#even tho this one is just the crayon one im pretty sure

[mspaint-flower]

memory

[whispersxwhimpers]

i'm not sure, but we'll figure it out!

thank you <3 and awww omg i love that?? i absolutely adore cats, i don't have any right now (i've got 3 dogs) but i'd love to get one in the future. do you have any photos of xiao? she sounds adorable T^T

agreed, they're both very pretty!! and hmm... i would say the ones i listed in my other message, garchomp, alolan ninetails, and houndoom ^^ what are some more of your favorites? you said a few in the last message, im curious !!

oh gods... i wanna ask who your favorite is, but i'm kinda scared because i'm not finished yet 😭 i'm just starting the first episode of season seven as i write this, so like... do you know WHAT season they died in? i do recommend watching it tho!! it's really good, this is literally the only anime i've watched that's been able to keep me invested TT

oohhhh i love genshin a lot!!! i used to play among us whenever i was younger with a few of my friends, i've never played apex or fall guys but they both look really fun ^^

i haven't played kingdom hearts or tekken, but omg jackbox-- i haven't played that in so long??? i forgot it even existed 😭 and omg life is strange, i used to watch people play the first one (i think it was the first one??) like there was no tomorrow kafkwjfks it's such a good game!!

helluva boss is awesome, it's definitely one of my favorite shows. i wouldn't say you're an alien, just a little behind maybe !! but that's alright!

SNIFFING CRAYONS 😭😭 I ACTUALLY LAUGHED OMG i can promise you i don't do that!! i would say everything is listed is pretty much it? but i'm interested in a lot of stuff, you name it and i've probably had something to do with it at some point in time 😭

ooh, i prefer rapping over singing (i can't sing either omfg TT) but doing that while you clean is actually so valid--

– 🩶

Hahaha, that would mean I get to find out who you are! The mystery would be revealed! 🤣

Awww!!! I love dogs haha, what kind of dogs do you have??

This is Xiao! 🥰 she likes to lay on my pillow with me, lol

Very nice choices! Hmmm, some others that are my favorite are Lucario, Gardevoir, Mew, Psyduck, Cubone, I could go on and on 😂 love many, many Pokémon, but mostly Gen 1-4

It's very, very recent haha don't worry, you have ways to go

Raiden Shogun/Ei can step on me. Anytime, anyplace. 😂💕 she's definitely my favorite Archon

Fall Guys is super fun to play with friends 😂 I call it the Jellybean Olympic Games cos you're basically a jelly bean just running through obstacles

The first LIS ripped my heart out! I definitely chose Chloe though 🥺💕

Hahaha no way, I have a backlog of so many movies and shows I have to watch 😂 like I haven't seen Star Wars. I promised someone I was gonna watch it with them haha 🥰

Lmao you sure?? Not even curious a little bit?? 😂 jkjk!

Haha, nice! Who are your favorite artists??

[elovval]

Gwi-nam Headcannons

[ So I was making an edit & thought of these hcs so ]

[ unedited ]

Random Hcs

• The reason why Gwi-nam hates Cheong-san so much is because Cheong-san has the life he always wanted, he hates how "perfect" Cheong-sans life is, hints why he wanted to take his eye [ofc cuz Cheong-san took his but-], he knew if he ruined Cheong-sans face, Cheong-sans life wouldn't be perfect anymore

• His family either were never around or just never payed attention to him, he never had affection as a kid & no one was there to help him express his emotions, so he just expresses them through fighting

• Myeong-Hwan was his first "friend", im convinced Myeong-Hwan manipulated Gwi-nam into thinking Gwi-nam owed him the world and that freinds should listen to each other [like when Myeong-Hwan orders him around] and since Gwi-nam never had a real friend before that, he thought it was a normal thing

• another reason why he's friends with Myeong-Hwan is because he's scared to become an outcast, he likes the fact he can be useful to Myeong-Hwan and how ppl automatically feel the need to be nice to him even if it's out of fear, he likes to be "liked"

• He's scared of thunderstorms! Okay so yk the scene where he tried to block the sound of the thunder? Yeah that expect all his life, like before the apocalypse, whenever a thunderstorm happened he would cover his ears with his pillow and hide under his covers or just blast music until the morning

• I feel like he is a nail bitter, like when he's nervous he bites his nails until they are to the brim, sometimes till the point he's bleeding, and if he has no nails to bite on, he bites the inside of his cheek or lip

• As a halfbie we can see he has a high pain tolerance, but I feel like when he was a human he had a low pain tolerance, like whenever he DID bite his nails untill he bled, he would have to take multi deep breathes before removing the dead skin that was hanging off and when he did, he would just curse until the pain is gone

• speaking about low tolerance, he gets drunk easily, even though he's a minor I'm sure he's drank once or twice, and each time he got drunk off like one and a half shots, he's the type to mutter stuff that no one could ever understand, I feel like he gets extremely affectionate, like he would clinge onto you and bury his head into your neck while saying random ass shit

• he has a drawing hobby, when he was a kid, he found a red crayon with paper...so he just started drawing, he found comfort in drawing, added with some music as well, He uses art to express himself whenever he cant, fight or was just bored, he doesn't brag about it though, sometimes when he's walking home and sees art suplies in the garbage, he grabs them secretly and takes them home

• He's the type to laugh at boys [kid] crying, like he would run over a kids sand castle and laugh in their faces, if it was a girl tho? I feel like he is much more gentle, he's the type to see a lost girl and help her home [only to ask her parent for reward money]

• I just wanted to add, I feel like he isn't homophobic, more like he doesn't give two fucks, like if you told him you were gay he would be like "the fuck is that?" And when you explain to him, if you're a guy he would ask you if you like him and wouldn't let you answer because he would say "sorry i dont like dick" and if you're a girl, he would be like "so you like pussy? Nice", he doesn't care, pretty sure he would have to care about you first before he actually caring abt you being gay

• Gwi-nam hasn't fallen for anyone, whether if it was a crush or actually in love, he doesn't see the point if you'll eventually get bored or fall out of love [ his pov ], he's witnessed his parents fight a lot as a kid so his mind is fixed on that image

• OMFG JUST THOUGH OF THIS ONE, if you compliment him on something, he'll do it everyday to get another compliment, like for example, his hair is sweeped back because he was sweating and yk he sweeped it back, you see it and say it looks nice on him, at first he tells you to fuck off but the next day he came to school with his hair sweeped back, and when you ask him about it, he tries to act slick but he obviously is fishing for compliments so you compliment him just to satisfy him AND if you don't realize it, he tries his best to make it obvious until you see it

"Hey you look really nice with your hair sweeped back Nam!" Y/n gave a cheeky smile and gave Gwi-nam a thumbs up "Are you dumb?" He grumbles before walking away The next day... "Morning!" Y/N jumped and bumped into Gwi-nam, who sent her a death galre "Fuck off" He replied as he looked away, he acted like he didn't care but his pace slowed down to match hers "Hey...you seem different...your hair!!" She finally pointed out, Gwi-nam sent her looks before nodding "You look nice Yoon" Y/N exclaimed, giving him the same thumbs up She gave him yesterday "Whatever" He muttered, he sped up his pace and ran straight for the gates of the school, not only did his unusual pace give his cover up...but so did his bright red ears

I'll be making a dating hcs for him too!!

If you guys have any characters that you want me to do hcs for, feel free to suggest it!

[keijifairy]

meeting your younger sibling 〃

♡ midoriya izuku, bakugou katsuki, todoroki shouto

genre. fluff!!!

author's note. i recently watched heroes rising and im still so 🥺 the big three as big brothers (and mayhaps dad! katsuki hngngngnggggg) makes me hella emotional so i made this <3

༘ midoriya izuku

you had to stay home and miss classes to look over your younger brother for the day

you informed your boyfriend izuku in advance, and he even wrote you notes on everything you missed :(

after a tiring school day had ended, he packed his things + a cute extra notebook for your notes and doodles that never failed to put a smile on your face

he quickly changes from his school uniform, planning to head over to your house to check up on you, not forgetting to ask you beforehand

he comes over and is immediately greeted with an embrace from you as soon as you open the door

his poor heart is still not used to the abundance of affection you shower him with, and he always makes sure to return it back (though with more stuttering and heat in his cheeks)

"go ahead, i'll get us some food." you tell him, as he enters your home, already disappearing into the kitchen

it's the first time he's meeting your little brother, and he spots him quietly laying on his stomach at the living room, and coloring on an all might coloring book

he goes 🥺🥺🥺

your brother looks up, a yellow crayon in his hand as he makes eye contact with a gushing izuku

the latter introduces himself, his eyes twinkling and a soft smile stretched in his lips. "hello!! i'm izuku~!"

your brother only tilts his head and blinks without a word, and casually averts his attention back to his coloring book

he takes the book in his hands, standing up and quietly walks in front of your boyfriend who is crouched to match his height

the child holds up the coloring book, a page of an unfinished colored portrait of all might shown, beside izuku's head

izuku only giggled, confused but isn't too bothered, as he's too focused on the cuteness of your brother. 

he's obviously already attached !!

"you…" the five year old trails off, with wonder glinting in his eyes as he averts his gaze back and forth between the drawing of all might and the boy in front of him. "look like a good hero."

izuku swears his heart started melting

your brother has always looked up to heroes, like izuku was (and still is) ever since he was a little child. your brother's always so excited to hear you talk about being a hero in training, and of course, he's aware about the stories of deku. you always talked about him like the greatest hero in the world with sparkles in your eyes

to hear a little kid casually complimenting him like that had izuku's heart go all 💞

before he could even utter a response, your brother takes his hand, making izuku stand up, letting himself get gently dragged to the spot the child was on

your brother lays back on his stomach, snatching a blue crayon from the ground and pointing it to your boyfriend

"want to color with me?"

you coo silently to yourself, hiding in the kitchen as you press the camera button to capture the nth photo that is set to be your lock screen

༘ bakugou katsuki

'how do u make a baby sleep'

'??? tf should i know'

katsuki may not be the best quiet person to be around a baby, but you're desperate and tired and your baby sister just isn't at all !!

so ten minutes before your boyfriend's bed time and way past your sister's, you had managed to bug him enough to come over your house and help you put her to sleep

your hair is a mess, baby food is splattered on your shirt, and your eyebags are deepening (school works have been piling up), and the first thing katsuki tells you as he steps into your house is, "you look like shit."

you only roll your eyes, a yawn escaping your lips. "thanks, i'm flattered."

your sister is wailing like the baby she is, as she wildy waves around the empty milk bottle in her hand. toys are littered on the floor and baby powder is spilled on the kitchen counter at some point. it looks like a hurricane had passed by your house !

"what were you feeding her?" 

"baby food and two bottles of milk." you sigh, taking the bottle from her hand to wash it

you look over at him, a tired smile straining your lips. "sorry i asked you to come over so late, katsuki." 

"here," his eyes darted everywhere to the walls to avoid your curious eyes, as he gently shoves a plastic of food into your hands. "you can't sleep on an empty stomach."

is he....blushing...?

you take the plastic, the sleep in your face disappearing, your smile widening as you shuffle through its contents. "...and diapers?"

he scoffs, and you're absolutely correct; his cheeks are flushed! "just in case you ran out or something..."

"awww, thank youuu." you giggle, and katsuki clicks his tongue , mumbling a whatever like the tsundere but big softie inside he is

you ask him if he wants to hold your baby sister, and with a sigh, he does

he doesn't want to tell you that he can't bear to see you tiring yourself. as soon as he saw you so worn out and not getting enough sleep like you promised him, he felt his heart clenching painfully. so whatever it is, he'll always do anything for you (even if he acts so annoyed and reluctant most of the time)

there's that constant furrow of his brows and scowl in his lips, but when her cries suddenly cease and her tiny hand holds up to cover his whole thumb as she looks at him with her pretty doe eyes, you see how his own soften and how he seems to freeze for a split second

from the shape of your brows, and to the curve of your cupid's bow, your adorable baby sister truly resembles you

and katsuki found himself silently admiring her, as he sneakily catches a glimpse of you in the corner of his eye, in utter disbelief and amazement on how her eyes slowly flutters shut in the arms of the normally loud boy

you stand there at the corner, breathing out a soft laugh 

he's going to be a great dad, you just know it

this is what i like to call jay is whipped for kacchan <3

༘ todoroki shouto

shouto had asked you out on a date today, but unfortunately, your parents had left the house and asked you to look over your eight year old sister

'i'm so sorry i bailed on you, shouto :( do you wanna hang out at my house instead tho haha 👉👈'

baby boy was really understanding, and quickly agreed to move your little date at home instead

'it's fine. at least i still get to see you.'

while waiting for shouto to come over, you just couldn't help but brag about the best boyfriend ever to your little sister

you showed her your whole album of photos of shouto: confused selfies with a blush on his cheeks, stolen shots of him literally doing anything, and photographs you had taken of him during dates. what a model

"i don't think he's your boyfriend." your sister deadpans, eyebrow raising suspiciously at you

you snickered, basically shoving your phone at her face; a photo taken by ashido of shouto silently fixing the strands of hair framing your face as he stood in front of you, while you only sat there, staring at him with hearts in your eyes aka your lock screen 🥰

she only shrugs, pushing the phone away. "maybe it's edited."

"WHY YOU LITT—"

ding dong

did i fail to mention that even though your sister seemed utterly fazed by the perfection called your boyfriend, she was already dressed in her elsa costume from halloween and even had the audacity to use your makeup? you only narrowed your eyes at her as she smugly presented herself to you

she's unusually quiet now though, trailing after you as you open the door and greet the man himself

"my love, my darling, my angel~" you beam innocently at a dumbfounded shouto at your doorstep. he surely wasn't expecting such an affectionate greeting, with the hue of pink painting his cheeks making him so obvious

"hello….my love…darling….angel…" he looked so adorably confused, eyes blinking owlishly and the corners of his lips tugging up slightly

"come in~"

as he enters, he quickly notices your little sister clinging on your legs, innocently gazing up at him with her mouth agape

"hello…" 

"are you really my sister's boyfriend?" she blurts out, shamelessly pointing at you with a bewildered look on her face

he's unbothered though, nodding swiftly and meeting your eyes. "yes."

"why?" oh, she is so going to get it !!!

shouto blinks, averting his gaze fully to you with confusion swirling in his eyes

"because i like her."

"but why?" "stop—"

"because…" his cheeks had gone a full shade of red, but his face remained still, not removing his gaze at you. "she's beautiful and kind."

your heart is beating a bit too loud for your liking hahaha

your sister cranes her neck to look up at you, squinting her eyes in disbelief and you gasp, obviously offended. "you believe me now?"

"only because he's—" she lowers her voice, cutely puffing out her cheeks—"cute."

"you are so—"

"let it go, sis."

long story short, let's just say your competition for shouto todoroki just got added by one (1) evil elsa wannabe sister.

[staysocky]

answering a handful of asks under the cut !!

answers & replies here are generally:

brush settings

misc. responses

(MANY OF THESE I’M ANSWERING...VERY LATE.... IM SO SORRY FOR THE DELAY I JUST WANTED TO WAIT A BIT SO I COULD COMPILE EVERYTHING ALL TOGETHER.....)

Anonymous said: Hello friend may I ask about your brush settings? Because I am in love with your colouring and line work!

Anonymous said: Your art is so cute! What brushes do you use?

Answer: i main SAI2 now, but here are the same settings when i was using them in the original SAI!! 

(i just copied my own settings in SAI2 now so they should work the same... also sometimes i use the marker tool for doodling nowadays)

Anonymous said: do you post speedpaints anywhere? i'd love to see your painting process! your art style is phenomenal hngh 

Anonymous said: Do you have a youtube channel? Just wondering, since I can't seem to find it. I'd like to watch some speedpaints or something .u.

Anonymous said: could do you a tutorial on how you color hair??? its so pretty and baffles me all the time

Anonymous said: Would you ever do a tutorial showing how you draw? I've see you post on how you color but not lineart (ps your style is super duper cute!!)

Anonymous said: Ayy ;3c hello stocky, your art is amazing ;; how is your process for color your drawings? Plz need to know! God bless you♥

Anonymous said: How do you color soooo well? Can I get some tips? ( ;n; )

Answer: i’ve sometimes done lil art streams for friends before! i could use the same capture software to make speedpaints sometime.... i’ve been considering it for a while actually! 

my process can be a lil sloppy when i try to break it down into steps for tutorials so i think the best way to show + explain is through art streams (& video process)... 

i was thinking of starting art streams on twitch in the near future too... it’s just when i’ll finally be able to get setup finally that i’d be able to set a streaming schedule

Anonymous said: I never played Megaman but I used to watch my older brother play it, and I finally started playing it because of your art too lmao (i love it)

Answer: MEGAMAN GOOD!!! im so glad you’re enjoying the series now too!!

Anonymous said: Socky, will you restock the sanic charms (the knuckles and tails link one) or make other characters?? i love them !

Answer: THANK YOU i’m glad u like em!! each time they sell out i do plan to restock them so no worries!! 👍 I AM AIMING TO MAKE MORE CHARMS OF OTHER SONIC CHARACTERS TOO they’ll come eventually when i’m able to make the designs & get them ordered!!

Anonymous said: ((whispers, this may have been asked before and I wasn't sure where to ask it, but what does "i tried my best x5" mean? is it a reference to something? ;;))

Answer: OH NO WORRIES I’LL CLEAR IT UP!! it’s in reference to a youtube user’s rp comments as “kagamine len”. i’ve seen it MANY years ago & at that time it became sorta an inside joke between me & my friends. 

later i referenced/used it as a response a few times on my len askblog to keep it going.

it’s a small lil thing i guess but i’ve sorta adopted the saying now haha

Anonymous said: socks r gr8 doncha think

Anonymous said: ookay im going to sleep now sorry

Answer: no come back you are valid !!

Anonymous said: your aRT gives me heARTATTACKKKS

Answer: BREATHE, ANON

Anonymous said: I JUST FOUND YOUR BLOG AND I LOVE YOUR ART STYLE! <3

Anonymous said: Wanted to say I absolutely love your art and how you draw the Kagamines. Please keep it up!

Anonymous said: HELLO I JUST. WANNA SAY I ADORE YOUR ART AND BLOGS !! KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK AND I ALSO WISH YOU ALL THE BEST !!

Anonymous said: your art makes me cry out of joy. I am actually crying because your style makes me so happy!!!! keep up the good work!! <3

Anonymous said: your artstyle. CUTE

@transjackatlas​ said: you art style is absolutely adorable 💙💚💕

@emmi-san​ said: I only wanted to say that I love your art style and the cute representations of the vocaloid songs ✨💕

@tyranart​ said: Your arts wonderful and I hope your day is full of nothing but enjoyment

@thekillermarti​ said: how do you draw so cute?!

@neykoart​ said: YOUR ARTSTYLE IS SO CUTE OH MY GOD YOUR TETO DRAWING WARMS MY HEART SO MUCH

@dumiz-hyper-saiyan​ said:  Hiya! I wanted to ask, how is your art so great!? You are so so talented (I know it’s not really a question but I love your drawings so much! I hope we can be friends cause you seem to be a amazing person!) hehe!♥️

@seraphofivorylight​ said:  (￣▽￣) i just found ur blog today and i want to say i really love how soft ur art is !! its super pleasing to look and i definitely wish i could have some of these as prints to slap onto my wall of posters ✨ keep doing ur good work !! i hope ur doing well !!

Answer: THANK YOU SO MUCHHCH!!!!! i’m glad y’all are enjoying my art u folks are the MVPs & it’s super motivating to get your nice feedback _(┐「ε:)_ 💕 💕 //sends you all my lov e

@moderndayoutsider​ said: Just thought I'd shoot a message and say that I absolutely ADORE your art and you're one of my inspirations <3 God bless! Keep on doing what you're doing! :D

Anonymous said: ahh i wana say that ive been a fan of you for years and youve inspired my own art sm T_T... bout time i told you how much i love ur stuff 💖💖💖

Anonymous said: Woah, I'm a bit new to your blog and I just want to say how cute your art is. I'm literally so glad this was on my recommended. If I hadn't clicked on your blog then I don't know where I would be. To be honest, I would send you this on my real account but I'm actually really afraid to talk to you, and plus I'm really shy heheh. But keep up the good work! You're an inspiration to us all.

Anonymous said: Hi socky!!! I just wanna drop by and say that I love ur art so so so much !! The coloring and shape of it is so appealing and sometimes I spend hours at a time on your social media just marveling your art. It's really pretty!! Keep up the good work ✨✨✨

Answer: sdfgFDGDdsf knowing that u folks are inspired by my works makes it all worth it, i hope u know (;__;💕 💕 thank you so much for sticking around & enjoying!!! it really means A LOT pleas y’all have a lovely week!!

Anonymous said: Do you take commissions?

Anonymous said: Commission?

Answer: I SORTA HAVE COMMISSIONS OPEN tho i take them by a commission form which puts you on a waitlist. i’m more active on my twitter and tweet updates, & handle most contact about them there...

here’s a link to the tweet about my current commission info + the link to the form is inside --> [comm info]

Anonymous said: Where are you from? Your art is so clean and stylish!! 💖✨

@mysticmangaanimepainter​ said: What year u start drawing???😮 

Answer: started drawing wayyy back when i was able to first hold a crayon haha. tho i sorta started paying attention to what i was doing around middle school? started drawing digitally between middle & high school iirc... im from the US also !!

AAAND AGAIN A LOT OF THESE WERE ASKED/SENT VERY LONG AGO.....  & IM SORRY FOR JUST NOW ANSWERING THEM... o+<

but to all who’s sent me nice messages & words of encouragement, thank you so much 😭💕💕💕 i rly appreciate em all & even tho i’m not very responsive here on tumblr i rly like to look at and read the messages from time to time;;;💖

[tumblunni]

Make me play awful games!~

A cool idea to both provide you some laughs and help me pay off my broadband debt! If tumblr bloggers can get paid to eat a crayon then maybe i can sell my pain at playing awful video games?

Request me the worst, just goddamn trashiest games you can even imagine!

The consoles i'm able to record on are pc, ps4, 3ds, ds, gba, ps1, ps2 and any android game that can run on a european phone. (I'm still so mad that Dragalia Lost is america only!!)

And yes i will do ALL kinds of awful games! Low funds means i dont have any objection to Suffering Online, yknow? But i mean even if its torturously bad itd be less awful than it usually would, cos i'd be able to laugh about it with my friends!

Games i will otherwise NEVER play on my channel, but will play for money: horror games (cos im a huge wimp), anything with n/s/f/w content (cos i'm asexual AF lol), really extreme gore or something, really really fuckin awful bigoted depressing trash i.e racism, sexism, homophobia, transphobia, lo/lic/on, abusive relationships/consent issues/homophobia/all the common bad stuff in dating sims that i'm always vigilant for because this genre has such a weirdly high proportion of trash. ALSO: platformers and shooter games. Not because they morally disgust me but because i have shaky hands and poor spatial awareness while i have my glasses on, so i fail sooooo bad, lol! It could be fun to watch!

Only rule is that you need to give me a vague idea of what kind of bad is gonna be in the game, so i can at least mentally prepare myself. Yknow, not film the SUPER bad ones on a day when i'm already depressed? It doesnt have to be a big explanation cos avoiding spoilers would make my reactions more funny lol. But just like i dunno "it has some abusive relationships somewhere" or whatever.

Also, i think maybe prices depend on the Suffering? Like if you request a game that's just Bad aka glitchy or awfully written, then i might do that for free cos it'd be fun, yknow? But stuff with heavy sex/gore or really dark personally offending content would be a "no i'm sorry i'm not doing that without getting paid".

I dunno how much people usually charge for this sort of thing but i was pretty much thinking "throw me £1 and i will be your dancing monkey, i am just that desperate". And a fiver to make me suffer the worst of the worst, lol! Tho of course thats for free to play games or stuff i can emulate, itd kinda ruin the whole purpose if i was losing my own money in the process. Tho i think after my financial dilemma is over i might keep doing this as a "if you can pay at least half the cost of me buying the game, i will play it for you" thing.

Also everybody who's previously donated to help me with my bills, you get free requests for life! Even the maximum suffering!! After all, i'm only making this post cos i felt so bad that people were kind enough to give me money for nothing. I cant think of anything else i can give you guys that would really earn it, yknow?

Oh and just to add that i do already have one or two ideas i could do for this. There's a legendarily awfully disgusting l/olico/n game i got once in a steam sale due to the goddamn game description NOT SAYING ANYTHING ABOUT HAVING HORRIBLE CHILD NUDITY IN IT! I got fuckin jumpscared by lil girl panties!! And the worst part is that the game actually had really good gameplay?? I was enjoying it for like an hour before The Thing Happened, and my eternal rage will never cease because i hate thinking that a good budget went into this grossness. I wish i could steal all of its ideas and make them wholesome!! Srsly i really like "raising a daughter sim" type games and theyre so rare that i was excited to find one that looked decent and then ABORT ABORT ITS ABOUT RAISING A CHILD SEX SLAVE! So yeah i'd love an excuse to basically rant for three hours about how much this thing traumatized me and how awful the developers are. Also i originally noped out at just the first sign of horrible perviness so you guys can laugh at me dying at the no doubt even worse stuff that is probably there!

Also i'm sure this goes without saying but i'll be covering all the horrible sex stuff with censor bars. I don't wanna get kicked off youtube and i dont want you guys to feel the full awfulness of that game, just to enjoy my reactions to that awfulness. Also DUH i dont want any actual pedos to get off on it and follow my channel thinking they'd see more, that'd completely destroy my will to live...

I probably wont censor out other kinds of bad stuff tho? Maybe gore? Does youtube have a rule against gore? I just wanna play it safe. I wanna give you guys the fun of seeing me Die Inside instead of making you also Die.

[chocosvt]

||↠11 questions tag 🖋

tagged by: @mansaeboysbe and @sunnysidewrites! thnk u my lovs.

tagging: @whatsoodo , @bfwooz , @jishua , @teeyongs + anyone else who wants to answer the questions. ill leave my own 11 for u to answer at the bottom of the post.

it’s been awhile since ive last done a tag game. i know tht im still behind on quite a few erfhnerf but ill try my best to take more initiative w/ these things. also disclaimer; sorry if my answers are kilometers long, it should be fairly obvious at this point i never shut the fuck up.

anyways, here are the q’s im answering in case u wanna see a specific answer :^)

01: weirdest present you have recieved? 02: coloured pencils, markers, or crayons? 03: what colour would you dye your hair? 04: which concept would you pick for which group? 05: sweet or sour candy? 06: favourite quirk on an idol? 07: would you rename a fandom? 08: something you want to tell your bias? 09: kpop MV you would want and not want to get stuck in? 10: an AU you’ve always wanted to write? 11: use memes to describe 2017 and how you want 2018 to go.

[01]. weirdest present you’ve ever received?

my pals and i always exchange weird presents for one another’s birthdays! it’s pretty much a tradition at this point, tho im not sure when or how it began? im pretty sure my last birthday card had caillou on it or something lol, and at one point we got our pal a can of peaches, a container of straws, tissue packages n a remote control, all with lil puns on them.

but the weirdest gift ive ever recieved? uhh, it was probably this miniature cotton candy machine tht my friends spent way too much on, primarily bc we only used it the day i opened it. u took hard candies and put them in the machine and eventually they would be spun into the actual floss tht makes cotton candy. it was cool but my mom threw it out eventually lol.

[02]. coloured pencils, markers, or crayons?

definitely coloured pencils. markers and crayons don’t rly have an exact tip. well, unless ure using a fine-tip marker. and there’s something rly satiating abt having sharp, clean writing or outlining. i was the kid who outlined all my fucking drawings and shaded them in with coloured pencils. miss me w/ tht crayon, marker shit. also, the sound wood makes when its being sharpened? tht was my favourite part.

[03]. if you could dye your hair any colour, what would it be?

honestly ive never thought of dying my hair. i like the colour how it is, which is sort of a darker blonde/slightly goldish shade. im not sure what would fit my face? i can only see myself going beach blonde. i feel like any other colour would be a disaster on my hair and i already damage it enough bc i straighten it every few days.

[04]. which concept would you pick for which group?

i know clc just did a badass concept with their “crystyle” album (which is one of the best albums of 2017 so jot tht the fuck down) and i absolutely adore their cute concepts as well bc we got bops like “pepe” n “high heels” BUT GOD I WANT THEM TO DO ANOTHER BADASS CONCEPT I BECAME ADDICTED TO IT. IT K*LLED ME TO SEE SEUNGHEE IN ALL BLACK WEARING THOSE THIGH-HIGH BOOTS I DI*ED THEN RESURRECTED IN THE SAME BREATH. i find them to be super versatile, they can go either way and ill support them no matter the concept. their quality of music never decreases. but yep, id pick another badass concept for the ladies.

[05]. sweet or sour candy?

sweet sweet sweet!! to be fair i luv pretty much all candies, minus jolly ranchers bc ive consumed so many of them tht if i see another fucking jolly rancher i will strap myself to a rocket. ANYWAYS, definitely sweet. my favourite candies (not keeping chocolate in mind bc chocolate overrules everything) would be swedish berries and werther’s caramel. for sour candies i would choose sour patch kids and sour keys!! obviously i would d*e for candy so let’s just get tht out of the mf’ way.

[06]. favourite quirk of an idol?

oh gosh. imma have 2 think for this one. the image tht comes to me exactly is junhui’s tendency to curl into whoever is next to him! most likely when he does something embarrassing, he retreats into a tiny mass of stuffy giggling and sis, it’s the best thing on the face of this planet. he’s rly such a shy flower. also, joshua’s habit of covering his mouth when he laughs is v v endearing to me. i believe it goes to show his politeness, though it can also be a characteristic of someone who’s timid, to which i think both reasons apply here. i wish i could think of more bc im certain there are a ton belonging 2 my favourite idols, but im highkey drawing a blank.

[07]. would you rename a fandom? what would the name be?

hmm. im not someone who pays close attention to fandom names. hoshi could have very well kept us as mounteens and i wouldnt give a single cherry n a half, though at this point carats is a lot more fitting and we’ve all grown attached to it. honestly, im not tht keen on red velvet and fx’s fandom names? i know tht in red velvet’s case the option “cupcakes” was up for grabs so when in comparison to reveluv’s i’m pretty thankful the latter was chosen. im not entirely sure what i would name the fandom, so respect to whoever is in charge of the titling. as for fx, they deserved to get their fanclub name much sooner. again im not someone who cares a whole lot abt fandom names, but it would have been cool if the fandom was some mathematical formula lol.

[08]. something you want to tell your bias?

BITCH. THE PRESSURE. if i were 2 meet junhui in person i would be such a nervous wreck i wouldnt even trust myself to speak. boi, if i even spotted him on the street i’d beeline in opposite direction so fast i would just be a fucking blur of light and potential tears. there would be many things i’d want to relay to him, honestly if we were just to hang out at a café or some location like tht with the time to talk and understand one another, i’d be like “hold tht thought, gerald” n drop a whole fucking novel on the table with reasons i appreciate him. i guess i’d want junhui to know how his efforts have certainly been acknowledged and that each quirk in his personality brings a lot of comfort/inner happiness to those who are still unsure abt themselves.

i’d also like for him to know tht whilst his visual is amazing, tht is not the only remarkable thing tht makes junhui, junhui. it’s his kindness, gentle heart, and optimism. essentially i’d want him to know tht his hard work is being noticed, how much delight he brings by being himself, and tht he has many qualities he should be confident in.

[09]. which kpop M/V would you want, and not want, to get stuck in?

i’ve already answered the first half 2 this question in a previous ask, but red velvet’s ice cream cake! it has to be one of my all-time favourite music videos solely bc i luv the usage of soft colours. not to mention they’re having hella fun with their fuzzy glow-coats and dancing around a parlour eating cake? like what the fuck, i don’t know what kind of cult this is but i want in! also tht means i would get to be joy’s lesbian luver and nothing else brings me greater elation.

a kpop music video i would not want to get stuck in is exo - wolf. there doesnt need to be an explanation. we already know the answer.

[10]. which AU have you always wanted to write but haven’t?

okay, first of all, bitch. there are abt one million au’s i wanna explore so inexplicably bad but i just havent gotten the time or the energy to compile the research/plan the plot. for starters, since opening this blog over two years ago, ive always wanted to write something with a serial killer. which sounds a bit scary and fucked but i absolutely lov thriller/horror movies. ive watched pretty much all of them. i find the suspension and how the scenes manipulate your body to be something unique in tht moment and to build the talent to be able to write such an AU would be my mf’ goal. it would most likely be very long and graphic, but my descriptive brain would chew tht up.

more au’s bordering along the dark line would be ghosts, vampires and demons. those are most fascinating to me. if a softer light, i’d like to write a surfer!au (specifically for joshua) and an android!au.

[11]. use a meme to describe how your 2017 went and how you want your 2018 to go.

my 2017 was somethin like this:

and i’d like my 2018 to be a lil like this:

[MY QUESTIONS]

01: would you rather explore outer space or the ocean? 02: do you wear any makeup? 03: two idol groups you’d like to collab? 04: if you could only listen to three svt songs, what would they be? 05: dusk or dawn? 06: show a picture of your handwriting? 07: what is your favourite word that’s in another language? 08: the countryside or the city? 09: what’s better in a muse, humour or kindness? 10: choose three idols. one to be your best friend, bro/sis, and spouse. 11: something you didnt do in 2017 that you want to do in 2018?

don’t feel tht this tag is mandatory! i hope everyone has been staying healthy n well n i wish for u all 2 experience good things in the new year! <3

[mori-sketchbook]

:333333 every one of those questions for both you and Andras.

sometimes meesh….. somtimes

(1) Do You Sleep With Your Closet Doors Open Or Closed?

closed! they are full length mirros

(2) Do You Have Freckles?

only when super tanned

(3) Can You Whistle?

nope *cries*

(4) Last Song You Listened To.

All Star, which i normally cant stand cuz it gets stuck in my head like no ones business but this was a surprisingly good cover

(5) What Is Your Favourite Colour?

i usually default to maroon/burgundy but i think gold is inching into first place

(6) Relationship Status.

engaged

(7) What Is The Temperature Right Now?

15′C but muggy as all hell

(8) Did You Wake Up Cranky?

oh boy did i

(9) How Many Followers?

1,129

(10) Zodiac Sign.

Sagittarius

(11) What Is Your Eye Colour?

blue but with marbley grey

(12) Take A Vitamin Daily?

yes, but i should take more tbh

(13) Do You Sing In The Shower?

yeah but i never remember the words so just mumble along

(14) What Books Are You Reading?

Half Blood Prince audio book

fun(ish) fact, i was super into reading until the good ol’ depression killed my ability to read so i started listening to audio books recently as a part of my therapy and the harry potter series has a very clear ramp up in difficulty as they age so i figured it’d be a great way of working my way up again

(15) Grab The Book Nearest To You, Turn To Page 64, Give Me Line 14.

There is one, and only one, advantage to somebody who cannot play the violin insisting on doing so anyway, and the advantage is that they often play so loudly that they cannot hear if the audience is having a conversation.

(16) Favourite Anime?

Shirokuma Cafe!

(17) Last Person You Cried In Front Of?

Kaedian :’>

(18) Do You Collect Anything?

movie props!

(19) What Did You Have For Lunch?

a little pizza~

(20) Do You Dance In The Car?

i can barely sit in a car im so tall let alone dance

(21) Favourite Animal?

sometimes sharks, sometimes octopi, sometimes armadillos

(22) Do You Watch The Olympics?

opening cermonies and anything with beefy ladies *cough*

oh and archery!

(23) What Time Do You Usually Go To Bed?

aim for 11/12 but as for actually falling asleep…..

(24) Are You Wearing Makeup Right Now?

only a little, not been taking care of myself lately tbh

(25) Do You Prefer To Swim In A Pool Or The Ocean?

pool maybe? but id rather just sit and look at the ocean

(26) Favourite Tumblr Blog?

eh?? no real fave but Clients from Hell is always a good read

(27) Bottled Water Or Tap Water?

neither

(28) What Makes You Happy?

*stares into the camera*

(29) Post A Gif Of What You’re Currently Feeling Right Now.

(30) Do You Study Better With Or Without Music?

if im taking stuff in, with music, if im writing stuff down, without

(31) Dogs Or Cats?

doggos but i do love cats too

(32) If You Were A Crayon What Colour Would You Be?

some weird offshoot pastel grey

(33) PlayStation Or Xbox.

i guess playstation, i;ve owned a ps1/ps2/psp but no xbox

(34) Would You Swim In The Lake Or Ocean?

if we’re talking idyllic waterfall lagoon from some fantasy book then lake, if not then neither pls

(35) Do You Believe In Magic?

(36) What Colour Shirt Are You Wearing?

grey NASA tee

(37) Can You Curl Your Tongue?

no it confuses me how people have control over those muscles (ears too wtf)

(38) Do You Save Money Or Spend It?

i go through periods of saving then periods of spending

(39) Is There Anything Pink Within 10 Feet Of You?

 a lighter

(40) Do You Have Any Obsessions Right Now?

i guess the history of Hyperion (Borderlands) and the departments in the Ministry (Harry Potter)

i tend to hyper focus one aspect rather than a franchise as a whole

(41) Have You Ever Caught A Butterfly?

only to save, leave them be pls

(42)Are You Easily Influenced By Other People?

initially yeah but then those people quickly become an annoyance and everything they do annoys me

(43) Do You Have Strange Dreams?

i have the blandest dreams ever as can be seen here

(44)Do You Like Going On Airplanes?

i dont dislike them but the longer the flight the more claustro i get

(45) Name One Movie That Made You Cry.

Up, in the cinema, front row with my crying friends, you know the scene

(46) Peanuts Or Sunflower Seeds?

sunflower seeds pls

(47) If I Handed You A Concert Ticket Right Now, Who Would You Want The Performer To Be?

it was a life goal to see David Bowie in concert :’

i guess either Pulp if they ever toured again or just whoever puts on the best show

(48) Are You A Picky Eater?

ill try anything in a restaurant but at home with everyday meals i am put off by food a whole bunch

(49) Are You A Heavy Sleeper?

maybe??? its hell to get me to sleep but once im out i think i stay out pretty well

(50) Do You Fear Thunder / Lightning?

no i LOVE it

(51) Do You Like To Read / Write?

in theory…

(52) Do You Like Your Music Loud?

pls no

(53) Would You Rather Carve Pumpkins Or Wrap Presents?

pumpkins i guess but not by much

(54) Put Your Music On Shuffle, What Is The First Song That Came Up?

Mariner’s Revenge - Decemberists

(55) What Season Are You In Right Now? (Weather)

summerino

(56)What Are You Craving Right Now?

i can still taste that pizza so im good for the moment, it will be chocolate tho, its always chocolate

(57) Post A Screenshot Of Your Tumblr Feed.

no that’s weird

(58) What Is Your Gender?

…..nope

(59) Coffee Or Tea?

Coffee~

(60) Do You Have Any Homework Right Now? If So, What Is It About?

nothing official

(61) What Is Your Sexuality?

Pansexual/Polyamorous

(62) Do You Make Your Bed In The Morning?

not even a little :’>

(63) Favourite Pokemon?

(64) Favourite Social Media?

i tend to avoid it really, i dont wanna know what ur doing sorry

(65) What’s Your Opinion On Instagram Stories?

i dont even know what they are? if theyre the same as snapchat stories then??? theyre fine i guess

(66) Do You Get Homesick?

not so much homesick as “omg i need to get home im having a panic attack”

(67) Are You A Virgin?

nop

(68) What Shampoo And Conditioner Are You Using Right Now?

original source i think?? just get whatever

(69) If You Were Far From Home And Needed To Sleep For The Night, Would You Choose To Rent A Crappy Motel Room For $60 Or Sleep In Your Car For Free?

Car for sure

(70) Are Both Of Your Blood Parents Still In Your Life?

nope

(71) Whats The Next Movie You Want To See In Theaters?

it was Atomic Blonde until i heard about all the queer baiting and shit, and i would’ve watched it regardless cuz kickass older woman beating people up but theres enough violence against queer people as it is

(72) Do You Miss Your Ex?

would you like to pick between, abusive ex number 1, abusive ex number 2, friend who we got together cuz we were being pressured by friends and realised we were just friends, ex who was obsessed with me and i didn’t feel anything for but you’re too young to realise that shit aint love, ex who was so torn up about his sexuality he seemed to genuinely fear admitting it or the ex who i never technically got together with but was in love with but had no idea how to go about it cuz “healthy” and “relationshop” where not two words that belonged in the same sentence according to past experience

honestly the best relationship i ever had before Kae was just a friend who was there for me after being abused and we fucked from time to time and there was no “going out” aspect to drag us down

(73) What Is Your Favourite Quote Right Now?

shrug, never been one for quotes

(74) What Eye Colour Do You Find Sexiest?

green i guess?? gimmi unnatural contacts, they can be sexy, i never see a natural eye colour and think “i wanna bone that” tho

(75) Did You Like Swinging As A Child? Do You Still Get Excited When You See A Swing Set?

dont have a question about sexiness followed by a question about swinging and expect my brain not to go there

but yes swings are the best i love them

(76) What Was The Last Thing You Ate?

leetle pizza

(77) What Games Do You Have On Your Phone?

WoW companion App is the closest to a game, D&D character sheet app too

(78) Would You Give A Homeless Person CPR If They Were Dying? Why Or Why Not?

wtf yes???

(79) Been On The Computer For 5 Hours Straight?

ask me if ive been OFF the computer for 5 hours straight

(80) Stalked Someone On A Social Network?

no i actively avoid most of those sites, tumblr is the closest but i tend to follow the art only blogs of people anyway

(81) Do You Like Meeting New People?

in theory???? but generally no

(82) Do You Wear Rings? If You Do, Take A Picture Of Them.

i do, always at least 2, a spinning ring for anxiety and a spiral copper band. will wear more if feeling fancy

(83) Do You Sleep With Your Bedroom Door Open Or Closed?

bed is on a mezzanine but the other doors are clsoed

(84) What Are Three Things You Did Today?

walked the doggo, talked to landlord, avoided a withheld number who was ringing for like a solid 5 minutes leave me alone

(85) What Do You Wear To Bed?

i just take off my jeans and sleep in that

(86) List All Of Your Different Beauty Products You Have Right Now.

ughhh soap scrubs, face cream, sea salt hairspray, coconut oil…errr makeup/nail varnish i guess i dunno

(87) Are You A Day Or Night Person?

is neither an option

(88) List All Of Your Video Games On Your Phone, Console Etc.

*groans* n-no thats way too much effort

(89) Tell Me About A Dream That You Had And When It Happened.

i dreamed a was in a shop (well.. it was a white void with a single shelf) and i picked up a mug and looked at it. that was it. the endand it was a couple months ago

(90) Favourite Soda Drink?

hmmm cherry coke or fanta

(91) What Sounds Are Your Favourite?

audible ones

crunchy leaves are good? OMG wait no that echoing ice crack sound on massive lakes that stuff is the best

(92) Do You Wear Jeans Or Sweats More?

jeans

(93) How Do You Look Right Now?

exhausted

(94) Name Something That Relaxes You.

if only i knew

(95) What Tattoo Do You Want?

hmmm ive considered my sigils but the act of marking them on my skin is a whole part of the process for me so maybe not, geometric stiff is my jam tho, i dont like “picture” tattoos

(96) Favourite YouTuber?

[former-cannibal-3]

Tell us about how you got into art.

WOW this got super long, I’m so sorry!

I was given a metric assload of coloring books, glitter crayons and stuff by my grandma when I was a kid. I don’t remember ever starting, it’s just always been like that. Also I really liked Pokemon, like REALLY liked it, like any other small child in the 90s. So I had some established characters to draw, like pikachu and eevee! Those were my fave to draw. Any I just never really stopped.

Luckily my elementary school still had an “art class” back then. For one whole year it had an actual room, but then it was just a little cart pushed around. Nothing really groundbreaking, but since it was fun and I liked it (and was proud of being “better” than everyone else there) it just kept going.  it was really just a bunch of kids scribbling stuff with very little direction.

My art tteacher gave me a book about drawing things realistically. I really read that book and took it all to heart. Except for the grid thing, I thought the grid thing was stupid because all it let you do was COPY a photo, and I didn’t WANT to COPY! I wanted to make my OWN stuff!

I dont remember, but I think it was in first grade, maybe before that? Maybe after idk but it was really early on. I wrote stories about a wolf who’s name was Fear, and she was a pup when the forest she lived in burned down, and she got separated from her pack. So she ended up having to traverse the desert and run into other packs who wanted to use her in different ways (usually as a disposable labor or to watch the pack’s pups while their mothers went to have fun and stuff like that) and she would have to fight them to keep going. And so on. It was pretty in depth but I never actually got them on paper except for some shitty doodles.

Here’s a quick rendition of her from memory I made just now, using some free lineart. It’s probably missing some aspects of her design, but the main thing was that she is orange, had the dark stripe, and a white tail-tip. I know, looks like a fox. Of course my actually drawings of her were crude and done in crayon.

I really liked wolves. A Lot. So Much. I guess that’s probs why I’m a furry?

Similar to that time, like at the same time as Fear, I was makign my own TCG based on my own pet-sim website (heavily inspired by neopets and one gem-creature that i think was on a yugioh card). I made a “functioning” website in front page, it really just made me happy to click through on the previews and do pointless stuff that didn’t actually DO anything because it wasn’t a live website. But it was cool and fun. I made a lot of websites on front page lol. A LOT.

I made custom buttons and graphics in Paint and just came up with all this shit to “do” and ran with it. I also made some sites that were like, just really bad personal homepages. But I was also like somewhere between the ages of 7-11, I don’t remember what age specifically? BUT anyway frontpage is really fun to work with and I basically know all of my HTML and CSS from that and neopets.

What’s really funny is… I never had a home computer! I didn’t have computer until like 2009, and we still didn’t have internet at home until like 2013-ish. I might be off on those dates a bit but you can’t expect me to remember specifics when I struggle to remember things that happened yesterday lol.

Oh yeah I found Jay Naylor art and a comic called Good Cheese and accidentally got into furries bc of it, and yeah some of it was porn and my POOR LITTLE CHILD BRAIN COULDNT HANDLE bahahahahaa im fucking kidding, it WAS porn but it’s cool and I don’t think it really damaged me. I thought it was ~wrong~ but I still printed that shit out in black and white after school to take home with me oops.

Like RIGHT after that I got into Redwall and Serenity Rose. Redwall has this huge roleplay community online, it was really cool. i never had the guts to RP tho, so I just looked at pretty art and tried to emulate it. I made my own OCs and stuff. With Sera Rose I entered my first foray into online forums, the Bubblegum Noir. Where I posted doodles I did. I was also a really fucking obnoxious teenager lol. This was middle school bee tee dubbs.

Sometime in middle school I think my focus shifted a bit from my self-driven and pokemon fuel’d vigor for creating things. I certainly still drew fanart, I got really into anime (kinda, i read loveless and then was smitten by cat eared boys forever after that lol) and started drawing Neopets related stuff by then. (Yes I still plaid neopets in middle school, hush.) I think I scanned some art in to enter into the beauty contest.

Uhm in middle school I was introduced to all sorts of New Cool Tools like BRUSH PENS and stuff! WOAH! But yeah I actually tried to do shit for realsies. I did stain glass cutting and silk screen printing after school. Neato!

In middle school I also had a “running” comic I called My Life Unlimited, and it was like the bizzare megatokyo-esque thing where I drew me and my friends having everyday normal lives. Except my cat was Literally Satan. No I mean like actually, Satan was on vacation in the Real World disguised as a cat, but OFC I found him and was like oh no a poor lost kitty, let me put a collar on him and take him home n feed him. Which, as we all know collars = ownership and eating the food of the land etc etc. Which lead to me owning Satan, literally, who could shift inbetween cat form and human-ish-looking form. Also he couldn’t open the peanut butter once and it became a running joke.

There was this whole plot with angels and demons or whatever and the demons were the good guys and angels were generally manipulative assholes and uhhhh yeah. It was dorky but I liked it. Still kinda do. I dated a “fox demon” in the comic, he had a scythe, it was cool. B3

And uh, I just drew a lot of fanart, fancharacters. My own comic stuff. 

And then I dropped all of it in high school, where I only drew furries and school assigned artwork. It was neato, the only thing I learned was about negitive space, lineart quality and VAGUELY hue and value (but not terribly in detail, and it was muddy and mucky). I made an FA account, found artists like CorrieZodori and ForcesWerwolf, and joined the Hungry Pokemon Forums (as a minor and completely ignoring ALL the rules about being 18 or over.) WHOOPS guess I was into vore. No wait, I joined HPF in… middle school I think? IDEK.

Anyway I started drawing MORE furries and more maws. And back then I was like “only oral vore, mawshots or pre-vore, no stomach internals and NO DIGESTION” but look at me now mom, if it aint Dying I ain’t Buying.

Lots of highschool is a blue of bad decisions and general fuckery. I had a cool AP art history class tho. I don’t remember jack fucking shit, sorry.

And uh… that’s where I am now???

Now I’m actually taking art seriously, and with internet access I can look for tutorials and references no problem. I’ve got a few good art books, but mainly I reccomend one by James Gurney called Light and Color for the Realist Painter. Or whatever, I cannot be assed to google it rn I’ve been typing for like an hour. Maybe two… idek. Also some good youtube chanels, sinix design, sycra, istabrak, bobby chiu and ahmed aldoori, really recommend those for learning!

Anyway I’m more aware of my shortcomings, and working hard to fix them, all while still ejoying doing what I do. Although lately I feel like I’ve gone backwards in quality and launched myself into more stress and difficulty. And I certainly do much less, and finish things less also. I wonder why… :T

UHM I’m not even sure if I answered your question i just kinda went on a tangent oops. Hopefully this is an entertaining read if nothing else?

[vernons-laugh-is-my-aesthet-blog]

Question Tag

Thanks @softlysweetlystan for tagging me 

1. Are you named after someone?

After Aphrodite(goddess of love and beauty lol that’s fucking lie), all my sisters have ‘A’ names that end with ‘elle’

2. Time you cried?

Had a vivid, almost realistic feeling dream where a boat was sinking like the titanic, but instead of my family and I running out, we all just hugged and died together (like the old couple in the movie)

3. Do you like your handwriting?

When I try hard hell yeah it’s nice, I write in cursive, unilke alot of my peers. When im in a hurry/dont wanna try, bitch I cant even read it. One time a guy told me “you look like your writing the declaration of independence”

4. What’s your favorite lunch meat?

Chicken? idk thats a weird question tho

5. If you were another person, would you be friends with you?

I guess. I like to think of myself as very sarcastic and joke alot, but I make sure to never step over the boundaries (for example: the “roast” thing people do, I NEVER mention something  that could be a person’s actual insecurity, instead I call them stupid or something like that)

6. Do you use sarcasm?

I wouldn't use it for people I dont know well, because it could be intense; but when I do know you well, then might as well rename myself as “sarcasm”. I use a shit ton of sarcasm in my post too

7. Do you have your tonsils?

Yup

8. Would you bungee jump?

Hell nah one time I rode this one roller coaster that was just a series of ups and downs ONLY and at the end my family was telling me I had purple dots all over my pink face, I guess i couldn't take it and it cut off my oxygen? So when ever I ride a roller coaster I make sure there is no intense drop. (bungee jumping is prob just like that feeling)

9. What is your favorite kind of cereal?

Rice crispy, and frosted  flakes

10. Do you untie your shoes when you take off your shoes?

My shoes are perfectly tied so I can take them off and put them on, but they still stay snug

11. Do you think you’re a strong person?

Im very sensitive when it comes to certain words (about my insecurities) other than that I could say I’m pretty strong. I’m physically strong?

12. What is your favorite ice cream flavor?

coffee,strawberry, cotton candy,vanilla bean etc.

13. What is the first thing you notice about people?

facial structure, and then personality 

14. Red or pink?

red, a deep red

15. What is the least favorite physical thing you like about yourself?

(personal)

16. What color pants and shoes are you wearing now?

no shoes,black spanks

17. What was the last thing you ate?

I ate a tomato omelet  and a mango

18. What are you listening to right now?

Seventeen’s AI1 album and myself breathing

19. If you were a crayon, what color would you be?

A very dark blue (kinda like my blog background)

20. Favorite smell?

citrus body soap and FUCKING MINT

21. Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone?

my fatha

22. Favorite sport to watch?

I like being in and watching a live Volleyball game , I dont watch it from the tv

23. Hair color?

black, hints of brown

24. Eye color?

black as my soul

25. Do you wear contacts?

nah

26. Favorite food to eat?

egg, steak, everything?

27. Scary movie or comedy?

I LOVE watching scary movies with people, cant do it alone tho.

28. Last movie you watched?

Train to Busan 

29. What color of shirt are you wearing?

grey with white pattern

30. Summer or winter?

Winter; the cold is a blessing you can add as many layers and as for the summer- BITCH you cant take off your skin can you? (I mean you can try...)

31. Hugs or kisses?

 hugs make me uncomfortable if not done right/done too long and kisses are weird to me

32. What book are you currently reading?

it’s summer babe, book who?

33. Who do you miss right now?

my friend; she coming over later tho

34. What is on your mouse pad?

Nothing

35. What is the last program you watched?

man vs.food, playfull kiss

36. What is the best sound?

Rain/thunder, tapping of SVT’s feet during choreo vids (esp aju nice), sound of the guy you like’s voice

37. Rolling Stones or the Beatles?

dont listen to em, I’m a piece of shit

38. What is the furthest you have ever traveled?

‘Merica to half way across the world

39.Do you have a special talent?

Art, singing, editing?

40. Where were you born?

Asia

[80smikewheeler]

Another one lmao! 💙💫

Tagged by @gendryatrash thanks so much babe! I’m always down for these fun tag games! :) 
Rules: answer these questions and tag 9 people! -Are you named after anyone? Nope! 
-When was the last time you cried? I think it was last week lmao, when I was listening to, ‘Kids Two’ off the ST soundtrack, and it got me thinking of Mileven, and idk like I haven’t cried over Mileven since I watched THAT scene, and I just started sobbing a bit because I’m a massive saddo lmaoooo 😂 
-Do you like handwriting? I actually do! Sometimes I love just writing stuff, it feels pretty nice, until my hand starts to ache! In high school, everybody knew that I was really fast at handwriting, and people in my class would just sit and stare and me, because of how fast I wrote, and they’d always vote me to do the writing in group-work because I was the fastest, which I did not appreciate lmao! 😂 
-What’s your favourite lunch meat? Idk why, that just reminded me of the Sims, like when you make a 'lunch meat sandwich’! Haha! Probably chicken! 
-Do you have kids? Yeah 5 to be exact! You know where I’m going with this…😏 
-If you were another person would you be friends with you? Probably idk?? I mean if I wanted a ST buddy and someone to just pig out with on food, then yeah I’d probs be best friends with me! Haha! 
-Do you use sarcasm? Sometimes, if I’m feeling cheeky ;) 
-Do you still have your tonsils? Yes 
-Do you bungee jump? Nope, funnily enough, I actually can’t! Like that whole thing I mentioned with my eye problems, like if I did that, I’d most likely induce another detached retina! 
-What’s your favourite cereal? I’m not a massive cereal fan, but I’d probably say Rice Krispies or Weetabix! (I LIKEE CEREAL- does anyone remember that from Foster’s home for Imaginary Friends? Haha) 
-Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? Nah, I just kick them mofos right off! 
-Do you think you’re a strong person? I guess? I mean people have been through worse, but my parents are always telling me how strong I am to have gone through all my many medical issues! I’d like to think that I am, yes :) 
-What’s your favourite ice cream? Ooooh, either toffee or vanilla, or bubblegum! 
-What’s the first thing you notice about people? Idk, usually their eyeliner if they wear any? I like good eyeliner, ya feel? 
-What’s your least favourite thing about yourself? Probably my weight? I’m constantly struggling with it and if I could just lose a few stone, I’d be happy! 
-What colour pant and shoes are you wearing right now? I’m wearing tights and I’m melting in this 17c British heat! Hahaha lmaooo! 
-What are you listening to right now? Charli XCX- my queen! 👑 
-If you were a crayon what colour would you be? Yellow? 
-What’s your favourite smell? Idk, probably anything tropical? 
-Who’s the last person you talked to on the phone? My brother I think :) 
-Favourite sport to watch? Swimming? 
-Hair colour? Dark brown, light blonde at the ends (actually dying my hair half pink today!) 
-Eye colour? Brown 
-Do you wear contacts? Again, another thing to do with my dodgy eyes, means that I can’t even if I wanted to 
-Favourite food to eat? Fried rice 
-Scary movies or comedy? I’m really into scary films right now! But comedy is one of my favourite genres! 
-Last movie you watched? Omg, it was, Sandy Wexler, on Netflix! Such a funny film! I love Adam Sandler! 💖 
-Colour of shirt you’re wearing? I’m wearing a black dress tho 
-Summer or winter? Idk, I always feel dissatisfied whether it’s hot or cold! 
-Hugs or kisses? I like both, I barely ever get any kisses anymore tho, what’s happening with that anyway? 
-What book are you currently reading? The Virgin Widow by Anne O'Brien 
-Who do you miss right now? Some of my friends from primary school who I used to be dead tight with :( 
-What’s on your mousepad? i’m not using one now 
-What’s the last TV show you watched? Pretty Little Liars homie! I’m slightly bitter over the fact that they keep introducing new characters and mysteries when we’re like 8 episodes away from the finish? Like Marlene, wtf you doing? And I SW2G, if they make A.D. Some stupid, irrelevant, 'guy from the shop’ kind of person, I will SCREAM! ISW2G PLL, I wanna be wowed! None of that CeCe Drake kind of shit! 
-What’s the best sound? When my microwave dings, to let me know MY FOOD IS READY BABY! 😍 😹 
-Rolling Stones or the Beatles? SHE LOVES YOU, YEAH, YEAH, YEAH! The Beatles for sure! I have their albums on my Spotify! 💫 
-What’s the furthest you’ve ever travelled? When I went to Florida in America! 8 hour plane journey that! 🙀 
-Do you have a special talent? I can twist my feet almost, all the way around, and it really freaks my mum out, but my consultant at hospital always asks me to do it, because it’s related to my condition and he’s fascinated by it! Lmao! 
-Where were you born? Cheshire, United Kingdom 🇬🇧🇬🇧🇬🇧🇬🇧 I’m tagging: @gendryxaryatrash @tinyryder @sincerely-millie @wheezingwheeler @ashy-le-mashy @baileytsample @youlookpretty-good @bikingthroughhawkins @im-cool-please-like-me

[vastandephemeral]

Rules: Complete the survey and say who tagged you in the beginning. When you are finished tag 5 people to do this survey. Have fun and enjoy!!!

1: Are you named after someone? nope i am an original soul one of a kind

2: When is the last time you cried? tbh i cry all the damn time so it was probably at a commercial or my hw or i saw a cat that looked cold i think its the cat one??

3: Do you like your handwriting? heeellll no i was tramautized in the seventh grade bc my teacher was like ‘whos paper is this i  know its a boy bc the writing is so shitty’ and i had to be like ‘no thats me’ and i have forever been scarred

4: What is your favorite lunch meat? im a turkey gal

5: Do you have kids? no but i do call all the celebrities im in love with my sons and daughters does that count

6: If you were another person, would you be friends with you? i mean i like to think so?? im alright

7: Do you use sarcasm? nooOOooOO NnnevvveEErrR

8: Do you still have your tonsils? yeah ride 2gether die 2gether tonsils 4 lyf

9: Would you bungee jump? hell yeah hell yeah hell mf yeah

10: What is your favorite kind of cereal? crunchitize me capn

11: Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? no time is money money is power power is pizza

12: Do you think you’re a strong person? hell nah i am both physically and emotionally fragile

13: What is your favorite ice cream flavor? coffee?? chocolate?? buttercrunch?? who knows

14: What is the first thing you notice about people? when im feelin good about the world its like smiles and eyes and stuff but lately i have been a Bad Judgey Human and ive noticed clothes a lot tbh im very fashiony nowadays. also hands i notice hands a lot???

15: Red or pink? pink pink pink pink pink pink pink pink

16: What is the least favorite physical thing you like about yourself? my hands and my short stubby fingers and my bitten down fingernails

17: What color pants and shoes are you wearing now? im wearin pink and blue plaid pj pants and noo shoes

18: What was the last thing you ate? cheap mf ramen hell yeah college

19: What are you listening to right now? nct 127 limitless yo

20: If you were a crayon, what color would you be? pale pink i know what im about

21: Favorite smell? hmm i think chai lattes or roses probably. im very into florals

22: Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone? my little brother he was telling me all about his new girlfriend it was cute

23: Favorite sport to watch? hockey or soccer but really all of the olympics 

24: Hair color? it changes all the time rn its blonde soon itll be purple or blue but naturally its brown

25: Eye color? this changes too but usually its blueish or hazel

26: Do you wear contacts? yeah im blind as a mf bat i need contacts to survive

27: Favorite food to eat? honestly? fancy ramen with eggs and spices and stuff

28: Scary movies or comedy? comedy for sure im a big weenie scary stuff is tooo much

29: Last movie you watched? your name!!! it was so good!!

30: What color of shirt are you wearing? its a gray shirt i stole from my mom its got cats on it i love it

31: Summer or winter? winter! cold and crisp and pretty! minus that seasonal depression tho haha love the aesthetic but it hates me

32: Hugs or kisses? ooh this is tough. i think hugs bc you can hug everyone that cool with it and kisses are reserved for a select few unless im drunk and then its basically hug rules

33: What book are you currently reading? im starting dracula and im like halfway through jane eyre although um terrible and havent read in a while

34: Who do you miss right now? my family :( but i get to see them tomorrow! :D

35: What is on your mouse pad? this is the 21st century i have a laptop no mouse we die like men

36: What is the last TV program you watched? top gear with my roommate lmao

37: What is the best sound? an orchestra tuning hands down

38: Rolling Stones or The Beatles? the beatles also i just realized the pun in the name having typed it up rn woah that makes me like them even more

39: What is the furthest you have ever traveled? ive been to london! it was amazing i wanna retire to Bath

40: Do you have a special talent? im pretty good at throwing grapes up in the air and catching them in my mouth my mom can do it too we think its genetic

41: Where were you born? Bartlesville oklahoma baby

[superserenajin]

Tagged by my wonderful moirail, @flame-cat ty ily

1. Are you named after someone?

Yea, a dude named Robert who was apparently a really good dude but I never really talked to, not sure if he even still lives in Ireland, Serena no tho

2. When was the last time you cried?

Today cos stress

3. Do you like your handwriting?

Nope

4. What is your favorite lunch meat?

Salami

5. Do you have kids?

to quote my moirail “im 16 m8″

6. If you were another person, would you be friends with you?

Nope

7. Do you use sarcasm?

Never (sarcasm) 

8. Do you still have your tonsils?

Yep

9. Would you bungee jump?

NOPE NOPE NOPE

10. What is your favorite kind of cereal?

I don’t often eat cereal, never enough time 

11. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?

Nope

12. Do you think you’re a strong person?

Not in any sense of the word :P

13. What is your favorite ice cream?

Vanilla!

14. What is the first thing you notice about people?

ehm, usually their hair I guess?

15. What is the least favorite physical thing you like about yourself?

I am not a pretty person

16. What color pants and shoes are you wearing now?

Grey pants part of my uniform, no shoes, fluffy grey and blue socks

17. What are you listening to right now?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GFfaR3I--zI

18. if you were a crayon, what color would you be?

porple (misprint) 

19. Favorite smell?

Gasoline or vanilla

20. Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone?

My mother, she’s the only person who ever calls me on my phone

21. Favorite sport to watch?

i don’t watch sportball but fencing I guess

22. Hair color? 

Brown

23. Eye color?

Brown

24. Do you wear contacts?

No, they seem annoying

25. Favorite food to eat?

pizza

26. Scary movies or comedy?

Comedy, never really watched horrors

27. Last movie you watched?

“I’m Not Scared”, an italian film, watched it for English class, it’s amazing

28. What color of shirt are you wearing?

light blue bordering on grey, school uniform

29. Summer or winter?

Winter, I love the cold and it’s pretty

30. Hugs or kisses?

Hugs are great, kisses are okay

31. What book are you currently reading?

1984 by George Orwell, but I rarely read >_<

32. Who do you miss right now?

@flame-cat <3 <>

33. What is on your mouse pad?

its just all raindrops, i want to get a new one that looks cool but this one is SUPER convenient 

34. What is the last TV program you watched?

It’s Always Sunny

35. What is the best sound?

sounds have been getting to me a lot lately idk

36. Rolling Stones or the Beatles?

I’ve only ever really listened to the Beatles but idk I wouldn’t add them to my playlist

37. What is the furthest you have ever traveled?

To Paris

38. Do you have a special talent?

Special or not, the answer is no lmao

39. Where were you born?

Ireland

I tag whoever wants to do it? idk, @mintymochaaa, @loopylucky and @deadboywalking if you guys want to do it

[rinpanna]

tagged in this Meme by @kageyama-tobiyo SMASH that mofo read more if u give a shit abt my existence 

1. Are you named after someone? 

i’m pretty sure i’m named after my mom’s grandmother??

2. When was the last time you cried? 

I think it was like a month or so ago, my mom was being overcontrolling and i kinda lost it (SHES A REALLY GREAT PERSON LIKE 99% OF THE TIME THO IT WAS JUST YEARS OF BUILD UP EXPLODING AT ONCE)

3. Do you like your handwriting? 

I joke a lot about how my handwriting is shit, which it is, but i still like it because it’s MINE and only mine you know??

4. What is your favorite lunch meat? 

“Im not much of a lunch meat kind of girl. Peanut butter is my thing.” THIS ANSWER DEFINES ME PERFECTLY, THANKS DAWN (i eat 3 jar of pb in 2 day)

5. Do you have kids? i am a MINOR!!!!!!!!!

6. If you were another person, would you be friends with you? not to sound narcissistic but yes, i literally never fight with my friends bc i am a Chill person and i am always there for emotional support. but if u dont like loud ppl, you would h8 me :^)

7. Do you use sarcasm? nEVer with adults/strangers but ALWAYS w friends

8. Do you still have your tonsils? yes

9. Would you bungee jump? “Remove the cord and we have a deal ;)” SAME DAWN SAME, but i would also bungee jump with a cord

10. What is your favorite kind of cereal? LIFE CINNAMON CEREAL I LOVE THAT SUGARY TOOTH ROTTING SHIT MMMMMMMMMMM 👌👌👌👌👌👌

11. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? depends, if im thinking about the next day and how it’ll be easier if i just untie them now, yes, but i am not normally prudent like this

12. Do you think you’re a strong person? I think i’m a lot more mentally strong than some people, and physically im Ok could be better. i could definitely kick @acejugs ass tho

13. What is your favorite ice cream? i can’t eat real ice cream bc dairy allergy but FAKE ice cream i love chocolate or cookies and “””cream”””

14. What is the first thing you notice about people? ASS, jk uhhhh idk it sound cheesey but i really dO only judge people by their personality most of the time. like if they’re a dick off the bat im like :^^)

15. What is the least favorite physical thing you like about yourself?

i used to really not like that im kinda Chub but now i embrace it. i guess my height????? (IM 5′1 WTF IS THIS BS)

16. What color pants and shoes are you wearing now? skin color shoes (aka: none) and blue pants with snow flakes on them bc during the weekends (sometimes bleeding into weekdays) i dont change out of my pajamas 

17. What are you listening to right now? nothing actually, but as i was doing my 59999 pounds of hw today, i listened to 

-carrie and lowell- sufjan stevens

-all of the kagepro songs- jin

-yuri on ice track from ost 1 hr loop

-weeb mixes on 8tracks

-atlas year one- sleeping at last (thanks @mochiiron )

18. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? pepe green so the children can get their daily meme fill

19. Favorite smell? this is gonna sound creepy as FUCK, but i perceive a lot thru smell especially with people so like. i love the smells of my friends (EVERYONE SMELLS SO DIFFERENT I SWEAR) and my mom and people i have crushes on (im like 90% sure i fall for people bc of their smell what kind of 2000 B.C. era head Ass)

20. Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone? mom callin about groceries

21. Favorite sport to watch? HOCKEY or figure skatin lmao i’ve never done an ice sport im a fake fan

22. Hair color? black bc chinese ancestry yall

23. Eye color? Dark dark drak dark aDark brown

24. Do you wear contacts? No my prescription is only like -1,-1.5 so i rarely even wear my glasses lol

25. Favorite food to eat? im like high key obsessed with food so i cannot answer this question w a single answer.

-pb

-plain fuckin bread

-moms chicken soup

-CAKE

-poptarts

-lo mein

-carrots 

-pesto

-etc

(also: why is the eat in this question?????what else do u do with food?????? scream at it???)

26. Scary movies or comedy?

i never watch movies uhhh i’d probably pick comedy before scary tho

27. Last movie  anime you watched? i dont watch movies lol-- mob psycho 100 with my friend but i’m not done and she is o-(--<

28. What color of shirt are you wearing? my shirt is gray but i’m wearing a hoodie on top of it which is navy blue (no bra tho ;;)))) 

29. Summer or winter? SPRING

30. Hugs or kisses? hugs, i wont even let my mom kiss me lmao

31. What book are you currently reading? Going After Cacciato for school (its ok) and im about to start Ash by Malinda Lo (like after i finish this meme im oUT)

32. Who do you miss right now? i feel really bad but like/??  i rarely actually miss people? like when i hear from someone i haven’t heard from in a long time im HAPPY but rarely do i ever like mentally/physically ache for ppl (even my best best friends). but i guess i always miss my grandma because she’s kinda old and im always worried about her health and wanna be w her everyday :(

33. What is on your mouse pad? what year is it, 2006

34. What is the last TV program you watched? LMFAOOOO YOU THOUGHT I WATCHED TV, my mom had me watch a news thing about the yayoi kusama exhibit in DC tho earlier today, i genuinely can’t remember the source tho

35. What is the best sound? i don’t have a fave sound but i have plenty of sounds that i h8. i guess just in general good music is best sound

36. Rolling Stones or The Beatles? im not pretentious enough about music to answers this, sorry 

37. What is the furthest you have ever traveled? probably antarctica! my mom worked in the travel dept at National Geographic when i was in elementary school so i got to go a Lot of really cool places

38. Do you have a special talent? i have an 80% accuracy rate for catching food after throwing it in the air. nat also thinks that being able to read and walk my dog is a talent but ????? i think a lot of ppl can do that. OH best talent: literally being able to turn everything into a meme

39. Where were you born? 

xiantan, hunan province, china!

[partiallystcrs]

ANYWAY HERE’S A HEADCANON DUMP FOR ESTHER & GRAFFITI PETE i may also do another one of these for some other muses later, but these rn are for @chronolockcd ( thank u for helping distract me !! )

esther ;  - okay but like pls imagine a younger esther, trying to be a noble person, taking every task given to her very seriously, studying every code presented into the wee hours of morning, & reading every book she can get her hand on .  - pls imagine esther going above & beyond to prove herself useful to this organization that kidnapped her as a child & has basically raised her - now imagine her reaction to learning that they killed her parents for the fortune they left to her & feeling betrayed by everyone  - now imagine her being closed off to most of her previous associates until a mr. jacques snicket comes along & definitely does not fall in love with her, but she falls in love with him & he definitely does steal her fortune for vfd & thus Ruins esther - NOW PLS FOR A MOMENT CONSIDER W ME HOW HIGH ESTHER BELIEVES HER STANDARDS ARE BC SHE “ NO LONGER HAS ANY FEELINGS “ FOR JAQ & HOW SHE DOES NOT ENDANGER CHILDREN OR ORPHAN THEM but she did marry a man for his fortune & kill him a month into the marriage.  - she totally would take jaq back if he asked tho bc really her standards aren’t that high at all  - the bar of her standards is actually on the ground  - also her biggest form of revenge on beatrice baudelaire would be to raise her children & tell them all of the Truth(TM)

graffiti pete ;  - BI AS FUCK  - also his dad was v neglectful in raising this poor boy - honestly daniela probably raised him like she made sure he had food & lowkey gave him crayons & chalk to let him draw & color - so when his dad kicks him out for catching him w a guy, & after he comes back from his little ‘ trip ‘ down the coast, daniela invites him to live w her but he has to pay rent  - unfortunately that means he can’t ever bring sonny home for cuddles or even dinner bc he knows how much dani likes to Talk  - SINCE IM NOT SURE IF IT’S CANONICALLY ADDRESSED ANYWHERE my hc is that he did a commission for someone down in south carolina but they didn’t have the money for it, so he asked for the boombox w the intention of selling it.  - obvi he kept it bc he loves that it’s such a Look & honestly u can’t pry it out of his cold dead hands - even though he keeps things w sonny pg bc he loves him & doesn’t wanna get thrown in jail, he definitely likes to mess w usnavi & will untuck his shirt & get paint where it shouldn’t be jsut to fre ak him out  - he pays for every single one of his slushies like even if sonny gives it to him for free , he leaves some change on the counter - PEANUT ALLERGY  - LIKE SO BAD ,,,, LIKE ONCE HE ATE A PEANUT M&M WITHOUT KNOWING THE CONSEQUENCE & HE ALMOST DIED - on that note he almost attempted suicide by m&m bc he was so grumpy one day & just wanted to have a whole pack just to say he had some but usnavi actually smacked him with a newspaper so it’s all good - VERY INSECURE ABT EVERYTHING  - like fr when ppl say they like his art his reaction is ‘ thank u i kinda hate it but hey if u like it then i’ll keep it ‘ - but really is never satisfied w his art - or himself for that matter but he can hide it well - PARKOUR  - both emotional & physical  - RIPPED AF  - but like he doesn’t even try it’s all from trying to escape the cops lma o  - rebellious but he has a good heart & would just love to see the world happy & painted - HE CAN ACTUALLY DO PRETTY NICE ART ON A CANVAS but he never does bc he thinks it will ruin how ppl look @ him . he doesn’t mind being the ‘ punk ’ kid tbh  - once tho sonny says he liked a sunset & thus put pete in a panic bc he needed to go buy oil paints & a canvas to paint a sunSET FOR HIM  - he also secretl y admires tf out of usnavi & benny even if he cannot impress them in the least. 

[furariginza]

fun tag. 

tagged by oh-maya and i love to talk about myself so here we goooo

i tag everyone who locks eyes with this post. @ me so i can read yours. 

Are You Named For Someone: listen my dude... nicola is actually a boys name in italy, but since i was the first child, my parents gave me the name so i couldn’t be like the next like heir to my family?? my name literally just means victory so i guess they’re a bit conceited. 

When’s The Last Time You Cried: i cried like 15 hours ago because my stupid ass boyfriend is in the army and i haven’t seen his face or any new pictures since august and unexpectedly he smuggled his phone from his captain. then when i received the video call from him i was so happy and i just cried like a lil bitch! 

Do You Like Your Handwriting: ......no, it’s really my complex. no matter how slow i try to write or even when i buy pretty gel pens it doesn’t help. 

What’s Your Favorite Lunch Meat: eating cold meats literally ruins my whole mood, but if i had to choose, i’ve been craving my old school bologna and mustard sandwich but mom refuses to buy it anymore :((((

Do You Have Any Kids: my cat is my son. seventeen are my sons. but nah, all kidding aside i dont have any kids yet i babysit for my job and i really love those boys so i’m hoping i can have kids sometime. my kids are gonna be spoiled as hell since i’m like a kid myself, they’re gonna go to disney every fucking year. 

If You Were Another Person, Would You Be Friends With Yourself: probably yes because my sense of style is bomb.

Do You Use Sarcasm?: yea. 

Do You Still Have Your Tonsils?: so i have them but they get swollen all the time. considering removing them. 

Would You Ever Bungee Jump?: i don’t have time for that, nor would i make time for that. 

What Is Your Favorite Kind Of Cereal?: cinnamon life squares?? not sure if that’s the exact name 

Do You Untie Your Shoes When You Take Them Off?: i sit down and untie each of them because i’m a fcn nerd. 

Do You Think You’re A Strong Person?: not at all, i’m just a smoll bebe. 

What’s Your Favorite Ice Cream Flavor?: ben and jerrys has this one that’s mainly cocolate but they throw in chunks of cookie dough of chocolate chip, peanut butter, and brownie cookie and its so fucking good!! i ate the whole can of it one time and got mad sick but i lvoed it. 

What’s The First Thing You Notice About People?: clothes... im a hype beast.

Red or Pink: Pink

What is the least favorite physical thing you like about yourself? my friggn eyebrows. im italian so the hair is so thick and like hard to maintain. 

What color pants and shoes are you wearing right now? my sweatpants are black and velvet. i have some fluffy primark slipper boots on too. 

What was the last thing you ate? french creme  horn. 

What are listening to right now? Ariana Grande - Hands on Me. SHES 1 HOUR AWAY FROM ME RIGHTNOW AND I CANT BREATHE. 

If you were a crayon, what color would you be? black, but like a jet black with little specs of glitters in there. 

Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone? it was my dumbass boyfriend. listen, i call him a dumbass but it’s because when we get put together we turn into literal patrick and spongebob and we’re embarassing to watch. we just bring out the stupid in each other. 

Favorite sport to watch? prince of tennis. 

Hair color? a mix of brown and orange....she;s going platinum soon tho...

Eye color? blue grey. 

Do you wear contacts? i can’t force any color contact into my eye because im a wimp. 

Favorite food to eat? these days its garlic chicken wings. 

Scary movies or comedies? i love scary movies but lately there hasn’t been much out that actually make my heart jump. i think i’ve watched too many or perhaps there’s just trash coming out. recommend me if you know anything good. 

Last movie you watched? the last movie i watched was something on lifetime with my grandmother and it’s like “my doctor is stalking me” or something similar and it was really dramatic and funny but i loved it. 

Summer or winter? i hate feeling too hot and i hate feeling too cold.

Hugs or kisses? both. please give me physical attention. 

What book are you currently reading? because i’m so busy with school i don’t really have time to read for fun.... i really like my renaissance art text book though. it makes me wanna go to the art museum and take lots of dramatic pics. 

Who do you miss right now? i miss Boyfriend, they had some bops but when are they gonna return from japan promotions

What is on your mouse pad? i haven’t used a mousepad in years 

What is the last TV program you watched? unsolved mysteries. my favorite show of all time on amazon prime.... support it.

What is the best sound? my cat has a little tiny voice all the time and when he’s really happy he lets out like a mix of a sigh and a meow and its so cute and makes my heart all warm

Rolling Stones or The Beatles? i don’t give a fuck my dude !! 

What is the furthest you have ever traveled? korea. 

Do you have a special talent? learning languages.

Where were you born? portland in maine. mooseland.