#even if the combat is stressing me tf out lmao

[cassmouse]

Idk if it's just me being overly into it or my inexperience with these sorts of games but Control is fucking terrifying in the best way possible

[soulhavens]

my running list of wallaru thoughts (plus one or two headcanons)

the trauma from sybil's speech ))):

the wallaru zeke quest i midnight oil - a slurry of plant-life and dream water, used in place of coffee.... the YW definitely is the Midnight Oil addict (caffeine addict yknow??) - they run on stress and Midnight Oil lol

i hate the sounds that the dingos make when we defeat them ):

Krokodile dundara tries to fight his own battles but the YW steps in... dundara kinda reminds me of moo bo (moo bu?) in that he comments on the wiz's uhhh.... battle-readiness

anyway it seems like the wiz has some pent up aggression that they're looking to burn off with battles

the kangaroo bushwhackers comment on how the YW takes their battle v seriously.... so no holding back on the YW's part

I think it'd be cool if we get to see our companions do some of the mob fights?

the bushwhackers are unionized!!

Fallen Arachna Empire... WHAT. "Great Prince"???? oh no

lol spiders of the multiverse. i see you KI, i see you

how did i know it was a con

fghjkkjdhg the loading screen for Rest by the Fire

daseinnnnnnnnnnn D:< i miss you

did we just get a cut scene for a cannonball-ed emu?

are we about to re-enact the emu wars LMAO

phett and cadd - i see you KI, i see you

when we're destroying the emu cannons... we're walking along quite a thin ledge. i bet the yw isnt in a great headspace here for a number of reasons

did we just get called out for being isekai-ed into the spiral???

i bet the outback makes the yw feel nostalgic for the aero plains (god i miss the aero plains..)

dasein )): "It is you! the real you" im gonna cry

aaaahhhhh "and what are my dreams, my unrealized reals?" "I want to be Something. I want to be good. I want to belong (everywhere)"

has the wallaru loading screen been changing as we go through the world? like it was just the poster and now its the poster with "ned collie was right" and i think thats super fucking cool

in hindsight it's probably cued into which area you're loading.... but it gives the effect of "its evolving as you play thru wallaru" which i like

the yw keeps nodding off and having dasein dreams, which makes me think that during this world the yw is just chronically running on a lack of Good sleep, yknow?

something about judge judi is throwing me off. i dont like her.

VEG???? not you ):<

wait actually? maybe not so bad....

who tf is the prince theyre talking about. i s2g.

oh goodie. corrupt government. didnt see that coming.

patrick warburton??? (no, unfortunately)

fought the law and won..... what an interesting badge. the yw is collecting so much trauma (:

bonesbury rules of magical combat?? (ok i know this is a play on john locke... but im intrigued by there being various sets of magical combat rules)

i love morp

oh god wait are we about to get into some matrix plots? yknow. cos morpheus?

"Even way out here we've heard of the one who walked the Reverie" i think its interesting that diff NPCs know the YW for diff reasons which is cool

"can't let anyone around the barrier with corrupted influences about" but we are child of light and shadow, divine paradox, touched by shadow.... hmm

me, staring at the magistreto, squinting: "...maestro? master? professor hex? the professor? is this another dr who reference??"

i like how small we are in the eucalyptus forest

dont mind me side-eyeing sandiago

did..... did we just watch an NPC get vored? oop no theyre alive

it amuses me so much that phasmanian devils can do the apollo spell (and it amuses me still that hes a chicken because apollo. a pollo. hah!) - also... thinking about how spells work again, especially when theyre based on an in-game character/npc/boss you fight... (coughcough the morganthe spells)

i am going to slap these judges and also these gold class guests

dasein stop breaking my heart ))):

"But you can brainwrite yourself. Just jump in the lake. See the scaries what haunt them when the sand hits their eyes." - oh boy... the YW is def not in a great headspace and everyone else can tell

okay so the dialogue box says "Sandiago camel" and "old one camel" but the mob title is "Feral camel" lol? wait wait wait old one??

hey sandiago im getting a bad feeling about you and morp too (rip me from approximately 13 notes ago)

"The Dreamer has only ever been seen by Wallu. Imagine what it could create if fueled by diverse experience?" oh no i'm getting a bad feeling about this

Freddie Croaker says to tell Judge Veg he says hi, but it doesn't seem like we as the YW do that? (at least not in the dialogue immediately following the instance..)

welp. morp.

"They built the Great Barrier because strangers came here, right up to the Dreamer itself, and made something horrible. An engine of evil it was, that could reshape the Spiral. Even the Great Tree could not perceive it. We could not allow such a creation." Oh no oh no oh no... i'm getting bad feelings b/c dasein... and the yw... and the old one..

"then we enter the dreaming to.." sandiago.... why are you trying to access the dreaming? and with morp continually being like "i feel like i know you" hmmmmm

its fucked up that you fight hostages but also i like the mechanics. i know that damaging the hostages is like breaking the aura on them which is like the ropes, but wouldn't it fucked up if you actually had to damage the hostages to release them

god these judges are sooooooo annoying

"Ten, nine, the Spiral hates Dasein" KI ARE YOU TRYING TO MAKE ME SOB

"in these waves which are not water swim the thoughts which yearn to be real" i am sensing a major potential for YW angst right here

avatars of avarice... are we about to get into layers of hell/seven deadly sins or something?

sandiago was the one who guided the old one to wallaru... interesting........ ohhhhhh he was a founer of the cabal. wild.

i'd need to go back and do mirage since i dont really have an opinion on sandiago.... but more yw angst potential (:< this time with Betrayal

"This sapce is special. Its waters are not entirely real, thus not visible to Bartleby - a blindspot in reality." interesting piece of lore that i need to think about

oh are we finally cashing in on freddie kroaker's "say hi to judge veg for me"? nice

so far i do like the theme of "you can have done some Not Great Things in the past and still grow and change and learn"

ok wait judge veg's "I was always a fighter, a weapon to be aimed. First against the outlaws of Wallaru, then against unhealthy diets, then the Spiral itself. I don't know what to do after this." jdgkl;akdjfksoa;dkfja;dkf im - I think veg and the YW would reallly relate to the "a weapon to be aimed" line

"...because I'm a bad guy" not a big fan of this line, or of freddie kroaker in general..

freddie's plan was to remake a toxic, juggernaut crab..

the dreamer is bartleby but like different? hm "from his unconsciousness imaginings come new realities' idk how to feel about that

we get to connect dasein to the dreamer though <3

"Wizard, you are real. and so is he." ajdgkls;ajdka dasein and the yw real <3

"What are you doing here?" "We're here for you, to help you figure out where you belong" omgomgomgomgomg

dasein my beloved

"Was [our Walkabout] all you had hoped, Wizard? You did not face your demons, nor realize your truth as we all did." [insert YW's assumed dialogue here] "Haha, indeed, well said my friend. Your truth is to help others, as you demonstrated countless times in our journey. Your walk was for your friend after all." - I'm unsure about how I feel about this line too - in some sense I was hoping the YW would get more of their own conclusion, although i understand thats not possible with the way the wiz protagonist works

[brandinotbroke]

I only really started playing "other games" like two years ago because my brother kept complaining about me only playing the sims. The only other games I played before that were Life is Strange and Stardew Valley. And I do see his point now, I've missed out on a lot.

In the past two years, I've played Psychonauts 2, Assassins Creed Origins (my history nerd heart LOVED it), Assassin's Creed Odyssey, Assassin's Creed Valhalla, Hogwarts Legacy, Judgment, Lost Judgment, Yakuza 0-4 and now Coral Island (@sicksadsim you might enjoy Coral Island if you liked Stardew Valley, it's not finished yet but I actually think Coral Island is better and has a lot of potential)

But I remember getting into those games was HARD because the controls confused me and any kind of combat stressed me tf out (it doesn't anymore, you get used to it). I abandoned Judgment once because the story was so slow and the controls overwhelmed me, but now it is my favourite game/series. I abandoned Red Dead Redeption 2 twice now and don't plan on picking it up again because the controls are still fucking infuriating even though I really like the concept and world bulding of the game. Overall, I actually had a lot of fun with all of these games (except Yakuza 4 because that story was some bullshit).

My brother and my bf have now also shared their steam libraries with me so I currently have over 200 games at my disposal lmao

simblr mutuals i think you guys should indulge in more games (lovingly)

[ackermansupremacy]

Can I please have hcs for Porco, Zeke, and Reiner with a titan shifter s/o who's also a rhythmic gymnast? S/o's titan makes use of its fully rotating joints to basically be combat ready in all directions, hence the extreme flexibility training they get. They fell in love with rhythmic gymnastics since it was a perfect mix of training and ballet (their first love). They like performing routines on stage during festivals and stuff when they're not deployed atm. Thanks! :)

Dude thats literally SUCH a cool idea for a titan!! I wanna see someone draw that so bad!!

Porco, Zeke and Reiner with a titan shifter rythmic gymnast s/o

Porco:

I say this all the time but I will say it again

SIMP

He’ll walk in on you stretching and is like

“What the fuck are you doing?”

He screamed the first time you stretched so hard your bones cracked

Sometimes you do weird shit just to freak his ass out

Like if you do the splits he’ll be fascinated but if you grab your back leg hes gotta head out

“STOP-“

Demands you teach him how to do any kind of flip

It didn’t end well

He simps for you even in your titan form

He loves fighting along side you a literally makes heart eyes whenever you do like,,,anything

But he does think your titan is lowkey creepy LMAO

Something about the way it just unnaturally moves and bends itself

He thinks its absolutely amazing but it unnerves tf out of him

He loves watching you perform too

Hes shook at your skill everytime

And showcase your flexibility

It makes him think of different ways you could use it if you catch my drift-

Zeke

For a long time after you inherited your titan

Zeke couldn’t see you as anything but a weapon

I mean you truly were the ideal for combat

It absolutely fascinated him

So he kind of works you to the bone

Although he wasn’t the BIGGEST fan of someone he cared about being a titan shifter

Let alone on the battlefield

He knew your abilities were too useful to let his own emotions get in the way

He constantly reminds you to stretch and strengthen your human body so it can benifit your titan

It isn’t really until he sees you off duty, dancing around his office or on a stage with the brightest smile on your face

That he really remembers that this is his lovely s/o, and not just a titan

And it makes him feel a w f u l

He knows you use dance as a stress relief sometimes when your off duty

And he wouldn’t want to make it seem like a chore for you

The beast titan and the acrobatic titan? Power couple on the battlefield frfr

Ngl, titan or not hes super paranoid about you being on the battlefield

You’ve heard many tales of the fated Levi Ackerman and hes SO paranoid about him

But he trusts you enough to handle yourself out there

Reiner

You really never fail to amaze him

He loves the cute little quirks that come with your talents

Like if he sees you dancing around the kitchen he’ll just

💘❤️💞💘💕❣️❤️💘💞

He’ll lean against the door frame and watch until you notice him

You performing is just as peaceful and stress relieving to him as it is to you

The espression of freedom, the lightness of your free as you effortlessly leave the floor of the stage

Its all so symbolic to him

If your performance tells a story he’ll be the first one to listen

On the battlefield, BITCH.

Y’all work together SO well

If your titan is small enough he would throw it as an attack and would think it was so dope

As soon as y’all come out everyone knows they finna lose that fight

Unless its the scouts

Yall could level a city together ugh so romantic

Hes no dancer but he’ll dance with you sometimes 🥺

He thinks its cute n intimate

At first he got a little irritated seeing how you sometimes would neglect your training to dance

Until he realized that was your training

He never noticed how much it benefitted you until Zeke pointed it out

Honestly, it made him fall in love with you even more ❤️

****

AYO WHY DID THIS TAKE ME SO LONG TO PUBLISH?

Chile anyways

Thanks for requesting! I hope you liked it!

[tzawa-1y]

had this sitting around a while, wanted to make it nice and detailed but also hopefully somewhat accurate, idk yesterday scared me lmao-

also quick bump to the original post, if you'd like to send someone in and haven't feel free to! might be slow over the next couple days again tho.

Anyways;

Hoshizawa's thoughts on @dantelionwishes Sato, Makoto, Miss Me, and Hibiki

read more because whoof

Sato:

very friendly around the teachers in general, and likes tagging by them a lot.

Sometimes ends up being the last to leave class cuz he's trying to make quick chat with him about whatever he was teaching, and ends up having to dash to the next class.

actually masks more & acts a lot more formal around him though, like there's a big difference between hoshiz with other students, and hoshiz with Sato.

(well it's there with any adult & Tsumi actually, but especially Sato)

That said, he really likes Sato, even if he comes off more threatening or stern or whatever compared to like Miss Me.

Would probably still just end up throwing him way off intimidating guy script; "well... now that you know this... do you have any other questions for me?" "are you my friend? :3"

definitely has to learn about non-quirk combat, as his quirk can relatively easily be subverted, and he's just very squishy LMAO-

Makoto:

She's definitely interesting??

Hoshizawa doesn't get a lot of their humor and references, and kinda feels uncomfortable with that...

but he does still like them! will probably go to Makoto to learn about video games.

Not too scared about Makoto going through his devices, all the worst in a boring way lmAO-

shitty pictures of just birds or whatever and cool plants or something on his phone.

probably not bestest besties, but he has fun talking with them.

he... finds the glowsticks really cool but. been thinking about it... idk if he can really. see them. that well.

but he does find their eyes neat! it's very helpful if he goes into her dorm and he can actually see them cuz they're glowing a lil lmao--

and of course, they're both Very comfortable with physical contact.

Miss Me:

Again, just really friendly with his teachers, but especially Miss Me (his main homeroom teacher ofc yk)

definitely the greater target of him sticking around until the last minute (or past said last minute, honestly) to rant about something.

Hoshizawa has a lot to learn not just about using his quirk safely and working with the downfalls of it, but in specializations and using it in new ways too!

she's likely able to work best with Hoshizawa on finding how to learn in a way that works best for them both.

He really likes Miss Me, and how friendly and comfortable she is, defs his favorite teacher.

probably had a moment or two of *hoshiz runs up to hug* *miss me dodges (an attack)* *hoshiz kept going and crashed* lmao

very much the teacher he's most comfortable around, but still masks more compared to like with the students.

Hikari:

literally wants to hug her like always. warm friend.

but also she seems nervous and anxious a lot and doesn't know how to read when she's more or less anxious or what she actually wants.

so he's a lot more regularly like actually holding his arms out & offering a hug instead (as opposed to suddenly hugs attack w a lotta students)

particularly he cannot read when she's agreeing out of anxiety or genuinely agreeing.

ends up asking what she wants or needs in the moment because he has No Clue. (but can hardly get the question across right and ot sounds weird)

they were both homeschooled and had very protective family! relatability ayo

they have an equal standing on meme culture and that's rlly neat

shows her the terrible pictures and just stresses her tf out (tbh idk how I'd respond either- rip lol)

eventually though if hoshizawa is able to see her pictures he 1) gets very ":000 wait thaTS SO PRETTY THO!!" (swiftly apologizing for being loud and scaring her ;;) and 2) understands the point and might ask for some advice.

basically just really wants to be friends, she's literally the only other homeschooled person here and wants to have someone to relate with in not knowing what's going on lol.

that said, he's not totally sure how to go about it seeing she's so extremely anxious all the time and he's not totally sure how to respond to that, or when exactly she feels better or worse.

also, he doesn't have to look down at her thank god, they're sorta equal height.

[ethereal-pluto-blog]

I feel like shit today

I'm lethargic, slow, crying, and insecure. So yep ~depression~ has come to rear its ugly head once again.

But since I'm not into the whole anti-recovery thing, I'll give you some useful tips on how to maybe help YOUR depression that doesn't seem like a generic twitter self help thread. (Though I'll mention some things I found helpful and give explainations as to why.)

Talk to your therapist/counselor/mental health expert if available. Not everyone has the luxury of seeking professional help, but if you have the opportunity, PLEASE go to a professional. However be noted that it's often an experience to go through many different experts to find the one that matches your specific needs/ you like the most. Also keep in mind there are also online therapists ready to help if you're not big on one-on-one contact like myself, though often insurance is tricky. I put this one first because it might be the most beneficial for some, though not readily available for others.

If you have the strength, shower. Showering/cleaning yourself is a blessing in itself as it gives you a sense of detox. Though if you don’t have the strength or motivation, try some of this instead-

Utilize facewash and lotion. Particularly facewash that makes your face feel all chill and tingly, it makes you feel more refreshed. Lotions and cream will help you keep skin smooth.

Simply get wet with water, a quick 5 minute rinse in hot water is less of a chore than a full shower.

Dry shampoo will help with hair oiliness. Though if you don't have access just brush your hair and pull it/part it so it's out of your face.

Baby wipes. Baby wipes will cure yo soul. But seriously use baby wipes and rub them on your face, underarms, and genitals. A good rub down will help prevent you from feeling gross.

Splashing your face with cold water, it makes your pores tighten up and as a bonus it'll wake you up.

Utilize deodorant and vaseline. I haven't tried it out for myself, though if you put down deodorant and then vaseline on top it should trap the nice fragrant smell. And while you're at it you can put on cologne / perfume if you think you're getting a lil ripe, but if you want to smell like a fresh shower use ones that are labeled "shower fresh" or "baby powder."

If your lips are chapped, put on some balm shisters. (I don't trust the brand chapstick, I'm a conspiracy theorist okay I'm soRRy)

Change into some cleaner clothes. They don't have to be normal everyday clothes but at least change into new clothes, especially underwear.

Clean your fingernails/toenails. Clean under them, since random junk can get stuck up in there. Also clip them if they're too long for your liking.

Brush your teeth. But if you can't, use mints, gum, mouthwash, mouthspray, etc, or a combination of those. Anything minty will make your mouth tingle and feel fresh and clean.

Clean yo ears! Since probably nobody uses an ear vacuum (like you're supposedly supposed to idk I'm too broke for that shit anyways) just be careful using Q-tips.

If you don’t have any deodorant, try hand sanitizer! I'm not kidding. Put a dollop under each underarm, and let dry. Smells are caused by bacteria, so if you get hand sanitizer, it should greatly reduce smell.

Try to get some sun. Using the natural sunlight will help you absorb vitamin D. So open up the blinds and photosynthesize binches. Though it also helps to open up the window if you can, a breeze/fresh air blowing in with the smell of outside might even raise your mood. Though if it's currently shitty weather outside, try turning on your lights to match your circadian rhythm, so keep lights on during the day and dim it at night so it'll help with letting you be on a decent sleep schedule.

Feeling like there's no hope or that your future is going to be shit? Highkey me too, but here's what I do to combat that feeling.

It's corny, but I write a whole idealized future for myself. I write about my dream job, I write about my dream s/o, I even imagine the type of house I want to live in, the kids I'll have, what kind of pets I want to own. Etc. Although the economy is shit and no future is guaranteed, it's nice to put some positivity into light and show what I really want in life. I don't want to be some millionaire, I just want to be comfortably well off with a family and people that love me. And in all honesty a future like that isn't hard to obtain.

Even if you can't imagine a good future for yourself, imagine being a part of your friends or loved one's futures. For example, you know your friend who's dating this really cute person that you totally ship them with? Imagine being a part of the bridesmaids/groomsmen for their wedding when they tie the knot! Imagine your really smart friend finally graduating from college and you're at their graduation party giving them a speech! For me this really helps since I aspire to be drinking buddies with my best friend's future husband. (I'm rlly goofy ik lmao)

Feeling stressed about not doing anything? We've all been there. Try:

Doing work if you're due for assignments, though don't do it alone, if you can, arrange a group text/tutoring session/Skype call. If everyone is focused on getting something done then you'll be motivated to do it with them.

Though if you don’t absolutely have to do anything but want to do ~s o m e t h i n g~ I also got your back on this too.

Organize your inbox for your email. (Ik I'm lame)

Tidy/clean your room/any room if that gives you something to do.

Make your bed.

Cuddle someone/something.

Rearranging your stuff in your room, makes it feel like a whole remodel tbh.

Burn candles/incense. Don't ask just...trust me on this it can change the aura.

If you're religious, practice!

Take aesthetic photos of things in your room. Download VSCO and experiment with it. I also recommend Huji Cam and Afterlight. All are available for IOS and Android.

If you appreciate music- use YouTube and find some Playlists, or if you can, spotify premium will save yo mortal soul.

Like video games? Play some! Or if you're a brokeass like me, let's plays and walk throughs work well too.

If you got pets, pet them. Do it. Snuggle. Or if you love animals in general go and watch some vids on YouTube.

Build a fort.

If you're an artist or appreciate art- draw! Or you can watch animatics, animation memes, art channels, or follow artists on here or on Instagram and Twitter if you want to be inspired, or just observe.

Have a certain series you keep putting off? Watch! It! Netflix/Hulu that shit. Or cable TV works too.

Go on Wikipedia and just go on an adventure. Click from link to link and see where it takes you. Learn some weird new facts!

Read a new book.

Read the news/watch the news.

Write about a certain topic that you're absolutely fascinated about.

Watch movies!

Join a club/interest group. You can do this online too and it'll help meet people with similar interests as you. You can make new friends this way.

Give your friends a call/text. Having conversations will keep you occupied.

Self love aka masturbate. Or have (safe) sex with someone you trust!

Workout

Do some makeup/skincare routine. Even if you think you look bad just commit to practicing.

Sometimes it's just funny to go through and read some Reddit threads so be safe when surfing on there.

Stretch and move around! Dance if you wanna!

Do your hair/experiment in some new styles, maybe even dye it if you feel daring.

Have an icon you stan? Stan HARDER.

Watch iconic vine/rare vine compilations until you can memorize them.

Clean out your phone contacts of people that are irrelevant/toxic!! Out of sight out of mind! Don't hang on to them if they did you wrong. All the text conversations will just make you feel worse!

Actually cook your favorite food, cooking it will make you more dedicated to eating it and give you more of an appreciation for it.

Organize your closet.

Organize anything in your room/closet. Throw away things that you don't need or are too old to use.

Start collecting things, stuffed animals, pins, snowglobes, you name it.

Pinterest is addictive lowkey so try that if you're into that kind of stuff.

Write! Write a new story, write poetry, write about your feelings, write a letter, write fanfiction, express yourself.

Use Duolingo to try and study a new language to learn. (The owl will harass tf outta your email though but as long as you do like 5 minutes a day he won't bother.)

That's about all I can think of but feel free to add more for activities to dedicate your time to.

If you need to, because of your self image, don't go and stand in front of mirrors. If I stand in front of a mirror too long I'll end up scrutinizing myself and find a flaw after flaw. If you are specifically insecure about something with your body, look up models who have the same thing! Like if you're insecure about having vitiligo, look up Winnie Harlow! She's gorgeous! If you're insecure about being chubby, look up plus sized models! If you have a tooth gap, there's plenty of people like you! You don't have to feel ugly because of that when you have these awesome models rocking what they got.

Vent. You can vent to your friends, family, or even online. There are apps that allow you to vent anonymously to others without the fear of judgement. But if you can't do that, take a pen/pencil and write something down in your notebook. Though don't reread it to keep drowning in the negativity, once you write it, shut it. You can do the same on Google Docs online, once you write down everything, delete it. Don't keep trying to fuel your negative thoughts and bitterness, get your rant over with and be done. It's like a fresh start. (Plus on my Instagram spam account I always feel really silly looking at my old rant posts, so I usually delete stuff afterwards when I'm not feeling so in my feelings).

Don't expect recovery to be in a straight line. You'll have amazing days and also have extremely shitty days. Recovery isn't hoping to never experience shitty days, recovery is being able to feel the strength on those shitty days and know that they'll pass, and with each storm you'll be stronger than before. Don't push yourself to be flawless, because shit happens. But you'll make it through. And that's what matters.

And last but not least, seek emergency help if you feel like you're dangerously close to ending your life due to pain. Call the suicide hotline for support, because the pain can ease soon if you ask for the help that you need and deserve.

Not everyone that reads this is going to be like "wow this really helped me cope with my depression/mental illness!" But my goal was to at least try. It may not work for everyone unfortunately, but I hope that anyone dealing with a mental illness is on the road to recovering. Because I know how it feels. It feels sucky as fuck. But if this helps even just one person, then that's enough. I hope everyone has at least a decent day, and I hope that everyone's pain eases soon.