#ethan speaks

[brain--rott]

"everybody experiences that" says mother who has the same symptom of the same mental illness

[artisticdysfunction]

a really weird sentiment i've seen come about is the idea that nontraumagenic systems have no need to go to therapy or seek professional care for their mental health.

someone's system not being caused by trauma, does not make that person immune to having mental health problems. it also does not make them immune from experiencing trauma after their system has already formed.

a nontraumagenic system going to a therapist is not them stealing resources. it is them using resources.

the fault of those resources being limited is directly the fault of the system for not providing enough. it is not the fault of people who use, need, or want, those resources. we should not have to ration.

[sgt-garrison]

garrison perhaps you would like a chocolate cupcake

Well, look’a that.. can’t say no if yer offerin’. Be a damn rude thing, wouldn’t it?

Thank ya darlin’. Got a sweet tooth I jus’ can’t get rid of, ‘seems… s’chocolate, right?

[ask-lieutthiha]

(Hi, are you okay with rp? I didn't see it in your bio so I just wanted to ask)

it's a rp blog!!! plz send me shit i'm begging

[welcomehomemuppets]

Beautiful beautiful people I hope your doing good / okay!! Sorry for the little content but I'm okay!

Anyways here's a pic of all the mayhem babies!!

[theun3mployed]

hello aga1n!

[gaslightgallows]

if you get this, answer with three random facts about yourself and send it to the last seven blogs in your notifs! anon or not, doesn’t matter, let’s get to know the person behind the blog <3

Lol I never know how to answer these things. Hmm...

1) Every partner I've ever had, I've met because of fanfic.

2) I was born on my maternal grandfather's birthday.

3) My favourite vampires are played by Canadian actors.

[je-suis-problematique]

Triggering topics under the cut.

It's just another one of those nights, you know? When everything is just a little bit too smothering and a little bit too heavy and it's starting to become kind of unbearable. We seem to be having those nights often lately, but what really hit a nerve this time was this reel I saw on Instagram. It was meant for people considering suicide and, as usual, it was someone trying to convince you not to do it. This guy holds up a sign and it reads something along the lines of "picture your loved ones clearing out your room and reliving their memories of you, thinking how lucky they were to have gotten to meet you".

I'm sorry, what? The closest person to us lives in another country. The ones clearing out our room if we kill ourselves will be our ex who would probably celebrate our death and MAYBE our social worker. There will be no happy, tearful reminiscing of positive memories there. I doubt our ex feels anything positive when it comes to us at this point and our social worker will probably just be disappointed in us or himself for not catching the signs sooner or something. Nobody will be feeling lucky to have met us, nobody will be sad for having lost us. The single person who might actually mourn our loss won't even be able to attend the funeral if there will even be one.

So don't give me this "you will be missed" bullshit because it's just not true. Nobody in our immediate surroundings is going to give a single fuck if we actually ended up killing ourselves.

– Ethan

[brain--rott]

i am not casual. i want to drink your blood

[artisticdysfunction]

"i have no idea how you could ever consider yourself traumaendo so i hit the books about DID research and read this and that-"

have you ever considered talking to me? perhaps having a conversation with me in DMs about my own experiences, thoughts, beliefs, and so on?

the traumagenic part is our DID. the nontraumagenic part, is not that, and you're not gonna find answers about that truly in DID research. however you can talk to me like a normal person and ask me about my own experiences.

[sgt-garrison]

can picture ghost & jeanz hugging each other & crying like children at the thought of garrison leaving them for fucking shadow company 💔💔

Make this canon NEOW

[ask-lieutthiha]

(Sorry, my previous question was dumb, I just wanted to make sure)

(I love your ghost askblog<3)

thanks so much!!!

[swallowthebanjo]

okay so i called about a top surgery consult today and i've been absolutely ecstatic all day since. they said they'll get back to me in a day or two for scheduling which is so surreal?

i never thought i would be here. ive been out since 2015 and now im 24, been on T for five years, and im /finally/ in a place where i can do this and i can't believe it so i made a list of things im excited for

standing up straight

the feeling of my shirt against my skin

sleeping shirtless in the summer

crop tops & opaque materials

torso tattoos

cool scars

feeling my lovers hands against my chest (even if there isnt much feeling)

swimming topless (after the appropriate amount of time post op)

deep necked shirts and button downs /slutty

loving myself more

growing my hair out (passing thing)

my collection of post op shirts

weight off my chest jokes

no more negative associations with 💞boobs💞

going up and down stairs, running, jumping, climbing around on rocks and trees

pec workouts (after the appropriate amount of time post op)

looking at myself

this is literally the best thing ever. i had to share this somewhere, i can't keep it in ive been feeling like crying all day /pos and it feels like i've regained the pride i once had for myself, the joy of being who i am, the satisfying feeling of this is it, my final push to being so completely selfmade with the help of those who love me. i'm glad that i'm here, i'm glad i stuck around long enough to be here, im so young and im so happy to be alive. anyways

[theun3mployed]

it's so awful amazing that Showfall has managed to partner with Mark!

[pocketwatch-system]

My face when no one calls me Ethan (I didn’t tell them to)