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[ask-missmargiezelle]

Who are you still close to from the circus if anyone? do you ever talk about what happened

“I guess the short answer is no, to both questions. Even before everything happened, I never really, um... had the chance to make friends with the others. But... I don’t mind talking about it, if you wish.”

“It left me, all of us, with...nothing. No answers, no closure, nothing but hurt and confusion and ash. Perhaps that’s part of the reason I haven’t brought it up with them... how do you even find words for someone who has lost so much...?”

“It was a right shock to see him again — I thought he was dead...! Murro wasn’t there when... everything happened — so I don’t know how much he found out. In any case; he doesn’t ask, and neither do I.”

“He... terrifies me, so much it makes me feel sick. There’s something so horribly familiar about him, but I — I can’t think about it for too long, or else I...”

Margaretha trails off. Takes a deep breath.

“...The only reason I know he must have known me before the fire is that he — he called me Natalie. I haven’t given that name to anyone since... the accident. I have no idea why he’s familiar, or if it’s just my imagination playing a cruel trick on me. Whether I recognize him, or if... if I recognize the blood and pain and terror and — he’s just the deliverer, or... both.

I... I try not to think about it.”

“I can’t imagine what he found out, but... I’ll never forget the way he looked at me when I saw him again.”

“I’ve just been avoiding him since. Oh, but— if you see him today...”