#every time hozier says “love” i gain a year of my life /silly/silly

[unknownarmageddon]

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[xflower-childx]

Spell work:

I don't have too much time to put into this as I really need to get to sleep (This waking up at witching hour nearly every night is taking a toll one 🤦‍♀️ but I've heard it happens more frequently when your really starting to open up more to the spiritual world and learning more... So I'll take it but dang I need to learn more on how not to wake up in complete panic of being late for work.)

So as I've taken a deeper understanding to tarot cards and have been wanting to expand my collection of not just Tarot but also Oracle cards I thought I'd maybe even dive into spell work. When I was at McKays with Meek I found a few books, one called 'Magical Healing' but Hexe Claire which even though it intimidated me a bit I felt the need to get it. I also fount 'The apprentice witch spell book' by Marian Green and my ADHD brain thanks me. I knew it would be great because it's more colorful and has fun pictures to it so it will keep my brain entertained while trying to learn.

Now I haven't performed any spells from the books yet, I actually found a spell on a video I was watching, a small candle spell about accepting blessing into your life. Now I know I've never been good about accepting help, love and comfort from other people, I've gotten a lot better at it but it's not my favorite thing. I've been wanting to work on gratitude more and accepting love and blessing, after all, it is the season for it.

I performed it the first time the other night though, the same night I swear a spirit latched onto me from the haunted road I went on with Lex the night before. I saw the video and noticed the spell only required a candle which I had, most spells I see require other elements to them. It's a simple one though, just meditate on the blessings you seek while holding the candle, say the spell out loud and then set it on your alter for some time before sending you're intentions to the universe.

I tried the same spell tonight, this time I had a better understanding of what I was doing and readjusted my sort of...session? With my spirit guides. I meditated on the candle first, focusing on the flame, locking eyes with it, I noticed a sort of blue hue to it which I would like to look into more. I also found as I watched for a good five minutes that I wish I understood the meaning of flames more. The flame started to dance quite a bit as I stared, I took note of any air flow in my room but the way it danced wouldn't have been from any fan or draft.

At first I let the flame dance in awe, I then asked out loud if any of my spirit guides were with me and the flame pause for a second before going wild again. I felt this overwhelming feeling of comfort it me like I wasn't so alone and it brought tears to my eyes, I don't have much of an idea who my spirit guides are but I believe my grandmother is one of them and that always brings a familiar comfort too me. Although a side note, my empathy has been crazy lately too, so much so tiktok videos make me cry dammit 🤦‍♀️ I swear someone could enter the room to me sobbing like a baby and ask what's wrong and I would blubber out something about a dog and a baby cuddling or some silly video like that, also all the angel neighbors, everytime I look up I see them, all day. I swear it's like spiritual menopause or something.

Anywho I asked if my guides would be willing to communicate through tarot and the flame danced again and then I watched for another minute or so after, saying some random things here and there. At one point I watched the flame go completely towards me and sort of move left to right and then I saw it start to sort of make this o shape, I really found that to be interesting and it sort of mesmerized me.

After that I did a tarot reading and cot damn it was a good one. I felt more connected with the cards and my guides. I felt like I really was learning more and challenging my incredibly adhd (Which has also been raging lately) heavy mind.

Now I've done a bit of research into the meaning of the flame I had tonight and I feel pretty good and confident in my spell. Of course it is a small one but I'm not trying to mess with anything crazy for a first spell.

I found the meaning behind the direction the flame goes. Now I'm horrendous with direction so I can't speak which direction it was going but for reference for myself

North: If the flame flickers toward the north, it's said to be an indication that the cause is a physical one, not from a spirit.

East: A flame flickering toward the east indicates the mental part of your spell is working.

South: The bending of the flame toward the south demonstrates a great deal of physical energy surrounds your intent.

West: When the candle flame tilts to the west, it reveals the depth and energy of very strong emotions that are part of the spell work.

I also discovered as I went back for reference that a blue flame flickering can mean that a spirit is present, a red or yellow flame can mean a spirit is not present bit that it doesn't make the flame any less powerful.

Okay yes, fun learning. I want to add before I go that I need to look into 'A little book on candle magic' by DJ Conway.

Random fun things to note though while we're here:

Pup and I have matching Christmas pajamas which are super cute, the rents are trying to come and visit for the giving of thanks which could murder any relationship I have with my sister's, I've been looking at RVs which is fun, the new bakery will be opening late December/early January 🤩🤩, and we are so fucking close to 2020 being over finally!!!

All in all, I've been pretty happy, I'm at a good mental spot, I'm proud of my growing and honestly this is the first year that I can remember where I can smile and say "yeah there's been some shit but I've fought every fight with everything I had, picked myself up from every downfall, kept fighting and won every battle." It's been a year that's felt like 10, but fuck man, I feel like I gained the knowledge of those 10 years. I'm by no means a 34 year old, but fuck . I feel the blessings coming my way though, I know they will and I accept them all with open arms, an open mind, and an open heart 💓

Also 'Movement' by Hozier, I don't know why yet but my guides sent that song to me a few times today, so I'm making note of it.

Okay that is all for now 💕🌻😊