#eyesagao!elsa

[poketin]

Eyesagao AU - Void Times

guess what i did instead of studying for my midterm on tuesday haha oops

i was inspired by my beautiful friends @tracelii and @ellieofmidnight and their amazing writing for our fucked au <3 i haven’t written in a while, only one thing for eyesagao as well, and i apologize for that deeply. enjoy this little piece of banter between ian and elsa in the void anyhow!

Elsa stumbled in from nowhere, practically popping into this plane of existence out of nowhere, all breathy sort of giggles and mussed up clothing and hair. Small bruises crowded on her neck and collarbones as if she was becoming possessed by the monster from Devious House 7 (Resident Evil 7 reference? Like the possession?).

“I see you were out enjoying yourself.”

Ian tried to make his tone as neutral as possible, but the curtness cut through all the same. Subtlety didn’t seem to come easy to him these days, as evidenced by Elsa’s face falling.

She bit her lip, shame and apprehension radiating off her. She crossed her arms and glared as Ian cursed himself inside his mind.

He was way too tired for this.

“Oh, I’m not allowed to have fun anymore? Wasn’t the point of bringing me here so that I could take a breather from all the shit going on?”

“Ellie doesn’t get to relax.” Elsa flinched as if he had struck her, Ian’s expression unchanging. Not even his unflinching gaze had strayed from her. Since when had things gotten this cold? “Neither does Traci.”

Elsa was hurt, but there was some anger clawing at Ian’s throat and it was hurting him too much to keep it in. He was confused and angry and...terrified, but most of all he was sick of everything, and Elsa fucking the enemy definitely wasn’t helping matters.

“Besides,” he continued after letting his previous words sink in. “I brought you here to sleep. Sleep so you could be of better help to our friends. Or my friends, if you aren’t taking this seriously.” He didn’t exactly condone what he just muttered, but if there were any wounds festering, the bad shit needed to be ripped off and aired out.

“I thought...are we not friends, Ian?” she said in a small voice. His heart didn’t even have the chance to beat before she started talking again. “Humor is how I deal with shit times, Ian. I thought you would understand, Mr. Sarcastic,” she grumbled as she pulled up the large leather jacket that seemed to be sliding off her (where had she gotten that?). “I just needed a break.”

“Are you content to be their toy?” He heard Elsa suck in a breath, but paid her no mind. “You don’t mind how they’re using you, or like how they’re, I dunno, basically the asshole, empty versions of your friends?” She seemed to mutter something about how they weren’t using her, but Ian silenced her with a look. “Didn’t the gray Ellie—”

“Kelly.”

Ian blinked, and his anger sputtered and died like faulty engine. “Excuse me?”

Elsa blinked right back, seemingly regurgitating this name automatically and without thought. “Um...her name. It’s Kelly. Not gray Ellie. I mean, then it’d be Grellie, right? Grayllie? Right? Right. Sorry, continue.”

He rolled his eyes. How deep was this girl? “Didn’t Kelly try to kill you or something? It happened a bit ago but even your memory isn’t that bad.”

Elsa smiled and waved a hand dismissively. “Nah! I mean, yeah, she probably was trying to kill me. Or maybe just scaring me? Either way, she’s not so bad! She’s mean in that good way that I like, and it’s super fun when she—”

“Did she give you the jacket?”

Elsa made a strangled noise of realization and tried to hide the jacket with her arms—despite the fact she was practically drowning in it. Unimpressed, Ian raised an eyebrow.

“Um...right. The jacket. That jacket. This jacket?”

Elsa hooked her fingers into the leather collar and tugged, fiddling with it so she wouldn’t have to match Ian’s stare. Once it became obvious he wasn’t going to let up, or even say anything, she grimaced and glanced upwards into nothing, blushing.

“No, Grace gave this to me after...uh. After we talked. About stuff.” She sighed and looked directly at him. “Fuck it, you already know anyway. Grace is Traci’s gray clone person—she’s really big, like super-buff-biker-chick-with-a-metal-baseball-bat-deal going on, wowza—and we were fooling around and stuff and she actually gave it to me—or lent it, I guess. I was going to decline—maybe it had like a tracking device in it or something—but unlike Traci, Grace isn’t really...smart? Like she’s smart in other ways, but Grace is more impulsive and stuff, while Kelly’s pretty witty, like she does this thing where—” Ian was staring at her. “What?”

“Geez when are you going to introduce them to your parents?” he snarked. She stuck out her tongue, but she trailed off and began fiddling with her fingers before speaking again.

“I...I can’t do without fun. This is how I’ve scraped through life, Ian! There’s always time for myself. And that sounds selfish as shit but it’s not like I can wave everyone’s problems away with a snap of my fingers.”

Ian quirked an eyebrow and allowed himself a small grin. “How do you snap and wave at the same time?”

Elsa snorted and finally sat next to him, leaning on his shoulder with a sigh. “I’m...sorry.” She touched one of the many dark spots on her neck, and breathed out shakily. “I needed a distraction I guess. It doesn’t hurt that they’re both smoking hot either—”

She fell with an ‘oof’ as Ian scooted as far away as possible. “I really don’t want to hear what or who you’ve been doing stuff with. Fine, distract yourself however you like, whatever helps. But I don’t want to hear about it. Just don’t die.” He yawned. “Now shut up, I need sleep.”

Elsa nodded gravely. “Yeah, me too,” she said, electing to stay on her side in as dignified a position as possible. “Those gals really wore me out.”

“Ugh.” Ian turned on his side, away from the walking ‘just for the articles I swear’ FunGal magazine that was next to him...Huh. “Hey, Elsa?”

“Mhm?”

“If someone found out you had a FunGal magazine collection, or they found you with one in hand, what would you do?”

“I’d do what anyone with common decency would do, Mooseman.”

He dared to lift his head and look at her, and he was greeted with eyes shining like stars, a grin that was as lopsided as they come, and a fist raised patriotically into the air...the angle a bit strange because of her position, but it worked all the same.

“I’d show them all the best girls of course!”

“Which are…?”

“All of them, duh.”

Ian smirked as he settled down again. Optimism upheld by her personality...and lots of sexy things. Yeah, it was nice to see how little everything had really changed her.

Hopefully, things would stay that way.

[tracelii]

hey whatsup fucks remember when I used to write a little something called eyesagao??? Yea, me neither but here we are! This one takes place right after this feel good story of the year, yall.

There was a lot of noise as she and Ian raced though the hallway, out the girls building, into the school, and finally up the stairs to the roof. She couldn’t see anything from the ground outside looking up, thankfully noting the absence of a body splatted against the pavement, but the sun in her eyes disallowed any kind of visual of anyone on the roof, so they just had to keep hoofing it from there.

It was especially thunderous once they hit the metal steps in the empty hallway. Ian was strides ahead of her, damn her short legs in times such as these (or rather, bless his long ones). He took stairs like it was nothing.

“I’m sorry, WHAT?!”

“The roof….” Traci had smiled, clearly showing she was out of her damn mind. “I was… really scared, but I proved it to him. I proved to him that I really loved him…”

“You’re like… shitting me, right? Like… you’re joking.” Never. Never in a billion years would have Elsa believed any of the things that had come out of Traci’s mouth in the past 2 or so minutes. Never.

“Why would I be kidding?” She sighed. “Of course you wouldn’t get it. It’s too complicated.”

“Traci what the FUCK did you do?!” She didn’t mean to raise her voice, but her panic had burst though in the single moment that Elsa had formally realized that Traci had been dead fucking serious. She expected Traci to jump with the sudden change in tone and volume, but Traci only looked into her blank cell phone screen with a serene expression.

“I proved my love.” She repeated

“All you proved is that you’re clearly not thinking!” She struggled to keep the cap on her volume- she didn’t want to make enemies with Traci in this… uh… state, apparently, but her worry had spiked so much more than it had on just finding her sitting in a closet. “Traci, I--- I don’t know about this…”

It was one of the last full conversations she and Traci had had with each other, and it wasn’t a pretty one, but it was all she could thinking about. The roof. That awful room. Those awful, awful dreams Anti gave her about Traci and the roof.

“If there’s anywhere she would be, it would be here!” She burst though the door though Ian had reached it before she had- where he had slowed down to look back at her, she charged on though without another thought.

Just like the nightmare.

The nightmare, one of many (many versions of this nightmare as well as many others) Anti had ‘gifted her’ with in trying to scare off of helping her friends out, had a situation much like this, give or take the time of day. She would throw open the door, and see what she saw before her.

Traci’s back was to the both of them, standing on the outer edge of the railing, and looking out to the rest of the school ground, readjusting her steps every so often on the thin edge of the roof. Her head turned to see who had come to her, but her face dropped at the sight of them, and wordlessly, she turned back away, staring out into nothing. She said nothing. She did nothing.

“Shes gonna jump.” Elsa’s feet stuck in place. The nightmare. The nightmares. Every nightmare would start just the same, ending with Traci tossing herself from the roof, whether it was when Elsa had just gotten though the door or had managed to brush her friend’s school outfit as it slipped out of her grasp. “Shes gonna jump shes gonna jump-“ Elsa’s voice shook. She couldn’t move. “Ian shes gonna---“

Ian gripped her shoulder tightly, and gave a firm shook that silenced, and somehow comforted her. “Traci.” He called out to her, to no reply. “Traci! Get down from there. Come back on this side. Jack wouldn’t want you to do that.”

Traci’s hand gripped the railing tighter, but she didn’t budge in either direction.

Elsa’s hands balled in fists as she couldn’t keep at least a few tears from dotting her face. She could see it so clearly- Traci disappearing over that edge. She could see it so clearly she could swear it had already happened. Ian squeezed her shoulder, and she felt herself tremble more.

“We…. We have to-“

-----

It didn’t mean anything, the more Ellie looked over the phone. Everything faded back from her immediate memory. No conversations or scratching Ian, none of her ex-friends being more concerned over… her… hell, she didn’t even remember what she had told Traci, but she was sure it done the job, and Traci would probably never bother Jack again. That was worth the good news while handing his phone back, right? She just had to go the---

Ellie blinked, looking up at the library sign, recalling this was exactly where she had wanted to go. Her shoulders ached a bit- probably having run into a few people on the way, but that was little to care about, to remember, to focus about. She only had to do that for Jack, and no one else.

Also, belatedly, she recognized the phone buzzing in her hand. There was a picture of Wallid and Like being idiots, one on either side of one Ian moose looking pretty ridiculous, mouth open, mid-word. She recognized the number too, but when she looked back at the photo, it was… different. The boy in the middle appeared physically unrecognizable to her. The boys on the sides had blurry faces, but the boy in the middle… she couldn’t see a face. She couldn’t recognize it. She-

Ellie stared at her open hands. “Wh…”

“Ellie what are you doin, huh?” Jack asked, holding the phone. The call had gone away, and she exhaled slowly, something akin to relief washing over her. Everything cleared up when she saw Jack- it was, after all, the only person that mattered. She studied him, as he studied her, waiting for an answer.

“Hm… I love you.” Ellie said, a little giggle lifting at the tail-end of her sentence. This was true. She loved him, more than anything.

“Come on.” He held his hand out, his opposite hand buzzling as his phone came to life again. “I want to show you something.”

“Of course...” Ellie said, taking his hand.

--

“What the fuck.” Ian said, forcing a breath. He had called Jack several times. Had Ellie not given his phone back yet? This was no good. Surely, Jack, if no one else, could get Traci to come back to this side of reality, at least physically, on the safe side of the fence. There was an option to just go get Jack, but obviously Traci needed an eye to be kept on her, and it seemed like the way Elsa was understandably acting, so would she.

He couldn’t leave them alone.

But he also couldn’t leave them like this.

“Elsa.” He gave another shake. “Elsa you good? Can you stay here with Traci?”

“H-Huh? I mean… n-no problem Saltlick.” She hunched her shoulders before rolling them back, and trying to take a more prominent stance.

“What is it with you and nicknames?”

“It’s my specialty. It’s what I’m going to school for.” Elsa chuckled, and her shoulders and stance relaxed. “They were only nightmares. They were only bad, shitty, terrible dreams.”

“I’m just going to get Jack, alright? He’ll get her to get down.”

“Right, good plan.”

“Alright. Sit tight, I’ll be right back.”

At the conclusion of their conversation, right as Ian lifted his hand from Elsa’s shoulder, to see if she could actually stand on her own in this moment, the door to the rooftop opened. Both Elsa and Ian turned their heads to see Jack calmly step though the door, hand in hand with Ellie, who was hanging onto him for dear life.

“Tell Traci to get down.” Ian said, cutting to the point. He turned back to check to see if Traci had moved or even reacted. “She’s going to listen to you.”

“Oh, aye, I know, but why should I?” He asked very simply.

Both Ian and Elsa had whirled around again, nearly with whiplash, Ian choking on his words once his eyes widened at the sight of the most shit-eating grin he’d ever possibly seen.

“Where’s Jack?” He said, his eyes furrowing into a glare.

“You’re asking that like he’s not right here.” Anti said, a mock gasp following the action of placing his free hand on his chest. “That really hurts, you guys.”

Ellie clung tighter to his hand, her head aching. “Please… I don’t want to be up here.” She whispered into his shoulder.

“I know.” Came the voice whispered back to her. She wasn’t really sure if it had been said or not, but it comforted her somewhat, all the same. Closing her eyes, she waited patiently for and with her beloved.

“Listen asswipe, bother us later. Now? Right now we need Jack!”

His body straightened up as he came to sudden attention with little warning. His eyes stared ahead of him, wide and alert, staring right at the back of Traci’s head. He looked towards Ian and Elsa, standing to the side, speaking to him, pointing at her, panic running though their faces. He knew what was happening. He knew why he was here, and yet….

“I could tell her to jump.” A twist on his own voice. “Hey… Hey now…. Yoo-hoo, way over there. Do you know what I want you to do? What I-“

“TRACI!” His voice broke through- he broke though. Jack dragged himself a couple of feet, but Ellie was mere seconds behind. “HEY! DON’T-“

“Don’t make any sudden moves.” His voice teased at them all. “Don’t slip, now. Don’t look down.”

He pushed again, and his hands curled in towards his body as he stumbled. Every time Anti snatched control from him, it felt like his head was being dunked under water- it got harder to move, harder to breathe, harder to think. “Don’t--- Don’t---“ He was mumbling, but the second voice jumped forward again.

“Don’t.” Anti teased him. Said out loud, distorting his voice. He felt out of place here, like here wasn’t real- like none of this was real. “Don’t just think that I’m ready to let the fun end just now.”

Jack yelled- he screamed, a burst of his voice breaking though the murky surface. He saw Ian, hands out towards him, removing Ellie, who resisted, who went to stand in his way. His screaming sounded so very far away, and blood began to drip down his nose. If anything, the salty taste on his lips almost grounded him.

“Traci—“

“Look at you all, just standing there.”

“Traci, look--- look at-“

“Afraid to do anything, content with doing nothing.

Jack’s nose got worse as did his head. Step by step, he still seemed miles away from the Girl standing on the edge. “Traci, please-“

“And right now, any of you could stop me. Could stop us.”

His body whirled, his hands open, Anti showing off. All Three teenagers froze before Ellie (currently trapped in a sort of embrace by Ian, calling out Jack’s name in desperation) reached out for him. Ian was holding her still, and still frozen in place besides them was Elsa, for once, as speechless and lost as the rest.

“But all you’ll do is stand there and watch.” Jack felt his mouth spit the word with laughter and spite. “And if I told her, right now? She would do it. I guess they better look out below?”

No, this couldn’t be it. Not with everyone looking on in horror. Not for him. Not for Traci. Jack gripped his left arm and forced himself to turn around. This did not feel human. He did not feel human.

“Traci?”

“T-Traci?”

Finally, her face turned, watching him with wide, tear filled eyes. She didn’t look like she would breathe unless he told her to. She was waiting on his word--- everyone was.

“Traci.” Commanded the voice. “Come down from there. No use in wasting your life now.”

Everything snapped back into place. Moving his body was no longer a conscious movement, but Jack took a few more steps, arms wrapped around himself, and collapsed onto the pavement, his knees hitting the hard ground and waking him from his dreams and draining the oceans of static that had swallowed up his mind.

He couldn’t move.

“Hey--!” Elsa started for him, but right in his field of vision, he saw Traci climb back over to the safe side of the railings, and coincidentally, also collapse. Where he felt cold to the point of stiffness, he saw Traci collapse into a pile, gasping for breath, and trembling as Elsa touched her side. She poured on words of comfort, and worriedly looked back a him.

Ellie had gotten to him first, stroking his face, big salty tears dripping down hers. “They won’t leave you alone…” She said. “I was trying to get her to leave you alone.” Her shoulders shook as she leaned down over him, her dark hair cascading down his chest as her face hovered mere inches from hers. “Jack? Are you okay? Are you hurt?”

He opened his mouth, but somehow knew the answer wouldn’t matter. “Ellie, maybe you should…” his throat was raw. “Maybe you should head back to your dorm…” He closed his eyes. “Ian, can you help…”

“Yea.” Ian’s voice was quiet, and came over, once again his hands clasping Ellie. She fought her way out of his grip, clearly offended that he would touch her again in spite of just trying to help her to her feet, and she, rubbing her eyes, ran back to the stairwell.

There was silence now, Ian reaching down to help Jack to his feet. He looked a mess, to but it nicely. His body was limp, his mouth and the collar of his shirt coated in his blood. More was dripping and it was trailing down his shirt, his pants, and there was a miniscule puddle on the ground where his head had been. If he didn’t look so alert and disappointed and mad, he just would have looked unconscious. Once Ian had situated both him and the bloody boy so that he was supporting most of Jack’s weight on his shoulder, he peeked over to look at him. “Is this okay? We should be able to make it back to the boy’s dorm.”

“He’s not…” Jack murmured. “He’s not fighting for my body… I am.”

Ian sighed out, looking back to the two girls on the ground. “Elsa-“

“It’s fine.” Elsa said, nodding towards him. She had sat Traci up, who was teary eyed but generally unscathed, staring blankly on the floor. “Take him back, let him rest up. Thanks, Jack.”

Jack only managed a nod, but his eyes had also drifted, looking almost as empty if not just regretful. Without another word, they parted ways.

---

Elsa watched the afternoon drift by, and held one sided conversations with her friend who still hadn’t moved on responded since the whole incident. Elsa had made sure her face was clean, the tears were wiped away, there was no stray gravel stuck to her or her clothes, and she just waited. It was hours, and Ian kept texting her to see if Traci had ‘come to’ yet, but… there was no such luck.

“Nice sunset, huh?” Elsa noted, right as the final rays had disappeared behind the far higanbana hills. “I wish… you could have seen it.” She sighed, looking over at Traci again. “Its getting dark…. I might actually have to get Ian to help haul your ass to bed.” She chuckled, but there was no humor. It kind of hurt instead.

“This is familiar…”

Elsa nearly jumped out of her skin. It had been the first thing she’d heard Traci say all day. “Tracklepop?”

Traci stared though her for such a long moment, Elsa was starting to doubt she was really there. “I’m…. scared, but….” She whispered. Her head turned, somehow in slow motion, to look around. “Is he… here? Did he….. forgive… me?”

There was that familiar bile in the very back of her throat that wanted to rise with a vengeance. “Traci…” Elsa’s eyes spotted where her friend was, hours ago, where she could have been for the rest of her short life. “Uhmm… Yea…. He-. He forgave you.”

The relief that crossed Traci’s face just reminded Elsa of exactly how she would never feel as long as Anti was around. “Oh… I’m so glad.” Her shoulders sagged and for a moment, it looked as if she would pass out again, her eyes closing as she smiled blissfully. A few tears rolled down her cheek, and she smiled again as she opened her eyes to look at Elsa, then burst into tears.

Elsa pulled her into a hug, unwilling to watch Traci cry out of ‘happiness’. It would be hard to believe Traci could ever hope to understand what took place here- Elsa certainly didn’t, and she had at least most of her wits about her.

“I promise we’re going to fix this. I promise. We’ll find a way, Traci, I swear.” Clutching on to her tighter as she felt a rather pained sob crack Traci’s happy exterior, Elsa clenched her eyes shut and tried to will herself not to cry in the meanwhile.

[tracelii]

Eyesagao thing: Wanted

uhmmm I just really wanted to type something sad ok leave me alone let my characters s u f f e r....

Its a little on the short size but I dont have the neergy for a full fic tonight, my bad

@ellieofmidnight @poketin

“Is this what this is?” Her voice was somehow simultaneously dead and unimpressed. Her face was tired, her expression worn, yet angry. Traci was like an unyielding wall, bricks sticking out oddly and without reason- like the right brick could be removed and she would open herself to let you in, but there were many more bricks that if removed, would cause her to completely collapse.

Elsa gave an optimistic smile, once again, pushing at the bricks. Gently…. She had to do it gently. “No, I just… I promise, I don’t care about Jack, I’m just… worried about you and Ellie. I just want you guys to be careful. I’m just worried… you haven’t slept or ate recently, and I think you’ve been kind of… sleepwalking.” That was a lie- maybe Traci wasn’t aware of what she had been doing lately, but she was certainly awake, and seemed to be very consciously doing it. “Uhm… Just… how important is he to you, anyway? Jack, I mean?”

Her tired, dark-haired eyebrows rose sluggishly in genuine surprise, then quite a calculating look crossed her face instead- the darker girl inspecting the Italian as if she was the one who asked Elsa the question. “You want to know how important he is to me?” she put one foot forward, moving towards Elsa now and closing the distance between them.

Elsa inhaled sharply, not sure what to expect as they stood in the stairwell of the girl’s dorm this late evening. She was—at least now, actively trying to stop Traci from meeting with Jack again. She wanted nothing more than Traci to catch some sleep, for some peace to come for her friend, even for this one moment. “I—Well- yea, I mean…. He’d want you to sleep, right? So you can… I don’t know, be a full energy around him. He’d want you to eat so you can be at your best for him, right?” There was silence, and Traci’s eerie aura seemed to sweep around her, especially with her standing so close… there was little space between Elsa’s back and the wall as they stood in the shadows, in the deep corner of the bottom of the stairwell- they could barely see each other.

“I know what he wants.” Meaningless words that fell from her lips. Traci then tilted her head, and seemingly repeated herself. “He knows what you want.”

“Wh—“ Her head bumped the wall immediately behind her as she recoiled out of shock of not only Traci closing the distance between them, but mostly from the kiss that followed as their lips clumsily met.

She wasn’t the most experienced- and she certainly wasn’t ready, but her brain reeled wildly as it tried to stop the world from spinning- these few seconds lasted forever, and by time Traci had pulled away, Elsa’s head had lightly smacked the wall again, her body leaning back out of shock. A gasp yanked air back into her lungs, and the edge of her tongue tasted the tangy lip gloss her friend had been wearing as Elsa struggled to find her words, or even her next option.

“This is it.” Traci stated, a softer, more tired smile gifting her shadowed face. “And I didn’t know… but it’s okay. If that’s what you want, you can have it.” She shook her head. “You can have it almost any time you want.” She reached forward, taking trembling hands in her own, and squeezed them. “I can give It to you Elsa I just need you to work with me.”

Her lips still parted, her gasps still audible, tears seemed to well up in the corner of her eyes. This was not what she wanted. Not here, not now, and certainly not like this. She pulled her hands free from Traci’s grasp, and balled them both into fists. “He… He really doesn’t give a shit, does he.” The trembles in her hands shook her whole body at once, and escaped in her voice, shaking her words. “He doesn’t…” she was trying to be friendly—this was one of the first times Traci had freely approached—

No. Traci had not approached her. This might have been Traci, but none of this was Traci’s doing.

“I’m sorry, Traci.” Elsa said, slow, and deliberate. “I can’t… accept that. I can’t do that to you. If…” she forced a laugh, a dull pain aching her rapidly beating heart. “If by some wild act, that’s how you really feel, I hope you tell me when you’re yourself again.”

Traci didn’t look confused or hurt or even embarrassed. This girl who was shy, who never said the first or last word, this girl who was another kid trying to live her life—her face was empty. Her eyes searched Elsa’s eyes, looking for the answer she had been clearly sent to get.

“I love you.” Elsa said softly. “I love the both of you. And I… I’ll find a way to get rid of that fucker, so you--- you, and Ellie can actually…” she sniffed. “Actually finds someone who loves you guys even half as much as I do.” She chuckled, reaching out now to pat Traci’s shoulders. “Tell… Tell Anti to fuck off. Tell him that--- if he thinks this shitty move is gonna keep from fighting, it backfired horrifically and now I’m going to be fighting this shit twice as hard…. I hope he lets you get some rest tonight, tracklepop.” She now felt as tired as Traci looked. Shaking her head and trying to shake off every shiver left in her body, Elsa yanked the door to the stairwell, and hurriedly made her way back to her dorm.

[tracelii]

Miss You

Some more post-eyesagao shenanigans/angst/different adult!AU. This is for both of my frendos who are working so hard I love both of them u can do, you guys, you can do!!! @poketin @ellieofmidnight

“Oh yes, I’m definitely leaving you.” He spoke over the phone. “I’m meeting her now. It’s over, man, sorry.” Ian paused, then “Damn, that’s a lot of girlfriends. I guess I can’t compare.” But he chuckled. “Yea, it’s an old high school friend, I guess we’ll catch up and then I’ll head back your way, okay?” The male lifted his head, looking around for any familiar faces. Annoyance crossed his face, but it didn’t last long with the phone still over his ear. “I love you too, you idiot.” He felt the need to whisper- not that he was embarrassed, but he did so with a goofy grin he’d definitely have to get rid of before his friend arrived. “Yea. See you later.”

It was a typically cloudy day, specks of rain beginning to reveal itself, but still Ian held off on moving inside. It had been like this all day, and to be honest, it was kind of nice. Cloudy, and sort of cool, with tiny beams of sunlight sometimes escaping the cover. It wasn’t raining totally, so as long as she showed up soon, the cover of the table umbrella should keep them dry.

Speaking of, where was she? Ian looked around again. People were coming and going outside of the café, not busy enough to be called ‘busy’, but certainly alive this late afternoon. People sat at the surrounding tables, also not worried that it would start raining. They laughed and ate amongst themselves, and Ian tried hard not to stare- he knew he had a resting bitch-face and didn’t want to scare off the locals, sitting at this table by himself.

“Ian?”

He lifted his head at the call of his voice, and had a snarky reply ready to let loose, but took a moment to take in the sight before him. There, smiling warily, was his old high school friend, Elsa.

After what they had been though, ‘friends’ seemed like a tame word. She was more like… his annoying-ass sister who he had to look after as they both faced the unknowns of the void, the place he would be stuck in his sleep, and also the demon terrorizing their friends and driving them insane. She also occasionally looked after him too, he had to admit.

But that was such a long time ago. High school seemed like a far off nightmare that he definitely didn’t want to recall, even as he was doing It right now. He grimaced.

“Do I look that bad?” She pointed at him. “Hey, nice beard. And hair.”

“No.” He said. “I mean, you don’t look your best, unless this is your best, then you look fine.” Ian said casually. He pointed at the open chair waiting for her.

“Honestly, I cant tell if that’s an insult.” She took a seat, and rubbed at her eyes. “I’m just a little tired, is all. I haven’t been sleeping.”

“That’s what I mean… You look like you rolled out of bed two minutes ago.” Ian sighed out of his nose- He wasn’t meaning to be mean, especially on after not seeing Elsa for some odd years, but something about her was just sticking out, and he couldn’t pick it. Her hair was pulled in a messy bun, and she was wearing sweat clothes, and underneath her eyes were dark. He started to empathize with the possible worry in her expression “Are you… alright?” He asked.

“Who me?” She waved at him as if he was being silly. “You don’t get to be an asshole now, Mcqueen.”

An irked smile twitched at the corner of his mouth. That sounded a lot more like her, at the very least. “I’ll be sure to open every conversation with an insult from now on.”

“That’s the Ian boy I know!” Elsa leaned forward, a kind smile finally gracing her face. “So… whatcha been up to?”

“Uh. Life stuff.” Ian said. He knew the question would inevitably come up after not seeing Elsa for so long, and yet he had no answer available. “Work. Boyfriend. Stuff.”

“Very gay, I love it.”

“Work is not gay. It’s the least gay thing in my life. It’s homophobic.”

“Someone at your job is homophobic?”

“No, working is homophobic because I hate it.”

Elsa snorted, and shook her head. “You’re an idiot.”

“Not more than you are.” Ian shot back. “So—what have you been up to?”

“Uh…” Elsa said slowly. “Life stuff?”

“Mmhm, A+ original answer.” Ian sipped on this previously abandoned water, but he kept his eyes on Elsa. There was something… there was still something off. She still looked…. Not all there. He didn’t know how to describe it- like… if Elsa was, at her best or even at her worst, 100% Elsa, right now she was like… 85% Elsa.

Even back then, when all that shit was going on at school, Elsa remained ‘100% Elsa’. It was the most admirable thing about her- how she managed to keep true to herself even in the most shitty of situations.

“Well I mean… I’m not dating anyone.” She shrugged, finally glancing away from him, and letting her gaze wander onto the street. “Me and Mimi have been off and on, but she’s visiting some family in Europe for a few months, so we haven’t talked too much.” She shrugged again. “Work stuff. Uh…” She rubbed the back of her neck now, just for the movement. “Been trying to get in contact with Traci and Ellie for a tiny bit. Just texts so far. They’ve been super busy.”

“So I’m you’re last resort.” Ian said with a chuckle. “You know I’m gay, right?”

“Listen, you fuc-“

“Can I take your order?”

They both looked at the waitress who unknowingly arrived just in time. Ian, gifting Elsa with the sassiest smirk he could muster, just ordered a muffin and some tea. It was a good morning snack since he’d eaten before coming here.

“Uh… Nah, I’m good.” Elsa shifted again. Ian noted it this time, she just kept… moving. Making the motions to make the motions.

“Water?”

“No thank you.”

Ian eyed her now as the waitress, just as confused over the situation, politely let them back to their conversation as she went to put Ian’s order in.

“Is this… a money thing?” Ian asked. “Do you need money?”

“I’m not broke, but thanks, you’re welcome to spend all your money on me if you’d like. I hope the brutalboyfriend isn’t too mad at you being a sugardaddy.” Elsa said warily.

“Elsa, there’s something going on.” Ian finally cut in.

For a second, they stared at each other, and Elsa’s lips parted as she grasped for words to compile into some sort of answer.

“No.” Ian cut her off before she began. “There’s something… off. I’ve seen you tired before. All those nights you couldn’t sleep in school, you were still you. Even when--- even when it should have impossible, you kept your chin up. I know it’s been a while, but there’s something—“

“I thought--- I thought I was in the void.” Elsa said breathlessly. “A few months ago I thought I went back to the void.”

Ian’s mouth hung open. “-wrong. What? What?” The void didn’t disrupt him as much anymore- he still had to interact with the mysterious place he went to as he slept, but it only happened every once in a while- once a month. If he kept them happy, they would leave him alone, that was pretty much it. “You’ve been to the void?” As far as he knew, the void (as it was somehow a ‘where’ and a ‘who’ at the same time) rather plainly disliked Elsa. It was he, Ian, who started bringing her along with him every night (back when the void forcefully whisked him away every time he slept) when Anti was trying to scare Elsa out of trying to save Ellie and Traci by giving her nightmares.

“Here’s your order.”

Dumbfounded, he stared at Elsa glance out into the lack of traffic as his muffin and tea was set before him. The waitress probably had asked him something- probably if he needed anything else, but his eyes were wide and he was frozen. He didn’t say anything, and the waitress quickly excused herself.

“No… No.” Elsa said quietly, once the girl had left. “I thought it was. It was…. I was dreaming. It felt real at first, but I can tell the difference. Dreaming eventually feels like dreaming. Being in the void was like being wide-awake the whole time.” She looked down.

Ian remembered to breathe, and looked down at his almond poppy muffin as unspoken relief washed over him. “Okay.” He said, and sighed again. “Sorry, I jumped to conclusions. What about… the dreams?”

“It made me realized that I missed them.”

Ian, for the millionth time paused, leaving Elsa the chance she needed to elaborate.

“Uhm… the girls.”

“The… void girls.”

“Yes.”

“The ones who seduced you and tried to keep you in the void and tried to kill me. The ones who were like… evil versions of you and Traci and Ellie.”

“Uhm… They were, misunderstood. Anti made them, yea, and they did try to kill us at first, but they changed.”

“They weren’t real.”

Elsa winced. “They were. Even before they had our faces, they were part of the void… but Anti gave them an identity.”

“Your identity, Elsa.”

“No—I mean--- they became their own people!” Elsa said. Her body was tense. “You---- you just don’t get it.”

“Yea, I don’t.” Ian shot at her. “They’re long gone. What do you want with them?”

“Uhm…” Elsa said again. “I… have you see them, when you go to the void? Do they say anything about me? I… I wonder how they’re doing all the time. I worry about them.”

“Elsa, I haven’t—I haven’t seen them.”

A shiver ran though the girl’s body, and she grew embarrassed. “Wow… wh… what a relief. Hey, hows everything in the void anyway?” Her eyes focused on his muffin, then his tea, then her hands. She avoid his critical expression. “Judy still there? The plant, I mean. Does it grow? Does the tv still have those stupid knobs? The couch still comfy?”

“You… You miss everything, don’t you?”

“Huh?”

“You miss me.” Ian said slowly. “You miss the void. You miss the void girls. The real girls.”

“N--… No-“ Elsa shook her eyes, but they next time they met, he held her gaze with a challenging one of his own. “I don’t miss them!” Her voice shot up, cracking, then she nervously looked around- a few people were looking, and she ducked her head. “No, I just… Maybe—Maybe if I can just go back to the void. You can take me back there. I just want to see them- I want to make sure theyre okay.”

“Elsa.” Ian said slowly. “I’ll even admit. They weren’t totally evil. And you saw something good in them that I didn’t see in them- that Anti didn’t even see in them… but they’re just part of the void. I know you’ve been wanting to check on Ellie and Traci, and hang with them again, but you cant use the void and Grace and Kelly to fill that. You’re missing it, and belive me, I got that, sometimes the void felt like—I don’t know, that it gave you purpose outside of school shit. But that’s in the past for you- its almost in the past for me. You have to move on.”

“Ian.” Elsa said, her voice trembling now. “They need me to take care of them-. They need me.”

“Who. Which ones are you talking about?”

“Ellie.”

“Ellie?” Ian questioned.

“No! I said Kelly, you heard me. I know Ellie’s a grown-ass woman, she can take care of herself.”

“You said Ellie because you miss her.” Ian said. “And you think that even if you find Kelly and Grace, that it’ll fill what you miss about your friends. Did you really try to contact them? I spoke with Traci just last week. She’s not that hard to get a hold of. Are you sure you tried to contact them?”

“Ian you’re fucking confusing me. I never was talking about Traci or Ellie.” Her voice twisted unpleasantly as she tried to keep a cap on her volume. “You’re… you’re putting words in my mouth.”

“I’m not going to take you to the void.” Ian said, his voice sharp.”If you really missing something you need to connect with your friends. Your real friends.”

“Fuck you.” Elsa’s voice was quiet, but shook with rage- with—grief. “They would call me if they wanted to. They’d come see me if they wanted to, Ian. But Grace and Kelly cant do that. I’d… I’d even like to see Chelsa again.” Tears spilled from her eyes. “I just need to see them, I just need to make sure they’re okay, okay? How dare you try this psycho-analyzing bullshit on me.”

Ian leaned in closer to her. “I don’t know how to help you, but this isn’t the way. How about we just---“ There were certainly eyes on him. “Lets just head back to my place, and talk about this.”

“In the void?”

“No.”

“That’s what I thought.” Elsa shoved at the table, knocking over Ian’s water, and knocking the air out of him just a bit as the table bumped against the body. He coughed, and raised his hands as the water spilled in his lap, then started climbing up to his feet. “Elsa-“

“Stay the fuck away from me!” Elsa stumbled as she stood up after another shove parted her from the table enough to stand. Her world spun, and she gripped the table, but she laughed harshly, and stood up again. “Why did I think you’d ever want to help anyone but your god-damn self.”

“Elsa!”

But Elsa’s head was pounding, and she could feel hundreds- millions of eyes on her. She shook her hand, rubbing at the tears, shed and unshed, and rushed out of the fenced in group of tables.

Ian went up to go after her, but by time he had dug his cash to leave for the tea and muffin, she was nowhere to be seen. He gritted his teeth, trying to politely pull attention off of him. He opened his phone as it rang, and put it up to his ear, but moved onto the sidewalk, looking for sight of her.

“Listen, I’ll have to call you back.” He said quickly, and hung up. Surely, his boyfriend or whoever the hell that even was would understand.

-----

The girl blinked as she looked at her phone, the ‘call ended’ screen blinking at her. “Wow…” he sounded in quite a rush. Her grey-ish, blue-ish eyes spotted her bag and she tugged it off the turntable baggage claim.

Ellie turned back to the familiar Japanese airport, and smiled a bit to herself, feeling at home once again. She couldn’t wait to see her apartment and her friends (if Ian ever remembered to call her back). A thought occurred to her, and her expression brightened as she moved to hail a taxi.

She could probably hang with Elsa! They needed time to catch up, honestly- they hadn’t spoken in so long…

“I hope she misses me as much as I miss her.” Ellie said to herself with a chuckle.

[tracelii]

Listen yall by time I finished there’s not going to be any eyesagao left for anyone else to fucking write i s w ea r

The afternoon left a weird taste her mouth, like something that was supposed to be good, and yet.. yet something lingered afterwards, pulling her emotions into a soured look. It was unpleasant in almost every shape and form, but she accepted it as yet another thing she simply just needed to ‘fix’ between her and Jack.

Ellie paced back and forward, crossing the few feet of her dorm in just a few steps, but was completely focused on the object in her hands, turning it over again and again, studying its features, almost as if she could find all of her answers just by doing this.

Had she ever stolen from Jack before? Not that she could recall- or, not that she had a reason to, or had even meant to this time around.

But like, obviously, he was texting Traci, how else did the two meet up with each other, away from her prying eyes?

Ellie cleared the surface of the smartphone, making the shape she had seen Jack make a hundred times. The phone’s screen had brightened, and soon after, unlocked.

Yes, it had to be so. This was how it was happening, all behind her back. It wasn’t Jack’s fault, certainly. He was amazing and funny and great, and Traci, well, Traci was just jealous of what was here- of what, and who she couldn’t have. That certainly wasn’t Jack’s fault, and Ellie was sure, she was so sure that he just didn’t understand that he had everything he’d ever need in her.

He saw the good in her that she couldn’t see in herself. She was good, and good enough for him. Why see anyone else?

She formally realized his background screen was a picture of the both of them, each of them in the middle of an action that had caused both of them to appear slightly blurry, and with wild expressions to boot. Jack was reaching for the camera of whoever had clicked it, and was half grinning, but probably opening his mouth to say something, and Ellie had her eyes wide as she remained seated besides him, but reached wildly to try and catch her boyfriend’s milk-drink that seemed to ascend from the table (mostly because Jack had elbowed it). Her hand was blurred into a completely different dimension, but she recalled missing the milk completely, and (for the second time this year) slam dunking into the mash potatoes.

She barely remembered this happening, but found herself studying the picture, and begging her memory not to tell her that Traci had been one to take it, for no other reason in particular than assuring her that Traci was making him smile. That Traci had the time of her life, and this resulted in potato-hands part 2, and that something that Traci had done was now on her boyfriend’s phone.

Her anger returned. She went into the gallery of the phone, deleting it in a fit of jealousy and leaving his background bare before returning to the main menu, and flipping through his contacts.

Traci wasn’t here.

Ellie had checked, double checked, triple checked the list. Her name, or nothing that could be it, was here. She backed out into the main menu again, and stared into the nothingness behind his apps. Was it possible that she was… wrong?

No. Not a chance.

She moved on into his messages where… of course, she had been the most current message with the multiple times she had texted him up until they had met again this morning. Below that was a few familiar names- Luke, Caddy, some guy named Mark, but underneath her message and right above theirs was a blank space.

Curiously, she tapped it, and an empty message log opened for her. There was no number, no name, and no messages, but the text box curser blinked, waiting for her. Ellie wasn’t sure what to do next.

[Jack- 15:48]- Traci?

[     - 15:48]- !! Jack!!

Her chest was cold. This was her. It was her, it was Traci, here, texting Jack on his phone. His phone with Traci’s picture. Texting him. Texting him like he was hers.

There wasn’t quite a feeling that could describe the hatred that seemed to add to the frost that refused to melt over her heart. Her fingers tapped at the keyboard with renewed purpose.

[Jack- 15:50] Traci, we’ve got to talk.

[     -15:50] didn’t you say we couldn’t meet during the day?

[Jack- 15:50] never again

It was showing that someone was typing, but Traci’s typing quickly stopped.

[     -15:51] What do you mean

[Jack- 15:51] never talk to me again. I never want to see you again.

[     -15:51] Jack?

[     -15:51] Jack? What did I do?

[     -15:53] I’m sorry, I can fix it just tell me what to do

[Jack- 15:57] you’ve come between us for the last time. There’s nothing you can do but to leave me and Ellie alone. And let us be together. And leave us alone. There’s nothing else.

[Jack- 15:57] leave us alone

[Jack- 15:57] leave us alone

[Jack- 15:58] leave us alone

[     -15:58] Please, I cant go on without you!

[     -15:58] I did everything you asked

[     -15:58] im sorry, what can I do?? What can I do to show you how much I love you?

[     -15:59] I need you dont go!

[     -15:59]  pl e

[     -15:59] I cn t go

[     -15:59] ill d e

[     -15:59]

[     -15:59]

[     -15:59]

[     -16:00]

There was a sick satisfaction to see the desperation fizzle out. It felt like victory, if victory came with a sickening guilt, but the guilt was muted, and so far away. This was how it was supposed to be. Jack would be safe from Traci, now.

Tears dripped down Ellie’s face as she chuckled a bit to herself, pulling the phone to her chest. Maybe it would be over… Maybe there’d be peace at last. With a sigh, Ellie pulled on the door, expecting anything but Ian standing there, his hand up like he was supposed to knock.

“Ah.” Ian blinked vaguely. “What kind of telepathy-“

“What are you doing here?” Ellie asked breathlessly. Her brain screamed at her that she had been caught. Everyone in the school must have known what she’d done, and they’d hate her, even though She was right and Traci was wrong. They would… they would-

“Uh, Are you alright?” Ian said, pointing at the object she was clutching possessively. “Is that… Jack’s phone?”

“No?” She answered with a question, and to which question was just as much as a mystery.

“You took his damn phone. Like, took it. And it’s on, what did you do?”

“You’re not supposed to be in the girl’s dorm.” Her voice shook. “And Jack left his phone and I’m going to give it to him.”

“I told you two hours ago I was coming to pick up my text book and Jack didn’t fucking leave his phone, he’s been in the library all day. You told me that, Ellie.”

More gaps in her memory. She had no clue what she had done since she’d seen Jack that morning. She didn’t recall even seeing Ian let alone telling him to show up to her dorm.

She scrubbed at her eyes to clear the tears, but stumbled back as Ian held his hand out for the phone.

“I said I would give it to him.” She assured him. “So… it’s fine.”

“Show me you didn’t do anything to his phone and you can have it.”

“Do anything?” She asked. “He’s my boyfriend, what the hell would I do?” her voice was challenging, but Ian shot back.

“I don’t fucking know that’s what I’m trying out. You’ve been all sort of doing all batshit stuff, so prove to me that you didn’t do anything, and I’ll let it go. I’ll just leave right now- even without my textbook.” He still had his hand out.

Well, no, she didn’t do anything crazy or wrong, but Ian wouldn’t believe that. He never would. She continued to clutch the phone close to her, and refused to move. “N… No.” She whispered.

“What?”

“I said no. It’s… its none of your business.”

“Okay, well, it’s Jack’s business.” Ian said sharply. “So lets go tell him, yea?”

“No!” The demand emerged from her mouth as a shriek. This was supposed to be her happy ending. This was supposed to be the start of the good part. Ian would ruin that if he told Jack.

She reached for… she wasn’t even sure at that point- probably his shoulder if not his shirt collar, but she had startled him to turning back in her direction, and she instead let her hand strike him right across the cheek. Both of their positions in relation to each other was odd and askew- And- her hand was supposed to be open, but she just-

Ian hissed, bringing his hand up to the cut that began to well on his cheek. He turned back towards Ellie, both of their eyes open in shock.

“Oh- I didn’t-“ She trembled slightly, and the phone forgotten, dropped to the floor. She took a step back into her room. “No, I didn’t mean to—I’m—“

Ian’s glare was set on her and was for the moment was completely unforgiving. The cut wasn’t too bad, maybe half an inch in length, but it was there, and was definitely something that now existed.

“No, Ian, I didn’t mean-“

He ignored her, and picked up the phone, turning it over in his face.

“What in the hecklord was that? Who’s yelling like they’re being mur—” Elsa asked, poking her head out the stairwell down the hallway. Her joking, casual expression spiked into panic, and she stepped out to hurried over. “What happened- Ian your face! Ellie?”

“Elsa, where’s Traci’s dorm?” He asked, looking up from the phone

“Huh?”

“Her dorm, we need to check on her right now.”

“It’s downstairs-“ but Elsa knew not to ask anymore questions. She turned back around and ran back for the stairs. Ian didn’t even give Ellie another look before he took off running after Elsa and disappeared into the stairwell as well.

Ellie carefully followed suit- not exactly sneaking, but her mind was so focused on the phone that she had to follow. All that was in her brain is that Jack wouldn’t understand, if Ian explained it. Jack didn’t even have to know. If Ian opened his mouth, people will be upset with her because they wouldn’t understand. She had to get the phone back. She had to delete those texts.

She entered the stairwell, mere echoes of thoughts all around her of what could happen now. Some part of her felt… bad? She certainly. She felt something, but she couldn’t describe it. She couldn’t… put her finger on it, but something about this was wrong. Something about this… something about what she had done.

Before her now was the open, and noticeably empty dorm room of Traci’s. Elsa and Ian stood off to the side, just inside the room, worriedly talking amongst themselves.

Nothing had meaning to her anymore, Ellie realized. Not the photos of Jack on the wall, not the abandoned phone of Traci’s on the floor. It didn’t mean anything. She didn’t feel anything. Something seemed to be wrong, but there was no indication of what it might have been.

She was doing this to protect Jack. If nothing else, absolutely nothing else, she had to protect her beloved.

“She could be anywhere.” Elsa murmured, looking around the room.

“I know.” Ian said grimly. “Do you think she stayed on school grounds?”

“I have no clue. I hope she did.” Elsa glanced up, staring at Ellie worriedly. “Ellie, shes your friend, believe it or not. You have to at least care about her. At least a bit. She could get hurt.”

But it was talking like a blank wall. Ellie put her hand out, and said nothing else, her face neutrally super focused on the phone Ian was waving around.

He only sighed in annoyance, and put the phone in her hand. “I don’t know what you’re trying to prove, but you’re getting on my god damn nerves.”

“Prove…” Elsa said slowly as Ellie clutched the phone, then turned to quickly head away to where she had been heading in the first place- back to Jack. She had to make sure he was safe, of course… and to put the phone back.

“Traci would want to prove herself.” Elsa said suddenly. “Ian, we have to check the school roof.”

“The roof-“

“Remember what I told you about what she told me? Ian, we gotta get to the roof. Right now.”

The words of irrelevant conversation faded from her forethought. Ellie walked calmly as her friends (a questionable term) ran past her towards the main building.

But that they didn’t matter, whoever or whatever they would find. It definitely didn’t matter- not to Ellie. All that mattered was Jack.

[tracelii]

Back at it again with the fucking up thats me

She was awake, which was nothing new, but thoughts were circling her head like vultures, picking at her, seeing if she was still alive. Something for certain was going on, and she wasn’t sure what it was, but Jack seemed to be in the middle of it.

Oh, her stomach twisted in knots. Her friends were so miserable. Her friends hated each other. They kind of hated her? It really did suck.

Elsa sat up at the noise of a door closing up the hallway. She glanced at the clock- 2 am, and knew it couldn’t have been anything good. She climbed down from her bunk, yet another sleepless night ahead of her it seemed like, and opened her door in the gentlest manner that she could manage. There, looking like a ghost in the dead of night, was Traci, sort of dragging herself down the hallway. She looked tired from what Elsa could see in the crack of the door she allowed herself. Her steps dragged, and her arms were crossed when she was desperately rubbing at her eyes. Even her straight path down the hallways towards the steps seemed to waver like the rest of her, taking uneven steps, slowly drifted to the left or right until she bumped gently against the wall- Traci had to have been barely awake.

Once she had made it far enough, Elsa took a hesitant breath, slipped into her shoes, and walked out after her. She was more than just curious, she was worried. What crazy thing could she be doing now? Would it be dangerous? What the fuck was going through Traci’s head now?

She followed her downstairs and to the entrance of the girl’s dorm. Traci opened the door, letting in the frigid air that didn’t seem to immediately effect Traci, but definitely made Elsa shiver from the distance behind her. She gave just a couple of seconds hesitation before opening the door behind her.

Traci was only clad in her PJs though, even on this cold night. A tee-shirt and thin polka dotted pj pants wouldn’t do much for her outside her bed let alone outside her dorm building. She hadn’t moved far, sitting just on the stair steps, but her shoulder hunched uncomfortably, and she said in complete silence.

“Oh-“ Elsa said, louder than she meant to.

Traci blinked, turning her head to look at her, and what could only be described as ‘tired annoyance’ crossed her face.

Wincing, Elsa put her hands up. “Look, I know you’re mad about the pictures. I--- Uhm, came to- apologize! Yea, uhm… Yea. I’m here to just…” She sighed “I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have taken them- at least- not without asking. I’m just… nosy, you know. I wanna know what’s going on.” She shivered, now stepping outside to cross her own arms. “I’m worried about you, and Ellie. You guys are my friends.”

Traci didn’t say anything, which may have been the worst possible thing she could have done. The knot in Elsa’s stomach had curled up into something much worse, and she wanted to just curl up and possibly die in immediate response.

Her look didn’t soften, but Traci looked out into the space separating the two dorms. “ n’t matter…” She mumbled. “Nothing does.”

Elsa stepped down to sit beside her. “Of course it does.” She crossed her arms tighter, looking across, maybe to see what Traci’s might have been looking at. “You guys matter to me.”

They sat in silence, and Elsa shivered again.

“I’m—I’m sorry, are you cold?” Elsa asked. Traci seemed to be still as a rock, but she had to have been cold, right?

“It doesn’t matter.” She cleared her throat, but her voice was shaking. “I have to wait.”

“Traci, please talk to me, what are we waiting for?” Elsa asked. She finally turned towards Traci, reaching over to touch her hand. At first she shied away, but then just sort of… accepted that Elsa was going to touch her, and let her do so. Elsa tilted her head to try and look into Traci’s face, but it was like looking into nothing- A steady look of vague concentration but nothing else. It was… sad. And unnerving.

“He told me to wait, and so I’m gonna wait.”

Elsa squeezed her hand, but slowly let go. “Did Jack—or whoever- really, really say ���hey Traci, come out here, and be cold.’?”

“He told me to stop what I was doing and come outside.”

“Okay, and… what. What if you get sick? Aren’t you uncomfortable?”

Traci didn’t seem to have an answer, and let her gaze drift again.

“Traci, I don’t want to be negative, but it sounds like he’s not exactly operating with you in mind. Like, if this is… I don’t know, really a thing, he would really care about you as much or even more as you care about him.”

Her face twisted then, like her uncomfort doubled then and there.

Nevermind the whole thing about Jack not actually dating her, but Traci hadn’t been in the right state of mind for what seemed like weeks now, so sticking that fact in her face didn’t seem to fare well in the matter of getting a totally sane response. In fact, it was pretty weird that both her and Ellie were convinced that Jack was cheating on one with the other, but it just didn’t seem so.

“At least- let me get you a jacket.”

“Huh?” Traci had started to space again.

“I mean, he told you to come outside right now, right? Well, here you are. He didn’t say you couldn’t cover up, so I’ll just…. Go get a jacket or a blanket or something. And then you can continue waiting for him and be warm.”

The other girl’s gaze wandered, as if she had to sort out if this kind of thing was allowed. If she was actually allowed to be warm. The bile was rising in the back of her throat- who made Traci feel like she had to be treated this way? It was ridiculous to think about, but if it was actually Jack, Jack was actually going to get his fucking ass kicked half way into next year.

“Well- You just sit right here and wait for your prince charming.” Elsa said, her dry wit masking her rising anger. “I’ll get you a blanket, tracklepop.”

There wasn’t an answer, but she felt sickened. She had known Traci for a little while, and Traci had her crushes. This wasn’t something she just did, but between the pictures, the nosebleed, and the weird shit going on with her computer, there was no way this could be a normal thing. It just couldn’t be.

She hurried, trying to think where Traci might have kept a jacket or a coat, but her dorm room was closer anyhow, so she just snatched up a throw blanket, and turned back to head outside. She approached the door, and looked down glance over the blanket, wondering what crazy thing Traci would bring up now.

Oh, though, how her brain was running though such wordless thoughts that she couldn’t make sense of them. Even looking down, her brain didn’t immediately register that Traci was no longer sitting on the front steps before her. She took a few steps down, then looked out into the darkness.

There, heading just around the girl’s dorm was---!!

“Oh—fuck-“ That was most definitely the green-haired jackass leading her friend off. It actually happened?? It was actually Jack?!

Without thinking, Elsa hopped over the railing behind the row of bushes that lined the building. After a few scratches, she pulled her blanket over her head and body and she dropped down to fully hide herself, then began to crawl carefully around the same corner she saw them go around.

“I’m going to fucking murder that piece of shit.” Elsa said to herself, almost convincing herself that she would actually do it. It didn’t really explain a lot, like I don’t know, how Traci was okay with ‘cheating’ with jack, or any of the static or shit like that, but it was a start. “I’m going to murder-“

“You really did it.”

“Of course I did….!”

Elsa was besides herself, but could pick up that this didn’t seem to be Jack’s voice. It sounded gravely, and low, and his accent was all but gone. It barely sounded human, if Elsa was going to be the judge of things. She peeked out watching Traci’s back and shoulders hunch into Jack’s surely warm embrace. However, when Jack opened his eyes, Elsa was met with nothing.

He had no eyes, it seemed like. Both of his eyes was a pit of nothing- completely empty- even looking into them, Elsa felt like she was floating in the nothingness- like she was yanked into some kind of void, for just that moment. If his voice wasn’t inhuman, his eyes were. Elsa felt her body flinch, and for a second, she had no clue if he was looking at her or not, but he seemed to just lean Traci back by taking her by the arms, and looking at her with a slight, goofy smile on his face.

Traci didn’t see anything wrong here, and she hugged him tightly again before a laugh left her, a forced, wheezing sound. “I t-told you, Id… I’d do anything for you, Jack.” Her breath was visible as she tilted her head to look at him. “B-Because I love you s-so much, I j.. J-J-J-“ she shivered, unable to completely warm herself in his embrace. “I did everything y-you asked.”

She sounded cold, because of fucking course, but there was some hint in Traci’s voice of…. Of… Elsa wasn’t sure what it was, but it was unsettling. Her eyes lowered to where they were standing there, and--- wait a second. That had to have been it. The missing picture, crumpled up between where they stood, she was almost sure of it.

When she had been looking at Traci’s pictures she had picked up from her room, there was one where Jack’s reflection in the clock-face had no eyes. She was seeing this- this… demon, she just didn’t know it yet… but the picture had disappeared when the fire alarm went off and--- and there it was, somehow Jack had it, and obviously he was aiming to trash it.

Not if Elsa had anything to say about it. That was her own physical evidence, and she was going to keep it.

“Listen…” Traci took a breath to settle herself, before looking back into the soulless eyes waiting for her. “I did… I did everything you asked.”

Carefully, carefully, Elsa reached out from the safety of the bush for the picture.

“I didn’t… I didn’t confront Ellie about dating you.” Traci confessed. “I didn’t go after Ian, or Elsa, not even when she took my pictures- not when you told me to stop.”

Elsa hesitated. That was the reason Traci hadn’t come after her? Why the situation had suddenly diffused like that? Because Jack had asked Traci to stop?

“And I—I came out here. And I waited in the cold… for you.” Her voice cracked, although it sounds like she was smiling as well. “Please… just… tell me, you… tell me you love me?”

The unsettling feeling. Desperation. Traci didn’t want this- she spoke as if she needed it, just to breathe.

“Please, just… say it? For me? To me?”

“Traci.” The end of her name twisted as Jack grinned back at her. “Of course I love you. You’ve earned it. I love you.”

Elsa all but shrieked as Jack’s foot suddenly lifted and slammed down on part of her hand and most of her wrist. She wasn’t sure how Traci didn’t hear her, but she didn’t seem to react.

Elsa desperately tried to yank her hand back to her body, but every time she would pull, Jack would lean more of his weight down on her. Tears pricked at the corner of her eyes as pain continued to shoot up her arms, and she dropped her head momentarily, and stopped fighting.

“Oh…!” Traci seemed surprised that her wish was granted. She laughed softly again, but she sounded on the edge of tears if not relief, if not both. “It feels good when you say that.” Her voice shook a little. “I can’t believe how good it feels.”

“Now… Traci, I have an important question for you.”

“Yes?”

“Do you love Elsa, more than you love me?” He asked.

“Of course not!” Traci said, almost immediately.

Elsa gritted her teeth, but in spite of her best efforts, the tears actually came, mostly out of shock. Both of her hands curled up into fists. She didn’t obviously mean that. Obviously. She hasn’t been herself.

“And… lets say…” Jack made his words, however gravely, real casual-like. “Let’s say that Elsa came in between us? In between you, and me, and our love? Would you stop her, Traci? Would you hurt her if you had to? If you had to do something worse, would you?”

There was dead silence between the two of them- between the three of them. There was silence, and Traci hadn’t moved since the question had been asked.

There was suddenly twice the pressure on her wrist, and Elsa bit into the blanket to keep from crying out, but as suddenly as he increased the pressure, it was gone- his shoe lifting from her wrist in order to move his body back a step- his arms had opened, and he had started to step back away from Traci.

“Wait!” Traci’s voice spiked in alarm, even though he was certainly not going to leave. She closed the gap between them again with panic in her voice, and held onto him tightly. “No--- Please,- I—I would! I’d do anything! Please—don’t leave me-”

A chuckle in response was all she got as he put his arms around her once again. “It’s cold out here, and I’m ready to hit the hay.” He turned, bringing her with him. “I’ll walk you back to your dorm.”

Traci nodded, looking up at him meaningfully as she leaned her head on his shoulder. “I love you.”

“I’m sure you do.”

--

She didn’t move for a little while, even after the couple had left her there. Elsa, with her good arm, pulled herself out from under the bushes, and slowly sat up. Unshed tears started really flowing now, and she pulled the blanket from over her head to brush off any leaves or branches, but she kept watching her injured arm, now marred with a big ugly bruise across the back and wrist. She tried moving it and winced as she was greeted with a fresh wave of pain, more tears dripping down her face.

Traci wasn’t herself, she kept telling herself.

Traci would never say that about her. Not now, not in a million years.

Traci wouldn’t say that…

Right?

Opening the crumpled photo only gifted her a blurry picture of herself from god knows where, instead of the antique-shop picture she was sure it was. On the back, it only yielded the words “none of your business, E.” and a stab of coldness ran through her.

Elsa crumpled the photo in her good hand, and pulled herself up to her feet.

“As long as you got my friends it’s my fucking business.” She said though gritted teeth.

[tracelii]

I PUT A SIIIIGN ON MY RAAAGE AND ENGAAAGE IN ANGER MANAGEMENT

(Takes place right after this one)

“STOP!”

He had never heard himself like that. Jack was a very loud guy, but only when he was happy, only when he was excited, maybe when he was getting salty over a video game. He never had to be this loud, out of anger. He never thought he could be, but he was, and he could feel it in his throat that at this point he could easily yell until it was raw, and it definitely wouldn’t take much.

He watched Traci crumple in place, after fear and worry crossed her face in response to his outburst. She just… stopped, covering her head and murmuring frantic apologies.

Ellie swung, weakling hitting Traci’s back, but by time Jack had grabbed her again, and gently pulled her away, she had spent all of her energy and most of her anger, but something mindless kept her going. He turned her towards him, and she still struggled, and angry tears dotted her face.

“I don’t want to need him!” Ellie shrieked at… him? At nothing. She just continued to swing her arms. She weakly smacked at him, more and more tears spilling down his face. “I don’t have a choice! I can’t stop I CANT STOP STOP IT STOP IT!” She pulled at her hair before she fully broke down crying. He let her turned away, but still held her hands, forcefully keeping her in place, and keeping her from doing damage to him, to Traci, or to himself. She twisted her body weakly, her mouth falling open, her head falling back, and cried out again.

It was truly a sight to behold, maybe not in the best kind of meaning, to walk in on this train wreck.

Elsa walked to the door first, opening it gently and walking in and holding it open for Ian to come in right after her. The sight before them was a mess, to put it lightly. Several desks had been misplaced and moved out of the way in the short battle that had ensued, and there was tiny smears of blood on some of the bright wood panels of the floor and at least one chair.

Curled up on the floor was Traci, her face hidden away, her headband tangled in her now-messy hair. She wore no jacket, and her yellow school vest was revealed to be unintentionally worn inside out. One of her shoes were missing, and when she raised her head for a peek at the newcomers, she had at least two welts on her face from being scratched and a busted lip. She sniffed, uncertainly, and only after a second, had hidden her face once again.

Ellie was pulling gently on her arms, her noises and cries reduced to whimpers and moans of pain and discomfort. She was digging her hand into her palm so hard, blood was almost certain to follow. Her long dark hair was a mess as well, and a few buttons of her white dress shirt was missing, and half her collar was out of place. She had bruises on her exposed, pale skin, mostly her arms and one right underneath her left eye. She had stopped fighting Jack, but sunk to her knees, giving up to the struggle of freeing her arms from Jack’s grip. He looked up in great relief as Ian only crossed his arms in disapproval, and Elsa could only shake her head. Besides the shaky breaths of the two that had fought, the room was silent.

Jack watched Ellie closely as he finally let go of her wrists. She let her arms lower slowly (they probably hurt), and finally wiped the blood trailing from over her eyebrow and started leaking down the side of her face. She looked down at her bloody hand and… and it took whatever strength she had left. She lowered her hands enough to cross her arms hold them in sort of a self-hug, and just blankly looked at the ground. She was tired. She was exhausted.

“Okay, so…” Elsa said gently, as if she thought speaking too loud would set everyone off. “I guess… Traci still hates me, so I’ll help Ellie, Ian, you can help Traci and… Jack, if this is over you, we probably can’t have you helping one and not the other, so you can help put the class back together.

“No.”

Elsa was looking down at the two poor friends of hers on the ground, but the word brought her attention to the speaker, her face twisting in confusion. “… No?”

“No, I’m not going to do it.”

“What the fuck.” Jack had his hand on the first desk, ready to move it back. “What do you mean no.”

“It means no.” Ian said. “As in no. As in, not me. As in. fucking. No.”

There was a weird silence in the room. The tension had returned.

“They’re my friends- they’re your friends.”

“Yea, they certainly used to be.” Ian shot back without missing even a single step. The irritation on his face grew. He hadn’t uncrossed his arms since he was forced to tell the entire hidden block club that whatever the hell Traci did at lunch was just a one time thing. That it was just stress. That she was fine.

But it wasn’t. It wasn’t even close to fine.

“They’re still your fucking friends.” Jack crossed the room in just a few strides, stepping right up to Ian, who was, though slouching, still taller than him. “You know they can’t control this, and I can’t believe you’d just abandon them when they need you.”

“Need me to do what. Cover for them? Cover for you?” Ian now stood up purposefully to stand even taller over Jack- he had the green boy beat by almost half a foot. “Lie to all of my friends, and their friends and tell them everything is alright? Tell me, Sean, what am I supposed to do? How am I supposed to help?” His tone was completely unforgiving.

“I don’t know, by at least pretending to give a shit.” Jack clenched his fists. The hot feeling in his chest returned with a vengeance.

“You guys-“ Elsa said, stepping back to give them room, but not willing to except calling it quits here and now.

“No.” Ian said again. “I’m fucking tired of this. This radioactive piece of shit just waltzed in here, dragging whatever the fuck anti is with him, and now hes here, bothering all of us, and destroying their lives” He gestured angrily at the two girls on the floor. “And now I have to drag you into the void, where I also have to babysit you because you don’t listen to a damn thing I say to keep you fucking safe. And I have to lie to everyone around me. I don’t know what I’m doing- you guys don’t know what you’re doing, but we’re just going to come in here and fucking pretend they didn’t just try to murder each other?!” He had been addressing Elsa, who took the stabbing words with a jolt of surprise, before looking away stubbornly.

“I didn’t mean for this to happen!” Jack’s voice was now raising, completely unyielding to Ian’s scathing blame. “But I know what it is now is that if we leave them alone now, it’s gonna be a lot worse than a fight, than a bruise and a couple of scratches. You know it, and I know it, but if you’re going to be a pussy about it, then fucking leave.”

Ian thrusted a finger into jack’s chest. “What. The fuck. Can any of us. Do. To fix. Your. Problem?”

Jack knocked his hand away, shoving Ian once. “Don’t fucking touch me- don’t act like you’re some helpless prick. If you’re going to leave now, just do it. Just get the hell out here, and don’t pretend you even gave a shit about Ellie or Traci for even a second.”

Ian shoved him back, and they both got close- powerful glares sending sparks between them. One kept waiting for the other. It would just take one punch. One punch, and it was all going down, here and now.

“Listen, you’re both assholes.” Elsa said. She pushed between them somehow just to continue walking towards the teacher’s desk, where she pulled out the first aid kit. “And this sucks. And they’re in danger. And we’re in danger, but unlike them, we can still do something about it, so lets do something about it. It matters, whatever we do.” Her face was sour. “It matters.” She held up the kit. “So pick, Ian. If you leave, we wont bother you. But if you’re staying, get over here and help this annoying asshole look after her friends. Jack doesn’t have a choice whether be involved or not, but you do, so just fucking pick. Either way, its not worth another fight.”

Ian didn’t move right away, and he didn’t move from his spot, and his eyes kept drifting towards the door. He walked past Jack, roughly shoving past him to head for Elsa. “I’m not doing this for either one of you.” He said bitterly. “I just want my friends back.”

“That’s all I can ask.” Elsa said, handing him the box. “But also- same.” She had some supplies in her hands, but turned to Ellie, who had gotten to her feet, to Elsa’s surprise.

“El?” She asked, but Ellie was quick on her heels, running out past both Ian and Jack quickly, her head bowed, walking in a quick, but calm paced. She sniffed, her shoes clicking at the ground, and immediately left the room.

“I should go after her.” Jack said awkwardly. He talking to Elsa, who only gave him a worried look, but then his glance passed to Ian who was now sitting on the floor, sitting Traci to sit up and started to get a good look at her bloody lip. Traci’s eyes flickered up to meet with his.

“but…” her lips parted for that one word, and she struggled for the next. “Was he here…? That was him, right? Who said ‘stop’. Did he hear me? Can I talk to him again?”

Now Ian’s eyes were also on him- all three pairs of eyes were on him. “No- that wasn’t him--- I… I was just got angry.” She couldn’t tell the difference? He watched her face fall again.

“I still have to apologize, and… and you promised you would let me see him.”

“I’m sorry, you promised her?” Ian’s words, his look switching from neutral hatred to incredulous.

“You saw what happened in the cafeteria!” He said quickly. “I had to tell her something just to get her to her feet!”

All Ian did was toss his hands in the air, then finished cleaning Traci’s bloody chin.

“Hey, maybe we can… I don’t know.” Elsa looked back and forth between the two boys, a curious hint in her hazel eyes. “Let her speak to Anti.”

“Huh?” Jack asked, his eyebrows furrowed. “I mean, at this point, I honestly would, if I knew how to-“

“Ahem. Ahem.”Elsa raised both of her eyebrows. Ian caught on right before Jack did.

“That sounds like a fuckin’ bad idea if I’d ever heard one.” Jack said quickly, and he watched Ian’s eyes do the most impressive roll of the century. They agreed on something.

“Please.” She winced as she earned another bandaid on the back of her hand, but looked up at Jack as if he was about to gift her with the sun after 40 days of clouds.

Jack grimaced, giving Elsa one more unsure side-glance, before giving a hesitant nod of his head. “Okay.”

“Oh!” Traci scooted up, pushing at Ian for him to scoot over, even as he tried to check her for any more cuts. She tried to adjust herself, push down her skirt and hair, fix her inside-out vest, and waited patiently. Her breathing was still a little uneven, and even she knew she looked like shit, but she tried to make it work anyway. She sat back on her knees, and waited.

Jack felt hot under the collar, nervous as hell, and anxious enough to cover the student body for at least a week. He took an uncertain breath before sighing out, and closing his eyes. After another sigh, he opened them again. No one had moved.

“H… Hello, Traci.” He tried. He watched her face carefully, and the way she tilted her head in question didn’t give him much more confidence. “I’m here. It’s me. Uhm… Anti.”

Ian’s sigh of disgust almost did him in. He looked to Elsa for help, worry starting to paint his features. This wouldn’t work. It certainly wouldn’t. Elsa gestured to him again, and before long, Ian was standing next to her, his arms crossed, as always.

How the hell was he supposed to know what Anti was like? He had never met the guy. He knew he was an asshole- from what he heard, probably kind of full of himself… according to Traci, he tended to get angry? Uhhh… Probably acted like he was in charge?

“Try again.” Elsa said softly. “We can get her to cooperate.”

That seemed to be a good motivation. If he pretended to… be Anti, or whoever, that could be good, somehow. As much as he didn’t want to bully anyone around, he could actually get her to start taking care of herself again, and maybe eventually gain a little bit of her happiness and independence back. He could this for her well being.

He took another deep breath. Be mean. You have to be mean. Get angry again.

“Traci.”

She sat up straight, startled out of her stupor. Her eyes searched his face, and a tear spilled down her cheek as her hands curled up in her lap. “Yes?”

“Is there something you wanted to say?”

“Do you think she really believes that it’s him?” Ian asked, leaning towards Elsa. His arms were still crossed so tightly it seemed he shouldn’t have had any circulation. He was still pissed, but he was still helping, at the very least. To be honest, if he would have killed his involvement here and now, she literally didn’t know what she’d do without him, besides go back to the rough nightmares.

“Huh?” She watched Traci sit at absolute attention, taking in every ounce of… ‘Anti’ before her. Her hands curled in tighter, and she leaned forward. A shaky, hopeful smile pulled at her lips, and tears welled up in her eyes. The desperation. The utmost attention. Elsa absently rubbed at her wrist wrap absently, trying out her soreness and mobility before disappointment filled her features. She had definitely seen this ‘side’ of Traci before- this false happiness she only got around him…

Anti.

Elsa knew it was Jack there, probably feeling horrific as Traci all but groveled at his feet for forgiveness, but there was no mistaking it.

“Yea.” Elsa said slow and thoughtful, but she could feel the familiar bile rising in the back at her throat, seeing her friend like this, once again. “She believes that’s him.”

[tracelii]

Eyesagao: A mcfreakin Essay

Hi welcome to who’s angst is it anywhere, where the AUs are made up and the plotholes don’t matter

Edit: Listen eyesagao aint just me, so I may be forgetting some things or we might have had some ideas that didnt add up or isnt showing up here my ba  d........;;;;;

Because I info dump about completely irrelevant things, I decided to try and talk a bit about all the Eyesagao AUs that exist for all of our angsty needs, but before we get into that (if I can ever get into that without going off topic) here is some very minimal info.

Eyesagao is an Asagao AU. Asagao is a dating sim where you can date your choice of several bois from the Normal Boots ‘club’, aka Normal Boots dudes from youtube. Eyesagao followed with the idea that Jack (septiceye), along with his ‘Anti (septiceye)’ demonic persona asshat dude also goes to Asagao, and Manipulates Jack’s girlfriend (Ellie) and her frendo (Traci) into pretty much fucking going crazy in love and doing all sorts of shit, and basically it’s up to their other frendos Elsa, and Ian (brutalm//oose from the youtubes) to try and keep shit together as they try not only to undercover Anti, but try to get their friends back to normal before someone seriously gets hurt.

And seriously, that’s the simplest way I can put it. The void (from Brutal//moose’s Tele//void!) seems to be where Anti is from, and is also where Ian is held each night for unknown reasons (to ‘appease the void’, who seem to have separate motivations and goals from Anti). Ian is forced to bring Elsa along to the void to keep her safe from Anti, who constantly tries to intimidate her to leave Ellie and Traci to be pawns along with Jack to his game, whatever the fuck his game is.

See, Anti has done this before, at Jack’s previous school. Somehow, Anti gets his grimy little claws into anyone Jack cares about and just drives them c r a z y, and the last time this happened, Jack did not figure out he was possessed, cut loose from his old life, and moved to Asagao, hoping for a new start.

Of course, Anti seems to grow more powerful with attention (like we all tend to do, but he does so literally grow more powerful), so after duping Traci into believing that she loves Jack (and that Jack loves her instead of Ellie), he reveals himself, and by this time, Traci is so blind to what’s happening, she just… accepts that she’s loved Anti all along. This lets him get away with more shit, in and out of the void, including creating these… void gals based on our three heroines/victims. They are pale, initially lifeless copies of Ellie, Elsa, and Traci originally created to bully Elsa out of staying in relative safety of the void, but due to Elsa unintentionally giving the Ellie and Traci copies attention (romantic attention, much like Traci had done with Anti), as well as names (Kelly and Grace), they became their own beings, and though they (And Chelsa, Elsa’s copy who somehow developed differently from the other two) sort of became lackeys to Anti, they don’t try and hurt Elsa anymore. Does this mean anything??? No clue. Now they’re instead trying to convince her to stay in the void with them, still taking her out of the picture, but its less harmful and brute force.

Also, oddly, while being polar opposites, the void girls ARE based on the regular gals, so their behavior reflects what they really want. Chelsa is uptight and strict while Elsa is relaxed and cheerful, but they both want to be the right one- the one that saves the day- the one that can be depended on.

Ellie and Kelly could not be more opposites. Ellie is nice and Kelly is a bitch L M AO. What I mean is that where Ellie is a bit reserved (and a rad asexual), Kelly is like 94% raw sexual energy who uses said energy to get whatever the hell she wants, but they both want so desperately to be needed.

Traci is soft where Grace is rough and unforgiving, Traci also shy where Grace says almost anything without filter. They want someone to want them- to find use in them where they can’t find use in themselves.

That, my friends, is the ‘original’ AU, as untouched by other Eyesagao Aus as I think I can separate it. However, some of the AUs begin after this chapter has ended- After their years at Asagao has taken place. Let me try to make some sense of it?? Of course, there are plotholes to hell, questions and more questions piling on, but hey, we just want the angst, right? Alright, let’s talk some angst then.

DWC AU: Probably the ‘darkest’ au, in which Traci and Jack go missing right before their graduation. (For comparison, Hana, the main character of Asagao, Elsa, Ellie, and Ian are 3rd years, and Traci and Jack seniors). One by one, Elsa, Ian, and Ellie disappear going on into the summer, leaving a whopping 5 missing students between the years. I would say this AU probably involves some of the Asagao cast ‘the most’ because its thanks to them that the missing kids are ‘found’. Basically, DWC stands for Dark Wood Circus, a vocaloid song about a spoopy circus of freaks. Years later, friends of the eyesagao peeps are still searching for their old high school friends when Hana spies a poster of a ringmaster that looks like Jack. Though the group looking for their old friends is moderate in size (Such has Hana, Luke, Mimi, Mai, Satch, a few others), Hana and Mimi sneak away to follow on this lead, only to come to the shocking discovery of said missing friends, now twisted into mindless creatures of the void/circus, run by none other than ‘Jack’. Even this AU kind of sections off into whether they can get their friends out of the circus and the eyegroup (Ian, Elsa, Ellie, and Traci) having to try and remember their old selves. Have we come up with a happy ending to this yet? Nope.

Adult AU: Somehow, though the mysterious powers that be, they survive high school. (I think we initially decided that Jack, now having the knowledge of Anti controlling him, leaves Asagao) But this leaves both Ellie and Traci incredibly broken as adults. Ellie is afraid to commit to anyone else, in fear into falling into ‘old habits’, and remains single and lonely, even going so far as to alienate herself from her friends. Traci ends up with Hana, but is almost a shell of herself. She’s very withdrawn and struggles to come back to feeling comfortable in her own body. This all goes up in smoke when, at a casual friend-reunion/catch-up dinner, Jack accidently ends up being invited along with Traci, who is hellishly convinced that Anti is still with him when Jack is unable to faithfully tell her that Anti is gone. This AU also involves Mimi and Hana, who, a few nights after the dinner, start exhibiting classic symptoms of exposure to anti or the void. (nausea, nose bleeds, dizziness, etc.)

(TGR: another Adult au where they actually do get their shit together, and save Jack. Elsa, who is poly and bi, dates Traci, who is poly and pan, but Elsa also sort of date-mates with Ellie after jokingly asking her out on a date which comes to fruition, with the intention of getting her more comfortable with dating others (as Ellie hadn’t dated anyone since she had Jack had broken up way back when). At first, Ellie and Traci date Elsa separately, desperate not to get in each other’s way, so afraid to be friends after what happened, but eventually Elsa brings the three of them together, and they all date. This Is the gayest AU, I like to think tbh, but certainly the happiest so far. Named TGR aka The Great Rebound l m ao)

AMA Au: AMA (Asagao Monster Academy) is another AU that I sort of collaborated with others (much more widespread tho, it was just the three of us working on the train wreck that is Eyesagao) where everyone (but Hana) is a monster that goes to Asagao Academy to learn how to be around, or live with humans. Honestly at this point we just put the two aus together just to put the two AUs together, but Jack is another human who’s is mistakenly sent to this school, but is possessed by a demon by the name of Anti, making him a half demon. The story plays out the as the original, but with Anti playing ‘his game’ to get magic from Traci, who is a unicorn in this AU and usually can ward off evil or non-virgins. He uses his influence over her to cloud her judgement and eventually wants to just cut off her horn, yikes. For added measure, Ellie is a golden Hind, a creature who will actually die at the touch of a human, so in falling for Jack, they’ve doomed themselves to either a love where they can’t touch, or a love where they have to put up with Anti literally forever to keep Jack as a demon.

Cameo AU: Basically a short ditty where mr edgiplier/darkiplier is passing through the void, and runs into the void gals, Chelsa, Kelly, and Grace. And because dark and anti are little jealous shits who only want what the other has, Dark extends the invitation to the girls to leave Anti and come work for him. Chelsa is like ‘hell no’, Grace is like ‘you had me going there, but nah son, I know a bad boss when I see one. And I already got one of those’ and Kelly is like ‘um maybe’ and causes this ugly spat where Kelly is about to up and leave (and almost lets Dark kill Grace) when Anti shows the fuck up and makes Kelly know where the hell she stands with him. (clue: she probably got in A LO T of fucking trouble).

This actually leads into the most recent AU-

D AU: Dau, aka ‘That D AU’/ ‘Timeline AU’ What started as a simple ‘what if Dark and Mark came to Asagao Instead of Jack and Anti’ and it honestly fucking mutated (as Eyesagao tends to do). It went from just ‘Similar events but Dark and Mark instead’ to ‘eerily familiar events taking place with almost all the same players. How are the void girls here if Anti never created them? What’s with the déjà vu? Ellie isn’t dating Mark, so now do things proceed?’ So basically what happens is that… once again, Dark and Anti are little shits who have no regards for anyone’s lives but their own, so Dark does… I DON’T EVEN KNOW WHAT HE DID OK he collaborated with Kelly and pulled some fucking shit and suddenly we’ve back at the beginning of Eyesagao. Things are out of place. Ian isn’t a prisoner of the void, but Ellie is. Mark is ‘dating’ Elsa. Elsa is doing all these crazy things ‘hurting all these other people’. Ian is completely unreliable and even m o r e of a jerk than his lovable jerk-tendencies. He’s completely unwilling to even try to begin to help. What’s happening what’s happening?

Dark is playing a game. He knows of the original timeline. Of Jack, of Anti, of the girls, void or no. This is a new timeline. Here he makes Ellie the void’s plaything, and instead goes after Elsa, trapping her in this game of his. He just wants to see if he can break her by the end of the school year. He pretends to be her boyfriend while manipulating her life to make other Asagao students h a t e h er in an effort to break the strongest thing about her- her love of her friends and her heart. Dark is much more versatile- he can hop though dreams, pull nightmares and secrets from the very corners of your mind. He uses this to manipulate the whole school to play along. He uses Chelsa, and Grace, who believe they were created by him, to try and bully Traci into not helping Ellie out in the void. Ian is having flashbacks (forwards? Flash-sideways? WHAT IS THIS, LOST?) to the other timeline, which is actually driving him a little crazy because he can’t make sense of it, and doesn’t want to believe any of it. Kelly and Dark are the only one who knows the truth, and Kelly aint telling, although she’s grown very tired of Dark’s games already, and figures if she can kill Elsa (though using Ellie’s body when she’s weak) without Dark finding out, Dark will get bored, or whatever, and finally be done with this damn school and these damn children and they can leave once and for all. (I also jokingly refer to this au as ‘Traci gets scared’ au because Traci goes through a lot of trauma as dark tries to scare her off without hurting her, as per his deal with Elsa, before he just fucking hurts her anyway)

Other bits not as developed:

Body Snatcher AU: Anti creates the void girls, or rather, give them a form specifically like our regular girls with the intention of giving them the actual physical bodies of the three girls so they can exist out in the real world. What followed is the three of them acting weird, Grace being completely unable to play Traci’s part until they can leave, chelsa n o t w an t I n g to act like Elsa, and Kelly honestly just rubbing it in everyone’s face (especially Ian, who would be the one person who knows about it but can’t do anything about it). It’s only a tiny joke-y but still p angsty when it gets down to it.

Yandere!Elsa: P much after the ‘everyone survives end’ of school, but instead of developing into the Adult Au, Elsa just… doesn’t adjust, she just doesn’t she can’t handle not having to take care of/looking after her friends. I think we said the void drove her mad or something?? She can’t adjust. She first finds Ian after such a long time, and tries to convince him to take her back to the void to see if she can find Kelly and Grace again, but he refuses, seeing that she’s just trying to get empty satisfaction out of something dangerous. She then goes after Traci and Ellie bc she loves them ofc

Reverse AU: Uhm this one came out of nowhere and I think about it A LOT but basically it’s just a situation where Jack and Anti knowingly share a body. Unhappily, but they do it. They’re fucking stuck. At this point they’re like brothers, and Anti has no interest in human life, so usually he leaves Jack be unless he wants to stretch out. Then, as Jack moves and starts going to Asagao, he falls for Ellie…. And Anti falls for a human as well. Her name is Traci, and she’s human, but in this AU she’s a snake. Once Anti reveals himself to be a demon, just out of his love of her, she starts to manipulate him into doing shit she wants, just trying to see what she can get out it. She pretty much goes mad with power over him tbh, and Jack is struggling because he knows and Anti knows shit she’s having him do is w r o ng, but what’s better to the glitchy demon, satisfaction or morality?

The Dragon AU: Um Traci just fuckign accepts that Anti is a bad dude and doesn’t love her but does depend on her to get what he needs done so she just straight up becomes his right hand dude idk what the fucks going through her head Traci stop being b a d. “'Traci you know he’s using you' 'yea, I learned that a few years ago, but for whatever reason, he didn’t kill me or toss me to the curb and I guess some twisted part of me really appreciates that'” is literally the only dialog I have for that whole au

GenderSwap Au: Just literally everyone being the opposite gender can you imagine how fucking intense that would be, two guys in a full out brawl after one broke down crying in the cafeteria. Also, how fucking creepier does Ellie and Tracy’s actions get as males?? Just holy shit it just gets weirder the more you think about it.

[tracelii]

dude either eyesagao au or d au but its a mishmash of anime stereotypes. like magical girl transformations, wind blowing up skirts or someone face planting on boobs, anti sits in a chair with his fingers steepled, dark does kukukuku, etc etc

-Elsa having the (unfortunate) luck of faceplanting right into someone’s completely chest

- wind up skirt never works with traci bc shes always wearing shorts underneath (gotta save them thighs from chafes)

-dark doing the anime glasses thing

-alllll sorts of things happening on a roof-top as u kno

-green-haired jack sharing the main character corner with hana bc theres only enough desks for 1 new student

-beach episode

-hot springs episode

-school festival episode

-whole episode dedicated to finding out more about nurse creeps but finding out absolutely nothing in the end

-school festival + theme for everyone in costumes episode

[tracelii]

bro what if eyesagao or d au + ama au like holy fucjfggj would that be w i l d or what

I totally forgot you sent me this, bruh.

Uh.. that D au, lessee

Mark is probably something that can do magic, but hes stuck with mr edgeiplier here so we dont see much of mark. Dark would probably use Mark’s magic to keep Elsa to her human-ish form in order to keep a better eye on her as he acts as ‘her boyfriend’. The game is the same for Dark- turn all of Elsa’s friends against her, and break the most optimistic person in the school.

but Dark just oozes evil so ofc Traci the unicorn knows somethings up bc unicorn senses are almost never wrong its just that traci is a little bit of a gullible idiot (not to mention she initially had a crush on mark) and her balance on two legs isnt the best so Dark still manages to shove her down the stairs, but isnt able to manipulate her so easily afterwards because, for the most part, she can usually sense lies. This leads Dark to try and intimidate and distract her in other ways (i. e. the stair shoving) to keep her out the way

Ellie, who’s a golden hind, which is a whole metaphor about relationships is also able to tell the ‘relationship’ between ‘mark’ and Elsa isnt a true one, and joins traci (THE HOOVES SLEUTHS) in trying to save their friend. Dark approaches ellie and tells her that there is indeed a human in the school (and being the creature she is, if a human touches her she WILL die) so shes struggling trying to keep up the good fight but also looking out because she knows if Dark finds out who the human is, he’ll surely manipulate it to where they will meet. This has led her to be closed off (even more so than normal) and paranoid.

[tracelii]

What's eyesagao? I keep seeing you post about it but I've never really figured out what it is (is that how it's spelled?)

oKAY so my friend youre in for a wild ride because god knows what eyesagao is.

I’ll assume you know what Asagao Academy is at the very least? A sort of dating sim for a group of youtubers called the Normal Boots? And it has cameos by fellow youtube group Hidden Block

And its been super, super fun to include your own Self Insert students, but heres where things get weird. So like, its safe to assume since this is a sort of specific youtuber dating sim, that there are AUs with other youtubers, right? Coolio. and Back in october, Jacksepticeye was doing his Anti thing on his channel so like, I guess I was just like ‘Okay, AU where Jack goes to Asagao’ but im super fucking shy, so my character, Traci, just had this one sided crush on him, and I said 'bonus if Anti fucks around with her because he knows she has the crush on jack’ and fucking forgot I said that.

So around the same time, @ellieofmidnight was like 'I might actually pair my Self Insert with Jack maybe??? like as an AU thing where he goes to the school I guess"

and then @poketin brought it all together and was like 'okay but what if both things happen at the same time’

So we got Jack going to Asagao, dating Ellie. then we have Anti (initially unknowingly to Jack) leading Traci on and sort of demonically influencing her to do all this crazy shit, thinking that she was in love with jack and that 'jack’ loves her, and not Ellie. This, in turn, is also influencing Ellie to act out, being paranoid that Jack is with Traci, because Anti is dropping hints that he is. So these two gals are just fucking going crazy and Jack is trying to figure out whats going on??

Elsa (Poketin) joins up with Ellie’s best friendo Ian (part of hidden block) to try and get to the bottom of this (which also somehow involves Ian/Brutalmoose’s youtube 'thing’ televoid ). So its this convoluted plot with these crazy ass people who wont get help because theyre all little teenaged shits and the three of us (Me, Ellieofmidnight, and Poketin) usually write plot points/prompts for them (out of order, but whatever), but because im obsessive, hyperfocusing f u ck i write way too much for it and I’m super fucking sorry for that all the time.

… but yea, so thats eyesagao. (Eye+Asagao because whenever we do some shady shit, we do the discord :eyes: eyes emoji at each other)

[poketin]

all the numbers in the otp ask for mimielsa!!

oh geez avery thanks a lot ;w; 

(I did 3, 10, and 12 right here, so ill stick the to others i didnt do!)

1. Which member would be shy about dancing in public and which member would try to coax the other into dancing with them?

Elsa’s the one to initiate it most likely, especially in a casual setting. Like if a song she likes it playing while they’re shopping, she’ll just start jamming! Mimi thinks she looks dumb but she’ll join in if Elsa insists hard enough. If it’s at like an actual dancing venue (like a ballroom, somewhere fancy), then Mimi will have to convince her because Elsa doesn’t want to embarrass her here with her awkwardness. 2. What TV Trope would best describe your OTP?

Anger Born of Worry fits Mimi fucking absolutely, and I’ll say that Love at First Punch is good for the soulmate fate I’ve been writing for these two and Girl of my Dreams is great for DWC Eyesagao AU ;3c4. Which one fixes up the other one’s outfit in the morning (adjusting a tie, putting hair in the right spot, etc.)?

Mimi definitely. Mimi’s pretty much done with her routine by the time Elsa wakes up, so when Elsa finishes washing her face and all that, Mimi will swoop in and be like “I have just the thing for your frizz--” and things like that, adjusting Elsa’s clothes so they don’t look like she slept in them, etc. Elsa will try to do the same for Mimi (like helping her with a necklace) so she can kiss her neck or something ;3c5. What pet(s) would your OTP get?I like to think that Mimi already has a cat, so they’d take care of her together! Elsa always rushes to see the birds at pet stores and always does puppy dog eyes to see if Mimi will let them get one. Maybe one day! Also maybe a ferret haha!6. If one was a magician, would the other be an assistant or a rival magician?

Rivalry’s can be super hot, so I’ll go with that! Though the assistant uniform would look great on either one of them, so they might take turns sometimes haha7. If one has a health issue and/or disability, how does the other member help the first one out?

Mimi’s good at getting Elsa out of situations that will lead to an anxiety attack because of how commanding her presence is. Like, if maybe people are arguing close by and Elsa starts unfocusing, shaking, etc., Mimi will tell them rather sharply to fuck off. 8. What sorts of things would they give each other “just because”?

Elsa will pick flowers for Mimi and buy her random jewlery that she thinks looks good on her. Obviously it’s pretty much cheap stuff that Mimi knows isn’t her thing, but she’ll wear it casually anyway (never at a formal event, Mimi has her own reputation to maintain). 

Mimi also buys any toys or video games she thinks Elsa might like and even if it’s bootleg stuff or something that Elsa’s not exactly interested in, she still loves it!9. Which member is more likely to fall asleep on the other member?

Elsa most likely! Especially if it’s somewhere sort of public like a train or movie theater. Mimi’s more composed and has a harder time falling asleep whereas Elsa just wants to sleep on her warm girlfriend ahhh11. Which member would draw on the other when given time and a marker?

Mimi won’t let Elsa get anywhere near her skin with markers of any kinds so she’ll draw on Elsa. She’ll also write down things on Elsa that she’ll most likely forget about that are important.

[poketin]

14 for mimielsa, 18 for haci, 3 for platonic midnightmoose, and then 29 & 30 for the platonic super sleuths, antci (if you can even think of a positive for this one) and midnightsepticeye :eyes:

fuck yes ellie :eyes: thanks babe!

MimiElsa - 14: Who kisses the hardest? 

Elsa definitely starts this one, but Mimi isn’t one to be outdone and fucking goes ham. By the end, their lips hurt like hell but it was worth it~

Haci - 18: Who leaves little notes in the other’s one lunch? (Bonus: what does it usually say?)

After discovering Traci’s job, arguing and then making up, Hana always makes her lunch and leaves little drawings of cats and cute things with stuff like “You got this!!” and obv “I love you!

Midnightmoose - 3: Most common argument?

In the Eyesagao AU, it’s all about how Jack isn’t good for Ellie and how he’s like ruining her life, but Ellie won’t listen o f c. In regular, it’s mostly playful arguing about how much Ellie sucks at games (and also more serious arguing about how she should stand up for herself more, Ian’s the fucking sass man he can cut a bitch with words and he wants Ellie to do the same or just similar lol).

29 & 30: 

Platonic Super Sleuths: 

one headcanon about this OTP that breaks your heart: After an argument, Ian one time didn’t bring Elsa to the void out of anger and spite. Anti went after her with all he could in this opportunity and not only did she not sleep and miss class, but Ian found her shaking in her closet, refusing to come out. He sat with her and forced himself to commit her sobbing to memory as punishment for himself, and even though Elsa forgave him easily, he never lets himself forget what happened. 

one headcanon about this OTP that mends it: A couple times in the void, when the TV was showing Ian something, he and Elsa would sit together (maybe even semi cuddle if Ian was too tried to argue) to watch. Elsa would make a buncha stupid jokes and at first Ian was terrified, but when nothing happened, he really appreciated letting go and snarking about whatever was on with his friend.

Antci: 

one headcanon about this OTP that breaks your heart: Anti likes to leave sharp objects around like thumbtacks and even knitting needles to see what Traci does. He mentions offhandedly a couple times that Traci should punish herself and that she shouldn’t rely on him to decide what she did wrong, because ofc she’s done something wrong. She pricks herself with those sharp things, almost as a nervous habit from hereafter. (Bonus: whenever Elsa comes over, she sees little blood drips and hides any thumbtacks and needles she can. Wonder if Traci ever discovers her and if any “accidents” happened...)

one headcanon about this OTP that mends it: In the early days when Traci began to have doubt about Anti and all his crap, he did his best to be as romantic as possible to get her to buy into it all. He almost gagged multiple times, but he sent flowers, brought her one of his shirts, and even kissed her hand all prince style. Anti later snickered about the whole thing, but he did find Traci cute in his-Jack’s clothes. He immediately killed whatever the weird, new feeling was and quickly forgot about it. Doesn’t mean it didn’t happen tho!

Midnightsepticeye: 

one headcanon about this OTP that breaks your heart: One time Jack was just rambling on and on while Ellie was in distress about something. She ended up snapping at him because he wasn’t paying any actual attention to her feelings and they didn’t speak for a couple days, despite him trying to and feeling awful about it. Eventually all was forgiven and they had a talk about this, but he can’t forget the hurt look on her face.

one headcanon about this OTP that mends it: Jack once called her “Ellie Bean” and refuses to call her anything else. He adores the nickname and is always saying it’s because she’s as sweet as candy, and she secretly loves it too, despite saying he’s more of a jelly bean with his dyed hair. Sometimes when they look into each other’s eyes, they don’t move for like ten minutes, no matter where they are. They’re also prone to laughing fits even during class, when Jack decides to horse around and whisper/send notes to Ellie. It’s mostly him that gets in trouble, but he loves seeing her smile so its okay!!

[tracelii]

DUDE IMAGINE MONSTER AU MASHED WITH EYESAGAO AU, WHAT WOULD ALL OUR SI'S BE AND HOW WOULD IT AFFECT EVERYTHING?

Ok my friend u are asking a loaded question but I’d try mybest????

-Uhhh well if Elsa was gonna be a slime girl, she wouldn’t behurt if she was pushed down the stairs, not unless she was really caught heroff guard and she didn’t have time to shift from a human form to something thatcould take the fall better???

-Actually she probably could have such an impact on herslime form she just cant reform a human-shape for a little while

- Uhhhh… definitely Anti would at least once, trap Ian(vampire) in a situation where he could be hurt by the sun (like somehowgetting him out to the tree and then just fuckin leaving him there)

- Jack is either an actual elf, an actual demon (Anti beinghis ‘harmful’ side) or an actual human that transferred and was possessed by aprevious student (Anti)

-Although I was leaning towards deer centaur, Traci is aunicorn for the reason of Anti wanting something from her (like her horn ortears, that both hold magical properties), but she can usually tell if someonelying, so all this demonic influence shit is clouding her judgement

- Ellie is a ‘Golden Hind’, a half woman, half deer creaturewhos also all gold. (and will also die if she gets touched by a human).

-Well if Jacks human he definitely didn’t find this outuntil after he started dating her, and he definitely freaked the hell out, but…they had touched plenty of times, and he was fairly certain she was still alive,so like, what happened?

-Turns out that hey, because hes being fucking possessed, insome technicality, he’s no longer human.

-Which also means if they find out some way to get rid ofAnti, Jack and Ellie can’t be together. (and that Ian almost immediately found out he was human, and was always suspicious of him ‘you smell fucking weird. your blood smells way too much like a human. i dont think i like you im just saying that now’)

-Yes, Elsa makes a lot of horny jokes. Yes, Traci is tiredof them.

[tracelii]

Eyesagao Lyrics the 3rd

Seriously guys if you dont tell me to stop Im not going to stop I’m real bad about that. @poketin @ellieofmidnight

Ellie:

Women and men we are the same, But love will always be a game. We give and take a little more, Eternal game of tug and war.

Power and control, I’m gonna make you fall. Power and control, I’m gonna make you fall. I’m gonna make you fall, We give and take a little more, ‘Cause all my life I’ve been controlled, You can’t have peace without a war, Without a war, without a war. (Power and Control, Marina and the Diamonds)

*

When I saw my best friend yesterday, She said she never liked you from the start, Well me, I wish that I could claim the same, But you always knew you held my heart. And you're such a charming, handsome man, Now I think I finally understand, Is it in your genes, I don't know, But I'll soon find out, that's for sure, Why did you play me this way? (Your Woman, White Town)

*

The mirror's image Tells me it's home time But I'm not finished 'Cause you're not by my side And as I arrived I thought I saw you leaving Carrying your shoes Decided that once again I was just dreaming Of bumping into you Now it's three in the morning and I'm trying to change your mind Left you multiple missed calls and to my message you reply, "Why'd you only call me when you're high? Hi, why'd you only call me when you're high?" (Why’d you only call me when you’re high- Arctic Monkeys)

Traci:

You got me spinning like a ballerina, You're the bad boy that I always dreamed of, You're the king and, baby, I'm the queen of Disaster, disaster. Got mascara thick, I get emotional You know I was more than just a party girl. Too hard to see what's goin' on, I'm so far gone (mmm, so far gone) When I saw your face it was incredible, Painted on my soul, it was indelible. We celebrate our twisted fate, We're the broken ones (Queen of Disaster, Lana Del Ray)

*

Love everything you do When you call me fucking dumb for the stupid shit I do Wanna ride my bike with you Fully undressed, No training wheels left for you I'll pull them off for you (Training Wheels, Melanie Martinez)

*

It's going to be curtains for this room.

There'll be every type of doom.

Yeah I don't know if you're human or monster.

(No, no, no)

Or when they step out to my grave.

Ain't gonn' have no soul to save.

It got torn apart when I joined this roster. (Anger Management, Big Bad Bosses)

 Elsa:

Now the storm is here I see you running Your face full of tears So red and burning And I can't work out How you spend Another day with him Just say the word You know I'll do it I'm waiting for you Just let me do it And we can run away to another place Less Full Of fear (The Function of the Orgasm, White Town)

*

Somewhere darker Talking the same shite I need a partner (hey) Well, are you out tonight? It's harder and harder to get you to listen More I get through the gears Incapable of making alright decisions And having bad ideas (Why’d you only call me when you’re high, Arctic Monkeys)

*

I go crazy 'cause here isn't where I wanna be And satisfaction feels like a distant memory And I can't help myself, All I wanna hear her say is "Are you mine?" (Are U Mine, Arctic Monkeys)

 Jack:

Hands (hands!) Of time will wring my neck

Every little moment spells regret

But I don't have to feel this way

As a voice inside my head (My Time, Bo En)

*

Do I look lonely? I see the shadows on my face People have told me I don't look the same Maybe I lost weight I'm playing hooky With the best of the best Pull my heart out my chest So that you can see it too (Death of a Bachelor, Panic! At the Disco)

*

Her breath began to speak as she stood right in front of me

The color of her eyes were the color of insanity

Crushed beneath her wave like a ship, I could not reach her shore

We're all just dancers on the devil's dance floor

 Well, swing a little more, little more o'er the merry-o

Swing a little more, a little more next to me

Swing a little more, little more o'er the merry-o

Swing a little more, on the devil's dance floor (Devil’s Dance Floor, Flogging Molly)

 Ian:

I want something else, to get me through this Semi-charmed kinda life, baby, baby I want something else, I'm not listening when you say good-bye (Semi-Charmed Life, Third Eye Blind)

*

I'm being totally for real,

I'm making my appeal,

I'm waiting for the cycle to break down.

You know that every single day,

I wake up on my way

To destiny and reckoning a break.

 I put aside all my rage and engage anger management.

I've gotta go with the flow and see the light.

Tonight we fly and I die, then I get up.

Let's make the world go right. (Anger Management, Big Bad Bosses)

*

Oyasumi (Goodnight)

Oyasumi (Goodnight)

Oyasumi (Goodnight)

Oyasumi (Goodnight)

 Oyasumi oyasumi (GoodNight, GoodNight)

Close your eyes and you'll leave this dream

Oyasumi oyasumi (GoodNight, GoodNight)

I know that it's hard to do (My Time, Bo En)

  Anti:

I'm in the business of misery, Let's take it from the top. She's got a body like an hourglass, it's ticking like a clock. It's a matter of time before we all run out, When I thought he was mine she caught him by the mouth. (Misery Business, Paramore)

*

So have you got the guts? Been wondering if your heart's still open and if so I wanna know what time it shuts Simmer down and pucker up I'm sorry to interrupt. It's just I'm constantly on the cusp of trying to kiss you I don't know if you feel the same as I do But we could be together if you wanted to (Do I wanna Know, Arctic Monkeys)

*

Cause I know what you feel, girl. I know just what you feel, girl. All these melodies, they go on too long. Then that energy starts to come on way too strong. All those hearts lay open that must sting. Plus some customers just start combusting. Thats the penalty when life is but a song. (Sweet’s Song, Buffy the Vampire Slayer)

*

What a lot of fun

You guys have been real swell

And there's not a one

who can say “This ended well”

All those secrets You've been concealing

Say you're happy now,

“Once more with feeling”

Now I gotta run

See you all in hell! (Sweet’s Song (Reprise), Buffy the Vampire Slayer)