#everyone could recall at least five points where i wasn't invited somewhere because i was “busy studying” or “didn't want to come”
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oh god, today sucked so bad up until like 15 minuted ago when i noticed that this girl who called herself my best friend for over five years has unfollowed me recently (by instagram recommending that i follow her, of all things). lo and behold, she isn't following my art account anymore, nor my little sister nor our mutual friends from high school and neither is her boyfriend, yet she used to be among the first to see every story i posted up until recently
the thing is, our friendship didn't even end with a fight, it was just two years of no contact after she'd been so much of a self centered prick that i decided not to message her first anymore. it was really difficult at first because she'd been such a huge part of my life for so many years, and i never could have expected for the radio silence to stretch on for so long, but as time went on and my life began improving, it became glaringly obvious how much whatever i had with her was holding me back (preventing me from expressing myself the way i wanted, from feeling good in my skin, from meeting new people...)
so i find it as cowardly as it is amusing that she'd be so pressed about those matters after over two years as to remove so many people whom she used to consider close from her followers. as if she's the one who needs a break from me after treating me like shit because i was desperate for friends and lacked both the self-respect and words to express my frustrations. insane. pretty sure she has barely any friends save for aforementioned boyfriend now because god knows she couldn't keep any that fit her criteria. you reap what you sow etc etc
#my stuff#rant#-ish#is it really adolescence if you haven't had at least one friendship that wrecked you more than any breakup#by the way i didn't fit her ideal friend criteria because i wasn't “aesthetic af”#hipigram has truly rotted her brain#all because i was in my late teens and still wasn't interested in sex or looking a certain way and i still had “nerdy” hobbies#oh god and she'd been really weird about me after i'd come out to her too#like “oh welp too much of a freak for me”#bitch didn't even want to be seen in public with me after some point#and i didn't even know until months after we stopped talking#everyone could recall at least five points where i wasn't invited somewhere because i was “busy studying” or “didn't want to come”#only for it to turn out that she didn't even message me to ask 9 times out of 10#imagine doing that to someone#and also being super weird and iffy about me and her boyfriend being in the same room because she was worried he'd “hurt my feelings”#or that we “wouldn't be able to get along because i didn't like him” and i “didn't like him” cause i was worried about her safety#so glad that she's not in my life anymore good god
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