#even drugs dont alleviate the constant boredom

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for the past few months ive noticed this constant impatience i have whenever im talking to someone or working or lying in bed or on a night out or doing literally anything at all my body and brain is constantly buzzing and jittering desperate to move on to the next thing but then i catch myself and remember there is no next thing. this is just what is happening right now with no idea of what will come after and there is nothing to look forward to or be excited or impatient for. i dont know what it is