#except that i also love other a-spec Vox interpretations and transfem and enby vox so that was a lie actually

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Show biz producer Vox who knew that he was queer when he was alive and frequented underground gay bars and fucking hated the Hays Code but would probably sell out any other queer person for one(1) singular corn chip if it meant furthering his career because "That's just show biz baby ;)"

Vox who hid his identity as a trans man and went through his life passing as a cis man and who told himself that it was just to have a chance at a better career but who always knew that he was really lying to himself

Vox who still had so much internalized biphobia and transphobia after he died, who thought he had to "pick a side" and that if he liked men he must be faking his attraction to women and who hated the fact that he liked men because he felt like it made him less of a man and who was still heavily repressed

Demiromantic aspec Vox with internalized aphobia because he thought that not wanting to fuck everything that moved made him less of a man

Vox who met Alastor and formed such an intimate connection with him and who finally let himself truly fall for a man without shame or guilt and then it turned out horribly (whether or not if their fall out had anything to do with Vox's feelings or if they ever actually got together)

Vox who, for as much of a show as he puts on, hates himself hates himself hates himself