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@richardhlm

[taetae-tea]

The One (Part V)

Part IV <- Part V –> Part VI

Genre: Hybrid!Taehyung, (soul)mate!Taehyung, Fluff, Angst, smut

Paring: TaehyungXreader

Word-count: 1.7K

Warnings: Abuse, unjust, anxiety, force, animalistic feelings, panic-attacks, indication of mating, Heart/brein-dilemma

Summary: You’ve never liked the idea of hybrids, since it’s straight up abuse from a owner to a hybrid, they aren’t treated like humans. But what happens when your boss gave you a hybrid as a gift?

A/N: Sorry this part took me a while, because I had a week of tests and parties and shit so sorry fam. Also no smut yet >.< NEXT PART I PROMISE. Hope you still enjoy this one!

Masterlist

What happened in Pt.IV of The One

Although all his senses told him to take you right then and there, he knew that you had to be in your right mind for this decision. A human blinded by lust will never make the right decisions, although it was your body making you crazy, he still knew that he shouldn’t take advantage of that. He wants you to choose fairly and to choose for the person he is and not because of your body.

But, this decision has to be taken quickly, because looking at his calendar, his heath will arrive in a day or 3. The pills they got him will certainly not work on a guy in heath with his soulmate in the same room. So, let’s just say, you need to get mated quickly or he needs to get out of that house before hell takes over and he quite literally won’t be able to hold himself back like that anymore.

Things has changed since yesterday evening. You can feel it in your house, quiet and an unconfortable vibe ghosting through the rooms. Everything suddenly seem less nicer, as if something went horrible wrong and the decision you made yesterday wasn’t right.

Taehyung hasn’t been out of his room, not even for some food. But you haven’t called for him either. To be honest, you feel quite himuliated for what you did last night. It was something out of place to you. You would never and had never once in your life once graved someone this bad, and it creeped you the fuck out.

You were and still are very glad Taehyung stopped you, even though the lion inside of him almost took over his body. He was aware of what went through your head at that point, thank god for his abilities to be able to sence certain things like that. Maybe it’s also the reason for him to lock himself away, so he wont be able to effect you and himself in such a way again, not untill you are really aware of the concequenses of being with him, a lion.

Lions are most affectionate to their like-sexed companions. Females spend their lives in their mothers’ pride or with their sisters in a new pride; males may only spend a few years in a given pride but remain with their coalition partners throughout their lives.

You’ve been wondering a lot about this big cat within Taehyung. You’ve looked up a lot about lions and lions behavior. It appears that lions are very territorial, sometimes aggresive but also a sweet creature. He shows his love to the once that really matter, therefore only his own pack. Other packs aren’t welcome, they will get defensive and aggressive towards the others that threats him. You question if Taehyung might be like this too. You haven’t seen him doing anything like that. He must be more of a human than a lion after all.

You closed your laptop with a big sigh, hands wandering through your strands quite frustratingly. Your head hasn’t been able to focus on anything beside Taehyung for the past 6 hours that you’ve been awake. And honestly, it is really getting to your head.

You stand up while looking at your large klock hanging on your wall, seeing that it’s 6 pm and Taehyung and you would be needing to have dinner at this time. You begin to worry for a split second, knowing that Taehyung hasn’t eaten anything in the past day and you know that an hybrid needs to be fed well.

You walk up to the kitchen, immediately getting all the stuff you need to prepare the meal for the both of you. You’re making a steak with some potatoes and some vegetables. It’s easy and fast to prepare, something your prefer.

15 minutes past and dinner was all ready to be eaten. Now the scary part came, you had to get Taehyung out of his cave and to be honest, it’s something you’d like to postpone a little longer. But, reminding yourself to his health, it just has to be done and over with. It’s not like you’d have to talk with him or anything.

‘Taehyung?’ You try to call for him, knocking gently on his door. You couldn’t hear any motion on the other side, there with also no response. Still, you go on with your sentence. At the end it would be his choice wether he would want to eat ot not. ‘I.... dinner is done. You can eat if you’d like to... You don’t have to though.’

You almost slap yourself by the broken sentence that past your lips. You feel so uncomfortable and you didn’t knew if that was because you had to confront him or because you maybe... miss him?

Though the awkwardness in this house, your mind never left him. Though it might have ended quite wrong yesterday, it didn’t mean you stopped graving his attention, his touch and voice...

You wriggle your fingers, nervousness not missing to dawn over you for this whole minute that you’ve been standing in front of that door. You decide on walking away after a while, realizing Taehyung wouldn’t be going out of that room. Not when you’re there and you know exactly why, because even when you walk away from his door, you felt the strong affection towards him.

‘Fucking hell.’ You breathe out, walking to the kitchen to get your own food to eat. Needless to say that Taehyung didn’t went out of his room for the whole night too. It made you quite worried, questions constantly shooting through your head. Did he not like you anymore? Did he feel this uncomfortable? What is he dies because he hasn’t eaten all day?

You let out a last sigh as you finish your foot, now deciding on calling Iris in your bedroom. It’s a thing you do when you don’t know what to do anymore, you call Iris. Though she’s just as old as you, she still has seen and done way more in her life than you. Those horrible stories of Iris’s life is another story which will be told soon or later. Right now, you need her advise. Though she might not understand you situation, she always tries to place herself into your position and comes with a few tips that might help.

‘Hey! What’s up? Anything happening?’ You can already hear her concern from the other side of the line. You let out a sigh and nodded, though she couldn’t see it.

’Tell me.’ She says now 10 times more serious and you let out a chuckle, suddenly realizing how well she knows you.

‘Is it Taehyung?’ She asks and you nod again. Like some magical force had send her your thoughts, you can hear her sigh too. ‘What did he do?’

Your talk took at least 2 hours, you trying to explain your thoughts, feelings and everything that comes with it. She hadn’t laughed, though it certainly is something you would laugh at. It would sound so weird, hearing someone say they are sexual frustrated by an hybrid. There with, developing real feelings for such a extraordinary person, it’s not how it’s supposed to be. You always thought you would end up with a nice handsome guy, have a normal family and a normal job. You never asked more than that, but Taehyung is far from what you’ve thought about when you were younger.

‘Okay, I understand now.’ She finally says. ‘And I also kinda know what you should do.’

‘Okay, fire your tips at me.’ You giggle.

‘Okay, to what I understand, is that you’re scared of what will happen to you and the effect it will have on your life. Personally, I think you should listen to your heart and give into your feelings towards him. When it comes to love, you shouldn’t think too much, you should let it wash over you.’

The feedback is exactly like you’ve been telling yourself and like Emma told you. And of course, it’s the right thing. But anxiety just sometimes gets the best of you. You’re scared of the relationship, of the way your parents will react to it and how you would be living on.

‘I know you’re probably scared, but really, you should just give it a try. You will most likely regret not choosing him.’

Suddenly everything made sense within you. Like a switch that happened within you, you suddenly knew what to do. She was right, you need him in your life, you want him in your life. 

‘Fuck it.’

It was silent for a second before you could hear Iris laugh.

‘Get’m tiger!’

‘Lioness.’ You correct her words and laughed with her.

Like Taehyung had heard your whole conversation, you heard a door swing open from the other side of your apartment. You gulp as you stared at your door as you suddenly heard a beep from your phone, signaling you that Iris stopped the call.

You almost jumped off your bed as your own door suddenly swung open and a dark-looking Taehyung stood in the doorway, lust dripping off his expression. His tail was slowly sweeping behind him and his ears were focussing 100% on you. He knew it, he had felt your switch of thoughts.

‘I’m going to fuck you until you are full of my cubs in your belly.’

Oh boy

A/N: The next part will include a lot of smut, so y'all just wait a little bit!

[andagii-writes]

“A Drop Echoes” Postmortem

Or as I like to think of it, a grand old vomitfest that I've been writing in between chapters so I can keep myself oriented on the fic. And I waited until I finished uploading A Drop Echoes in the Hollow to post it here.

Speaking of which, did you guys enjoy it? While I see all the comments and kudos and bookmarks on AO3, as well as reviews, favorites, and follows on fanfiction.net, I just want to ask. It's literally been nearly 6 years since I posted ANY fanfic online, and having had a not-so-good experience with online socializing or collaboration before, I'd been fairly apprehensive to start posting again.

Shout-out to both Ginger and Draco @gingerdrakewrites and their fics for giving me the courage to move on from those bad memories, and spurring me to start writing and posting again.

I’m here to share some thoughts with y'all about this here fic, 'kay? It's gonna be a long one so pull up a chair, warm up a tea or coffee or cocoa or whatever, drape yourself in a blanket, and relax.

Regarding Kutone

Writing professors told us all the time, that the first full-length project we finish will almost always be some kind of autobiography.

While I haven't had the same tribulations as Kutone, yeah, she is my autobiography.

Mixed race, Afro-Asian. Fairly successful in academia and supposedly has the potential to do more, but she throws it away to pursue something for her own sake. Overcomes self-inflicted isolation and learns to trust and love people again. (Admittedly, I'm nowhere close to doing that last bit.)

After that, she's the ideal I want to be.

Successful. Cool. Sexy. Independent. A little bit taller. A bit of a baller. Badass. Experienced. Confident. I count all these things she has that I don't, and I shrivel up inside.

So here's Kutone, the woman I wish I could be, and I, as the writer, pushed her off her pedestal and shattered her. It felt nice. That there's character development, supposedly.

Writing professors and college-level workshop mates also told me "don't use exotic names for your characters."

To that I say fuck all y'all.

Regarding Sebastian

AKA, the major reason why I decided to purchase Stardew Valley in the first place. Funny story, this one. I was scrolling through the screenshots on the Stardew Valley Steam page, and I think there was a screenshot that happened to show Sebastian's sprite. "Oh okay," I think, "he's kinda cute."

My sister charges in, takes one look at the screenshot, and says, "Man I was about to say he's cute, but god that nose..."

And as we cackled at Sebastian’s expense, I bought the game and started playing it. Made Kutone my avatar (meaning she seriously had no significance until I developed a certain businessman...) and started futzing around in Stardew Valley. With Harvest Moon and Animal Crossing under my belt, I got it pretty quickly.

Met Sebastian and had to put my head down for a few minutes.

‘This man is a reflection of me,’ I thought. I know a lot of other players feel the same way, like the dev had unknowingly taken a piece of my psyche, molded it into pixels and coding, and then, huh, here's a relatable character named Sebastian. That being said, I wanted to write him in a way that avoided the usual tags and labels people tend to slap him under: "emo," "goth," "depressed," "anxious," "gloomy," and basically every other iteration of those words that I felt made him so... meh, you know?

I settled on a new label for him, a label intrinsic to A Drop Echoes: "pathologically introverted."

The guy's actually really expressive, you know. It's just that, due to not being able to wholly trust anyone, he doesn't readily show those expressions. Which would explain why he's such close friends with Sam, and it also gives him a whole other layer of characterization to work with. Minimal, yet loaded. I guess that's where the popular "emo" tag comes from, but I'm still not a fan of the nuances of that label. Yes, he's emotional, and he tries, I think, to not show it, but in the face of sheer logos (like Demetrius), Sebastian knows he doesn't stand a chance. He's hyper aware of the fact he's emotional, but can't compromise that with his more logical side. So he shuts it away.

He needs a safe place to open up. Sam is that safe place. Abigail is that safe place. To a lesser extent, Robin is that safe place. And in writing A Drop Echoes, I wanted him to find another safe place--a permanent safe place--in Kutone. Someone who's a lot closer to him in personality, and someone who seriously puts her faith in him as a safe place. More than anything else in his life, that reciprocation is the magic he needs to "come alive" again. After that is a matter of, will he take it and run and see how far he can go? He knows he has potential. And he has his plan: take his bike out and never look back. Head out to the city and live his ideal life there. Does he fulfill it?

The original game didn't let him.

I like to think Kutone did.

Regarding Rhei

Origin? I had a crush on someone a lot like him--though mine was more angelic in comparison to devilish Rhei--at the same time I remembered a rule in a handbook about no dating in the same workplace. Yeah...

Anyway, based on what I eyeballed from the comments, about 96% of you hated Rhei. How do you feel about him now? Tell me things!

At the time I wrote the chapter starring him, I made this post, which was basically me fangirling over my own character.

Bet you didn't click it. That's okay. TL;DR, Rhei very nearly destroyed the rest of this fic, because Kutone was thiiiiiiis close to getting back together with him. Maybe in some AU version of the fic, they did, and that would be an interesting story on its own. She would have totally broken Sebastian's heart. Totally. That would have been some fun angst to write, but dealing with love triangles and their fallouts--even thinking about that concept makes me shrivel up inside.

I actually have an entire standalone document detailing Rhei and Kutone's relationship! How it started, how Jaci got involved, how successful Rhei and Kutone were, how deeply in love they were. They were too perfect for each other, so they burned up like blazing sawdust. This piece is their theme song. (Also I'm in love with biosphere mkay spare me.)

Regarding Changes

Grading myself here, I think I'm at a B-?

I did good on this fic. Still a good chunk of room for improvement, but despite the fact I want nothing more than to get it out of my face, I like what I've done. Like damn. I wrote a book and I kinda like it.

Things I'd change:

1. Wordiness - I do get too purple in some places, but I also would not sacrifice my prose poetry in certain parts either. 2. Risks - I thought about a lot of these. For instance, Kutone should have slept with Alex, and Seb should have caught them. Again, like Rhei barging in, this would have changed the entire arc of the fic, and I believe that once you cheat, there's no going back to what you were before. Doubt's always going to be a source of conflict in the relationship, and I refuse to believe people like Sebastian or Kutone would ever trust each other again if an affair was on the table. So I shriveled away from that risk too. Sometimes, I gotta let my imagination go there, and see where each rabbit hole takes me, y'know? 3. Omit BS - I'd either cut or fuse a lot of the early chapters. Also, much as I love Alex, a couple of his chapters were really unnecessary. 4. Character arc/Story arc - Is it even there? It needs more! What is even a climax? That was always the one point in the "mapping plot arcs" lessons that I could NEVER understand! More studying necessary.

Any other thoughts? Anything you guys want to ask me about A Drop Echoes before I fully focus on Sunset Stars? Ask me anything, send me your thoughts, theories, conspiracies, cries of mercy, comments or questions to my characters, anything at all, to my lonely inbox.

Also, lastly, but not least, I want to use this moment to thank you all again. For real. Thank you for your love and support, and thank you especially for cheering Kutone on to the end. 

With that...