#even more funnily but less reassuringly he did remind me of viktor arcane both in looks and personality (VAGUELY) | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

water-weaving · 1 day ago

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so i had lost the ability to dream and remember my dreams for the last couple of years, but i've started having clear dreams again these days (not nightmares! cheers) and anyway. i had a long semi-coherent dream last night that ended with a sex scene with another man?? in full HD 4k nothing obscured or anything and like the sex acts themselves were quite. well. definitely not something i'd want to actively do (at some point i topped him using. my hairbrush........?) but the whole thing was so loving and tender and intimate i woke up feeling a weird sense of grief. come back ghost bf i miss you....... anyway. carmine bisexual arc?....

#like for context i NEVER had a sex dream before #the sexually charged dreams ive had were all some kind of rape scenarios #and very uncomfortable and always involved me as a girl or woman even after i started transitioning #this is the first dream (ever??? possibly) that involved me as the person i am while awake. AND it was about having actual sex #in a way that *is* aligned with who i am while awake (i would indeed be a top)#funnily (and reassuringly) enough my ghost boyfriend was not anyone i know irl (or at all) which is common #(i very rarely dream about people i know). that spares some awkwardness and for that i am: grateful #even more funnily but less reassuringly he did remind me of viktor arcane both in looks and personality (VAGUELY)#?????????#what is going on. am i going to become one of these men who started having gay thoughts and becoming bicurious after seeing viktor on scree #diversity win(?)

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