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I got a "Faebelina" mirror sign to go in my office and I LOVE IT :D It's over the top and shiny but I think it's cool haha. I’ve wanted one of these since I was a little kid! 

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So my best friend (Nerdacide) is at the OWL games today and she made this AMAZING AND ADORABLE SIGN and held it up during the stream lol! Skorn and I were smiling so hard.

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Redid an old drawing to celebrate 19k over on Twitter. I know you guys have been asking me for these for a while, I’ve been too nervous to do them haha. Anyway, I appreciate you guys here on Tumblr too and since this first pic was one of the oldest things on my Tumblr, if you remember it, DOUBLE thanks to you for sticking around this long! :D 

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what do you do when you are overthinking? I'm in such an unhealthy place right now with it and I can't get it to stop :'(

Aww Anon, I’m sorry. : ( I overthink a lot more than I should. I think knowing that it’s something you do is half the battle. Here are the steps I take when I find myself thinking too much:

1. Realize I’m probably overthinking.

2. Take a step back form the situation, remove myself to another room or go outside or put my phone down. Getting fresh air can do wonders for clarity. 

3. Rationalize the situation. If I find I did something wrong, try to apologize. If I rationally find I didn’t do anything I could consider wrong, remind myself that that’s probably paranoia talking. 

4. Remind myself that people think way less about me than I think they do.  I think that’s true for almost everyone, unless you’re a big celebrity haha. Most people probably aren’t thinking about you all the time. 

That’s in a social situation. If I’m overthinking my art, I will work on a personal piece that is special to me and only me. Something that reminds me why I love art. That helps ground me and keep me from spiraling into the “oh no I know nothing about art and I never will and I’ll never be good because….” abyss. It’s easy to get caught there if you’re not vigilant. 

Anyway, I hope this helps with whatever situation you’re in at the moment and I hope you can find your way out soon : ) 

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Had a hard weekend dealing with some stuff that bled over into the week. But every day I've been reminding myself that the sunshine is bound to come back and its okay to feel what you feel until it does. Yesterday I felt like the rays were peeking through again and that my heart will heal in time. The sun will always return. :)

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Been struggling lately with a lot of people talking over me in several areas of my life. I’m used to my family doing it but lately it’s been coming from people I consider friends and people I like to talk to on a regular basis. It’s part of the reason I’m so quiet irl, I decided when I was little I didn’t like raising my voice so if someone was louder than me and the only way to talk was to talk louder than them, I wouldn’t do it. 

For all its flaws, Tumblr allows me to just talk sometimes and I’m really thankful for that. I’m thankful to you guys that you let me be myself and say what I want to say. You’re good people and I hope you all have a really nice rest of your week. Thank you for all you give to me.

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My thoughts on BfA Spoilers below!

Click only if you want to be spoiled, my friends! 

Just watched the new allied race cutscenes here: http://www.wowhead.com/news=279846/allied-race-intro-and-unlock-scenario-cutscenes-spoilers

HOO BOY!

Lightforged/Void Elves:

First of all, wow the Void elves and Lightforged have a more badass/sinister tone than I was expecting. Kivaa definitely fits within their attitude lol. I wonder who did the trial with her? (In my headcanon, obv they pick for you in the cutscene) Maybe someone else’s draenei would like to be her trial buddy :3

They talked about the Light showing the “true path”. The Void has some opinions on that. I wonder how these two races are going to get along? It’s interesting that they decided to put them on the same side when ideologically they are different. Or are they? Very interested to see how that plays out. I can definitely see these two races being a lot more aggressive than we’ve seen from the Alliance so far. Maybe even make some SUPER bad decisions, would not be surprised.

Blood elves/Nightborne:

So great to see Alleria back in Silvermoon. Got chills because when I first played through that zone I kept wondering what it was like when the Windrunners were there. It really makes me wonder though why, right after defeating the Legion and the new war hasn’t even started yet, why they won’t even HEAR the message she has to bring? Even if they didn’t like it, it would still be useful information--tactically. Like, like or hate Anduin, at this point in the story he’s done so much to stop the killing on both sides. In the future? I don’t know who or what he’ll become. Maybe this was his last effort to make peace? 

The. Night. Borne. Let us hope, Thalyssra, that Tyrande AND Elune aren’t right about you. (Please Blizz, I like Thalyssra...at least for now.) I find it really odd though that she and Liadrin seem to have forgotten that love of and addiction to magic has killed (uninvolved) Kaldorei not once, not twice, but three times? Is it really that surprising that Tyrande would ask that question? I mean, I don’t agree with Tyrande like I’ve said, but I get why she would feel that way. At least when the Kaldorei “slept in dens and trees” and stuff, they had the excuse that they were on a whole different continent than the fighting. The War of the Ancients came right through Suramar and they walled themselves off. (Understandably to save themselves, but how is one okay and one is not?) 

Tyrande remembers her own home turning their backs while she fought the Legion. Even Silgryn could admit how impressive they were to do what they’ve done to save themselves without having magic. Maybe all this pent-up resentment and anger will give her some good writing in the expansion. I’m still on the fence about her. I have a strong feeling that by the end of BfA, I’m going to like or hate Tyrande or Thalyssra and I’m not sure which will be which yet! 

I’m already disappointed (as a former belf player who loves them) that the blood elves are doing to the void elves what they believe was done to them. It’s kind of a core part of their culture. You would think having to make the impossible choice Malfurion had to make would give them some more understanding but I guess not. I really hope that there are more good things to be proud of in the Sin’dorei story to make up for that. Helping the Nightborne is definitely one of those things that shines...just...I just hope they’re not helping them because they have something to offer and shunning their own who became void elves because they see them as weak/dangerous. Even though I don’t play one anymore, I’m still very invested in what’s going on with/for them. 

In a way though, it’s gratifying to see them do this BECAUSE it kinda proves what everyone already thinks--Elves are elves are elves are elves. They’re all one people who by the stupid actions of others and the perpetuation of old grudges can’t find peace. We’re all beautiful, let’s stop fighting pls thx!

Highmountain:

If you guys don’t already know by now, I think the Tauren are the best of us Azerothians in their attitude and demeanor. The Highmountain tribe takes that to a new level. Mayla is a badass. There’s really not much more I can add because they’re perfect  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ I may not play a moo moo but I love the moo moos. Unrelated note, my mom’s favorite animals are cows so I’ve always imagined that if she played WoW she’d be a tauren priest going around healing people’s scapes and scratches haha.

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Been meaning to draw this for a while. The good and bad things people have said about my art over the last three years that stick in my head. From friends, strangers, family members. There’s no real point to this other than to put on canvas what goes through my head daily. Putting myself out there is still scary sometimes but it’s so worth it, even with all the bad things.

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I knew putting myself out there and laying something close to me bear yesterday was going to be rough. Most people were really supportive and I was thankful for that. But this morning one of the people responsible for a “blue” side word tried to tell me how to feel about my own expression. I’ve been fighting with those words they told me for over a year, and today I was like you know what...you don’t have power here anymore, m’dude. I’ve got support and love and good friends and a lot of heart, and nothing’s going to stop me drawing every day like I’ve done for the past almost three years. 

Faeb doesn’t have a lot of confidence as a character right now, and I wanted to show her leveling up, if you will, in herself--so I drew that! Because I think we both kind of leveled up today and overcame some stuff holding us back. And because how my day goes almost directly translates into what I draw...I’m an open book, guys XD 

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*sighs*

*rubs temples*

If you dislike the “what if” Faebs for any reason...any reason at all, please don’t send me messages about it. I really don’t want to read why “this doesn’t please” anyone. I do them for me.

If you are an artist that has helpful criticism, that’s another thing. Be my guest. I don’t need random people telling me why I should not make Faeb into a certain thing because they don’t like it. The same thing happened with the OW faeries, guys didn’t like me putting men in flowery outfits, but I did it a.n.y.w.a.y. And I’ll be doing the same with Faeb, so if that displeases you, please leave me alone and spend your time on an artist you DO like. That’s the happiest outcome for both of us. :)  I’m not going to respond to any more of those comments/DMs/messages today, and I’m going to spend some time with my family this evening and have a good time.

And draw some more “what if” Faeb later because that’s not stopping. : P

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Most of the art I did in June : ) 

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Reached 8k followers over here and 14k over on Twitter at the same time so I wanted to thank you guys for being here and supporting me! Faeb and her classmates made a banner to celebrate :D 

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In an effort to grow and take crit better I've made one of these!

https://faebelina.sarahah.com/

Looking for ways to improve in art. At this point it’s kind of overwhelming feeling like I need to work on everything, so having some direction really helps. Some of the messages have given me some good stuff to work with so far. : )

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Why I Don’t Have A Wait List

I know it’s been really hard for people waiting for commissions to be open again because this batch has taken me so long, trust me, I’m feeling the same way. I’ve been asked frequently why I don’t just keep a wait list and I thought now would be a good time as I wrap up this queue to answer that question for you guys. <3

1. I’ve tried it before.

A long time ago I took on a wait list for months worth of work. While it made me really happy to have so much work, it was frustrating for people waiting for me to be open again to be met with “you have to wait at least three months” when I’d answer. It was also frustrating for the people in the queue to know I wouldn’t be able to even start on their piece for a VERY long time. That time period left me very sad and anxious because I wanted to take care of everybody.

2. Honestly and truthfully, if I took one now I’d probably have over a year’s worth of work.

If I took on a wait list everyone that wanted me to, I’d probably be closed for over a year, and I don’t really want to commit to that. I like the freedom of being able to close for a while after a batch and/or choose my openings in case life happens.

3. “I’m not ready yet.”

In almost every opening I have had over the last three years of doing commissions I’ve had one or two people that weren’t ready to go---with payment, references, etc. The chance of that happening is obviously higher when you have more people, and on top of that, it’s very likely that by the time I get to X person on my wait list that they no longer have the funds (or interest) to work with me anymore. So I’d like to avoid that scenario if I can. I want to work with people who are ready and excited to work with me. : )

I hope this helps some people who have been wondering. There are several artists that I love that I’ve never been able to get in their queue/always miss their openings, so I know personally how frustrating it can be. I just want you guys to know I’m doing my best and working as many (but still being safe and healthy) hours as I can. <3 I’ll have a date for the next opening for you guys soon--it will be chibis ONLY as lots of people have requested that. After that we’ll go back to a regular one. Dates and info to come! :)

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This is a feature quite a few people asked for! It’s now live on my site. : ) No more having to catch my tweets/posts!

http://www.faebelina-art.com/order_form?commission_type_id=3

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I've been following you for roughly a year now and honestly your art growth is phenomenal. Your lines are so good and confident and your colours are so beautiful and well matched. Your details have gotten finer and your style even more so your own, even though it was very distinct before. I love it and wanted to let you know you're an inspiration to me. Keep up the incredible work

I can’t tell you how much you’ve made my week. Thank you so much…I really appreciate your taking the time to leave me such an encouraging message! You are a ray of sunshine