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snellyboi · 5 years ago

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Psst, hey, you! Want a Steven Universe hot take?

Words: Too damn many Summary: It’s a Steven Universe hot take about hurting connie, and how it ties into the show, the original Steven Universe, the lack of filler, and Steak Dinners. Warnings: Longe boi, a bit of a text wall but I do use paragraphs so it’s not awful I guess? A lot of talks about filler and stuff at the beginning.

ALSO I SHOULD POINT OUT this isn’t, like, some sort of SU critical circa 2017 post. I have qualms with the show, which are discussed, but overall, I think it’s pretty good stuff. Please be aware of that. I’m not gonna say it’s the worst thing on the planet because it’s not.

UNDER THE CUT:

Before we get into the meat of the conversation, I need to tell you where I’m coming from.

I have...strange feelings about Steven Universe.

It came out when I was starting High School, when I was bingeing cartoons like nobody’s business because peer pressure for years had made me repulse them. I didn’t care much about the deeper meanings of the show at the time, if I wanted to do deeper meanings I could go back and watch ATLA or those Rebecca Sugar episodes of Adventure Time, or OTGW. This was a bunch of magic space rocks fighting other magic space rocks! I was SO down!

Near the middle, though, and closer to the end, I guess I got a little...bored with it? I dunno what it was; well, I do now, but at the time I had no clue. it just seemed...a little over the top. I guess I had signed up for something like early Adventure Time, or the early parts of any given ATLA season. It became more of a drama than anything else, like a hundred Zuko and Iroh moments rolled into one, emotional punch after emotional punch.

This isn’t the most sound assessment, no, and current me would be...a little annoyed at best if a show started doing this today. Sure, one could make the argument that I sound super hypocritical in retrospect, as I’m a huge fan of She-Ra and Infinity Train, but for every ‘Mermysteries’ in She-Ra there’s a ‘Roll With It’, and Infinity Train’s seasons are 5 nights long, perfect for punch after punch, but on Steven Universe? For every ‘Mirror Gem’, there was a...’Gem Harvest’. Which, sure, it was alright, but c’mon, calling an episode where we meet an entirely new character, even if only for a moment, filler, is a bit of a stretch. Filler is like ‘Always BMO Closing’ or something. And that hits the bone of the weird part here, does Steven Universe even have filler?

The whole 'no true filler’ idea is one of those things that sounds great on a show, but falls flat, because when people complain about filler, it’s complaining about bad filler, not the presence of it in general. If I get a steak and fries, and the fries are bad, I’m not complaining because they’re fries, I’m complaining because they’re bad fries. She-Ra is a good porterhouse with great fries. Infinity Train and OTGW are filet mignon with lobster tail, not really filler, but perfect in a way. Near the end, and really, for me, all the way through, Steven Universe felt more like a strip steak with no sides, just a little bit of A1.

Isn’t this post about Connie, SUF, and how that all works?

Yes, it is. We’re getting there.

Steven Universe Future has been all emotional roller coasters the whole way through, seemingly. I’ll be honest, I’m not as into it as I was into Steven Universe, for a few reasons. Mostly, it expands on that no filler problem, big time. Nothing feels like it can be out of place, there’s even an episode titled the ‘Very Special Episode’, a slang term used in TV to talk about stuff like stranger danger specials, or the Golden Girls tackling the issue of gay marriage, etc. With the tense build of Steven’s mental health issues, I honestly wouldn’t have it any other way. Whether I like it or not, it’s doing what it needs to do, and I’ll acknowledge that it does exactly what it sets out to accomplish.

So in Steven Universe, the main conflict is Steven and his past, and trying to convince people that no matter who someone is, they can be redeemed. It’s not a space war epic like I thought it would be (I used to be angry about that, but, just like the show said, people change, and now I have different qualms with it) but it does really well with that. So what is the conflict in SUF?

Steven has lost his raison d’etre.

He’s going through that most existential of crises; “I’m at the top of the mountain, now what?”

NOW WE FINALLY GET TO THE HOT TAKE!

The reason I brought up any of what I just did is to link it back to this heinous, outright stupid idea that Steven would just, like, I dunno, choke slam Connie or whatever you sick monsters wanna see.

All of this No Filler, Everything is important stuff told us a lot about the characters. After all, it’s hard not to have character development in a show environment like that. Steven was shown as someone who genuinely cared, a lot, about everyone around him. He almost over-empathizes, to the point where he’s able to see the good in a bunch of arguably fascist space rocks voiced by former broadway divas. As much as I dislike the show for only ever being weighty and never having any ‘true filler’ or whatever, the reason it did that makes stylistic sense; Steven has no filler in his life. He’s way too empathetic. He cried when he found out that Snakes don’t have arms, for christ’s sake!

As annoying as it felt watching it, it’s an unfortunate reality that some people are forced to live their lives that way, empathizing with anyone and everyone they meet, and it hurts, and when you fix all the problems people had, but they suddenly leave?

That fucking hurts. And that’s how I think we ended up here.

That’s also why I think he’s not gonna hit Connie. At least, not purposefully.

Steven has pretty openly expressed feelings for Connie before, and while we haven’t seen a romance line yet, it’s pretty obvious it’s slated to at some point.

Now, if Steven can empathize with Space Stalin™, he can empathize with a girl he’s had a crush on for years at this point for going away to seek higher education. Sure, these pink outbursts are getting to him, as recent leaks may have shown, but I doubt that hurting Connie would crop up. It goes against a lot of the show’s themes of community and healing. But most of all?

It’s just crappy writing.

The show has had its fair share of clunkers in my opinion, as every show longer than 2 seasons is bound to have. Remember that episode where Nanefua runs for mayor? Or how about the one with Lars and the Off Color gems where they’re there for a grand total, of, like...the opening?

None of those were terrible episodes though, just...forgettable. It’s not as if Steven just pulls out a chain gun and starts blasting in one of them. That would be stupid, and garbage, and a copout to generate ratings. Punching Connie would be like killing Brian on Family Guy; no weight, just shock. Flash in the pan. A bomb going off with no warning, no suspense. A jump scare.

And that’s why I talked about the whole No Filler thing, and how it annoys me to no end, but how it’s necessary and worth while!

No one would ever have spent this whole time building up Steven as an over empathizer with an Atlas personality just to have him punch someone whose been his love interest since 2013.

We would never spend an entire show cycle building someone up as caring too much about the people around him for his fatal flaw to be punching his girlfriend. The no filler thing was a noble, brave idea, that in my opinion fell over. But damn, did it do great things for the characters on the show, even if it sacrificed pacing.

It should come as no surprise by now that the no filler thing, to me, is a bit of a stretch. Of course there was filler; sure, lore gets expanded, but when it’s not expanded well it just feels like the writers aren’t quite sure what to do (hmm, maybe they’d be better at filler if they’d written some beforehand...).

But it portrayed the lead amazingly well, giving us a world through his eyes, and set up an amazing story about someone who cared too much about a world that was starting to care less and less about him. Setting us up for an amazing show, whether I want to watch it that often, or not.

Let’s face it, it may not be my favorite meal, but sometimes you just can’t beat a strip steak with a little bit of A1.

#steven universe #suf #steven universe future #connie maheswaran

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ember373 · 5 years ago

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When the quiet settles in, the demons come out to play...

Nights are the hardest. When the house is still and everything is quiet. I’m fine if I busy myself, but the moment I pause and start to think... That’s when I’m fucked. One little thought takes me down the rabbit trail and I spiral deeper and deeper. Some nights I sti there, numb, thoughts racing through my mind pinning me down like a deer in headlights. Other nights I feel-all the pain, loneliness, desparation, isolation, rage, fear-all the lovelies I try to push away during the day come out at night to play. Sometimes they play so hard that water leaks from my eyes. (Who’s crying?!? I’m NOT crying...)

It’s the night before my birthday and I hear the typewriter sound of my phone notifying me that I have an email. I get my hopes up. Someone remembered me and is wishing me a Happy Birthday!! ... nope. It’s just a pen pal service I signed up for long ago wishing me a happy birthday and wondering why I haven’t logged on in so long. :/ I should have known better. There is dark laughter inside of me at my stupidity.

I hate my birthday. I used to love it. I used to look forward to time spent with friends, wondering what little surprises might be in store, what thoughtful things people might have picked out just for me. But just like holidays, it became just another day of stress. And the title of picky princess got wrapped around my head, but instead of a soft silk sachet it was a crown of prickly scratchy burlap that must have been drug through a field of weeds and picked up every poky thing it could find and embedded it in it’s rough fibers. It’s not even that I was demanding or whiny or anything. I don’t know if it was just a cool thing to say because in his head all women act like that? I have no idea. But suddenly, me wanting to plan a special day for myself one day out of the year somehow turned in to I was hard to please and I’d hold every little mistake over his head. There was that one time we went out of town and he forgot to pack my luggage so I had NOTHING. I was a bit upset about that and joked about it for years. But I only laughed about it because it hurt so damn much. It was right there by everything else, but somehow just didn’t make it into the car. And then when we discovered it, he shrugged it off and told me I was being ridiculous when I got upset that I had nothing for the weekend. I wasn’t allowed to feel. As always, my thoughts and feelings are ridiculous because they inconvenienced him. He had a ball game to go to with a friend. I could just go shopping and find something to work for the weekend. Maybe most girls would have loved that idea, but I hate clothes shopping. I’m not a size 2. Or 6 or 8 or 10. They don’t make a lot of flattering clothes for the bigger sizes. So it was a very depressing weekend. But I had to push it all aside and plaster a smile on my face and have fun because dammit he planned this great weekend and I better not ruin it. *sigh*

I started to care less and less about my birthday in the following years. And then I just started dreading it. Every year now, I dream of running away and just being somewhere by myself where nobody knows who I am or when I was born until the day passes and everything goes back to ‘normal’ again. But that’s not allowed. What was once a celebration feels like an obligation to everyone but myself. I need to celebrate with these people (his family) because they want to celebrate with me and give me gifts they picked out, even though half of them might be something I can’t even fathom of ever wanting. But they know me so well. *eye roll* I smile and say my thank yous and feign delight over every one. I don’t want to hurt their feelings. And god forbid I fuck up in the little world he created. Because it’s all about him. My birthday? Ha! It’s all about how generous he was and how he bought me expensive shit I never asked for. He was sooo nice and thoughtful. What?!? It’s not what you wanted? Ungrateful bitch. Because of course he shouldn’t ever have to really listen to what I like. Listen to my stories and my life and see what things are important to me and things aren’t. Because every woman likes expensive jewelry and extravagant gifts. Bigger is better, right? And dammit, he went to the mall and spent one hour looking at stuff before deciding this must be what I wanted. All that time! So I just smile and laugh and joke and be truly humbled by everyone’s generosity. Thank you for the zebra print earrings I’ll probably never wear. Thank you for the inspiring God Book I’ll never read. Thank you for the diamond earrings that will fall out of my ear 6 months later that you’ll never let me live down and will always shame me for. Because apparently the locking stud failing was entirely my fault. Thank you for the too small clothes in gaudy bright colors that I never wear and make me want to hurl. Oh, I wear too much black? So thoughtful of you to buy me clothes unlike anything I wear so I can be more like you. So, so sweet.

But inside I’m screaming and just want to be left alone. Birthdays used to be about the person who was born and celebrating in a way that would make them feel happy and loved. Not anymore. Now it’s just a day I have to spend with people I don’t want to, going places I don’t want to, picking up my own cake and pretending everything is ok and that I really don’t want to run screaming into the middle of a highway to be hit by a Mac Truck. Yay. I wanted that to be a run on sentence btw, but just couldn’t commit to it. Ah well.

I’m turning one year older. One year closer to death. How many years do I have left? I feel imprisoned. Just doing my time. I wonder what atrocities I committed in past lives that this is my fate now. Somehow I figure I must deserve this. I must have done something to deserve this. So I just need to shut the fuck up and live it out. Serve my sentence until death releases me. (to do it all over again? Man I hope karma really isn’t a thing...) Try to be as normal as I can be for my kids. Don’t miss the moments. Don’t fuck up their childhood too badly. I’m sure I’m doing a real bang up job.

Wow. This is just a fucking fantastic mood I’m in. I think I’ll stop now. No point in going on. All that garbage didn’t really make me feel any better. Any lighter. I just feel tired and spent. I’m sure I’ll delete this one in the future. :P In the meantime tho, I should go to bed. I have a big day of doing everything for everyone else tomorrow as I turn one year older. Or maybe I’ll stay up and binge watch k drama. That’s much more likely so I stop thinking about all this shit. >.<

11:51 pm 7/5/2019

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anexplanationofunfortunateevents · 6 years ago

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buzzfeeding frenzy

THERE WAS SOME WEIRD DRAMA WITH BUZZFEED NEWS LAST WEEK but the upshot of it is: Donald Trump is a criminal, and that is finally starting to sink in for a critical mass of people.

While this one article didn’t dramatically change what we know about Individual-1′s ties to the Kremlin, it’s worth unpacking because it demonstrated a lot of what’s been hard to absorb about this story.

Most of us come across BuzzFeed as, you know, the website with all the “choose your favorite stadium food and we’ll tell you which Disney princess you’re most like” quizzes. Nothing wrong with that! But it can overshadow their often excellent longform reporting. Over the last couple of years they have been almost uniquely relentless about the Russian government’s years-long crime spree in western countries, from the mysterious deaths of Russians living in the UK to its apparent compromise of the US Treasury Department before the 2016 election.

BuzzFeed’s first big mainstream breakthrough in the Trump-Russia story came a little more than two years ago when they published former MI-6 agent Christopher Steele’s memos about Individual-1’s many ties to the Russian government. They emphasized that they couldn’t verify everything in the dossier, and justified the decision to publish it anyway with the fact that the memos had been circulating around the US government for months. Readers ate it up, understandably: people were confused and frightened by what had happened during the election and what would happen when President Obama turned over the keys to Individual-1, and they were frustrated about having been in the dark about the story until it was too late.

The mainstream press lost its fucking mind jumping all over each other to condemn BuzzFeed, and you didn’t exactly have to be a hardened cynic to question their motives. Mainstream political media bends over backwards to placate bad-faith Republican allegations of “liberal media bias.” After collectively donating billions of dollars in free ad time to the Trump campaign, they were eager for the opportunity to prove that they were not biased against him. Scapegoating BuzzFeed – an upstart competitor with an unserious reputation – was both useful and easy.

Even worse, the performance had an unmissable stench of guilt about it. As it turns out, the memos had been widely distributed around media circles. Steele – an established expert – had flown in from London during the election to plead with them to take the situation seriously. They ignored him and rewarded the attackers. The same people who spent October of 2016 transcribing John Podesta’s risotto recipe had passed on the story of a century, and they were SUPER mad when someone broke the omertà. (Or maybe it was #ACTUALLY ABOUT ETHICS IN JOURNALISM????!? hahahaha, no.)

There were reasonable concerns about BuzzFeed’s decision to publish Steele’s memos. Major reporting on a legitimate national security issue – not bureaucratic posturing or bad faith partisan garbage, but something that could pose a genuine threat – almost categorically can’t be an easy call, right? If something is actually serious, and someone is bothering to keep it a secret, there’s usually a good reason for it. Even if the dossier itself was already out there, somebody leaked the fact that it was in a presidential briefing; we don’t know who they were or why they did it. Anything that gets as much attention as this did as quickly as it did should probably be treated with skepticism, because bad actors are so good at gaming the algorithms that capture attention. And there were questions about its accuracy.

On balance, though, I think BuzzFeed’s decision to publish the Steele dossier has been vindicated. A lot of the allegations have been verified. Repeated attempts to disprove any of it have failed; Congressional Republicans’ desperation to do so suggests that it’s even more credible than we realize. It goaded the rest of the media into reporting on the story, which has exponentially increased the understanding of the problem we all have on our hands. Most importantly, it helped people wrap their minds around a nebulous, intimidating story which was largely derided as a Trump-like conspiracy theory. The pee tape is the least worrying thing in those memos, and unlike a lot of the more serious allegations it hasn’t been confirmed yet – but you know exactly what I’m talking about.

That’s a long wind-up, but it’s generally useful to remember that most of the people who frame this story for us are unreliable narrators, and worth recalling the specific context for the news BuzzFeed has been breaking. Last year, they reported that Michael Cohen, who was Individual-1’s personal lawyer and is now a convicted felon, had been representing Individual-1 in negotiations with high-ranking Kremlin officials to build a Trump Tower Moscow until well into the 2016 general election. Cohen had lied to Congress about this, and then told the press what he had told the committee, which of course gave anyone else who would be questioned the chance to get their stories straight. This report was confirmed at Michael Cohen’s sentencing.

So when they dropped another Cohen story late last week, people were inclined to listen. This time, they reported “sources [plural] in law enforcement” claimed that Trump had explicitly and directly asked Michael Cohen to lie in his Congressional testimony, he did it in writing, and that the special counsel’s office had “internal company emails, text messages, and a cache of other documents” to prove it.

It’s that last part that shook the world. Even if you’re paying just tangential attention to this story, you know that Trump has been directing his people to lie to law enforcement, Congress, and the public. But the claim that there was cold, hard, proof for the thing we all know, that even Senate Republicans would not even be able to feign denial about it, that would have changed everything – if true.

Late the next night, the special counsel’s office issued an extremely rare statement, saying that BuzzFeed had mischaracterized the evidence and testimony they had received. This was weird. Mueller’s office has never bothered to correct a news story before, nor have they ever waved a journalist off a story that they know is untrue. The statement isn’t even that the core allegation that Individual-1 suborned perjury (meaning, he encouraged or ordered someone to lie under oath) is wrong, just that they don’t necessarily have texts AND emails AND Google docs AND testimony to that effect.

So why did they bother? We don’t know exactly. The most optimistic interpretation is that it was a good faith reaction to the public response to the report. Members of Congress came out and said, basically, “if this is true, we need to know now.” That was reasonable, because committing or suborning perjury is just about the only thing everyone agrees counts as a high crime or misdemeanor. Mueller’s office, also quite reasonably, didn’t want Congress starting impeachment proceedings based on a report that wasn’t 100% rock-solid, so they issued this very narrow statement to cool things down. Then there’s the suggestion that Mueller’s office thought that the report made it look like they had started leaking after running a famously airtight ship for a year and a half. (Cohen was convicted in the Southern District of New York, which is of course where Individual-1 did “business” for decades. Personally, I tend to think BuzzFeed’s sources are in New York federal law enforcement.) The most alarming theory is that the Department of Justice leaned on the special counsel’s office to push back on the story. The special counsel’s office specifically exists to protect an investigation from interference by political appointees at DOJ.

Regardless of why it was issued, that statement did not calm the waters.

The BuzzFeed report prompted a round of press appearances by Individual-1’s “lawyer” Rudy Giuliani, who claimed that Trump had in fact been negotiating with Moscow to build his Russian Trump Tower at least throughout the election. He also claimed that he knew the BuzzFeed story, on which he could not comment, was not true, which he knew because he had “been through all the tapes” that he says do not exist. These aren’t lies calculated to make Individual-1 look less guilty. It is a bunch of nonsense cushioning the blow of an overt admission that Individual-1 lied a lot during the campaign about something that his previous lawyer lied to Congress to hide.

Then, as if to drive the point home, BuzzFeed posted the actual 2015 plans and letter of intent for Trump Tower Moscow. They were working with a local developer. They had picked out the site. They had a business plan and a building design, all ready to go.

Individual-1 appears undeterred. Michael Cohen had agreed to testify publicly for the three relevant House of Representatives early in February, but he backed out this week after Individual-1, over Twitter and in live interviews, started threatening to have Cohen’s father-in-law investigated. I don’t know if Trump wants to open that can of worms, since Cohen’s father-in-law is actually an old business associate of Trump’s, but the point was clear: Individual-1 is willing to throw around the power of the United States government to shut this guy up. We just went through the WHOLE THING about whether or not he acted illegally to control what Michael Cohen said to Congress, and he responded by illegally attempting to control whether or not Michael Cohen speaks to Congress!

Since Individual-1 and his Senate Republican accomplices have ignored all House Democrats’ attempts to reopen the government, House Democrats have nothing to do all day but sit around and be mad at the Puppet-in-Chief. The chairs of the committees that planned to interview Cohen issued a joint press release saying that Michael Cohen will testify whether he likes it or not because they’re not going to reward these, and this is a real quote, “textbook mob tactics.”

Look. I’m not saying my opinion is worth any more than you’re paying for it. But this episode made me think a couple things:

1. Reputable media outlets have to cut it out with the anonymous sources on this story. “Sources familiar with the matter” is not enough. Sources on Capitol Hill? Sources at the DOJ? Sources in New York? Sources meaning somebody’s defense attorney? This is infuriating.

2. Television news shows have to stop interviewing Rudy Giuliani live. He is using their air time for a disinformation blitzkrieg. By all means, they should keep him yakking away on camera. Give him all the rope you got, say I. But they should do it ON TAPE, in advance, so that they can pause the interview to fact-check him, and air his current lies back-to-back with last month’s lies so even casual viewers will grasp that he lies constantly.

3. It is appropriate that Robert Mueller is a professional who knows how to shut his piehole, unlike certain other 21st-century former FBI directors who shall remain nameless. It is also appropriate that public interest in this story is intense and unrelenting. And despite my many gripes about the media’s performance, it is absolutely appropriate that the press keep putting attention and resources toward this story. This is not a sustainable dynamic. It is unfair to keep the public in the dark. This happened to us as a country and as individuals, and we have an existential stake in the matter. As long as we want to know, we will be leaning on the American political media, which is an institution dominated by bullies whose vanity is outweighed only by their willful ignorance. Like Trumps and small children, they cannot focus long without a great deal more help than the special prosecutor’s office is equipped to provide. Our justifiable frustration is becoming an issue for the special prosecutor’s ability to the best job he can.

Fortunately, there is a way to break that loop: the Democratic House's real investigations. Subpoenas. Not just issued, but announced, publicly. Open hearings. Regular reports. Individual-1 has dug in his heels on the shutdown at least in part to obstruct the Democrats’ ability to do that, so it’s great that they have stopped giving him what he wants.

Something is happening on this story. Even hearing people talk about it is different – they speak faster and louder. This guy is on the ropes. That’s not just Mueller, it’s not just the Democratic House. It’s people, it’s you, responding to an attack on our democracy, remembering Individual-1’s illegitimacy, refusing to pretend any of this is normal, insisting that we all deserve better.

#donald trump #trump russia #special prosecutor #mueller investigation #steele dossier #michael cohen #rudy giuliani #mainstream media

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jae-bummer · 7 years ago

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My Idol 2: Part Five

My Idol From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

My Idol is a South Korean competitive reality dating game show. It currently airs on Wednesday nights on Jae-bummer’s blog. First broadcast in 2016, the show offers the opportunity for a lucky fan to go on seven blind dates with seven idols. The idol plans the date with the show throwing in specific missions to complete during the day. At the end of the initial dates, the show opens up an audience vote to decide what three idols will move on to the second date.

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You rolled over in your sheets, letting the familiarity and comfort of your bed solace your thoughts. A yawn began to escape your lips as a light knock hit the front door of your apartment. Opening your eyes slowly, you looked to the bright face of your cell phone and tried to make out the thin, black numbers painted there.

12:07 am.

You let out a light groan as you sat up and surveyed your room. Surely someone was trying to access the wrong apartment. No one could possibly have any reason to visit you this late. You furrowed your brows as the knock sounded again, a little more fervent this time. Admittedly, you were mildly frightened to actually leave the safety of your mattress and venture out into the unknown darkness of your living area. Was curiosity enough to kill the cat?

A mixture of anger and fear gurgled in your stomach. Fear, for the obvious reasons. Had a My Idol fan leaked your address? Was someone at the door to argue with your choices, how you had acted on dates, or even worse…actually want to cause physical harm to you? You had monitored last season and all of the drama that circled around it. Idol sasaeng fans were very much a thing that you did not want to acknowledge, but felt like you may have to eventually.

You just hadn’t thought it would be this soon.

The anger part bubbled up when you thought of your privacy being compromised. It also seemed to stem from mild annoyance at the disruption of your REM cycle considering you were having a very pleasant dream featuring the one Mr. Johnny Seo.

You sighed at the thought of him. With Yoongi’s date being such a rollercoaster of emotion, you made a personal note to thank Johnny. He had begun your My Idol experience how you had expected it to begin.

Well…beside the sprained wrist part.

Another knock pulled you from your thoughts as it echoed down the hall, this time much louder than the previous attempts. Whoever it was, was growing more desperate by the moment. You took a deep breath and nodded to yourself, slowly pulling free from your blankets and slinking down the hall. As you moved, you picked up your trusty baseball bat, the perks of living alone having previously prepared you for situations such as these. You gripped it between your palms, your knuckles turning white with the amount of force you held it with.

“Wrong house!” you shouted, standing on your tippy toes in an attempt to see out of the peephole.

“It’s not a house, it’s an apartment,” a familiarly gruff voice croaked. “Now open the damn door.”

You shook your head, not being able to fully wrap your brain around what was happening. With shaking fingers, you haphazardly unlocked the chain from your door and pulled it open, standing in all of your pajama-y glory.

“What the hell?” you hissed.

“What’s up, buttercup?” one of your two favorite camera men chuckled. “Get enough rest?”

“I’ve been asleep approximately forty-five minutes,” you croaked. “What are you doing here?”

“Filming, what does it look like we’re doing?” the opposite camera man laughed. He shouldered past you and into your apartment, waddling across the hard wood as if he owned the place.

“Are we having a slumber party?” you muttered, setting down the bat, and crossing your arms as the second camera man entered your home.

“Depends on your definition,” he hummed, glancing back at you over his shoulder.

“My definition would be better defined…if I knew what the hell was going on,” you groaned. You stomped behind them and watched as they began setting their equipment down on your kitchen counters.

“You have a date,” one of them sighed. He turned to open your fridge and pulled out a bottle of water.

“Yeah, tomorrow,” you grumbled, plopping onto the couch.

“It is tomorrow,” he chuckled.

“No, it’s midnight,” you groaned.

“12:15 pm,” the other camera man sighed. “Technically tomorrow.”

“You can’t be serious,” you croaked.

“We’ve never had someone miss a date before,” he muttered. “I guess there’s a first for everything.”

“So you’re telling me…you expect me…to go and get ready…to go on a date…in the middle of the night,” you hissed.

“That is precisely what we expect,” he grinned. “Now get going, we need to get you to the location in about fifteen minutes.”

Your eyes grew wide as you rocketed from the couch and toward your bedroom. You were unsure if you wanted to be involved with a man, idol or not, who began his dates after midnight. Nonetheless, there you were, standing in your closet and sorting through your clothing to find your cleanest pair of jeans.

After a few moments of chaos, hair tugging, and applying deodorant with a speed you had never known, you reemerged into the living room to find the two camera men snacking on what looked to be yogurt.

“Are we going?” you sighed, crossing your arms.

“Waiting on you, princess,” one of them chuckled. “But if you’re ready, let’s roll.”

You looked out of the My Idol SUV and winced. The combination of the night sky and the tint on the vehicle made it nearly impossible for you to see where you were expected to get out.

Already being on edge with the situation in general, you felt as if the darkness was a foreboding presence that could only make the situation worse.

“You can exit the vehicle,” one of the camera men said quietly, his tone different than what you were used to hearing from him.

“You all wouldn’t allow for a staged kidnapping as a date…would you?” you hissed, glancing toward them. Both men shrugged, content with remaining silent in the eery situation.

You closed your eyes, attempting to think back to the contract you had skimmed over when agreeing to appear on the program. Was there anything about protection in situations such as these?

“Really, we’re going to need you to get out of the car,” the other camera man said with a sigh.

“But…but what if…uh…what if I don’t want to,” you stuttered, opening your eyes and attempting to look out of the window again. Your hand fidgeted on the handle, unsure of whether it should release you into the world or not.

“Well, we’ll be with you?” one of the camera men groaned, his attempt at feigning kindness falling short.

“What a comforting thought,” you whispered, finally pushing against the door and hopping out. You kept your hand hovering over the pull bar and peaked around the side of the metal. Wanting to be as close to the car as possible, you strained your neck and peered around in the darkness.

The car had pulled up along side an arrangement of garbage cans in the middle of an alley. You weren’t familiar with any part of the town bustling on the opposite ends of the passage, and there were no streetlights situated in the area where you currently stood. You grit your teeth and backed up from the car a bit, allowing the two camera men to hop out. You kept your steps slow as you walked backwards, careful to keep any abductions from-

“Hey!” you screeched, your heel hitting something that was very apparently another person’s shoe.

You spun around at breakneck speed, tumbling toward the ground in your panic. When watching horror movies, you had always wondered how people managed to fall down and get mutilated by some psycho killer, but now you completely understood. Now that the situation had presented itself, you felt the shock and fear work with gravity to send you careening toward the pavement.

The person you had bumped into was tall, or at least he was from your position on the ground. A baseball cap was pulled over his forehead and a mask sat snuggly on his face. There was no defining marker or feature you could point out to designate him as anyone you had ever seen before.

He crouched down beside you, immediately grabbing your already injured wrist into his hand.

“Are you okay?” he hummed quietly, his smooth voice reverberating through the mask.

“As okay as you can expect me to be!” you snapped. “Who are you? Why are we in an alley? Why were you standing there without saying anything even though you saw me backing into you?”

“Well…what question do you want me to answer first?” he chuckled. If he hadn’t had a mask on, you would easily be seeing him smile as he asked.

“Well, um, I-” you stuttered, blinking rapidly. His words had caught you off guard.

“Come on,” he sighed, standing again and offering his hand to you. You looked up at it hesitantly before placing your fingers softly atop his.

“No calluses,” you muttered, as he tugged you up to stand beside him.

“What?” he chuckled, tilting his head.

“Nothing,” you grumbled. “Who are you?”

“You’ll find out,” he nodded. “Be patient.”

“You don’t get to tell me to-” you started, your face growing hot with frustration. You wanted someone to tell you what was going on and who you were expected to be going on a date with in the middle of the night.

“Hold my hand,” he interrupted, reaching out for your fingers again.

“I’m sorry…what?” you croaked, looking over at him in shock. Whoever he was had no issue with leaving you in the dark (both literally and metaphorically.) He also had no issue with commanding you.

“Hold my hand and don’t let go,” he repeated, sliding his palm against yours. He gave a soft tug as his footsteps hit the pavement, pulling you along in the darkness only a few feet before you reached a door tucked away in the side of the alley.

You glanced behind you, your heart beginning to slow as you saw the two cameramen lumbering toward you, their promise to remain by your side remaining in tact. Turning back around, you realized you were only centimeters from your alleged date (actual confirmation still pending as you had yet to see his face). You titled your head, attempting to analyze what little skin he actually had showing. He was definitely Korean. His features and jet black hair were enough to tell you that. He smelled wonderful, like a mix of blood orange and cinnamon. Safe, but spicy. Something you could trust, but would keep you on your toes.

You bit your lip as you took in his clothing, looking down his arm until your eyes met your entangled fingers. He squeezed your hand lightly, causing your focus to immediately jump back toward his face. Judging by the way his cheekbones were jutting up, he was definitely smiling again. He gave you a wink before turning his own head and knocking loudly on the door before you.

“This is the part in the movies where the anonymous kidnapper sells off his victim,” you muttered.

“I’m not trying to sell you,” he sighed, squeezing your hand again. “I’d much rather keep you for myself.”

“Gee, thanks,” you muttered. “Hate to break it to you though, I’m not exactly yours.”

“One of seven, I’m well aware,” he chuckled.

“For someone so confident, you would think you would have no problem showing me who you are,” you sighed.

“My anonymity is my strength,” he cooed. “It’s when I take the mask off I become vulnerable.”

“You sound like a batman villain,” you muttered.

“Maybe I am,” he laughed. As you opened your mouth to respond, the door he had knocked on swung open, a large man filling the space it had once guarded.

“Ah,” he grinned. “It’s been awhile, friend.”

“Too long,” your date nodded, using his free hand to shake with the man who had appeared. “You mind letting us in?”

“No problem,” the large man hummed. He patted you gently on the shoulder before peering past you. “That may be a problem though.”

Your date glanced over his shoulder, taking note of the camera crew trailing you. “You two have hand cams or something?”

“We came prepared,” one of them sighed, digging around in a large bag they had emerged from the car with.

“Wait a second,” you croaked. “They aren’t coming with us?”

Your date lifted his brows before turning back to the camera men.

“We tried doing some hand cam work last season,” one of the camera men sighed. “So it only works in certain situations. This is one of them.”

“But you - you two said!” you argued, feeling childish as you stared up at them as if you were about to cry. Damn your tear ducts. They seemed to be attached to every extreme emotion you had ever felt. “You said you’d stay with me!”

“And we did,” one of them nodded, lifting up his pudgy fist. “Fighting!”

Your date chuckled as he lifted up his fist as well. You stared back and forth between them, your mouth slightly ajar. “So…so this is just happening? You’re leaving me with a stranger and a hand cam to disappear into a hole in the wall?”

“Yes,” they both nodded, handing the hand cameras to both you and your date.

“To be fair,” one of them sighed. “We know who he is.”

“No shit,” you grumbled, snatching the camera from the crew member closest to you and spinning back around. Your date took his camera as well before looking back up to the bouncer guarding the door.

“We good?”

“Yup,” he nodded, shifting to the side. Your date stepped into the building, keeping your hand locked in his. You held on to it, a little tighter than you would like to admit. He was your sole lifeline in this situation. Someone you had met just ten minutes ago was responsible for you, and you were forced to trust them.

Nothing like fear to bring a relationship closer.

You took a deep breath as you stepped into the building behind him. The inside of the structure was just as dark as the alley behind it. You followed blindly in the darkness, a soft, pulsing beat possessing the walls you navigated around. It was as if they were breathing, living in the music being performed somewhere in the labyrinth you were lost in.

You kept your steps short as you continued forward. Reaching with your opposite hand, you gripped onto your date’s wrist to better navigate. Adjusting to the darkness, your eyes found his face as he glanced back. His eyes were half moons as he turned his focus back to the path you were navigating. After a few more moments of walking, you finally reached another door that he pulled open without hesitation.

The music you had originally assumed to be quiet due to it’s muffled nature, now exploded, hitting you in the face with it’s rhythm. A blue light bathed the two of you as you stood in the doorway, taking in your surroundings.

He had brought you to what appeared to be an underground music performance. There were maybe a hundred people crammed into the space, all focused on a group of men rapping at the front of the room. There wasn’t necessarily a stage set up, but more of an elevated platform that everyone had crowded around. Some spectators jumped up and down with the beat, while others simply grooved to words. You were completely taken aback by the situation, only managing to lift your hand cam shakily to capture the scene as the camera crew had directed.

Your date turned, his smile once again hidden by the fabric covering his face. He lifted his hand to press down on your wrist, placing your arm holding the hand camera at your side. “You’ll have time.”

His fingers tugged yours again as he led you around the crowd and up a set of stairs leading to a balcony area. Once you had reached the second level, your date paused near the banister, taking a moment to appreciate the music below him.

You shook your head, looking from the rappers, to the crowd, and back up to your date beside you. “Who are you?”

Your date pulled his focus away from the performance. He looked down to his shoes before looking up again. Finally untangling his fingers from yours, he dropped the hand he had taken such good care of holding. He reached up and pulled his baseball cap from his head, running his digits through the tendrils to make them messy after being compressed underneath a hat for so long.

It took you a moment to move from your frozen position, but you lifted your hand cam again, hoping to catch the reveal through the screen so you wouldn’t have to witness it with your own eyes. It was too nerve wracking.

But for a second time, your date pushed down on your arm and let out a soft sigh. “Later.”

Rolling your eyes and crossing your arms, you set him with an unenthused glare.

He chuckled at your reaction, reaching up to pull the strings of his mask away from his lips. The black material fell from his soft features and revealed the face you had been asking to see since this date had begun.

Your eyes widened as you began to realize who you were staring at, your voice faltering as you attempted to speak the words. “D-Dean?”

“Kwon Hyuk,” he nodded with a small bow. “Nice to meet you.”

To Be Continued…

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Rare by Selena Gomez os (mostly) Our Characters, Ships & More.

Hello, here i am again. still very weird. but also i said our characters in the title but as those songs is about empowering women and you have a lot of more than i am, which i love all of them and that’s just me praising them, so i will try my best to speak from my heart and as you advise me too: you just gonna have to take it. and even a spoiler: theres a lot of gays couples in here too. but here we go.

Rare

Okay, first, i’m gonna be honest with you that i already listen to this song like last week because someone leaked but was with that alvin and the squirrels voice?you know those from youtube right?so when i was listening anyways cause it was a good song and i put in repeat and i was thinking who was this song. first i was like this could be nayoung or jihu or even danbi because she had a lot of fucked up relationships. but then my mind light up and i was like: oH MY GOD THIS IS MILK!!

Baby You've been so distant from me lately And lately Don’t even wanna call you "baby"

okay because i’m talking about your character and i’m not tried to godmodding in anyways, however, as my mind imagine those scenes as a telenovela of six pm from globo tv, and as i watch a video one time about arranged marriage i think that at least in the beginning, as a young girl minkyung must at least had this figure in her head that in the end she would fall for this great guy who would treat like a princess or something, but it was not it and turn out really awful and triggered to see as she was cheating on and other more awful things she had going through

Saw us gettin' older (Older) Burnin' toast in the toaster My ambitions were too high Waiting up for you upstairs (Upstairs) Why you act like I’m not there? Baby, right now it feels like

you probably didn’t expect for the first track going in this direction, but this song is totally about minkyung in her marriage with the lee guy i always forget the name. and the way she literally left everything to go live and marry this man and she tried her best to make that marriage and family work, which as you said once it was at the begging when their son born, but still that man after all treat her like garbage.

It feels like you don't care Why don't you recognize I'm so rare? Always there You don't do the same for me, that's not fair

even if she didn’t care to go through hell with all those spank and betrays because it was better when it was suffering than her own son, she must feel awful or even worst she felt like this was okay to happen because this was, as you said once, the only world she knew was that one where she sort of locked in a house just to take care of her son and house and plants or even as she had to get permission for him to do stuff like her degree in biology. is even sadder to think as a jeju people, minkyung was the only person in that island even if a fucked situation she was not kissed by the sun and ended being great as she got older.

I'm not gonna beg for you I'm not gonna let you make me cry (Ah, nah nah, make me cry) Not getting enough from you (No-oh) Didn't you know I'm hard to find? (Find, hard to find)

well this part is when sanchan is already a grown-up living in another place and she finally decided to divorce that motherfuck pf her husband.

I don't have it all (I don't have it all) I'm not claiming to (I'm not claiming to) But I know that I'm special (So special), yeah And I'll bet there's somebody else out there To tell me I'm rare To make me feel rare (Ooh yeah)

in the end of the day, she is and has every aspect of a jeju person: she is strong, kind-hearted in every ways possible and well still smile that can save people. her ex-husband didn’t appreciate her but as myself there other people like her son and her grandson who both made her their safe place, theres also seulgi who well try to avoid her but thats just because of the trauma she loves her grandma, who couldn’t? even bonghu considered minkyung her mother because she acted like one more than her mother itself. and well, even getting into 60 she found lian, who became her good friend who was someone who understood her, however, he is lian even old he flirt with her just as a joke but also not because she is great and beautiful in every aspect.

Dance Again

As you can see by the title of the song is gonna be about a dancer and we have a lot of that, huh? At first when i didn’t read the lyrics just the song i was thinking this was linlin theme song, but actually turns out as julie. like this is literally julie. genius still doesn’t have a lot of description of the song but i search for what selena said about all of the tracks of the song and she said that: “The purpose and the meaning of this song is that you can be vulnerable, you can have all these feelings, … but now I’m ready to let loose and it’s so cheesy, but I’ve gone my step back … and it feels good.”, and this reminded me of what you said in julie’s set for perfect. and this is a song that describes her even more.

Happiness Ain't something you sit back and you wait for Mmm, ah Confidence Is throwing your heart through every brick wall Mmm, ah

this is just lyric speaking of that chandler’s quote: if i’m going down i’m gonna bring everyone with me! because well, she didn’t regret getting that dick as we saw her when dispatch exposed them and when she was going against her father and saying she got married to him. she found a guy who was more crazy and wilder than her, c’mon.

Vulnerable Ain't easy, believe me, but I go there Mmm, ah It's like I'm ten feet tall I'm high off the weight off of my shoulders Mmm, ah

and this is about after 7sins disband and her fans like: fuck she is jobless, will she ever return again? and then she made a contract with keun and became a solo artist and believer was a huge success because everyone was wondering what the fuck she is doing and she turn out the tables even if there still people who hate her and others who workship her (myself included) she still the hot topic everyone likes to talk.

I kickstart the rhythm All the trauma's in remission No, I don't need permission

and this right here i could see julie since living in the states and had to got to korea with her father, and when she enter ong how her father made her get out of there to put in another agency and she uses valak to break up with kaili, as in general, she was getting older, and got that attitude of her that she don’t need permission to do anything from anyone even if she was kinda of scared if her father would kill her boyfriend.

Feels so, feels so, feels so good to dance again With my emotions undressed, I'm going in (Go in) With everything (Everything) To dance again Feels so, feels so, feels so good

and with that, i rest my case.

Look At Her Now

Well, as a said before that personally this could be Kuen song but being truthful this could every woman who was betrayed and how she stronger after all just as Nayoung, Kim Yura and i’m realizing now how this also totally about Soonyi and Jihu. I take responsibility for all of those.

They fell in love one summer A little too wild for each other Shiny 'til it wasn't Feels good 'til it doesn't It was her first real lover His too 'til he had another Oh, God, when she found out Trust levels went way down

I mean you can totally see that guy is nameless and how he abused of nayoung who was still young and didn’t realize this was abuse itself because she found him a good friend as she was working in dramas and made her feel good so she fell for him more than anything and would do anything for him to like her no matter what always until she discovers he was hooking up with Kim Yura too which i don’t know but as a male predator that he is he made her feel the same way even she was a lesbian and i don’t know about her other relationships but i know she fell for a lot of wrong people so that part of first real lover could be her crush on nayoung. And well, Kuen also had a nameless not exactly as nayoung, he was just a singer from a band that she mad in love with she even stop talking with her family and friends because she wanted to be with this dude and him well cheated on her but she did too but it was a back and forth toxic relationship. As Soonyi and Jihu both being about Sanghee but in different aspects, because Sanghee in the begging was like her best friend who would have sex with and with another person until a baby came and even she wanted to get an abortion, Sanghee assure her to not to that because he would take care of the baby with her so she did it and accepted to marry him because since college she had sort of feeling for him, she truly loved him and there a lot of good times in their marriage thats why she was not just sad but very much angry at him for had another one because he could at least talk to her about that as when they were going and she would be cool with that but no she went against her back and was with Soonyi, and this other is not a saint she knew exactly what she was doing but she got pregnant and well trust levels went down with Sanghee too she didn’t obligate him doing nothing that was main part of him.

Fast nights that got him That new life was his problem Not saying she was perfect Still regrets that moment Like that night Wasn't wrong, wasn't right, yeah What a thing to be human (What a thing to be human) Made her more of a woman (Made her more of a woman)

This give me flashbacks of that thread of Keun and Nayoung in the club when it was born the: Kim Yura i thought you moved to Japan. Also flashbacks of Kim Yura having sex with nameless. But i think this verse speak more for Soonyi than anyone, those nights she would have sex with Sanghee in the hospital and everything

She knows she'll find love (She knows) Only if she wants it She knows she'll find love (She knows) She knows she'll find love (She knows) Only if she wants it She knows she'll find love (She knows) On the up from the way down Look at her now, watch her go

And to finish this up. As i am the partner of those women, i’m happy of them being extremely strong and being a better a person and deserved to in the end deserve true love. yes, i was speaking this mostly to Nayoung and Kim Yura but also for Kuen. Soonyi, well, you made him sortar of a good man.

Lose You To Love Me

This is again a song about Nayoung. I don’t know if you want me to explain this, we know her history, you more than me since you wait to show me Dear John to speak more about her relationship with nameless. UPDATE: Hansol and Nayoung about her dear mother too.

You promised the world and I fell for it I put you first and you adored it Set fires to my forest And you let it burn Sang off-key in my chorus 'Cause it wasn't yours I saw the signs and I ignored it Rose-colored glasses all distorted Set fire to my purpose And I let it burn You got off on the hurtin' When it wasn't yours, yeah

Again this is about her and nameless and how she was so over hills to him to the point to make diets just because he told her she was fat. she did everything for him because it was the first person who showed affection to her (or it was what she was thinking it was)

We'd always go into it blindly I needed to lose you to find me This dancing was killing me softly I needed to hate you to love me, yeah

And this is more about Keun than Nameless. Well, maybe the part of hate you more of being from Nameless but also how she used that to have the strength to broke up with Keun in that day.

To love, love, yeah To love, love, yeah To love, yeah I needed to lose you to love me, yeah To love, love, yeah To love, love, yeah To love, yeah I needed to lose you to love me

Again more about Keun and well how she went to therapy after they broke up and she discovers her more about herself in there to become the person better much version of her we know.

I gave my all and they all know it Then you tore me down and now it's showing In two months, you replaced us Like it was easy Made me think I deserved it In the thick of healing, yeah

There’s no men who are worth it. I said this because both Nameless and Keun went out there giving their dicks out. Of course Nameless did it worst, but Keun attitude of making a whole album made her that bitch was maybe at the same level of make her think she deserve everything bad when she was just trying to healing.

And now the chapter is closed and done To love, love, yeah To love, love, yeah To love, yeah And now it's goodbye, it's goodbye for us

period.

Ring

Oh FINALLY not a heartbreak song. so anyways, this song i will not talk to much (i believe) but when i listen to the song this could be any bad bitch but because this song remembers me of Kyungri solo when WNDR debut i’m gonna be selfish and say this is her song. She is your ultimate bias, so take it.

You all in your feelings, baby, all into me I'm one in a billion, baby, don't you agree?

Obviously, you know, I'm aware of that I'm breakin' hearts like a heart attack Got him right where the carats at

As Selena Gomez said: “Ring is sassy. I don’t know if I can say the real meaning behind it [on here]. … The point of it is it’s a confidence. … It’s all about feeling good about myself and being able to kind of be intimidating to guys”, which is speak to me of Kyungri. It just made me remember how every male trainee was afraid of going into her even if all agreed she was hot.

Wrapped 'round my finger like a ring, ring, ring They just like puppets on a string, string, string I put it down, they call me up They doin' way too much So I'll just let it ring, ring, ring (Oh-oh)

THIS APPLIED ALSO FOR SULJI WOw that whore. Wait My miND REMINDE me of jinhyung going to ask her out and he was like: “i’m korean”. but this is about every guy ever kyungri messed with just because she was thinking how men are stupid and it was so funny. thats why not just jinhyung, but every guy who her mom made going to a date with or a random guy she met and she had fun with them, not names mention cause they really are that random of the universe even linlin and wndr didnt knew much about them imagine us. but we know even dating she made a pact with her boyfriend to flirt with other just for fun and not getting anything because it was fun to mess around with people.

Yeah, I received your message, all twenty-three (Twenty-three)

You know I'm Jordan with it, G-O-A-T (G-O-A-T)

and this is about her birthday when jinhyung send those messages. it was funny. and sulji with dino probably.

Circlin' me, they just like satellites (Ooh) Circlin' me all day and every night (Ooh, yeah) Circlin' me, I'm sure you sympathize (Ooh) A-la-la-la-la-la-la-la (Ooh) Oh, na-na

i believe this is also the song you thought sulji would listen to it, imma right? i just imagine she is the shit. which she is because well even stupid she made seth, dino, nurse guy and as you once said she made out with jack.

Vulnerable

This song was the hardest to think of someone else. First, because i’m trying to find one for Linlin. Second, i was like: no, okay, this song is about Danbi. But in the very end i realized this about Minhye.

If I give you every piece of me, I know that you could drop it Give you the chance, I know that you could take advantage once you got it If I open up my heart to you, I know that you could lock it Throw away the key, and keep it there forever in your pocket If I give the opportunity to you, then would you blow it? If I was the greatest thing to happen to you, would you know it? If my love was like a flower, would you plant it? Would you grow it? I'ma give you all my body, are you strong enough to hold it?

As far from Danbi, i tought of her because, again, she had a lot of relationships and not very good one, especially that one who took her money, so it understandable of how she was one step back of being with Daehyun at the beginning because she had been through a lot since her family problems and her taking care of her dad and her sisters and already getting another guy who wouldn’t help her out with converted or at least easying her mind, it was worth? she needed it, maybe it was daehyun but she needs to take care of herself first.

If I show you all my demons, and we dive into the deep end Would we crash and burn like every time before? I would tell you all my secrets, wrap your arms around my weakness If the only other option's letting go

and about minhye, this is more her to jukan after college or any guy ever, as she could look bad at his point of view for just had sex with for two times and move on but still because she is got through a lot with her mom suicide and her whole life is a mystery but it is a fucked life she went so sharing those stuff is a hard and well jukan don’t look like the exact caring type of guy because he was an idiot back then but somehow him just love her helped and also how she overcome being this successful influencer with her business.

If I hand you my emotions, would you even wanna take it? (Would you even wanna take it? Yeah) If I give you all my trust, then would you fumble it and break it? (Mm, mm, mm, mm) If I let you cross my finish line, then would you wanna make it? (What you wanna make it, what you wanna make it?) I think I'm ready, won't you come and flip the switch and activate it? (Ooh)

Now this also could be Jinah because she is also someone who went trough some shit and we didn’t see her crying about even once. she is also someone who was very much strong and how she was a prostitute as object for a lot of men to find love even that person was bokyum was beautiful and also she gave up this life to go to college and became a psychology.

If the only other option's letting go I'll stay vulnerable

People You Know.

This song can have a lot of meanings, not just as lovers but as friends or even family too. Thats one of the reasons even if the song looks to me about Hansol and Chan-u, Anna and Kuen, this is mostly about Chihye and Inna and could be even also about Eleanor and her sister. Let me show you.

You were runnin' through me like water Now the feeling's leavin' me dry These days, we couldn't be farther So how’s it feel to be on the other side?

This is where i thought of the couples because well one of them got to move or travel to other places and the other just was there moving with life also but coming back and seeing how things changed.

So many wasted (Wasted) Nights with (Nights with) you (You) I still can taste it (Taste it) I hate it, wish I could take it back 'cause

This couls be Chihye over Inna seeing that she stop being friends with her when she got poor. This is also gonna become more Eleanor centered. Because those lyrics i believe was when she was fighting a lot with her sister or sort of when their dad died but also i think more when her sister decided to take those pictures of her and zeev making sex in the bathtub and show to the internet to make money from it.

We used to be close, but people can go From people you know to people you don't And what hurts the most is people can go From people you know to people you don't We used to be close, but people can go From people you know to people you don't And what hurts the most is people can go From people you know to people you don't

this is inna point of view i believe, when she discovers chihye ended up marrying the guy she liked and that person who runs away with her daughter and also the one who she loved was too and even put a detective to find her, isn't? woW

When it was good, we were on fire Now I'm breathin' ashes and dust I always wanna get higher I never know when enough is enough

This look to me Hansol and Chanu so, let me just add here.

Personally, as i have an older sister myself i can assure that idolizing them and want to become like them is very real thats why i feel for eleanor when she asked keun to not made her sister going to jail. because even she tried to screw up her relationship, she was her family, she was one of the first people she interacts in the world with, she was her first best friend and how they went crazy drunk parties it happened with them. i actually don’t know much, because my vision is the same as zeev’s of it, i can just feel empathy from it and just think how much it felt for eleanor to have this big figure she loved to do something very mean. Thats it.

Let Me Get Me.

Okay, so as this song selena sings about overcoming her mental illness and feeling a sense of freedom of the thoughts of her heard. this could be also about Linlin? yes, but because the rhythm of the song i believe this song speaks more about Seulgi.

Like a prayer surroundin' us, movin' effortlessly Every word is relief I'm in dance floor therapy, all my babies and me But tonight, it's for free No self-sabotage, no letting my thoughts run Me and this spiral are done Burn this camouflage I've been wearing for months Tryna let a little happy in for once

This is much more about last year, which theoretically speaking in our minds was the year that her brother basically tried to killed himself, also days after she kissed her best friend out nowhere and even she ignored it looked like it was gonna be a horrible year for this girl especially with her depression but it was also the year of a lot of comebacks, and tour, and syrch. so it ended up being an amazing time for seulgi because not only she got the money, she got new friends, she got even the girl, she got to go to new places who wouldn’t made think of the tragedy part of her life, which made her try to be her she thought it went away.

Diving in ferociously, dancing intimately I'm so connected to me In the dark, I'm letting go, so anonymously I guess this is what it feels like to be free

this is you making badgalseulgi ans saying you were the most close to the real seulgi then ever before. but also i belive those lyrics hits harder if you think this is about moving on aside from wndr and her relationship with hailey and her archive what she wants more for her.

Don't get me down, I won't let me get me (Ooh) Don't get me down, I won't let me get me (Ooh) I'm good right now, I won't let me get me Take that tired heart and go and turn it inside-out

this is literally her fighting her depression and grow of it each day because she knows theres much more that the world can afford her and this is what her parents would be happy she would do. which they are but not just them or me but also every person she is close it cheers for her and is proud of her. even herself because of how depression sometimes can appear even in your best days but seulgi was strong and turn it inside-out.

Crowded Room

Is gonna start being a lot more romantic as now. At first, i try not to think of men but this song sounds to me like Clay and Allen, but this is also about Yura and Chiyo and oh my GOD now after i was saying about seulgi this is also the girlfriends. Before i think of other people let me explain those three gays couples.

Baby, it's just me and you Baby, it's just me and you Just us two Even in a crowded room Baby, it's just me and you, yeah

This makes me remember of that party of when clay and allen met, actually the whole song remembers me of the day. plus, also them living together and being goofy idk. and how this song is repetitive this will gonna explain the others couples later.

It started polite, out on thin ice 'Til you came over to break it I threw you a line and you were mine

for me this is literally them texting each other and allen like: wanna sext xD. but this is also yura in japan and having this instant connection with chiyo and she just trying play cool but also flirting and chiyo doing the same. as from the girlfriends, this could be about when they were just friends and then the kiss happened and you know what went next.

Yeah, I was afraid, but you made it safe I guess that is our combination Said you feel lost, well, so do I

this right here i think its very much seulgi and hailey, its like their march band, you know? but this is also allen and clay’s march band and how they went dating and how clay was so in love with him even if has his first experience with a boy and felt so good with him that made thinking about himself and how he wanted to do with his future and with allen on it. and yura and chiyo because of how much homophobia they had to go through for those other gays can be free to love.

So won't you call me in the morning? I think that you should call me in the morning If you feel the same 'cause

exactly, in wich couple in there theres at least one foreign that live away or had to go to another place. so,,, this is mostly allen and chiyo after met and talking with their lovers and just wanted more because they like them. seulgi and hailey well because they miss each other even just as friends, isn't?

Baby, it's just me and you Baby, it's just me and you Just us two Even in a crowded room Baby, it's just me and you, yeah Baby, it's just me and you Baby, it's just me and you Just us two Even in a crowded room Baby, it's just me and you, yeah

so now i will explain more because for me this is also Yura and Chiyo, well they had to face a lot together because its a new decade now but people are not open-minded as we thought they would, but it was worth getting to it and fighting for their rights because they were together in this, the two of them and didn't matter of anything. i'm not just talking about marriage or adoption but everything

Engulfed in the flames Engulfed in the shame Betrayed by your imagination In over my head, but that's alright

oh, this is hailey getting through stuff after the kiss but also seulgi when she figured out she was gay, same as kim yura, and this is clay in the dorm thinking about the harvad boy.

and now as for the girlfriends. i can totally imagine sonders making those videos with this song on twitter with all their moments together in the tour, in wndr tv, fansign or even just walking in the airport. even if they were the couple that had more people surround them, they also were the last couple to have like the opportunity to be open to the media, but they didn't care or even wanted that because the thing that matters was just that they would stick together.

The world keeps on spinning, but I ain't dizzy yet, yeah The more that you give, give, give, give, the more that you get

you know, all those three couples made each other feel like what they have couldn't be real because it felt so good and this could really happen to people like them (your muses mostly)? all of them feel free but also both of those three couples facing up stuff together in the relationship and thats beautiful.

You make the whole room feel slow-motion You make me feel like I'm drowning in a potion Closed off, tryna get a little open The more that I give, the more that I get So baby, I'ma call you in the AM You're down for my love, honey, say when I be waitin' on my time 'cause I'm patient

again, you can see how easy-going they made feel to each other, but this rap i believe is more my characters to you?? chiyo was there even facing nameless, she was with yura for everything and yura deserved somebody who would stick with her and love her, thats why theres the part of i'm patient. and this is hailey didn't care if they were together as friends or girlfriends but in the end she knew they would be together again because its their connection. and this is allen moving to south korea just to be more close to lay and date him for real.

Kinda Crazy

Another who was hard to think about but them it come to mind: This is Anna and Kuen, yes i warn you theres just gays in here. But also Linlin and Mingyu

Hey, you started out sweeter than hard candy Words were like licorice to the taste But slowly, all the sugar, it went to waste Went to waste Oh, you started getting funny with no jokes I started seein' through you like a ghost And now I'm pretty sure I can't take no more I can't take no more-ore

This is literally Kuen in the other side of the world had to be point out to be the person Anna was talking in her songs, such as Bbibbi, which was not very much lovable ones. Which i said that she could had feel sorry for messing with her but also she was very much angry with her because she didn't exactly talk to her she just decided her songs as she sings about her experiences. And this is clearly Mingyu and Linlin because of all the fights they had and Mingyu couldn't a lot with Linlin ways sometimes

I think you're kind of crazy And not the good kind, baby 'Cause you're actin' super shady You know it, you know it Been dodgin' phone calls lately But still textin' me, "Baby" Yeah, I think you're kind of crazy You know it, you know it You've been lyin' just for fun Luckily, no damage done But now I see you're kind of crazy You know it, you know it

This is about every chat of mingyu and linlin we had but also kuen still angry but both of those would still text each other like nothing happen ,,,, until,,,

Hey, you're the one who started talkin' to me Made the move, asked me to be your babe And now you're treatin' me like I'm insane You're insane

THIS IS ANNA PAYBACK IN THis song and how she had to take kuen changing her to those white dudes but still would play with her heart and going but you are my oldest friend :-(( and she had enough as she should #goanna. AnD ALSO LINLIN'S BECAUSE mingyu acting like mister right but always would come to her place still or even going to another country, yes men sucks my men are the same as the real ones.

they ended up marrying each other.

Fun

This is totally Chan-u and Hansol but i'm gonna be bold here and put one of the newest ships since i talk a lot about lesbians in here so this is also Gigi and Park.

This is just what the doctor ordered (Yeah) Put a gold star on my disorder Yeah, we've talked around every corner If I'm lookin' at you and me, we're on some kind of symmetry

Because you said Gigi took some medicine because she had some kinda of problem but she took and have cool parents i thought this is hit more than the bipolar of Chan-u.

I'm a sensitive situation (Mmm) You're a hot and cold combination Oh, we both know we got complications (Mmm)

No need to explain about chanu and hansol in here. and i know we have seven more new ships ver much new and stuff to think about it. i don't know if park has complications, she just a crazy chick who likes to do stuff and doesn't care about much, she is very much like chihye when she was young and rich, you know? she just reckless.

I try not to bother, not to bother you (Ah) But my kind of trouble likes your trouble too (Ah)

and this is just Gigi, because Chanu is a brat he doesn't care if would bother or not, same as Hansol. Oh my god i realized now he is chihye's son too.

Can we keep it on a first name basis? (Ah) We could overcrowd each other's spaces You get me higher than my medication Take me to different places, let's face it, I'm gettin' impatient (Ah)

again, as you said about gigi having problems with her mental health it made me think, park wouldn't be like: stop doing, party, fuck, blabla, you know? i don't know even if she even knew but if she knows she would respect her as the same, she is very much feeling and just wanted to have a good time. ANd YOU KNOW ABOUT THE GAYS.

Cut You Off

Now, finally, as the album is ending, this is about Haneul and her breakup with Hyuntae but more specific when she decided to stop shadying him

Pull up to the mirror, staring at my face Gotta chop-chop all the extra weight I've been carrying for fourteen-hundred-sixty days Gotta, gotta, gotta clean my slate

Is a song about moving on and feeling better by yourself, which haneul did eventually after stage of crying, denying, songwriting, hate, all of that after one sex with john. i think thats is incredible. just kidding eventually she would do that.

And I might as well just tell you while I'm drunk, yeah The truth is that I think I've had enough Professionally messin' with my trust How could I confuse that shit for love?

and this is about that day hyuntae tried to talk to her and said he loved her and she throw champgne in his face, as she had a lot of reasons to react like that because she was heartbroken over a text message, his long-time friend who became her first real love doing this way? she deserves more respect for that. this also is about the date she got drunk in chinese with seth.

So I gotta get You out my head now I just cut you off You out my head now I just cut you off When I'm without you I don't overthink it, I just carry on, get You out my head now I just cut you off

this was written by haneul. haneul worked with selena.

Sweeter Place

OH MY FUCKIN GOD I WAS WATING FOR A SONG ABOUT THIS WOMAN AND IT WAS THE LAST TRACK? CRIST SAKEs. If you don't know i'm talking about Linlin and this song talks about Selena's struggle with anxiety, so yeah.

Is there a place where I can hide away? Red lips, french kiss my worries all away There must be a sweeter place We can sugarcoat the taste Sweeter place There must be a sweeter—

this is very much about i believe when she is alone in her own thoughts after a fight with mingyu maybe or someone else but anyways how her life is a lot of times upside down.

So lemme tell ya Ooh, got two feet on the ground and felt what real is like What it was like Livin' out of the scene, out in the wild Learnin' to breathe Up in the clouds, far from the crowds I can't believe I can be loud Holdin' hands with the darkness and knowin' my heart is allowed Allowed

This is again her and her discovering her anxiety in the medical field of her agency. i can't talk much about that because you know. but this is selena accepting it and being unapologetic about it and thats much very linlin.

As I fantasize So much to see, I'm in paradise, oh, I Always seems I'm new inside Deep, deep down in me, I go now, baby, born to fly, oh, I Now see, how could it be? We will find our way, we'll find the things we seek, ooh-ee You see, I'm mesmerized This is just for me and I am cuttin' ties, goodbye Ooh, no, no, no, no

oh this also could be feat chanu, cause this is the rapper part and the rapper also had struggles with even got into rehab for it? anyways, chanu and linlin are very much a like thats why they are friends and sometimes they could even talk about those stuff idk what i'm saying now. love those motherfuckers

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