#every time i write about sanji i always end up projecting sorry bby you gotta deal with it

[beanghostprincess]

I have a little hc that, maybe, some persons wouldn't agree but for me makes sense. And it's that Sanji (at least when he was a kid/pre-teen) don't really liked the idea of having a romantic relantonship?

Let me explain: Sanji grew up on an abusive house, and I feel like with everything he had gone through, he wouldn't like the idea of marriage or things like that. Fearing that things maybe end like his family.

Sure, he is a romantic, but deep down, Sanji could deslike everything related with being married, starting a family and etc.

(Because I grew up on a mentally abusive place, being forced into everything related to my family problems or my parents marriage and this make me HATE the idea of marry someone or have kids)

Okay, okay, okay, hear me out-- You're a genius but also let me modify the thoughts juuust a little tiny bit. Just a tiny bit. Because it's amazing but this made me think about something else:

Sanji likes the idea of romance, sex, and relationships. He's a romantic. He loves everything about it. Or so he thinks. He has this idealized concept of romance that could never be found irl and even if he ever had the chance to partake in it, he wouldn't take it/feel comfortable with it. He tells himself and others that he wants a relationship like that but in reality, he despises it because he doesn't feel worthy of something like that/is afraid of opening up to others that way.

So he's a hopeless romantic but he doesn't... Really want that? In any way? When he was a teenager it was more of a "I'm never getting married haha there are so many beautiful ladies out there how could I ever choose??" (<- is deeply repulsed by the idea of somebody loving him for some reason he doesn't know) and years later he's more of a "I'm never getting married and that's alright" (<- is deeply afraid of commitment because what if he ends up like his dad). This follows the same thing I always say about him wanting to be a dad but being extremely afraid of it.

In my opinion, it could easily be a mix of trauma and being aroaspec. But maybe I am just projecting.