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carolinanadeau · 1 year ago

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I literally cannot even fathom trying to date in this society. I am not exaggerating when I say that absolutely everything is stacked against me. I mean... thankfully I'm really still not interested but I wonder if part of the reason I am so uninterested is that the kind of relationship I'd want to have just straight-up does not exist anymore

#'anymore' may be doing a lot of heavy lifting here. did it ever or do I just want a fictional romance?#but I mean the whole modern social mores thing doesn't HELP #even if you ignore my whole bizarre dreadful personality and lack of social skills #you're not gonna find a person willing to go along with my non-negotiables unless they're super religious #and I obviously don't want THAT either #nor do I want somebody to just grudgingly 'go along' either #bonus: I have a combination of politics and beliefs that makes me unpalatable to literally everyone if they know all of them #and because of misophonia and shit I'm full of rage toward things most people think are 'normal'#not very attractive either. constantly exhausted. deeply in debt.#I don't even know what my own sexuality is lol #honestly it's easier to just write the whole thing off unless it somehow magically happens organically #am I posting my Ls on main? maybe. whatever.#but how big of an L can it be when I have expressly stated I'm not looking #and never have been #about me #my original post

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