#familiarsam

[beekeepercain]

18 and 24

18: ever liked someone you thought you didn’t stand a chance with?Every time I like someone. But it’s been… like a decade since I last had a real crush, and even then, I’ve always been weirdly lithromantic. I don’t necessarily want to be in a relationship and when I am, I just want out of it. It’s stupid, especially considering how I want to get married and have kids and all that shit. Having zero attraction, and then feeling like there’s no chance in hell that the feelings could ever be reciprocated without this being a big deal or necessarily a negative thing… it… doesn’t work out, let me tell you.

24: you receive £60 without any reason, what do you spend it on?Here!

Asks? :>

[bythehighwayside]

I was tagged by @babybrotherdean

rules: tag ten people you would like to get to know better

birthday: July 2nd

gender: female

eye colour: dark blue

hair colour: dirty blonde

relationship status: me + pizza = 4 ever

zodiac sign: Cancer

siblings: it’s complicated.

pets: Two goldfish, Spencer and William.

wake up time: ahahahahhahaha hopefully in three years. Let me hibernate.

lemonade or sweet tea: sweet tea - reeeaaally sweet tea

cats or dogs: all of the above? if i have to pick, dogs. but like.

day or night: night? like, evening. ooh or like, summer nights. summer nights sitting in the back of a pickup truck watching fireworks in the trainyard behind the high school. That.

coke or pepsi: pepsi

call or text: text

meet a celebrity: Like, one i have met? Umm I met Anti-Flag once? They’re super cool. Also since this is an spn blog, I met Robbie Thompson once at a meta con.

smiles or eyes: smiles. but eyes are also a+

chapstick or lipstick: chapstick

last song I listened to: “It Ain’t Me Babe” - Bob Dylan

and I’m going to go ahead and tag a couple of mutuals i don’t really know too well, so I hope you guys don’t mind:  @samshinechester, @familiarsam, @soulmatesinanimpala, and @fizzicistic

[themegalosaurus]

i think minxy is the perfect way to describe jared

gosh yes, there’s this particular little face he does which is especially worthy of the term but a quick search of my blog reveals multiple examples. it’s the barely suppressed flirtatiousness that does it i think

[winchestersinthedrift]

❤

@familiarsam is a great writer and runs a blog I really enjoy AND has a delicious nsfw Sam/Jess blog at @sexysamjess

[canonsoulmates]

familiarsam replied to your post “[[MOR] i’ve noticed that a lot of people in the spn fandom...”

that's weird...you're not getting that from me right?? cuz i wouldn't block you!

aw no, it’s just when someone in my dashboard reblogs a post made by those people and i want to rb it, i don’t get to do it but it’s not yall’s fault <3

[beekeepercain]

day 18 and 23 for the spn ask game!

Day 18 - Your favorite SPN romance: Charlie/Gilda. ;-;

Day 23 - The character that is most like you: .... probably Becky. To be fair, though, it’s most likely Sam. I relate to Sam because a lot of the things that are true for him are also true for me: I’ve always been something way, way other than normal, but tried hard to fight against that and find my place in a normal society. Well, that didn’t happen. I’m also extremely stubborn to a point where it probably gets me into trouble that absolutely didn’t need to be there, because I’m convinced I’m doing the right thing yet the people around me tend to not have faith in my choices, which does the exact opposite of making me second-guess. Instead, I become something of a steamroller that will push through solid rock to do the right thing, which.... sometimes backfires fantastically. I haven’t released Lucifer yet, but... yep. I strive to be nothing less than perfect, to be good and kind and patient and selfless, but I have a lot of anger and a lot of darkness inside me that makes me feel ashamed of myself, that makes me feel rather worthless and like whatever I do to compensate isn’t ever quite enough to redeem me. At the same time, most people seem to think I’m mostly a good guy, although I do get called selfish, and selfishness, to me, is the worst that I could ever be.

I once had a therapy session to my friend about how I relate to Gadreel as well, but after that enlightenment I completely and utterly forgot about all the parallels I was drawing. Anyway, I think it’s safe to say that my favourite characters are so because I see a lot of myself in them and hang onto them for safety and comfort and strength. Sam in particular is a huge inspiration for me, because Sam is so good, and if I can see Sam that way, then there better be hope for me, too. And Gadreel gave me so much, he basically kept me breathing through season 9. I honestly cannot put to words how important he was to me during that time. At times, he was quite literally the only thing that got me out of bed in the morning, that kept me thinking that if he can do this, I can do this. 

Unfortunate how that ended, lmao.

ugh.

Anyway. Yeah.

 Stuff? :>

[bythehighwayside]

familiarsam said: “that’s…really creepy o.0″ in response to this post

It is! I mean, I think that whole scene is a little...unsettling? As it is? And I think it was meant to be. I mean come on, bodies really don’t stay fresh that long, and it’s unclear exactly how long Dean’s had Sam lying on that bed but it’s clearly been enough time that even Bobby thinks it’s weird and uncomfortable and that they need to bury him. That one scene spoke volumes about how deep their codependency runs and how all-consuming it is. I don’t know man, I think about it a lot.

[winchestersinthedrift]

familiarsam replied to your post “familiarsam replied to your post “100 Kinks Challenge # 5 (bodily...”

okay i'm gonna start calling myself that pls and thank

If I knew how to draw I’d draw you on a little throne with a festive banner

//coughs @themegalosaurus 

[littlegranite]

familiarsam replied to your post “I’m trying not to buy myself that much clothes right now (since I...”

i love that feeling of finding an awesome cute dress!! dresses are amazing!!

yeah!!! really! especially the ones out this time of year.

[bythehighwayside]

i'm glad you exist

!!!!!

Listen, I don’t know what I did to deserve this, but I, coincidentally, am also very glad you exist, compadre, so thank you!!

[canonsoulmates]

teenage winchesters sharing a bed out of necessity and jerking each other off to take care of their morning wood while john is in the shower OwO

YESSSS and sam wanting to kiss dean good morning but john is asleep right next to them and dean really doesn’t want to risk to get caught but sam is so beautiful when he wakes up and so insistent about it !!

[winchestersinthedrift]

familiarsam replied to your post “100 Kinks Challenge # 5 (bodily fluids) - Sam/Jess - for @familiarsam...”

THIS IS SO IMPORTANT

I’M SO HAPPY YOU LIKE IT 

you’re like the sam/jess queen so guh 

[sidekick-hero]

familiarsam replied to your post “yesss chad makes any j2 au better! he's such a lovable asshole. and...”

have you read the one where he's making porn and gets jared to hook up with jensen on camera? it's great. also jared is hung as hell haha.

OF FUCKING COURSE I HAVE! Wow that story was so hot and when Chad let in those people to watch the Js fuck HNNNNGHH