”

“Hyde, there were like, three people in the store,” she said casually.

“Yeah and then we got slammed before closing.”

“I’m sorry. I’ll make it up to you,” she said absentmindedly. 

“Man, what’s your problem? Why are you being so weird?”

“I can ask you the same thing!” she outburst, quickly standing. “You’ve been avoiding me and I want to know why! We’ve been friends for a long time, Hyde. Why are you avoiding me all of a sudden?”

He seemed taken aback by her outburst. “I’m not.”

“Bull,” she spat. “I’m not stupid. You’ve been acting differently towards me and I want to know why. Did I say or do something to piss you off?”

“No, you didn’t.”

“Then what. Is. It?”

He sighed, grunting. “I don’t know, man! Maybe, I’ve been dealing with a lot here lately. Angie left along with my dad so I’m running the store alone with no help which I never thought would be hard, but it is. Then, the whole Jackie and Kelso thing. Then Forman and Kelso left. Then you did. Then Sam. Seeing everybody that I care about leave is hard enough as it is, but when you left was harder than anything else. I mean, it’s bad enough that I like my best friend’s sister, but it’s even worse when she along with your moron best friend leave too. You think I’d be used to being alone by now, but having family leave never gets easier.”

Y/n stood there in complete shock as she listened to Hyde ramble on.

“You what?” she asked, cutting him off. He stopped and stared at her, not realizing what he just said. “What did you just say?”

“Have you not been listening?” he asked. “I said that ever since everyone left, things have been hard!”

“Yeah, yeah, I got that part,” she said, brushing that part off. “What did you say about liking me?”

Hyde’s stomach dropped as he felt his heart jump in his throat. With eyes blown wide, he looked anywhere but her. “I--I didn’t say that.”

“Yes, you did!”

“No, I didn’t!” he argued. “I meant it like in a--a ‘I like you like a friend’ type of way.”

She couldn’t help but smile at him as he stared at her. 

“Y/n, stop looking at me like that.”

“You said you like me,” she said, feeling giddy. She moved just a hair closer to him, afraid that he would run off or push her away.

His shoulders slumped and he took his glasses off, rubbing his eyes. “Yeah...yeah I do.”

“Me too.”

His gaze snapped up towards her. “You do?”

She nodded and slowly closed the gap between them; Him meeting her halfway.

“How long?” she asked, fingering the hem of her sleeve.

“A while now,” he whispered, staring at her lips. “You?”

She swallowed thickly. “Same.”

“But I kept thinking of your brother...”

She gave him a funny look. “That’s what every girl wants to hear from the guy she likes.”

“No,” he sighed and closed his eyes, mentally kicking himself. But once he heard y/n laugh, he felt the stress melt away and stared into her y/e/c eyes. “I meant, I never acted on it because it was wrong to do that to Forman and I didn’t want to bring you into something like I did with Jackie and Sam.”

“What if I wanted to?” she whispered, now her chest touching his. “What if I’ve always wanted to? Would that be so bad?”

“Maybe,” he said and without thinking, rested a hand on her hip. “I’m not easy to be with.”

“That’s okay.” She started to lean up to meet his lips. “I think you’re worth it.”

With that, he closed the gap between them, bringing his free hand to cradle her face. They kissed fervently, tasting each other’s lips. Hyde deepened the kiss by slowly intertwining his tongue with hers and wrapping his arm around her, tugging her closer. He held her tight, afraid that this was all a dream and that she was going to disappear once he woke up, but this was real and felt higher than any drug could make him feel.

She balled up his shirt in her fist, wanting more of him. She brought a hand up to his head, bringing his lips closer in a bruising kiss. She didn’t want this moment to end and savored every second. Their hearts soared and beat as one as they moved their lips together in perfect sync.

Once the oxygen had left their lungs, they pulled away, their foreheads touching.

“I don’t know about you, but I’m tired of pretending like I don’t have feelings for you,” y/n said under her breath.

“Me too,” he replied, eyes closed.

“Then be mine,” she said. “Don’t worry about Eric. Just, be with me.”

“What if I let you down?”

“You’re not going to,” she replied and pecked his swollen lips. “I know you. I know your heart. I’d rather be with you and risk it all then always wonder the what if. Don’t you want to be with me?”

“Of course, I do.”

“Then don’t worry about any of it and just...be with me.”

“If Red finds out, we are so dead.”

“We’ll cross that bridge when we get to it,” she whispered and brought him for a softer, much gentler kiss. “Besides, you’d be worth it.”

He smiled and kissed once, twice, three times, tangling his hand into her hair. “Okay,” he said. “Then, let’s risk it all, baby.”

She returned his smile. “Let’s risk it all.”

x

I hope you enjoyed the story! Let me know if you’d like me to do another one. Much love <3

[jennygirl2014]

White~Part Three

Summary: You try to compose yourself while going through all of the old memories, both good and bad.  You try to confront Mace about his disappearance and he exposes a ten year secret.

Warnings: adult themes, sexual content, mentions of loss of virginity, language

              Luckily, the restroom was empty, and you were free to pace back and forth without looking like an idiot.  The sound of your feet on the tile floor and your heavy breathing echoed in the chilly bathroom as you tried to shake your nerves out of your arms and fingers.  This was ridiculous, beyond crazy and stupid.  You were a psychologist for god’s sake.  Dealing with emotions was literally your job, but it was always easier when it was someone else’s emotions and not your own.  

“Come on.” You coached yourself as you quit pacing and leaned your weight on our arms on the counter top.  “Come on, don’t do this.” You willed away the tears the best you could, but a few managed to slip down your cheeks regardless.  “Shit.  Come on.” You drew in a deep breath and tried to calibrate. 

              You felt like there was a different person inside of you that you had hidden for a long time, and she was starting to come out again. James had that power over you, even if you tried to deny it.  Despite all of the teasing and bullying in school, you still got butterflies when he gave you a Valentine’s day card in class, noticing that yours was always different from anyone else’s.  When he had grabbed your face and kissed you in middle school, you hit him because that’s what your friends would have done, but the truth was you went to bed that night with a giddy smile on your face.  And when he had finally really and truly kissed you years later, it was the moment you had been praying for since that first terrible kiss in the hallway.  When he made that stupid comment about bringing you to bed in high school, you were genuinely hurt, but you remember fantasizing about it regardless.  You tolerated the torment he bestowed upon you, because you so badly wanted, and needed, his affection.  

              This was not just some man you used to be friends with back in the day, this was, as you were convinced, the love of your life. At least at the time.  You used to sneak each other notes in school, silly little love letters that made you giggle and blush.  You used to pour your teenage heart out onto a piece of paper daily over him.  You used to lie to your parents and sneak out to see each other, knowing they disapproved of him for his gruff ways and lack of religious upbringing.  He gave you your first kiss, your first orgasm, your first real heartbreak.  A small twinge hit your chest as you started to recall certain memories.  

That time you snuck out at night and met him at the lake, and he fingered you under the stars.  God how you mewled and moaned, but he was so gentle with you, kissing you and leaving a mark on your neck you had to cover up with makeup to hide from your parents. You saw more stars than what was really in the sky that night.  That time another guy in school was being mean to you and calling you a slut, and he punched the guy in the face, but he gladly took the detention to defend your honor. After your grandmother died, he snuck in through your window to sit with you through the night and hold you as you cried, but he was gone by morning to keep you both from getting in trouble. When you lost your innocence, how tender and sweet he had been with you, kissing the tears away and going slow to try and ease the pain, asking you if you were okay.  It wasn’t at all like you had imagined it, it wasn’t anything like in the movies, but he cradled you after and told you he would always love you.

And then there were all the other times you had given yourself to him.  In his truck, in his bed, in your bed, in the woods, at a friend’s house, each time it got better and better.  He took the time to learn your body and how to make your feel good.  That was what was so addicting about it.  Every time you got to feel his hot skin against yours, he managed to make your toes curl a little harder, or make you squeal a little louder.  He worshipped your body in a way that made you feel dirty going to church, but it also made you beam from the inside out every other moment outside of that building where you were supposed to have vowed yourself to God.  How could you keep denying yourself that amazing feeling? That intimacy with him, when nothing else mattered but the two of you?  

And then the hardest time of your life hit you like a ton of bricks.  You were burdened with a secret, you and your family, and you needed James the most, to lean on, to turn to.  But he was gone.  He had been expelled from school after getting into a major fight with another boy, and he was shipped off to military school.  He swore he would write you, but the letters never came.  The phone never rang.  Your parents told you it was for the best, but you cried, and cried, and you were broken into a million pieces over it.  Of course, you had never told anyone that he had beaten the shit out of that other kid for trying to force himself onto you at a party. A party you were never supposed to even go to.  You told your parents you got the bruises from gym class, but really, it was when he was trying to force your clothes off.  You had somehow managed to fight him off of you, and you ran away crying, hearing his taunting and drunken words echoing in your head for days.  “You’re a slut.” “Since you’re so willing to give it up…” “Come on little church girl, don’t be such a tease.” Your reputation had been sullied when a friend spilled that you had been having sex with James. You cried to him the next day, and while he didn’t tell you that he was going to beat the kid to a pulp, you had a feeling he was going to.  The rumor was that it was either military school or jail.  

For years, you wondered if some of the blame for his disappearance fell onto your shoulders.  You were so mad for so long about not hearing from him, but was it your fault?  Was it even worth discussing?  You had buried those thoughts and worries long ago, but now they were back from the grave and gripping you by the throat.  Was this a chance of closure?  Was that what he was hoping for?  Was that the purpose of this whole meeting?

You grabbed a paper towel and delicately dried the tears from your eyes, trying not to smudge your make up more than it already was.  It was humiliating, crying in the bathroom over this man again.  Hell, there was a ring on your finger, this was shameful.  Your fiancé would have been beyond upset to know that you were spilling tears over an old lover who you lied about going to see.  Everything about this was wrong, and it was time to end it.  Once you were composed, you took some deep breaths to find your courage, and you finally left the bathroom and made your way back to the table.  Your eyes stayed on the floor until you got closer to the table, rehearsing how to end the conversation and get out of there without making a scene.  When your eyes finally left the floor and went to the table, you saw that the food was sitting on the table waiting for you, along with James who sat there with his food untouched and a serious look on his face.  

“Look, James,” you tried to start without even taking a seat, but he cut you off.

“You’re about to leave, aren’t you?” he finally looked up at you, and the blue of his eyes swallowed you up. He was sad, maybe he was even scared.

“I…I don’t think this was a good idea.” You tried to be honest without hurting him any further. Why did it matter, though?

“Please just sit for another minute, let me explain.”

“I think you’ve explained enough.”

“No,” said sternly, “I haven’t.” and then he gestured to the spot in front of him, “Please.”  You stood there and briefly considered his offer, and somehow, you ended up giving in.  You cursed at yourself as you slipped into the booth again.  James let out a big sigh and got comfortable in his seat. “I called you because there is no way I’m leaving this planet without fixing things between us.” His eyes hit you again, the urgency of his plans were now apparent.  And there it was, proof that he was looking for closure, and it had you quiet.  “I didn’t realize you were so hurt by…what happened between us,” he didn’t seem to know how to word what he wanted to say, “I know that your parents were very religious, and I get how that makes you feel guilty, but don’t forget, I was a virgin also.”

“A girl losing her virginity is very different from a boy losing his, let’s be honest.” You mentioned.

“I get that, that makes sense.” He nodded, “But, it’s still a big deal.  I didn’t sleep with you to prove a point or hurt you, I did it because I thought we both wanted to, and I had feelings for you.  Yeah, I was a teenager, and teenage guys usually want one thing, but I wanted more than that.  You meant more to me than that.” He placed his hand on his chest, emphasizing his feelings. “And if you felt that way, why didn’t you say anything? Why did we keep doing it?”

You thought for a moment, wanting to give a good answer.  You kept doing it for many reasons.  “Because I thought you genuinely cared about me.” You drew in a deep breath and sighed, “And I genuinely cared about you.  And… it felt good?” you answered with more of a question than a definitive statement.  You shrugged a shoulder, feeling exposed and like you were trying to pry the feelings out of your chest.  You had dealt with many clients who were emotionally choked up, and you were able to get them to open up, but here you were struggling.  James’s lips curved up into a tiny, crooked grin.

“Yeah…we got pretty good at it.” There was a mischievous tone in his voice.

“I guess…also… because it was rebellious.  I was sick of being that good little girl who always went to church and dressed properly and never put a toe out of line.  There was a lot of pressure being the pastor’s daughter, and I guess I kind of cracked under that pressure.  You were a bad boy, a tough guy…I liked that.”

The words spoken stayed heavy in the air between the two of you, and you both stayed silent for a moment, letting it all sink in.  

“Do you remember what I used to call you?” he suddenly brought up an unexpected question.  How could you forget?  

“Angel.” You had to push the nickname past your lips.

“You really were.” He tilted his head.  “I knew you were too good for me.  I didn’t deserve you.  But that’s what made me love you even more.”

Your heart sped up and you started to tingle.  “You loved me?” you spoke as your mouth went dry.

“Of course, I did.  I told you that.” He stated with confidence.

“Yeah but, we didn’t know what love was.  We were kids.”

“You can choose to believe that if you want, but from what I knew about love, I knew I loved you.” And then he looked down at the food on the table, “I didn’t want to start eating while you were in the bathroom, but I’m sure the food is getting cold.” He changed the subject.  

“Oh, sorry.  You should have started without me.” You gave an automatic response, barely registering what he was talking about or the food that was cooling in front of you, you were still caught up on his previous statement.  

              There was a weight that suddenly dropped onto your shoulders, and it crushed the air right out of your lungs.  You forced another deep breath into your lungs before slowly exhaling, and you noticed your hands were starting to shake.  Why were you suddenly feeling so fragile? Your eyes landed back onto him as he cut into his steak, taking a cube of meat and placing it into his mouth and chewing, keeping his gaze down and on his dinner, but he looked like he was concentrating.  You knew that furrow of his brow meant something, there was no way he could go from such a deep conversation to simply enjoying his meal, right?  An unsettled feeling was shrouding the both of you from continuing, but you didn’t know if you wanted to be the one to push the envelope further.  James popped a single fry into his mouth and then reached for his beer.  

“Your food is going to be cold.  Do you want it heated back up?” you knew right then and there that there was more on his mind then he was leading on. He took a long swig of his beer and you shook your head slightly.

“Why didn’t you call me?” you meant for it to come out so much louder than it did, but it was barely loud enough for him to hear.  You wondered if you had to repeat yourself, but when his eyes shot up, you knew he had heard you.  “Why didn’t you visit?” your eyes started to water up again, your voice was weak and stunted.  “If you loved me then why did you leave me like that?” The words hurt coming out. There was panic in his face as you sat waiting for an answer, still shaking your head slightly.

“It’s complicated.”

“It was my fault you went away,” was your bottom lip starting to tremble?

“No, it wasn’t.” he quickly interrupted you, his eyes wide and shaking his head with more gusto than you were.

“You blamed me, didn’t you?” the thought was suddenly very clear in your head, just as clear as the day you realized he wasn’t coming back to you.  The tears started to form again, against your will.

“No, no…” he dropped his fork and knife and reached out and grabbed your wrist, “Hey,” you stared him down, cutting him with your tearful gaze, “Hey…” he tried to stop you from your emotional spiraling, but your gut was already in knots and your chest was already burning with anxiety. “It wasn’t your fault.  It was my own doing, okay?  I was treading on thin ice even before I beat up that kid.”

“Then why didn’t you call?” you challenged him more, a single tear made its way down your cheek, and you weren’t sure which was angering you more, the conversation or the fact that you were crying again.

“I tried to!” his hand slid down on top of yours, but his other hand ran down his face in exasperation, he was getting tense. “I tried to visit you, but…!” he huffed as he placed his hand back up on his forehead, “I wanted to tell you, but I didn’t want to make the situation any worse.”

“What are you talking about? How could you have made the situation any worse?”

“Not with us,” his eyes turned to daggers, “With your dad.”

“My dad?” you cocked your head, spilling another tear.  What was he talking about now?  He had the most uneasy look on his face, and you saw his cheeks dimple as he clenched his jaw.  You remembered that look.  He was angry. “What about my dad?”

“Did you get any of my letters?” he paused, and you froze, “I must have sent you a dozen letters the first month I was gone.”

“What letters?” you whispered, a tear now slipping onto your lips.

His nostrils flared as he inhaled and exhaled slowly. “Y/N, I wrote you trying to explain everything, I even went AWOL and had my friend drive me back home one night so I could try and see you and talk to you.” His grip tightened on your hand, “But your dad wouldn’t let me see you.”

You opened your mouth to speak, but nothing came out, not even a squeak or a single sound.  There as an entire hive of angry bees swarming inside of your chest and you felt your body going hot from head to toe. Was there a key part to the story that you were missing?

Was all this heartache a misunderstanding?  Were you not the only one with secrets in your family?

Next part here.