#everything is so boring..! nothing is worth doing..!! except killing for bhaal. | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

swordmaid · 3 months ago

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durge yves is so very jaded about everything because nothing compares to the euphoria bhaal grants from killing that she latches onto anything that piques her interest. to the point that performing surgeries and experiments on her own self gets so boring that she stopped for a time. she also has very little regard over her own body, not caring what happens to it because it's merely a vessel for bhaal and he can make and remake it as he wishes. i think the moment orin betrays yves that's one of the few times she feels excitement and joy, and when she was experimented on by kressa then shoved in that pod she was ecstatic about it. it's different. it's a change. she enjoyed it so very much that the moment she awoke in the nautiloid she can't help but smile. she doesn't know why, hardly can remember anything about herself, but for some reason she feels a certain excitement; an anticipation of a hunt.

#like all her senses was drowned out by that certain euphoria else wise if she regains a semblance of her past sane mind #she'll go running back to kelemvor lol. which is what she does in act 1 except in act 2 she feels that familiar euphoria again #and it feels like home to her.. and it's something so warm and inviting that she feels herself slipping into it.....#to me yves' durges/dark urges is this kind of siren song state that lulls her in #makes her feel so warm and good and homey and cozy and all things nice #she blanks out when she's drowning in it and every drop of blood feels so good against her skin #and she doesn't register that she's killing someone. it's like an out of body state of euphoria for her #and durge yves would've indulged on that feeling over and over and over and over that nothing else compares anymore #everything is so boring..! nothing is worth doing..!! except killing for bhaal.#and she finds gortash mildly interesting bc his mind is so diabolical. does not care about ketheric at the slightest til she learns about #his immortal state now she's fantasizing about killing him then stitching him up and killing him over and over #she finds orin entertaining bc she reminds her of a roach somewhat. someone so resilient despite being beaten down quite literally #like durge yves was very much orin's abuser to me. she's her fave squeaky toy that she throws and beats and plays with over and over #and every time she breaks orin she'll heal her back up to break her again <3 so the betrayal and lobotomy was very much deserved #anyway thought was brought to u by me doodling yves in that pod knocking her head against it and laughing and cackling #she'd enjoy that sm i fear...#shut up about bg3.#bg3 spoilers

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