#everything i try makes her feel bland af T_T

[revon-aurora-borealis]

you ever really wanna make an oc for a piece of fiction youre into but nomatter what you throw out there none of it sticks and everything about them doesnt sit right with you?

ive had this before, and typically i just abandon the oc or suddenly something sticks (this is that case for both my Agent 3 oc and Neo Agent 3 oc)

the thing is in that case i needed to make them for the story and i already was like interested in making them anyway

at first i was into the idea of this oc but the more i read this manga the more i just... feel like shes stupid and doesnt work, all the ideas i have for her doesnt work nomatter how much is toy around with them, it kinda feels like she exists just to have special connections to the characters i like and this one oc i thought of kinda just exists to be romantically involved with this one guy and i dont like it

the just feel bland af and only one of them i feel like adds some extra substance i wish was there for the story, but part of that could be there just by writing one of the characters im into differently

i dont want a self insert here either, i want to design someone, i want to make someone else, i want the mirror that reflects me to be shattered into small bits

im stuck in a creative rut rn cuz of my period and winter and i fucking hate it

i think ill just focus on skycotl fn ughhh

i think its best i take a break from this manga fn